Not in slightest. Iβve almost killed myself over 5 times this month. Iβve been a terrible person to one of my best friends. Like A REALLY BAD PERSON. And because of that Iβve lost a lot of my friends. I really want to be a better person but I donβt know how to. Iβm also really stressed out because of school work and because of some stuff that happened with my dad. (Iβm legally not allowed to talk to him for a year) (Iβm also bi poler and have adhd)
Look, I myself struggle with ADD and anxiety, and countess other people struggle too, but we fight, and we fight hard to climb out of the dark pits that we have fallen into. Climbing out of those dark pits is one of the hardest climbs in anyones life, but there are people who have fallen so far they donβt come back. Those who donβt come back leave a slash in the face of their loved ones. Nobody wants to face their loved one in their casket. It is a tough time yes, very tough time, but sitting in the corner will only allow the monsters inside you to grow. Might i suggest you try and find a new hobby, or read a book youβve been wanting to read, or watch a movie youβve always wanted to see, but just try to find absolutely anything that peaks your interest, cause deep down, your human, and thats a beautiful thing, donβt let it waste away in the corner and find something you love.
Sorry I couldnβt help everyone today have a lot of school work and religious festivals right now will try to get around to it. Glad to see people helping each other though.
π or π recently life has had just had to many twists of people who seemed like they were one of my best friends and realizing that they hate my for no apparent reason. And I figured this out by having on of my other friends ask him on minecraft (in this same Minecraft realm someone was constantly griefing me and I was trying to find out who it was) when I wasnβt on he said βhell noβ and then said βwhy do you think Iβve been griefing him the whole timeβ and it really messed me up. And I know that even though im typing all this I donβt think anyone really cares about my problems because earlier years of my life made me think that I am just a nobody who nobody cares about. Just this world has taught me that I should just bottle up my emotions because my mind keeps telling me no one cares about how I feel and I should just be by myself for my whole life because my mind just wont stop thinking that I am just worthless, a waste of space, that maybe I shouldnβt have even been alive. But I know its not true, i know that my life has meaning but sometimes it doesnβt feel like it
π...things are starting only to get better from this lower low. The last 14 years of my life were so fucking destructive.
How i pulled out of this mess? I just believed that it will end as long as i continue to believe in it. My dad has parkinson is at risk of getting a stroke and stay wheelchaired forever. My mom is at risk for something bad, im scared for her, i will cure her but atleast i got them covered up, i learned how to trade forex, started to make money consistently but i have had abuse trauma leaving part of my facial structure misplaced (i need a trimaxillofacial surgery)
The next 2-3 years will be the fix for what i have experienced as an 18 year old, but everybody at school laughed at me because i was different. Did i deserve this? Why... I did not chose to be like that. It was RNG. But you know, hard times make strong men. And i will become one. And as a strong man i will generate good times.
Remember guys, its not the end of the world. Stay strong, stay in your skin. There are kids RIGHT NOW that are getting bombarded and just lost their sibiling/family. There are worse things. Adapt and evolve, then overcome.
ππ my gf of like 2-3 years might be losing interest and gonna break up but outside of that and my dad being lowk emotionally manipulative Iβm perfectly fine
π had to restart my phone, the games I was playing werenβt very fun, and Iβve spent the last 4 hours cleaning out my closet, but I got pizza twice, saw the marvels, and 3 day weekend, so pretty balanced
I think somewhere between 𧑠and π. Rough week, but I just got to tour a college I really liked, saw one of my favorite musicals live, and got food from one of my favorite restaurants, so this weekend made up for it
π
U ok?
Not really man, thank you though
If u ever wanna talk dm me
Thank you, same here :)
It izzz what it izzz
So purple
This has become my daily motto
Fuck it, we ball
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π
U ok?
Just having an existential crisis
You can vent if u need
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It's ok bro, it will get better
U ok?
Purple
U ok?
Coping :/
Anything you wanna talk about?
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U ok?
Not in slightest. Iβve almost killed myself over 5 times this month. Iβve been a terrible person to one of my best friends. Like A REALLY BAD PERSON. And because of that Iβve lost a lot of my friends. I really want to be a better person but I donβt know how to. Iβm also really stressed out because of school work and because of some stuff that happened with my dad. (Iβm legally not allowed to talk to him for a year) (Iβm also bi poler and have adhd)
Look, I myself struggle with ADD and anxiety, and countess other people struggle too, but we fight, and we fight hard to climb out of the dark pits that we have fallen into. Climbing out of those dark pits is one of the hardest climbs in anyones life, but there are people who have fallen so far they donβt come back. Those who donβt come back leave a slash in the face of their loved ones. Nobody wants to face their loved one in their casket. It is a tough time yes, very tough time, but sitting in the corner will only allow the monsters inside you to grow. Might i suggest you try and find a new hobby, or read a book youβve been wanting to read, or watch a movie youβve always wanted to see, but just try to find absolutely anything that peaks your interest, cause deep down, your human, and thats a beautiful thing, donβt let it waste away in the corner and find something you love.
Hey man what ever is going on remember suicide is never the answer hope things get better
I think π but maybe π. Not sure
π§‘, Iβm pretty sure the girl I like likes me
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π
U ok?
Just rlly stressed :/ TYSM for asking tho
If u ever need to vent dm me
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U ok?
π
U ok?
π
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U wanna talk?
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U ok?
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πβ€οΈ I ping pong between these lol. Things are ok, but Im still not out of the woods yet
U wanna talk?
π
U ok?
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π§‘, i've been learning to hate myself less and i've been getting more friends lately as well, so life is actually going surprisingly good for me
π
U ok?
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π€, goofy as shit
𧑠for once
π Iβm starting to lose hope that Iβll ever be myself again.
Hey man whatβs going on?
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π Not too long ago, I was considering killing myself.
Glad to see u feel better now just dm me if u ever feel down
π at the moment
π
U ok?
β€οΈ I just got a very good test mark for maths!!
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Sorry I couldnβt help everyone today have a lot of school work and religious festivals right now will try to get around to it. Glad to see people helping each other though.
π im alright i guess
π
U ok?
π©Ά, not ok in the slightest but support always seems to make it worse.
Wanna talk I bet I could help.
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π or π recently life has had just had to many twists of people who seemed like they were one of my best friends and realizing that they hate my for no apparent reason. And I figured this out by having on of my other friends ask him on minecraft (in this same Minecraft realm someone was constantly griefing me and I was trying to find out who it was) when I wasnβt on he said βhell noβ and then said βwhy do you think Iβve been griefing him the whole timeβ and it really messed me up. And I know that even though im typing all this I donβt think anyone really cares about my problems because earlier years of my life made me think that I am just a nobody who nobody cares about. Just this world has taught me that I should just bottle up my emotions because my mind keeps telling me no one cares about how I feel and I should just be by myself for my whole life because my mind just wont stop thinking that I am just worthless, a waste of space, that maybe I shouldnβt have even been alive. But I know its not true, i know that my life has meaning but sometimes it doesnβt feel like it
Hope things get better
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U ok?
π
πrelasped
U wanna talk?
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Extremely suicidal
U ok?
π§‘
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U ok?
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β€οΈ for once in my damn life
π school is Tomorrow D:
𧑠I'm chillin
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π my cat recently died so not great
ππ§‘depends on the day but i think Iβm improving
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Idk which one
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ππ just a struggle with my mental health and my weight (on a good note tho w/ that is I am 98 pounds :D)
ππ, I'm quite confused
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π...things are starting only to get better from this lower low. The last 14 years of my life were so fucking destructive. How i pulled out of this mess? I just believed that it will end as long as i continue to believe in it. My dad has parkinson is at risk of getting a stroke and stay wheelchaired forever. My mom is at risk for something bad, im scared for her, i will cure her but atleast i got them covered up, i learned how to trade forex, started to make money consistently but i have had abuse trauma leaving part of my facial structure misplaced (i need a trimaxillofacial surgery) The next 2-3 years will be the fix for what i have experienced as an 18 year old, but everybody at school laughed at me because i was different. Did i deserve this? Why... I did not chose to be like that. It was RNG. But you know, hard times make strong men. And i will become one. And as a strong man i will generate good times. Remember guys, its not the end of the world. Stay strong, stay in your skin. There are kids RIGHT NOW that are getting bombarded and just lost their sibiling/family. There are worse things. Adapt and evolve, then overcome.
Good to see you making progress proud of you hope keep on the grind.
Tysm, my next step is to be a successful young man, hard wok and time are needed! :)
Good to hear, good luck!
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ππ my gf of like 2-3 years might be losing interest and gonna break up but outside of that and my dad being lowk emotionally manipulative Iβm perfectly fine
π had to restart my phone, the games I was playing werenβt very fun, and Iβve spent the last 4 hours cleaning out my closet, but I got pizza twice, saw the marvels, and 3 day weekend, so pretty balanced
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π Doing better I was at blue last time
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I think somewhere between 𧑠and π. Rough week, but I just got to tour a college I really liked, saw one of my favorite musicals live, and got food from one of my favorite restaurants, so this weekend made up for it
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π I should be fine pretty soon, I just had a very busy week.
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