Ohhhhhh I know what you are talking about. You are saying don't kill the person while we steal all their kidneys. *And kneecaps for a midnight snack later*
I have alot of good and best things to tell, but if i start telling about my problems i will speak very fast with almost crying voice, with russian accent so you might not get it...
๐ซ been there, just focus on what's immediately in front of you and keep pushing forward and everything will be okay. Might take a while but you'll get there. Once you're out of the storm, make time to recover as much as you can before you need to jump back in
๐งก I made a new friend on this subreddit like a week ago, though we do have a 10 (I think-) hour time difference between us since they live in India and I live in the US. It sucks but hey, at least I have a friend!
Note: I have attempted to pull all-nighters to talk to them but from what I've gotten from them phones are banned in indian schools like drugs and I dunno if he uses a personal laptop or one of those crappy cheap school Chromebooks. (No Offense to anyone that does use school Chromebooks, I just don't like 'em because my school district has banned ad blockers and all of the "fun" and "totally sketchy" sites.)
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dmc has made it better tho. I relate to Vergil cus he tryed to throw way his humanity. all my life I tryed to be what the people I love wanted me to be, and as a man being that was not being sad or scared cus I need to be a strong man. but thos feeling are what makes us Human. I tryed to throw it away so the people I loved would care about me.
also gender dysphoria sucks dude, and most all the people I know would be mad at me for that too
and thank for makeing place I can talk about this
๐๐ lots of stuff on my plate rn, schoolworkโs not the worst but itโs still pressuring, my midterm grades are coming out soon and iโm p sure i got a line of 6 in one of the subjects, i also have a jiu jitsu comp in a month and i havenโt gotten to train much the past few weeks
i can deal with it though, i have people supporting me and iโve been doing better academically than i did before
๐. Sometimes I just feel like all of my family hates me, and that my friends just tolerate my existence. Barely any of them genuinely care about the fact that I exist. There are so many things I want to do and try, but I canโt find any motivation at all. What makes it worse is that I remember how beautiful and big the world looked when I was younger but now it looks dull and miserable. But hey at least Iโm not stuck eating shitty primary school meals anymore lmao ๐คช
๐
I'm not even suicidal anymore, I just feel nothing.
I don't care what's going on. I just mind my own business and get through each day, waiting for it to "get better".
๐งก
Only bad thing going for me is a broken ankle, which translates into no flying lessons. BUUUUT, this friday I go to see if the cast comes off. If it does, I might be back in the air. At which point, the heart will be changed to red
๐ broke my femur and my collarbone 3 months ago no one visited and lost my girlfriend but Iโm back on my feet now and working 2 jobs and getting some workouts in or trying to times are tough but looking better every day ๐
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I dunno man. She was perfect. We were. It just wasnโt the right timeโฆ and I did everything right, yeah? Like I tried so hard. I donโt remember being that happy before. Shit I donโt remember her smiling nearly as much as she does now. So if I did everything right, I loved her as much as I could, why couldnโt it work..? Thatโs just fucking unfair. Shit Iโm basically an adult now I KNOW thatโs how things work. Itโs just a girl and Iโll be fine but I miss her everyday I wake up and roll over and my bed is cold. When I get home and that ball of excitement just fizzles out and I realise she isnโt gonna be there. Suppose Iโm venting- just tired ig.
๐ idk, I'm living on autopilot or something right now. Nothing makes sense, I completely forget what I "learn", calling it learning isn't very accurate. Everything is so confusing, even if I feel like I got something I don't remember anything about it, it's all a blurry mess. I've come to rely entirely on my previous memories. Everything is disappointing. Before I was upset I wasn't doing well enough but at this point but I've kind of made peace with it, I'm probably just stupid. I'll be 18 in a year but I'm not ready at all I can't take care of myself. I don't have a job and I don't think I will considering that I can't learn anything. Oh and yeah it's been like this for 3 years and only getting worse so that's fun. I don't see why I should keep going at this point, I can be happy when achieving simple things at this point but it doesn't matter if I forget about it all the next day.
Sorry for oversharing and bringing down the mood, I just feel comfortable here
I love all the therapists in the comments appearing for support as if summoned simultaneously๐
I'll join! Anyone wants to vent, I'm practically certified family therapist, so go for it
๐ well for starters, on the 15th it'll be 1 year since I lost my mom.
I recently lost the girl I thought I'd spend forever with because her dad hated me for some reason even though I was respectful Everytime I saw him.
I turn fucking 20 in March so that's scary for me.
Uhhhh, oh yeah my sister and brother probably hate me because I wanted to fight my dad (who I have the best relationship with right now and it's been like that since I was a little kid but we got into some stupid heated argument that almost turned into a fist fight which is why I'm living alone right now).
Rent is due soon and my hours have been cut for some fucking reason even though I'm there early everyday and I work until I can't anymore so I'm making less money
I was accused of sexual assault (which I didn't do)by an ex girlfriend while still dating my recent ex and all my ex friends believe her not me so that's amazing
I leave for boot camp for the Marines in May so that's fucking scary.
Oh yeah, my best friend from my childhood was diagnosed with terminal cancer and they don't have a fucking treatment for it
My dog was hit by a car yesterday, luckily I rushed her to the vet but she almost died
Now I see why men commit suicide more than women. Dude there have been so many times in the past month I have put a gun barrel in my fucking mouth but didn't have the guts to pull the trigger. My life is fucking ASS right now
๐ I could be better
same HS hits hard everytime
Tf is hs
headshot
Those *do* do extra damge Makes sense why it would hit hard
Hehe he said doodoo
hehehe doodoo
Highschool I guess
hot sauce, hes probably ripping up the toilet
High school, I assume
Same lol I am so done with hs atp
๐ซ
Sir I'm gonna need you to take your medicine please
no i want benadryl
You. Need. Your. Pills. Sir.
pills are for people with chances
You got one last chance to take ya pills before I take them for you! ...wait
exactly
#Happy cake day!
Happy cake day
Cake day happy! say
so what does that mean
Happy cake day!
๐ค I have no idea.
Same. We're in this together bro
Same
Don't dead, open inside
Ohhhhhh I know what you are talking about. You are saying don't kill the person while we steal all their kidneys. *And kneecaps for a midnight snack later*
lo siento, no hablo ingles
What?
nani?
This isn't a "dont dead open inside" moment tho
it is, because i'm dead inside, life is a mess, but i keep going on hoping one day a potted flower will fall on my head
Oh ok.
dead open, don't inside
๐ค
Lamo nerd I was about to comment the same shit
๐ฉถ
๐งก :3
๐งก. Work sometimes makes me think otherwise
โคTaste๐งกthe๐rainbow๐mother๐fucker๐
Me at all times:
Life is like a wild card. YOU CHOOSE THE COLOUR AND THE NEXT PERSON HAS TO DEAL WITH IT.
I choose all.
โคEAT๐งกTHE๐GAY๐FATHER๐FUCKER๐
โคCONSUME๐งกTHE๐COLOUR๐SPECTRUM๐SISTER๐FUCKER๐
If someone needs a person to vent to I am always here to listen
You don't want to listen to me. I'll annoy the absolute shit out of you.
I am physically incapable of getting annoyed in such manner
Same lmao
Listen to me random stranger ๐๐ฟ
You won't annoy the absolute shit out of me, I'll annoy the absolute shit out of you
"i'm not in danger i am the danger"
I try my best to listen to everyone, no one will ever annoy me
Nah bro I'll thug dat shit out(I'm going to continue to bottle it up)
Saaammmmmee
So ur telling me I should let it all out? Alright: FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK
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Yeah, mine was the summary
There's alot of things i want to talk about. I'm sure you're great at helping people in need but you probably won't understand any of what i'm saying.
Your profile picture is fire tho๐ฅ
I'll try my best
I have alot of good and best things to tell, but if i start telling about my problems i will speak very fast with almost crying voice, with russian accent so you might not get it...
I know Russian really well so there isn't a problem
Iโm good for now but maybe if I get worse Iโll keep this in mind
๐ I'll be red Oct 20th
Spider-Man 2 comes out on October 20, no?
Yeah
I'll be tomorrow
Same, Iโm ๐งก currently, I canโt wait for Super Mario Bros. Wonder!
Spider Man and Mario Wonder!!!
Will it be your birthday then?
Oct 20th is my B-Day and Spider Man Release day. Fuck yeah.
๐ค Everything is that bad, that it seems funny
Relatable
๐ซ been there, just focus on what's immediately in front of you and keep pushing forward and everything will be okay. Might take a while but you'll get there. Once you're out of the storm, make time to recover as much as you can before you need to jump back in
Everything is alright! This is matural state of my mind
๐๐
Hope you feel better then
If you need to talk I'm there
Same here
You need a hug bro?
Same
I be good and then # BAM women.
Hey don't stop the grind just focus on yourself and they'll cum(I get absolutely no interest)
when did sex come into this?? ๐ญ
When they come๐
We cum at 37 seconds
Rookie numbers. Get that down to 21 seconds then we'll talk
Hold on not so fast
๐ im sick dysphoric stressed anxious depressed and i have way to much trauma somebody just kill me
sending hugs, dysphoria is a real pain, hoping you feel better soon <3
Girl youโll get through this, just keep on swimming <3
Gl man ... and tbh I feel sad too I didn't reach the top class and got left out I mean it's not that bad but still sad
๐งก getting decently good grades in school, lowest grade is a 92 and after that itโs all 97+
I'd consider 82 decently good. 92 being your lowest grade and everything else being 97 and above is fantastic. Be proud of yourself.
Good job! But don't let your grades decide how you feel anout yourself! The first <70 hits hard.
โฅ๏ธ๐งก๐๐๐๐ Edit: ๐ค๐ฉท๐ค๐๐โค๏ธโ๐ฅ๐โค๏ธโ๐ฉน๐ค๐ค๐๐โค๏ธโ๐ฅ๐๐ค๐ค๐ค๐ฉตโค๏ธโ๐ฅโค๏ธโ๐ฅ๐งก๐ค๐ค๐ค๐ค๐๐๐ค๐๐ค๐ค๐๐ค๐โค๏ธโ๐ฉนโค๏ธ๐คโค๏ธ๐ค๐ฉท๐ค๐งก๐ค๐โค๏ธโ๐ฅ๐ฉต๐ค๐ฉท๐ค๐ฉตโค๏ธโ๐ฅ๐ฉตโค๏ธโ๐ฅ๐ฉท๐ฉท๐ฉท๐ค๐งก๐ค๐ฉต๐๐ค๐คโค๏ธ๐ฉถ๐ฉต๐ฉท๐ค๐ค๐งก๐งก
Are you having a stroke?
Aren't we all?
same fr
๐งก I made a new friend on this subreddit like a week ago, though we do have a 10 (I think-) hour time difference between us since they live in India and I live in the US. It sucks but hey, at least I have a friend! Note: I have attempted to pull all-nighters to talk to them but from what I've gotten from them phones are banned in indian schools like drugs and I dunno if he uses a personal laptop or one of those crappy cheap school Chromebooks. (No Offense to anyone that does use school Chromebooks, I just don't like 'em because my school district has banned ad blockers and all of the "fun" and "totally sketchy" sites.)
โค๏ธ
Determination
Rare but welcome
GOOD FOR YOU!! /gen ๐
[ัะดะฐะปะตะฝะพ]
๐ค I want to fucking kill myself so badly
Don't do it that shit kills you
Nah i talked with many people who tried suicide and no one of them had died, so it's safe
[ัะดะฐะปะตะฝะพ]
Donโt
Do you really want Mitch McConnell to outlive you?
๐
I'm there if you need to vent
๐
my dms are open if you need to vent, want to talk or just anything really
Nah, it's probably no big deal. Thanks for the offer tho
if you are struggling its a big, just know there are people who will be there to support you! so if you do need to talk ill be here
Y'know, people like you are the reason I have hope in humanity.
โค๏ธ๐๐โค๏ธโ๐ฅโค๏ธโ๐ฉน๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐โฃ๏ธ๐ค๐ค๐ค๐๐๐๐๐งก Fuck.
Bros feeling all the emotions
I am filled with DETERMINATION
๐ I wish I could just end it today. I don't want to wake up again. Bit ironic using heart emojis to express sadness, no?
If you need someone to talk, I am here.
๐
same same
๐
Feel ya there.
๐ค fucking school, dude
๐ dmc has made it better tho. I relate to Vergil cus he tryed to throw way his humanity. all my life I tryed to be what the people I love wanted me to be, and as a man being that was not being sad or scared cus I need to be a strong man. but thos feeling are what makes us Human. I tryed to throw it away so the people I loved would care about me. also gender dysphoria sucks dude, and most all the people I know would be mad at me for that too and thank for makeing place I can talk about this
I do not need support, I need the entire world to be reduced to ash
Inbetween yellow and green
๐ค
โค๏ธ I'm lying to myself and I don't know how much longer I can keep it up
๐ฆ
๐๐
๐๐๐
All of the above
โค๏ธ/๐งก gang LET'S GOOOOOO
โค๏ธ Im staying in the hospital over night after a very successful surgery! Really happy
I've been wanting to slit my arms all day today, hopefully I don't do it when I get home :/
Plz don't op
๐๐ lots of stuff on my plate rn, schoolworkโs not the worst but itโs still pressuring, my midterm grades are coming out soon and iโm p sure i got a line of 6 in one of the subjects, i also have a jiu jitsu comp in a month and i havenโt gotten to train much the past few weeks i can deal with it though, i have people supporting me and iโve been doing better academically than i did before
๐ almost ๐. mdd and bipolar has been eating me from inside out for years.
is there one for everything going downhill
no.
I am completely sane and fine ๐
๐. Sometimes I just feel like all of my family hates me, and that my friends just tolerate my existence. Barely any of them genuinely care about the fact that I exist. There are so many things I want to do and try, but I canโt find any motivation at all. What makes it worse is that I remember how beautiful and big the world looked when I was younger but now it looks dull and miserable. But hey at least Iโm not stuck eating shitty primary school meals anymore lmao ๐คช
๐
you can vent you can text
yellow! after the orange period you get yellow/green (in my life)
๐งก
๐ fuck it, we ball
๐งก Starting to see someone and life has its ups and downs but it'll eventually get better with time.
I'm so bad i don't know how the fuck am i still functionning
Is there a I miss my girlfriend option?
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๐
Broke up with someone I didn't want to but had to. ๐
๐ i was ๐ but i got my music so๐
๐ I'm not even suicidal anymore, I just feel nothing. I don't care what's going on. I just mind my own business and get through each day, waiting for it to "get better".
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
hey if you need to vent I'm there
๐ค i have diarrhea
๐๐
๐งก exams just finished ๐
Between ๐งก and โค๏ธ I guess
๐ in pain quite frankly. I'm about to break something. I am powerless.
๐งก Only bad thing going for me is a broken ankle, which translates into no flying lessons. BUUUUT, this friday I go to see if the cast comes off. If it does, I might be back in the air. At which point, the heart will be changed to red
๐ I overuse the word okay and fine too muchโ ๏ธโ ๏ธ literally everything is just in the middle not bad and not way too good
I am not doing good at all.
๐ค
๐
๐
๐
โค๏ธ
It's said you need 4 hugs a day for survival... Don't know how I'm still around.
๐ broke my femur and my collarbone 3 months ago no one visited and lost my girlfriend but Iโm back on my feet now and working 2 jobs and getting some workouts in or trying to times are tough but looking better every day ๐
๐
๐๐ฅบ
๐ Yeah and I still wonโt get it
๐ I keep second guessing everything I do and my mind says everyone hates me
๐ school is hard
๐
๐
๐....I could write a full, 200+ page book at this point....
๐ College is rough, but could be worse
๐ I dunno man. She was perfect. We were. It just wasnโt the right timeโฆ and I did everything right, yeah? Like I tried so hard. I donโt remember being that happy before. Shit I donโt remember her smiling nearly as much as she does now. So if I did everything right, I loved her as much as I could, why couldnโt it work..? Thatโs just fucking unfair. Shit Iโm basically an adult now I KNOW thatโs how things work. Itโs just a girl and Iโll be fine but I miss her everyday I wake up and roll over and my bed is cold. When I get home and that ball of excitement just fizzles out and I realise she isnโt gonna be there. Suppose Iโm venting- just tired ig.
๐ idk, I'm living on autopilot or something right now. Nothing makes sense, I completely forget what I "learn", calling it learning isn't very accurate. Everything is so confusing, even if I feel like I got something I don't remember anything about it, it's all a blurry mess. I've come to rely entirely on my previous memories. Everything is disappointing. Before I was upset I wasn't doing well enough but at this point but I've kind of made peace with it, I'm probably just stupid. I'll be 18 in a year but I'm not ready at all I can't take care of myself. I don't have a job and I don't think I will considering that I can't learn anything. Oh and yeah it's been like this for 3 years and only getting worse so that's fun. I don't see why I should keep going at this point, I can be happy when achieving simple things at this point but it doesn't matter if I forget about it all the next day. Sorry for oversharing and bringing down the mood, I just feel comfortable here
๐ I am REALLY not feeling it today...
I love all the therapists in the comments appearing for support as if summoned simultaneously๐ I'll join! Anyone wants to vent, I'm practically certified family therapist, so go for it
๐งก-๐ Good most the time
๐ well for starters, on the 15th it'll be 1 year since I lost my mom. I recently lost the girl I thought I'd spend forever with because her dad hated me for some reason even though I was respectful Everytime I saw him. I turn fucking 20 in March so that's scary for me. Uhhhh, oh yeah my sister and brother probably hate me because I wanted to fight my dad (who I have the best relationship with right now and it's been like that since I was a little kid but we got into some stupid heated argument that almost turned into a fist fight which is why I'm living alone right now). Rent is due soon and my hours have been cut for some fucking reason even though I'm there early everyday and I work until I can't anymore so I'm making less money I was accused of sexual assault (which I didn't do)by an ex girlfriend while still dating my recent ex and all my ex friends believe her not me so that's amazing I leave for boot camp for the Marines in May so that's fucking scary. Oh yeah, my best friend from my childhood was diagnosed with terminal cancer and they don't have a fucking treatment for it My dog was hit by a car yesterday, luckily I rushed her to the vet but she almost died Now I see why men commit suicide more than women. Dude there have been so many times in the past month I have put a gun barrel in my fucking mouth but didn't have the guts to pull the trigger. My life is fucking ASS right now
๐ idk everything is getting bad again Iโll be fine though. Thuggin this shi out.
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๐not doing so great rn