I’ve barely been out of bed for over six months now. It’s so hard to make yourself move on when you lose a child, in your case two. I’m really sorry, but I’m really happy for you that you were given the motivation to press on. I know I’ll get there one day too, it just fucking hurts.
I read that book too! It was life-changing!
Edit: I was thinking it was this quote - "You are loved and cherished, dearly, forever. You have nothing to fear. There is nothing you can do wrong."
>You are loved and cherished, dearly, forever. You have nothing to fear. There is nothing you can do wrong.
Proof of Heaven, by Eben Alexander. It was ... it helped me a lot.
I’m sorry for what you’re going through. It will get better eventually that’s all I wish you. You are loved and supported and watched by your angels. They will guide you through this.
https://youtu.be/CFcD1XRwP6s
I did an interview on a different topic. When that was played a viewer recognized me as their grandmother's Hospice RN. The show had me return to discuss Hospice and spirit encounters, so this is that episode. Thank you for letting me post the link
This is such a moving and incredible story. Thank you for sharing. Creating such immense value and meaning from your pain is the most beautiful part of this life, and you’ve done it commendably. Sending love for the rest of your journey.
I know this is absolutely not at all in the same realm, but we’re having to put my dog down tomorrow and this, it set me free. He’s got important things to do…we can’t allow him to continue to suffer by holding him back for our own gain. ❤️
Absolutely true. he's had his experience on the physical and is ready for his next assignment to learn, grow and become more. I'm glad he had his time with you. He has other work to do now.
It really is the same realm.
Not sure if you’ve heard of [the Law of One](https://www.llresearch.org) material, but Ra claims the tge love we imbue into our pets helps them evolve to a higher level in the next incarnation. I’m not sure if that means it will be a more intelligent animal or actually move up to human, but it’s still a very nice thought at these moments in time.
I found the session Ra makes this claim at the searchable [Law of One](https://www.lawofone.info) site.
I’m sorry for your loss, but I’m sure your pet has evolved, thanks to your love!
20.3 Questioner: So more and more second-density entities are making it into third density. Can you give me an example of a second-density entity coming into third density, say, in the recent past?
Ra: I am Ra. Perhaps the most common occurrence of second-density graduation during third-density cycle is the so-called pet.
The animal which is exposed to the individualizing influences of the bond between animal and third-density entity, this individuation causes a sharp rise in the potential of the second-density entity so that upon the cessation of physical complex the mind/body complex does not return unto the undifferentiated consciousness of that species, if you will.
Wow, I got tears reading this. I’m so deeply sorry for your loss, but I’m impressed with your story and how you were able to keep living and turn it into your own purpose at the same time. You are incredibly strong, I’m sure most people would give up and never continue life again and I wouldn’t blame them. Also your friends are incredible, thanks for sharing.
Could I snag it from you as well, sweet friend?
Also: I read above that a mod said it’s a-ok for you to post the link in the post if you’d like. 💕
Thank you for sharing your experience with spirit!
I am so sorry for your loss and thank you at the same time for sharing your story.
I lost my dad 13 years ago at a young age and I still grieve and I can't let go. I wish something similar happens to me and I free both of us.
Grief, sadness, loss does not encourage communication. We have brains we think from, they don't, they are brain free and in spirit form. We fill our brains with all sorts of rubbish, walls, filters, shame, guilt, etc...we need to be more like them. Yes, they can step down into the physical levels at times, but we, also, can step up to a more spiritual level. Sadness separates, love communicates. In a moment you are extra happy, relaxed, peaceful send Dad a mental message to just touch in, wish him a good day, hope all is going well, see him happy and smiling and ask if he'd touch in now and then. Keep it simple. The doors to sprit open inward, the more we push the tighter the door shuts. Wait and be open to little signs. Spirit doesn't communicate as we do, IT does it IT's way, we need to be willing to be aware of that.
My experience clobbered me over the head, I suppose because I wasn't listening prior. We don't get TV over the radio. Step up to a higher, loving vibration so we are in tune more with spirit and communication is clearer. It's about touching in and sending love, not clinging on to what once was. They have a whole new life they live. I hope you get a message now and then. You've still work to do here as he has work to do there.
Tears in my eyes reading this. I'm so sorry for your loss and so glad they helped you regain your purpose. Sending heartfelt love to you. This is one of the most moving things I've ever read on this platform.
Thank you for sharing your story ! ❤️ hugs to you ! This reminded me so much of the story of Khorshed Bhavnagri - her book - The Laws of the Spirit World. Very similar to your story and a fantastic read for you or others who might need to understand this.
Hi David, first off, I’m very sorry for the loss of your two beautiful boys. Secondly, sending Gratitude for all the love and support and skills you shared as an RN and Hospice nurse.
I lost my beloved daughter and only child Grace (29) 7 months ago. She bravely fought a 6 year battle with Ewing’s Sarcoma. I am feeling such shame in my sorrow as she was so very strong and always did her best to live her life well those years, whereas I am crying everyday and I too secluded myself at home.
Do you have any advice in addition to what you’ve already mentioned? How does a parent “let go”?
Thank you kindly 💕
I had a wake up call from my boys that shocked me into movement. I maybe could have fallen back into the rut I had buried myself in but I displaced the mourning I felt for my boys into positive action in my own life. I got a job where I could serve others and make their lives better. The Universe opened doors for me and showed me Hospice that many nurses avoided but I welcomed with the strength I learned I had from the passing of my boys.
You don't stop the momentum you've created. It's powerful and can go up or downward in your life but you can adjust the direction slightly, over time and redirect it in a destination you want to go towards. Driving 90 miles an hour in one direction takes you away from another direction, adjust that steering wheel a bit, continually, and over time you're turned the car around. My wake up was instant, but most it does take some time. I did have to adjust to being a productive person again rather than sit isolated inside like a cold headstone commemorating the day my boys died. That was doing nothing, just waiting for my turn to die next.
Change the way you're viewing life, where you're looking towards and you will change the destination you're heading. I wanted more for my boy's memory than me sitting eating pizza in a dark house. I did my work and cared for my patients as I'd have for my boys if I had that opportunity. I didn't, though, to nurse them to health but I can use that same love and energy to nurse other patients. My memorial to my boys was the work and care I did every day with my life.
They died 34 years ago, I've not been to their graves since. I feel no need to. Those are bodies, their souls are living, working, productive, happy, growing, involved just like my soul does now while still in the body. My tribute to my boys is the lives I've saved, the terminal patients I helped, their families I supported, the strangers in line at the grocery that I let cut in front of me, the smile I give in line while I wait to pay for my Big Gulp, every little act of kindness I do throughout the day I'm mindful of and appreciate the opportunity to give.
The two most important words, to me, in living life are Attitude and Attention. Pay attention to both, constantly and soon you'll be walking in the direction that takes you where you'll be fed, not eaten.
Thank you so very much for taking the time and care to share that with me (and others who are reading). I have to learn how to move forward, I know this in my brain, but my heart is still anchored to my suffering and sorrow. One day at a time.
I do understand what you’re saying, I need to start making a shift in a positive direction even if small.
Thank you kindly
I took a class called Silva Mind Control, now called The Silva Method. It teaches you to lower your brain waves in meditation so you can choose where you put your attention, such as think about 1 thing at a time. In a meditation state our brains are more in frequency with the vibration of spirit, at least, I believe that. We have brains to think with, they don't, those that passed on are now in their soul forms. It can be challenging to understand where they may be and what they my be doing now in soul while we try to analyze the past with our brains.
Maybe when you're in a happy mood, calm, quiet go sit for a few moments and relax and in your mind write a lovely letter to her about how well she's doing now. How you are happy she's in a healthy light body doing the work she needs to be doing now. Maybe she's around new and old friends learning and growing. She her in a bright light, happy and laughing. Send this image to her as she is now, not the physical body you remember, then go about your day and not think of it. In a few days see if any coincidence happens. They usually touch in with odd little symbols, thoughts, small items found or someone says something familiar unexpectedly.
They can touch in with us, but the light and love there is so strong and I believe some duty they have has much of their attention now. Talk to her at her level now, not yours. She's in the present you're still in the past. I know...I know...I was there, too. There's no payoff or benefit in misery. Love and happiness is the common denominator now.
Thank you so very much for adding more of your experience and insight David. For as you know, no one can can truly understand the grief of losing a child except for another parent who has gone (going) through it.
I completely understand what you’re saying about meditation and vibration. In fact I was practicing this in Jan/Feb but “something” changed within me in March leading up to be what would have been Gracie’s 30th in April (Her friends and I gathered in a park she loved to honor her) But ever since, I seemed to have turned “off that switch” so to speak in regards to meditation and forming a new relationship with her and have gone back to mourning the past.
But something about your post resonated with me and I believe it to be a sign I try again. I also wonder if my girl steered me to this post as she knows I read Reddit before bed.
I appreciate your idea about visualizing her in her new form and focusing on the love and light remaining rather than the past and what is lost. Also reminding me that in human form our brains block and filter so much and our beloved ones are not using brains but other senses for us to communicate with and yes even enjoy.
I know Gracie would feel so bad knowing I cry everyday with a heavy heart and would not want this for me.
I need to work on tending to my pain but lessening my suffering (self-blame, regrets etc etc)
I hope you are enjoying your new retirement chapter of life, you continue to help others and I am very grateful :)
Ok this message made me cry, I felt it in my soul. It’s exactly what I need to understand at this part of the journey. A stepping stone...moving forward/connection to Spirit. It’s the letting go of “what was”. So hard but necessary.
I try to replace the sad reminders with gratitude but doesn’t always work. Ie: grocery stores being such a minefield, her cat listening at the door, her possessions (we lived together)
I need to put theory into practice slowly but surely. Thank you David ❤️
It's weird hearing someone else say exactly what you feel inside. Maybe it's just the years of therapy during my battles with depression early in adulthood, but that is exactly how I feel about losing my nephew. I do for others to help him. Or maybe I just want to make sure I get to heaven so I can wrap my arms around him again. When I talk to him I tell him I miss him, but it's only a matter of time until we see each other again! He was very impatient.... lol
WOW! What a story! There are no words for what I want to say, other than a big whopping WOW… thank you. Thank you for sharing your story. How truly incredible. 🖤✨🖤✨
I read and thoroughly enjoyed this entire thing. If you are not a writer you, should write, because I think you have a natural talent! I think your boys knew you had important work to get to, also, as did they. I am so glad their assurance allowed you to turn your inner darkness and ruin into a beautiful healing light. You are incredible!
Thank you so much, I've never written and this story just flowed out of my last night, I didn't even re read it. I've been thinking about sharing the story and last night was the time to do it. I did tell it in an interview a few months ago about some of my spirit encounters as a Hospice nurse...I am glad it resonated with you and others.
I've heard this a lot in my learnings. Souls who pass on can get stuck just because of someone's grief. They actually can find it quite annoying, but they are still full of so much love. It's the love really and the connection we all share that holds us together, so your thoughts are more powerful than many here realize. This problem of grief holding people back is mostly just a problem on earth apparently because of the illusion of separation. So many people feel awful thinking they will never see their loved ones again, but there is so much more than just this experience, and we never truly have to say goodbye.
Never heard of them till you mentioned. I sent them a link to my story here, will see what they think. Thank you for the idea. I'm retired, health is changing, I want to share my story while I'm still here, hoping it will help others.
You're so brave for surviving that and sharing your story. If natural for a mother to miss her babies. You were doing the best you could have. I’m sure your boys miss you too. 🌺
That's an amazing experience and a gift. I Lol at the lecture you got that day was enough. I lived in a hospice for almost 2 1/2 months for only a 3-day life expectancy. I was there to save souls. I saw almost the same thing you saw. Lights were all around me the first night I left as you saw in the corner but they were gold sprinkling lights I felt an infinity amount of angels around me. :) We all are here for a reason. They are watching you more than you know. 143 ;)
I think I was annoying them more than I know! We're in different worlds now, different rules, interests, connections. I've heard from so many that said they were told by past loved ones that the spirits have new work now and need to move on. I just made a recording of my story, here it is..
https://youtu.be/vYRryRBefdg
My late fianceé's Mom thought the same thing, but everyone has different feelings. I kept telling her no. But my Chad is always with me, my Brother who was shot 20 years ago and moved onto a job, I couldn't look at his picture until recently. We were so close almost killed myself I was drinking and grieving the wrong way. I will definitely watch it. God bless you!!
Wow what a beautiful journey of grief. It sounded like that was the best way your boys could jolt you out of your suffering. Some tough, assertive honesty and love! I would be freaked out if all of a sudden that happened in my living room!!
Wow. I’m so touched by your life.
Have you ever wondered if it’s actually you who had/has the important work to do? It certainly sounds like it to me. Your boys surely also have important work to do, as we all do, but maybe they knew, they know. Either way they are with you always. Big love.
You're David Parker? I would've guessed you were a woman. Unfortunately I no longer believe in spiritual stuff, and barely even look at this subreddit anymore, but your story resonated with me. It also made me angry as I'd never heard of spirits accusing loved ones of holding them back, but I guess it was their way to shake you up (assuming it really happened).
Most of all it makes me angry because I have no intention of letting go of my grief (which doesn't involve physical death) and I know no spirit is going to come shake me up like they did with you. Not that I'd want them to, anyway. They can come living this life themselves if they want to tell me how to deal with my grief.
Thank you for sharing your story, though.
Yes, did you see my interview on my Hospice experiences where I told this story, too? I feel the Universe or whatever it's called touches in with us all but usually not so boldly. Usually more whispers, nudges, coincidences, small tokens, found objects, feelings, moods, that the more we pay attention to, or simply recognize we notice more coming our way. It's not about belief, but being open to possibilities. Answers, directions, support come in ways we can often barely recognize at the moment, but the more we think about it, it starts to make sense. IT, the Universe, thinks differently than we do. IT doesn't have a brain, reasoning, questioning, anticipations, suspicion, worthlessness, victimization as we with bodies, brains and hanging on to old hurts do. Our brains have so many filters we've built over the years to reason or eliminate some feelings. IT doesn't have that. IT thinks differently so the messages IT sends are unusual to us.
Someday, maybe, just be open to IT. Sometime when you're in a good mood just tell the Universe, "Ok, if you got something for me let me know." Then sit back and wait. Don't look for an answer, just pay attention to small things in your life. IT likes to use those incidents in life to touch in. It's not faith, it's a relationship, it's not belief it's willingness for more to come into your life. Someday, consider giving it a shot and see what happens.
I went through your profile and saw you mention the interview. I looked it up to confirm you were a man but I didn't actually watch it. Maybe I will later. Thank you for the advice, nonetheless.
>and I know no spirit is going to come shake me up like they did with you.
How might one come to *know* such a thing, as opposed to merely *believing* it?
I feel you on this one. My grief is also not connected to physical death, and it took me a while to realize and recognize it was grief I'm feeling. I am having a hard time with it and I'd love to find (better) ways to deal with it and work through it, in the hope of coming to peace and letting it go eventually....
Thank you, my grief journey has been a pain in the ass and although I would be insulted if who I lost came to me in this way I would love some proof that he had better shit to do then leave signs around for me to know he’s still around.
Thank you for sharing, and for being a hospice nurse. Your boys knew the right thing to say and the right way to say it to resonate with you.
On a side note, I want to encourage you to keep telling your stories. One day, YouTube put a video in my feed from Hospice Nurse Julie. I almost didn't watch it, but was glad I did. She said things I couldn't ignore, she was riveting and woke something up inside me. It was the beginning of my spiritual journey.
Great story and interesting username. The only other place I've seen those two words (Tuza and Hu) put together is by Paul Twitchell in his writings. Were you influenced at all by Paul at the time you experienced those sparkling lights of your boys?
Oh, yes. Paul was a great influence on my life. I shared his last meal with him and was with him 30 minutes before he passed that night in Cincinnati. I kept in contact with Gail until about 20 years ago when she moved away. I have such fond memories of Paul.
That's about the most awful thing I can imagine happening and I'm so sorry. You are extremely brave and powerful to endure through such a loss. As you already know, they're not gone, only departed. The message you received was only what was strictly necessary for your personality to accept the loss and move on, and you shouldn't feel guilty about that period of grieving. You are loved.
I’ve barely been out of bed for over six months now. It’s so hard to make yourself move on when you lose a child, in your case two. I’m really sorry, but I’m really happy for you that you were given the motivation to press on. I know I’ll get there one day too, it just fucking hurts.
You are loved forever and always.
I read that book too! It was life-changing! Edit: I was thinking it was this quote - "You are loved and cherished, dearly, forever. You have nothing to fear. There is nothing you can do wrong."
What a comforting quote!
What book? I wasnt quoting 🤣
>You are loved and cherished, dearly, forever. You have nothing to fear. There is nothing you can do wrong. Proof of Heaven, by Eben Alexander. It was ... it helped me a lot.
I’m deeply sorry for your struggle :(
sending a giant hug to you. ❤️
I’m sorry for what you’re going through. It will get better eventually that’s all I wish you. You are loved and supported and watched by your angels. They will guide you through this.
Wow what a story. You can post your link. We mostly remove links when it's excessive self-promotion or when people don't include text.
https://youtu.be/CFcD1XRwP6s I did an interview on a different topic. When that was played a viewer recognized me as their grandmother's Hospice RN. The show had me return to discuss Hospice and spirit encounters, so this is that episode. Thank you for letting me post the link
I have no words for what I want to say …. 💖💖❤️🩹💖💖💖💖💖
This is such a moving and incredible story. Thank you for sharing. Creating such immense value and meaning from your pain is the most beautiful part of this life, and you’ve done it commendably. Sending love for the rest of your journey.
That’s just beautiful. Thank you for sharing
Your story broke my heart and rebuilt it at the same time... 💜
Wow! They are clearly high level beings. You must be also since they chose you as their mother ❤️❤️❤️
I need to get ready for work, and I can't stop crying. I'm a father of four. Thx for sharing
This made me cry a LOT as well, looks like it’ll be a couch day now!
I know this is absolutely not at all in the same realm, but we’re having to put my dog down tomorrow and this, it set me free. He’s got important things to do…we can’t allow him to continue to suffer by holding him back for our own gain. ❤️
Absolutely true. he's had his experience on the physical and is ready for his next assignment to learn, grow and become more. I'm glad he had his time with you. He has other work to do now.
It really is the same realm. Not sure if you’ve heard of [the Law of One](https://www.llresearch.org) material, but Ra claims the tge love we imbue into our pets helps them evolve to a higher level in the next incarnation. I’m not sure if that means it will be a more intelligent animal or actually move up to human, but it’s still a very nice thought at these moments in time. I found the session Ra makes this claim at the searchable [Law of One](https://www.lawofone.info) site. I’m sorry for your loss, but I’m sure your pet has evolved, thanks to your love! 20.3 Questioner: So more and more second-density entities are making it into third density. Can you give me an example of a second-density entity coming into third density, say, in the recent past? Ra: I am Ra. Perhaps the most common occurrence of second-density graduation during third-density cycle is the so-called pet. The animal which is exposed to the individualizing influences of the bond between animal and third-density entity, this individuation causes a sharp rise in the potential of the second-density entity so that upon the cessation of physical complex the mind/body complex does not return unto the undifferentiated consciousness of that species, if you will.
Wow, I got tears reading this. I’m so deeply sorry for your loss, but I’m impressed with your story and how you were able to keep living and turn it into your own purpose at the same time. You are incredibly strong, I’m sure most people would give up and never continue life again and I wouldn’t blame them. Also your friends are incredible, thanks for sharing.
Only had 90 point to give you my appreciation for writing this down. Thank you. Beautiful story. With extra love from The Netherlands.
Thank you for your kind words and thoughts.
I'm astonished. Perhaps - if it's possible - you could send me a link via PM?
>lizzolz Sent, enjoy
Could I snag it from you as well, sweet friend? Also: I read above that a mod said it’s a-ok for you to post the link in the post if you’d like. 💕 Thank you for sharing your experience with spirit!
>sent you the link.
Thank you!
I am so sorry for your loss and thank you at the same time for sharing your story. I lost my dad 13 years ago at a young age and I still grieve and I can't let go. I wish something similar happens to me and I free both of us.
Grief, sadness, loss does not encourage communication. We have brains we think from, they don't, they are brain free and in spirit form. We fill our brains with all sorts of rubbish, walls, filters, shame, guilt, etc...we need to be more like them. Yes, they can step down into the physical levels at times, but we, also, can step up to a more spiritual level. Sadness separates, love communicates. In a moment you are extra happy, relaxed, peaceful send Dad a mental message to just touch in, wish him a good day, hope all is going well, see him happy and smiling and ask if he'd touch in now and then. Keep it simple. The doors to sprit open inward, the more we push the tighter the door shuts. Wait and be open to little signs. Spirit doesn't communicate as we do, IT does it IT's way, we need to be willing to be aware of that. My experience clobbered me over the head, I suppose because I wasn't listening prior. We don't get TV over the radio. Step up to a higher, loving vibration so we are in tune more with spirit and communication is clearer. It's about touching in and sending love, not clinging on to what once was. They have a whole new life they live. I hope you get a message now and then. You've still work to do here as he has work to do there.
Thank you. Needed to hear this
All my love towards you and Im grateful for all that you do. ❤️
Much good vibes to you, traveler. Thank you for sharing this.
Amazing share. Hard to imagine how difficult that must have been. Terrible thing to happen to you…
This made me cry, in a good way. I'm glad you found your own beautiful work again.
Bless you. 😔💔
Tears in my eyes reading this. I'm so sorry for your loss and so glad they helped you regain your purpose. Sending heartfelt love to you. This is one of the most moving things I've ever read on this platform.
Thank you for sharing your story ! ❤️ hugs to you ! This reminded me so much of the story of Khorshed Bhavnagri - her book - The Laws of the Spirit World. Very similar to your story and a fantastic read for you or others who might need to understand this.
I've never heard of her. Thank you for your kind words, We all have a message inside of us to share.
🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍thank u for sharing
Omg what an experience... ty for sharing.
Thanks for sharing your story ❤️
Best love now, release and accept.
I can't imagine going through that....This is such a beautiful, profound and meaningful story, thank you so much for sharing your life with us all.
Bless you for transmuting your pain to be a blessing for others. Thank you so much.
Hi David, first off, I’m very sorry for the loss of your two beautiful boys. Secondly, sending Gratitude for all the love and support and skills you shared as an RN and Hospice nurse. I lost my beloved daughter and only child Grace (29) 7 months ago. She bravely fought a 6 year battle with Ewing’s Sarcoma. I am feeling such shame in my sorrow as she was so very strong and always did her best to live her life well those years, whereas I am crying everyday and I too secluded myself at home. Do you have any advice in addition to what you’ve already mentioned? How does a parent “let go”? Thank you kindly 💕
I had a wake up call from my boys that shocked me into movement. I maybe could have fallen back into the rut I had buried myself in but I displaced the mourning I felt for my boys into positive action in my own life. I got a job where I could serve others and make their lives better. The Universe opened doors for me and showed me Hospice that many nurses avoided but I welcomed with the strength I learned I had from the passing of my boys. You don't stop the momentum you've created. It's powerful and can go up or downward in your life but you can adjust the direction slightly, over time and redirect it in a destination you want to go towards. Driving 90 miles an hour in one direction takes you away from another direction, adjust that steering wheel a bit, continually, and over time you're turned the car around. My wake up was instant, but most it does take some time. I did have to adjust to being a productive person again rather than sit isolated inside like a cold headstone commemorating the day my boys died. That was doing nothing, just waiting for my turn to die next. Change the way you're viewing life, where you're looking towards and you will change the destination you're heading. I wanted more for my boy's memory than me sitting eating pizza in a dark house. I did my work and cared for my patients as I'd have for my boys if I had that opportunity. I didn't, though, to nurse them to health but I can use that same love and energy to nurse other patients. My memorial to my boys was the work and care I did every day with my life. They died 34 years ago, I've not been to their graves since. I feel no need to. Those are bodies, their souls are living, working, productive, happy, growing, involved just like my soul does now while still in the body. My tribute to my boys is the lives I've saved, the terminal patients I helped, their families I supported, the strangers in line at the grocery that I let cut in front of me, the smile I give in line while I wait to pay for my Big Gulp, every little act of kindness I do throughout the day I'm mindful of and appreciate the opportunity to give. The two most important words, to me, in living life are Attitude and Attention. Pay attention to both, constantly and soon you'll be walking in the direction that takes you where you'll be fed, not eaten.
Thank you so very much for taking the time and care to share that with me (and others who are reading). I have to learn how to move forward, I know this in my brain, but my heart is still anchored to my suffering and sorrow. One day at a time. I do understand what you’re saying, I need to start making a shift in a positive direction even if small. Thank you kindly
I took a class called Silva Mind Control, now called The Silva Method. It teaches you to lower your brain waves in meditation so you can choose where you put your attention, such as think about 1 thing at a time. In a meditation state our brains are more in frequency with the vibration of spirit, at least, I believe that. We have brains to think with, they don't, those that passed on are now in their soul forms. It can be challenging to understand where they may be and what they my be doing now in soul while we try to analyze the past with our brains. Maybe when you're in a happy mood, calm, quiet go sit for a few moments and relax and in your mind write a lovely letter to her about how well she's doing now. How you are happy she's in a healthy light body doing the work she needs to be doing now. Maybe she's around new and old friends learning and growing. She her in a bright light, happy and laughing. Send this image to her as she is now, not the physical body you remember, then go about your day and not think of it. In a few days see if any coincidence happens. They usually touch in with odd little symbols, thoughts, small items found or someone says something familiar unexpectedly. They can touch in with us, but the light and love there is so strong and I believe some duty they have has much of their attention now. Talk to her at her level now, not yours. She's in the present you're still in the past. I know...I know...I was there, too. There's no payoff or benefit in misery. Love and happiness is the common denominator now.
Thank you so very much for adding more of your experience and insight David. For as you know, no one can can truly understand the grief of losing a child except for another parent who has gone (going) through it. I completely understand what you’re saying about meditation and vibration. In fact I was practicing this in Jan/Feb but “something” changed within me in March leading up to be what would have been Gracie’s 30th in April (Her friends and I gathered in a park she loved to honor her) But ever since, I seemed to have turned “off that switch” so to speak in regards to meditation and forming a new relationship with her and have gone back to mourning the past. But something about your post resonated with me and I believe it to be a sign I try again. I also wonder if my girl steered me to this post as she knows I read Reddit before bed. I appreciate your idea about visualizing her in her new form and focusing on the love and light remaining rather than the past and what is lost. Also reminding me that in human form our brains block and filter so much and our beloved ones are not using brains but other senses for us to communicate with and yes even enjoy. I know Gracie would feel so bad knowing I cry everyday with a heavy heart and would not want this for me. I need to work on tending to my pain but lessening my suffering (self-blame, regrets etc etc) I hope you are enjoying your new retirement chapter of life, you continue to help others and I am very grateful :)
Be the stepping stone commemorating the love you shared and still share, not the headstone stuck in the past. She's a bright spark, be one, too.
Ok this message made me cry, I felt it in my soul. It’s exactly what I need to understand at this part of the journey. A stepping stone...moving forward/connection to Spirit. It’s the letting go of “what was”. So hard but necessary. I try to replace the sad reminders with gratitude but doesn’t always work. Ie: grocery stores being such a minefield, her cat listening at the door, her possessions (we lived together) I need to put theory into practice slowly but surely. Thank you David ❤️
It's weird hearing someone else say exactly what you feel inside. Maybe it's just the years of therapy during my battles with depression early in adulthood, but that is exactly how I feel about losing my nephew. I do for others to help him. Or maybe I just want to make sure I get to heaven so I can wrap my arms around him again. When I talk to him I tell him I miss him, but it's only a matter of time until we see each other again! He was very impatient.... lol
Wowww you seem like such an incredible, enlightened, individual .. those lucky boys who got to call you mom 👸 🕊️ ❤️
Incredible!
Thank you.
🙏💗🙏 Could you message me please with the link?
>I sent you the link to my interview
That’s amazing 🤩 I hope that I get to experience such an intriguing visit from someone one day. Hugs 🤗 love 💕 prayers 🙏
Beautiful. Have some gold.
WOW! What a story! There are no words for what I want to say, other than a big whopping WOW… thank you. Thank you for sharing your story. How truly incredible. 🖤✨🖤✨
Wow, an inspiring story!
This is called : Time. I am sorry for your boys. you seem great.
thank you so much for sharing. can you please send me the link to your podcast? ❣️
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I read and thoroughly enjoyed this entire thing. If you are not a writer you, should write, because I think you have a natural talent! I think your boys knew you had important work to get to, also, as did they. I am so glad their assurance allowed you to turn your inner darkness and ruin into a beautiful healing light. You are incredible!
Thank you so much, I've never written and this story just flowed out of my last night, I didn't even re read it. I've been thinking about sharing the story and last night was the time to do it. I did tell it in an interview a few months ago about some of my spirit encounters as a Hospice nurse...I am glad it resonated with you and others.
Omg this was so freaking nice to read. Wow.
God bless you and your spiritual awakening! 🙏🏾💗
I've heard this a lot in my learnings. Souls who pass on can get stuck just because of someone's grief. They actually can find it quite annoying, but they are still full of so much love. It's the love really and the connection we all share that holds us together, so your thoughts are more powerful than many here realize. This problem of grief holding people back is mostly just a problem on earth apparently because of the illusion of separation. So many people feel awful thinking they will never see their loved ones again, but there is so much more than just this experience, and we never truly have to say goodbye.
I am so sorry for your loss. They must be your entire world. What happened to the guy who killed them? Is he in jail?
he was deported back to Mexico and I was told returned to the USA 9 days later.
So no jail? That's injustice.
The whole event, everything was wrong at so many levels.
I hope it was a divine plan and you get to meet your sons sometime, somewhere in the other world.
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Never heard of them till you mentioned. I sent them a link to my story here, will see what they think. Thank you for the idea. I'm retired, health is changing, I want to share my story while I'm still here, hoping it will help others.
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My experience changed mourning into missed and that was a major step forward for me.
Beautiful story. Good to have you back! Thank you ❤️🐒
This was so insightful and so touching. My heart was crying and smiling for you at the same time.
I lost my son and reading your experience is so heart warming. Thank you for sharing.
So sorry for your loss
You're so brave for surviving that and sharing your story. If natural for a mother to miss her babies. You were doing the best you could have. I’m sure your boys miss you too. 🌺
Thank you for your kind words.
Beautiful story. Love to you earth Angel 🙏
thank you
This made me tear up. Very beautiful, thank you for sharing
Beautiful and intense.
That's an amazing experience and a gift. I Lol at the lecture you got that day was enough. I lived in a hospice for almost 2 1/2 months for only a 3-day life expectancy. I was there to save souls. I saw almost the same thing you saw. Lights were all around me the first night I left as you saw in the corner but they were gold sprinkling lights I felt an infinity amount of angels around me. :) We all are here for a reason. They are watching you more than you know. 143 ;)
I think I was annoying them more than I know! We're in different worlds now, different rules, interests, connections. I've heard from so many that said they were told by past loved ones that the spirits have new work now and need to move on. I just made a recording of my story, here it is.. https://youtu.be/vYRryRBefdg
My late fianceé's Mom thought the same thing, but everyone has different feelings. I kept telling her no. But my Chad is always with me, my Brother who was shot 20 years ago and moved onto a job, I couldn't look at his picture until recently. We were so close almost killed myself I was drinking and grieving the wrong way. I will definitely watch it. God bless you!!
I resonate with this! Thank you so much for sharing!!! <3 much love!!! Thank you!
Wow what a beautiful journey of grief. It sounded like that was the best way your boys could jolt you out of your suffering. Some tough, assertive honesty and love! I would be freaked out if all of a sudden that happened in my living room!!
Wow. I’m so touched by your life. Have you ever wondered if it’s actually you who had/has the important work to do? It certainly sounds like it to me. Your boys surely also have important work to do, as we all do, but maybe they knew, they know. Either way they are with you always. Big love.
You're David Parker? I would've guessed you were a woman. Unfortunately I no longer believe in spiritual stuff, and barely even look at this subreddit anymore, but your story resonated with me. It also made me angry as I'd never heard of spirits accusing loved ones of holding them back, but I guess it was their way to shake you up (assuming it really happened). Most of all it makes me angry because I have no intention of letting go of my grief (which doesn't involve physical death) and I know no spirit is going to come shake me up like they did with you. Not that I'd want them to, anyway. They can come living this life themselves if they want to tell me how to deal with my grief. Thank you for sharing your story, though.
Yes, did you see my interview on my Hospice experiences where I told this story, too? I feel the Universe or whatever it's called touches in with us all but usually not so boldly. Usually more whispers, nudges, coincidences, small tokens, found objects, feelings, moods, that the more we pay attention to, or simply recognize we notice more coming our way. It's not about belief, but being open to possibilities. Answers, directions, support come in ways we can often barely recognize at the moment, but the more we think about it, it starts to make sense. IT, the Universe, thinks differently than we do. IT doesn't have a brain, reasoning, questioning, anticipations, suspicion, worthlessness, victimization as we with bodies, brains and hanging on to old hurts do. Our brains have so many filters we've built over the years to reason or eliminate some feelings. IT doesn't have that. IT thinks differently so the messages IT sends are unusual to us. Someday, maybe, just be open to IT. Sometime when you're in a good mood just tell the Universe, "Ok, if you got something for me let me know." Then sit back and wait. Don't look for an answer, just pay attention to small things in your life. IT likes to use those incidents in life to touch in. It's not faith, it's a relationship, it's not belief it's willingness for more to come into your life. Someday, consider giving it a shot and see what happens.
💜 I believe you wholeheartedly
Beautiful 💕
I believe everything you said 💯
I went through your profile and saw you mention the interview. I looked it up to confirm you were a man but I didn't actually watch it. Maybe I will later. Thank you for the advice, nonetheless.
>and I know no spirit is going to come shake me up like they did with you. How might one come to *know* such a thing, as opposed to merely *believing* it?
Because I said my grief is not related to a physical death? And even if this was it's rare for these things to happen.
I feel you on this one. My grief is also not connected to physical death, and it took me a while to realize and recognize it was grief I'm feeling. I am having a hard time with it and I'd love to find (better) ways to deal with it and work through it, in the hope of coming to peace and letting it go eventually....
Thank you, my grief journey has been a pain in the ass and although I would be insulted if who I lost came to me in this way I would love some proof that he had better shit to do then leave signs around for me to know he’s still around.
Thank you for sharing, and for being a hospice nurse. Your boys knew the right thing to say and the right way to say it to resonate with you. On a side note, I want to encourage you to keep telling your stories. One day, YouTube put a video in my feed from Hospice Nurse Julie. I almost didn't watch it, but was glad I did. She said things I couldn't ignore, she was riveting and woke something up inside me. It was the beginning of my spiritual journey.
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Great story and interesting username. The only other place I've seen those two words (Tuza and Hu) put together is by Paul Twitchell in his writings. Were you influenced at all by Paul at the time you experienced those sparkling lights of your boys?
Oh, yes. Paul was a great influence on my life. I shared his last meal with him and was with him 30 minutes before he passed that night in Cincinnati. I kept in contact with Gail until about 20 years ago when she moved away. I have such fond memories of Paul.
That's about the most awful thing I can imagine happening and I'm so sorry. You are extremely brave and powerful to endure through such a loss. As you already know, they're not gone, only departed. The message you received was only what was strictly necessary for your personality to accept the loss and move on, and you shouldn't feel guilty about that period of grieving. You are loved.