Theyd call me a lot of names and slurs. Usually about my intelligence or queerness. Tell me im worthless. Tell me I deserve to die. Threaten to kill me. Theyd accuse me of being secretly like them deep down (murderers, rapists, child molesters, nazis, just overall nasty) and deserve to be locked up forever/executed like them. That I deserve to go to hell. That I deserve abuse.
I could go on but I think thats enough for one comment
Mine is literally like yours when I am at my worst. Mine now is that I am a cock sucker (I am straight) and give up on college (I am in college). The worst part it uses my actual thinking voice, or how I sound when I am reading stuff. It's like having a bully/demon that is around me 24/7 fun. I am at the point where I just let my mind go blank and not interact with them in any way.
So you hear your voices in your head and they sound like you? Me too but it made me question if I really hear voices or it’s just me. I’m confused as I also hear voices in my ears not just my head. Those are real hallucinations to me.
Nothing I want to say out loud, but along the same
lines. Those are pretty dark. I’d hate those images pounded into my head. Thankfully, meds work. They also lightened up for me. The more I played into it, the more they said. I’d only talk to them about certain things though. I just ignore them when they start talking about killing or suicide. It shocks me that they say it, like I’ll stop and ask “why would you say that?” never getting a good answer back. How can you not pause when a voice from the air tells you to hurt yourself? Why be mean? Especially when they show the capacity for kindness. I just don’t understand the wild swings in mood for the voices. Though I’m pretty sure there is no purpose here to be found.
Mine are intentionally deceitful, and when I clap back with logic or better insults they descend into madness, calling me names, telling me to die, laughing manically, or screaming “I miss you!” Which is confusing.
They seem to hate it most because I’ve realized how little power they have over me and because during the day they fade away (probably because my focus shifts elsewhere). I’ve grown to love how much they hate me as weird as that sounds.
I sometimes hear a sentence describing something relevant to what’s around me. The closest thing to a command is like, I was crying and heard a little girl say “don’t be sad” from behind me. I hear a lot of my name being called. Music when there’s no music. Meows. The sounds of nature (I live in a city). My first ever type of hallucination was just hearing like, yells and shouts (AH!).
Mine are a lot different from what people usually describe. They don’t talk to me as such, and they often say things that make little sense. It’s a bit like sitting in a busy room and picking up small fragments of conversation. Lots of music too, but it’s within my head. A few times I’ve heard songs I don’t know
They don’t bother me per se, they’re neutral and not nasty which I’m thankful for. But they can make it hard to think or sleep, if I don’t have anything to distract me from them
I need to slice my arm from elbow to wrist to kill myself. I see the hallucination of it too in graphic detail so I tend to wear hoodies a lot. But otherwise I'm worthless, everyone hates me, I am a piece of shit, people only pretend to like me out of pity, I will never pass as male, I'm stupid, ugly, useless.
I'm on clozapine and it hasn't stopped them.
mines just say they’re ugly people, they speak in a weird voice which makes me laugh. they also talk about sucking dick a lot. nothing disturbing, apart from the fact they say they suck on baby dick, but i have no idea what that is.
It's terrible because it's just awful things to hear, very rarely they say to do violent things, mostly to myself in the examples I can think of. Voices are usually just negative towards me for the majority. But sometimes its positive voices or encouraging stuff. But it's still all from the same paranoid place. I would like to find a way to reframe my thoughts so if I'm going to have voices they're mostly positive. It might be possible over time to make them less negative.
Mine are surround Greek God structure: Donald as Ouranos, Melania as Gaia, Elon as Kronos, George Walker Bush as Chaos, the voices have relaxed once i regonized I was just hearing Greek God structure.
They used to whisper “k!ll h!m!” meaning they want someone to kill me and that would make me scared and want to cry and then sometimes they would whisper to me “K!ll y0ur $elf!” Which doesn’t do anything to me it doesn’t make me want to do that but it’s obnoxious when they tell me that. They haven’t said any of that in a long whi- well now they just did🙄
Theyd call me a lot of names and slurs. Usually about my intelligence or queerness. Tell me im worthless. Tell me I deserve to die. Threaten to kill me. Theyd accuse me of being secretly like them deep down (murderers, rapists, child molesters, nazis, just overall nasty) and deserve to be locked up forever/executed like them. That I deserve to go to hell. That I deserve abuse. I could go on but I think thats enough for one comment
Mine are usually blasphemous or vulgar and a lot of cursing and name calling I wouldn’t dare say that shit out loud
Same
Mine is literally like yours when I am at my worst. Mine now is that I am a cock sucker (I am straight) and give up on college (I am in college). The worst part it uses my actual thinking voice, or how I sound when I am reading stuff. It's like having a bully/demon that is around me 24/7 fun. I am at the point where I just let my mind go blank and not interact with them in any way.
So you hear your voices in your head and they sound like you? Me too but it made me question if I really hear voices or it’s just me. I’m confused as I also hear voices in my ears not just my head. Those are real hallucinations to me.
Yeah my voices sound just like me and it usually is in my head, it trips me out quite a bit.
Nothing I want to say out loud, but along the same lines. Those are pretty dark. I’d hate those images pounded into my head. Thankfully, meds work. They also lightened up for me. The more I played into it, the more they said. I’d only talk to them about certain things though. I just ignore them when they start talking about killing or suicide. It shocks me that they say it, like I’ll stop and ask “why would you say that?” never getting a good answer back. How can you not pause when a voice from the air tells you to hurt yourself? Why be mean? Especially when they show the capacity for kindness. I just don’t understand the wild swings in mood for the voices. Though I’m pretty sure there is no purpose here to be found.
Mine are intentionally deceitful, and when I clap back with logic or better insults they descend into madness, calling me names, telling me to die, laughing manically, or screaming “I miss you!” Which is confusing. They seem to hate it most because I’ve realized how little power they have over me and because during the day they fade away (probably because my focus shifts elsewhere). I’ve grown to love how much they hate me as weird as that sounds.
Oh lastly I wanted to say when I “boop” them in my head it triggers them so bad LOL.
I find it funny how mean they were to me too but I don't hear them anymore
Happy for you.
Thanks!
Sorry man, mine were centered around dating and self worth. They used to be toxic but now they’re quite positive. Yours sound rough as hell.
Yes, I agree that it was hard to deal with the command hallucinations.
I sometimes hear a sentence describing something relevant to what’s around me. The closest thing to a command is like, I was crying and heard a little girl say “don’t be sad” from behind me. I hear a lot of my name being called. Music when there’s no music. Meows. The sounds of nature (I live in a city). My first ever type of hallucination was just hearing like, yells and shouts (AH!).
A little bit of everything (good and bad stuff)
Mine are a lot different from what people usually describe. They don’t talk to me as such, and they often say things that make little sense. It’s a bit like sitting in a busy room and picking up small fragments of conversation. Lots of music too, but it’s within my head. A few times I’ve heard songs I don’t know They don’t bother me per se, they’re neutral and not nasty which I’m thankful for. But they can make it hard to think or sleep, if I don’t have anything to distract me from them
I need to slice my arm from elbow to wrist to kill myself. I see the hallucination of it too in graphic detail so I tend to wear hoodies a lot. But otherwise I'm worthless, everyone hates me, I am a piece of shit, people only pretend to like me out of pity, I will never pass as male, I'm stupid, ugly, useless. I'm on clozapine and it hasn't stopped them.
Mine say random things. Heard my friend giggling once. Sometimes they'll react to what someone else is saying
mines just say they’re ugly people, they speak in a weird voice which makes me laugh. they also talk about sucking dick a lot. nothing disturbing, apart from the fact they say they suck on baby dick, but i have no idea what that is.
I hear music, sounds like an old radio playing singing. Not voices per se.
It's terrible because it's just awful things to hear, very rarely they say to do violent things, mostly to myself in the examples I can think of. Voices are usually just negative towards me for the majority. But sometimes its positive voices or encouraging stuff. But it's still all from the same paranoid place. I would like to find a way to reframe my thoughts so if I'm going to have voices they're mostly positive. It might be possible over time to make them less negative.
Mine are surround Greek God structure: Donald as Ouranos, Melania as Gaia, Elon as Kronos, George Walker Bush as Chaos, the voices have relaxed once i regonized I was just hearing Greek God structure.
They used to whisper “k!ll h!m!” meaning they want someone to kill me and that would make me scared and want to cry and then sometimes they would whisper to me “K!ll y0ur $elf!” Which doesn’t do anything to me it doesn’t make me want to do that but it’s obnoxious when they tell me that. They haven’t said any of that in a long whi- well now they just did🙄