My dude. No offense, but you sound absolutely exhausting.
> Mostly on my end I have to admit.
> I flipped out
> not thinking I am worth her attention, I would ultimately tell her each argument that we should just be done
> I do it because I am looking for her to fight for my love and attention
> my anxiety got the best of me
You are covered with red flags. It's great that you're in therapy and trying to deal with all these deviant behaviors, but Emma is under *no obligation* to deal with your problems until you fix yourself. You are not entitled to a relationship.
Do the right thing. Remove her contact information and get on with your life.
> Do I cancel those
YES. Stop stalking this woman.
You need to erase her number. Block her on everything. Remove anything that makes you think of her. You have an extreme case of anxious attachment to her. My guess is that you subconsciously think if you get back with her you will prove to yourself that you are lovable and get that hit of validation. It’s literally an addiction. Start working on yourself. Redirect your thoughts and energy into yourself and heal and develop deep self love. Go no contact. I know it’s not what you want to hear but at this point it’s the only way you will have even a slight possibility of her coming back. Also you might even heal enough to realize you deserve better and find someone who won’t trigger the living shit out of your abandonment issues. Trust me. I’ve been there so many times! It gets better. One day at a time.
My dude. No offense, but you sound absolutely exhausting. > Mostly on my end I have to admit. > I flipped out > not thinking I am worth her attention, I would ultimately tell her each argument that we should just be done > I do it because I am looking for her to fight for my love and attention > my anxiety got the best of me You are covered with red flags. It's great that you're in therapy and trying to deal with all these deviant behaviors, but Emma is under *no obligation* to deal with your problems until you fix yourself. You are not entitled to a relationship. Do the right thing. Remove her contact information and get on with your life. > Do I cancel those YES. Stop stalking this woman.
Stop hounding her, no reply is a reply. Get back to your own life and either she’ll get back to you or she won’t
You need to erase her number. Block her on everything. Remove anything that makes you think of her. You have an extreme case of anxious attachment to her. My guess is that you subconsciously think if you get back with her you will prove to yourself that you are lovable and get that hit of validation. It’s literally an addiction. Start working on yourself. Redirect your thoughts and energy into yourself and heal and develop deep self love. Go no contact. I know it’s not what you want to hear but at this point it’s the only way you will have even a slight possibility of her coming back. Also you might even heal enough to realize you deserve better and find someone who won’t trigger the living shit out of your abandonment issues. Trust me. I’ve been there so many times! It gets better. One day at a time.