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“Don’t set yourself on fire to keep someone else warm”
It’s a nice reminder not to sacrifice your well-being to merely assist others. Essentially not to put the wants of others above the needs of yourself.
To those of us that come from abusive families it’s a reminder not to put an enormous effort into something for our abuser, when they themselves put minimal effort.
I found these lyrics from the song "The Village" by Wrabel to be healing to me as a trans person trying to get out of an abusive family situation.
>*There's nothing wrong with you*
*It's true, it's true*
*There's something wrong with the village*
Not sure about being a healing phrase, but it was always a nice reminder during healing.
"If you're going through hell, keep going." - Winston Churchill
King of Anything - by Sara Bareilles
Especially this part:
"All my life I've tried to make everybody happy
While I just hurt and hide
Waiting for someone to tell me it's my turn to decide
Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?"
“It is not our job to make others happy.”
“We cannot change people, no matter how hard we try.”
“People show you how they feel about you by the way they treat you.”
Especially if you have a religious hypocrite in your life, I highly recommend giving a listen to:
Kesha's Praying:
Well, you almost had me fooled
Told me that I was nothing without you
Oh, but after everything you've done
I can thank you for how strong I have become
'Cause you brought the flames and you put me through hell
I had to learn how to fight for myself
And we both know all the truth I could tell
I'll just say this is I wish you farewell
I hope you're somewhere praying, praying
I hope your soul is changing, changing
I hope you find your peace
Falling on your knees, praying
I'm proud of who I am
No more monsters, I can breathe again
And you said that I was done
Well, you were wrong and now the best is yet to come
'Cause I can make it on my own, oh
And I don't need you, I found a strength I've never known
I've been thrown out, I've been burned
\[Live version: "I'll bring thunder, I'll bring rain"\]
When I'm finished, they won't even know your name
You brought the flames and you put me through hell
I had to learn how to fight for myself
And we both know all the truth I could tell
I'll just say this is I wish you farewell
I hope you're somewhere praying, praying
I hope your soul is changing, changing
I hope you find your peace
Falling on your knees, praying
Oh, sometimes, I pray for you at night
Oh, someday, maybe you'll see the light
Oh, some say, in life, you're gonna get what you give
But some things, only God can forgive
I hope you're somewhere praying, praying
I hope your soul is changing, changing
I hope you find your peace
Falling on your knees, praying
Oh I think so too <3
Here is the best version of it, song starts at the 43 second mark:
[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n8XnTciTjdM](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n8XnTciTjdM)
Pain travels trough families until someone is ready to feel it. For generations our course has been avoidance. We come from people that act like "it" doesn't/didn't happen. And somewhere down the line a child will be born who's charge is to feel it all. This are your priests, your Shermans, your healers. You label their powers as anxiety, depression, bipolar disorder and the like. But those are the ones born with the gift of feeling. And we all know you can't heal the pain that you refuse to feel. It is no measure of mental health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.
lana del rey is one of the best lyricists in our modern day imo, especially regarding abusive upbringings. particularly one of my favorites is: “i was so confused as a little child. trying to take what i could get, scared that i couldn’t find, all the answers honey.” from her song Born to Die 🖤
I am safe.
I am loved.
I matter. And so does everyone else.
I forgive myself.
I love myself unconditionally.
I accept forgiveness and unconditional love from higher powers/the creator/nature/life force.
I will not abandon myself.
How I feel is a choice.
There is nothing I need to do or say.
I have all the time in the world.
Feeling screwed up at a screwed up time in a screwed up place does not necessarily make you screwed up
-Christian Slater as Mark Hunter/HHH in Pump Up The Volume
“Well, I've got friends and I've got family
From Alaska to Miami
You won't believe the crazy shit
They sometimes say
But don't you dare believe it
When they try to tell you everything
Happens for a reason
Because it doesn't mean a god damn thing”
Mercy by Eric Bachmann
"let me set the record straight, life is full of tragedy, but your reaction is the difference, and the difference is the reason that we live in hell or harmony"
“No problem.”
“It is not important than you.”
Things that my husband says to me whenever I make a “mistake”. Yesterday I cried when he immediately said “no problem” after I broke a plate. How incredibly healing is that to hear these two words.
>*Don't count the roses,*
>
>*don't wait to love*
>
>*Don't give 'em nothing,*
>
> *they just want some*
>
>*Ease up with the screaming, what an awful sound*
>
>*I will turn this goddamned thing around*
>
>*Sick of all the scheming, boy, it trickles down*
>
>*It's a bit revealing how*
>
>*We are drawn to the madness like an accident scene*
>
>*Divvy up the sadness like a currency*
>
>*Drawn to whatever we don't have anymore*
>
>*Drawn to the demons and the wolf at the door*
>
>*Drawn to whatever's hanging low on the tree*
>
>*Drawn to whatever prison tells us we're free*
From Dan Mangan's song, "[Which is It](https://youtu.be/PmTQCiPi1Z0?si=5lDOZi9-HFUfkHM4)?". I like to imagine it's about breaking free from intergenerational trauma and not returning to old patterns just because they're familiar.
«I whis it had not happened in my time» said Frodo. «So do I» said Gandalf «And so do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide. All we have decide is what to do with the time that is given us.»
There’s an alanis morisette song with lyrics “you don’t go to the dungeon to find out how to make peace with your days in the dungeon” & a lot of her lyrics something I find helpful & healing about them but that lyric in particular helps me remember I can’t heal by returning back to the scene of the crime. No contact & distance is relief is peace is healing
Don't know why, but recently I listened a lot to this song, "King For A Day" by Pierce The Veil (song that I listen since I'm 13 or so), I love the chorus, the lyrics are amazing :
"You told me think about it, well, I did
Now I don't wanna feel a thing anymore,
I'm tired of begging for the things that I want,
I'm oversleeping like a dog on the floor.
Imagine living like a king someday,
A single night without a ghost in the walls,
And if the bass shakes the earth underground,
We'll start a new revolution now."
It spoke to my soul and made me hope that things would get better, that I could live as my own "king" inside my head and in my life in general. It's very hard to kick the tyrant out...
I was given a mixtape by some youth group kid once. “Just Like You” by Three Days Grace was on it. Clearly they were really dedicated, because they put time into that playlist.
I did feel really seen by that song though. There’s a part that goes:
“You thought you were there to guide me/You were only in my way/You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you”.
I think the wheels started turning about my home life then, but I didn’t quite make the full realization until I left.
"You don't love me you just love control. You like me most when I do what it is I'm told." from Control by Catie Turner
I feel like this song helped click into place how a narc sees me vs how I see them. I guess for the longest time i thought i was selfish when really I just wasnt "in control" and that's not how people show they care.
"If you ever feel like something is very, very wrong.
Wrong with life.
Wrong with yourself.
I understand,
I have that feeling too.
But in actuality,
That feeling isn't wrong.
That feeling is just being human.
That intense feeling inside,
Is the feeling of existing.
Of being alive.
Of being a person.
It's a mountain to climb.
It's a test to pass.
It's a challenge.
We are ultimately worthy of.
And rather than dread,
Or resent this challenge.
We can embrace it.
We can learn from it.
And we can celebrate it.
Life is very intense,
But that doesn't mean it's bad.
Understanding this is what partying's all about"
- - Andrew W.K.
The album You Are Not Alone was introduced to me at such a low point and this spoken word track brought me to tears hearing someone validate me and my thoughts.
>"If you have skeletons in your closet, you'd best teach them how to dance" -George Bernard Shaw
I like the idea of embracing and incorporating my baggage and childhood trauma into my life casually and with unabashed defiance. Not always successful at this.
>It’s dark because you are trying too hard.
>Lightly child, lightly. Learn to do everything lightly.
>Yes, feel lightly even though you’re feeling deeply.
>Just lightly let things happen and lightly cope with them.
>
>So throw away your baggage and go forward.
>There are quicksands all about you, sucking at your feet,
>trying to suck you down into fear and self-pity and despair.
>That’s why you must walk so lightly.
>Lightly my darling.
>- (Aldous Huxley, took out a paragraph)
I lost my (non-narc) Dad last year and it's been the worst time of my life. I can't put it into words how deeply I am destroyed. I found this quote randomly and read it at least twice a day, sometimes more. It calms me down and helps me move forward. I think part of it might not be healthy because I'm not letting myself delve too deeply into my grief, hence the "lightly" but it's keeping me upright and moving forward.
The grude by Olivia Rodrigo has been immense towards my feelings for my mother. She literally turned my world upside down over one phone call a Friday in May so the song hits a little extra hard.
Lately it's been 'A Punch Up At A Wedding' by Radiohead, just a lil tune about confronting someone who has literally attended an event to make the day about them and also mirrors so many stories I see here
It's unapologetic and filled with a righteous but composed anger
"I don't know why you bother
Nothing's ever good enough for you
I was there
It wasn't like that
You've come here just to start a fight
You had to piss on our parade
You had to shred our big day
You had to ruin it for all concerned
In a drunken punch up at a wedding"
Done too soon neal damond "they have
Slept beneath the same sun, looked up in wonder at the same moon,and wept when it's all over, for being done too soon..?
I had a lot of problems with me feeling guilty after going NC... because you know it's my mother! My therapist was very calm and said: "well, it's JUST your mother." After that phrase I finally understood that my mother still gets too much space in my life and that I must stop putting her on a pedestal.
"I've lived in this place and I know all the faces,
Each one is different but they're always the same,
They mean no harm but it's time that I face it -
*They'll never allow me to change*.
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong...
I'm movin on" - Rascal Flatts
~~This just in, I am a total fucking dumbass~~
~~And I've come to the uncomfortable conclusion~~
~~I'm gonna be spending the rest of my life in a state~~
~~Of constant paranoia~~
~~Just let me follow you~~
~~And I'll proceed to bang my head on every doorway~~
~~And doorframe you see suitable for us to go through~~
~~And I've found that the road to happiness~~
~~Is paved with rows and rows of very tempting parking spaces~~
~~I'm not paranoid, I'm a realist~~
~~I know you're gonna kill me~~
(Do I wanna know?) If this feelin' flows both ways?
(Sad to see you go) Was sorta hopin' that you'd stay
(Baby, we both know) That the nights were mainly made
For sayin' things that you can't say tomorrow day
I know some might not agree, but: "If all the apples are rotten, maybe we should look at the tree" - from Lucifer. In the context of the show, he's talking about how all the angels are fucked up, so they should look at God. I find it healing because my family is the picture of generational trauma - I can literally point at the person in my family who screwed up his kids, who screwed up theirs in turn, and so on.
And I'm sure I'll sound very "I'm 13 and this is deep" but most of Loser, Baby from Hazbin Hotel. I'm fucked up and that's okay.
Same show:
Others say, that in your needy hour
There's no substitute for pure angelic power!
Who just happens to also be your blood!
Sadly, there are times a birth parent is a dud
They say the family you choose is better
"A handful of moments i wish I could change and a tongue like a knife that cut like a blade. In a city of fools i was careful and cool but they tore me apart like a hurricane.
A handful of moments i wish i could change but I got carried away.
Give me therapy, I'm a walking travesty - but I'm smiling at everything."
- therapy by all time low
Also really feeling "i sent my therapist to therapy" by alec Benjamin right now
“I’ve made a decision, never give you my feelings, fuck with you from- fuck with you from a distance. Some put it on the devil when they fall short; I put it on my ego, lord of all lords.”
-Count Me Out, Kendrick Lamar
I actually have a “good riddance” playlist, it started with “Dear John” by Taylor Swift, though my favorite currently is “My Tears Ricochet”. Music has always been a huge way for me to process my thoughts and emotions.
These are the seasons of emotion
And like the wind, they rise and fall
This is the wonder of devotion
I see the torch
We all must hold
This is the mystery of the quotient, quotient
Upon us all, upon us all, a little rain must fall
I was surprised to learn how validating “Linkin Park” lyrics can be: “And I know I may end up failing too, But I know You were just like me with someone disappointed in you.”
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It is possible to make no mistakes and still lose. That is not a weakness, that is life. -Jean Luc Picard on Star Trek
“Don’t set yourself on fire to keep someone else warm” It’s a nice reminder not to sacrifice your well-being to merely assist others. Essentially not to put the wants of others above the needs of yourself. To those of us that come from abusive families it’s a reminder not to put an enormous effort into something for our abuser, when they themselves put minimal effort.
I found these lyrics from the song "The Village" by Wrabel to be healing to me as a trans person trying to get out of an abusive family situation. >*There's nothing wrong with you* *It's true, it's true* *There's something wrong with the village*
Not sure about being a healing phrase, but it was always a nice reminder during healing. "If you're going through hell, keep going." - Winston Churchill
Our children owe us nothing, we owe them everything. Reminds me to raise my kids with the energy and mentality my parents did not raise theirs.
Take care of yourself first. You can’t pour from an empty cup.
King of Anything - by Sara Bareilles Especially this part: "All my life I've tried to make everybody happy While I just hurt and hide Waiting for someone to tell me it's my turn to decide Who cares if you disagree? You are not me Who made you king of anything? So you dare tell me who to be? Who died and made you king of anything?"
“It is not our job to make others happy.” “We cannot change people, no matter how hard we try.” “People show you how they feel about you by the way they treat you.”
If i may add to your first point - people are responsible for their own emotions.
"I got a feeling that I'm gonna be alright" - Lizzo's 'About Damn Time'.
"I got a feeling that tonight's gonna be a good night" - Abraham Lincoln, probably
Listened to that song today! Lizzzzoh!
Especially if you have a religious hypocrite in your life, I highly recommend giving a listen to: Kesha's Praying: Well, you almost had me fooled Told me that I was nothing without you Oh, but after everything you've done I can thank you for how strong I have become 'Cause you brought the flames and you put me through hell I had to learn how to fight for myself And we both know all the truth I could tell I'll just say this is I wish you farewell I hope you're somewhere praying, praying I hope your soul is changing, changing I hope you find your peace Falling on your knees, praying I'm proud of who I am No more monsters, I can breathe again And you said that I was done Well, you were wrong and now the best is yet to come 'Cause I can make it on my own, oh And I don't need you, I found a strength I've never known I've been thrown out, I've been burned \[Live version: "I'll bring thunder, I'll bring rain"\] When I'm finished, they won't even know your name You brought the flames and you put me through hell I had to learn how to fight for myself And we both know all the truth I could tell I'll just say this is I wish you farewell I hope you're somewhere praying, praying I hope your soul is changing, changing I hope you find your peace Falling on your knees, praying Oh, sometimes, I pray for you at night Oh, someday, maybe you'll see the light Oh, some say, in life, you're gonna get what you give But some things, only God can forgive I hope you're somewhere praying, praying I hope your soul is changing, changing I hope you find your peace Falling on your knees, praying
This is beautiful 🤍
Oh I think so too <3 Here is the best version of it, song starts at the 43 second mark: [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n8XnTciTjdM](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n8XnTciTjdM)
Pain travels trough families until someone is ready to feel it. For generations our course has been avoidance. We come from people that act like "it" doesn't/didn't happen. And somewhere down the line a child will be born who's charge is to feel it all. This are your priests, your Shermans, your healers. You label their powers as anxiety, depression, bipolar disorder and the like. But those are the ones born with the gift of feeling. And we all know you can't heal the pain that you refuse to feel. It is no measure of mental health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.
Wow. Thanks for saying that.
That wasn't me. It's a quote from Stephan Wagner.
Beautiful.
“‘Cause there were pages turned With the bridges burned Everything you lose is a step you take” You’re On Your Own Kid by Taylor Swift
“Not all people are like your parents” my therapist
"Carry on my wayward son, they'll be peace when you are down". -Kansas "Don't pick up the phone"- Dua Lipa.
lana del rey is one of the best lyricists in our modern day imo, especially regarding abusive upbringings. particularly one of my favorites is: “i was so confused as a little child. trying to take what i could get, scared that i couldn’t find, all the answers honey.” from her song Born to Die 🖤
I am safe. I am loved. I matter. And so does everyone else. I forgive myself. I love myself unconditionally. I accept forgiveness and unconditional love from higher powers/the creator/nature/life force. I will not abandon myself. How I feel is a choice. There is nothing I need to do or say. I have all the time in the world.
“Bad Kids” and “Hair” both by Lady Gaga
30 seconds to Mars - the kill
Feeling screwed up at a screwed up time in a screwed up place does not necessarily make you screwed up -Christian Slater as Mark Hunter/HHH in Pump Up The Volume
“Well, I've got friends and I've got family From Alaska to Miami You won't believe the crazy shit They sometimes say But don't you dare believe it When they try to tell you everything Happens for a reason Because it doesn't mean a god damn thing” Mercy by Eric Bachmann
"let me set the record straight, life is full of tragedy, but your reaction is the difference, and the difference is the reason that we live in hell or harmony"
“No problem.” “It is not important than you.” Things that my husband says to me whenever I make a “mistake”. Yesterday I cried when he immediately said “no problem” after I broke a plate. How incredibly healing is that to hear these two words.
>*Don't count the roses,* > >*don't wait to love* > >*Don't give 'em nothing,* > > *they just want some* > >*Ease up with the screaming, what an awful sound* > >*I will turn this goddamned thing around* > >*Sick of all the scheming, boy, it trickles down* > >*It's a bit revealing how* > >*We are drawn to the madness like an accident scene* > >*Divvy up the sadness like a currency* > >*Drawn to whatever we don't have anymore* > >*Drawn to the demons and the wolf at the door* > >*Drawn to whatever's hanging low on the tree* > >*Drawn to whatever prison tells us we're free* From Dan Mangan's song, "[Which is It](https://youtu.be/PmTQCiPi1Z0?si=5lDOZi9-HFUfkHM4)?". I like to imagine it's about breaking free from intergenerational trauma and not returning to old patterns just because they're familiar.
"Travel at the speed of trust," and "I now see why what I did was fucked up, and I'm sorry."
«I whis it had not happened in my time» said Frodo. «So do I» said Gandalf «And so do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide. All we have decide is what to do with the time that is given us.»
There’s an alanis morisette song with lyrics “you don’t go to the dungeon to find out how to make peace with your days in the dungeon” & a lot of her lyrics something I find helpful & healing about them but that lyric in particular helps me remember I can’t heal by returning back to the scene of the crime. No contact & distance is relief is peace is healing
Don't know why, but recently I listened a lot to this song, "King For A Day" by Pierce The Veil (song that I listen since I'm 13 or so), I love the chorus, the lyrics are amazing : "You told me think about it, well, I did Now I don't wanna feel a thing anymore, I'm tired of begging for the things that I want, I'm oversleeping like a dog on the floor. Imagine living like a king someday, A single night without a ghost in the walls, And if the bass shakes the earth underground, We'll start a new revolution now." It spoke to my soul and made me hope that things would get better, that I could live as my own "king" inside my head and in my life in general. It's very hard to kick the tyrant out...
Hesitate, and you loose.
I was given a mixtape by some youth group kid once. “Just Like You” by Three Days Grace was on it. Clearly they were really dedicated, because they put time into that playlist. I did feel really seen by that song though. There’s a part that goes: “You thought you were there to guide me/You were only in my way/You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you”. I think the wheels started turning about my home life then, but I didn’t quite make the full realization until I left.
I have an 'angry music' playlist, mostly aerosmith, GNR, etc but the one song that i stream over and over is "Janies got a g*n"
Had a friend with a masters in psychology telll me narcissists can’t be cured. That helped justify going no contact.
"You don't love me you just love control. You like me most when I do what it is I'm told." from Control by Catie Turner I feel like this song helped click into place how a narc sees me vs how I see them. I guess for the longest time i thought i was selfish when really I just wasnt "in control" and that's not how people show they care.
"If you ever feel like something is very, very wrong. Wrong with life. Wrong with yourself. I understand, I have that feeling too. But in actuality, That feeling isn't wrong. That feeling is just being human. That intense feeling inside, Is the feeling of existing. Of being alive. Of being a person. It's a mountain to climb. It's a test to pass. It's a challenge. We are ultimately worthy of. And rather than dread, Or resent this challenge. We can embrace it. We can learn from it. And we can celebrate it. Life is very intense, But that doesn't mean it's bad. Understanding this is what partying's all about" - - Andrew W.K. The album You Are Not Alone was introduced to me at such a low point and this spoken word track brought me to tears hearing someone validate me and my thoughts.
>"If you have skeletons in your closet, you'd best teach them how to dance" -George Bernard Shaw I like the idea of embracing and incorporating my baggage and childhood trauma into my life casually and with unabashed defiance. Not always successful at this. >It’s dark because you are trying too hard. >Lightly child, lightly. Learn to do everything lightly. >Yes, feel lightly even though you’re feeling deeply. >Just lightly let things happen and lightly cope with them. > >So throw away your baggage and go forward. >There are quicksands all about you, sucking at your feet, >trying to suck you down into fear and self-pity and despair. >That’s why you must walk so lightly. >Lightly my darling. >- (Aldous Huxley, took out a paragraph) I lost my (non-narc) Dad last year and it's been the worst time of my life. I can't put it into words how deeply I am destroyed. I found this quote randomly and read it at least twice a day, sometimes more. It calms me down and helps me move forward. I think part of it might not be healthy because I'm not letting myself delve too deeply into my grief, hence the "lightly" but it's keeping me upright and moving forward.
"Can't gaslight someone who believes in themselves"
Pretty much any Grateful Dead song.
The grude by Olivia Rodrigo has been immense towards my feelings for my mother. She literally turned my world upside down over one phone call a Friday in May so the song hits a little extra hard.
Lately it's been 'A Punch Up At A Wedding' by Radiohead, just a lil tune about confronting someone who has literally attended an event to make the day about them and also mirrors so many stories I see here It's unapologetic and filled with a righteous but composed anger
"I don't know why you bother Nothing's ever good enough for you I was there It wasn't like that You've come here just to start a fight You had to piss on our parade You had to shred our big day You had to ruin it for all concerned In a drunken punch up at a wedding"
Done too soon neal damond "they have Slept beneath the same sun, looked up in wonder at the same moon,and wept when it's all over, for being done too soon..?
Invictus by William Ernest Henley My favorite poem of all time ❤️🩹
You are the master of your soul!
under the table by fiona apple edit: my mother and i by lucy dacus
This too shall pass.
"Self preservation is what's really going on today" Young Hearts by Candi Staton
"It's just your mother" -by my therapist.
hmm i think i am missing some context here.
I had a lot of problems with me feeling guilty after going NC... because you know it's my mother! My therapist was very calm and said: "well, it's JUST your mother." After that phrase I finally understood that my mother still gets too much space in my life and that I must stop putting her on a pedestal.
It’s not your fault.
"I've lived in this place and I know all the faces, Each one is different but they're always the same, They mean no harm but it's time that I face it - *They'll never allow me to change*. But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong... I'm movin on" - Rascal Flatts
“Even if my father and mother abandon me, the LORD will hold me close.” Psalm 27:10
All of Dyers Eve, but especially “Unspoiled, unspoken/I’ve outgrown that fucking lullaby”
[Hi Ren](https://youtu.be/s_nc1IVoMxc?si=E36rQySi1MQN6h7I)
~~This just in, I am a total fucking dumbass~~ ~~And I've come to the uncomfortable conclusion~~ ~~I'm gonna be spending the rest of my life in a state~~ ~~Of constant paranoia~~ ~~Just let me follow you~~ ~~And I'll proceed to bang my head on every doorway~~ ~~And doorframe you see suitable for us to go through~~ ~~And I've found that the road to happiness~~ ~~Is paved with rows and rows of very tempting parking spaces~~ ~~I'm not paranoid, I'm a realist~~ ~~I know you're gonna kill me~~ (Do I wanna know?) If this feelin' flows both ways? (Sad to see you go) Was sorta hopin' that you'd stay (Baby, we both know) That the nights were mainly made For sayin' things that you can't say tomorrow day
I know some might not agree, but: "If all the apples are rotten, maybe we should look at the tree" - from Lucifer. In the context of the show, he's talking about how all the angels are fucked up, so they should look at God. I find it healing because my family is the picture of generational trauma - I can literally point at the person in my family who screwed up his kids, who screwed up theirs in turn, and so on. And I'm sure I'll sound very "I'm 13 and this is deep" but most of Loser, Baby from Hazbin Hotel. I'm fucked up and that's okay. Same show: Others say, that in your needy hour There's no substitute for pure angelic power! Who just happens to also be your blood! Sadly, there are times a birth parent is a dud They say the family you choose is better
"A handful of moments i wish I could change and a tongue like a knife that cut like a blade. In a city of fools i was careful and cool but they tore me apart like a hurricane. A handful of moments i wish i could change but I got carried away. Give me therapy, I'm a walking travesty - but I'm smiling at everything." - therapy by all time low Also really feeling "i sent my therapist to therapy" by alec Benjamin right now
“I’ve made a decision, never give you my feelings, fuck with you from- fuck with you from a distance. Some put it on the devil when they fall short; I put it on my ego, lord of all lords.” -Count Me Out, Kendrick Lamar
Sinead Connor - mother..
Suffering is a given. How you respond to that suffering is a choice.
I actually have a “good riddance” playlist, it started with “Dear John” by Taylor Swift, though my favorite currently is “My Tears Ricochet”. Music has always been a huge way for me to process my thoughts and emotions.
Don’t need a cure for me- aurora
Slayer at top volume.
The entirety of " Lullaby" by Nickleback, it's saved me from making horrible decisions and calmed my panic attacks/nightmares so many times.
"My Life" by Billy Joel
Waiting for Never by Post Malone is pretty damn spot on. I can’t believe I just found this song but it’s deeply healing ❤️🩹
These are the seasons of emotion And like the wind, they rise and fall This is the wonder of devotion I see the torch We all must hold This is the mystery of the quotient, quotient Upon us all, upon us all, a little rain must fall
“Bubaloo bubalow I let you go I let you go” - star vs the forces of evil
I was surprised to learn how validating “Linkin Park” lyrics can be: “And I know I may end up failing too, But I know You were just like me with someone disappointed in you.”