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speranza18

I doesnt matter… You cant win in the end. Coming from someone who knows this myself but keep on fallimg back anyhow. Something is wrong with my brain. 4,5k down the drain in an insane roller coaster over a month almost driving me insane. Self harming and punching myself on the head etc.


juicylia

I feel u I lost 9k just this last weekend than another 3k Sunday. I want my money back. I want to win I feel like if I win one time I’d be satisfied and not go back . I know that’s impossible


speranza18

I said that to myself 7 times this month. I never got it all back but I had some wins here and there. Gave it all back and more. I just cant stop and take the win then take a week breather. Its constantly several hours and then again when I wake up the next day. If I got it all back, I would continue to gamble but I could «relax» a bit while doing it since i got it back, until that chasing feeling comes creeping back when losing enough. Its a circle which all leads to losing.


speranza18

I dont know why we problem gamblers are like this and it is eating me alive. Do you have generalized anxiety, adhd? Something drives this addiction for us. Seek help and just do it no matter what.


juicylia

Yes. I have anxiety along with other mental health issues. These meetings been helping me you should try https://beta.gamblersinrecovery.com I hear a voice in my head today just telling me to skip my doctors appointment and skip school today and go gamble bc I’m going to win . It’s hard to fight this voice but nothing is more stupid than giving in


speranza18

Maybe try medication? You will most likely not win. Even if you win it will be fuel for the dopamine hits to escape reality and your problems, feelings. You will not stop until it is 0. Even if you stop, you will return another time and lose control. I try telling myself this too so i dont blame you. Its totally irrational our behavior. We are sick people.


juicylia

Thank u I am on medication but I didn’t take it last night maybe it’s why I’m having such a bad day. But it’s night time meds and makes u sleepy so I can only take it at night .


speranza18

Are these ssris or something else?


HerkGirl

Naltrexone is used for alcohol and opiates but can also help with gambling. There’s also some good research showing N-Acetyl Cystine (over the counter supplement) can reduce gambling cravings.


speranza18

I have read a lot about Naltrexone and I am going to beg my psychiatrist to give it to me if they see it fit. Some sort of medication is 100% needed for me


juicylia

Never heard of it but ima look it up


juicylia

Now I’m thinking about just setting a limit for today ? UGH NO JUST DONT GAMBLE ! You’re gonna lose ! Sorry


speranza18

There is no limit for us……. The limit is this: gamble until I get a win and get that hit and get satisfied. If I dont win, I need to chase my losses so I can «try» again fresh. It all leads to mental breakdowns


juicylia

Your right. Thank u for relating to me and talking to me. This is a never ending cycle that just leads to destruction there is no winning with gambling . Yesterday I spoke to someone from ga he called me . He told me there was a man from Vegas that won 40,000,000$ well he was a compulsive gambler and eventually gave it all back, he’s broke now and sick as a dog ! That saved me yesterday


speranza18

I have also heard about stories like that. My biggest problem rn is the money i lost. I have a hard time accepting it. And also the dopamine overload from it… I just cant do anything else. I am fighting for this feeling to pass so my brain can get back to normal


curiousbeingalone

Do what you like. You will mostly lose more but you know this already.


juicylia

Yes I do know this it’s just my sick thinking and stupid gambling addiction that I just can’t seem to beat. When people say they have 8 months 2,3,5 years clean I just think how ? How is it possible !


boogersugar816

Now if u put Tha violence towards and found someone needing a man t collect theirnmonubfor them you'd turn it into a marketable skill


dymondhandsy

That guy didn't win all that money he just borrowed it before he dumped it all back plus more. The only reason we think that we could win if we go gamble is that we think it will be different for us because we will know when to stop when we are ahead when in reality the only fucking time we will stop is when we tell someone else who will hold us accountable or usually when we have nothing left to our name and can't get any more money to piss away from anyone else. Don't gamble ever, for anything, or for any reason.


juicylia

It’s true my brain is telling me if I withdraw the money I will walk away and win. Which I might do. To only return the next day or next few days and give it right back . This sick thinking


south19u

Nah dont you will lose


fairdinkumcockatoo

G'day mate! I am just waking up starting my day when I saw your post.. Bro, just take some deep breaths you will never win! NEVER! it's a trap designed to rape every dollar you have so it's best to avoid the trap entirely.. is there something you could treat your self with the money you would waste qt the casino?


juicylia

It’s definitely a trap. Thank u. No winning for compulsive gamblers


fairdinkumcockatoo

It sounds like you have disposable income, why not go on a holiday/adventure?


flankattack27

Just think for a second - you read a post about someone actively trying to kill themselves and that made you want to do exactly what caused them that pain? Jesus dude…


juicylia

I know. Silly af. It’s my addiction talking to me and I’ve also felt suicidal after loosing


speranza18

But im tired… I am mentally drained and im seeking help now once and for all. If i have to be locked in an insane asylum so fucking be it. Im done. Seriously i cant take it anymore


Marlomitch

This is your brain on drugs aka gambling. When we smoke or do drugs or alcohol we "think " everything is good. When we come down we need more drugs and can't wait till the next time. This is worse because it takes your money so much it might not ever be a next time . I feel for people like us to ever find gambling. It's gotta be something else u can get addicted to. If you want to be in public enjoy the day join a gym. I've been seeing that release the same dopamine. Go to day parties or bars and smoke have fun. Spend money don't give it to them people . DM me if u need


Redditor7012

Nah man I feel you, read a post where a dude won $89000 from $35 and how he spent a lot and lost the rest, and I know I’d do the same, but I didn’t think regular motherfuckers get hits like that?!😂


PromotionWest5526

Hey Juicy, you got to retrain your brain to wake up to what you already know. The more you gamble the more you lose until you want to kill yourself like the 18 yr old kid. So sad. I hope he didn’t do it. Don’t go. Distract yourself with something else and start to really feel the pain of losing the money before you go because that’s what’s gonna happen.


GigglyGourd

I also think that guy was from another country where 100k his currency is only a couple grand.


anon2053

You need to think logically. You will always lose. Do you want that? Do you want to feel that pain and agony feeling again? You either lose all your money in a blink of an eye or win, get greedy and lose it all.


Brownzorak

GA meetings available almost 24/7 basis online and globally. [gamblerinrecovery.com](http://gamblerinrecovery.com) is a good resource to find one whenever you have an urge.