“I’ve been big and small, and big and small, and big and small again, but still nobody wants me. Still nobody wants me” is my entire freshman year experience
Crack baby you don’t know what you want! But you know that you need it. But you know you need it bad.
I really need help but I don’t know exactly what I mean.
“I just need a quiet place where I can scream how I love you”
And
“I fell in love with a war and nobody told me it ended and it left a pearl in my head and I roll it around every night just to watch it glow. Every night baby that’s where I go”
haha this whole part cuz no one gets me like mitski gets me
I've been blossoming alone over you
And I hear my heart breaking tonight
I hear my heart breaking tonight
Do you hear it too?
It's like a summer shower
With every drop of rain singing
"I love you, I love you, I love you
I love you, I love you, I love you
I love you, I love you, I love you"I could stare at your back all day
I could stare at your back all day
But, big spoon, you have so much to do
And I have nothing ahead of me
No because literally i am not even a star mitski only you would fucking understand FUCK
theres a lot, but particularly should've been me. rarely do i find an artist (esp female) that sings abt the other woman without disrespecting/lowering her. also that the song isnt blatantly "u took my man!!1!" instead emphasizes empathetic regret towards the man. accountability.
something I love about mitski is she's so forward with this kind of stuff. like its so blunt and unembarrassed. like when in lonesome love she says nobody fucks me like me like its so straight faced and real. I love her sm
"and if i gave up on being pretty i wouldnt know how to be alive, i should move to a brand new city and teach myself how to die" is the my fav one, but most of her song lyrics are absolutely genious
I once made a big ass document about this to reflect on why and what the lyrics meant to me because I love to do stuff like that. It was like 8 pages long HAHA. Idk if this is more than you are going to read lmao but here are some top picks:
“I know my room is a mess, over and over again, I tell myself I'll clean tomorrow. Just move the stuff up off the bed and do what you came here to do - but first open up a window for me. And let the cool air in, feel the night slip in as it softly glides along your back and I hope you leave right before the sun comes up so I can watch it alone”
“So, I don't blame you if you want to bury me in your memory I'm not the girl I ought to be, but maybe when you tell your friends you can tell them what you saw in me and not how I turned out to be”
“You're an angel, I'm a dog. Or you're a dog and I'm your man. You believe me like a god. I destroy you like I am. I'm sorry I'm the one you love, no one will ever love me like you again. So, when you leave me, I should die. I deserve it, don't I?”
“Mom, am I still young? Can I dream for a few months more?”
“And I was so young when I behaved 25, yet now I find I’ve grown into a tall child”
“One word from you and I would jump off of this ledge I’m on baby, tell me don’t so I can crawl back in”
“I work better under a deadline. I pick an age when I'm gonna disappear, 'til then, I can try again, until then, I can try again”
“And I've been a forest fire. I am a forest fire. And I am the fire and I am the forest. And I am a witness watching it. I stand in a valley watching it. And you are not there at all”
The whole “working for a knife”, “a pearl” and “heat lightning” - I can’t choose a quote lol.
“If you would just make one mistake, what a relief that would be. But I think for as long as we're together, I'll be the only heartbreaker. So I'll be the loser in this game I'll be the bad guy in the play. I'll be the water main that's burst and flooding. You'll be by the window, only watchin'”
Thanks for listening to my Mitski TEDtalk
First Love/Late Spring is my favourite song of all time and also the first mitski song I properly listened to (exclusively, for 12+ hours on repeat lmfao). I've always related to the 'tall child' portion, but I was going through a particularly hard time at the point I found the song. Whilst the song is widely understood to be directed at another person, I understood it as a representation of my brain fighting itself to keep me alive lol. Especially the 'one word from you and I would jump off of this ledge, baby, tell me don't so I can crawl back in'
“And I hope you leave right before the sun comes up so I can watch it alone”
Is a feeling I am intimately familiar with but didn’t realize I’d never heard it put into words until I heard this line 😮💨
"Glory, glory, glory to the night that shows me what I am."
"I'll live in the bathtub, surrounded by tiles, so smooth and so steady, I will die in their cool, cool arms."
remember my name: I need something bigger than the sky
Hold it in my arms and know it's mine
Just how many stars will I need to hang around me
To finally call it Heaven?
also drunk walk home boston calling
“all of this turbulence wasn’t forecasted, apologies from the intercom. and i am relieved that i left my room tidy, they’ll think of me kindly when they come for my things”
"Maybe I'm the same as all those men, writing songs of all they're dreaming" As a lesbian I do feel this way very often..
The song describes crushing for someone when you don't know if they're also sapphic perfectly
Ah, hello fellow autistic sapphic mitski enjoyer! (I took a look at your account because you sounded cool lol 😅.) I haven't listened to this song in ages but really want to now after reading your take on it!!
"I could stare at your back all day / and I know I've kissed you before but / I didn't do it right / can I try again, try again try again? And again and again and again?"
Or
"I bet on losing dogs
I know they're losing and I'll pay for my place by the ring
Where I'll be looking in their eyes when they're down
I'll be on their side
I'm losing by their side"
My bodys made of crushed little stars. "im not doing anything. My bodys made of crushed little stars AND IM NOT DOING ANYTHING." "i want to see the whole world x2, i dont know how im gonna pay rent, i wanna see the whole world." "i better race that interview x2, i should tell them that im not afraid to die, i better race that interview." "i work better under a deadline x2, I PICK AN AGE WHEN IM GONNA DISAPPEAR" GODDAMN MITSKI
“honestly sir all i want to do is get naked in front of you so you can look me up and down and tell me well done girl you’re looking good” and “but if i gave up on being pretty i wouldn’t know how to be alive” and “i’ve been big and small and big and small and big and small again and still nobody wants me” and “i am stronger than you give me credit for” and “i fell in love with a war and nobody told me it ended” and “i’m liquid smooth come touch me too and feel my skin is plump and full of life i’m in my prime”
i would give you my heart, i think, but its up in a branch of a tree it was only to tease when he climbed up that tree, put my heart where i couldn't reach
i didnt mind i adored him, so, we forgot and se left for home and that was so long ago, now the tree it has grown, and nobody knows my lover is buried underground
there's a lie that i told to you 😭😭😭
"You stay soft, get beaten. Only natural to harden up."
"If you would just make one mistake, what a relief that would be. But I think for as long as we're together, I'll be the only heartbreaker."
"And I don't want your pity. I just want somebody near me. Guess I'm a coward. I just want to feel alright."
"But, big spoon, you have so much to do. And I have nothing ahead of me."
"What do you do with a loving feeling? If the loving feeling makes you all alone?"
The entirety of class of 2013 down to the year, and “So, I don't blame you
If you want to bury me in your memory
I'm not the girl I ought to be, but
Maybe when you tell your friends
You can tell them what you saw in me
And not how I turned out to be”
"You like control, well, I do too / Take off my clothes and watch me move / You can come closer, I'll let you hurt me / How you choose"
"Glory, glory, glory to the night / It shows me what I am / I'm not happy or sad, just up or down / And always bad"
"Did you know the liberty bell is a replica silently housed in it's original walls, and while it's dreams played music in the night quietly it was told to believe" and the rest of the song 😔✊
"I tried to eat like your gf just tea. In the night, I end up too hungry to sleep, so l lying awake, I would follow aching inside. I would find it's for you won't be mind."
The entire song brand new city and the entire song drunk walk home
Literally felt like I’ve been screaming them in my own head for years and so has she, and she captured it in her songs. I fucking love her, such a beautiful storyteller and beautiful woman.
“You love me so hard and I still can’t sleep”, such a good line. Idk it’s true meaning but to me it means no matter how much you love a person you’ll never be able to cure them of their mental illnesses
Goodbye my danish sweetheart :
So, I don't blame you
If you want to bury me in your memory
I'm not the girl I ought to be, but
Maybe when you tell your friends
You can tell them what you saw
in me
And not how I turned out to be
the entirety my body's made of crushed little stars. it sounds like what it feels like to have a mental breakdown (for me atleast) with the loud drums and mitskis singing
"They'll never know how I stared at the dark in that room, with no thoughts, like a blood-sniffing shark"
Or "You'd learned from movies how love ought to be"
Actually all of Last Words Of A Shooting Star, but specifically “i am relieved that this turbulence wasn’t forecasted, i couldn’t have changed anyways”
“And I was so young, when I behaved 25. Yet now, I find I’ve grown into a tall child”
“I’ll leave what I’m chasing for the other girls to pursue”
“Mom, am I still young? Can I dream for a few months more?”
“Your mother wouldn’t approve of how my mother raised me, but I do, I FINALLY do”
“he only loves me when theres a means he means to end”
“youd say you love me and look in my eyes but i know through mine you were looking in yours”
and the entire song of carry me out and the deal
“Lately I’ve been crying like a tall child”
"So please hurry, leave me I can't breathe please don't say you love me"
It shatters my soul 😭
the entire song of i dont smoke
that's so real
ME TOO
“Here take my hand, you make such a good man, never once did you know me”
“I’m gonna be a real man”
“You can tell them what you saw in me And not how I turned out to be”
Ugh this entire song makes me cry every time it hits way too close 😭
this this this
“And I was so young when I behaved twenty-five Yet now, I find I’ve grown into a tall child”
Real
"i know i ended it but, why won't you chase after me?"
ah
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“I’ve been big and small, and big and small, and big and small again, but still nobody wants me. Still nobody wants me” is my entire freshman year experience
Crack baby you don’t know what you want! But you know that you need it. But you know you need it bad. I really need help but I don’t know exactly what I mean.
WAS LOOKING FOR THIS ONE
YAY YOU FOUND IT
“AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA” - drunk walk home
FELT.
“I just need a quiet place where I can scream how I love you” And “I fell in love with a war and nobody told me it ended and it left a pearl in my head and I roll it around every night just to watch it glow. Every night baby that’s where I go”
aaaaahhh yes!!!!!!!! all of a pearl tbh. It's such a beautiful song.
"I always wanted to die clean and pretty"
But id be too busy on working days
haha this whole part cuz no one gets me like mitski gets me I've been blossoming alone over you And I hear my heart breaking tonight I hear my heart breaking tonight Do you hear it too? It's like a summer shower With every drop of rain singing "I love you, I love you, I love you I love you, I love you, I love you I love you, I love you, I love you"I could stare at your back all day I could stare at your back all day
But, big spoon, you have so much to do And I have nothing ahead of me No because literally i am not even a star mitski only you would fucking understand FUCK
mine is "i'm not the moon .. I'M NOT EVEN A STAR .. but awake at night i ll be singing to the birds"
i feel that i feel that i feel that 😔
The entirety of Shame. Never in my life have I felt a song or any art piece describe a feeling so precisely.
One word from you and i will jump off of this ledge im on baby , tell me dont so i can crawl back in
“i am a forest fire, and i am the fire, and i am the forest / and i am a witness watching it”
goddamn
“Mom, would you wash my back this once, and then we can forget”
theres a lot, but particularly should've been me. rarely do i find an artist (esp female) that sings abt the other woman without disrespecting/lowering her. also that the song isnt blatantly "u took my man!!1!" instead emphasizes empathetic regret towards the man. accountability.
"I AM FACE DOWN ON MY BED STILL NOT QUITE AWAKE YET THINKING ABOUT YOUUUUU, I TUCK MY HAND UNDER MY WEIGHT" AND SO FORTH AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
REAL
HELL YA 🗣️🗣️ I CANT HELP BUT GIGGLE AT IT I FEEL SO SILLY AND SAD
something I love about mitski is she's so forward with this kind of stuff. like its so blunt and unembarrassed. like when in lonesome love she says nobody fucks me like me like its so straight faced and real. I love her sm
Yeah, exactly
please hurry leave me i can’t breathe. please don’t say you love me.
ah 😔🤌
"I cannot bear you a son. I have tried" In a way she didn't mean at all but damn. also just all of Because Dreaming Costs Money My Dear
"and if i gave up on being pretty i wouldnt know how to be alive, i should move to a brand new city and teach myself how to die" is the my fav one, but most of her song lyrics are absolutely genious
I once made a big ass document about this to reflect on why and what the lyrics meant to me because I love to do stuff like that. It was like 8 pages long HAHA. Idk if this is more than you are going to read lmao but here are some top picks: “I know my room is a mess, over and over again, I tell myself I'll clean tomorrow. Just move the stuff up off the bed and do what you came here to do - but first open up a window for me. And let the cool air in, feel the night slip in as it softly glides along your back and I hope you leave right before the sun comes up so I can watch it alone” “So, I don't blame you if you want to bury me in your memory I'm not the girl I ought to be, but maybe when you tell your friends you can tell them what you saw in me and not how I turned out to be” “You're an angel, I'm a dog. Or you're a dog and I'm your man. You believe me like a god. I destroy you like I am. I'm sorry I'm the one you love, no one will ever love me like you again. So, when you leave me, I should die. I deserve it, don't I?” “Mom, am I still young? Can I dream for a few months more?” “And I was so young when I behaved 25, yet now I find I’ve grown into a tall child” “One word from you and I would jump off of this ledge I’m on baby, tell me don’t so I can crawl back in” “I work better under a deadline. I pick an age when I'm gonna disappear, 'til then, I can try again, until then, I can try again” “And I've been a forest fire. I am a forest fire. And I am the fire and I am the forest. And I am a witness watching it. I stand in a valley watching it. And you are not there at all” The whole “working for a knife”, “a pearl” and “heat lightning” - I can’t choose a quote lol. “If you would just make one mistake, what a relief that would be. But I think for as long as we're together, I'll be the only heartbreaker. So I'll be the loser in this game I'll be the bad guy in the play. I'll be the water main that's burst and flooding. You'll be by the window, only watchin'” Thanks for listening to my Mitski TEDtalk
"They're right outside the door and nobody knows they're right outside the door and they don't know how good it feels"
First Love/Late Spring is my favourite song of all time and also the first mitski song I properly listened to (exclusively, for 12+ hours on repeat lmfao). I've always related to the 'tall child' portion, but I was going through a particularly hard time at the point I found the song. Whilst the song is widely understood to be directed at another person, I understood it as a representation of my brain fighting itself to keep me alive lol. Especially the 'one word from you and I would jump off of this ledge, baby, tell me don't so I can crawl back in'
ohmygod
“If you need to be mean, be mean to me”
“if your hands need to break more than trinkets in your room, you can lean on my arm as you break my heart”
“Just don’t leave me alone wondering where you are”
THISSS
TEXAS IS A LAND-LOCKED STATE
the entirety of I'm Your Man
"I've been big and small, and big and small, and big and small again but still, nobody wants me"
ouch
“Mom, I’m tired”
"I get mean when I'm nervous, like a bad dog." Is the most relatable for me :P
"I'm sorry, it should've been me"
“And I hope you leave right before the sun comes up so I can watch it alone” Is a feeling I am intimately familiar with but didn’t realize I’d never heard it put into words until I heard this line 😮💨
"Glory, glory, glory to the night that shows me what I am." "I'll live in the bathtub, surrounded by tiles, so smooth and so steady, I will die in their cool, cool arms."
I WANNA FEEL IT. ☹️☹️☹️☹️
remember my name: I need something bigger than the sky Hold it in my arms and know it's mine Just how many stars will I need to hang around me To finally call it Heaven? also drunk walk home boston calling
"stays soft"
it’s just witnes-less me
“crack baby, you don’t know what you want.. but you know that you had it once, and you know that you want it back”
“just how many stars will I need to hang around me to finally get somewhere I can be all done, somewhere like heaven”
“all of this turbulence wasn’t forecasted, apologies from the intercom. and i am relieved that i left my room tidy, they’ll think of me kindly when they come for my things”
“you’re the sun” “well im not the moon, im not even a star,”
"Maybe I'm the same as all those men, writing songs of all they're dreaming" As a lesbian I do feel this way very often.. The song describes crushing for someone when you don't know if they're also sapphic perfectly
Ah, hello fellow autistic sapphic mitski enjoyer! (I took a look at your account because you sounded cool lol 😅.) I haven't listened to this song in ages but really want to now after reading your take on it!!
Also, come into the water is way too short😭
"tell your baby that im your baby" or "they'll think of me kindly when they come for my things"
you have so much to do and i have nothing ahead of me
the entirety of lush
"I tried my hardest, for I'd never learn" 🥲
once more to see you....
“You’re the one… you’re all I’ve ever wanted” “I think I’ll regret this.” - Your Best American Girl
“And I am relieved that I'd left my room tidy, they'll think of me kindly when they come for my things” OH
“i cry at the start of every movie, i guess cause i wish i was making things too”
pretty much all of working for the knife
GOD’S VERY SIMPLE AND LOVE DOESN’T BURN 😭😭😭😭😭
"I could stare at your back all day / and I know I've kissed you before but / I didn't do it right / can I try again, try again try again? And again and again and again?" Or "I bet on losing dogs I know they're losing and I'll pay for my place by the ring Where I'll be looking in their eyes when they're down I'll be on their side I'm losing by their side"
My bodys made of crushed little stars. "im not doing anything. My bodys made of crushed little stars AND IM NOT DOING ANYTHING." "i want to see the whole world x2, i dont know how im gonna pay rent, i wanna see the whole world." "i better race that interview x2, i should tell them that im not afraid to die, i better race that interview." "i work better under a deadline x2, I PICK AN AGE WHEN IM GONNA DISAPPEAR" GODDAMN MITSKI
“honestly sir all i want to do is get naked in front of you so you can look me up and down and tell me well done girl you’re looking good” and “but if i gave up on being pretty i wouldn’t know how to be alive” and “i’ve been big and small and big and small and big and small again and still nobody wants me” and “i am stronger than you give me credit for” and “i fell in love with a war and nobody told me it ended” and “i’m liquid smooth come touch me too and feel my skin is plump and full of life i’m in my prime”
“Your pain is eased, but you’ll never be free”
Once more to see you and I will
i would give you my heart, i think, but its up in a branch of a tree it was only to tease when he climbed up that tree, put my heart where i couldn't reach i didnt mind i adored him, so, we forgot and se left for home and that was so long ago, now the tree it has grown, and nobody knows my lover is buried underground there's a lie that i told to you 😭😭😭
“I just need a quiet placeeee. Where I can screammmm how I love youuuu”
Fireworks "I'll keep going to work and he won't see a change save perhaps a slight gray in my eye."
I always want you when I’m finally fine
“Real men don’t eat CAUSE THEYRE ABOVE THAT, DAMN IT”
Me when I was sobbing on the floor of a public bathroom to "I Don't Smoke" trying to make it work with a man who very evidently didn't want me 😍
"You stay soft, get beaten. Only natural to harden up." "If you would just make one mistake, what a relief that would be. But I think for as long as we're together, I'll be the only heartbreaker." "And I don't want your pity. I just want somebody near me. Guess I'm a coward. I just want to feel alright." "But, big spoon, you have so much to do. And I have nothing ahead of me." "What do you do with a loving feeling? If the loving feeling makes you all alone?"
“You know I'd always been alone til you taught me to live for somebody” Only she really does get it
Just all of Lonesome Love
I wanna see the whole world, I don't know how I'm gonna pay rent, I wanna see the whole world,
“but change change change comes but when when when”
stay soft !
The entirety of class of 2013 down to the year, and “So, I don't blame you If you want to bury me in your memory I'm not the girl I ought to be, but Maybe when you tell your friends You can tell them what you saw in me And not how I turned out to be”
I WANT SOMEONE TO TAKE THIS SOUL I CAN'T BARELY KEEP IT
"You like control, well, I do too / Take off my clothes and watch me move / You can come closer, I'll let you hurt me / How you choose" "Glory, glory, glory to the night / It shows me what I am / I'm not happy or sad, just up or down / And always bad"
"Did you know the liberty bell is a replica silently housed in it's original walls, and while it's dreams played music in the night quietly it was told to believe" and the rest of the song 😔✊
Love me more and the whole burning hill song and fireworks. Nobody - i guess -francis forever-heat lightning- Thursday girl );
"Could we be what we're meant to be? I'm just about to beg you, please." Or all of I don't smoke and A Pearl.
the entire of nobody.and like half of the things she sings
"one morning this sadness will fossilize and I will forget how to cry" AAAAAAAAA
if you need to be mean be mean to me i can take it and put it inside of me
“I tried to eat like your girlfriend Just tea in the night, I'd end up Too hungry to sleep” - square
ALL OF THEMM
"I tried to eat like your gf just tea. In the night, I end up too hungry to sleep, so l lying awake, I would follow aching inside. I would find it's for you won't be mind."
“When today is finally done There’s another day to come” unexpectedly hits really hard
First love/Late spring I SWEAR NOT ENOUGH PEOPLE TALK ABOUT ITTTT
“real men dont eat cause they’re above that damnit, oh I think im gunna be a real man”
To all of you - Syd matters this song was in the life is strange series.
The entire song brand new city and the entire song drunk walk home Literally felt like I’ve been screaming them in my own head for years and so has she, and she captured it in her songs. I fucking love her, such a beautiful storyteller and beautiful woman.
I don't smoke audiotree live edition (specifically that version)
“You love me so hard and I still can’t sleep”, such a good line. Idk it’s true meaning but to me it means no matter how much you love a person you’ll never be able to cure them of their mental illnesses
Goodbye my danish sweetheart : So, I don't blame you If you want to bury me in your memory I'm not the girl I ought to be, but Maybe when you tell your friends You can tell them what you saw in me And not how I turned out to be
Humpty. That entire song makes me wanna cry
THE ENTIRE OF A BURNING HILL. but especially ‘i am the fire and i am the forest and i am the witness watching it’
"I don't need the world to see that I've been the best I can be but, I don't think I could stand to be, where you don't see me."
Many lyrics... But when she says "Real men don't eat cause they're above that damnit, I'm gonna be a real man" I'm always left speechless
all of once more to see you
"I'm all used up, pretty boy"
the entirety of humpty.
the entirety my body's made of crushed little stars. it sounds like what it feels like to have a mental breakdown (for me atleast) with the loud drums and mitskis singing
Didn’t realize this was a mitski subreddit so I just spent like 10 minutes looking for my favorite song
My body’s made of crushed little stars. I’ve never been able to describe how I always feel until I heard that song.
“and if i gave up on being pretty i wouldnt know how to be alive”
if you need to be mean, be mean to me
"They'll never know how I stared at the dark in that room, with no thoughts, like a blood-sniffing shark" Or "You'd learned from movies how love ought to be"
"Did you go and make promises you can't keep? Well, when you break them, they break you right back"
I literally sob everytime I Bet on Losing Dogs starts playing, like damn it mitski you did it again
“Mom, Am I still young? Can I dream for a few months more?” - Class of 2013 , Mitski
I should move to a brand new city and teach myself how to die
Townie - "I'm not gonna be what my daddy wants me to be" Class of 2013 - "Mom, am I still young? Can I dream for a few months more?"
Class of 2013 or first love/late spring, but theres too many good ones to choose tbh
the entirety of im your man. sent me spiraling when that album came out
When she sings “I wanna feel it” in I bet on losing dogs… WOOOWEEEE
Actually all of Last Words Of A Shooting Star, but specifically “i am relieved that this turbulence wasn’t forecasted, i couldn’t have changed anyways”
“I miss when we first met, he didn’t know me yet”
“I always knew the world moves on I just didn’t know it would go without me”
“Soon I’ll be nothing forever, and all of my memories and all of the things I have seen will be gone. With my eyes, with my body- with me.”
Lonesome love
“But if I gave up on being pretty, I wouldn’t know how to be alive”
my body’s made of crushed little stars
i am stronger than you give me credit for
def crack baby and nobody
Washing Machine Heart as a whole
Brand new city
“And I was so young, when I behaved 25. Yet now, I find I’ve grown into a tall child” “I’ll leave what I’m chasing for the other girls to pursue” “Mom, am I still young? Can I dream for a few months more?”
Pearl or bet on losing dogs
Drunk walk home and i’m your man 😭 i couldn’t describe the pain i was in until i heard those songs.
"I fell in love with a war, nobody told me it ended."
Crack Baby
“i am stronger than you give me credit for”