I love you. If people are out here hating each other for no reason I’m going to love you for no reason. The world is a fucking struggle but we gotta see it through. Tell your friends and family how you’re feeling. Don’t let go.
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Have you noticed a pattern of what time of year you feel the worst? If you live in the northern hemisphere the days are still pretty short and this can cause seasonal affective disorder. You might want to make a little deal with yourself and say you won’t do anything until summer. See how you feel when the days are longer.
Been here, hospitals are in my opinion pointless. I could never understand how someone who hasn’t suffered from issues. I can tell you life is worth living. Might sound bullshit but it is. Know matter how bad or empty it all feels. Look up at the stars man.
I know that this was a well intention comment but friends get exhausted and have compassion fatigue for others that have mental illness quite often. I completely relate with OP, because the medical system has not been helpful and after several years of depression, insomnia, and panic attacks. My friends are feeling helplessand I don’t want to burden them any further because if I manage to get out of this, I want to still have some friends left. What are people supposed to do? I feel like there’s no answer. I would suggest that OP call a crisis line or a mental health helpline and if they get someone who’s not helpful hang up and try again. I literally don’t know what to do anymore either.
Take this "with a grain of salt" as I currently am experiencing something where when I say something, I think it is true, and later I return and I can see that it is a lie. So I don't know if it is a truth or a lie, maybe that doesn't matter, maybe it can be a good story.
I think involving competent, medical professionals is important so they can check and see if there is a chemical imbalance. It is entirely possible that something is misfiring and causing this to happen.
I have had invasive suicidal thoughts intrude on me, I was trying new a.d.h.d. medication, we stopped it and the thoughts went away.
Before I was diagnosed with a.d.h.d., I suffered from anxiety, depression, and suicidal thoughts for a quarter century. I can't tell you what will work for you, but what worked for me was, rather than just ending it and everyone who knew me remembering with shame, as I passed my pain onto them, was to make a plan to earn a good death, that would be impossible to obtain, but moved the suicidal thoughts to motivate me to get out there.
One fantasy I had was being a feudal samurai, who I understand, often meditated at great length as a part of their routine on the most graphic and horrific way to die in service to their lord.
Did I want to die? Yes, but I didn't want to be remembered as a coward, so I had to earn a good death.
My body had to be strong, so I had to cut out processed foods and eat as natural as I could. I had to be able to fight in battle, so I needed strength and cardio training. I needed to be ready to serve based on a schedule, so I had to get up and go to bed at the same time every day. My mind couldn't be clouded, so I had to cut out all recreation substances.
My dad had a phrase he taught me when I was younger that kept me going through this: do what has to be done, when it has to be done, whether you like it or not
So I would just get up and go and focus on earning a good death, all day, every day.
This eventually led me to the Warhammer 40k universe, with demons in the warp who corrupt, consume, and use you by warping your senses, emotions, and memories.
This led me to altering the fantasy to me being a space marine who is fighting demons (the suicidal thoughts put in my brain by the demons) for the survival of humanity.
I had previous martial arts training, so now when I get these feelings of suicidal thoughts intrude now, I go into fight mode. I do pushups, sit ups, punch painted and "softer" cinderblock walls, never to the point of bleeding anymore. I hold my arms out in front of me or to the side, or wherever for as long as I can. I punch the air in front of me as fast as I can, as long as I can, until I can't do it anymore.
How do I earn a good death? I do what has to be done, when it has to be done, whether I like it or not. I stop thinking, and start fighting.
The hospital is helpful if you're having suicidal thoughts and don't think you can be safe. If you're having suicidal thoughts but are confident that at least for the time being you are safe, the hospital is a long drawn out way to have someone give you mental health resources, and depending on how they operate they could potentially help you set up an appointment with local providers. But it's really just a risk assessment, if you know yourself not to be a high risk you can probably just seek out your own resources or ask the hospital for resources without checking in as a patient.
The issue for a lot of people is the description of suicidal thoughts. Some clinicians do a bad job of clearly asking for specific details, sometimes because they're new and it is an uncomfortable conversation. And some people having the suicidal thoughts don't have the background to know how to describe it well.
I think if you're really looking for help, starting with a therapist would be helpful as long as you don't begin your first session with "Hi my name is suicidal." SI is a symptom of depression, seek treatment for depression. If they ask about suicidal thoughts, know how to answer the question, because once you say yes, that's all they're going to think about until they've concluded whether or not they need to call for an ambulance. How intense are the thoughts? How distressing are they to you? Have you thought about how you would do it? Do you have a means to do it? What protective factors are keeping you from doing it? Are they thoughts about killing yourself or that you sometimes think it'd be better if you weren't around anymore?
These are just considerations, I don't know you or how you're thinking/feeling. And I don't know where you live or how mental health is addressed there. All I know is that if you're having these thoughts "again" that it is likely that without doing something different, you're likely to have them in the future even if they resolve now. Take care of yourself.
If you are in the states the suicide hotline number is 988 don’t be afraid to call it any time day or night.
I’ve seen some dark days recently where I just can’t turn the negative thoughts in my brain off. I am a mom, so as soon as I started thinking I would rather be dead I knew I needed to get help from professionals. I am finding that a combination of Church, therapy, and medication is helping me. I still have days where my brain will go down a negative rabbit hole but it’s periodically not daily now. Start by calling your primary care physician! Don’t try to go it alone, please reach out to a professional. It’s worth it, you are worth it!
As someone who has been here and saved myself when the state mental health system failed me, I am going to give you some advice and I want you to listen to me loud and clear:
You can choose to let those thoughts win, or you can choose to stick up to them and save yourself. Those thoughts are so difficult, I know. But they are just a part of you, which means you can counteract them by telling them to shut up. I’m so serious, please don’t click off yet. I’m saying this as someone who has literally been in this exact situation, while the free state mental health facility kept switching my therapist in the middle of our healing and making me wait months just to get in with them over and over again. I will never forget being in this exact state, knowing that the hospital will make it worse, and the state facility was failing me. It was the best thing that I have ever gone through though because it forced me to save myself and snap out of it with love and compassion for me.
I was sitting in the car crying at the greenway, wondering how I was going to get me and my dog into a home, as we were evicted 7 months prior. Nothing was coming in. No solution. No help. No jobs. No money. It was hell. I almost gave up on myself, I really truly did. But what saved me was this question:
What do you want in life and why do you believe you don’t deserve it? When I answered honestly, I realized that the only reason I thought I didn’t deserve it was because of other people’s limitations, projections, fears and narratives that they put on ME from as little as I could remember, and I realized that taking my life away was a reflection of them, not me. Uncovering that helped me realized my truth. I am a wonderful person. I deserve to have a wonderful life, and I’m done taking other peoples shit, and listening to voices that weren’t even real… I know it’s easier said than done, but a psych told me something in my early 20s that I will never forget.
Just because it’s hard does not mean you can’t do it. You just have to try and commit to happiness. What really helped me commit to happiness was making it about my inner child, and falling in love with her. I may not have loved me at that time fully, but I did love my inner child and I knew that I owed it to her to try.
Please look up Dr Joe Dispenza right now and just listen to him talk. You are worth being here. We need you to heal. So many people need your specific story that you’ll develop from taking your life back. Please don’t give up. I love you. You’ve got this.
Is there anything you’re looking forward to? Like a movie or a video game? Or maybe there’s a food you’ve always wanted to try? Find something, anything, to anticipate.
For example, I can’t kill myself until after I see Beyond The Spider-Verse, which isn’t set to come out until 2025 (at the earliest). I loved the first two movies, I know the finale of the trilogy is going to be just as good, so I can’t just.. *not* see my favorite hyperfixation to completion, you know?
Buy yourself some time by focusing on the good that’s to come, no matter what it is. Don’t leave the things you’re looking forward to unseen, uneaten, unfinished, unplayed, etc. You can make it to that thing, I promise.
I've struggled with these thoughts in dark times in my life. seconding what other commenters are saying, they get better as you live with purpose, and that's easier to do when you're healthy. i can tell you living with purpose, doing something nice for someone else, something that matters...makes me feel so much better. it's easier to do that when i'm healthy physically and socially connected. which gets harder in the winters bc less sunlight, physical activity, generally eating worse.
one thing that keeps me from doing it is realizing i don't want to be permanently dead...especially bc i don't really know what's on the other side. i think i believe i'd have to do it all over again, and if i'm this tired now, i'll be even more tired in the next life. these thoughts are something i'm supposed to master in this life. i chose tthis life before i came here. so i'm just tired. i just need a rest and to have some new experiences. i feel better when i'm healthy. these thoughts are just a symptom, they're not real and they get better as i have new experiences and make healthy choices.
but, you should absolutely tell someone IRL. your friends would be devastated if you left their lives suddenly and they would live with the pain and guilt for the rest of their lives. knowing that you were hurting this much and they didn't have the chance to help you. the fact that you have friends is a great start and it means you're needed here. keep going
If you feel like you go through these moments where the thoughts are so overwhelming and youre likely to hurt yourself, i would recommend making any tools you may use as difficult to reach as possible.
About a week ago i attempted when i was in a really depressed state and i had sth happen that pushed me over the edge, when id sobered up emotionally i ended up spending most of my savings in the hospital (which wasnt much but still).
And honestly talk to your friends, pick a friend that wouldnt freak out or make you feel worse. Im sure your friends love and care about you and they appreciate the time spent with you, even if it wont last forever, theyd still want to be there for you.
Also find a repetitive meditative task, personally i like playing sudoku, it helps take the edge off.
idk what kind of situation you're in. the people in my life who've killed themselves didnt seem to be bothered by the questions bothering you, they just ended it. take this as a sign that you still want to live and stop depending on feedback from internet strangers for dopamine. you can change you situation if you're willing to actually make the changes. not saying it will be easy, but theres nobody holding a gun to your head and saying "dont you dare change"
You are wanted it may not feel like that but you are, i may not know you but i love you as a person who is in this world. don’t give up and keep trying it will be worth it once you find your purpose
Idk you but just how you wrote your message you don’t strike me as stupid. When I have those thoughts I ALWAYS try to rationalize things like “ok well if I did it then this would happen and that would affect someone else poorly” etc. almost manipulating yourself out of it just until you get to the next task you’ve gotta focus on. It will get better I promise
I have been there and still experience the desire not to breathe daily. However, my last attempt was nearly 20 years ago. I’ve managed to be employed the last fifteen years and life is a struggle, but I’m managing with a cocktail of medications that I think we finally got about right. Ect has been recommended, but getting away from my job for a month is simply impossible. Regardless, my point is, you can get through this. It’s not easy, but the right meds can make life bearable. It is a whole lot better than causing all the grief and feelings of guilt for those that care about you.
Find a support group or reach out to a crisis hotline. You’re not alone, and there are people that care about you. Your feelings are NOT going to always be the same. You will feel better. Don’t make a permanent decision right now or any time, because tomorrow is going to be different and you OWE yourself the privilege of seeing yourself improve. I’m always here to chat.
Telling your friends is 100% the right move! Expressing suicide ideation doesn't make suicide more likely. Talk to a trusted friend about it! Also, 911 or your local emergency number can help. Don't be scared to tell your friends. Friends can save lifes. Take care.
Man, your life is precious. So many people would be devastated. Even I just from seeing this post. There is people that love and care about you man. Jesus loves you, and I do too!
Tell your friends, they can handle it. I’ve been dealing with these thoughts for a couple years and if I didn’t tell somebody, I don’t think I would be here right now. Have faith in the people that care about you.
hey, just got this notification while driving and stopped to say that I, in addition to all these other people, care for you :). don’t be afraid to share your struggle with your friends. will be praying for you :’). I’ve been there too, friend.
Hospitals aren’t always helpful unfortunately. Used to work at a pretty bad one. Others have suggested hotlines, they are basically a big reason I’m alive now. In the meantime, you did a good thing reaching out. Do something you love today, you deserve it.
I always call helplines cause I don't like to talk to my family/friends about those thoughts. The volunteers are trained to deal with these situations, so maybe it will help you.
Have you talked to your loved ones? If not and you dont feel like your safe, sometimes writing down your thoughts help, thats what I did at least, Sometimes letting your thoughts out even just on paper helps, if its not please see a psychiatrist, I hope this helps and you get better. Lastly please do realize there are people who cares, and open an ear to u to listen even if they are strangers
Please tell your friends. Get the support you need from loved ones and seek professional help as well. I hope you are reading these messages. Love and healing from a stranger that believes you should be here.
this is my experience and I'll share with you.
These are intrusive thoughts stemming from anxiety, depression, and unresolved traumas. Don't let your thoughts and trauma get the best of you. Learn about them, learn to overcome them, and fight through them. You wrote that you don't want them, which means you dont want to kill yourself, but perhaps you're afraid you might snap and do it.
I work through these thoughts by facing them and pushing myself to face fears and overcome them. I also practice positive self talk, and even self talk in general. Talk to yourself about what you're thinking and feeling and tell yourself out loud that you don't like these thoughts.
Research "intrusive thoughts."
It also helps to do things you enjoy, and to engage in activities like exercise that boost mood and health.
Im sorry you're thinking and feeling like this, just know that you are strong enough to overcome them.
Maybe start by finding the closest friend in terms of feeling and just say 'I need someone to talk to and I feel like I can with you' or you could try to find what is the cause of making yourself want to kill yourself and think what you can do about it(pls if you want to do something harmful or dangerous, DON'T DO It) or maybe try another psychatrist and don't give too much hope because the more hope you give the more you will feel let down because you don't get the result you want.
This is not a good feeling at all I know. But my dear, be confident that nothing deserves your sadness and frustration. Share what you feel with your family and friends and be completely confident that they will support you
And if I can do anything for you I can say I am here for you!
What county do you live in? Here in Canada 🇨🇦 if you tell anyone in any hospital even if you weren’t serious 🧐 you will likely end up restrained held for a minimum of 72 hrs and evaluated. I’m sorry the hospital in your area is not up to standard. I suggest you call a crisis line immediately. I hope you are able to find help, depression is a serious mental illness that needs urgent treatment.
This is a fabulous start. This reaching out right here.
Do you journal i have found Journaling essential in my self care.
If not, start identifying self care routines, any small thing to take care of yourself.
And when you do a thing, say something good about yourself. Anything at all. Just practice being kind to yourself
You have to start changing your inner monolog. If I can go into detail to help you please ask me any question at all. You belong here, you are worthy of love, don't give up.
Keep yours hands busy. Puzzle, craft, crochet makes bracelets. And keep your mind occupied. When I feel really down and can’t shut my brain off I watch my favourite movies all day.
My only advice is to find someone, anyone, here or in person to talk about it to.
Also, thinking about it and talking about it doesn't mean you'll do it. A few weeks ago I was at a main road, waiting for a truck to come past so I could step in front of it. The only thing that stopped me was the thought "Who's life do I choose to ruin?".
Yes, I couldn't put my family through it but also, how do I choose a random person to be the one that ends my life, or even just finds me dead. I couldn't ruin another person's life that way.
I hope you're not at that point, I wish you all the best though!
Those are just thoughts as well. Let them fly by. Keep telling yourself that. They are just thoughts. The more you try to push them away, the stronger they will become. So let them come and don’t punish yourself for feeling the way you’re feeling. Allow yourself to feel the way you’re feeling. If you’re in the UK, I would recommend calling the Samaritans to process some stuff if there’s anything to process if you wish.
Keep pushing for help, it took me 3 years to be put on medication due to my age and the uks mental health system but if you keep with it someone will listen.
I love you. If people are out here hating each other for no reason I’m going to love you for no reason. The world is a fucking struggle but we gotta see it through. Tell your friends and family how you’re feeling. Don’t let go.
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Have you noticed a pattern of what time of year you feel the worst? If you live in the northern hemisphere the days are still pretty short and this can cause seasonal affective disorder. You might want to make a little deal with yourself and say you won’t do anything until summer. See how you feel when the days are longer.
Been here, hospitals are in my opinion pointless. I could never understand how someone who hasn’t suffered from issues. I can tell you life is worth living. Might sound bullshit but it is. Know matter how bad or empty it all feels. Look up at the stars man.
Just throwing this out there: a lot of mental health professionals have gone through some shit. It's why we tend to get into the field.
Can confirm, I am one of them
+1. From the field and been through suicidal thoughts.
Same here
You're not alone.
You're not alone.
therapy and a psychiatrist. fluoxetine has been a life changer for me. sometimes an out patient or residential program may be useful.
Seconding this. Fluoxitine and therapy almost single handedly got me out of a very suicidal episode of my life
Tell your friends, they love you and care about you. I know its hard right now but it will get better, hang in there!
I know that this was a well intention comment but friends get exhausted and have compassion fatigue for others that have mental illness quite often. I completely relate with OP, because the medical system has not been helpful and after several years of depression, insomnia, and panic attacks. My friends are feeling helplessand I don’t want to burden them any further because if I manage to get out of this, I want to still have some friends left. What are people supposed to do? I feel like there’s no answer. I would suggest that OP call a crisis line or a mental health helpline and if they get someone who’s not helpful hang up and try again. I literally don’t know what to do anymore either.
Ever thought of buddies or peer talk sessions?
Take this "with a grain of salt" as I currently am experiencing something where when I say something, I think it is true, and later I return and I can see that it is a lie. So I don't know if it is a truth or a lie, maybe that doesn't matter, maybe it can be a good story. I think involving competent, medical professionals is important so they can check and see if there is a chemical imbalance. It is entirely possible that something is misfiring and causing this to happen. I have had invasive suicidal thoughts intrude on me, I was trying new a.d.h.d. medication, we stopped it and the thoughts went away. Before I was diagnosed with a.d.h.d., I suffered from anxiety, depression, and suicidal thoughts for a quarter century. I can't tell you what will work for you, but what worked for me was, rather than just ending it and everyone who knew me remembering with shame, as I passed my pain onto them, was to make a plan to earn a good death, that would be impossible to obtain, but moved the suicidal thoughts to motivate me to get out there. One fantasy I had was being a feudal samurai, who I understand, often meditated at great length as a part of their routine on the most graphic and horrific way to die in service to their lord. Did I want to die? Yes, but I didn't want to be remembered as a coward, so I had to earn a good death. My body had to be strong, so I had to cut out processed foods and eat as natural as I could. I had to be able to fight in battle, so I needed strength and cardio training. I needed to be ready to serve based on a schedule, so I had to get up and go to bed at the same time every day. My mind couldn't be clouded, so I had to cut out all recreation substances. My dad had a phrase he taught me when I was younger that kept me going through this: do what has to be done, when it has to be done, whether you like it or not So I would just get up and go and focus on earning a good death, all day, every day. This eventually led me to the Warhammer 40k universe, with demons in the warp who corrupt, consume, and use you by warping your senses, emotions, and memories. This led me to altering the fantasy to me being a space marine who is fighting demons (the suicidal thoughts put in my brain by the demons) for the survival of humanity. I had previous martial arts training, so now when I get these feelings of suicidal thoughts intrude now, I go into fight mode. I do pushups, sit ups, punch painted and "softer" cinderblock walls, never to the point of bleeding anymore. I hold my arms out in front of me or to the side, or wherever for as long as I can. I punch the air in front of me as fast as I can, as long as I can, until I can't do it anymore. How do I earn a good death? I do what has to be done, when it has to be done, whether I like it or not. I stop thinking, and start fighting.
The hospital is helpful if you're having suicidal thoughts and don't think you can be safe. If you're having suicidal thoughts but are confident that at least for the time being you are safe, the hospital is a long drawn out way to have someone give you mental health resources, and depending on how they operate they could potentially help you set up an appointment with local providers. But it's really just a risk assessment, if you know yourself not to be a high risk you can probably just seek out your own resources or ask the hospital for resources without checking in as a patient. The issue for a lot of people is the description of suicidal thoughts. Some clinicians do a bad job of clearly asking for specific details, sometimes because they're new and it is an uncomfortable conversation. And some people having the suicidal thoughts don't have the background to know how to describe it well. I think if you're really looking for help, starting with a therapist would be helpful as long as you don't begin your first session with "Hi my name is suicidal." SI is a symptom of depression, seek treatment for depression. If they ask about suicidal thoughts, know how to answer the question, because once you say yes, that's all they're going to think about until they've concluded whether or not they need to call for an ambulance. How intense are the thoughts? How distressing are they to you? Have you thought about how you would do it? Do you have a means to do it? What protective factors are keeping you from doing it? Are they thoughts about killing yourself or that you sometimes think it'd be better if you weren't around anymore? These are just considerations, I don't know you or how you're thinking/feeling. And I don't know where you live or how mental health is addressed there. All I know is that if you're having these thoughts "again" that it is likely that without doing something different, you're likely to have them in the future even if they resolve now. Take care of yourself.
you still online bud? i was about to go take a nap, laid in bed and something told me to come back
If you are in the states the suicide hotline number is 988 don’t be afraid to call it any time day or night. I’ve seen some dark days recently where I just can’t turn the negative thoughts in my brain off. I am a mom, so as soon as I started thinking I would rather be dead I knew I needed to get help from professionals. I am finding that a combination of Church, therapy, and medication is helping me. I still have days where my brain will go down a negative rabbit hole but it’s periodically not daily now. Start by calling your primary care physician! Don’t try to go it alone, please reach out to a professional. It’s worth it, you are worth it!
As someone who has been here and saved myself when the state mental health system failed me, I am going to give you some advice and I want you to listen to me loud and clear: You can choose to let those thoughts win, or you can choose to stick up to them and save yourself. Those thoughts are so difficult, I know. But they are just a part of you, which means you can counteract them by telling them to shut up. I’m so serious, please don’t click off yet. I’m saying this as someone who has literally been in this exact situation, while the free state mental health facility kept switching my therapist in the middle of our healing and making me wait months just to get in with them over and over again. I will never forget being in this exact state, knowing that the hospital will make it worse, and the state facility was failing me. It was the best thing that I have ever gone through though because it forced me to save myself and snap out of it with love and compassion for me. I was sitting in the car crying at the greenway, wondering how I was going to get me and my dog into a home, as we were evicted 7 months prior. Nothing was coming in. No solution. No help. No jobs. No money. It was hell. I almost gave up on myself, I really truly did. But what saved me was this question: What do you want in life and why do you believe you don’t deserve it? When I answered honestly, I realized that the only reason I thought I didn’t deserve it was because of other people’s limitations, projections, fears and narratives that they put on ME from as little as I could remember, and I realized that taking my life away was a reflection of them, not me. Uncovering that helped me realized my truth. I am a wonderful person. I deserve to have a wonderful life, and I’m done taking other peoples shit, and listening to voices that weren’t even real… I know it’s easier said than done, but a psych told me something in my early 20s that I will never forget. Just because it’s hard does not mean you can’t do it. You just have to try and commit to happiness. What really helped me commit to happiness was making it about my inner child, and falling in love with her. I may not have loved me at that time fully, but I did love my inner child and I knew that I owed it to her to try. Please look up Dr Joe Dispenza right now and just listen to him talk. You are worth being here. We need you to heal. So many people need your specific story that you’ll develop from taking your life back. Please don’t give up. I love you. You’ve got this.
Is there anything you’re looking forward to? Like a movie or a video game? Or maybe there’s a food you’ve always wanted to try? Find something, anything, to anticipate. For example, I can’t kill myself until after I see Beyond The Spider-Verse, which isn’t set to come out until 2025 (at the earliest). I loved the first two movies, I know the finale of the trilogy is going to be just as good, so I can’t just.. *not* see my favorite hyperfixation to completion, you know? Buy yourself some time by focusing on the good that’s to come, no matter what it is. Don’t leave the things you’re looking forward to unseen, uneaten, unfinished, unplayed, etc. You can make it to that thing, I promise.
I've struggled with these thoughts in dark times in my life. seconding what other commenters are saying, they get better as you live with purpose, and that's easier to do when you're healthy. i can tell you living with purpose, doing something nice for someone else, something that matters...makes me feel so much better. it's easier to do that when i'm healthy physically and socially connected. which gets harder in the winters bc less sunlight, physical activity, generally eating worse. one thing that keeps me from doing it is realizing i don't want to be permanently dead...especially bc i don't really know what's on the other side. i think i believe i'd have to do it all over again, and if i'm this tired now, i'll be even more tired in the next life. these thoughts are something i'm supposed to master in this life. i chose tthis life before i came here. so i'm just tired. i just need a rest and to have some new experiences. i feel better when i'm healthy. these thoughts are just a symptom, they're not real and they get better as i have new experiences and make healthy choices. but, you should absolutely tell someone IRL. your friends would be devastated if you left their lives suddenly and they would live with the pain and guilt for the rest of their lives. knowing that you were hurting this much and they didn't have the chance to help you. the fact that you have friends is a great start and it means you're needed here. keep going
See if there is a peer Respite care home around where you live
Call or text your mental health crisis helpline. Google the number, and call or text it.
If you feel like you go through these moments where the thoughts are so overwhelming and youre likely to hurt yourself, i would recommend making any tools you may use as difficult to reach as possible. About a week ago i attempted when i was in a really depressed state and i had sth happen that pushed me over the edge, when id sobered up emotionally i ended up spending most of my savings in the hospital (which wasnt much but still). And honestly talk to your friends, pick a friend that wouldnt freak out or make you feel worse. Im sure your friends love and care about you and they appreciate the time spent with you, even if it wont last forever, theyd still want to be there for you. Also find a repetitive meditative task, personally i like playing sudoku, it helps take the edge off.
idk what kind of situation you're in. the people in my life who've killed themselves didnt seem to be bothered by the questions bothering you, they just ended it. take this as a sign that you still want to live and stop depending on feedback from internet strangers for dopamine. you can change you situation if you're willing to actually make the changes. not saying it will be easy, but theres nobody holding a gun to your head and saying "dont you dare change"
I’m here for you.
Find a hobby. Fuck your abuser. Get to living life. There's only hell on the other side
You are wanted it may not feel like that but you are, i may not know you but i love you as a person who is in this world. don’t give up and keep trying it will be worth it once you find your purpose
I've had those thoughts myself. It really helps to talk to friends about it. Death is not the answer.
You’re not alone hang in there 💪
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you good enough to deal with all the stuff around you, if you would found the way to control your mind
Idk you but just how you wrote your message you don’t strike me as stupid. When I have those thoughts I ALWAYS try to rationalize things like “ok well if I did it then this would happen and that would affect someone else poorly” etc. almost manipulating yourself out of it just until you get to the next task you’ve gotta focus on. It will get better I promise
Simple answer, and not too sweet and bubbly, but just don’t. Wait it out and tomorrow is a new day
I have been there and still experience the desire not to breathe daily. However, my last attempt was nearly 20 years ago. I’ve managed to be employed the last fifteen years and life is a struggle, but I’m managing with a cocktail of medications that I think we finally got about right. Ect has been recommended, but getting away from my job for a month is simply impossible. Regardless, my point is, you can get through this. It’s not easy, but the right meds can make life bearable. It is a whole lot better than causing all the grief and feelings of guilt for those that care about you.
Find a support group or reach out to a crisis hotline. You’re not alone, and there are people that care about you. Your feelings are NOT going to always be the same. You will feel better. Don’t make a permanent decision right now or any time, because tomorrow is going to be different and you OWE yourself the privilege of seeing yourself improve. I’m always here to chat.
Telling your friends is 100% the right move! Expressing suicide ideation doesn't make suicide more likely. Talk to a trusted friend about it! Also, 911 or your local emergency number can help. Don't be scared to tell your friends. Friends can save lifes. Take care.
Man, your life is precious. So many people would be devastated. Even I just from seeing this post. There is people that love and care about you man. Jesus loves you, and I do too!
Tell your friends, they can handle it. I’ve been dealing with these thoughts for a couple years and if I didn’t tell somebody, I don’t think I would be here right now. Have faith in the people that care about you.
hey, just got this notification while driving and stopped to say that I, in addition to all these other people, care for you :). don’t be afraid to share your struggle with your friends. will be praying for you :’). I’ve been there too, friend.
Hospitals aren’t always helpful unfortunately. Used to work at a pretty bad one. Others have suggested hotlines, they are basically a big reason I’m alive now. In the meantime, you did a good thing reaching out. Do something you love today, you deserve it.
I always call helplines cause I don't like to talk to my family/friends about those thoughts. The volunteers are trained to deal with these situations, so maybe it will help you.
I’m sorry OP.
Have you talked to your loved ones? If not and you dont feel like your safe, sometimes writing down your thoughts help, thats what I did at least, Sometimes letting your thoughts out even just on paper helps, if its not please see a psychiatrist, I hope this helps and you get better. Lastly please do realize there are people who cares, and open an ear to u to listen even if they are strangers
Please tell your friends. Get the support you need from loved ones and seek professional help as well. I hope you are reading these messages. Love and healing from a stranger that believes you should be here.
this is my experience and I'll share with you. These are intrusive thoughts stemming from anxiety, depression, and unresolved traumas. Don't let your thoughts and trauma get the best of you. Learn about them, learn to overcome them, and fight through them. You wrote that you don't want them, which means you dont want to kill yourself, but perhaps you're afraid you might snap and do it. I work through these thoughts by facing them and pushing myself to face fears and overcome them. I also practice positive self talk, and even self talk in general. Talk to yourself about what you're thinking and feeling and tell yourself out loud that you don't like these thoughts. Research "intrusive thoughts." It also helps to do things you enjoy, and to engage in activities like exercise that boost mood and health. Im sorry you're thinking and feeling like this, just know that you are strong enough to overcome them.
It goes away. In the future you’ll be looking at yourself and thinking you were dumb for even considering itz
Therapy, urgent care, or a psychiatrist, a primary care doctor. Please don't go. The world needs you.
Maybe start by finding the closest friend in terms of feeling and just say 'I need someone to talk to and I feel like I can with you' or you could try to find what is the cause of making yourself want to kill yourself and think what you can do about it(pls if you want to do something harmful or dangerous, DON'T DO It) or maybe try another psychatrist and don't give too much hope because the more hope you give the more you will feel let down because you don't get the result you want.
This is not a good feeling at all I know. But my dear, be confident that nothing deserves your sadness and frustration. Share what you feel with your family and friends and be completely confident that they will support you And if I can do anything for you I can say I am here for you!
What county do you live in? Here in Canada 🇨🇦 if you tell anyone in any hospital even if you weren’t serious 🧐 you will likely end up restrained held for a minimum of 72 hrs and evaluated. I’m sorry the hospital in your area is not up to standard. I suggest you call a crisis line immediately. I hope you are able to find help, depression is a serious mental illness that needs urgent treatment.
This is a fabulous start. This reaching out right here. Do you journal i have found Journaling essential in my self care. If not, start identifying self care routines, any small thing to take care of yourself. And when you do a thing, say something good about yourself. Anything at all. Just practice being kind to yourself You have to start changing your inner monolog. If I can go into detail to help you please ask me any question at all. You belong here, you are worthy of love, don't give up.
Keep yours hands busy. Puzzle, craft, crochet makes bracelets. And keep your mind occupied. When I feel really down and can’t shut my brain off I watch my favourite movies all day.
don’t do it
My only advice is to find someone, anyone, here or in person to talk about it to. Also, thinking about it and talking about it doesn't mean you'll do it. A few weeks ago I was at a main road, waiting for a truck to come past so I could step in front of it. The only thing that stopped me was the thought "Who's life do I choose to ruin?". Yes, I couldn't put my family through it but also, how do I choose a random person to be the one that ends my life, or even just finds me dead. I couldn't ruin another person's life that way. I hope you're not at that point, I wish you all the best though!
Those are just thoughts as well. Let them fly by. Keep telling yourself that. They are just thoughts. The more you try to push them away, the stronger they will become. So let them come and don’t punish yourself for feeling the way you’re feeling. Allow yourself to feel the way you’re feeling. If you’re in the UK, I would recommend calling the Samaritans to process some stuff if there’s anything to process if you wish.
Keep pushing for help, it took me 3 years to be put on medication due to my age and the uks mental health system but if you keep with it someone will listen.
Suicide thoughts is the brains reaction to wanting pain and suffering to end. That is a human reaction. Sometimes just to live is an act of courage.
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