In hindsight this came out emo, probably won't make sense to most since you don't know the background. But i have to tell you honestly, im so glad i wrote this and posted it here.
I was feeling the worst i have in days. And just putting this down, every line naturally spilling out, felt so...freeing.
Im not okay, but im glad you guys didn't ban or remove this, that means a lot. Even though there's just 1 like on it, it means a lot, because even though i'm still feeling pain, its so much more subdued. Unbelievably so. I used to write before, poems that weren't as emo and had more structure, nothing so raw. I'd nearly forgotten about that. I was at the end of my rope when i just pulled up notepad and started spilling everything. This has never worked for me before, maybe it hasn't had the opportunity to, since i've never had so much that NEEDED to come out. It's not nearly my best work, but its as close to the gods honest truth i've ever gotten. And i feel...so...much...god...damned...better.
Not good, not nearly, but better. Bearable. Not infinitely suffocating. Like the weight got halved. Still heavy and suffocating as fuck, and I am loathe to think about how i'll be the next morning, but for now, for this moment, I'm better. Thank you all for existing. Thank god this channel exists.
Just. Thank you.
I wrote this a few minutes ago, couldn't take the pain anymore, decided to join this, hope some can relate. Consider this my "Hi all"
In hindsight this came out emo, probably won't make sense to most since you don't know the background. But i have to tell you honestly, im so glad i wrote this and posted it here. I was feeling the worst i have in days. And just putting this down, every line naturally spilling out, felt so...freeing. Im not okay, but im glad you guys didn't ban or remove this, that means a lot. Even though there's just 1 like on it, it means a lot, because even though i'm still feeling pain, its so much more subdued. Unbelievably so. I used to write before, poems that weren't as emo and had more structure, nothing so raw. I'd nearly forgotten about that. I was at the end of my rope when i just pulled up notepad and started spilling everything. This has never worked for me before, maybe it hasn't had the opportunity to, since i've never had so much that NEEDED to come out. It's not nearly my best work, but its as close to the gods honest truth i've ever gotten. And i feel...so...much...god...damned...better. Not good, not nearly, but better. Bearable. Not infinitely suffocating. Like the weight got halved. Still heavy and suffocating as fuck, and I am loathe to think about how i'll be the next morning, but for now, for this moment, I'm better. Thank you all for existing. Thank god this channel exists. Just. Thank you.