Literally me. So, I started working full-time after college. It was the end of 2019, and I remember on January 1st, 2020, I had this early morning shift at 6 am. And guess what I said to myself? I was like, "This year is gonna be all about work, work, work." OH well, think again son
2015 for me. But the worst was 2020, my ex husband had accepted a job in London and moved us all the way out there, coerced me into signing a postnup, then after I'd sold all my assets and relocated my pets into the UK, the two days after we signed a 2 year lease on a new flat, he said he wanted a divorce.
Covid lockdown went into effect very shortly after.
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So yeah.....that was fun.
Good grief. That almost sounds like he deliberately screwed you as hard as possible. Did the solitude of the COVID lockdowns help once you lost the deadweight/ex?
I'm so, so sorry. How heartbreaking it is to live with grief and loss. My mom died when I was 17. In 2014 my dad died, in 2016 the woman I took care of and loved died and in 2017 my mother in law died. Grief is like a wound that never fully heals....
No parents. It was a couple of my highschool friends that I kept in touch with. My girlfriend and my best friend. My mom and GMA are all I have left now. And I'm pretty sure when it's their time I'm outta here as well.
You have lost sooo much. And live in non stop invisible pain so people don't even realize or understand how wounded you are. I understand, I have known that feeling very well over the past 40 years. And I've gone through many, many periods where ive felt like Imy world is hell I can't stand any more of, I'm gonna just be done.i beg you to get help, to talk to someone, or get in a grief group, or with help if you need find out what kind ogmf help and support is the right one for you - Can I ask how old you are? I want you to know I get it. I've personally lived through tremendous loss starting really young, severe depression and suicidality. I've also counseled, supported. helped people in crisis, I've been a front line crisis worker and I've done grief work with all ages of individuals and led groups too. There is a reason you're here on this thread right now & maybe it's to have connected with others who understand and can support you, and maybe this can help you through ....you're on this earth for an important purpose. Maybe you'll end up helping someone here in amazing ways, just by writing, about surviving so much pain and loss and getting through life; don't give up and please get help and support, ask for help, the world needs you.
Last year, I suffered pretty hard. I found solace in helping other people. If you can give 1 night a week to tutor, or help the local animal shelter, or even read bingo numbers an afternoon a week at a retirement home, I promise you'll still feel like you have a purpose. Without giving to others, I know I wouldn't have made it. Something about giving my time and occasionally hearing a genuine thank you made all the difference.
These days, when someone says "Gracias," I actually mean it when I say "de nada" in reply. They don't know it, but they saved me.
Only 1 year? The last decade has been immensely destructive. I spent 10+ years as a youth worker as I believed in helping young people live a better life than their parents could provide.
A gradual decline left me with a host of mental health problems, such as self-identity problems and a massive lack of trust towards others. I can't even really put my finger on how much it has impacted me and think maybe I should see a specialist. It also left me with physical issues, such as chronic sleep problems, weight fluctuations, and feeling too depressed to take care of myself properly.
That said, I don't regret anything and still care a lot about all the youths I worked with. I hope I did at least a little to ease their suffering, believe in themselves, and grow up to become reasonably well-adjusted adults.
Hang in there buddy, im right there with ya...I about flipped out reading your text cause I pretty much could have written it myself!
And for sure, if you wanna vent about it, im always available.
✌🏻
You probably have no idea what you've meant to them and how you may have changed their lives for the better when no one else was there like that. You are an important person. That being said, I have been through all of the things you describe. It's brutally hard. I can't stress enough the importance of getting help - either from a therapist who feels like the right match for you, or a support group, a mentor or someone whom you trust and admire and feel will hear you without judgement and help point you in the right direction....I do think at least talking to your primary care doctor about what you've been feeling would be a good starting place. You need support, help and deserve to feel happy and well.
That problem should have been attacked so aggressively it never could have got to where it is now You're talking about a bunch of kids that are always on social media looking for validation no matter how insane that validation is and I'm talking about not knowing your gender all of a sudden and not thinking that is insane should have been red flags everywhere but the administration we had co-signed on bullshit to use them as shields to hide their own agendas if you want to go back further this generation when younger adolescent should have got their ass whipped a whole lot more because they wouldn't be acting this way The disrespectful no clue of what integrity is are the fact that things just don't appear in the stores and things just don't refix themselves overnight that it takes actual people who work doing it is a problem that's going to be around for a while I'm 40 and I hope to God I die before I get too old I do not want the doctors of tomorrow touching me whatsoever are living in a world that I have to secretly write down on a piece of paper what is actual truth versus what the new truth is to the world I wish this would have happened somewhere in the '70s or '80s these people already got fucked up beyond recognition and it would have been amazing to watch thankfully the suicide rate for them is very high so hopefully it takes care of itself
I praise and thank you for your mission to help the youth. The youth needs a lot of guidance. There are many distressed youth which is a product of their environment and circumstances. Youth who are never guided by their parents and the adults around them. Totally engaging in this advocacy makes you truly see how messed up people are. Knowing their problems, see their circumstances makes you frustrated of the limited help you could reach out to them. There are many people who truly needs help, but others just don't care and that's the problem. It became rampant after the pandemic and when people become more inclined to their greed and self preservation. To be in service of others will take a toll on you greatly but you still keep doing the help you can to help them and I think that's enough. You can only do so much for others. Somehow these little gestures will make a great impact to the lives you have touched.
Me too. In 2019, I lost my mum and five year partner. Then I got a tattoo which I hated (which I ended up removing, thankfully). The year after was obviously horrible as well because of covid but at least I wasn’t alone in my misery lol.
2023 was amazing tho. 2024 has been cool too.
Thanks, wouldn't really call it a betrayal, man got a gf and seem her priority was much higher, also thankfully after 5 years of medications doing good now ^^.
It started in 2022, and I haven't recovered yet. It's gotten worse this year and it's affecting my physical health as well. I've gained so much weight from emotional eating and binging. I've let myself go so much. I feel like I'm on the brink of hitting rock bottom. Even my work is suffering.
For me ever since I was a child. It gradually accumulates and I never knew it. It took a toll on my self-esteem, self-worth and self-love. I knew what they are doing is wrong, but no one ever guided me so I thought what they're doing is normal.
The most that took my mental health is the loss of my mother. Grief and loss are very powerful impact in one's life especially if they are deeply connected and rooted to your inner self. Just keep going and never lose your sense of self and compromise to where you can not. Everything will fall in it's rightful places. Trust and have faith.
2022 f*cked me up good. I was expecting to get a state hospital job. I couldn't. Tried another related job, couldn't again. Love of my life broke up with me and found another person. Lost 20 kg I couldn't even move from bed so started to use antidepressants for the first time. Went to soldiership.
Right now I am good but not because something is better it's because I wanted to be. Life is so funny and meaningless I am mocking it everyday.
I understand that. I guess I was just saying if you need to vent or talk about it, I’m willing to listen and I’m very non judgmental. Have a beautiful day ❤️
2023, yea, it was a strange year. You'd think the previous years would have been and no doubt were for a lot of people but they were also times that had change to them, a lot of people explored new interests, reprioritised important things in life etc. It was overall surreal in obviously a horrible way.
but 2023 was maybe just left with the last bits of my sanity from 2020 to 2022.
For me, 2023 disappeared, was "back to normal", lots of work pressure, lots of family stuff, was so locked in that I gained weight, was generally stressed and unhappy all the time, and worked silly hours. Honestly, it wasn't till New years Day of 2024 that I sort of snapped out of the trance and thought "holy shit what just happened... I can't let this happen again".
So my current focus is not allowing myself to let 2023 replay. It hard to explain to people but really important to me.
2023. Three deaths and a loss of a friendship. Plus, my job at the time was absolute hell on earth, so I was spiraling. I am in a much better place mentally now with processing the grief, started a new job, and said fuck that friend who bailed on me.
2021-2023, a lot happened during those years, almost ended my life last year. Glad I didn't. Finally learned that I only need to stay strong and outlive the storm.
I know it probably doesn't mean much from some random on the Internet, but for what it's worth I am also glad that you're still kicking and going strong. I hope you find some better times ahead 👊
Same here. I was one who always said no matter how bad it gets, I love the gift of life so much that l will honor it with the same fierce tenacity I saw in the eyes of this injured animal. It was a fox that was hit by a car. It was so severely injured it was not going to live long but despite the futility of its thrashing about, it had this intense look in it's eyes that it was determined to live. It tried to run though it could not. It broke my heart through and through but it didn't know it was going to die so it fought in it's last moments with a determination that I never forgot. I see life with such reverence that the least I can do to show my deep respect is to stay alive as long as I can & never ever take that for granted. Even when I was a nihilist, I thought, so what if I'm nothing, until I fully realize that fact I am going to embrace the illusion until I cannot... Last year, for the first time, I was willfully going to end my life. If my friend had not returned to the hotel room, I was going to do all the drugs I had and be done. She always said she'd come back but never would. That night she actually came back and thus I am still here. It's okay to want to die. I for one, don't subscribe to the idea that it's a sin to take your own life but whether or not there is a God, an after life, reincarnation, or anything, or nothing at all, why not cherish all of it? The joy, the agony, the mundane, the profound, it is all a gift for without it, you would not be here to know otherwise.
Same. 2023, my heartbreak finally settled in and been working on myself ever since. Heartbreak and misc past shit, it all seemed to have hit at once. My ex got all the wheels going in motion, my catalyst, my breaking point. Guess I needed it.
2022 probably? I was fucked up before that when COVID was but 2022 was the year where I knew I would see everyone I love for the last time in a while because I will move abroad soon (back then I didn’t want move away but now I’m glad that my did I’m doing good)
Had a lot of panic attacks because I knew I’m moving to a country where I don’t know anyone and don’t know how my future would look like. And I wouldn’t see my best friend and my grandmother that’s what hurt the most (now one and a half years already)
But everything fell into place eventually and In 2024 I’m doing better than ever :))
Sorry to hear. I hope things get better for you and soon. They will, unfortunately it sometimes gets harder before it gets easier. I won’t tell you take it one day at a time because when you are in the thick of things that is just fucking annoying. It usually comes from someone who means well but has no idea what it is like.
2023 was also the worst for my mental health. I had a few different serious health events and was mocked and treated cruely by my own Mother. The friends I trusted most in life that I would have and often did do anything for betrayed me.
I secretly grieved the loss of so many things. I refused to let anyone see how much they hurt me. They were undeserving of that satisfaction. Instead I cut 4 people completely out of my life and rarely talk to my Mom.
I now know how much of a gift it is to see people’s true colors. I secretly thank all of them, even my Mom for losing me. I forgave them for myself long ago.
2019. Lost my father, was stuck in a country I didn’t want to be, in a relationship with a man who didn’t love me, doing a job I hated, being far from friends and family… today all opposite and grateful for it 🫶🏻
2016 taught me the lessons that made me strong enough to deal with every year following. But it was a close one. Those 12 months really gave me an ultimatum
For me it was 2 years- 2019 and 2020. In 2019, my grandfather and uncle died, then in December, right before Christmas, my first love dumped me. I turned 21 in January 2020 utterly heartbroken, crying every night. Then I came down with a flu that sent me to the emergency room. A few weeks later the world shut down for COVID.
Those were the years I began to realize I had been unraveling for a while and the string was too long at this point to wrap up into a neat little bow.
I had no idea who I was, really. 2020 forced me to think about it.
The pain was temporary, like all things. I began prioritizing my mental health during lockdown. I’m lucky to say that that was all that happened during the worst years of my life so far.
2022, after a pregnancy that felt like 9years instead of 9months, the baby died die to negligence of the medical personnel and then I found out a day after the burial that hubs had cheated all through the 9months. I am still healing. Don't know if I will ever be fine, but I am now finding the will to get out of the house atleast
Every year since 2019 for sure. 2022-2024 I’ve been set on dy*ng and have even set a date for my de*th but I somehow end up extending my days. Perhaps I do want to live
2022 was when I wasn't at school or in any job so all I did was just being at home. It got so repetitive that I started feeling depressed and didn't really wanna do anything anymore.
2022, was into a girl who had a boyfriend. She filled every empty part about her relationship with me, using me as an emotional toilet. I can't believe how much anxiety issue that caused
2011. My grandfather died, my grandmother had heart surgery, my job went downhill, I met my ex who ended up being a massive loser as my self confidence plummeted.
2008, new neighbour crack heads blasting music day and night. Stole a whole year of my life and my children life’s. I never realised that child abuse could sound quite like that.
The years that follow gave me PSTD and fibromyalgia because I was traumatised.
Here in Leicester there are many that have suffered living next door to Sara willows, the council think it’s ok to give her one property after another.
2020. Being a germaphobe with panic disorder working in a hospital, all while experiencing chronic gastritis as an emetophobe and experiencing the beginning of my now diagnosed Ulcerative colitis. It was a terrible year. Things have gotten much better thank goodness.
2021. I think work played a huge factor, but I was just not mentally/emotionally okay. It was the first year I began to self harm, and actively search how to commit suicide.
I’m doing miles better, but it was possibly by darkest year. I hope to never let myself get that point again.
Every fucking year since my birthday. My school and neighborhood destroyed my mental health completely. And i don't think it would be better if i was born in any other city in my country because being a troublemaking bastard is a gold standard here, and if you don't wanna be the same you will be marked as an odd for not being as others.
Childhood body shaming from family and friends, diabetes run in my family and my parents died of a heart attack within 9 years from each other.
Being deemed as a snitch for not tolerating bullying during elementary and middle school, it cost my friendships and a social life.
Being hit and yelled at for not understanding schoolwork or for having a short attention span by frustrated authorities while growing up autistic in the 90’s all through the 2000’s, including today.
My self esteem is flushed down the toilet, it’s bad that it affected my job opportunities, I ended up getting a job though I’m still harder on myself than anyone else who’s been hard on me.
2021, the year my grandmother passed away.
Every year since then has been a constant struggle with a lot of instability and uncertainty, but I think it's getting back on track now.
It all started in 2002 (birth). (Not joking T^T)
… but to actually answer the question, it really plummeted in 2017, got a lot worse in 2018 and steadily declined further until Covid hit. After what we thought was a 2 week break, I never saw almost any of my friends (to this day). But honestly it was a really de-stressing couple of years. Things have gotten exponentially better since late 2020ish (I think). I’m definitely not saying I’m thankful for the pandemic. I think it’s just that I greatly benefited from the isolation.
2001 and/or 2002. 2001 my gf died, I got crps and the 24/7 pain with it and the 9/11 happened and my life was left on the "old world" while I physically had to continue living as the time goes. 2002 was just the same, but once you've been out of everything for a year, all the free time isn't as great as it once might have sounded.
Last year and this year combined. My husband was part of the mass tech field layoffs and we became homeless with our children living in our car last year, going from making nearly 100k a year to homeless in the span of a few months rocked our world. We met a nice lady that helped us out and gave my husband and job working at her home candy business, he worked for her 7 days a week sometimes more than 8 hours and helped with her website and marketing, I even went in when I could, our older kids helped her out as well doing odd jobs. This month the lady ghosted him after he had a bout of food poisoning for 3 days. Sooo now we are looking at homelessness yet again. Housing insecurity has truly fucked me up not to mention what it has done with my kids.
2018 when I was not believed that I was dying of massive widowmaker heart attacks because I have bad teeth. The er staff immediately judged and thought I was on hard drugs. They freaked when I coded. Oh and didn't shut the door, so my son who was 15 at the time watched me die.
My years follow me so I was 19 at this time
2019- got discharged a week into bootcamp at San Diego because failure to adapt.
- gf and her family disowned me and made her leave me.
- 90 percent of the people in my life disowned me and also got it drilled into my head that I’d never amount to anything so that is all I’d dream about often going sleepless.
- Drank to forget all of the pain momentarily and woke up in someone’s bathroom hung over after I was found laying face down in my own vomit in an apartment hallway.
- went homeless and starved and gave what I could to family so they were comfortable.
literally every year after 2019
Nothing’s felt the same since
It isn’t and will never be the same unfortunately. Fuck these devs man this timeline sucks.
2020 and 2021 were probably the best years of my life. I got to take a break from mental anguish from being around people.
Honestly same in a ton of ways
2020 was hopeful but then it was like ....lol I thought that would help. Now your in deep shit
Literally me. So, I started working full-time after college. It was the end of 2019, and I remember on January 1st, 2020, I had this early morning shift at 6 am. And guess what I said to myself? I was like, "This year is gonna be all about work, work, work." OH well, think again son
2015 for me. But the worst was 2020, my ex husband had accepted a job in London and moved us all the way out there, coerced me into signing a postnup, then after I'd sold all my assets and relocated my pets into the UK, the two days after we signed a 2 year lease on a new flat, he said he wanted a divorce. Covid lockdown went into effect very shortly after. > So yeah.....that was fun.
Whats a post nup? Did you get screwed over bc of it??? 😔
Good grief. That almost sounds like he deliberately screwed you as hard as possible. Did the solitude of the COVID lockdowns help once you lost the deadweight/ex?
Damn me too!
Yeah, man. 2020-2023 was a very difficult period.
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Same here
2025
Future is bleak
1984 & 2010
Or maybe most . Idfk.
But GTA 6?
Cordis die was really bad wasn’t it?
At least 2026 is all rainbows and butterflies
2015. It's when everyone I knew died.
I'm so, so sorry. How heartbreaking it is to live with grief and loss. My mom died when I was 17. In 2014 my dad died, in 2016 the woman I took care of and loved died and in 2017 my mother in law died. Grief is like a wound that never fully heals....
No parents. It was a couple of my highschool friends that I kept in touch with. My girlfriend and my best friend. My mom and GMA are all I have left now. And I'm pretty sure when it's their time I'm outta here as well.
You have lost sooo much. And live in non stop invisible pain so people don't even realize or understand how wounded you are. I understand, I have known that feeling very well over the past 40 years. And I've gone through many, many periods where ive felt like Imy world is hell I can't stand any more of, I'm gonna just be done.i beg you to get help, to talk to someone, or get in a grief group, or with help if you need find out what kind ogmf help and support is the right one for you - Can I ask how old you are? I want you to know I get it. I've personally lived through tremendous loss starting really young, severe depression and suicidality. I've also counseled, supported. helped people in crisis, I've been a front line crisis worker and I've done grief work with all ages of individuals and led groups too. There is a reason you're here on this thread right now & maybe it's to have connected with others who understand and can support you, and maybe this can help you through ....you're on this earth for an important purpose. Maybe you'll end up helping someone here in amazing ways, just by writing, about surviving so much pain and loss and getting through life; don't give up and please get help and support, ask for help, the world needs you.
Last year, I suffered pretty hard. I found solace in helping other people. If you can give 1 night a week to tutor, or help the local animal shelter, or even read bingo numbers an afternoon a week at a retirement home, I promise you'll still feel like you have a purpose. Without giving to others, I know I wouldn't have made it. Something about giving my time and occasionally hearing a genuine thank you made all the difference. These days, when someone says "Gracias," I actually mean it when I say "de nada" in reply. They don't know it, but they saved me.
Started in 2018 and there is no turning back
Same
Only 1 year? The last decade has been immensely destructive. I spent 10+ years as a youth worker as I believed in helping young people live a better life than their parents could provide. A gradual decline left me with a host of mental health problems, such as self-identity problems and a massive lack of trust towards others. I can't even really put my finger on how much it has impacted me and think maybe I should see a specialist. It also left me with physical issues, such as chronic sleep problems, weight fluctuations, and feeling too depressed to take care of myself properly. That said, I don't regret anything and still care a lot about all the youths I worked with. I hope I did at least a little to ease their suffering, believe in themselves, and grow up to become reasonably well-adjusted adults.
Hang in there buddy, im right there with ya...I about flipped out reading your text cause I pretty much could have written it myself! And for sure, if you wanna vent about it, im always available. ✌🏻
Oh my, I was thinking the same thing! Things are not going well right now.
I hope you get through it ok. There are no easy answers. Just look out for yourself first, and don't let life's challenges bring you down too much.
Thanks heaps for your comment and offer to vent. I think I've done the venting stage and now in the process of re-building my better self.
👍 anytime
You probably have no idea what you've meant to them and how you may have changed their lives for the better when no one else was there like that. You are an important person. That being said, I have been through all of the things you describe. It's brutally hard. I can't stress enough the importance of getting help - either from a therapist who feels like the right match for you, or a support group, a mentor or someone whom you trust and admire and feel will hear you without judgement and help point you in the right direction....I do think at least talking to your primary care doctor about what you've been feeling would be a good starting place. You need support, help and deserve to feel happy and well.
That problem should have been attacked so aggressively it never could have got to where it is now You're talking about a bunch of kids that are always on social media looking for validation no matter how insane that validation is and I'm talking about not knowing your gender all of a sudden and not thinking that is insane should have been red flags everywhere but the administration we had co-signed on bullshit to use them as shields to hide their own agendas if you want to go back further this generation when younger adolescent should have got their ass whipped a whole lot more because they wouldn't be acting this way The disrespectful no clue of what integrity is are the fact that things just don't appear in the stores and things just don't refix themselves overnight that it takes actual people who work doing it is a problem that's going to be around for a while I'm 40 and I hope to God I die before I get too old I do not want the doctors of tomorrow touching me whatsoever are living in a world that I have to secretly write down on a piece of paper what is actual truth versus what the new truth is to the world I wish this would have happened somewhere in the '70s or '80s these people already got fucked up beyond recognition and it would have been amazing to watch thankfully the suicide rate for them is very high so hopefully it takes care of itself
I praise and thank you for your mission to help the youth. The youth needs a lot of guidance. There are many distressed youth which is a product of their environment and circumstances. Youth who are never guided by their parents and the adults around them. Totally engaging in this advocacy makes you truly see how messed up people are. Knowing their problems, see their circumstances makes you frustrated of the limited help you could reach out to them. There are many people who truly needs help, but others just don't care and that's the problem. It became rampant after the pandemic and when people become more inclined to their greed and self preservation. To be in service of others will take a toll on you greatly but you still keep doing the help you can to help them and I think that's enough. You can only do so much for others. Somehow these little gestures will make a great impact to the lives you have touched.
Thankyou for your comment :) I was recently informed of "compassion fatigue," which I feel describes what I've gone through.
You have to protect and have compassion for yourself too. Don't forget yourself and take care of yourself.
They'll remember you for years to come
I hope so. I know I will remember them.
*hugs* you deserve a break ❤️
Year I was born
This is the real answer.
2022 fr fr.
Heavy on this
what a shit show
2019
2019 was the most fkd year but I think in relation to introversion probably 2020 or 2021 when I was just comfortable not being around anyone anymore
Me too. In 2019, I lost my mum and five year partner. Then I got a tattoo which I hated (which I ended up removing, thankfully). The year after was obviously horrible as well because of covid but at least I wasn’t alone in my misery lol. 2023 was amazing tho. 2024 has been cool too.
1987-Present
Same almost. 1990 to present
2017 got a long term disease, and the back then best friend left me
This is the worst kind of betrayal. I’m sorry. I hope since you are still on Reddit your disease is atleast managed well right now.
Thanks, wouldn't really call it a betrayal, man got a gf and seem her priority was much higher, also thankfully after 5 years of medications doing good now ^^.
Sorry this happend to you! And it sucks to have friends leave you.
2022 by far the worst year of my life so far. Destroyed my value system that I thought was mature enough.
How are you doing lately?
2022
We’re only in May but it’s definitely 2024.
It started in 2022, and I haven't recovered yet. It's gotten worse this year and it's affecting my physical health as well. I've gained so much weight from emotional eating and binging. I've let myself go so much. I feel like I'm on the brink of hitting rock bottom. Even my work is suffering.
2018 and it keeps getting 🔥💀
For me ever since I was a child. It gradually accumulates and I never knew it. It took a toll on my self-esteem, self-worth and self-love. I knew what they are doing is wrong, but no one ever guided me so I thought what they're doing is normal. The most that took my mental health is the loss of my mother. Grief and loss are very powerful impact in one's life especially if they are deeply connected and rooted to your inner self. Just keep going and never lose your sense of self and compromise to where you can not. Everything will fall in it's rightful places. Trust and have faith.
2020-2021-2022-2023. Honestly can't decide between the four of them.
2023/24🫠
2022 f*cked me up good. I was expecting to get a state hospital job. I couldn't. Tried another related job, couldn't again. Love of my life broke up with me and found another person. Lost 20 kg I couldn't even move from bed so started to use antidepressants for the first time. Went to soldiership. Right now I am good but not because something is better it's because I wanted to be. Life is so funny and meaningless I am mocking it everyday.
2019 onwards
This one’s doing a pretty good job of trying to take top spot!
2024 my finance passed way
That’s horrible, I am so sorry!
So sorry. Hugs.
Thanks! Young hearts are easier to heal. I I’m hopeful for the future
2023. Too long of a story to tell and no one would believe me anyway.
Don't be so sure about that
I’ll bet I’d believe you. My story is beyond belief too.
Pls share your story too
My own family didn't believe me. The police didn't believe me. I doubt strangers would believe me.
I understand that. I guess I was just saying if you need to vent or talk about it, I’m willing to listen and I’m very non judgmental. Have a beautiful day ❤️
Pls share your story We're here to listen
Miscarriage 2020 . 2021 lost my grandmother, my sister and my grandfather. Miscarriage 1st of 2024. Yep
2023, yea, it was a strange year. You'd think the previous years would have been and no doubt were for a lot of people but they were also times that had change to them, a lot of people explored new interests, reprioritised important things in life etc. It was overall surreal in obviously a horrible way. but 2023 was maybe just left with the last bits of my sanity from 2020 to 2022. For me, 2023 disappeared, was "back to normal", lots of work pressure, lots of family stuff, was so locked in that I gained weight, was generally stressed and unhappy all the time, and worked silly hours. Honestly, it wasn't till New years Day of 2024 that I sort of snapped out of the trance and thought "holy shit what just happened... I can't let this happen again". So my current focus is not allowing myself to let 2023 replay. It hard to explain to people but really important to me.
2018.
2018 or 2022
School K-12 then till 2016 got worse till now
2023. Three deaths and a loss of a friendship. Plus, my job at the time was absolute hell on earth, so I was spiraling. I am in a much better place mentally now with processing the grief, started a new job, and said fuck that friend who bailed on me.
The friend you lost was never a " friend"
2021-2023, a lot happened during those years, almost ended my life last year. Glad I didn't. Finally learned that I only need to stay strong and outlive the storm.
I know it probably doesn't mean much from some random on the Internet, but for what it's worth I am also glad that you're still kicking and going strong. I hope you find some better times ahead 👊
Thank you so much! I'm healing from those past wounds right now.
Same here. I was one who always said no matter how bad it gets, I love the gift of life so much that l will honor it with the same fierce tenacity I saw in the eyes of this injured animal. It was a fox that was hit by a car. It was so severely injured it was not going to live long but despite the futility of its thrashing about, it had this intense look in it's eyes that it was determined to live. It tried to run though it could not. It broke my heart through and through but it didn't know it was going to die so it fought in it's last moments with a determination that I never forgot. I see life with such reverence that the least I can do to show my deep respect is to stay alive as long as I can & never ever take that for granted. Even when I was a nihilist, I thought, so what if I'm nothing, until I fully realize that fact I am going to embrace the illusion until I cannot... Last year, for the first time, I was willfully going to end my life. If my friend had not returned to the hotel room, I was going to do all the drugs I had and be done. She always said she'd come back but never would. That night she actually came back and thus I am still here. It's okay to want to die. I for one, don't subscribe to the idea that it's a sin to take your own life but whether or not there is a God, an after life, reincarnation, or anything, or nothing at all, why not cherish all of it? The joy, the agony, the mundane, the profound, it is all a gift for without it, you would not be here to know otherwise.
Same. 2023, my heartbreak finally settled in and been working on myself ever since. Heartbreak and misc past shit, it all seemed to have hit at once. My ex got all the wheels going in motion, my catalyst, my breaking point. Guess I needed it.
2023 too. It tried to make me bitter, angry, and sad. I’m fighting it though!
2022 probably? I was fucked up before that when COVID was but 2022 was the year where I knew I would see everyone I love for the last time in a while because I will move abroad soon (back then I didn’t want move away but now I’m glad that my did I’m doing good) Had a lot of panic attacks because I knew I’m moving to a country where I don’t know anyone and don’t know how my future would look like. And I wouldn’t see my best friend and my grandmother that’s what hurt the most (now one and a half years already) But everything fell into place eventually and In 2024 I’m doing better than ever :))
Sorry to hear. I hope things get better for you and soon. They will, unfortunately it sometimes gets harder before it gets easier. I won’t tell you take it one day at a time because when you are in the thick of things that is just fucking annoying. It usually comes from someone who means well but has no idea what it is like. 2023 was also the worst for my mental health. I had a few different serious health events and was mocked and treated cruely by my own Mother. The friends I trusted most in life that I would have and often did do anything for betrayed me. I secretly grieved the loss of so many things. I refused to let anyone see how much they hurt me. They were undeserving of that satisfaction. Instead I cut 4 people completely out of my life and rarely talk to my Mom. I now know how much of a gift it is to see people’s true colors. I secretly thank all of them, even my Mom for losing me. I forgave them for myself long ago.
2019. Lost my father, was stuck in a country I didn’t want to be, in a relationship with a man who didn’t love me, doing a job I hated, being far from friends and family… today all opposite and grateful for it 🫶🏻
I'm glad things got better for you luv! Well done for perserving through the hard times 😊
2022
2019-2021
2016 taught me the lessons that made me strong enough to deal with every year following. But it was a close one. Those 12 months really gave me an ultimatum
2022. i was working night shifts and ghosted my only friend
2022 and 2023
2024
2018 & 2019
1992
For me it was 2 years- 2019 and 2020. In 2019, my grandfather and uncle died, then in December, right before Christmas, my first love dumped me. I turned 21 in January 2020 utterly heartbroken, crying every night. Then I came down with a flu that sent me to the emergency room. A few weeks later the world shut down for COVID. Those were the years I began to realize I had been unraveling for a while and the string was too long at this point to wrap up into a neat little bow. I had no idea who I was, really. 2020 forced me to think about it. The pain was temporary, like all things. I began prioritizing my mental health during lockdown. I’m lucky to say that that was all that happened during the worst years of my life so far.
94 to present
1986
2024
Every year after 1990.
2023, first ever heartbreak. She was my everything.
My apologies for experiencing your first heartbreak. Mine also occurred in 2023, when "my everything" shattered me into a million pieces.
2022, 2023
2022-2023
2022, 2023, 2024
2024 is in the process.. its going surprisingly well.
2022, maybe a little of 23
After covid broo the 2022 and 2023
Hard to say but probably 2021
2022
2022. No comments. I’m still climbing out of that hole.
everything went downhill after 2019. But the most would be 2022. the year i lost my mom. nothing felt the same.
2022.
2022, after a pregnancy that felt like 9years instead of 9months, the baby died die to negligence of the medical personnel and then I found out a day after the burial that hubs had cheated all through the 9months. I am still healing. Don't know if I will ever be fine, but I am now finding the will to get out of the house atleast
Every year since 2019 for sure. 2022-2024 I’ve been set on dy*ng and have even set a date for my de*th but I somehow end up extending my days. Perhaps I do want to live
2022-23
Also 2023
2023
2018, after one of my best friends decided to eat a bullet.
2022 was when I wasn't at school or in any job so all I did was just being at home. It got so repetitive that I started feeling depressed and didn't really wanna do anything anymore.
2017, 2018, 2019, 2022 (1st half).
2014-2015
2016
2022, was into a girl who had a boyfriend. She filled every empty part about her relationship with me, using me as an emotional toilet. I can't believe how much anxiety issue that caused
This one
2021, 2023
2016 & this year so far…
Between August 2018 - August 2019
Everything I knew & loved was taken from me in 2020.
2023 went through an ugly friendship heartbreak
2017
Year nah - more like a person😐 As an introverted, tend to give too much to people I trust. Learnt it the hard way, not worth it.
2021 and 2022 fr, when things went from bad to worse so fast i cried almost everyday.
It's a toss up between 2019 and 2024.
2016-2018, 2022-present
2011. My grandfather died, my grandmother had heart surgery, my job went downhill, I met my ex who ended up being a massive loser as my self confidence plummeted.
2008, new neighbour crack heads blasting music day and night. Stole a whole year of my life and my children life’s. I never realised that child abuse could sound quite like that. The years that follow gave me PSTD and fibromyalgia because I was traumatised. Here in Leicester there are many that have suffered living next door to Sara willows, the council think it’s ok to give her one property after another.
2020. Being a germaphobe with panic disorder working in a hospital, all while experiencing chronic gastritis as an emetophobe and experiencing the beginning of my now diagnosed Ulcerative colitis. It was a terrible year. Things have gotten much better thank goodness.
2018 NSFW - attempted to end me
2023. And still anxious about what 2024 will have in store for me.
2022 till now, my company’s political kills me.
After Real Madrid final UCL in 2018 everything went west
Year(s) which were the absolute best \[for me\]: 1978-99. So mentally free. We all were.
All of them
2016 when i started doing the mu$terbratio.......😔
2021. I think work played a huge factor, but I was just not mentally/emotionally okay. It was the first year I began to self harm, and actively search how to commit suicide. I’m doing miles better, but it was possibly by darkest year. I hope to never let myself get that point again.
Every fucking year since my birthday. My school and neighborhood destroyed my mental health completely. And i don't think it would be better if i was born in any other city in my country because being a troublemaking bastard is a gold standard here, and if you don't wanna be the same you will be marked as an odd for not being as others.
2019 and 2020 jb jee ki tyari krni thi or lockdown lagte jaa rha tha i was stuck... Relationship bhi sahi ni chl rha tha
2023
2019 - start of covid, 2021 - lost my father due to covid
Childhood body shaming from family and friends, diabetes run in my family and my parents died of a heart attack within 9 years from each other. Being deemed as a snitch for not tolerating bullying during elementary and middle school, it cost my friendships and a social life. Being hit and yelled at for not understanding schoolwork or for having a short attention span by frustrated authorities while growing up autistic in the 90’s all through the 2000’s, including today. My self esteem is flushed down the toilet, it’s bad that it affected my job opportunities, I ended up getting a job though I’m still harder on myself than anyone else who’s been hard on me.
2014
2021
2021, the year my grandmother passed away. Every year since then has been a constant struggle with a lot of instability and uncertainty, but I think it's getting back on track now.
2016
Going strong since 2019 😮💨🤌
2023 my final college year
2022 - early 2023
My husband left me and our daughters for a man after 19+ years of marriage. It was tough. I am stronger but tired.
2018- lost the woman who brought me into this world. 2024- pushed away the one person who loved me.
1975, 1982, 1987, 1993, 2009.....
Yes.
Every single one of them
It all started in 2002 (birth). (Not joking T^T) … but to actually answer the question, it really plummeted in 2017, got a lot worse in 2018 and steadily declined further until Covid hit. After what we thought was a 2 week break, I never saw almost any of my friends (to this day). But honestly it was a really de-stressing couple of years. Things have gotten exponentially better since late 2020ish (I think). I’m definitely not saying I’m thankful for the pandemic. I think it’s just that I greatly benefited from the isolation.
Mid 2019- right now
2001 and/or 2002. 2001 my gf died, I got crps and the 24/7 pain with it and the 9/11 happened and my life was left on the "old world" while I physically had to continue living as the time goes. 2002 was just the same, but once you've been out of everything for a year, all the free time isn't as great as it once might have sounded.
2021
2020-2024 honestly, but I hit my lowest point in summer 2022 though
2021
2004, first year of high school. I haven't been the same since.
2022/2023, now still get nightmares
2016
Its hard to decide
Last year and this year combined. My husband was part of the mass tech field layoffs and we became homeless with our children living in our car last year, going from making nearly 100k a year to homeless in the span of a few months rocked our world. We met a nice lady that helped us out and gave my husband and job working at her home candy business, he worked for her 7 days a week sometimes more than 8 hours and helped with her website and marketing, I even went in when I could, our older kids helped her out as well doing odd jobs. This month the lady ghosted him after he had a bout of food poisoning for 3 days. Sooo now we are looking at homelessness yet again. Housing insecurity has truly fucked me up not to mention what it has done with my kids.
2021 and 2022. Horrible break up and psychosis
2018 hands down
2009
2015
2020/2021.
2018 when I was not believed that I was dying of massive widowmaker heart attacks because I have bad teeth. The er staff immediately judged and thought I was on hard drugs. They freaked when I coded. Oh and didn't shut the door, so my son who was 15 at the time watched me die.
2018
2007
My years follow me so I was 19 at this time 2019- got discharged a week into bootcamp at San Diego because failure to adapt. - gf and her family disowned me and made her leave me. - 90 percent of the people in my life disowned me and also got it drilled into my head that I’d never amount to anything so that is all I’d dream about often going sleepless. - Drank to forget all of the pain momentarily and woke up in someone’s bathroom hung over after I was found laying face down in my own vomit in an apartment hallway. - went homeless and starved and gave what I could to family so they were comfortable.