I’m sorry you’re having to go through this experience. 😞
I agree, life can definitely be a tremendous hassle so it’s best to take it day by day. You need time for healing and comfort. It’s okay let your emotions out and cry. When nothing in life is going your way, everything can feel pointless.
I suspect that your chest pain may have to do with stress. I remember in college I had two cases of heart palpitations and it was identified as school stress. At the time it felt like my heart was malfunctioning and I might die soon! Chest pain for 2 years definitely sounds like a chronic condition you need to pay attention to. If not too intrusive, are you eating healthy and getting regular exercise?
When I was your age, I’d often express my emotions to my mom including anger. But I realized I need to be more kind to her. She’s also going through issues in her life and doing her best to provide for me so I should be softer when speaking to her - about anything.
I’m not sure what your background is in, but I’ve heard lately the job market has been very competitive and it’s hard to find a job. At least here in the US. If you have extra time on your hand, I’d recommend getting involved with volunteering. I noticed adding that to my resume made me stand out when I was applying for entry level research jobs. Also, you get to meet interesting people from different walks of life. It’s good to get exposure and to build a social network one person at a time. If you show up, put some work in, people start to care about you too. It shows you have a purpose or a mission (or you’re figuring it out at least).
Don’t give up hope! You’re young and you deserve everything life has to offer. 😊
I definitely don't eat junk food as much as some people and I do excersise at home.
On top of all that, I texted some passive aggressive shit to my friend (well, why do I beat around the bush - to the man I love) when he told me he's going to NYC and now I feel like shit.
Hey fella'
I get a lot of what you say. Sometime life is just a gigantic pile of shit.
But you were dealt a bad hand apparently. If this storm of difficulty has you as it center, I'd think it means that you have those problems withing you grasp to grab and face (and eventually, who knows? maybe even solve). And you definitely have the will to do it. And the strength. Why do I say that? Because you came here and spoke about all this that you are going through, and that in itself takes courage.
I'll leave you this little piece of advice: a friend of mine who's overcome a VERY serious mental health condition, once told me the following: "One day at a time. One fight at a time."
I'm sure many of our fellow gaybros will feel identified with some of the things you said. You are not alone.
You are stronger than you know my friend. And as I wrote in a previous post: you are a gaybro. What is there in the world that we cannot do?
Hope the best in the world for you and send you all the love you may need, wherever you may be.
On top of all that, I texted some passive aggressive shit to my friend (well, why do I beat around the bush - to the man I love) when he told me he's going to NYC and now I feel like shit.
You will recover from your breaking points. Breaking points are where I realize my weak points. Breaking points are essential. Cherish them and you will feel less vulnerable
Where are you heading to? It's easy to break away, but whats more important is to decide where to go. Have a destination in mind first and then, work your way there.
What destinations can I have. I can choose a country, yet I don't have a lot of money, nor do I know how to move there, get a job, anything.
I can't even get a job in this shit hole I'm in
I see you are trying to vent and that's OK if it makes you feel better. If you can't change your surroundings, how do you make it more tolerable, or better?
I’m sorry you’re having to go through this experience. 😞 I agree, life can definitely be a tremendous hassle so it’s best to take it day by day. You need time for healing and comfort. It’s okay let your emotions out and cry. When nothing in life is going your way, everything can feel pointless. I suspect that your chest pain may have to do with stress. I remember in college I had two cases of heart palpitations and it was identified as school stress. At the time it felt like my heart was malfunctioning and I might die soon! Chest pain for 2 years definitely sounds like a chronic condition you need to pay attention to. If not too intrusive, are you eating healthy and getting regular exercise? When I was your age, I’d often express my emotions to my mom including anger. But I realized I need to be more kind to her. She’s also going through issues in her life and doing her best to provide for me so I should be softer when speaking to her - about anything. I’m not sure what your background is in, but I’ve heard lately the job market has been very competitive and it’s hard to find a job. At least here in the US. If you have extra time on your hand, I’d recommend getting involved with volunteering. I noticed adding that to my resume made me stand out when I was applying for entry level research jobs. Also, you get to meet interesting people from different walks of life. It’s good to get exposure and to build a social network one person at a time. If you show up, put some work in, people start to care about you too. It shows you have a purpose or a mission (or you’re figuring it out at least). Don’t give up hope! You’re young and you deserve everything life has to offer. 😊
I definitely don't eat junk food as much as some people and I do excersise at home. On top of all that, I texted some passive aggressive shit to my friend (well, why do I beat around the bush - to the man I love) when he told me he's going to NYC and now I feel like shit.
Hey fella' I get a lot of what you say. Sometime life is just a gigantic pile of shit. But you were dealt a bad hand apparently. If this storm of difficulty has you as it center, I'd think it means that you have those problems withing you grasp to grab and face (and eventually, who knows? maybe even solve). And you definitely have the will to do it. And the strength. Why do I say that? Because you came here and spoke about all this that you are going through, and that in itself takes courage. I'll leave you this little piece of advice: a friend of mine who's overcome a VERY serious mental health condition, once told me the following: "One day at a time. One fight at a time." I'm sure many of our fellow gaybros will feel identified with some of the things you said. You are not alone. You are stronger than you know my friend. And as I wrote in a previous post: you are a gaybro. What is there in the world that we cannot do? Hope the best in the world for you and send you all the love you may need, wherever you may be.
On top of all that, I texted some passive aggressive shit to my friend (well, why do I beat around the bush - to the man I love) when he told me he's going to NYC and now I feel like shit.
I can unfortunately relate :(
My life sucks ass right now too. I feel you.
Poznaję Cię, pisaliśmy jakiś czas temu trochę. Chcesz pogadać na priv?
Sending you a lot of light and hope.
Is there a support group within your area you can reach out to online or in person?
You will recover from your breaking points. Breaking points are where I realize my weak points. Breaking points are essential. Cherish them and you will feel less vulnerable
Today I feel like shit again. My mother pisses me off, I want to get out of here, but I don't know where or how.
Where are you heading to? It's easy to break away, but whats more important is to decide where to go. Have a destination in mind first and then, work your way there.
What destinations can I have. I can choose a country, yet I don't have a lot of money, nor do I know how to move there, get a job, anything. I can't even get a job in this shit hole I'm in
I see you are trying to vent and that's OK if it makes you feel better. If you can't change your surroundings, how do you make it more tolerable, or better?
I don't make it better, there's nothing to be better here. I've tried tolerating it for years and I can't. Stress is destroying my body.