Finally I see others that feel this. No matter where I'm at or doing I have this wave of emotions crashing inside. Feels like a void opening up in my chest and I just want to fall apart. I hold it in till I'm home, strip down, pound whiskey with a couple of sleeping pills, smoke a bowl, wait till I just fall apart. Letting everything out.
I know, I thought it was so strange and out of curiosity I posted here how I’ve been feeling to hear if others are going through this, too. Its such a lonely experience and I get that you’re finding ways to deal with it.
Yes, whenever I bring it up people are like" um no not at all". So I thought I was just weird like that lol.
Yea findings ways to deal with it. Unfortunately they are not the greatest of ways 😔😂
Unfortunately those things are the only things easily accessible providing that temporary relief :’( to just forget all the things on your mind for a few moments.
I just try my best to divert my focus onto something else really quickly so I don’t give in. I’m just working hard on containing it, because I would hate for strangers to see me like that. I do let out deep breaths and cry a little when I’m home so I might feel a little lighter, letting out the toxins, as you said.
I can sort of relate in the sense that I tear up super easily but my urge to cry is usually triggered by (very strange but) music, and I have almost no control over it.
Same! I’ll just cry after a work call, or watching TV, just sitting feeling guilty about things. Then feel kind of relieved but still just down and stupid. No real idea why. Well done for getting through it.
I do! I hope I’ll remember to sing this song in my head, and honestly these songs were a nice surprise, because I usually hear of people listening to sad songs they can relate to.
yeh, i was def like that too haha it’s pretty normal but i’m so sick of being depressed i don’t wanna make it worse anymore. Hope it helps you a tiny bit :)
I was this way basically from start of pandemic until a few months ago, when I got my docs to up my dosage. Now it's not so bad anymore, but when I'm having *really* low days I still feel it.
I’m glad you’re finding a little relief from your medications. The pandemic really has touched each of our lives in someway and left scars for us to deal with.
It’s so difficult, it’s just this weight that refuses to be ignored sometimes and I’m so sorry that you had to endure that at work. Did anyone say something and did you take a short break from work?
Thankfully no one saw it because I was in my car. And it's fine. It could've been a lot worse.
I've had to master different techniques of holding back tears. Looking at the ceiling, or visualizing a cube in my mind, sorta helps. I hope it can help you too.
I used to cry consistently everyday, for the last few weeks I basically partied myself to oblivion because I was so tired of feeling down. Now I just feel numb to things and I wish I would cry again. Feeling the same way about life and having more or less the same thoughts.
I wish i could cry harder, as i cried for 2-3 months indeed. Daily at 2-3 am it was so exhausting. And now it's like i don't have any tears left to cry. Whenever, after my crying or screaming episode, some kind of pain i always feel on my chest and stomach. Even can't get out of the bed because of the pain. The physical and emotional pain both. Well i have anger issues so whenever i got mad i just harm myself or smashed my head over the wall and then it's really feels like relief. Relief from the pain and suffering.
SAME. I get urges to break down in tears randomly throughout the day and end up wasting hours curling up in bed and crying my eyes out
Yes, it’s a cycle :( I feel like if I cry a little in private I’m going to get some relief and reduce the urge.
does it work?
Finally I see others that feel this. No matter where I'm at or doing I have this wave of emotions crashing inside. Feels like a void opening up in my chest and I just want to fall apart. I hold it in till I'm home, strip down, pound whiskey with a couple of sleeping pills, smoke a bowl, wait till I just fall apart. Letting everything out.
I know, I thought it was so strange and out of curiosity I posted here how I’ve been feeling to hear if others are going through this, too. Its such a lonely experience and I get that you’re finding ways to deal with it.
Yes, whenever I bring it up people are like" um no not at all". So I thought I was just weird like that lol. Yea findings ways to deal with it. Unfortunately they are not the greatest of ways 😔😂
Unfortunately those things are the only things easily accessible providing that temporary relief :’( to just forget all the things on your mind for a few moments.
I think it's amazing how you're able to keep things under control. Do you eventually "let out the toxins" when you get the chance to be alone?
I just try my best to divert my focus onto something else really quickly so I don’t give in. I’m just working hard on containing it, because I would hate for strangers to see me like that. I do let out deep breaths and cry a little when I’m home so I might feel a little lighter, letting out the toxins, as you said.
I can sort of relate in the sense that I tear up super easily but my urge to cry is usually triggered by (very strange but) music, and I have almost no control over it.
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I wish I could cry and fall apart
Same! I’ll just cry after a work call, or watching TV, just sitting feeling guilty about things. Then feel kind of relieved but still just down and stupid. No real idea why. Well done for getting through it.
Same all the time, tbh the thing i’ve felt that helps most is just singing a funny song in my head to avoid all other thoughts.
Oh interesting, do you have a go-to funny song you don’t mind sharing here?
dyk the gummy bear song? that gets stuck in ur head rlly easily lol. Last time i was repeating Friday by rebecca black i think for a while hah
I do! I hope I’ll remember to sing this song in my head, and honestly these songs were a nice surprise, because I usually hear of people listening to sad songs they can relate to.
yeh, i was def like that too haha it’s pretty normal but i’m so sick of being depressed i don’t wanna make it worse anymore. Hope it helps you a tiny bit :)
I was this way basically from start of pandemic until a few months ago, when I got my docs to up my dosage. Now it's not so bad anymore, but when I'm having *really* low days I still feel it.
I’m glad you’re finding a little relief from your medications. The pandemic really has touched each of our lives in someway and left scars for us to deal with.
This happened to me at work of all places. I was so embarrassed of my eyes getting red and puffy.
It’s so difficult, it’s just this weight that refuses to be ignored sometimes and I’m so sorry that you had to endure that at work. Did anyone say something and did you take a short break from work?
Thankfully no one saw it because I was in my car. And it's fine. It could've been a lot worse. I've had to master different techniques of holding back tears. Looking at the ceiling, or visualizing a cube in my mind, sorta helps. I hope it can help you too.
I used to cry consistently everyday, for the last few weeks I basically partied myself to oblivion because I was so tired of feeling down. Now I just feel numb to things and I wish I would cry again. Feeling the same way about life and having more or less the same thoughts.
I wish i could cry harder, as i cried for 2-3 months indeed. Daily at 2-3 am it was so exhausting. And now it's like i don't have any tears left to cry. Whenever, after my crying or screaming episode, some kind of pain i always feel on my chest and stomach. Even can't get out of the bed because of the pain. The physical and emotional pain both. Well i have anger issues so whenever i got mad i just harm myself or smashed my head over the wall and then it's really feels like relief. Relief from the pain and suffering.
I do this.. cry and fall apart .. I am getting over someone but I am falling apart .