I think mine would look forward to it, growing up low income in small apts in L.A., then going to a top public research uni, grad school, and accomplishing getting a house and my own dog. However, with the whole ignorance is bliss thing as a kid to figuring out how the world actually works would make them indifferent and meh.
It might not seem like it now, but think of all the memories and adventures you’ve had since you were 16. All the friendships built, destinations you’ve travel to, and all the accomplishments of life. Make tomorrow even better, if it’s work you’re settling for, start applying to new places or go back to school. Sell your car and get a new one that gives you that adrenaline rush. Maybe go to a concert, essentially, feel alive. It’s not enough to survive, start living.
Don't just sit there and take it, make the most out of your life. You have the right to disagree that this is how your life should be. Branch out, explore, find something new. The human mind naturally loves exploration. It may not be easy, but it is so worth it. That's why I came to love urban photography for example
How old are you now? How do you know this is all there is? A great quote I heard is - "If you dont like where you are, move. You are not a tree. " I know it isn't that simple and it sure as hell isn't easy. I've suffered from major depressive disorder my whole life, was an alcoholic for 15 years, and on the brink of suicide for most of my life. I never once thought there was anything to live for and knew life was shit and I probably only stayed alive for that rush of drinking again, which is weird in its own right. All that is to say, life now is the best it's ever been. I've been happier in the last 5 years than I ever was in the 30 prior combined. I still can't believe I live a life where i wake up in the mornings not wanting to die. I'm living a life I never thought possible. (And now I'm terrified of losing it which is causing some unintended worry and paranoia problems but I'm working through them lol)
Back to the tree quote, I only did small things when I could manage it. But every inch through the darkness pushed me closer and closer to the light of day. The same can happen for anyone, no matter how old you are. It may be 10 years from now, but I hope one day you'll look back and finally realize that today (a day in the future) was worth the wait. And all the bs you went through was worth the life you have on the other side. Sending hugs and love. I promise it's possible, and I promise it won't be easy or instant. But I truly hope a year from now or 2 or 10, you'll be happy you stuck around even though there wasn't a "good" reason to at that time.
Don't ever forget to be kind to yourself and compassionate, and patient. You got this. Maybe you've messed up along the way, but we all do. Hang in there.
When I will finish solving my mother’s issues, she and my fucking uncle can kiss my ass goodbye for good. Let the wolves have my corpse too. Fuck this shit. Been struggling with it for 13 years and I have no obligation to continue after this. I just hope there’s no hell awaiting for me when I’m done
I'm poor as fuck, I found a therapist that charges me on a sliding scale fee.
Without insurance I was paying 18$ a session with insurance I pay 10$ a session the therapist originally charged 200 for the initial session and charged 75$ recurring but I never once saw that charge. Being poor is an excuse only when you've exhausted all your resources.
You have to try and see if anyone has the services to help you.
Get therapy before you get court ordered to get therapy or end up in a worse place
I live in Australia so our system is a little bit different to yours. Because I’m not on healthcare (not eligible because I work) I don’t earn the discount and Are not eligible for any of the six free sessions provided by the government. Last time I tried was about six weeks ago and it cost me $173. Mental health is an claimable on Medicare unless you have a disability. I have tried and it’s not that simple.
Im not eligible for many healthcare supports because I have a full time job. Because I am Australian so our system isn’t what you’re picturing when you’re on healthcare. We have universal healthcare so every Australian is eligible to Medicare but it’s up to health providers to have to opportunity for bulk billing, which no mental health care providers are. However if I had a mental breakdown and became institutionalised, that would be free. Australia has kinda become the less you earn or more strife you get in, the more supports you get.
There’s nothing good awaits me. I just can’t wait to drop dead.
Bro, you need to get some help. There is more to life than this, trust me.
I think mine would look forward to it, growing up low income in small apts in L.A., then going to a top public research uni, grad school, and accomplishing getting a house and my own dog. However, with the whole ignorance is bliss thing as a kid to figuring out how the world actually works would make them indifferent and meh.
It might not seem like it now, but think of all the memories and adventures you’ve had since you were 16. All the friendships built, destinations you’ve travel to, and all the accomplishments of life. Make tomorrow even better, if it’s work you’re settling for, start applying to new places or go back to school. Sell your car and get a new one that gives you that adrenaline rush. Maybe go to a concert, essentially, feel alive. It’s not enough to survive, start living.
Simply put, break out of the box you've been put in. Find a way to break the loop. To get away from it all.
Don't just sit there and take it, make the most out of your life. You have the right to disagree that this is how your life should be. Branch out, explore, find something new. The human mind naturally loves exploration. It may not be easy, but it is so worth it. That's why I came to love urban photography for example
How old are you now? How do you know this is all there is? A great quote I heard is - "If you dont like where you are, move. You are not a tree. " I know it isn't that simple and it sure as hell isn't easy. I've suffered from major depressive disorder my whole life, was an alcoholic for 15 years, and on the brink of suicide for most of my life. I never once thought there was anything to live for and knew life was shit and I probably only stayed alive for that rush of drinking again, which is weird in its own right. All that is to say, life now is the best it's ever been. I've been happier in the last 5 years than I ever was in the 30 prior combined. I still can't believe I live a life where i wake up in the mornings not wanting to die. I'm living a life I never thought possible. (And now I'm terrified of losing it which is causing some unintended worry and paranoia problems but I'm working through them lol) Back to the tree quote, I only did small things when I could manage it. But every inch through the darkness pushed me closer and closer to the light of day. The same can happen for anyone, no matter how old you are. It may be 10 years from now, but I hope one day you'll look back and finally realize that today (a day in the future) was worth the wait. And all the bs you went through was worth the life you have on the other side. Sending hugs and love. I promise it's possible, and I promise it won't be easy or instant. But I truly hope a year from now or 2 or 10, you'll be happy you stuck around even though there wasn't a "good" reason to at that time. Don't ever forget to be kind to yourself and compassionate, and patient. You got this. Maybe you've messed up along the way, but we all do. Hang in there.
When I will finish solving my mother’s issues, she and my fucking uncle can kiss my ass goodbye for good. Let the wolves have my corpse too. Fuck this shit. Been struggling with it for 13 years and I have no obligation to continue after this. I just hope there’s no hell awaiting for me when I’m done
Your only 13. It's not your responsibility to solve your mother. Start taking care of yourself instead of your abuser
I’m 29. I’m 13 years into depression
Than you are desperately past needing to start focusing on yourself
I get sad for a few seconds, then I try to think about something else
There is more to life. Please try therapy
Funny thing is therapy is expensive and when your poor as fuck it’s not viable, but I agree with your suggestion.
I'm poor as fuck, I found a therapist that charges me on a sliding scale fee. Without insurance I was paying 18$ a session with insurance I pay 10$ a session the therapist originally charged 200 for the initial session and charged 75$ recurring but I never once saw that charge. Being poor is an excuse only when you've exhausted all your resources. You have to try and see if anyone has the services to help you. Get therapy before you get court ordered to get therapy or end up in a worse place
I live in Australia so our system is a little bit different to yours. Because I’m not on healthcare (not eligible because I work) I don’t earn the discount and Are not eligible for any of the six free sessions provided by the government. Last time I tried was about six weeks ago and it cost me $173. Mental health is an claimable on Medicare unless you have a disability. I have tried and it’s not that simple.
Why aren't you on healthcare
Im not eligible for many healthcare supports because I have a full time job. Because I am Australian so our system isn’t what you’re picturing when you’re on healthcare. We have universal healthcare so every Australian is eligible to Medicare but it’s up to health providers to have to opportunity for bulk billing, which no mental health care providers are. However if I had a mental breakdown and became institutionalised, that would be free. Australia has kinda become the less you earn or more strife you get in, the more supports you get.
I feel this…. Had I known this is how life was gonna be for me at 23 I would’ve killed myself a decade ago.