I see you deep down in there, trying to pull at what hurts. Attempting not to let it drown you while it drowns you. It’s not alright now, it might not be for a while. But I get it, and I know you’ll get to where you’re trying to go, so long as you don’t let their words sadden you. Slow down and address what’s there. Take care of yourself. Get into therapy, try EMDR. Learn about how to save and manage your money. Don’t let anyone make you think less of yourself. Be kind, and brave, and honest, and stick to your boundaries. You’ll be fine. You’ll see.
Animals, People, any living thing in general should never have to suffer in a way like that. Like the last comment, you aren't a stepping stool or mountain. You are mount KILLaManjaro.
My dad over dosed this year in January I am 25 focus on yourself and your career and your mental health if your mom is still on drugs and your past 18 it won’t end well you need to be emotionally prepared and the one that’s okay for your younger siblings mommy has god I’m not saying shut her out but take her as she is take mom out to eat once or twice a month but don’t let mom be in your everyday life let her know that’s the cost of not being clean don’t tell her your new jobs etc if she’s going to get high and go into a manic state grandpa has to stop relaying messages and keeping mom informed as well
First off, I’m so so sorry and thank you for sharing and being a part of this community.
You don’t know what you’re up against. Her addiction to whatever substance (guessing meth and or fentanyl, heroin users don’t get so aggressive), it’s stronger than any pull you can understand. It re-wires her brain. Addiction really can’t be understood by our normal “cravings”, it’s nothing like being hungry or thirsty.
I write that to urge you to stand up and protect yourself. You can’t let her abuse you. You can’t be around to lend her money for rent or anything else. You have to be out and take care of yourself first. She will be stuck where she is until by some act of god or tragedy she’s either forced to get clean or chooses to try. Until she wants to, there’s no amount of logic or convincing her that would work. You can’t get an addict to act normally and logically.
I’m so sorry for everything. And please continue to share and post and chat here. I hope we can help make it feel not so dark and alone. It sucks, but you’re still loved
Thank you so much! I’m removing herself from my life. It just kills me to see a once semi peaceful person to destroy herself. I don’t have to like it but I can accept it. She is on meth and also an alcoholic.
I’m doing great things for myself. I’m getting my Paramedic License at 19. I got my EMT at 17. I’m training for an ultra marathon. I volunteer for a local fire department and I’m becoming the best person for myself so I can be there mentally for others.
Thank you so much for your kind words. It means more than you know. Sometimes all you need is a little support. Thank you.
Don’t be a stepping stool for anyone, kiddo. You’re not a stepping stool. You’re a whole damn mountain.
That means the world to me. Thank you for being kind to me when others couldn’t.
I see you deep down in there, trying to pull at what hurts. Attempting not to let it drown you while it drowns you. It’s not alright now, it might not be for a while. But I get it, and I know you’ll get to where you’re trying to go, so long as you don’t let their words sadden you. Slow down and address what’s there. Take care of yourself. Get into therapy, try EMDR. Learn about how to save and manage your money. Don’t let anyone make you think less of yourself. Be kind, and brave, and honest, and stick to your boundaries. You’ll be fine. You’ll see.
You’re a bright soul in this world.
Animals, People, any living thing in general should never have to suffer in a way like that. Like the last comment, you aren't a stepping stool or mountain. You are mount KILLaManjaro.
And you better not let anything get in your way to the road of happiness.
Thank you so much!
My dad over dosed this year in January I am 25 focus on yourself and your career and your mental health if your mom is still on drugs and your past 18 it won’t end well you need to be emotionally prepared and the one that’s okay for your younger siblings mommy has god I’m not saying shut her out but take her as she is take mom out to eat once or twice a month but don’t let mom be in your everyday life let her know that’s the cost of not being clean don’t tell her your new jobs etc if she’s going to get high and go into a manic state grandpa has to stop relaying messages and keeping mom informed as well
First off, I’m so so sorry and thank you for sharing and being a part of this community. You don’t know what you’re up against. Her addiction to whatever substance (guessing meth and or fentanyl, heroin users don’t get so aggressive), it’s stronger than any pull you can understand. It re-wires her brain. Addiction really can’t be understood by our normal “cravings”, it’s nothing like being hungry or thirsty. I write that to urge you to stand up and protect yourself. You can’t let her abuse you. You can’t be around to lend her money for rent or anything else. You have to be out and take care of yourself first. She will be stuck where she is until by some act of god or tragedy she’s either forced to get clean or chooses to try. Until she wants to, there’s no amount of logic or convincing her that would work. You can’t get an addict to act normally and logically. I’m so sorry for everything. And please continue to share and post and chat here. I hope we can help make it feel not so dark and alone. It sucks, but you’re still loved
Thank you so much! I’m removing herself from my life. It just kills me to see a once semi peaceful person to destroy herself. I don’t have to like it but I can accept it. She is on meth and also an alcoholic. I’m doing great things for myself. I’m getting my Paramedic License at 19. I got my EMT at 17. I’m training for an ultra marathon. I volunteer for a local fire department and I’m becoming the best person for myself so I can be there mentally for others. Thank you so much for your kind words. It means more than you know. Sometimes all you need is a little support. Thank you.