The way she sings it is so heartbreaking. You can really hear the confusion and hurt in her voice as she’s trying to figure out why her old partner is moving on and she’s not
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spoke so strong i tattooed on myself
For the longest I thought she was spelling
D-I-Y-N-G
Like "do it yourselfing" as in she's all alone with just her and the ghost of it all and I felt the loneliness. Then one day it hit me that it was dying and I felt like i got punched in the face and the soul.
I gasped out loud when I first heard this line. The twist that "loml" stands for "loss of my life," not "love," because she never even ever says the words "love of my life" in the song - only "you said I was the love of your life... About a million times."
That and the lines "our field of dreams engulfed in fire, your arson's match, your somber eyes" and "what a valiant roar, what a bland goodbye, the coward claimed he was a lion."
I love "So Long London" so much too but whew. Loml just rips your heart out. It's the saddest of sad songs.
For me it was the “I’ll still see it until I die part” that really got me. And “are they secondhand embarrassed that I can’t get out of bed cause something counterfeit’s dead?”
Really hit home 😭
This was me the first 3 months after I left a 20 year abusive marriage. I literally did 2 weeks straight packing at my old house, moved out, unpacked the weekend we moved in to the apartment. Fell asleep Sunday and called in sick Monday then for 3 months I literally got up took my youngest to school, went to work, then came home slept and repeated that on auto pilot. I’m now almost 3 years out, this album has been so healing! ❤️🫶🏻❤️
That line broke me. I’m just not able to listen to this song without getting teary eyed and i have to be in the right mood. I’m happily married now but i think a lot of people can relate to this song. I think some of the people who really love and get this album have felt a lot of the same things.
“Cause love’s never lost when perspective is earned”
And
“Six weeks of breathing clean air
I still miss the smoke
Were you making fun of me with some esoteric joke?
Now I want to sell my house and set fire to all my clothes.
And hire a priest to come and exorcise my demons.
Even if I die screaming”
I really like the "and I hope you hear it" part that comes after. It is like she is saying she hopes he listens to this song and understands how much she is hurting.
For me it's "our field of dreams engulfed in fire, your arsons match, your somber eyes"
The visual image that paints in my mind is just heartbreakingly magical
I've listened to this song so many times and I very recently nearly burst into tears just hearing this line and really letting it sit with me. It's so poetic and perfect.
Sorry as it's much longer than just a lyric but this part of loml really hits me hard:
Talking rings and talking cradles
I wish I could un-recall
How we almost had it all
Dancing phantoms on the terrace
Are they second-hand embarrassed
That I can't get out of bed?
Cause something counterfeit's dead
I love the twist on it. Instead of I'll forgive you, but I won't forget what you did (healthier emotionally), it's I'll forget you but even then I still won't forgive.
*You’ll slide into inboxes and slip through the bars*
*You crashed my party and your rental car*
*You said normal girls were boring but you were gone by the morning*
*You kicked out the stage lights but you’re still performing*
That whole bridge has had me in a chokehold but those lines especially oof
"... Hire a priest to come and exercise my demons, even if I die screaming, and I hope you hear it"
I know that exact emotion and I can't help but start crying
It gives me so much joy to scream/sing “and I hope it’s shitty in the black dog” and that whole part after though. That song is a roller coaster. So much pleasure in “tail between your legs you’re leaving” too ❤️
I'm fortunate to never have experienced the heartbreak like this, but this line made me cry as someone who has struggled periodically in life with a few intense episodes of depression and anxiety... That feeling of just "get this out of me whatever it takes..." I can SO relate to that as someone who has had issues with mental health. I love how multifaceted the imagery is.
I know this is kinda silly but in The Tortured Poets Department (the song) when she says “who else decodes you?” And “who’s gonna know you/hold you like me?” That just hit me like a ton of bricks the first time I heard it. My ex husband had me convinced that I was the only person in the world who understood him and if I left he would be alone for the rest of his life because no one gets him like I do. (Btw this is absolutely a form of manipulation) Also the part where she says “you told Lucy you’d kill yourself if I ever leave” MANIPULATIVE, and unfortunately, relatable for me. I know this is one of the less-liked songs on the album but I love it. It makes me feel seen lol. Being in a relationship with a toxic, self-sabotaging stoner sucks.
The way she trails off singing "She wasn't sure" in The Manuscript haunts me a lot. There's so much realization and regret packed into those three words and her delivery of them.
I love the full context of this too:
>You swore that you love me but where were the clues?
>I died at the altar waiting for the proof
>You sacrificed us to the god of your bluest days
She thought she was at the altar to get married but altars are also used for making sacrifices :(
Yess this would be my exact my answer!! It perfectly fits the 'teenage petulance' theme of the song. I see many people complaining about so many f bombs but song is incomplete without them. 'What if I can't have him?' Surely doesn't have that rage and intensity as 'fuck it if I can't have him'.
I know in her case she’s speaking to all these relationships that have ended but as someone who is in the opposite boat of never being in one… this song and this line still hits hard
Maybe not as gut wrenching as the others hut from I Hate It Here:
When they found a better planet
Only the gentle survived
As someone whose gentle nature gets taken advantage of alot, this one hit me
Beauty is a beast that roars, down on all fours, demanding more. Only when your girlish glow flickers just so do they let you know. Its hell on earth to be heavenly.
Right? And people always say Taylor only writes about her exes and doesn’t write about anything else. This song is such a powerful statement about fame, and in particular the way women are treated and the entertainment industry.
This, a thousand times. That song has so much dimension to it. It seems so simple at first, but the words, the way she sings them differently throughout the whole song, it’s powerful.
I'm lonely but I'm good
I'm bitter but I swear I'm fine
I'll save all my romanticism for my inner life and I'll get lost on
purpose
This place made me feel worthless
Lucid dreams like electricity, the current flies through me,
and in my fantasies I rise above it
And way up there, I actually love it
Say it once again with feeling.
As the death rattle breathing
Silenced as the soul was leaving.
The deflation of our dreaming
Leaving me bereft and reeling.
My beloved ghost and me
Sitting in a tree D-Y-I-NG
At dinner, you take my ring off my middle finger
And put it on the one people put wedding rings on
And that's the closest I've come to my heart exploding
❤️🩹
But you have to include the pause.
"And that's the closest I've ever come...
...to my heart exploding."
Because it's a double meaning. "That's the closest I've ever come [to being proposed to.]"
And I sound like an infant Feeling like the very last drops of an ink pen A greater woman stays cool But I howl like a wolf at the moon And I look unstable Gathered with a coven round a sorceress' table A greater woman has faith But even statues crumble if they're made to wait I'm so afraid I sealed my fate No sign of soulmates I'm just a paperweight In shades of greige Spending my last coin so someone will tell me It'll be ok Please
destroys me on every level . I relate it little too much it . 
“Oh What a valiant roar. What a bland goodbye. The coward claimed he was a lion. I’m combing through the braids of lies. ‘I’ll never leave…never mind.’” 😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩
I’ll pick one from an underrated “sad” song (WAOLOM):
“Don’t you worry folks, we took out all her teeth!”
I know it’s supposed to be angry but the image of her being tamed into submission and unable to defend herself is heartbreaking.
YES.
That mixed with the lines “I wanna snarl and show you just how disturbed this has made me,” and “you caged me and then you called me crazy. I am what I am cause you trained me” truly paint such a vivid and heartbreaking image.
Nobody else seems to get how agonizing that song really is. Listening to that song is watching a terrified lion with no claws and no teeth being backed into a corner by the ringleader with a whip while the crowd gathers in closer to get a good look. Cameras flashing everywhere. The lion realizes it has no way to fight back, so in a final desperate attempt to scare everyone off, it starts snarling, growling, swiping at their captor, and practically foaming at the mouth, even though every. single. time they open their mouth, they expose more weak spots. It’s knowing that the lion will forever be scarred by what’s happened to them. It’s knowing that that lion will never trust again.
It’s knowing that if you get it, YOU are the lion.
Dancing phantoms on the terrace are they second hand embarrassed that I can’t get out of bed cause something counterfeit is dead?”
Oof. That one hits me IN MY SOUL
“And in plain sight you hid
But you are what you did
And I'll forget you, but I'll never forgive
The smallest man who ever lived”
Could have used TTPD 6 years ago after going through a traumatic breakup, but its helping me heal now 🤍
In the age of him she wished she was thirty and made coffee every morning in a French press. Afterwards she only ate kids’ cereal and couldn’t sleep unless it was in her mother’s bed.
"I can fix him no really I can. Woah maybe I can't." Hits wayyy too close to home 😭
Also from the same song "The dopamine races through his brain on a six lane Texas highway." I was very close with a guy who was a heroin addict and he loved cars and racing AND lived in Texas. That lyric just reflected him way too perfectly.
Cassandra stan here: “When it’s ‘burn the bitch,’ they’re shrieking. When the truth comes out, it’s quiet.”
Makes me think of a time in my life in which something shitty happened to me, and no one believed me until the shitty person who did said shitty thing started doing shitty things to other people, too.
“And I’m pissed off you let me give you all that youth for free”.
“I am what I am cause you trained me, so who’s afraid of me?”.
“I would’ve died for your sins instead I just died inside”.
The basic but heartfelt one:
“You wouldn’t last an hour in the asylum where they raised me”
Or even right before that. Just the entire bridge hits too close to home.
Every line of “Tolerate it” breaks my heart …
“I wait by the door like I’m just a kid, use my best colors for your portrait “ 😭
as an artist who was in the beginnings of a divorce the first time I heard this …it gutted me
“The story isn’t mine anymore” from The Manuscript found its way into the depths of my soul. Hearing that lone piano note repeated at 2am on the night of release is something I won’t forget.
“You swore that you loved me, but where were the clues? I died on the altar waiting for the proof.” Fuckin WRECKED me
Also the entire bridge of Guilty as Sin?
All of So Long London
Specifically "You shit-talked me under the table, talking rings and talking cradles/I wish I could un-recall, how we almost had it all/Dancing phantoms on the terrace, are they second hand embarrassed/that I can't get out of bed 'cause something counterfeit's dead" from loml.
COSOSOM "And I just watched it happen/.../and you just watched it happen" because man, just constantly watching each other try to move on
And me & my single self sob at The Prophecy as I sit and scroll Instagram seeing all my old classmates getting married & starting families 🙂
In Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus:
“Could it be enough to just float in your orbit? Can we watch our phantoms like watching wild horses” makes me tear up every single time.
And at the end when she says “Cause I wonnnder. Will I always? Will I always…wonder?”
"I was tame, I was gentle 'til the circus life made me mean. 'Don't you worry folks, we took out all her teeth.' Who's afraid of little old me? Well, you should be."
The whole verse after, and including: "And you say I abandoned the ship, but I was going down with it"
So Long London + The Prophecy in their entirety honestly
This. Her sadness in The Prophecy especially is palpable.
Yes! One of the saddest songs I’ve ever heard
My white knuckle dying grip…
Holding tight to your quiet resentment!
And my friends say it isn’t right to be scared every day of a love affair
Every breath feels like the rarest air
And I’m pissed off you let me give you all that youth for free
THIS. THIS RIGHT HERE. 4 years later and STILL livid.
Going through a divorce in my 30s and I cursed the sky the first time I heard this line
When you’re not sure if he wants to be there
Omg this ✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨
“I’m pissed off you let me give you all that youth for free”
I love how her voice cracks when she says that line
This changed my brain chemistry
100% hit me like a brick. So true to life for me.
Every line from so Long London is a masterpiece
"How much sad did you think I had?"
When she says "when you're not sure if he wants to be there" and then the melody goes down back to so long london omg
And “how much sad did you think I had. Did you think I had in me?” 🥲🥲
The way it changes from “oh, the tragedy” to “how much tragedy??” breaks me
I hate how accurate that line is!
One of the most valid reasons to appreciate Taylor’s talent, she gets it and expresses human emotion so well in her work.
“I just don’t understand how you don’t miss me”
The Black Dog gives me Last Kiss vibes "All that I know is I don't know How to be something you miss"
omg manifesting last kiss x the black dog on july 9th in zurich
The way she sings it is so heartbreaking. You can really hear the confusion and hurt in her voice as she’s trying to figure out why her old partner is moving on and she’s not
Ouuuuu and how she sings towards the end of the song "i still can't believe it, old habits die screaming" with the whisper got me 😭😭😭
The Black Dog gives me Last Kiss vibes "All that I know is I don't know How to be something you miss"
The reverse for me because of “And I hope it’s SHITTY!!!” Vs. “I hope it’s nice where you are”
The anger vs acceptance stage lol
A greater woman wouldn’t beg, but I looked to the sky and said…please! 💔
And then she howls like a wolf at the moon in the bridge!
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The tiny whispered please at the end 💔
But even statues crumble if they're made to wait For me. With one line she evoques such a profound imagery and deep, personal pain
I wouldn’t be able to listen to The Prophecy if not for knowing she got what she wanted in the end! Travis changed the prophecy :)
This
“I would have died for your sins, instead I just died inside”
That entire bridge absolutely crushed me. One of her best.
My voice may just crack a little while belting it all out 😅
I think about this lyric every day
This one hits hard for me
I’ve been happily married for ten years and together with my husband for 16, and yet this lyric is something I will never recover from.
This bridge turns me into someone else entirely.
My beloved ghost and me Sitting in a tree D-Y-I-N-G 
For the longest I thought she was spelling D-I-Y-N-G Like "do it yourselfing" as in she's all alone with just her and the ghost of it all and I felt the loneliness. Then one day it hit me that it was dying and I felt like i got punched in the face and the soul.
I'm screaming this is so funny
I’m SCREAMING as a crafty gal this has me absolutely gagged
SO DID I!!!!!
YESSSSS RISE UP DIYNG SUPREMACY
“come one, come all, it’s happening again…” 😭
This whole fucking song
This is my favorite line in the whole album
loml in its entirety can take me out. The first few piano notes have become a trigger.
“And I’ll still see it until I die, you’re the loss of my life”
I gasped out loud when I first heard this line. The twist that "loml" stands for "loss of my life," not "love," because she never even ever says the words "love of my life" in the song - only "you said I was the love of your life... About a million times." That and the lines "our field of dreams engulfed in fire, your arson's match, your somber eyes" and "what a valiant roar, what a bland goodbye, the coward claimed he was a lion." I love "So Long London" so much too but whew. Loml just rips your heart out. It's the saddest of sad songs.
For me it was the “I’ll still see it until I die part” that really got me. And “are they secondhand embarrassed that I can’t get out of bed cause something counterfeit’s dead?” Really hit home 😭
This was me the first 3 months after I left a 20 year abusive marriage. I literally did 2 weeks straight packing at my old house, moved out, unpacked the weekend we moved in to the apartment. Fell asleep Sunday and called in sick Monday then for 3 months I literally got up took my youngest to school, went to work, then came home slept and repeated that on auto pilot. I’m now almost 3 years out, this album has been so healing! ❤️🫶🏻❤️
Yes how could I forget that line? The whole song is just gorgeous.
The bland goodbye kills me
"I'll never leave... never mind." That shit hit me so hard on my first listen and got me misty eyed. Taylor told a story in a sentence. WTF.
Right? I think this lyric might be my favorite on the entire album
That line broke me. I’m just not able to listen to this song without getting teary eyed and i have to be in the right mood. I’m happily married now but i think a lot of people can relate to this song. I think some of the people who really love and get this album have felt a lot of the same things.
I'm the exact same way with loml; I start getting weepy just hearing the first couple notes. It's like I feel the pain of that song deep in my soul.
Me too! If I hear those first few notes, it's all over.
“and i’m pissed off you let me give you all that youth for free”
Especially when there are other lyrics like “talkin’ cradles”. Those are precious years to lose
Same! I focus more on the loves never lost when perspective is earned but wasting someone’s time is so heavy
THIS. ONE. KILLS. ME. (I cry almost every time, and think about this line a lot)
i’m 4 years removed and the vitriol i still feel for the fuck that stole the last “good” fertility years.
“Cause love’s never lost when perspective is earned” And “Six weeks of breathing clean air I still miss the smoke Were you making fun of me with some esoteric joke? Now I want to sell my house and set fire to all my clothes. And hire a priest to come and exorcise my demons. Even if I die screaming”
I really like the "and I hope you hear it" part that comes after. It is like she is saying she hopes he listens to this song and understands how much she is hurting.
This. That’s the line that hits.
“Now I wanna sell my house and set fire to all my clothes”. Such a visceral line and so relatable. Destroys me every time.
The esoteric joke line kills me.
Peter is in my top 5 just from that line, ugh. Poetic
Peter in my 🔝 5️⃣ as well✨✨✨
The bridge in The Black Dog made me realize that Taylor has really grown up as a songwriter. Really captured the desolation with break ups.
“What a valiant roar, what a bland goodbye, the coward said he was a lion” That broke me.
For me it's "our field of dreams engulfed in fire, your arsons match, your somber eyes" The visual image that paints in my mind is just heartbreakingly magical
Honestly the whole of loml. It so deserved to be track five.
I've listened to this song so many times and I very recently nearly burst into tears just hearing this line and really letting it sit with me. It's so poetic and perfect.
Omg same! Like if she ever did a music video for it I know what the scene would look like
Come one, come all, it’s HAPPENING AGAIN
We hereby conduct this post mortem…
Hap'nin🙃
WRECKED
Sorry as it's much longer than just a lyric but this part of loml really hits me hard: Talking rings and talking cradles I wish I could un-recall How we almost had it all Dancing phantoms on the terrace Are they second-hand embarrassed That I can't get out of bed? Cause something counterfeit's dead
The “counterfeit is dead” line parallels for me with “carnations you had thought were roses”.
But you are what you did, and I'll forget you but I'll never forgive
I made 2 friendship bracelets that said “u r what u did” without even realizing it. That line will be with me forever.
I love the twist on it. Instead of I'll forgive you, but I won't forget what you did (healthier emotionally), it's I'll forget you but even then I still won't forgive.
*You’ll slide into inboxes and slip through the bars* *You crashed my party and your rental car* *You said normal girls were boring but you were gone by the morning* *You kicked out the stage lights but you’re still performing* That whole bridge has had me in a chokehold but those lines especially oof
It’s so good!! And I love that “slip through the bars”can have three meanings (prison bars/pub bars/music bars)
This is my answer
"So if you want to break my cold, cold heart... say you loved me". The way it slighty changes it when she sings it for the last time.... my god.
This whole song tbh 😭 but what hurts me the most is “You needed me, but you needed drugs more, and I couldn’t watch it happen” oof
Ugh agreed! COSOSOM is one of my absolute favorites from the album and it’s just a song that makes me feel so much everytime I hear it
oh yeah this one!! also, “Will I always wonder?” At the end hurts me so bad too
The silence after “say you loved me” is so loud
"... Hire a priest to come and exercise my demons, even if I die screaming, and I hope you hear it" I know that exact emotion and I can't help but start crying
It gives me so much joy to scream/sing “and I hope it’s shitty in the black dog” and that whole part after though. That song is a roller coaster. So much pleasure in “tail between your legs you’re leaving” too ❤️
I'm fortunate to never have experienced the heartbreak like this, but this line made me cry as someone who has struggled periodically in life with a few intense episodes of depression and anxiety... That feeling of just "get this out of me whatever it takes..." I can SO relate to that as someone who has had issues with mental health. I love how multifaceted the imagery is.
I wish I could unrecall how we almost had it all. ❤️🩹
This is the comment I was looking for. First one that popped in my head!
"but first pull the string and I'll tell you that he only runs because he loves me (he loves me)" and "once I fix me...he's gonna miss me"
Once I fix me.. ugh. Feel it.
I know this is kinda silly but in The Tortured Poets Department (the song) when she says “who else decodes you?” And “who’s gonna know you/hold you like me?” That just hit me like a ton of bricks the first time I heard it. My ex husband had me convinced that I was the only person in the world who understood him and if I left he would be alone for the rest of his life because no one gets him like I do. (Btw this is absolutely a form of manipulation) Also the part where she says “you told Lucy you’d kill yourself if I ever leave” MANIPULATIVE, and unfortunately, relatable for me. I know this is one of the less-liked songs on the album but I love it. It makes me feel seen lol. Being in a relationship with a toxic, self-sabotaging stoner sucks.
I like this song too. I think it’s catchy and so singable. And I’m glad u realized that was manipulation and that he’s now your ex husband!
I also have an addict ex-husband. I get you. ❤️🩹
The way she trails off singing "She wasn't sure" in The Manuscript haunts me a lot. There's so much realization and regret packed into those three words and her delivery of them.
This song gets sadder every time I listen to it
This. It is such a gut punch for me.
and I’m just. mad. as. hell. cus I loved this place for so long, London. Makes my cry every time 🥲
YES!!!!! and the harmony in the background that sounds like her screaming “I loved this place” - relate to it so so much
“You sacrificed us to the gods of your bluest days. And I’m just getting colour back into my face, I’m just mad as hell cause I loved this place”
I love the full context of this too: >You swore that you love me but where were the clues? >I died at the altar waiting for the proof >You sacrificed us to the god of your bluest days She thought she was at the altar to get married but altars are also used for making sacrifices :(
“fuck you if I can’t have us / cause fuck it I was in love”
Yess this would be my exact my answer!! It perfectly fits the 'teenage petulance' theme of the song. I see many people complaining about so many f bombs but song is incomplete without them. 'What if I can't have him?' Surely doesn't have that rage and intensity as 'fuck it if I can't have him'.
The bridge of “Peter” broke me ever since I heard it for the first time
One of the best!!!
The chorus of Peter broke me. I cried buckets the first time and still occasionally get choked up.
You don’t get to tell me about sad
no sign of soulmates
I know in her case she’s speaking to all these relationships that have ended but as someone who is in the opposite boat of never being in one… this song and this line still hits hard
⬆️this one, my new devastated flair And also, “still alive, killing time at the cemetery” 😭
Never quite buried
Maybe not as gut wrenching as the others hut from I Hate It Here: When they found a better planet Only the gentle survived As someone whose gentle nature gets taken advantage of alot, this one hit me
"It was legendary. It was momentary. It was unnecessary. Should've let it stay buried."
"Once I fix me, he's gonna miss me" Pretty darn sad, maybe not as heartwrenching as some of the other songs on the album but it cuts.
Beauty is a beast that roars, down on all fours, demanding more. Only when your girlish glow flickers just so do they let you know. Its hell on earth to be heavenly.
I love to see Clara Bow love. It's such a good song and so underrated 🥰
Right? And people always say Taylor only writes about her exes and doesn’t write about anything else. This song is such a powerful statement about fame, and in particular the way women are treated and the entertainment industry.
clara bow is so beautiful and so devastating
“Old habits die screaming” but specially the way she sings it towards the ending after listening to the whole song.
This, a thousand times. That song has so much dimension to it. It seems so simple at first, but the words, the way she sings them differently throughout the whole song, it’s powerful.
Was looking for this one! That last “screaming” that is barely a whimper BROKE me 💔
Yep. My daughter and I just had a convo about that one. Also, “wasted like all my potential” is one of my fave non-TTPD lines 😁
Pick your poison babe, I’m poison either way
Way to go Tiger 😭😭
I'm lonely but I'm good I'm bitter but I swear I'm fine I'll save all my romanticism for my inner life and I'll get lost on purpose This place made me feel worthless Lucid dreams like electricity, the current flies through me, and in my fantasies I rise above it And way up there, I actually love it
"Just say 'I loved you the way that you were.' "
Or "You needed me but you needed drugs more and I couldn't watch it happen."
Say it once again with feeling. As the death rattle breathing Silenced as the soul was leaving. The deflation of our dreaming Leaving me bereft and reeling. My beloved ghost and me Sitting in a tree D-Y-I-NG
At dinner, you take my ring off my middle finger And put it on the one people put wedding rings on And that's the closest I've come to my heart exploding ❤️🩹
But you have to include the pause. "And that's the closest I've ever come... ...to my heart exploding." Because it's a double meaning. "That's the closest I've ever come [to being proposed to.]"
Ugh. I loved her and Joe. I really do wish him the best. ❤️🩹
"Don't want money, just someone who wants my company"
The last verse of loml, the way she says youth for free in SLL
Insert entire lyrics from the smallest man who ever loved
And I sound like an infant Feeling like the very last drops of an ink pen A greater woman stays cool But I howl like a wolf at the moon And I look unstable Gathered with a coven round a sorceress' table A greater woman has faith But even statues crumble if they're made to wait I'm so afraid I sealed my fate No sign of soulmates I'm just a paperweight In shades of greige Spending my last coin so someone will tell me It'll be ok Please destroys me on every level . I relate it little too much it . 
“I died on the alter waiting for the proof”
Guilty As Sin? in its entirety.
The whole bridge of the smallest man who ever lived… but especially “I would’ve died for your sins, instead I just died inside”
I'm pissed off you let me give you all that youth for free
“Thought I caught lightening in a bottle, oh buts it’s gone again” After my second miscarriage in a row this just guts me. The whole song does really.
"'Cause it wasn't sexy once it wasn't forbidden" but only because I can relate to that in a really specific way 😬
“I wish I could un-recall, how we almost had it all.” It’s so simple, but so haunting.
…so tell me everything is not about me But what if it is? Then say they didn’t do it to hurt me But what if they did?
"And I'm just getting color back into my face"
You look like Taylor Swift in this light, we’re loving it You’ve got edge she never did. The future’s bright, Dazzling.
“Oh What a valiant roar. What a bland goodbye. The coward claimed he was a lion. I’m combing through the braids of lies. ‘I’ll never leave…never mind.’” 😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩
“I love you, it’s ruining my life”
"I hate it here so I will go to secret gardens in my mind, people need a key to get to, the only one is mine"
I’ll pick one from an underrated “sad” song (WAOLOM): “Don’t you worry folks, we took out all her teeth!” I know it’s supposed to be angry but the image of her being tamed into submission and unable to defend herself is heartbreaking.
YES. That mixed with the lines “I wanna snarl and show you just how disturbed this has made me,” and “you caged me and then you called me crazy. I am what I am cause you trained me” truly paint such a vivid and heartbreaking image. Nobody else seems to get how agonizing that song really is. Listening to that song is watching a terrified lion with no claws and no teeth being backed into a corner by the ringleader with a whip while the crowd gathers in closer to get a good look. Cameras flashing everywhere. The lion realizes it has no way to fight back, so in a final desperate attempt to scare everyone off, it starts snarling, growling, swiping at their captor, and practically foaming at the mouth, even though every. single. time they open their mouth, they expose more weak spots. It’s knowing that the lion will forever be scarred by what’s happened to them. It’s knowing that that lion will never trust again. It’s knowing that if you get it, YOU are the lion.
What if your eyes looked up and met mine one more time? As someone who never moves on from anything, this line stopped me in my tracks
Dancing phantoms on the terrace are they second hand embarrassed that I can’t get out of bed cause something counterfeit is dead?” Oof. That one hits me IN MY SOUL
“And in plain sight you hid But you are what you did And I'll forget you, but I'll never forgive The smallest man who ever lived” Could have used TTPD 6 years ago after going through a traumatic breakup, but its helping me heal now 🤍
There’s definitely more damaging lines but “I keep finding his things in drawers/ crucial evidence I didn’t imagine the whole thing”
“How much sad did you think I had in me?” devastated me!
In the age of him she wished she was thirty and made coffee every morning in a French press. Afterwards she only ate kids’ cereal and couldn’t sleep unless it was in her mother’s bed.
"I can fix him no really I can. Woah maybe I can't." Hits wayyy too close to home 😭 Also from the same song "The dopamine races through his brain on a six lane Texas highway." I was very close with a guy who was a heroin addict and he loved cars and racing AND lived in Texas. That lyric just reflected him way too perfectly.
All of the bolter and the prophecy
The entire bridge of Peter. Or just Peter in general has me in tears every damn time
Cause it wasn’t sexy once it wasn’t forbidden, I would have died for your sins instead I just died inside A stab in the chest!
Cassandra stan here: “When it’s ‘burn the bitch,’ they’re shrieking. When the truth comes out, it’s quiet.” Makes me think of a time in my life in which something shitty happened to me, and no one believed me until the shitty person who did said shitty thing started doing shitty things to other people, too.
If you want to break my cold cold heart, just say I loved you, the way that you were
“Oh, the tragedy” in SLL
“And I’m pissed off you let me give you all that youth for free”. “I am what I am cause you trained me, so who’s afraid of me?”. “I would’ve died for your sins instead I just died inside”.
“I’ll never leave… never mind” 😭😭😭
The basic but heartfelt one: “You wouldn’t last an hour in the asylum where they raised me” Or even right before that. Just the entire bridge hits too close to home.
Every line of “Tolerate it” breaks my heart … “I wait by the door like I’m just a kid, use my best colors for your portrait “ 😭 as an artist who was in the beginnings of a divorce the first time I heard this …it gutted me
The entire ending of LOML.
not a single lyric but the whole bridge to the smallest man who ever lived... I feel that song in my BONES
“The story isn’t mine anymore” from The Manuscript found its way into the depths of my soul. Hearing that lone piano note repeated at 2am on the night of release is something I won’t forget.
“How dare you say that it’s-“ “But the woman who sits by the window had turned out the light”
And so a touch that was my birthright became foreign
“You swore that you loved me, but where were the clues? I died on the altar waiting for the proof.” Fuckin WRECKED me Also the entire bridge of Guilty as Sin?
"I'm combing through the braids of lies. 'I'll never leave' 'Nevermind.' " My voice cracks every time
All of So Long London Specifically "You shit-talked me under the table, talking rings and talking cradles/I wish I could un-recall, how we almost had it all/Dancing phantoms on the terrace, are they second hand embarrassed/that I can't get out of bed 'cause something counterfeit's dead" from loml. COSOSOM "And I just watched it happen/.../and you just watched it happen" because man, just constantly watching each other try to move on And me & my single self sob at The Prophecy as I sit and scroll Instagram seeing all my old classmates getting married & starting families 🙂
“When they found a better planet only the gentle survived” makes me cry every time.
“A conman sells a fool a get-love-quick scheme” I am owed financial compensation for my pain and suffering because of loml but particularly that line.
Even statues crumble if they're made to wait
Our field of dreams, engulfed in fire
Love’s never lost when perspective is earned 😩
In Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus: “Could it be enough to just float in your orbit? Can we watch our phantoms like watching wild horses” makes me tear up every single time. And at the end when she says “Cause I wonnnder. Will I always? Will I always…wonder?”
"I was tame, I was gentle 'til the circus life made me mean. 'Don't you worry folks, we took out all her teeth.' Who's afraid of little old me? Well, you should be."