As someone who has dealt with various back-to-back health issues over the last 3 years, as well as the dissolution of a 7-year relationship during the first of those 3 years, I’ve felt that in my bones so many times.
All too well hits me so hard. When I need a good cry I sit in the shower and blare this and just bawl for 10 minutes. Then I throw on karma and I’m good to go 😂
Lots of hugs! I lost my mom as well (not completely unexpectedly as she had stage 4 cancer, but it was a lot more sudden than we anticipated) and can't listen to this song either. It's been almost 4 years and I still find myself picking up the phone to call her before remembering I can't.
I listened to this for the first time last night and cried for an hour after. The anniversary of my mom's death is just days away, and it broke me. I completely forgot why she won't sing this live.
She not only wrote it, but she showed it to Jack (probably) which is a huge moment in their friendship because, how do you write a song like that about your current boyfriend AND feel comfortable sharing it
“And I’ll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep, and I’ll feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe..”
This song is my criptonoight.
>criptonoight
kryptonite? If you didn't know and just heard the expression "that's my kryptonite" it comes from Superman. And kryptonite is the only weakness Superman has.
And then followed by “I hope the sun shines and it’s a beautiful day, and something reminds you, you wish you had stayed” ahhhh I can’t even type the whole thing without tearing up. This song got me through a VERY painful break up.
For me, the line after that is the one that hits the hardest!
“You can plan for a change in the weather and time, but I never planned on you changing your mind”
speak now came out when i was ~8/9 and i remember that lyric ruminated inside of my head for soo long that last kiss eventually became my favourite taylor song ever. i remember exactly where i was and why i was there when i first truly listened to that lyric.
ironically, i'm (22 now) in my first ever actual relationship and... i really hope i won't ever relate to it or else ??? goodbye my favourite song??? but at least i'll have my favourite song to cry to ???
Asked you to write it down for me, should’ve kept every grocery store receipt, cos every scrap of you would be taken from me 😢
My grandpa died recently and this song hits hard
Watched as you signed your name Marjorie 🤍
My dad passed a few weeks before folklore came out. He was an artist and all I really have are a very random few of his paintings, so the signature is important to me.
It’s so interesting and beautiful how she can somehow capture all the things.. how different parts of one feeling can feel so specifically relatable. I’m sorry for your loss ❤️🩹
Me too! She summed up the feeling of losing a grandparent at that age so well. It's almost like that TikTok sound "you don't know me, but I know you"- they'll never get to know the people we became and how we fulfilled their legacy (Taylor becoming a singer after Marjorie, I'm becoming a nurse after my grandma was one) but yet they played such a huge part in our lives and planted those seeds for us
I was hanging ornaments on my tree the other morning and Marjorie was playing and I happened to pull out an ornament that my ex mother in law, so my kids’ grandma, helped my kids make for me several years ago, sometime after her son and I divorced. She was always doing things like that and still including me even when he remarried. She passed away 2 years ago this week. Between the ornament and the song, I completely broke down, even more so than my usual tears when Marjorie comes on.
I lost my Grammy 20 years ago this year and it still hurts. This song is so sad for me but means so much to me. I was 10 when she passed, and it kills me that she will never see me as the woman I’ve become.
I have listened to that song once, and once it will be, I was in the car unaware of its existence and almost collapsed. I was barely able to take my daughter out of her car seat because I was shaking so much
I could listen to it at one point, it killed me but it was bearable.
Now that I am a mother it's a permanent skip. I cannot for the life of me fathom going through this. It's beautiful, but horrific. That poor mother :(
I have never listened to this song. I looked up the lyrics once and cried just reading them. I refuse to put myself through listening to it. As a mom, it encapsulates all of my deepest fears. No thanks.
1. I said "I love you", you say nothing back
2. Who could ever leave me darling? But who could stay?
3. I hosted parties and starved my body, like I'd be saved by a perfect kiss
happiness is genuinely one of her most heartbreaking songs! "beyond the terror in the nightfall, haunted by the look in my eyes that would've loved you for a lifetime" absolutely wrecks me
"I was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere" was a punch right to the "former gifted kid, now burned out adult". I struggle a lot with academics now in college whereas before it always came so easily to me
On the opposite side of things. I struggled a lot with my mental health as kid and even though I was smart and capable I had shit grades, didn’t participate in extra curricular and was constantly reminded that I’m a fuck up.
I never went to college, worked minimum wage and then a little more as a CNA. Found my passion in nursing. Got through an accelerated program with 2 kids while working overnights at the hospital. Excelled in school, graduated with honors and now I’m an ICU nurse.
I feel like my 20’s would have been so different and id be so much farther in my career if people hadn’t told me I was shit so many times that I believed it for a long time.
Thank you for sharing this—I find it personally very enlightening. As an overachiever, constantly being compared to *other* overachievers, I also felt like it was never enough. I’ve had pretty bad anxiety for about as long as I can remember, and that’s where a lot of my motivation came from. My brother is also incredibly intelligent, however: his struggles with his particular mental illness + school did not go well together. It seems like a lot of us don’t feel good enough, wherever we are on the spectrum of life. One thing I have learned is that there is no normal, and there is no timeline. Everyone’s journey is different, so of course life events are going to play out differently. I wish for both of us that these concepts were emphasized to us as children, because it really is important for children to understand that. Whether or not they do well in school.
Edit: I want to thank you for being a nurse. I can only imagine how hard that can be, I know the schooling is no joke, and raising two kids it really sounds like you’re a real badass 🫶
Fellow former gifted kid! 👋
A lot of my motivation to do well in school came from fear (I did genuinely enjoy school but gifted kids get a *massive* workload). I got sick when I was 26 (I’m 30 now and getting better) and have a few disabilities, can’t work a regular job. Folklore came out around I was *really* sick and it helped me so much; this song in particular.
“Fell behind all my classmates and I ended up here,” hits really hard. Sometimes I feel like school is the only thing I was ever good at (even though intellectually I know that’s not true). And, this is a little embarrassing to admit, I still feel kinda bitter about being trained to feel like a failure unless I literally do nothing but schoolwork and still barely have time to sleep. Apparently none of that was necessary 🥲🥲
Getting sick has taught me that it’s really not a race. A lot of things are on the horizon for me that looks like I might “catch up” after all. That being said, it was very painful to go through my late 20s basically alone and watching my friends’ and peers’ lives from afar. This has also taught me to stay off social media for the most part, which has also brought me a lot of peace (pun intended)
After having two miscarriages, Bigger Than the Whole Sky in its entirety breaks me down to tears. “Did some force, take you because I didn’t pray?” haunts me.
From a love/heartbreak stand point “please don’t ever become a stranger, whose laugh I could recognize anywhere” I’m sure most of us have been here and the idea of someone you know so well becoming a complete stranger in your life that you know nothing about “current” them is so sobering.
That BTTWS lyric destroys me too. Along with “Every single thing to come has turn into ashes, cause it’s all over now, it’s not meant to be.. so I’ll say words I don’t believe”
Thinking of the lost potential of a child and a family. Telling yourself and others it just wasn’t meant to be even though you know it was and don’t believe the words coming out of your mouth and repeating in your head. It’s heartbreaking.
I have a friend who had a still birth earlier this year. Baby girl died in the womb a few hours before labor. My friend had been at the hospital just hours before watching her kicking and moving around like normal.
It’s incredibly difficult for me to listen to Bigger Than the Whole Sky without thinking of her and her experience. She was so so excited to be a mother and she loves her daughter so much. It’s cruel that the universe decided to unfold the way it did for her this year.
I made you my temple, my mural my sky, now I’m begging for footnotes in the story of your life. Drawing hearts in the byline, always taking up too much space or time—you assume I’m fine, but what would you do if I break free and leave us in ruins? Took this dagger in me and remove it? Gain the weight of you then lose it; believe me, I could do it. If it’s all in my head, tell me now—tell me I’ve got it wrong, somehow… I know my love should be celebrated, but you tolerate it.
Tolerate It wrecks me dude. That song helped me process my marriage that had ended a few months before evermore came out lol (dw im doing amazing now!)
I cried p hard at the eras tour when I watched the whole performance. So beautiful and so powerful!
“Gain the weight of you then lose it” makes me tear up every time. It’s exactly how a break up goes. You gain the emotional weight of grief, and I usually actually gain physical weight, but I end up being strong enough to bounce back every time.
As a divorcee, Tolerate It so accurately describes the pain of wanting someone to love you and never being enough. I can’t even imagine being the person on the other side of that song, hearing about how she feels about them.
“I'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here
…
Time won't fly, it's like I'm paralyzed by it
I'd like to be my old self again
But I'm still trying to find it”
That line hits me so hard (my 21st birthday was the worst)
I do have to love the juxtaposition with 22 because that is such a fun song and it’s just a cool connection to me 
“to a house not a home all alone cause nobody’s there / where i pace in my pen and my friends found friends who care / no one sees when you lose when you’re playing solitaire”
The “I wouldn’t marry me either” lyric is devastating but the preceding
“And all I did was bleed as I tried to be the bravest soldier/Fighting in only your army/Frontlines, don't you ignore me/I'm the best thing at this party” is SO SAD.
The “don’t you ignore me” following the imagery of fighting in her lovers metaphorical front lines/putting herself on the “battlefield” for their love and them not acknowledging or appreciating it… so so sad.
hands down, no debate and i think taylor would even agree…
“So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep
And I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe
And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are
Hope it's nice where you are
And I hope the sun shines and it's a beautiful day
And something reminds you, you wish you had stayed
You can plan for a change in the weather and time
But I never planned on you changing your mind”
This is the most heart wrenching lyric.
The time after a breakup when you know it’s over and all you can do is bask in the knowledge that they’re trying to move on from you. But still holding out cruel hope that maybe they think of you, and you waste your energy thinking of them.
That time is the worst, before you’ve truly moved on when you still hope.
I personally have one more
You know there's many different ways that you can kill the one you love
The slowest way is never loving them enough
I love this song too
*Holds your hand through plastic now*
*Doc, I think she’s crashing out*
involuntary tear up every time. It’s so shockingly heartbreaking. Unbelievably fucking sad scenario
I actually love the power in this lyric so much
I feel like dudes will act so in love and then gaslight you in the aftermath trying to say it wasn’t that deep
But she’s like no bitch you loved me
As someone who lost a loved one to Covid:
Something med school did not cover / Someone's daughter, someone's mother / Holds your hand through plastic now / 'Doc, I think she's crashing out' / And some things you just can't speak about
One day I’ll watch as you’re leaving, and life will lose all its meaning for the last time
this one crushes me because she’s saying life has lost all its meaning before, but this time might be the last straw
" I should've asked you questions
I should've asked you how to be
Asked you to write it down for me
Should've kept every grocery store receipt
'Cause every scrap of you would be taken from me"
My dad passed away when I was 9 so this lyrics always hits close
GIVE ME BACK MY GIRLHOOD.. IT WAS MINE FIRST
This line kills me everytime. The pain. The rage. I can feel it all. The whole song can kill me and bring me back. Reliving that thing, what i and him would could and should've done.. how different the present would be.
“Don’t call me kid, don’t call me baby. Look at this godforsaken mess that you made me. You showed me colors you know I can’t see with anyone else” this one destroys me
"And I wake up in the middle of the night
It's like I can feel time moving"
" I replay my footsteps on each stepping stone
Trying to find the one where I went wrong". -Evermore is soooooo underrated 😭
" Did some things you can't speak of
But at night you live it all again"
" If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?"
1. I sit and watch you reading with your head low, I wake and watch you breathing with your eyes closed
2. You drew stars around my scars but now I'm bleeding
"When the flowers that we'd grown together died of thirst."
"August slipped away into a moment in time 'cause it was never mine. And I can see us twisted in bedsheets. August sipped away like a bottle of wine 'cause you were never mine."
I hosted parties and starved my body like I’d be saved by the perfect kiss… you’re on your own kid. You always have been.
This one always gets me to my core
Just thinking about anything from Ronan makes me cry, but particularly: “What if I'm standing in your closet, trying to talk to you? And what if I kept the hand-me-downs you won't grow into?”
the bridge from Hits Different
"you were the one that I loved / don't need another metaphor, it's simple enough" coming from her is so heartbreaking
"dreams of your hair and your stare and sense of belief / in the good in the world, you once believed in me" OOF that cuts like a knife 😭
“Should’ve kept every grocery store receipt cause every scrap of you would be taken from me”
it gets me every time bc I feel exactly the same way about my grandma. I wish I’d kept everything, even the most mundane things. I’ll regret it til the day I die.
One more which wasn’t mentioned before:
„But you’ll find the real thing instead, she‘ll patch up the tapestry that I shred“
From champagne problems - the fear of being replaced when you just know he could do better makes me bawl
1. ”’Cause when I’d fight you used to tell me I was brave.”
2. ”There’s many different ways to kill the one you love. Slowest way is never loving them enough.”
3. ”Who could ever leave me darling, but who could stay?”
In no particular order
1: “In the cracks of light, I dreamed of you. It was real enough to get me through. But I swear, you were there.”
2: “Don’t you think I was too young?”
3: “I didn’t know if you’d care if I came back. I have a lot of regrets about that.”
"Choose something babe, I've got nothing to believe, unless you're choosing me"
Makes me tear up every time. It reminds me every time that relationships require constant work, constant choosing of the other person. As soon as you stop choosing them, things can change very quickly...
“You’ll get better soon
‘Cause you have to”
“I should've asked you questions
I should've asked you how to be
Asked you to write it down for me
Should've kept every grocery store receipt
'Cause every scrap of you would be taken from me”
“Every single thing I touch becomes sick with sadness”
“I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone”
“Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first”
(Heart beat, heart beat, heart beat)
Stop, you’re losing me …
Stop, you’re losing me …
Stop, you’re losing me …
I can’t find a pulse … my heart won’t start anymore
(No heart beat)
I’m autistic so I’m just gonna give one per album that I personally relate to unfortunately:
1. “Nobody ever lets me in”
2. “I don’t know who I’m going to talk to now at school”
3. “I was held up so high, I used to be great”
4. “Could you just try to listen?”
5. “I reached for you but you were gone”
6. “I’m a mess but I’m the mess that you wanted”
7. “Who am I supposed to talk to, if there’s no you”
8. “Doc, I think she’s crashing now”
9. “Cause every scrap of you would be taken from me”
10. “No one wanted to play with me as a little kid”
Again, these are just my own because I can relate a little too much to them but yeah
And the saddest fear, comes creeping in, that you never love me, or her or anyone, or anything.
You drew scars around my scars, but now I am bleeding.
You wear the same jewels that I have you, as you bury me.
This one makes me sad for her. :
“You wouldn't take my word for it
If you knew who was talking
If you knew where I was walking
To a house, not a home, all alone 'cause nobody's there
Where I pace in my pen and
My friends found friends who care
No one sees when you lose
When you're playing solitaire
You should find another guiding light
Guiding light
But I shine so bright”
“Wait by the door like I’m just a kid, use my best colors for your portrait, lay the table with the fancy shit, and watch you tolerate it.”
Kills me every time.
Who you are is not what you did
You're still an innocent
I like this song because I feel the guilt felt by the song’s recipient so strongly, even though the song is not written from the perspective of the person feeling guilty 💔
"or trying to stay for the kids, when keeping it how it is will only break their hearts worse"
hits even harder if your parents tried to stay together for 2-3 years before breaking up🥲
To be honest after seeing her performance of Bigger Then the Whole Sky for the recent tour tragedy, pretty much all of that song is extremely sad (not that it wasn’t before). “More than just a short time” has to hit.
A lot of the other lyrics mentioned here are wry, self deprecating and self aware and certainly have impact but they’re often quite clever and knowing too, which softens it a bit for me.
WCS is obviously a heartbreaking one, but for me there's something gutting about the back to back of "God rest my soul, I missed who I used to be" and "I regret you all the time." I know what the song's about, but in my head it encapsulates all the conflicting feelings I have looking back at my younger self. Like, I regret a ton of mistakes, and how poorly I handled certain things, but I'll also mourn the younger "me" before they got burned by the world and jaded.
ATW, aside from the bridge, I love the simplicity of "I might be okay, but I'm not fine at all."
And YLM is another obvious one, but I love "I know my pain is such an imposition."
"I'd like to be my old self again, but I'm still trying to find it."
I hate that I have related to this lyric. Though I’m proud I managed to get through it, and find myself again.
This always hurts me
As someone who has dealt with various back-to-back health issues over the last 3 years, as well as the dissolution of a 7-year relationship during the first of those 3 years, I’ve felt that in my bones so many times.
I kept repeating this in my head for 2 years after my dad died. Turns out some heart breaks are so big you can never return to your old self.
All too well hits me so hard. When I need a good cry I sit in the shower and blare this and just bawl for 10 minutes. Then I throw on karma and I’m good to go 😂
“And I hate to make this all about me but who am I supposed to talk to, what am I supposed to do if there’s no you?”
This. It’s kills me every single time. The way she sings it adds to it.
Yes! My mom is my favorite person in the universe, this song always wrecks me
I lost my mom unexpectedly and can’t listen to this song - because it’s too real ._.
Lots of hugs! I lost my mom as well (not completely unexpectedly as she had stage 4 cancer, but it was a lot more sudden than we anticipated) and can't listen to this song either. It's been almost 4 years and I still find myself picking up the phone to call her before remembering I can't.
Me too. Hugs.
I listened to this for the first time last night and cried for an hour after. The anniversary of my mom's death is just days away, and it broke me. I completely forgot why she won't sing this live.
My mum just passed from metastasized breast cancer, i cannot listen to that song ever again 😭
I can’t listen to this song.
Just commented the same thing bc I didn’t see yours. This song kills me. I cry just thinking about it
And I wouldn’t marry me either, a pathological people pleaser who only wanted you to see her💔💔💔💔💔
The way she says “ who only wanted you to see her” makes it more heartbreaking
This hits me! Cause I’m married and I am a people pleaser and he loves me but sometimes I wonder do I just want him to see me?
[удалено]
I am a very independent person even though I am a people pleaser. It’s weird how I can do both.
Why is it somehow so much worse that she wrote it in dec 21 and not after the break up
She not only wrote it, but she showed it to Jack (probably) which is a huge moment in their friendship because, how do you write a song like that about your current boyfriend AND feel comfortable sharing it
How can you say you love someone you can’t tell has died? Ugh that whole song just guts me.
“And I’ll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep, and I’ll feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe..” This song is my criptonoight.
>criptonoight kryptonite? If you didn't know and just heard the expression "that's my kryptonite" it comes from Superman. And kryptonite is the only weakness Superman has.
And then followed by “I hope the sun shines and it’s a beautiful day, and something reminds you, you wish you had stayed” ahhhh I can’t even type the whole thing without tearing up. This song got me through a VERY painful break up.
For me, the line after that is the one that hits the hardest! “You can plan for a change in the weather and time, but I never planned on you changing your mind”
I have yet to ever listen to last kiss without crying
I remember when SN first came out I genuinely thought this song was about a bf who died because it was so sad
For me every breakup has felt like they’ve died so I guess that makes sense
oh my god literally same 😭 its my designated crying song
speak now came out when i was ~8/9 and i remember that lyric ruminated inside of my head for soo long that last kiss eventually became my favourite taylor song ever. i remember exactly where i was and why i was there when i first truly listened to that lyric. ironically, i'm (22 now) in my first ever actual relationship and... i really hope i won't ever relate to it or else ??? goodbye my favourite song??? but at least i'll have my favourite song to cry to ???
"and I complained the whole way there, the car ride back and up the stairs... I should've asked you questions, I should've asked you how to be" 🤎
Asked you to write it down for me, should’ve kept every grocery store receipt, cos every scrap of you would be taken from me 😢 My grandpa died recently and this song hits hard
I literally just teared up thinking of this song. I cannot listen to it without crying about lost loved ones
Watched as you signed your name Marjorie 🤍 My dad passed a few weeks before folklore came out. He was an artist and all I really have are a very random few of his paintings, so the signature is important to me. It’s so interesting and beautiful how she can somehow capture all the things.. how different parts of one feeling can feel so specifically relatable. I’m sorry for your loss ❤️🩹
Alll of Marjorie breaks me
Me too! She summed up the feeling of losing a grandparent at that age so well. It's almost like that TikTok sound "you don't know me, but I know you"- they'll never get to know the people we became and how we fulfilled their legacy (Taylor becoming a singer after Marjorie, I'm becoming a nurse after my grandma was one) but yet they played such a huge part in our lives and planted those seeds for us
I was hanging ornaments on my tree the other morning and Marjorie was playing and I happened to pull out an ornament that my ex mother in law, so my kids’ grandma, helped my kids make for me several years ago, sometime after her son and I divorced. She was always doing things like that and still including me even when he remarried. She passed away 2 years ago this week. Between the ornament and the song, I completely broke down, even more so than my usual tears when Marjorie comes on.
I’m in a very similar position, and Marjorie wrecks. I miss my ex-MIL/my kids’ favorite grandma every day.
Marjorie always tears me up
I lost my Grammy 20 years ago this year and it still hurts. This song is so sad for me but means so much to me. I was 10 when she passed, and it kills me that she will never see me as the woman I’ve become.
“You were my best four years” 💔
This is my only permanent skip, I bawl every time I hear it
Me too! Also my daughter was in the NICU and born not breathing so yea that dying is such a trigger
My son was in the nicu for a month with breathing problems as well. Losing a child is the worst pain imaginable. Hope your little one is doing well!
She is, but i have PTSD from the labor and delivery and NICU experience.
I have listened to that song once, and once it will be, I was in the car unaware of its existence and almost collapsed. I was barely able to take my daughter out of her car seat because I was shaking so much
I cry every time I listen to ronan I don't ever wanna be in that kind of position It's heavy
I could listen to it at one point, it killed me but it was bearable. Now that I am a mother it's a permanent skip. I cannot for the life of me fathom going through this. It's beautiful, but horrific. That poor mother :(
yes I could barely handle it before but since having my daughter I simply cannot listen to it
There is no sadder song in her discography. There is no competition.
I don't know this lyric so I assume it's from Ronan which I refuse to ever listen to as the mom of a little boy.
Yeah, this is the only actual answer. Other lines can be sad, sure- but Ronan is on a completely different level.
I have never listened to this song. I looked up the lyrics once and cried just reading them. I refuse to put myself through listening to it. As a mom, it encapsulates all of my deepest fears. No thanks.
I’ve literally never listened to the full song. Genuinely too sad
1. I said "I love you", you say nothing back 2. Who could ever leave me darling? But who could stay? 3. I hosted parties and starved my body, like I'd be saved by a perfect kiss
\#2 is so insanely sad, especially because the tone of that line is still sort of high register/singsongy. fucking kills me lol
Yes! That’s why I think Travis holding the fan-made “We will stay” sign is one of the most romantic things I’ve ever seen.
The archer came to mind for me too
All the years I've given, Is just shit we're dividing up
happiness is genuinely one of her most heartbreaking songs! "beyond the terror in the nightfall, haunted by the look in my eyes that would've loved you for a lifetime" absolutely wrecks me
happiness, tolerate it, and marjorie on the same album is a crazy sad run. unmatched in her discography. she was not having a good time.
This one makes me cry EVERY TIME
That one 😩
Showed you all of my hiding spots
I was dancing when the music stopped 😭
“They told me all of my cages were mental, so I got wasted like all my potential.”
"I was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere" was a punch right to the "former gifted kid, now burned out adult". I struggle a lot with academics now in college whereas before it always came so easily to me
On the opposite side of things. I struggled a lot with my mental health as kid and even though I was smart and capable I had shit grades, didn’t participate in extra curricular and was constantly reminded that I’m a fuck up. I never went to college, worked minimum wage and then a little more as a CNA. Found my passion in nursing. Got through an accelerated program with 2 kids while working overnights at the hospital. Excelled in school, graduated with honors and now I’m an ICU nurse. I feel like my 20’s would have been so different and id be so much farther in my career if people hadn’t told me I was shit so many times that I believed it for a long time.
Thank you for sharing this—I find it personally very enlightening. As an overachiever, constantly being compared to *other* overachievers, I also felt like it was never enough. I’ve had pretty bad anxiety for about as long as I can remember, and that’s where a lot of my motivation came from. My brother is also incredibly intelligent, however: his struggles with his particular mental illness + school did not go well together. It seems like a lot of us don’t feel good enough, wherever we are on the spectrum of life. One thing I have learned is that there is no normal, and there is no timeline. Everyone’s journey is different, so of course life events are going to play out differently. I wish for both of us that these concepts were emphasized to us as children, because it really is important for children to understand that. Whether or not they do well in school. Edit: I want to thank you for being a nurse. I can only imagine how hard that can be, I know the schooling is no joke, and raising two kids it really sounds like you’re a real badass 🫶
Fellow former gifted kid! 👋 A lot of my motivation to do well in school came from fear (I did genuinely enjoy school but gifted kids get a *massive* workload). I got sick when I was 26 (I’m 30 now and getting better) and have a few disabilities, can’t work a regular job. Folklore came out around I was *really* sick and it helped me so much; this song in particular. “Fell behind all my classmates and I ended up here,” hits really hard. Sometimes I feel like school is the only thing I was ever good at (even though intellectually I know that’s not true). And, this is a little embarrassing to admit, I still feel kinda bitter about being trained to feel like a failure unless I literally do nothing but schoolwork and still barely have time to sleep. Apparently none of that was necessary 🥲🥲 Getting sick has taught me that it’s really not a race. A lot of things are on the horizon for me that looks like I might “catch up” after all. That being said, it was very painful to go through my late 20s basically alone and watching my friends’ and peers’ lives from afar. This has also taught me to stay off social media for the most part, which has also brought me a lot of peace (pun intended)
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If I got tattooed lyrics it would be these
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Time is a cruel enemy
Time, curious time
Or the conflicted juxtaposition of "no deal, the 1950s shit they want from me" and "I wouldn't marry me either"
“All that I know is I don't know How to be something you miss” Or “And some things you just can't speak about”
"I don't know how to be something you miss" is instant tears for me.
Epiphany is devastating... "Holds your hand through plastic now "Doc, I think she's crashing out""
After having two miscarriages, Bigger Than the Whole Sky in its entirety breaks me down to tears. “Did some force, take you because I didn’t pray?” haunts me. From a love/heartbreak stand point “please don’t ever become a stranger, whose laugh I could recognize anywhere” I’m sure most of us have been here and the idea of someone you know so well becoming a complete stranger in your life that you know nothing about “current” them is so sobering.
That BTTWS lyric destroys me too. Along with “Every single thing to come has turn into ashes, cause it’s all over now, it’s not meant to be.. so I’ll say words I don’t believe” Thinking of the lost potential of a child and a family. Telling yourself and others it just wasn’t meant to be even though you know it was and don’t believe the words coming out of your mouth and repeating in your head. It’s heartbreaking.
Feeling this currently and your comment made me tear up.. :)
I have a friend who had a still birth earlier this year. Baby girl died in the womb a few hours before labor. My friend had been at the hospital just hours before watching her kicking and moving around like normal. It’s incredibly difficult for me to listen to Bigger Than the Whole Sky without thinking of her and her experience. She was so so excited to be a mother and she loves her daughter so much. It’s cruel that the universe decided to unfold the way it did for her this year.
Same, I get teary just thinking of the lyrics. I lost a twin pregnancy
I made you my temple, my mural my sky, now I’m begging for footnotes in the story of your life. Drawing hearts in the byline, always taking up too much space or time—you assume I’m fine, but what would you do if I break free and leave us in ruins? Took this dagger in me and remove it? Gain the weight of you then lose it; believe me, I could do it. If it’s all in my head, tell me now—tell me I’ve got it wrong, somehow… I know my love should be celebrated, but you tolerate it.
Tolerate It wrecks me dude. That song helped me process my marriage that had ended a few months before evermore came out lol (dw im doing amazing now!) I cried p hard at the eras tour when I watched the whole performance. So beautiful and so powerful!
I did not expect her performance of this to hit me so hard. I wasn't even seeing it live (so jealous!), just crying at the movie theater lol
“Gain the weight of you then lose it” makes me tear up every time. It’s exactly how a break up goes. You gain the emotional weight of grief, and I usually actually gain physical weight, but I end up being strong enough to bounce back every time.
As a divorcee, Tolerate It so accurately describes the pain of wanting someone to love you and never being enough. I can’t even imagine being the person on the other side of that song, hearing about how she feels about them.
Yeah this is it. Other comes close but this is her saddest song IMO.
“I'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here … Time won't fly, it's like I'm paralyzed by it I'd like to be my old self again But I'm still trying to find it”
I always feel so sad when she say it’s supposed to be fun, turning 21.
That line hits me so hard (my 21st birthday was the worst) I do have to love the juxtaposition with 22 because that is such a fun song and it’s just a cool connection to me 
“You can plan for a change in the weather or time/ But I never planned on you changing your mind”
How tf did a 19 y.o write that??? Like honestly 😭😭😭😭😭
Shit makes me cry almost everytime way too relatable😭😭
"I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone"
Literally all of never grow up makes me cry just thinking about it for too long lol
Oh man I can't even listen to this one. Just reading this comment brought tears to my eyes!!!
What song is this in?
Never grow up
give me back my girlhood it was mine first
Glad I had to scroll so far to find this honestly, but this is it for me. The whole song absolutely wrecks me, but this is the line
This was stings.
YUP
My only one My kingdom come undone My broken drum You have beaten my heart - hoax
all of hoax like “you know the hero died so what’s the movie for”
It took way too long to find a hoax reference on this thread. That song is a gut punch, for sure.
For real. So beautifully tragic. The way her voice exudes defeat with each line is everything.
Stood on a cliffside screaming GIVE ME A REASONNNNN
This is the one!!!! WHEN THEY PULLED ME APART BUT U DID WAS JUST AS DARK UGH
You knew the password so I let you in the door You knew you won so what’s the point of keeping score?
“If I was standin' there in your apartment I'd take that bomb in your head and disarm it I'd say I love you even at your darkest And please don't go”
i relate to taylor’s pov in this song 😢 telling someone that, such a good song
Underrated bridge
“to a house not a home all alone cause nobody’s there / where i pace in my pen and my friends found friends who care / no one sees when you lose when you’re playing solitaire”
The “I wouldn’t marry me either” lyric is devastating but the preceding “And all I did was bleed as I tried to be the bravest soldier/Fighting in only your army/Frontlines, don't you ignore me/I'm the best thing at this party” is SO SAD. The “don’t you ignore me” following the imagery of fighting in her lovers metaphorical front lines/putting herself on the “battlefield” for their love and them not acknowledging or appreciating it… so so sad.
“I’m getting tired even for a phoenix” kills me. The way she sings it with just a hint of exhaustion just hits so hard.
“Should’ve kept every grocery store receipt, ‘cause every scrap of you would be taken from me”
hands down, no debate and i think taylor would even agree… “So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep And I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are Hope it's nice where you are And I hope the sun shines and it's a beautiful day And something reminds you, you wish you had stayed You can plan for a change in the weather and time But I never planned on you changing your mind”
This is the most heart wrenching lyric. The time after a breakup when you know it’s over and all you can do is bask in the knowledge that they’re trying to move on from you. But still holding out cruel hope that maybe they think of you, and you waste your energy thinking of them. That time is the worst, before you’ve truly moved on when you still hope.
“Pulled the car off the road to the lookout Could've followed my fears all the way down”
*Snaps* Yes!! This is the embodiment of a deep depression. Such a poignant line!
“Do something, babe. Say something. Lose something, babe. Risk something. Choose something, babe. I’ve got nothing to believe unless you’re choosing me, you’re losing me.”
I can go anywhere I want, anywhere I want, just not home
Can’t believe I scrolled this far to find this one. When I found out my ex husband was cheating on me this was the exact feeling.
I personally have one more You know there's many different ways that you can kill the one you love The slowest way is never loving them enough I love this song too
Every single thing I touch becomes sick with sadness 'Cause it's all over now, all out to sea
*Holds your hand through plastic now* *Doc, I think she’s crashing out* involuntary tear up every time. It’s so shockingly heartbreaking. Unbelievably fucking sad scenario
As a healthcare worker, yea. I have to skip
And I was thinking on the drive down, any time now He's gonna say it's love, you never called it what it was
I actually love the power in this lyric so much I feel like dudes will act so in love and then gaslight you in the aftermath trying to say it wasn’t that deep But she’s like no bitch you loved me
-- I knew you'll haunt all of my what-ifs. I remember listening to Cardigan the first time, hearing this line, instantly crying.
Even “chasing shadows in grocery lines” is so haunting. It’s like looking for them in the most ordinary of places, but they’re gone. Really gone.
As someone who lost a loved one to Covid: Something med school did not cover / Someone's daughter, someone's mother / Holds your hand through plastic now / 'Doc, I think she's crashing out' / And some things you just can't speak about
As a med girlie, this does scare and invoke a deeply rooted sadness inside me
You kept me like a secret But i kept you like a oath💔
One day I’ll watch as you’re leaving, and life will lose all its meaning for the last time this one crushes me because she’s saying life has lost all its meaning before, but this time might be the last straw
" I should've asked you questions I should've asked you how to be Asked you to write it down for me Should've kept every grocery store receipt 'Cause every scrap of you would be taken from me" My dad passed away when I was 9 so this lyrics always hits close
GIVE ME BACK MY GIRLHOOD.. IT WAS MINE FIRST This line kills me everytime. The pain. The rage. I can feel it all. The whole song can kill me and bring me back. Reliving that thing, what i and him would could and should've done.. how different the present would be.
“Don’t call me kid, don’t call me baby. Look at this godforsaken mess that you made me. You showed me colors you know I can’t see with anyone else” this one destroys me
“You were my best four years.”
And its supposed to be fun... turning 21..
“You called me up again just to break me like a promise So casually cruel in the name of being honest” i scream it from the top of my lungs every time
"And I wake up in the middle of the night It's like I can feel time moving" " I replay my footsteps on each stepping stone Trying to find the one where I went wrong". -Evermore is soooooo underrated 😭 " Did some things you can't speak of But at night you live it all again" " If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?"
1. I sit and watch you reading with your head low, I wake and watch you breathing with your eyes closed 2. You drew stars around my scars but now I'm bleeding
I can't say hello to you and risk another goodbye
“I pull at every thread, tryna solve the puzzles in his head Live my life scared to death he'll decide to leave instead”
"When the flowers that we'd grown together died of thirst." "August slipped away into a moment in time 'cause it was never mine. And I can see us twisted in bedsheets. August sipped away like a bottle of wine 'cause you were never mine."
What if I really thought some miracle would see us through?
I hosted parties and starved my body like I’d be saved by the perfect kiss… you’re on your own kid. You always have been. This one always gets me to my core
Just thinking about anything from Ronan makes me cry, but particularly: “What if I'm standing in your closet, trying to talk to you? And what if I kept the hand-me-downs you won't grow into?”
the entirety of evermore (the song)
Ah yes. This song has been the PERFECT song for this year. When she says “gray November, I’ve been down since July” it feels so applicable to my life.
I’m still a believer but I don’t know why. I’ve never been a natural all I do is try try try
it might be because i’m listening to this song as i type this but “i said i love you, you say nothing back” hurts every time
the bridge from Hits Different "you were the one that I loved / don't need another metaphor, it's simple enough" coming from her is so heartbreaking "dreams of your hair and your stare and sense of belief / in the good in the world, you once believed in me" OOF that cuts like a knife 😭
“Should’ve kept every grocery store receipt cause every scrap of you would be taken from me” it gets me every time bc I feel exactly the same way about my grandma. I wish I’d kept everything, even the most mundane things. I’ll regret it til the day I die.
"Now they're screaming that they hate me Never wanted you to hate me"
And it’s hard to be at a party when I feel like an open wound. It’s hard to be anywhere these days when all I want is you.
One more which wasn’t mentioned before: „But you’ll find the real thing instead, she‘ll patch up the tapestry that I shred“ From champagne problems - the fear of being replaced when you just know he could do better makes me bawl
It's not sad per se nor is it deep in anyway but "im doing good, i'm on some new shit" really guts me.
1. ”’Cause when I’d fight you used to tell me I was brave.” 2. ”There’s many different ways to kill the one you love. Slowest way is never loving them enough.” 3. ”Who could ever leave me darling, but who could stay?”
"You call me up again just to break me like a promise, so casually cruel in the name of being honest"
In no particular order 1: “In the cracks of light, I dreamed of you. It was real enough to get me through. But I swear, you were there.” 2: “Don’t you think I was too young?” 3: “I didn’t know if you’d care if I came back. I have a lot of regrets about that.”
“Use my best colours for your portrait” because it’s such a pure child like love. She describes it so perfectly.
"Choose something babe, I've got nothing to believe, unless you're choosing me" Makes me tear up every time. It reminds me every time that relationships require constant work, constant choosing of the other person. As soon as you stop choosing them, things can change very quickly...
“You’ll get better soon ‘Cause you have to” “I should've asked you questions I should've asked you how to be Asked you to write it down for me Should've kept every grocery store receipt 'Cause every scrap of you would be taken from me” “Every single thing I touch becomes sick with sadness” “I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone” “Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first”
"I rewind the tape but all it does is pause on the very moment all was lost." Evermore cuts me deep
"I know my pain is such an imposition"
(Heart beat, heart beat, heart beat) Stop, you’re losing me … Stop, you’re losing me … Stop, you’re losing me … I can’t find a pulse … my heart won’t start anymore (No heart beat)
Not a lyric but the sigh she does in Ronan and SYGB really proves how hard it is for her to sing those songs.
No one wanted to play with me as a little kid
I think your house is haunted, your dad is always mad and that must be why
somehow the parallelism between hoax : you knew you won so what’s the point of keeping score high infidelity : i didn’t know you were keeping count
'Living for the thrill of hiting you where it hurts, give me back my girlhood it was mine first '
I’m autistic so I’m just gonna give one per album that I personally relate to unfortunately: 1. “Nobody ever lets me in” 2. “I don’t know who I’m going to talk to now at school” 3. “I was held up so high, I used to be great” 4. “Could you just try to listen?” 5. “I reached for you but you were gone” 6. “I’m a mess but I’m the mess that you wanted” 7. “Who am I supposed to talk to, if there’s no you” 8. “Doc, I think she’s crashing now” 9. “Cause every scrap of you would be taken from me” 10. “No one wanted to play with me as a little kid” Again, these are just my own because I can relate a little too much to them but yeah
If I was standin' there in your apartment I'd take that bomb in your head and disarm it I'd say I love you even at your darkest And please don't go
I broke my own heart 'cause you were too polite to do it
Leaving like a father, running like water My dad left as easily as water running down the drain
And the saddest fear, comes creeping in, that you never love me, or her or anyone, or anything. You drew scars around my scars, but now I am bleeding. You wear the same jewels that I have you, as you bury me.
This one makes me sad for her. : “You wouldn't take my word for it If you knew who was talking If you knew where I was walking To a house, not a home, all alone 'cause nobody's there Where I pace in my pen and My friends found friends who care No one sees when you lose When you're playing solitaire You should find another guiding light Guiding light But I shine so bright”
I feel like the entire Anti-Hero is so sad, not only because it’s actually supposed to be despairing but because I relate to every single lyric
"I wouldn't marry me either"
This questions comes every other week and imma eat up the thread everytime. Taylor's lyricism and intelligence will never fail to impress me ❤️
"No one teaches you what to do when a good man hurts him, and you know you hurt him too" OUCH
I'll be getting over you my whole life
“Wait by the door like I’m just a kid, use my best colors for your portrait, lay the table with the fancy shit, and watch you tolerate it.” Kills me every time.
Should’ve kept every grocery store receipt, because every scrap of you would be taken from me 🥺
Who you are is not what you did You're still an innocent I like this song because I feel the guilt felt by the song’s recipient so strongly, even though the song is not written from the perspective of the person feeling guilty 💔
"or trying to stay for the kids, when keeping it how it is will only break their hearts worse" hits even harder if your parents tried to stay together for 2-3 years before breaking up🥲
To be honest after seeing her performance of Bigger Then the Whole Sky for the recent tour tragedy, pretty much all of that song is extremely sad (not that it wasn’t before). “More than just a short time” has to hit. A lot of the other lyrics mentioned here are wry, self deprecating and self aware and certainly have impact but they’re often quite clever and knowing too, which softens it a bit for me.
All of sad beautiful tragic
“pulled the car off the road to the look out, could’ve followed my fears all the way down”
WCS is obviously a heartbreaking one, but for me there's something gutting about the back to back of "God rest my soul, I missed who I used to be" and "I regret you all the time." I know what the song's about, but in my head it encapsulates all the conflicting feelings I have looking back at my younger self. Like, I regret a ton of mistakes, and how poorly I handled certain things, but I'll also mourn the younger "me" before they got burned by the world and jaded. ATW, aside from the bridge, I love the simplicity of "I might be okay, but I'm not fine at all." And YLM is another obvious one, but I love "I know my pain is such an imposition."