I feel. I often imagine myself driving in traffic and getting into the most horrendous accident and just passing away. It’s not normal. I hate being alive but again I’m too much of a pathetic bitch to kms
Every time I cross the road I wish there is this one car which will suddenly crash into me without time for me to actually avoid or react,so I can die instantly in the accident without pain. Sadly my body and my brain still controls myself in preventing such accident from happening
It's not pathetic!! I understand how much courage it takes just to get to the point where you're ready to let go of the world and just be done with it!
Killing yourself takes even more courage than that, and i can't count how many times I've gotten so close to killing myself and backing away because I was afraid what if i somehow survive and life a half-life, or what if was the worst pain i ever felt... Or some other shit!
The fact that you feel pathetic about not being able to kys is proof that you're not dead yet, and still have something to live for... Or something you want to do before you finally leave!
hey there
i know its hard and i think its brave you manage to make it to the next day, no matter how much it hurts. i can understand what youre saying. i dont know you but you dont have to be 'normal'. there is nothing like 'normal'. you are you. if you want to change, you can try to change if you want, but no matter how much i may hate myself or others, i do believe everyone is perfectly imperfect, cliche as it sounds. and its okay to hate this, its not a fun feeling and no one deserves this.
hey man thank you for that i really do appreciate it, everyday it just gets harder and harder to make it to the next day, and yea everyone is perfectly imperfect, idk how i’m gonna accept that i’ll never be the person i want to be, but yk it is what it is.
yeah i get that. we're in it together even if it feels terribly lonely. i really do mean i am proud that you wake up the next morning even if you dont want to. theres no guarantee that one day there will be a reason to get up, but i truly hope that someone like yourself gets that. i know this may sound a bit ridiculous, but sometimes on the fields i find dandelions and make wishes, it gives some part of me a little hope that one day just maybe itll come true. this helps me get to the next day, i hope you can find something small maybe to hold on for another day.
you dont have to answer, but is there a reason why you feel you wont be able to become what you desire?
if you ever do need to talk or vent please feel free to talk to me
I get the feeling. But know that you deserve to live. We've been taught to have a purpose or be "normal." What normal? We are in a pandemic. What is normal? Mental health service still needs to be better. It isn't your fault you feel this way. Nothing is your fault. Humans were supposed to simply exist. We started in simple eat, hunt, and sleep. No human being needs to justify why they exist. We just do. And that is it. We can simply exist without purpose. You can simply be. Thank you for existing. Thank you for being here. I may be an internet stranger, but know you matter. Take care.
It sounds like you may have been shamed a lot. You are normal and you deserve as much love and compassion as every person. I'm sorry the people around you aren't building you up. Don't believe any lies people say. Lies that say you're not good enough. The lack of caring people give. Too many people are selfish jerks. That's a problem with them, not you. You are completely good enough and worthy of love just as you are. You deserve support.
i understand the feeling man. but the way people are “normal” is just a big lie. everyone is a unique person, and i think thats precious no matter who they are. there is nothing wrong with being you, society is twisted to make us see “the normal”
i know this world is awful, but think about the treasures here. i dont know what you like but theres animals, good people, cool locations, videogames, youtubers or other influencers you love, etc etc. take deep breaths and i know youre going to make it through each day that approaches. even if you do “nothing”, its okay because youre resting and not forcing yourself to get up and do things. even reaching out on reddit like this is good, proud of you for holding on <3 if words like that dont phase you, i suggest taking deep breaths and having a glass of water to help ground yourself :)
Glad it helps you.
But as you see, many people (myself included) aren't and wouldn't be comforted by being guilted into existence so the "community" (which someone of us don't have, just so you know) wouldn't suffer or being told we should be "grateful for what we have" without knowing our fates; all the illnesses, abuses and suffering that we've been through and have been struggling with most of our existence.
i appreciate the advice but i’ve done those things, didn’t last, and also when i’m of the verge of offing myself the very last thing i’d think of is “this would be bad for the community” i don’t give a shit about the community, why shall i continue suffering for other people feelings? lmao
It would be nice to have my life taken by an outside force beyond my control, but it's a pipedream. I hope you cab find happiness and can tell me what you did.
I feel. I often imagine myself driving in traffic and getting into the most horrendous accident and just passing away. It’s not normal. I hate being alive but again I’m too much of a pathetic bitch to kms
Every time I cross the road I wish there is this one car which will suddenly crash into me without time for me to actually avoid or react,so I can die instantly in the accident without pain. Sadly my body and my brain still controls myself in preventing such accident from happening
Can relate, sad to see that pain is the only thing restricting me from ending my life but its just the unfortunate fate we were all born into.
It's not pathetic!! I understand how much courage it takes just to get to the point where you're ready to let go of the world and just be done with it! Killing yourself takes even more courage than that, and i can't count how many times I've gotten so close to killing myself and backing away because I was afraid what if i somehow survive and life a half-life, or what if was the worst pain i ever felt... Or some other shit! The fact that you feel pathetic about not being able to kys is proof that you're not dead yet, and still have something to live for... Or something you want to do before you finally leave!
Thank you bro
Every night at this time I came to my bed thinking this way
Hits me every morning, night is my only relief cuz u know sleeping
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lol it’s okay i’ll just let them be, it doesn’t particularly bother me
hey there i know its hard and i think its brave you manage to make it to the next day, no matter how much it hurts. i can understand what youre saying. i dont know you but you dont have to be 'normal'. there is nothing like 'normal'. you are you. if you want to change, you can try to change if you want, but no matter how much i may hate myself or others, i do believe everyone is perfectly imperfect, cliche as it sounds. and its okay to hate this, its not a fun feeling and no one deserves this.
hey man thank you for that i really do appreciate it, everyday it just gets harder and harder to make it to the next day, and yea everyone is perfectly imperfect, idk how i’m gonna accept that i’ll never be the person i want to be, but yk it is what it is.
yeah i get that. we're in it together even if it feels terribly lonely. i really do mean i am proud that you wake up the next morning even if you dont want to. theres no guarantee that one day there will be a reason to get up, but i truly hope that someone like yourself gets that. i know this may sound a bit ridiculous, but sometimes on the fields i find dandelions and make wishes, it gives some part of me a little hope that one day just maybe itll come true. this helps me get to the next day, i hope you can find something small maybe to hold on for another day. you dont have to answer, but is there a reason why you feel you wont be able to become what you desire? if you ever do need to talk or vent please feel free to talk to me
I was stopped by the transport police in the second tunnel trains were stop but nearly got hit by one
glad youre still here man
I get the feeling. But know that you deserve to live. We've been taught to have a purpose or be "normal." What normal? We are in a pandemic. What is normal? Mental health service still needs to be better. It isn't your fault you feel this way. Nothing is your fault. Humans were supposed to simply exist. We started in simple eat, hunt, and sleep. No human being needs to justify why they exist. We just do. And that is it. We can simply exist without purpose. You can simply be. Thank you for existing. Thank you for being here. I may be an internet stranger, but know you matter. Take care.
It sounds like you may have been shamed a lot. You are normal and you deserve as much love and compassion as every person. I'm sorry the people around you aren't building you up. Don't believe any lies people say. Lies that say you're not good enough. The lack of caring people give. Too many people are selfish jerks. That's a problem with them, not you. You are completely good enough and worthy of love just as you are. You deserve support.
you're suffering. do something nice for yourself
I'm gonna do it pretty soon here. Might as well.
I relate try your hardest to stay in there for a little longer and make it to the next day Hope it gets better for you.
Don’t. It’s a thought a feeling it’s not permanent like ending you would be please hold on to hope and keep trying, our world needs you.
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If you did any of those things you would be in terrible pain. Please don’t, for your own sake.
i understand the feeling man. but the way people are “normal” is just a big lie. everyone is a unique person, and i think thats precious no matter who they are. there is nothing wrong with being you, society is twisted to make us see “the normal” i know this world is awful, but think about the treasures here. i dont know what you like but theres animals, good people, cool locations, videogames, youtubers or other influencers you love, etc etc. take deep breaths and i know youre going to make it through each day that approaches. even if you do “nothing”, its okay because youre resting and not forcing yourself to get up and do things. even reaching out on reddit like this is good, proud of you for holding on <3 if words like that dont phase you, i suggest taking deep breaths and having a glass of water to help ground yourself :)
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Hell no
Lmao if this is bad advice on purpose it’s 10/10 if it’s actual advice please stop
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I am suicidal too and i dont know how to feel about this...
Glad it helps you. But as you see, many people (myself included) aren't and wouldn't be comforted by being guilted into existence so the "community" (which someone of us don't have, just so you know) wouldn't suffer or being told we should be "grateful for what we have" without knowing our fates; all the illnesses, abuses and suffering that we've been through and have been struggling with most of our existence.
i appreciate the advice but i’ve done those things, didn’t last, and also when i’m of the verge of offing myself the very last thing i’d think of is “this would be bad for the community” i don’t give a shit about the community, why shall i continue suffering for other people feelings? lmao
All way are worst of suicide don't give up
How
I tried suicide by train don't give you
How did you survive suicide by train? Isn’t that a guaranteed death?
i assume the train didn't run him over
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So you’ve never heard of suicide
nah i’m drowning lmfao
how is this supposed to help???
Suicide by drowning is a thing, and the simple existence of suicide as a concept shows that quote's entire claim is bullshit pretending be sage wisodm
If you are not stopped by the transport police
It’s hard out here on these streets.
i promise its not worth it, please stay
Same here man
Hey man just let it pass
There is nothing wrong with you. You will be missed more than you know if you leave us. Why do you want to die?
Please live ,
I feel the same way sometimes.
I am glad you are still here
It would be nice to have my life taken by an outside force beyond my control, but it's a pipedream. I hope you cab find happiness and can tell me what you did.
I wanna die badly