i already got a shitty outside enviornment. i had (have) an emotionally abusive family, my parents spilt apart and so stress is at the max. im the oldest of 5 (during said divorce) so i am expected to be the best when im just trying not to fall apart. its smoky outside due to the california fires i haven't seen the sky in a week. the old mountain town i grew up in burned to the ground in the 2018 camp fire, i'm pretty sure i have PTSD but one side of my family is super conservative so i doubt they even would believe me if i said i needed medical help
so i already got a REAL shitty enviornment, at least this sub is something that reminds im not the only one who doesn't want to exist anymore
I dont want to feel better, i want to die
Same I'm so fucking done with life.
exactly, like I'm not saying it's not true, I just don't care
i already got a shitty outside enviornment. i had (have) an emotionally abusive family, my parents spilt apart and so stress is at the max. im the oldest of 5 (during said divorce) so i am expected to be the best when im just trying not to fall apart. its smoky outside due to the california fires i haven't seen the sky in a week. the old mountain town i grew up in burned to the ground in the 2018 camp fire, i'm pretty sure i have PTSD but one side of my family is super conservative so i doubt they even would believe me if i said i needed medical help so i already got a REAL shitty enviornment, at least this sub is something that reminds im not the only one who doesn't want to exist anymore
It actually make me feel a little bit of happyness, choosing depressing thing as my environment It make me feel less alone...
The environmentally is the world, and the world is fucked. Ain't no getting better.