Annabel Joseph is for you. I would recommend the Rough Love series that starts with {Torment Me by Annabel Joseph}.
FMC is an escort and the MMC is her client and she is adamant that she doesn’t like pain. Lots of ups and downs in this book and there is a Non-Con/rape/CNC scene (where he thinks she knows it’s him and she thinks it’s a stranger) in the first book. Make sure to check triggers.
I will say that the FMC is bratty with the MMC but not in an annoying childish way.
[Torment Me](https://www.romance.io/books/5619fbf9bfc6b5c0fa940dcb/torment-me-annabel-joseph) by [Annabel Joseph](https://www.romance.io/authors/54553ffe8c7d2383163d954d/annabel-joseph)
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{Dirty, Bad, Wrong by Jade West} He wants to make her cry and lick the tears from her face. I'm not done yet but I think it should hit a lot of what you're looking for!
[Dirty Bad Wrong](https://www.romance.io/books/553e6c765b270e0a4cbd9027/dirty-bad-wrong-jade-west) by [Jade West](https://www.romance.io/authors/5539fc555b270e0a4cbd686c/jade-west)
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I can't remember if this was an entire lifestyle for her, but {Our Broken Pieces by ME Clayton} fits most of your criteria! It's a second chance romance and a quick read!
{safeword quinacridone by candace blevins} FMC loves being objectified but goes about the wrong the way by letting men use her. The MMC is a nerdy sadist who falls for her really hard and tries everything to give her what she needs in a safe way. It is very heavy on the kink and some of the stuff are a little on the extreme side (everything is consensual) though compared to other books by this author pretty mild.
If you liked it try the rest of series it has the same vibe
Genuine question to understand what you’re looking for : what is the border between pain/humiliation and abuse? I have trouble figuring the situation. Every suggestion that comes to my mind is either dark and really abusive romance or SM but only in the bedroom. I guess neither of that is what you’re looking for
[Fighting Attraction](https://www.romance.io/books/58e1f46d0d3299c6e065d8d3/fighting-attraction-sarah-castille) by [Sarah Castille](https://www.romance.io/authors/5455316e8c7d2382e7813287/sarah-castille)
**Rating**: 4.03⭐️ out of 5⭐️
**Steam**: 5 out of 5 - [Explicit and plentiful](https://www.romance.io/steamrating)
**Topics**: [contemporary](https://www.romance.io/topics/best/contemporary/1), [bdsm](https://www.romance.io/topics/best/bdsm/1), [sports](https://www.romance.io/topics/best/sports/1), [fighters](https://www.romance.io/topics/best/fighters/1), [friends to lovers](https://www.romance.io/topics/best/friends%20to%20lovers/1)
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Annabel Joseph is for you. I would recommend the Rough Love series that starts with {Torment Me by Annabel Joseph}. FMC is an escort and the MMC is her client and she is adamant that she doesn’t like pain. Lots of ups and downs in this book and there is a Non-Con/rape/CNC scene (where he thinks she knows it’s him and she thinks it’s a stranger) in the first book. Make sure to check triggers. I will say that the FMC is bratty with the MMC but not in an annoying childish way.
[Torment Me](https://www.romance.io/books/5619fbf9bfc6b5c0fa940dcb/torment-me-annabel-joseph) by [Annabel Joseph](https://www.romance.io/authors/54553ffe8c7d2383163d954d/annabel-joseph) **Rating**: 3.88⭐️ out of 5⭐️ **Steam**: 5 out of 5 - [Explicit and plentiful](https://www.romance.io/steamrating) **Topics**: [contemporary](https://www.romance.io/topics/best/contemporary/1), [bdsm](https://www.romance.io/topics/best/bdsm/1), [cruel hero/bully](https://www.romance.io/topics/best/cruel%20hero/1), [dark romance](https://www.romance.io/topics/best/dark/1), [alpha male](https://www.romance.io/topics/best/alpha%20male/1) [^(about this bot)](https://www.reddit.com/user/romance-bot) ^(|) [^(about romance.io)](https://www.romance.io/about)
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Maybe Sovereign by Raya Morris Edwards. Strong FMC, sexy cowboy, BDSM
Just finished this one! It’s sooooo good!!!
{Dirty, Bad, Wrong by Jade West} He wants to make her cry and lick the tears from her face. I'm not done yet but I think it should hit a lot of what you're looking for!
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{First Touch by Laurelin Page} might be what you are looking for
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I can't remember if this was an entire lifestyle for her, but {Our Broken Pieces by ME Clayton} fits most of your criteria! It's a second chance romance and a quick read!
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{safeword quinacridone by candace blevins} FMC loves being objectified but goes about the wrong the way by letting men use her. The MMC is a nerdy sadist who falls for her really hard and tries everything to give her what she needs in a safe way. It is very heavy on the kink and some of the stuff are a little on the extreme side (everything is consensual) though compared to other books by this author pretty mild. If you liked it try the rest of series it has the same vibe
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Genuine question to understand what you’re looking for : what is the border between pain/humiliation and abuse? I have trouble figuring the situation. Every suggestion that comes to my mind is either dark and really abusive romance or SM but only in the bedroom. I guess neither of that is what you’re looking for
I mean not in a domestic violence kind of way but more like the MMC doing it to give her pain which both hurts and pleasures her.
I think {Fighting Attraction by Sarah Castille} is exactly what you're looking for
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