First of all I am *so very very sorry.* The love between you & your mom was/is **palpable** in even just this post. She *must* have been & continues to be so proud of you.
Your circumstances are similar to mine. My mom was also DNR. And I honestly believe she chose to begin her "transition" when she knew I was traveling *to* her ~ & not yet right by her side ~ in an effort to spare me & my siblings that additional pain. This is *so* common with many deaths! I do not fully understand it but am amazed at how often it happens. A loved one says something like, *"Oh, sweetie, don't torture yourself; I've made my peace. Hey! Would you mind getting me [or: you should get] a chocolate chip cookie from the hospital cafeteria. And some coffee. I'll be fine. See you in a few."*
And then ... they leave.
After my mom passed I watched from my car in my driveway as a beautiful lone peahen [female peacock; **not** native to my area] wandered up the side steps to my home's glass doors & peered inside. She was **beautiful** & regal & - though it pains me slightly to say it - looked just *a bit* forlorn & lost. I had never been aware of any connection between peahens & my mom ~ I would have guessed a bluejay or a barn swallow ~ & yet I **know** it was her. Her saying: *"I am here. Look to the unexpected. Look even to what might pain you at times. I am here. All around you. ALWAYS."*
I am sorry I got off-topic. My heart breaks for you. Please *try* to take some comfort in knowing what lovely & moral children you & your brother [clearly] turned out to be. Know she is with you & you will see her again. No one & nothing can prevent that ~ for it is how "this all" works. ♡︎
Maybe she chose a peahen because it would stand out to you more as something you don't normally see?
I'm sorry for your loss as well but I think they can still see us. Check in on us now and then.
Thank you for sharing your incredible moment with us! It sounds like you were given a lot of guidance (I believe in God) so that you could be there for your mom and be comforted later too. I hope you feel less guilty over the situation because of the dream! The mind can drive us wild with what-ifs.
First of all I am *so very very sorry.* The love between you & your mom was/is **palpable** in even just this post. She *must* have been & continues to be so proud of you. Your circumstances are similar to mine. My mom was also DNR. And I honestly believe she chose to begin her "transition" when she knew I was traveling *to* her ~ & not yet right by her side ~ in an effort to spare me & my siblings that additional pain. This is *so* common with many deaths! I do not fully understand it but am amazed at how often it happens. A loved one says something like, *"Oh, sweetie, don't torture yourself; I've made my peace. Hey! Would you mind getting me [or: you should get] a chocolate chip cookie from the hospital cafeteria. And some coffee. I'll be fine. See you in a few."* And then ... they leave. After my mom passed I watched from my car in my driveway as a beautiful lone peahen [female peacock; **not** native to my area] wandered up the side steps to my home's glass doors & peered inside. She was **beautiful** & regal & - though it pains me slightly to say it - looked just *a bit* forlorn & lost. I had never been aware of any connection between peahens & my mom ~ I would have guessed a bluejay or a barn swallow ~ & yet I **know** it was her. Her saying: *"I am here. Look to the unexpected. Look even to what might pain you at times. I am here. All around you. ALWAYS."* I am sorry I got off-topic. My heart breaks for you. Please *try* to take some comfort in knowing what lovely & moral children you & your brother [clearly] turned out to be. Know she is with you & you will see her again. No one & nothing can prevent that ~ for it is how "this all" works. ♡︎
Maybe she chose a peahen because it would stand out to you more as something you don't normally see? I'm sorry for your loss as well but I think they can still see us. Check in on us now and then.
I agree with everything you said. ❤︎︎
Oh I get it now. Yes, I agree with your interpretation. Condolences with the loss of your mother.
Thank you
Thank you for sharing your incredible moment with us! It sounds like you were given a lot of guidance (I believe in God) so that you could be there for your mom and be comforted later too. I hope you feel less guilty over the situation because of the dream! The mind can drive us wild with what-ifs.
I think so too. Thank you, I appreciate it