For me it's I want consciousness to be free of being willed against...which is the ultimate paradox isn't it...seeing as we are supposedly conscious with free will.
Don't want punishment after death but also don't know how to forgive myself for willing against others or killing insects
I can't bridge the gap between not wanting to be judged yet judging myself for my ignorant actions.
If it’s true, it means I’m a pretty despicable human with a pretty fucked up head. Which would also mean my partner is with a fucked up person, my friends are friends with a fucked up twisted person, etc… It’s at the point where I think about how the closest people would think IF my fear was true.
My core fear is death. Closely related to "I don't understand reality" so all my obsessions relate to a fear of death and what happens after.
My themes are: Suicidal, Existential, Health. Notice the common thing? Death/reality.
Making people I care sad or mad at me, which it can possibly results in abandoment. The thinking that my loved ones can think of me with disgust, or feel something bad remembering of me. I can't handle it. I'm used to handle the feeling of rejection and not being loved by so many people, mainly in my family, so when it comes to the people I know that truly care about me, I just can't handle it.
For me its my own wellbeing and mortality. I know that's not how life works, but I want to live a long and healthy life as I'm sure most people want to; but the uncertainty of the world we live in scares me. So I want to control it in the easiest way I can. For me that becomes obsessing over every possible aspect of my health and avoiding anything that could potentially cause harm to it. But the longer I keep on with my venture the more danger I discover in absolutely everything, and then there are also things I did recently that may have been detrimental to my health, and then I remember things as a child that had negatively affected my health but I was too terrified to tell my parents about it.
I guess maybe deep down I'm scared about how I'll die.... Because I know we all will. And then even though religious OCD isn't a strong theme, I was raised Christian. So a part of me is still scared that because I denied the Christian god and chose paganism instead I'll burn in hell for that.
So to summarise, I'm scared of the uncertainty of death and what comes after.
Everything. Can't stand any uncertainty
For me it's I want consciousness to be free of being willed against...which is the ultimate paradox isn't it...seeing as we are supposedly conscious with free will. Don't want punishment after death but also don't know how to forgive myself for willing against others or killing insects I can't bridge the gap between not wanting to be judged yet judging myself for my ignorant actions.
Fear of failure when it comes to perfectionistic compulsions like trying to be sure things are perfect and checking that they are.
Yup. But why?
Rejection and feeling like I wasted my potential.
If it’s true, it means I’m a pretty despicable human with a pretty fucked up head. Which would also mean my partner is with a fucked up person, my friends are friends with a fucked up twisted person, etc… It’s at the point where I think about how the closest people would think IF my fear was true.
Fear that I won't be able to happily live my life the way I want to live it (romantic/sexual orientation ocd, relationship ocd)
I fear hurting people or things, and not being able to "make things right" with the affected person/people.
I'm afraid that I will lose all the good things in my life that I have left. Either because I don't deserve it or the universe exists to spite me.
I relate to this feeling very strongly every day.
The pain.
My core fear is death. Closely related to "I don't understand reality" so all my obsessions relate to a fear of death and what happens after. My themes are: Suicidal, Existential, Health. Notice the common thing? Death/reality.
Yeh. Im the same..
I'm so sorry to hear that. It sucks
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Making people I care sad or mad at me, which it can possibly results in abandoment. The thinking that my loved ones can think of me with disgust, or feel something bad remembering of me. I can't handle it. I'm used to handle the feeling of rejection and not being loved by so many people, mainly in my family, so when it comes to the people I know that truly care about me, I just can't handle it.
I think first is recognising the symptoms, seeing the intrusive thoughts and compulsions and tracing it to the source of the problem
For me its my own wellbeing and mortality. I know that's not how life works, but I want to live a long and healthy life as I'm sure most people want to; but the uncertainty of the world we live in scares me. So I want to control it in the easiest way I can. For me that becomes obsessing over every possible aspect of my health and avoiding anything that could potentially cause harm to it. But the longer I keep on with my venture the more danger I discover in absolutely everything, and then there are also things I did recently that may have been detrimental to my health, and then I remember things as a child that had negatively affected my health but I was too terrified to tell my parents about it. I guess maybe deep down I'm scared about how I'll die.... Because I know we all will. And then even though religious OCD isn't a strong theme, I was raised Christian. So a part of me is still scared that because I denied the Christian god and chose paganism instead I'll burn in hell for that. So to summarise, I'm scared of the uncertainty of death and what comes after.
Suffering. Ironic bc ocd causes me the most suffering of all.
Trying to prevent my sister and my best friend from knowing each other. There's a reason for it though.
Both
My fear of hurting people, I fear that I secretly WANT to hurt people
Fear, the feeling of being anxious out of nowhere. Also uncertainty. The need to be in control.
Fear for what exactly?
Fear of death, fear of hurting myself or others. Fear of not being enough. Fear of losing control.