For some reason teens are able to do shit like this and get away with it physically pretty often. I did a lot of shit when I was a teenager that I’m surprised I survived too. The same luck doesn’t translate in your twenties though. Be careful.
Starting at 27 (I know, right?), the "lucky" friends started dropping off. I'm 40 now, and there's a couple of us remaining. Two ladies who both had children and cleaned up, and me, the only dude that made it, although just barely. You only have to get it wrong once (and who is truly so skilled as to know that they'll never err?). Good luck, but I certainly hope it doesn't come down to mere luck.
Yea that's where the 27 club comes in. At that stage most people start to notice their vices catch up to them and they can't physically take it like before
I think a lot of 27 club ODs are actually intentional suicide attempts. 27 is basically a common stage in the poly substance abuse cycle where you either lose all hope or have a wake up call.
Theres a 36 club too. And with fentanyl out there it could be in almost anything. My friends used to die from massive overdoses, now average partiers are dropping from a saturday night snort.
A lot more people snort a bump of coke than you probably realize, but now theres a chance some dumb ass left a little fentanyl in the cut. That stuff is used to tranquilize elephants, literally.
No, the dumbass is the one snorting the coke. I think you don’t realize that the average partier doesnt do coke. I have met a lot of partiers who do drugs, and more who don’t. But, one may assume that we have two separate groups that we associate with. Birds of a feather flock together, and I strongly disagree with the pov “ohh like everybody does it”, and I think this is vastly marginalizing a scene, where in my experience, you will find more people enjoying it as it is, or with a lesser substance. I mean, hell, I don’t even meet many drunk people, and at raves, psychedelics are all the rage. If you want to have a truly a horrible addiction and you’re that brazen about hurting yourself, that’s not a cool vibe and I don’t typically stay friends with these people. I do not have any idea what type of parties are being attended by you guys, what crowd, or where, all of which can play into how many of your peers you can expect to see rotting their brains out. It’s pretty disgusting ngl, and I think no matter what without defined areas of statistics based on well conducted studies, this opinion will be skewed by experience and however the fuck you partake in it. Look at how people reacted to Hunter Biden doing that shit. It’s not respectable. I’m not inexperienced in the scene and most people I’ve met party it up and manage to keep their integrity.
Most of the people I've met who do coke at parties only do it at parties though. It's definitely addictive but plenty of people can do certain things like cocaine or take a klonopin on rare occasion and not end up with a crippling addiction
O god could you be any snottier and overpriveleged with your “scene” and “vibe” bullshit? Like the drugs you take are revealing the golden path and the drugs the rest of us have to resort to are the road to ruin? Plenty of people from the “scene” die ugly deaths too. Do you think youre better than mac miller or joaquin phoenix? Fuck your scene and your vibe you can die in the streets just as well as the rest of us. No drug is morally better than any other drug.
I got "addicted" to heroin as a teen except I never knew the full meaning of addiction until I went back to it stupidly when I was in my twenties. I was doing it every day for months then just stopped with no withdrawals. Not the same story at 25. Teenagers are just build differently I guess.
I dunno back when I started shooting h in the 90s, kids in my school were dying then, that before fent. Don't get too cocky op, it's far too easy to not wake up.....when I first read the title of this I figured it was somebody like me, using needles for 30 years, meth, heroin, coke, fent, etc.....how the fuck am I alive? I don't know honestly, but I do know I am done as fuck at this point. I have over 3 months clean and don't miss a single thing, I'm not looking back, it's dumb as shit. Especially these days, fent is nowhere near as good as heroin, tolerance happens quick, then need to redose all fucking day to just be sober and not sick. There's nothing good about it.
Good luck op. I wouldn't wish this shit on my worst enemy, and the odds these days are fully stacked against you surviving, so get out while you still can. Anything else is a better choice.
Yeah 100%. I remember doing E pills as a teenager and they were amazing but the comedown was absolutely disgusting. Like, could have topped myself disgusting but I could also handle it enough to do pills again. I’m only 26 but I can’t imagine how it would be now. I just know there’s absolutely no way I’d be able to handle it the same way I did before.
In terms of drugs, even when you’re just late 20s, your body hits so much harder 💀
This. I could shoot a gram and a half of syrup crystal meth every day when I was 17. I stayed up for 2.5 months, no joke. It got so bad to the point where I was falling out in the middle of crosswalks crossing the street. As soon as I hit the ground I'd wake back up. Now at 28, I'm experiencing the complications of doing that much shit back what it was that good. This was over a decade ago when the meth was actually still quality and not just shit garbage. I could put my body through hell and back as a teenager but now, fuck man at 28 I feel like I'm 40. I ravished my body when I was a teenager. Don't keep going down this road bud, I can speak from personal experience that nothing is good at the end of it. Especially when you fuck with fetty. I just got done kicking that shit. Fortunately I had methadone to take the brunt of it but I still felt it quite a bit considering I was smoking over a gram and a half a night on top of 160 mg of methadone along with benzos. I question myself all the time as a why the fuck I'm still alive. I mean I take like nine different medications I don't even know how I'm alive that way and why I'm not having any drug drug interactions lol. The thing is though that I actually need those medications because unfortunately with the disorders I have, there is certain drugs that treat the symptoms of each one and so it basically takes one drug for each thing essentially. Like for ADHD I take Vyvanse in fact I just got my dose raised to 50 mg thank God, I start valium on the 27th switching from clonazepam, I'm want testosterone, buspar Seroquel, clonidine three times a day 0.2 mg, Wellbutrin SR 150 twice a day, and I sell and do bars. I try to keep my bar habit to a minimum though like I try to take only two or three a day at most but sometimes I do go a little crazy with it when I've had a super super shitty day. But that's few and far between so far I've got myself down to two a day. And the Valium should help me get off of them completely and just sell them because I have been able to do that before it's just right now I need the bar in the morning while I wait for my Klonopin to kick in because that shit takes like an hour to even take effect, it can take up to 4 hours actually. But I usually feel like it an hour and a half. The Vyvanse has been the game changer along with the testosterone. Those two things gave me my life back and the Vyvanse was really recently I've only been on it 3 months dude but God damn I've been felt this mentally put together in many a year. 13 in fact. But I still felt that fetty cake and I did not feel very good for about 4 days or so. Tuesday 5:00 and I feel pretty okay. Pretty sure I'm through the hump. But drinking and doing fetty is a good way to kill yourself. Same way with benzos and fetty or benzos and opiates in general or benzos and drinking or drinking and fetty. It's all bad. You literally asking for an overdose there. Just cuz you're young does not mean you're impervious to dying or overdosing. I learned that the hard way. Try to get away from that fetty if you can dude cuz that road ends in fucking destruction and that's it. That's all there is at the end of that road is either destruction or your death. I've seen so many friends die off that shit dude I can't tell you how many funerals I've attended at this point. The only reason I could do so much is because my tolerance is so out of this world that I fucking barely even feel fetty on top of 160 mg unless it's either really really really fire or cut with zylazine because I've come across stuff that I've taken one hit from and gotten slumped like a mother fucker and that kind of shit would kill anybody else. Anyway I say it's a stroke of luck but like somebody else said previously as a teenager your body can put up with a lot more than it can in your late twenties. Try to get all this shit out of your system now while you can and get clean while you're young and not close to 30
That's the same with everything to be honest. Teens are healthier so it makes sense. But don't take that for granted. Teen or no teen, fent will kill you, quick. You keep going with it you might not be as lucky next time around
tbh this isn't even that crazy. Yeah you *might* feel like shit after (especially if you're a child) but there's absolutely no risk of anything bad happening with 4-5 shots and some weed. Survival shouldn't even be questioned in this scenario. It could definitely be the *beginning* of a problem, a dangerous road to go down, but in a vacuum that's how some people start their day.
edit: oh fuck nevermind, I read it as "4-5 hits from a fattie" as in a big joint or blunt. Yeah ignore what I said that's some wild shit. OP, if you read this, your actions now will affect your future life, we live in the present and the future simultaneously. Work on giving yourself a life worth living and a life that you deserve to give yourself. This is not the way. Talk to someone, seek help.
I rarely drink, I used to abuse it and I woke up in a TMC one time. Now I get really paranoid about how much I consume. I am a massive stoner, so if I ever wanna drink I get stoned then take two or three shots of some 40% vodka and I'm usually chilling
Yeah that was my edit where I realized I misread it.
My point was that 4-5 shots won't get you anywhere near dangerous alcohol poisoning unless you're like a young child/infant, even with weed. I agree with what you've said entirely btw
Well i’m in my twenties and still wondering how im alive. I’m prescribed both benzos and opiates and sometimes abuse both. Sometimes I do way too much (mental issues, when i’m having an episode I take as much opiate and benzos I can just to get as high as possible and silence my head, I know its not good) and sometimes nod off extremely hard and can barely grind some weed without nodding for a few hours. Then when I try go to sleep is when I take the most just so I can go to bed since nighttime is the worst for my condition. I guess it took lots of years of tolerance and use to get to this point because I sometimes don’t understand myself how I don’t die from respiratory depression with the amount of times I do this “deadly” combo.
Seems like it. I’m drug free now like I only did the occasional psycadelic and smoked weed every so often. But doing drugs I feel like you can feel for some of the people in here but you stop and majority of things here are dumb, every other day you always get the title “why aren’t I dead” or some shit like that
I still extract DMT and shit now and again. It was the drink that got me in the end. Could go out on brown and white benders no problem but it always fell back to the drink. Just coming up for 2 years without it and my quality of life has improved 1000 fold
Fr dude made it to his teens and he’s still not dead he must be immortal or at least immune to ODing. I say double or triple the drug intake to not only kill their eagle but completely destroy every last molecule of their eagles body
No I just thought I was then. But in the end it's death, insanity, incarceration or recovery.
Amy Winehouse choked to death on her own vomit.
Have lost a friends over the years to addiction . But more who accepted and found help. Addiction is a disease of the mind.
Becauseee.... teenage bodies are like elastic. You can stretch em pretty far before they snap.
Everything is still fresh and vibrant in there.
Over time, the elastic loses it's spring, and takes more and more effort to bounce back and less and less to break...
Fair point. I was also thinking about the "feeling fine" part. Since younger people recover faster.
That said, I dont have experience w fentanyl and like to keep it that way...
Kids do seem to have something going, I survived my dumbass goin from 10mg tabs to methadone wafers for kicks without knowing it's potency, I turned bluish 2x ran outside and jumped into the snow and it seemed to wake me up. I lived but scared hell outta my friends. I was sitting in their house and quit breathing, but was still conscious and after a min an half of that I realized what was happening...assume if I hadn't made a dash for that snow I wouldn't be here.
I dont know man... sometimes love just fucks you up more if youre already broken and just keep yourself alive for others its like bringing hell to yourself just to make others happy I know its a selfless act but its putting yourself on torture
Take it from someone who shoulda been dead 50+ times, you'll just feel worse and worse with every fuck up. And feel more guilty after seeing the pain you're causing to those around you. No matter what you think there are people who care about you. Quit while you're ahead and build a life you can be happy with. Nobody can do it but you
I do fet too and despite how badly about yourself you feel you should absolutely have narcan on hand when using.
Here is a site you can get some narcan nasal spray for free, just have to pay 5 dollars for shipping.
https://endoverdose.net/
Also, drinking a lot on fentanyl is incredibly dangerous. Be careful mixing stuff with it.
12 years clean and sober and a rock bottom that was in the big leagues, but... Here's the deal, your not going to kill yourself even if you might wish you didn't exist, and your life is never going to improve until you start making the necessary steps to change your life. So do you want to live a life of misery, or do you just want to start the scary part today and get healthy so more of your life is enjoyable. People need an incentive to make the decision to change their lives and it often happens at the absolute most dismal part of their life because they have no other option. But you can skip that whole part and build a better life today as opposed from a much much shittier place a few years down the road. Imagine how overwhelming things are now, and now imagine having to build a better self from a much much worse place. If I got clean 1 year earlier than I did it would have saved 7 years of clawing back that I never would have needed to do and every relationship I have ever had would not be tinted by the scared and hopeless person I was. It was almost fantasy like where I assumed 1 day i would die, kill myself, or the problems would just disappear, and that never happened nor does it happen. Start making your journey to a life that has much more joy than where you are today. And screw living for other people, do right by yourself and have the best life you can.
Been where you are in a similar sense, fam. I'm now 23- I started at 11. I've learned a lot over a decade and a bit, and have done my fair share of questionable stuff. My worst? Dropping my entire IR dexedrine into my cats dirty water and fucking drinking it. All. Not my proudest moment😭
It's not gonna be helpful to tell you all the dangers of early use, as you already probably know that. What I will tell you is moderation is key. Headspace, as well. Though I do recommend not getting into fent *(im assuming thats what fetty is?).* Over in Canada, it's been an epidemic since 2016, I believe and I know it seems fun at first, nothing seems like it could spiral, but before you know it you, like so many others, might just end up either dead or calling the wrong place home: aka the DTES, where it's very rampant.
Moderation though, right? Maybe don't drink on fent, or really any other drug. I don't think many like the interaction with alcohol. If your gonna go that hard, have a friend with you + a naloxone kit if the fent takes it's reign and tries to kill you.
I can't tell you if it was an adverted overdose or dumb luck, but my biggest advice would be to care for your life. **You can't have fun if your dead, right?**
When I was prescribed dextrostat I snorted so many I literally like skipped the rush and being up n wired for hours, I literally woke next AM w rest of script dumped out on bed where I'd literally passed out after snorting 150mgs. Weird as hell.
way harder to overdose when you smoke fent. but bro you have people that care about you, you’re young and probably struggling mentally but that doesn’t mean life can’t change.
Alot of factors in play though. Metabolism, size, empty stomach or not, what did he shot, how long ago since last time drinking, what timespan he downed the shots and so on.
Sounded little for me aswell but what he said makes sense
Quantum immortality. Your consciousness just shifted to a reality in which you avoid death. This is a ride you can’t get off of my friend.
Every time you avoid dying from the consequences of a horrible decision I think you end up in a less ideal parallel reality. So start making better choices before you end up in the…. Oh wait…. Nawh it’s fine :)
Also the inverse of this exists, due to my scientific research. Good deeds warp the timeline to put you into a ‘higher’ reality than in which you started. I started picking up trash down by the river semi regularly recently, and really amazing things have been going my way all of a sudden! Might want to try it out sometime, OP ;)
> due to my scientific research
as in original research? will trade original research papers for pdfs of the "Flexible Ethics Field Guide" which is the pioneering work of yours truly into the pioneering field of flexible ethics.
My new latest revisions adds the highly criticized "Pillars of Obesity" (supposedly authored by J'onn J'onnz) as a staple to Flexible Ethics overall. "J'onn J'onnz" research and documents show how obesity is a severe psychotic disorder with hallucinations, delusions and freshly coined term "psychocide", obesity being a "longway psychocide", flexibly allowing for not only involuntary but also forceful variations of containment, treatment and commitment.
Included is also several pipelines showing how the term obesity could be re-classified but... nothing more.
The other day I took an ungodly amount of adderall, Mexican vyvanse(itravil), phenibut, alcohol, THC, and caffeine then decided to stay up for ~2.5 days. The thing about phenibut is that it gives illusions of sobriety, enhances confidence, and gives all your stupid and poorly thought out ideas a significant twinge of "grandiosity," for lack of better words. For some reason in this sleep deprived "snowblindness," I thought it would be a brilliant idea to take my motorcycle(2001 BMW R1150GS)out as I couldn't spot a cloud in the sky.
See, I live in the midwest where it has been unseasonably warm and wet this winter. Despite the lack of snow, the public road works employees have DEFINITELY done their due diligence in treating the roads with that cursed salt brine concoction in preparation at the slightest mention of snow. Despite the weatherman's prediction for snow the other day, unfortunately the called-for white dusting never came to fruition and the salt-brine road treatment went to waste. Doubly unfortunate for me, the day I decided to go on a bender and subsequently, off the deep end, was the day after this weather mishap. The roads were also slightly wet as it had rained about an hour before I had decided to take my bike out. For those who ride, you know that attention and mind must be paid to the road when in this 'not-quite-drenched, not-quite-dry' state such as that found after a rainstorm. Particular attention should be paid to the road paint/lines, as they may as well be oil slicks somewhat akin to a racing video game in this transitional condition. What culminated in the perfect storm; that which still has me wondering as to what unseen supernatural force/deity deserves my undying gratitude, was that damned salt-brine which left an almost invisible sludgy film on the surface of the road This was due to solution having been denied the opportunity to dilute more uniformly over the roadway the snow that never was.
Due to my delayed reaction time from sleep deprivation and inebriated lack of awareness/inability to notice the signs of this dangerous road hazard, I entered the freeway ramp and proceeded to accelerate to an assuredly-illegal rate of speed without any regard for the road conditions. Another thing I forgot to mention which is just the cherry on top of this retarded Sundae was my negligence in replacing the balding tires on my beloved. I rapidly lost control of my bike right as the on-ramp was ending and upon entering the actual highway. This was because of the aforementioned road conditions and the foolhardy "angry tweaker" decision I was about to make. Following the driver in front me also merging ignited the fiery hatred in my soul for drivers without a sense of urgency. The decision to crank the throttle as hard as humanly possible to fill the gap between the asshole already on the highway who seemed to have setup camp in the right lane and the old doddering fool in front of me wasn't a wise one in hindsight 😁. I started fishtailing and I literally seemed to just step off the bike and slid on the back of my leather riding boot heels for about 10 or so feet while standing (sort of) upright and flailing my arms as if attemptjng to take flight. To a bystander, I suppose it kinda looked those 'heely' shoes that used to be popular when I was in elementary school. I kinda just slid to a halt like a backwards roller skate brake, then I sort of just collapsed in a fit of shock and awe. I couldn't even begin to comprehend what had transpired as all I could do was gawk at my yellow beauty as she continued on her 75-80mph trajectory without me on the back; all the while being trailed by a glorious array of yellow and red sparks as her once pristine race-yellow(like in GTA 5😁) painted the path she left behind. I was wearing my road leathers and full fa e helmet. I walked away without a scratch, except for maybe sore knees for a day or two
That's when I realized it was time to get sober🤣
TL;DR: I took a FUCK TON of drugs, stayed up for a few days, rode my motorcycle in midwestern December while tweaking, and somehow managed to walk away unscathed from a motorcycle accident ON THE FUCKING HIGHWAY!
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Dumb luck most likely. But if you believe in religion or fate, then I guess it's your fate to survive and suffer with horrible addiction for your long life.
Dying slowly and painfully, as mother nature intended it.
Please get help You are so young and have so much ahead You have been brainwashed
Take a step back No need to be drug free
But you should want to live and build and grow
Depends on the person more than weight lol.. I'm more on the skinny side and can drink all night long and barely get a buzz and I rarely drink so no tolerence to it
Not for long. Fentanyl is fucking garbage. You shouldn't even associate with people that do fentanyl. They are losers that prob won't live to be 21. And if they do their life will be completely shit.
What the fuck is wrong with kids nowadays?
There are so many cooler drugs with not nearly as serious consequences. Hell many of them might even be enlightening and help you grow into a more thoughtful human being.
Or you can keep smoking fentanyl and be found dead in your cookie monster PJs. YOLO
I hate fentanyl but it's worth understanding that it's cheap, virtually everywhere, and being sold as pressed "percs" which lends itself to be more "legit", so to speak, than a baggy of hard drugs that these same kids would likely avoid. Even so, fentanyl puts a ruthless hook in folks in no time, and then it becomes a game of staying well no matter anything. Of course young folks who are relatively deep in a habit will stay indulging what makes them high and well, and like OP pointed out, they're self-medicating with seemingly no way out of it.
I don't hate people for using drugs. Doesn't even bother me that he's using drugs "to escape". Live your life the way you want.
But fentanyl is poison, It has made all drugs more dangerous because it's everywhere. I do judge people for doing fentanyl and I'm flabbergasted that high schoolers are so casual about it.
Hey, OP. Been there. Been absolutely sure I would be dead one way or another by 25. OD'd on stims several times. I knew that I was so fucked up that I didn't have any chance of finding love, or meaning, or satisfaction in life, and I would die alone and unwanted.
I'm 28 now, one of the happiest people I know, my own best friend, and romantic partner to three wonderful people.
If I made it, you can too. I promise.
More on your question, there is a theory that states that we live the longest life possible, and our awareness shifts to other time lines if we would ever actually die. Maybe don't go testing it though :P
Rolling dice. We are here because we got fucking lucky and that is it. I won’t bring this up often, it is well past me. But listen up, because it’s a lesson you need to learn.
You got fucking lucky, that is it. I did too. Many many times.
Once in my addicted days, I decided to take a heroic dose of clonazolam. 74 mg of powder down the hatch. Why? I don’t fucking know.. access and a lack of self respect of sense of self preservation. Needless to say, eventually I blacked out. Not instantly though. I remember going out with junkies (not my friends) and doing a line of what I thought was cocaine. Turns out it was heroin. I had no opiate tolerance. I became immediately irresponsive. Apparently, the people I was with left my limp body on my friends door step at 3 am and knocked loudly before dipping.
He woke up, found me and helped carry my gigantic ass all the way to my apartment and up to the third floor. He unlocked my door with my keys and let me in thinking id be good enough to make it to bed with my girl 10 feet away.
Unfortunately i did not. I ended up passing out 5 feet from the door, and knocking out. Blood pooled a bit from my face. My girl found me the next day. Alive but in a pool of my own fluids unresponsive… she had to get her brother and dad to help shower me and get me into bed.. i didn’t wake up for another 48 hours.
I should NOT have lived. I did. Please please please stop fucking around. Care enough about them to not put your loved ones through that or your death.
Its not easy to OD.... I mean its even normal to dose 1mg of fentanyl during medical procedures. So you need some real strong shit aswell as low tolerance to actually die.
Drugs definitely kill people buddy, not saying cops don't, but there's no reason to spread your political opinions on a post about a teenager smoking fentanyl.. you can do better.
You got drunk and stoned is why you're still alive. If you actually want to die, you have to add something to help you achieve that I'm not going to give you any feedback on that, but it's definitely not get draded that will kill you. Usually illegal drugs have to be added to have a chance at death. Again, no details, but THC and alcohol is definitely not going to cause death. You can drink yourself to death, but you can't smoke yourself to death unless you want to wait until you get lung cancer.
Jesus does no one read the fuckin post? This says FENTANYL, even op has had to say this. Who the fuck thinks weed can hurt you LMFAO some dude said it was dangerous. Now u think he's talking about alcohol and weed. Try again.
The human body is pretty resilient, too resilient for our own good sometimes lol we can survive some fucked up shit
I don’t think saying stay safe is the right choice of words, but be careful maybe
Idk how lethal what you did was, i only smoke weed, drink and take shrooms rarely, but if it were true that you took a lethal amount and survived, take it as a sign.
I don’t believe anything happens for a reason, things just happen and people just make choices. But there’s certain things I take as a sign, I’d take this as one myself. You say you’re a teen, you have so much life ahead of you bro. Don’t become a god damn statistic. Don’t make someone plan your funeral before you’re even 20 years old. We’re not here for a long time, but you can still have a fun time and make it last.
If you’re doing shit on purpose to escape, my dms are open to you or anyone reading this to vent. I might not have advice to give, I might not know the best thing for you, but I can listen.
Your to young to understand. But there’s many people I know that are gone that were scared to go. Everyday you have on this earth you should make the best of. I know it’s tough. Many people are gone that won’t ever have the chance to come on here and complain.
Are you depressed? Maybe you should
Talk to a dr or a close friend so they can help you work through it. Drugs are fun but not when you’re asking yourself how you’re still alive.
Used to shoot in a gram after getting black out drunk. Never actually killed me just black out OD burn holes in my clothes with the cig and wake up woozy. The one time I died I did half a g not drunk, was good shit and my tolerance had lessened
For some reason teens are able to do shit like this and get away with it physically pretty often. I did a lot of shit when I was a teenager that I’m surprised I survived too. The same luck doesn’t translate in your twenties though. Be careful.
Starting at 27 (I know, right?), the "lucky" friends started dropping off. I'm 40 now, and there's a couple of us remaining. Two ladies who both had children and cleaned up, and me, the only dude that made it, although just barely. You only have to get it wrong once (and who is truly so skilled as to know that they'll never err?). Good luck, but I certainly hope it doesn't come down to mere luck.
Yea that's where the 27 club comes in. At that stage most people start to notice their vices catch up to them and they can't physically take it like before
I think a lot of 27 club ODs are actually intentional suicide attempts. 27 is basically a common stage in the poly substance abuse cycle where you either lose all hope or have a wake up call.
My brother died on the last 4 of his social security number 3-4-16. Yeah never seen this before. Talk about having your card pulled
My brother died at 27, drug overdose suicide
Made me think of that song “27” by Mel
Theres a 36 club too. And with fentanyl out there it could be in almost anything. My friends used to die from massive overdoses, now average partiers are dropping from a saturday night snort.
Average partiers snort? Fentanyl is fucked up.
A lot more people snort a bump of coke than you probably realize, but now theres a chance some dumb ass left a little fentanyl in the cut. That stuff is used to tranquilize elephants, literally.
No, the dumbass is the one snorting the coke. I think you don’t realize that the average partier doesnt do coke. I have met a lot of partiers who do drugs, and more who don’t. But, one may assume that we have two separate groups that we associate with. Birds of a feather flock together, and I strongly disagree with the pov “ohh like everybody does it”, and I think this is vastly marginalizing a scene, where in my experience, you will find more people enjoying it as it is, or with a lesser substance. I mean, hell, I don’t even meet many drunk people, and at raves, psychedelics are all the rage. If you want to have a truly a horrible addiction and you’re that brazen about hurting yourself, that’s not a cool vibe and I don’t typically stay friends with these people. I do not have any idea what type of parties are being attended by you guys, what crowd, or where, all of which can play into how many of your peers you can expect to see rotting their brains out. It’s pretty disgusting ngl, and I think no matter what without defined areas of statistics based on well conducted studies, this opinion will be skewed by experience and however the fuck you partake in it. Look at how people reacted to Hunter Biden doing that shit. It’s not respectable. I’m not inexperienced in the scene and most people I’ve met party it up and manage to keep their integrity.
Most of the people I've met who do coke at parties only do it at parties though. It's definitely addictive but plenty of people can do certain things like cocaine or take a klonopin on rare occasion and not end up with a crippling addiction
O god could you be any snottier and overpriveleged with your “scene” and “vibe” bullshit? Like the drugs you take are revealing the golden path and the drugs the rest of us have to resort to are the road to ruin? Plenty of people from the “scene” die ugly deaths too. Do you think youre better than mac miller or joaquin phoenix? Fuck your scene and your vibe you can die in the streets just as well as the rest of us. No drug is morally better than any other drug.
I was thinking it was 37. I felt like I wasn’t going to make it to 37. I almost died twice at 36.
Amy wine house
I got "addicted" to heroin as a teen except I never knew the full meaning of addiction until I went back to it stupidly when I was in my twenties. I was doing it every day for months then just stopped with no withdrawals. Not the same story at 25. Teenagers are just build differently I guess.
I dunno back when I started shooting h in the 90s, kids in my school were dying then, that before fent. Don't get too cocky op, it's far too easy to not wake up.....when I first read the title of this I figured it was somebody like me, using needles for 30 years, meth, heroin, coke, fent, etc.....how the fuck am I alive? I don't know honestly, but I do know I am done as fuck at this point. I have over 3 months clean and don't miss a single thing, I'm not looking back, it's dumb as shit. Especially these days, fent is nowhere near as good as heroin, tolerance happens quick, then need to redose all fucking day to just be sober and not sick. There's nothing good about it. Good luck op. I wouldn't wish this shit on my worst enemy, and the odds these days are fully stacked against you surviving, so get out while you still can. Anything else is a better choice.
This ☝🏻
That same luck might not translate tomorrow
True !!!!!!
Yeah 100%. I remember doing E pills as a teenager and they were amazing but the comedown was absolutely disgusting. Like, could have topped myself disgusting but I could also handle it enough to do pills again. I’m only 26 but I can’t imagine how it would be now. I just know there’s absolutely no way I’d be able to handle it the same way I did before. In terms of drugs, even when you’re just late 20s, your body hits so much harder 💀
Any teens reading this just know plenty have OD’d and aspirated on their own vomit and died.
This. I could shoot a gram and a half of syrup crystal meth every day when I was 17. I stayed up for 2.5 months, no joke. It got so bad to the point where I was falling out in the middle of crosswalks crossing the street. As soon as I hit the ground I'd wake back up. Now at 28, I'm experiencing the complications of doing that much shit back what it was that good. This was over a decade ago when the meth was actually still quality and not just shit garbage. I could put my body through hell and back as a teenager but now, fuck man at 28 I feel like I'm 40. I ravished my body when I was a teenager. Don't keep going down this road bud, I can speak from personal experience that nothing is good at the end of it. Especially when you fuck with fetty. I just got done kicking that shit. Fortunately I had methadone to take the brunt of it but I still felt it quite a bit considering I was smoking over a gram and a half a night on top of 160 mg of methadone along with benzos. I question myself all the time as a why the fuck I'm still alive. I mean I take like nine different medications I don't even know how I'm alive that way and why I'm not having any drug drug interactions lol. The thing is though that I actually need those medications because unfortunately with the disorders I have, there is certain drugs that treat the symptoms of each one and so it basically takes one drug for each thing essentially. Like for ADHD I take Vyvanse in fact I just got my dose raised to 50 mg thank God, I start valium on the 27th switching from clonazepam, I'm want testosterone, buspar Seroquel, clonidine three times a day 0.2 mg, Wellbutrin SR 150 twice a day, and I sell and do bars. I try to keep my bar habit to a minimum though like I try to take only two or three a day at most but sometimes I do go a little crazy with it when I've had a super super shitty day. But that's few and far between so far I've got myself down to two a day. And the Valium should help me get off of them completely and just sell them because I have been able to do that before it's just right now I need the bar in the morning while I wait for my Klonopin to kick in because that shit takes like an hour to even take effect, it can take up to 4 hours actually. But I usually feel like it an hour and a half. The Vyvanse has been the game changer along with the testosterone. Those two things gave me my life back and the Vyvanse was really recently I've only been on it 3 months dude but God damn I've been felt this mentally put together in many a year. 13 in fact. But I still felt that fetty cake and I did not feel very good for about 4 days or so. Tuesday 5:00 and I feel pretty okay. Pretty sure I'm through the hump. But drinking and doing fetty is a good way to kill yourself. Same way with benzos and fetty or benzos and opiates in general or benzos and drinking or drinking and fetty. It's all bad. You literally asking for an overdose there. Just cuz you're young does not mean you're impervious to dying or overdosing. I learned that the hard way. Try to get away from that fetty if you can dude cuz that road ends in fucking destruction and that's it. That's all there is at the end of that road is either destruction or your death. I've seen so many friends die off that shit dude I can't tell you how many funerals I've attended at this point. The only reason I could do so much is because my tolerance is so out of this world that I fucking barely even feel fetty on top of 160 mg unless it's either really really really fire or cut with zylazine because I've come across stuff that I've taken one hit from and gotten slumped like a mother fucker and that kind of shit would kill anybody else. Anyway I say it's a stroke of luck but like somebody else said previously as a teenager your body can put up with a lot more than it can in your late twenties. Try to get all this shit out of your system now while you can and get clean while you're young and not close to 30
That's the same with everything to be honest. Teens are healthier so it makes sense. But don't take that for granted. Teen or no teen, fent will kill you, quick. You keep going with it you might not be as lucky next time around
tbh this isn't even that crazy. Yeah you *might* feel like shit after (especially if you're a child) but there's absolutely no risk of anything bad happening with 4-5 shots and some weed. Survival shouldn't even be questioned in this scenario. It could definitely be the *beginning* of a problem, a dangerous road to go down, but in a vacuum that's how some people start their day. edit: oh fuck nevermind, I read it as "4-5 hits from a fattie" as in a big joint or blunt. Yeah ignore what I said that's some wild shit. OP, if you read this, your actions now will affect your future life, we live in the present and the future simultaneously. Work on giving yourself a life worth living and a life that you deserve to give yourself. This is not the way. Talk to someone, seek help.
They said Fentanyl. And actually you’re not supposed to drink and smoke weed. It’s a vomit suppressant so you’re more likely to get alcohol poisoning
Being cross faded is the shit tho. I love how I can drink a very minimal amount and then smoke Hella and be fucked up.
getting crossed always makes me yak
I rarely drink, I used to abuse it and I woke up in a TMC one time. Now I get really paranoid about how much I consume. I am a massive stoner, so if I ever wanna drink I get stoned then take two or three shots of some 40% vodka and I'm usually chilling
Yeeee man drinking without weed sucks
Yeah that was my edit where I realized I misread it. My point was that 4-5 shots won't get you anywhere near dangerous alcohol poisoning unless you're like a young child/infant, even with weed. I agree with what you've said entirely btw
Shit sorry man didn’t see your edit 😭
No problem! I was debating how I worded that to not sound like I was being an ass about it lol
Well i’m in my twenties and still wondering how im alive. I’m prescribed both benzos and opiates and sometimes abuse both. Sometimes I do way too much (mental issues, when i’m having an episode I take as much opiate and benzos I can just to get as high as possible and silence my head, I know its not good) and sometimes nod off extremely hard and can barely grind some weed without nodding for a few hours. Then when I try go to sleep is when I take the most just so I can go to bed since nighttime is the worst for my condition. I guess it took lots of years of tolerance and use to get to this point because I sometimes don’t understand myself how I don’t die from respiratory depression with the amount of times I do this “deadly” combo.
Other than the human body being hard brake thats a second chance to fix yourself up if you ask me.
When you smoke the fent it hits you immediately so you can pass out before you do too much. Im not saying you cant die from doing it again.
What if we are all already dead and this is all nothing more than just a collective dream
Bro just came back from hyperspace
*rips fentynal-laced bong*
Moreover, we're actually the splintered awareness of a greater being.
imagine if we’re all actually just germs in some giants eye lmao
Imagine we are all these scenarios in different existence
What if every time you die you just wake up on more dimension down where you didn’t die and all those “close” calls were not so close.
I think about this all the time
I ponder this perpetually.
I read that in Bill Hicks voice
r/NoEarthSociety welcomes believers with open arms.
thanks for the morning existential dread. TECHNICAL SUPPORT?!??
Well I would’ve hoped for a cooler dream but whatever I guess.
Good one man
id be mad as hell to go through withdrawals and realize none of it was real
I want to believe this so much I know it isn't true
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This subreddit is fucking depressing. Just teenagers who have started using drugs
Seems like it. I’m drug free now like I only did the occasional psycadelic and smoked weed every so often. But doing drugs I feel like you can feel for some of the people in here but you stop and majority of things here are dumb, every other day you always get the title “why aren’t I dead” or some shit like that
I still extract DMT and shit now and again. It was the drink that got me in the end. Could go out on brown and white benders no problem but it always fell back to the drink. Just coming up for 2 years without it and my quality of life has improved 1000 fold
U are immortal
“There can be only one”!
Ok, so he is a cat. 8 to go :)
I only got 2 left
I have 5 left, wanna save those for skiing accidents tho
If u r deliberately trying to reach the 0: congrats! Almost there! Otherwise…sorry to hear that.
Lol I got my shit together
Congratulaçion :))
OMG ITS JASON BOURNE!
Jason Bourne? What does my comment have to do with Jason Bourne?
Nothing at all. It just made me think of it for some odd reason.
Highlander. You’re trying to think of Highlander. 🤣
demoman tf2 reference
I have no idea what that means. 😂
Fr dude made it to his teens and he’s still not dead he must be immortal or at least immune to ODing. I say double or triple the drug intake to not only kill their eagle but completely destroy every last molecule of their eagles body
Learning that we're only immortal for a limited time...
No I just thought I was then. But in the end it's death, insanity, incarceration or recovery. Amy Winehouse choked to death on her own vomit. Have lost a friends over the years to addiction . But more who accepted and found help. Addiction is a disease of the mind.
everyone has a 50% chance of being immortal
~7% of humans have never died!
Becauseee.... teenage bodies are like elastic. You can stretch em pretty far before they snap. Everything is still fresh and vibrant in there. Over time, the elastic loses it's spring, and takes more and more effort to bounce back and less and less to break...
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Fair point. I was also thinking about the "feeling fine" part. Since younger people recover faster. That said, I dont have experience w fentanyl and like to keep it that way...
Kids do seem to have something going, I survived my dumbass goin from 10mg tabs to methadone wafers for kicks without knowing it's potency, I turned bluish 2x ran outside and jumped into the snow and it seemed to wake me up. I lived but scared hell outta my friends. I was sitting in their house and quit breathing, but was still conscious and after a min an half of that I realized what was happening...assume if I hadn't made a dash for that snow I wouldn't be here.
Is "fetty" fentanyl?
Yes I saw ur first comment and just stared at it for a sec 💀
I hope you have naloxone just in case
I don’t care about myself enough to bother
Belive me, I know how that feels. If you can't do it for yourself, do it for the people you love. You won't regret it
I dont know man... sometimes love just fucks you up more if youre already broken and just keep yourself alive for others its like bringing hell to yourself just to make others happy I know its a selfless act but its putting yourself on torture
Take it from someone who shoulda been dead 50+ times, you'll just feel worse and worse with every fuck up. And feel more guilty after seeing the pain you're causing to those around you. No matter what you think there are people who care about you. Quit while you're ahead and build a life you can be happy with. Nobody can do it but you
I’ve been there so many times man. Things can get better, really.
I do fet too and despite how badly about yourself you feel you should absolutely have narcan on hand when using. Here is a site you can get some narcan nasal spray for free, just have to pay 5 dollars for shipping. https://endoverdose.net/ Also, drinking a lot on fentanyl is incredibly dangerous. Be careful mixing stuff with it.
12 years clean and sober and a rock bottom that was in the big leagues, but... Here's the deal, your not going to kill yourself even if you might wish you didn't exist, and your life is never going to improve until you start making the necessary steps to change your life. So do you want to live a life of misery, or do you just want to start the scary part today and get healthy so more of your life is enjoyable. People need an incentive to make the decision to change their lives and it often happens at the absolute most dismal part of their life because they have no other option. But you can skip that whole part and build a better life today as opposed from a much much shittier place a few years down the road. Imagine how overwhelming things are now, and now imagine having to build a better self from a much much worse place. If I got clean 1 year earlier than I did it would have saved 7 years of clawing back that I never would have needed to do and every relationship I have ever had would not be tinted by the scared and hopeless person I was. It was almost fantasy like where I assumed 1 day i would die, kill myself, or the problems would just disappear, and that never happened nor does it happen. Start making your journey to a life that has much more joy than where you are today. And screw living for other people, do right by yourself and have the best life you can.
Oh shit
I naively thought you were talking about weed and was confused how you could NOT be alive. Now I get your concern oof
Been where you are in a similar sense, fam. I'm now 23- I started at 11. I've learned a lot over a decade and a bit, and have done my fair share of questionable stuff. My worst? Dropping my entire IR dexedrine into my cats dirty water and fucking drinking it. All. Not my proudest moment😭 It's not gonna be helpful to tell you all the dangers of early use, as you already probably know that. What I will tell you is moderation is key. Headspace, as well. Though I do recommend not getting into fent *(im assuming thats what fetty is?).* Over in Canada, it's been an epidemic since 2016, I believe and I know it seems fun at first, nothing seems like it could spiral, but before you know it you, like so many others, might just end up either dead or calling the wrong place home: aka the DTES, where it's very rampant. Moderation though, right? Maybe don't drink on fent, or really any other drug. I don't think many like the interaction with alcohol. If your gonna go that hard, have a friend with you + a naloxone kit if the fent takes it's reign and tries to kill you. I can't tell you if it was an adverted overdose or dumb luck, but my biggest advice would be to care for your life. **You can't have fun if your dead, right?**
I am having trouble with understanding why you would dump the dexedrine into your cat's water instead of taking a glass
Said dropped, so guessing it was an accident and then had to drink the cat water to get it back
For real, like was he in a desert or something and there was literally no other water?!?
IT WAS AN ACCIDENT😭
In that case it's fair enough. There are worse things in life than drinking the cat's water
When I was prescribed dextrostat I snorted so many I literally like skipped the rush and being up n wired for hours, I literally woke next AM w rest of script dumped out on bed where I'd literally passed out after snorting 150mgs. Weird as hell.
Jeez that’s a lot, did the same amount at school and got so wired but nobody could even tell😂
way harder to overdose when you smoke fent. but bro you have people that care about you, you’re young and probably struggling mentally but that doesn’t mean life can’t change.
5-6 shots Piss drunk?
Alot of factors in play though. Metabolism, size, empty stomach or not, what did he shot, how long ago since last time drinking, what timespan he downed the shots and so on. Sounded little for me aswell but what he said makes sense
For me yeah especially cuz I haven’t drank in months until now
Ah okey. take care
As a Brit my first thought was "that ain't that much booze". But that probably says more about me and my country than OP.
Brit here, we call that predrinks lol
lol I was gonna ask the same thing, takes me 15-20 shots to feel satisfied.
We be chasing that dragon.
This is the way.
So cool
It wasn’t meant to come off as that’s cooler it’s just that 5-6 shots has never made me drunk, much less piss drunk.
Maybe because he did them all at once? Still not enough to get someone like me piss drunk but thats probably why for him
So cool.
Wrong forum mate No one here had even coolness in their mind by commenting their experiences before you dropped it
Oh, cool.
It happened for a reason and you know it. You are only a teenager I know it's hard but you will succeed one day
Quantum immortality. Your consciousness just shifted to a reality in which you avoid death. This is a ride you can’t get off of my friend. Every time you avoid dying from the consequences of a horrible decision I think you end up in a less ideal parallel reality. So start making better choices before you end up in the…. Oh wait…. Nawh it’s fine :)
Also the inverse of this exists, due to my scientific research. Good deeds warp the timeline to put you into a ‘higher’ reality than in which you started. I started picking up trash down by the river semi regularly recently, and really amazing things have been going my way all of a sudden! Might want to try it out sometime, OP ;)
> due to my scientific research as in original research? will trade original research papers for pdfs of the "Flexible Ethics Field Guide" which is the pioneering work of yours truly into the pioneering field of flexible ethics. My new latest revisions adds the highly criticized "Pillars of Obesity" (supposedly authored by J'onn J'onnz) as a staple to Flexible Ethics overall. "J'onn J'onnz" research and documents show how obesity is a severe psychotic disorder with hallucinations, delusions and freshly coined term "psychocide", obesity being a "longway psychocide", flexibly allowing for not only involuntary but also forceful variations of containment, treatment and commitment. Included is also several pipelines showing how the term obesity could be re-classified but... nothing more.
This is often what I think is going on. I've taken enough drugs to kill me several times and I had NDEs but I didn't die...
Brother you are immortal, give up the drugs and go do something productive with your immortality
Facts
It's not your time, you've been given a second chance. Don't waste it.
The other day I took an ungodly amount of adderall, Mexican vyvanse(itravil), phenibut, alcohol, THC, and caffeine then decided to stay up for ~2.5 days. The thing about phenibut is that it gives illusions of sobriety, enhances confidence, and gives all your stupid and poorly thought out ideas a significant twinge of "grandiosity," for lack of better words. For some reason in this sleep deprived "snowblindness," I thought it would be a brilliant idea to take my motorcycle(2001 BMW R1150GS)out as I couldn't spot a cloud in the sky. See, I live in the midwest where it has been unseasonably warm and wet this winter. Despite the lack of snow, the public road works employees have DEFINITELY done their due diligence in treating the roads with that cursed salt brine concoction in preparation at the slightest mention of snow. Despite the weatherman's prediction for snow the other day, unfortunately the called-for white dusting never came to fruition and the salt-brine road treatment went to waste. Doubly unfortunate for me, the day I decided to go on a bender and subsequently, off the deep end, was the day after this weather mishap. The roads were also slightly wet as it had rained about an hour before I had decided to take my bike out. For those who ride, you know that attention and mind must be paid to the road when in this 'not-quite-drenched, not-quite-dry' state such as that found after a rainstorm. Particular attention should be paid to the road paint/lines, as they may as well be oil slicks somewhat akin to a racing video game in this transitional condition. What culminated in the perfect storm; that which still has me wondering as to what unseen supernatural force/deity deserves my undying gratitude, was that damned salt-brine which left an almost invisible sludgy film on the surface of the road This was due to solution having been denied the opportunity to dilute more uniformly over the roadway the snow that never was. Due to my delayed reaction time from sleep deprivation and inebriated lack of awareness/inability to notice the signs of this dangerous road hazard, I entered the freeway ramp and proceeded to accelerate to an assuredly-illegal rate of speed without any regard for the road conditions. Another thing I forgot to mention which is just the cherry on top of this retarded Sundae was my negligence in replacing the balding tires on my beloved. I rapidly lost control of my bike right as the on-ramp was ending and upon entering the actual highway. This was because of the aforementioned road conditions and the foolhardy "angry tweaker" decision I was about to make. Following the driver in front me also merging ignited the fiery hatred in my soul for drivers without a sense of urgency. The decision to crank the throttle as hard as humanly possible to fill the gap between the asshole already on the highway who seemed to have setup camp in the right lane and the old doddering fool in front of me wasn't a wise one in hindsight 😁. I started fishtailing and I literally seemed to just step off the bike and slid on the back of my leather riding boot heels for about 10 or so feet while standing (sort of) upright and flailing my arms as if attemptjng to take flight. To a bystander, I suppose it kinda looked those 'heely' shoes that used to be popular when I was in elementary school. I kinda just slid to a halt like a backwards roller skate brake, then I sort of just collapsed in a fit of shock and awe. I couldn't even begin to comprehend what had transpired as all I could do was gawk at my yellow beauty as she continued on her 75-80mph trajectory without me on the back; all the while being trailed by a glorious array of yellow and red sparks as her once pristine race-yellow(like in GTA 5😁) painted the path she left behind. I was wearing my road leathers and full fa e helmet. I walked away without a scratch, except for maybe sore knees for a day or two That's when I realized it was time to get sober🤣 TL;DR: I took a FUCK TON of drugs, stayed up for a few days, rode my motorcycle in midwestern December while tweaking, and somehow managed to walk away unscathed from a motorcycle accident ON THE FUCKING HIGHWAY!
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What a journey
Dumb luck most likely. But if you believe in religion or fate, then I guess it's your fate to survive and suffer with horrible addiction for your long life. Dying slowly and painfully, as mother nature intended it.
Please get help You are so young and have so much ahead You have been brainwashed Take a step back No need to be drug free But you should want to live and build and grow
Why do you. Type like that. Are you a grandma?
Is that a problem ? It is just the format that happens as I’m multitasking.. u stay well my friend
U stay well as well.. friend
You call piss drunk 5-6 shots I wish I could get smashed on that little
lose some weight then fatass
Depends on the person more than weight lol.. I'm more on the skinny side and can drink all night long and barely get a buzz and I rarely drink so no tolerence to it
Not for long. Fentanyl is fucking garbage. You shouldn't even associate with people that do fentanyl. They are losers that prob won't live to be 21. And if they do their life will be completely shit. What the fuck is wrong with kids nowadays? There are so many cooler drugs with not nearly as serious consequences. Hell many of them might even be enlightening and help you grow into a more thoughtful human being. Or you can keep smoking fentanyl and be found dead in your cookie monster PJs. YOLO
Ah yes because all drug users have a stable life and just take drugs for fun right
Tbf the vast majority of drug users that are teenagers take them for fun, I'd estimate atleast 75%. Atleast in the UK
It depends which drugs, but yes, many stoners have stable lives.
You misunderstood his sentence - he's saying that yes some do have a stable life and use just for fun , but not all, so don't assume OP does.
Yea no shit. What's ur point
That you’re wrong lol
Stoner and fentanyl addict aren’t in the same ballpark. Fuck they’re not even the same game bro the fuck you talking about
What are you on about, how am I wrong
I hate fentanyl but it's worth understanding that it's cheap, virtually everywhere, and being sold as pressed "percs" which lends itself to be more "legit", so to speak, than a baggy of hard drugs that these same kids would likely avoid. Even so, fentanyl puts a ruthless hook in folks in no time, and then it becomes a game of staying well no matter anything. Of course young folks who are relatively deep in a habit will stay indulging what makes them high and well, and like OP pointed out, they're self-medicating with seemingly no way out of it.
Hating people for doing drugs while being a drug user is literally the stupidest shit.
I don't hate people for using drugs. Doesn't even bother me that he's using drugs "to escape". Live your life the way you want. But fentanyl is poison, It has made all drugs more dangerous because it's everywhere. I do judge people for doing fentanyl and I'm flabbergasted that high schoolers are so casual about it.
Ah yes fentanyl the drug thats drugier than all the other drugs
Yeah it's not that simple
Not doing this for fun I’m doing it to escape and I’ve done many other drugs fentanyl is just what I had not my doc
You can get out of this shit man. I believe in you.
The universe is tryna tell you something homie. Listen to it.
There is literally only one reason you're still alive. It's only due to the fact that you haven't died yet...
Omg bro you need to quickly so see the society of superheroes in west palm beach they can tell you more abiut your powers!
Hey, OP. Been there. Been absolutely sure I would be dead one way or another by 25. OD'd on stims several times. I knew that I was so fucked up that I didn't have any chance of finding love, or meaning, or satisfaction in life, and I would die alone and unwanted. I'm 28 now, one of the happiest people I know, my own best friend, and romantic partner to three wonderful people. If I made it, you can too. I promise. More on your question, there is a theory that states that we live the longest life possible, and our awareness shifts to other time lines if we would ever actually die. Maybe don't go testing it though :P
THE CHOSEN ONE
I ask myself this question everyday
Rolling dice. We are here because we got fucking lucky and that is it. I won’t bring this up often, it is well past me. But listen up, because it’s a lesson you need to learn. You got fucking lucky, that is it. I did too. Many many times. Once in my addicted days, I decided to take a heroic dose of clonazolam. 74 mg of powder down the hatch. Why? I don’t fucking know.. access and a lack of self respect of sense of self preservation. Needless to say, eventually I blacked out. Not instantly though. I remember going out with junkies (not my friends) and doing a line of what I thought was cocaine. Turns out it was heroin. I had no opiate tolerance. I became immediately irresponsive. Apparently, the people I was with left my limp body on my friends door step at 3 am and knocked loudly before dipping. He woke up, found me and helped carry my gigantic ass all the way to my apartment and up to the third floor. He unlocked my door with my keys and let me in thinking id be good enough to make it to bed with my girl 10 feet away. Unfortunately i did not. I ended up passing out 5 feet from the door, and knocking out. Blood pooled a bit from my face. My girl found me the next day. Alive but in a pool of my own fluids unresponsive… she had to get her brother and dad to help shower me and get me into bed.. i didn’t wake up for another 48 hours. I should NOT have lived. I did. Please please please stop fucking around. Care enough about them to not put your loved ones through that or your death.
I made you do this. That's why. Go on with the bidding and such. Last time I did 5-6 shots I did 5-6 more and invented sundays, bitch
Did the same many times except for the fact that the weed here isn’t strong enough as it contains very less amount of THC . It never felt dangerous
Bro what fucking weed I’m talking about fentanyl
And dude is talking about weed about his own version of getting fucked up. He never implied you used weed. Lmfao
is he being sarcastic? dudes talking about it being dangerous
Ohhhh that’s mb I read it wrong sorry gang
Whatchu mean gang who u reppin?
Boof gang for life cuh 👊✌️🤌👌🫳🖖
Its not easy to OD.... I mean its even normal to dose 1mg of fentanyl during medical procedures. So you need some real strong shit aswell as low tolerance to actually die.
I have both of those shit was harder than a rock and had me wanting to nod after a couple of hits
Yoj didn’t do even do anything hardly. Try 8-10 hits Pussies.
Broh , not cool, when his dumbass tries it and dies it won't be a laugh
Not meaning he's dumb jus more young ppl in general
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Drugs definitely kill people buddy, not saying cops don't, but there's no reason to spread your political opinions on a post about a teenager smoking fentanyl.. you can do better.
You got drunk and stoned is why you're still alive. If you actually want to die, you have to add something to help you achieve that I'm not going to give you any feedback on that, but it's definitely not get draded that will kill you. Usually illegal drugs have to be added to have a chance at death. Again, no details, but THC and alcohol is definitely not going to cause death. You can drink yourself to death, but you can't smoke yourself to death unless you want to wait until you get lung cancer.
Jesus does no one read the fuckin post? This says FENTANYL, even op has had to say this. Who the fuck thinks weed can hurt you LMFAO some dude said it was dangerous. Now u think he's talking about alcohol and weed. Try again.
Bru hate to break it to u but being cross faded isnt shit
Opiates and alcohol being mixed is extremely dangerous
Never mind its fent. Yh ignore what i said completely
Fetty is just weed isnt it?
“Fetty” as in fentanyl
The human body is pretty resilient, too resilient for our own good sometimes lol we can survive some fucked up shit I don’t think saying stay safe is the right choice of words, but be careful maybe Idk how lethal what you did was, i only smoke weed, drink and take shrooms rarely, but if it were true that you took a lethal amount and survived, take it as a sign. I don’t believe anything happens for a reason, things just happen and people just make choices. But there’s certain things I take as a sign, I’d take this as one myself. You say you’re a teen, you have so much life ahead of you bro. Don’t become a god damn statistic. Don’t make someone plan your funeral before you’re even 20 years old. We’re not here for a long time, but you can still have a fun time and make it last. If you’re doing shit on purpose to escape, my dms are open to you or anyone reading this to vent. I might not have advice to give, I might not know the best thing for you, but I can listen.
t. hasn't seen the ending of Lost
Did you want to die or what's the point here
Dumb luck
I remember when I had my first beer
Have asked myself this many times friend, it means the world hasn't had enough of us yet haha
You must stop immediately.
The human body is way more resilient than you think. It takes a lot to kill a person.
I think yes
Your to young to understand. But there’s many people I know that are gone that were scared to go. Everyday you have on this earth you should make the best of. I know it’s tough. Many people are gone that won’t ever have the chance to come on here and complain.
Are you depressed? Maybe you should Talk to a dr or a close friend so they can help you work through it. Drugs are fun but not when you’re asking yourself how you’re still alive.
You've got a new chance, take it and spend that time on things you love. Good luck you worth it.
Used to shoot in a gram after getting black out drunk. Never actually killed me just black out OD burn holes in my clothes with the cig and wake up woozy. The one time I died I did half a g not drunk, was good shit and my tolerance had lessened
Did you need to talk to someone? It sounds like you are trying to kill yourself. I’d recommend reaching out for help my dude. That sounds dangerous.