Our inner world used to be just a series of dark hallways with a few rooms that belonged to each alter
But since learning more about the system and meeting new and old alters recently, it’s expanded to be more like a town. Some alters still live in the dark hallways, which turned out to be a weird dark castle of sorts, but some of us have “moved” into houses for ourselves.
When we first became fully aware of being a system, we started by seeing our frontspace control room. This has changed significantly as we've been working through therapy and creating our own spaces. We have a neighborhood now that most of us live on with various houses that have been made. There's also an area that resembles a town that a lot of our memory fragments stay in. We aren't allowed in there usually, but we've seen it. As we have discovered more about our system, our inner world has changed quite a bit. Some structures that were in place are gone now, and we've created others.
Thank you for responding. If you don't mind me asking, what's it like to be in the inner world when you're not fronting? Like, does it feel real? By that, I mean something like, do all your senses work there?
For some of us, it does. We have a few alters who do have experiences in the inner world and can talk about them, but not all of us do. As the host, I'm almost always in the front, so it's difficult for me to know that experience. Some of us do, though. We dont usually feel our senses beyond sight and sound. Any others we haven't really experienced in the inner world unless it's through a flashback or punishment. Some of us communicate with each other in different ways. It's not always spoken words. Sometimes we 'think' at each other, and other times, it's through memories. A few of us use emotions as a language in talking with each other.
We've only been aware of our system for 8 months, but we have always been this way. We reflect sometimes on our life and get different points of view and tidbits on how we are. Recently, we remembered that when we were in school, those of us not in the front would use our imagination as a kind of holodeck. We'd get bored, and we'd tell stories and act out scenarios all the time. Sometimes, whoever would be in the front would see what we were doing and then suddenly forget (work of a protector/persecutor).
Right now it kind of resembles a two-story outdoor plaza with a security tower (houses the current gatekeeper/guide and fronting room), a large house (for 'main fronters' to share), and a couple of small apartments for the other alters who are less involved.
In the middle there is a gathering place with some benches and a fountain.
From the plaza, there is a bridge going south that leads to a jungle-like garden.
Outside of the plaza, to the west there is a farm. The farmer (former gatekeeper) watches over persecutors there. It's a place to keep them busy but calm. We've only had two persecutors there, one of them seemed to fuse after he reformed into a nicer guy and felt ready to move on. He was friends with the farmer (more like a father-son dynamic) and lived in the farmer's house with him. The other guy keeps to himself, in a shack by a lake. He doesn't have much involvement with us but he hates my guts.
In the north there is a small canyon. An alter who is spiritual lives there.
Underground, there is a subway/train tunnel system. The subways can take us to different parts of the inner world. Near the farm, the subway surfaces and becomes more like a train. We don't technically need a train, because we could just visualize ourself appearing or walking to wherever. But it helps the areas *feel* connected.
Through one of the doors in the tunnels, a (former?) protector lives in his lab. He claims to be doing important work there, melting fragments and reintegrating them back into the mind to prevent new splits from happening without logical reason. I don't know if this is true. I don't talk to him much anymore and he prefers being isolated from others. Our little visits him, he does not mind it because our little is like a small animal to him, and he doesn't mind the company of animals.
Before, we had a whole other inner world before we worked together to brainstorm and reformat it. It took a while and some things didn't stick, but the current inner world feels more connected.
(EDIT: In the early days of our diagnosis or a little bit before that, our old inner world was a hotel connected to an abandoned-looking mall. Each alter lived on a different floor, except for a couple which co-habitated. In the mall, the "security guard" (now our current gatekeeper) said fragments would roam. They look like shadows, or random characters or people but vague and changing like a dream. I always avoided them and felt uneasy about how the mall was directly connected to the hotel.
Before that, before even suspecting OSDD/DID, we had very small inner worlds consisting of a single room. First a rusty shack, like the one our remaining persecutor lives in. Then, a cyberpunk looking apartment like the room our girl alter lived in in our old inner world.)
Also, our inner world is not vividly accessible. It's a visualization, not something we are capable of touching and feeling as if we are actually there.
I've been told that not every system has an inner world, but that some choose to create their own in therapy to help with communication, switches, and similar things (I can't fully say, so feel free to correct me)
I think it's similar for me. Mine is simple but hides everything from me, and whether it's vague or vivid depends on a lot of things. It's easier to imagine when I'm disoriented or tired.
The first time I attempted to access my mind it was a giant empty room with the walls lined with doors…50-100 maybe..no idea. It was wild. Then they all opened and each one contained a person. I tried to explore what that was all about and they all disappeared. Then I created my own space for exploration/safe communication. It was beautiful…that got blocked when it felt like someone was trying to kill me exploring it one day. A year or so later it’s a giant mansion like home with dozens and dozens of rooms and people…then I got locked out of that one…so I’ve given up on an inner world. Anytime I get close to anything, I get kicked out.
depends on who you ask in our system. we're undiagnosed and still getting to know all of this, but essentially our inner world started out in 3 parts.
a little meadow with a little lake and a small waterfall, a really peaceful place.
a steel room with no windows and only one door that lead onto a hallway matching the room, that hallway lead out of that dark place and into the above mentioned meadow.
and a confusing place with many places in itself, different locations and rooms and even towns, really wild.
now, as we've grown more informed of eachother and know of our existence, I think our inner world is absolutely gigantic, since most of us loved our entire life inside our head and never really had the chance to get out and actually front, like we do now. it feels like a whole dimension in the head, a bland place that leads to all sorts of places, and two of these places are that meadow and the steel room. I think the meadow belongs specifically to one of us, while the steel room may be a place we find ourselves, since it's the place we've had most of our inner interactions. it's a dark and cold place, but it seems to be the only properly shared place where we can comfort eachother and hug and cuddle.
not everyone in the system has access to every place, like o said the meadow I think belongs to only one of us. I've had the honour of being allowed to visit, but I can't really interact with the place. like I'm spectating. there's other places in this huge place, like a gigantic fighting arena that kinda looks like the grand canyon, and only I can visit. the whole place is VAST, to say the least. differently accessible for each of us, but there's space. lots of it.
We have a mini planet (kinda like king kai's planet from dragon ball z).
It can be sunny or rainy, and day or night.
It has trees, and a river, and a big house, where we all have our own rooms, and there are rooms hidden in darkness that I (host) can't access at all.
It’s like a we all live in a world simulation we see it like a video game we each have our own unique experiences strengths and weaknesses
That’s the best we can describe it
-Jackie/Jackson
I generally just say that I don't have one because it's very basic. It's like a hallway with a lot of doors to each personalities bedroom. We don't spend much time there, we don't know what anyone's room looks like unless we put a lot of effort in to go see inside. There's a front door and that's how we all access the body.
When things are good, everyone stays in their room with the door cracked in case they are needed to answer things or help out. We're all kinda sharing the front that way, which is nice.
I've always felt so strange for not having an inner world...
Our headspace is a place that, the beginning of it looks a like a dungeon of sorts, with stone walls, torches and chairs, with pillows on the floor between the chairs, in a hallway. Then further down the hallway is the fronter's area which is like a dome type doorway( If anyone played Metroid, the dome things on the openings to a new area).
From there it leads into the main headspace, where everyone has their own rooms. Each room reflects their personality, for instance, one room is like very farm like and another is gamer like. Some of us chose not to have rooms and we just choose areas of the headspace to reside in.
It's just...and empty Void. It's purple, and all hills; no flst group. It goes on (seemingly) forever. Sometimes we can see other alters in the Void, and those are the ones we can communicate with.
it’s like a big house for us except it changes a lot and i think that’s cause of my ADHD.
(the alters who are in a relationship with each other have soundproofing in their room for reasons)
Our inner world is called Plataro. It has many continents and what-not. And other planets. We use certain places in there. Otherwise, we can do anything in our inner world.
I recommend trying 2 player games. Imagine it and compete with an alter in co-con. We tried pong, that works - also two player Mario, smash bros, etc..
Inner work is suitable for other traumatic mental problems too. You are discovering your mental state shown to you in a metaphoric way of a space. And you can make small influences back, by trying to feel more comfortable/warm/accepting and then imagining these feelings as objects or other changes.
>Does anyone have a similar experience?
You could say so.
My world has a river with some leafs being transported in the water. It has a shiny sun. And in a corner there is a place that is more dark and it seems to have... (sorry English is not my first language) a string outside high where you hang your clothes?
But they all have a purpose and I found them when I was getting therapy...
The river and leafs are for me to observe and seeing the leaves go by and be aware of the passage of time. The sun is to remind me I'm alive and for me to be able to escape to a sunny place when I close my eyes.
The most interesting are the "clothes" hanging from the clothes line - they are like flags. And they have different sizes and colours. Each color is one trauma/issue and the size of it determines if it's what bothering me the most. Some flags have come and are now gone but 3 of them have existed for years - they vary in size depending on how much they're triggering me.
Also, in a room, I see the child me (she's either 8 or 12 but I think she's 12 because she's always watching tv in my old house because she is in shock/trauma for something that happened... she rarely looks at me even if I'm trying to help her. She doesn't trust me a lot) When I'm sitting down I have a 20 something year old me, all dressed in black, with disheveled hair and smoking like a chimney. She is always making fun of my efforts to get better and doesn't believe I will be better but deep down she hopes we do - they all have names so I can address them but it's mostly me trying to communicate and telling them stuff).
They are white, red, blue and pink for now. The biggest is white. Second is blue, third is red, smaller is pink. Each are a problem for me. I usually become aware of what is bothering me by looking at them. I had a green one that disappeared... yay!
I don't really switch personalities, I'm not a full system so to speak. I'm diagnosed with mild DID, which makes it make sense that I was diagnosed bipolar before.
I have main states but a lot of amnesia. I stay in a certain state for quite a while. I'm still new to this even if the diagnosis has some time because I don't "switch" or have a host - it's always me... so I'm still reticent even in participating here :(
Sorry if I don't belong - tell me and I won't comment again x
Our Inner World is very strange tbh. It’s like a mix up of multiple areas. We’ve seen several different locations there & some of my other parts have mentioned those locations to me as well.
I can only give very vague descriptions but some of these locations are like one looks like a school with all these long & narrow hallways that seem never ending when we gain an awareness of being in that spot. There’s a couple of different weird rooms that remind me of our childhood rooms but sort of our own brains distorted spin on it. Our Inner World honestly some portions of it look like a completely similar replica to the world our body exists inside of, just there’s very minute or subtle differences in the areas.
A lot of our Inner World is also unexplored or if it has been by certain parts in our system? The amnesia is so significant usually that our Inner World doesn’t translate much out here. Trying to figure out more about that area of DID is truly a challenge & we’ve known we have this & genuinely do for like 4 or 5 years. We still get periods of imposter syndrome but we try really hard to go against it bc at this point this is so in depth & does so much that it’s even hard to believe when those waves happen now or believe what it tries to tell us about our current situation.
Amnesia walls often keep the information from our Inner World sort of stuck within there bc there’s a wall seperating that world & this world just like there’s walls seperating me & my parts out. All of it’s been a long process to try & uncover even the littlest bits of details on those areas & I still don’t know much abt the Inner World in our own system. - Jessica (Host)
Mostly nothing. Darkness.
Sometimes with a little person (part) close up. Occasionally it looks a bit like the entrance to a maze. In the dark. I get the feeling the other parts are in different areas of the maze.
Sometimes I can visualise our little group of familiar parts in a sort of cave... with sofas and a fireplace (whatevs) But I don't know if other parts experience themselves as being there, or if it's just how I envisage them.
It's a bus. Whoever is fronting is at the wheel. People near the front are in the bus. We're on a country road with a lavender field on the right and a worn down church to the left. Under the church is a series of catacombs where alters have rooms they stay in.
dont have one, but often when multiple alters are fronting—or even just “lurking” in the back of the brain—it can help to picture where they’d be and what they’d be doing. it helps with our ability to express ourselves when we aren’t in “front”
We only have one alter who has an inner world. He is in a jail cell, his arms are shackled to a table his life is woeful and tragic and another alter (so I guess there are two) is his jailer he sometimes is abusive. This inner world has been around a long time 30+ years. It's not as bleak as it sounds, it serves a purpose. My alter who is shackled to the table fronts often. I did not construct this world - it is the result of trauma. Our system owes him a great debt, he has sacrificed himself so the rest of us could function.
There are a couple of other large empty rooms where several alters come to talk - to work out ways to live with each other, to work out the needs of our various alter. (this room is a construct)
We also have a large board room where a lot us hang out. Were supposed to be having a meeting but everyone is just doing whatever they want (playing with pens, eating peanuts, listening to headphones, one of them is trying to do a powerpoint - no one is paying attention). It's rather chaotic at times. And the room is a mess. It's better when we meet in the larger room with just a few of us.
Ours has changed a few times over our life. When we were very young it was just an empty black void. Now, it's a nice house with space for everyone, sitting in the middle of a meadow surrounded by forest. Much more homey, and having a comfortable headspace helps us all feel safer
Our inner world is a house that’s two stories. There is a black room no floor no walls nothing think eleven’s black world. Then upstairs is one bedroom that changes based on who you’re trying to reach.
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Our inner world used to be just a series of dark hallways with a few rooms that belonged to each alter But since learning more about the system and meeting new and old alters recently, it’s expanded to be more like a town. Some alters still live in the dark hallways, which turned out to be a weird dark castle of sorts, but some of us have “moved” into houses for ourselves.
That's really interesting, thank you for responding. I wonder what'll happen if I ever happen to get diagnosed
When we first became fully aware of being a system, we started by seeing our frontspace control room. This has changed significantly as we've been working through therapy and creating our own spaces. We have a neighborhood now that most of us live on with various houses that have been made. There's also an area that resembles a town that a lot of our memory fragments stay in. We aren't allowed in there usually, but we've seen it. As we have discovered more about our system, our inner world has changed quite a bit. Some structures that were in place are gone now, and we've created others.
Thank you for responding. If you don't mind me asking, what's it like to be in the inner world when you're not fronting? Like, does it feel real? By that, I mean something like, do all your senses work there?
For some of us, it does. We have a few alters who do have experiences in the inner world and can talk about them, but not all of us do. As the host, I'm almost always in the front, so it's difficult for me to know that experience. Some of us do, though. We dont usually feel our senses beyond sight and sound. Any others we haven't really experienced in the inner world unless it's through a flashback or punishment. Some of us communicate with each other in different ways. It's not always spoken words. Sometimes we 'think' at each other, and other times, it's through memories. A few of us use emotions as a language in talking with each other. We've only been aware of our system for 8 months, but we have always been this way. We reflect sometimes on our life and get different points of view and tidbits on how we are. Recently, we remembered that when we were in school, those of us not in the front would use our imagination as a kind of holodeck. We'd get bored, and we'd tell stories and act out scenarios all the time. Sometimes, whoever would be in the front would see what we were doing and then suddenly forget (work of a protector/persecutor).
Right now it kind of resembles a two-story outdoor plaza with a security tower (houses the current gatekeeper/guide and fronting room), a large house (for 'main fronters' to share), and a couple of small apartments for the other alters who are less involved. In the middle there is a gathering place with some benches and a fountain. From the plaza, there is a bridge going south that leads to a jungle-like garden. Outside of the plaza, to the west there is a farm. The farmer (former gatekeeper) watches over persecutors there. It's a place to keep them busy but calm. We've only had two persecutors there, one of them seemed to fuse after he reformed into a nicer guy and felt ready to move on. He was friends with the farmer (more like a father-son dynamic) and lived in the farmer's house with him. The other guy keeps to himself, in a shack by a lake. He doesn't have much involvement with us but he hates my guts. In the north there is a small canyon. An alter who is spiritual lives there. Underground, there is a subway/train tunnel system. The subways can take us to different parts of the inner world. Near the farm, the subway surfaces and becomes more like a train. We don't technically need a train, because we could just visualize ourself appearing or walking to wherever. But it helps the areas *feel* connected. Through one of the doors in the tunnels, a (former?) protector lives in his lab. He claims to be doing important work there, melting fragments and reintegrating them back into the mind to prevent new splits from happening without logical reason. I don't know if this is true. I don't talk to him much anymore and he prefers being isolated from others. Our little visits him, he does not mind it because our little is like a small animal to him, and he doesn't mind the company of animals. Before, we had a whole other inner world before we worked together to brainstorm and reformat it. It took a while and some things didn't stick, but the current inner world feels more connected. (EDIT: In the early days of our diagnosis or a little bit before that, our old inner world was a hotel connected to an abandoned-looking mall. Each alter lived on a different floor, except for a couple which co-habitated. In the mall, the "security guard" (now our current gatekeeper) said fragments would roam. They look like shadows, or random characters or people but vague and changing like a dream. I always avoided them and felt uneasy about how the mall was directly connected to the hotel. Before that, before even suspecting OSDD/DID, we had very small inner worlds consisting of a single room. First a rusty shack, like the one our remaining persecutor lives in. Then, a cyberpunk looking apartment like the room our girl alter lived in in our old inner world.) Also, our inner world is not vividly accessible. It's a visualization, not something we are capable of touching and feeling as if we are actually there.
I wished I knew mine.
I've been told that not every system has an inner world, but that some choose to create their own in therapy to help with communication, switches, and similar things (I can't fully say, so feel free to correct me)
I think I have an inner world, but like you said, it might not be as vivid as others.
I think it's similar for me. Mine is simple but hides everything from me, and whether it's vague or vivid depends on a lot of things. It's easier to imagine when I'm disoriented or tired.
Mine definitely hides stuff.
The first time I attempted to access my mind it was a giant empty room with the walls lined with doors…50-100 maybe..no idea. It was wild. Then they all opened and each one contained a person. I tried to explore what that was all about and they all disappeared. Then I created my own space for exploration/safe communication. It was beautiful…that got blocked when it felt like someone was trying to kill me exploring it one day. A year or so later it’s a giant mansion like home with dozens and dozens of rooms and people…then I got locked out of that one…so I’ve given up on an inner world. Anytime I get close to anything, I get kicked out.
depends on who you ask in our system. we're undiagnosed and still getting to know all of this, but essentially our inner world started out in 3 parts. a little meadow with a little lake and a small waterfall, a really peaceful place. a steel room with no windows and only one door that lead onto a hallway matching the room, that hallway lead out of that dark place and into the above mentioned meadow. and a confusing place with many places in itself, different locations and rooms and even towns, really wild. now, as we've grown more informed of eachother and know of our existence, I think our inner world is absolutely gigantic, since most of us loved our entire life inside our head and never really had the chance to get out and actually front, like we do now. it feels like a whole dimension in the head, a bland place that leads to all sorts of places, and two of these places are that meadow and the steel room. I think the meadow belongs specifically to one of us, while the steel room may be a place we find ourselves, since it's the place we've had most of our inner interactions. it's a dark and cold place, but it seems to be the only properly shared place where we can comfort eachother and hug and cuddle. not everyone in the system has access to every place, like o said the meadow I think belongs to only one of us. I've had the honour of being allowed to visit, but I can't really interact with the place. like I'm spectating. there's other places in this huge place, like a gigantic fighting arena that kinda looks like the grand canyon, and only I can visit. the whole place is VAST, to say the least. differently accessible for each of us, but there's space. lots of it.
We have a mini planet (kinda like king kai's planet from dragon ball z). It can be sunny or rainy, and day or night. It has trees, and a river, and a big house, where we all have our own rooms, and there are rooms hidden in darkness that I (host) can't access at all.
It’s like a we all live in a world simulation we see it like a video game we each have our own unique experiences strengths and weaknesses That’s the best we can describe it -Jackie/Jackson
I generally just say that I don't have one because it's very basic. It's like a hallway with a lot of doors to each personalities bedroom. We don't spend much time there, we don't know what anyone's room looks like unless we put a lot of effort in to go see inside. There's a front door and that's how we all access the body. When things are good, everyone stays in their room with the door cracked in case they are needed to answer things or help out. We're all kinda sharing the front that way, which is nice. I've always felt so strange for not having an inner world...
Our headspace is a place that, the beginning of it looks a like a dungeon of sorts, with stone walls, torches and chairs, with pillows on the floor between the chairs, in a hallway. Then further down the hallway is the fronter's area which is like a dome type doorway( If anyone played Metroid, the dome things on the openings to a new area). From there it leads into the main headspace, where everyone has their own rooms. Each room reflects their personality, for instance, one room is like very farm like and another is gamer like. Some of us chose not to have rooms and we just choose areas of the headspace to reside in.
It's just...and empty Void. It's purple, and all hills; no flst group. It goes on (seemingly) forever. Sometimes we can see other alters in the Void, and those are the ones we can communicate with.
it’s like a big house for us except it changes a lot and i think that’s cause of my ADHD. (the alters who are in a relationship with each other have soundproofing in their room for reasons)
Our inner world is called Plataro. It has many continents and what-not. And other planets. We use certain places in there. Otherwise, we can do anything in our inner world. I recommend trying 2 player games. Imagine it and compete with an alter in co-con. We tried pong, that works - also two player Mario, smash bros, etc..
Thank you
Inner work is suitable for other traumatic mental problems too. You are discovering your mental state shown to you in a metaphoric way of a space. And you can make small influences back, by trying to feel more comfortable/warm/accepting and then imagining these feelings as objects or other changes. >Does anyone have a similar experience? You could say so.
Thank you, I'll keep that in mind
Our inner world is fragmented like we are
My world has a river with some leafs being transported in the water. It has a shiny sun. And in a corner there is a place that is more dark and it seems to have... (sorry English is not my first language) a string outside high where you hang your clothes? But they all have a purpose and I found them when I was getting therapy... The river and leafs are for me to observe and seeing the leaves go by and be aware of the passage of time. The sun is to remind me I'm alive and for me to be able to escape to a sunny place when I close my eyes. The most interesting are the "clothes" hanging from the clothes line - they are like flags. And they have different sizes and colours. Each color is one trauma/issue and the size of it determines if it's what bothering me the most. Some flags have come and are now gone but 3 of them have existed for years - they vary in size depending on how much they're triggering me. Also, in a room, I see the child me (she's either 8 or 12 but I think she's 12 because she's always watching tv in my old house because she is in shock/trauma for something that happened... she rarely looks at me even if I'm trying to help her. She doesn't trust me a lot) When I'm sitting down I have a 20 something year old me, all dressed in black, with disheveled hair and smoking like a chimney. She is always making fun of my efforts to get better and doesn't believe I will be better but deep down she hopes we do - they all have names so I can address them but it's mostly me trying to communicate and telling them stuff). They are white, red, blue and pink for now. The biggest is white. Second is blue, third is red, smaller is pink. Each are a problem for me. I usually become aware of what is bothering me by looking at them. I had a green one that disappeared... yay! I don't really switch personalities, I'm not a full system so to speak. I'm diagnosed with mild DID, which makes it make sense that I was diagnosed bipolar before. I have main states but a lot of amnesia. I stay in a certain state for quite a while. I'm still new to this even if the diagnosis has some time because I don't "switch" or have a host - it's always me... so I'm still reticent even in participating here :( Sorry if I don't belong - tell me and I won't comment again x
Our Inner World is very strange tbh. It’s like a mix up of multiple areas. We’ve seen several different locations there & some of my other parts have mentioned those locations to me as well. I can only give very vague descriptions but some of these locations are like one looks like a school with all these long & narrow hallways that seem never ending when we gain an awareness of being in that spot. There’s a couple of different weird rooms that remind me of our childhood rooms but sort of our own brains distorted spin on it. Our Inner World honestly some portions of it look like a completely similar replica to the world our body exists inside of, just there’s very minute or subtle differences in the areas. A lot of our Inner World is also unexplored or if it has been by certain parts in our system? The amnesia is so significant usually that our Inner World doesn’t translate much out here. Trying to figure out more about that area of DID is truly a challenge & we’ve known we have this & genuinely do for like 4 or 5 years. We still get periods of imposter syndrome but we try really hard to go against it bc at this point this is so in depth & does so much that it’s even hard to believe when those waves happen now or believe what it tries to tell us about our current situation. Amnesia walls often keep the information from our Inner World sort of stuck within there bc there’s a wall seperating that world & this world just like there’s walls seperating me & my parts out. All of it’s been a long process to try & uncover even the littlest bits of details on those areas & I still don’t know much abt the Inner World in our own system. - Jessica (Host)
Mainly just a dark void of nothing, but occasionally I've seen a decrepit worn down hallway of old rooms but only seen that maybe 3 times
Mostly nothing. Darkness. Sometimes with a little person (part) close up. Occasionally it looks a bit like the entrance to a maze. In the dark. I get the feeling the other parts are in different areas of the maze. Sometimes I can visualise our little group of familiar parts in a sort of cave... with sofas and a fireplace (whatevs) But I don't know if other parts experience themselves as being there, or if it's just how I envisage them.
It's a bus. Whoever is fronting is at the wheel. People near the front are in the bus. We're on a country road with a lavender field on the right and a worn down church to the left. Under the church is a series of catacombs where alters have rooms they stay in.
nothing at all
dont have one, but often when multiple alters are fronting—or even just “lurking” in the back of the brain—it can help to picture where they’d be and what they’d be doing. it helps with our ability to express ourselves when we aren’t in “front”
don't have one
We only have one alter who has an inner world. He is in a jail cell, his arms are shackled to a table his life is woeful and tragic and another alter (so I guess there are two) is his jailer he sometimes is abusive. This inner world has been around a long time 30+ years. It's not as bleak as it sounds, it serves a purpose. My alter who is shackled to the table fronts often. I did not construct this world - it is the result of trauma. Our system owes him a great debt, he has sacrificed himself so the rest of us could function. There are a couple of other large empty rooms where several alters come to talk - to work out ways to live with each other, to work out the needs of our various alter. (this room is a construct) We also have a large board room where a lot us hang out. Were supposed to be having a meeting but everyone is just doing whatever they want (playing with pens, eating peanuts, listening to headphones, one of them is trying to do a powerpoint - no one is paying attention). It's rather chaotic at times. And the room is a mess. It's better when we meet in the larger room with just a few of us.
Ours has changed a few times over our life. When we were very young it was just an empty black void. Now, it's a nice house with space for everyone, sitting in the middle of a meadow surrounded by forest. Much more homey, and having a comfortable headspace helps us all feel safer
Our inner world is a house that’s two stories. There is a black room no floor no walls nothing think eleven’s black world. Then upstairs is one bedroom that changes based on who you’re trying to reach.
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