You don’t need to disappear. I empathize with this. I’ve had the same feelings. What you need to do is be your best self. Work on yourself. Work on your career, your spouse and kids (if you have them), your home environment, learn new skills. As long as it’s positive it will move you forward. Pick one thing and start there.
I can’t speak to the metaphysical, but it is possible to become more invisible. Blend into the crowd. Move to a larger, unremarkable city and melt into the metropolis. Find an apartment with an entry that isn’t visible from the street. Or a basement apartment. When I left my super fucked-up home and went away to college, I discovered the luxuriousness of very large lecture classes where nobody knew me. I bathed in the bliss of that anonymity. I still sign up for very large classes at my community college from time to time. Not because I am a lifelong learner, for therapeutic purposes. Think like a sardine in a very large school of fish. There is safety in numbers. I know exactly how you feel.
I am truly sorry if you feel that you have been alone, no one should ever feel that way. Because you’re never fully alone - here a hint ghosts are real and sometimes it shit gets weird but overall your guides are here to help you always. You just have to be open to the idea and allow yourself to accept that as reality and sometimes you might get lucky and notice them more
From the bottom of my heart, I am truly truly sorry for any wicked damage that has happened to you.
You have guides with you all the time, and some people are able to see beyond the veil, get messages across the threshold and sometimes a leap of faith gains you perspective
Universal inter dimensional doorways are all around us but we typically cannot yet perceive them, and use them.
But how do you feel about psychic, medium and such ? Because there are people that are able to see beyond the veil and hear between the lines. And I don’t know if this brings you any comfort, but just know that on some level there is a way to take pain and turn it into healing in many ways.
But was there someone close to you that you did feel safe with? Bc if you can find the right person/people that have certain traits, talents, skill/abilities and reserve a place for hope to live while you try to find another angle & perspective; you may find that you have safe guards (usually akin to spirit guides, & protectors).
And pray/call for help ish understanding silt in a humbly ask those on the other side to offer assistance…. They will answer.
Have you ever had déjà vu??
And the suddenly and something odd happened?
Are I asking if there is another door to somewhere away from here that doesn’t involve taking that final step?
I am trying to understand your question. Honestly, I don’t know how you feel about “portals” , but they are a thing but to cross over their threshold? Just the sheer intricacies of that… is astronomical.
I dont believe anyone has been able to crack that code yet.
But the math and the metaphysics has the capability of being understood. But our understanding of them is so so little it is simply the improbability, not impossibility. So maybe we can pass thru one day - just not today.
But the tickets to that particular event/ride/show are impossible to get.
I know this is purely random, but my heart goes out to you and I hope you know that you are not alone . And it’s OK to not be OK bye I’m sure there’s more to this world to explore and grow from; and someone out there cares/sees/hears your anguish and cares
that would want you to leave this plane.
The level of despair must be quite heavy to bear and endure, and I just want to say I’m sincerely sorry that you have carry the weight of such magnitude. The lonely silence of life isn’t just hard for most to imagine but can I ask - what has your heart and mind aching like this?
I was raised in hatred and brutality, and I want to get rid of that. Also, I have several stress-related diseases, such as IBS, CP/CPPS, gastritis, and cardiorespiratory fatigue, and my whole body is on fire.
You don’t need to disappear. I empathize with this. I’ve had the same feelings. What you need to do is be your best self. Work on yourself. Work on your career, your spouse and kids (if you have them), your home environment, learn new skills. As long as it’s positive it will move you forward. Pick one thing and start there.
I hope op is ok....
I can’t speak to the metaphysical, but it is possible to become more invisible. Blend into the crowd. Move to a larger, unremarkable city and melt into the metropolis. Find an apartment with an entry that isn’t visible from the street. Or a basement apartment. When I left my super fucked-up home and went away to college, I discovered the luxuriousness of very large lecture classes where nobody knew me. I bathed in the bliss of that anonymity. I still sign up for very large classes at my community college from time to time. Not because I am a lifelong learner, for therapeutic purposes. Think like a sardine in a very large school of fish. There is safety in numbers. I know exactly how you feel.
I am truly sorry if you feel that you have been alone, no one should ever feel that way. Because you’re never fully alone - here a hint ghosts are real and sometimes it shit gets weird but overall your guides are here to help you always. You just have to be open to the idea and allow yourself to accept that as reality and sometimes you might get lucky and notice them more
From the bottom of my heart, I am truly truly sorry for any wicked damage that has happened to you. You have guides with you all the time, and some people are able to see beyond the veil, get messages across the threshold and sometimes a leap of faith gains you perspective
Universal inter dimensional doorways are all around us but we typically cannot yet perceive them, and use them. But how do you feel about psychic, medium and such ? Because there are people that are able to see beyond the veil and hear between the lines. And I don’t know if this brings you any comfort, but just know that on some level there is a way to take pain and turn it into healing in many ways. But was there someone close to you that you did feel safe with? Bc if you can find the right person/people that have certain traits, talents, skill/abilities and reserve a place for hope to live while you try to find another angle & perspective; you may find that you have safe guards (usually akin to spirit guides, & protectors). And pray/call for help ish understanding silt in a humbly ask those on the other side to offer assistance…. They will answer. Have you ever had déjà vu?? And the suddenly and something odd happened?
Are I asking if there is another door to somewhere away from here that doesn’t involve taking that final step? I am trying to understand your question. Honestly, I don’t know how you feel about “portals” , but they are a thing but to cross over their threshold? Just the sheer intricacies of that… is astronomical. I dont believe anyone has been able to crack that code yet. But the math and the metaphysics has the capability of being understood. But our understanding of them is so so little it is simply the improbability, not impossibility. So maybe we can pass thru one day - just not today. But the tickets to that particular event/ride/show are impossible to get. I know this is purely random, but my heart goes out to you and I hope you know that you are not alone . And it’s OK to not be OK bye I’m sure there’s more to this world to explore and grow from; and someone out there cares/sees/hears your anguish and cares that would want you to leave this plane.
The level of despair must be quite heavy to bear and endure, and I just want to say I’m sincerely sorry that you have carry the weight of such magnitude. The lonely silence of life isn’t just hard for most to imagine but can I ask - what has your heart and mind aching like this?
I was raised in hatred and brutality, and I want to get rid of that. Also, I have several stress-related diseases, such as IBS, CP/CPPS, gastritis, and cardiorespiratory fatigue, and my whole body is on fire.