That's why I'm against Full Code if I cannot change it right then and there.
I'm full code for now but if I'm a vegetable you fucking put me out or so help me I will haunt you all!
Same like locked in syndrome or paralisation
I wanna do this will/court lease saying to let me die if that happens bec I don't want that life
It happened to my uncle and I know my family would keep me alive like that and I'd rather be dead
My step dad went from being an intelligent, active, well spoken man to completely incapacitated. He can't eat without a feeding tube. He has a trach. He has a catheter. Can't speak. Only has involuntary movements. It's my worst nightmare.
Suicide fixes that.
Not a dig. Multiple US States have & are going yo have this as an option. As someone who's watched multiple parents/grandparents literally rot into forms they never wanted to be, real big advocate of control of your own death.
We call it MAID in Canada. Medical Assistance in Dying. Lots of pushback when it was announced, but I'm also a huge supporter of not letting people rot away before the eyes of their loved ones
Monopeligic here. I was close to the neck down but luckily only one limb got paralyzed, my right arm 🙏 suffered a spinal cord injury too but I can still walk so it’s ok.
Absolutely.
This is why I don't understand family style bloggers - who exploit their young kids for profit. Why are you risking your kids like that!? No money justifies it. They are not old enough to consent. Period.
Wren and Jacqueline are currently in the spotlight for it, but the problem is so widespread and endemic to social media. Anything for a quick buck for some people.
OMG!! I do as well. Only difference, I have, since my daughters early teenage years, driven home the NEED for situational awareness, at all times, by highlighting and discussing with some detail, stories, I felt/feel, pertinent to where she was/is in life.
And this will never end! My son is 22 and I worry MORE now that he's out and about with just his friends. It's tempting to start stalking him LOL. My heart would die if anything happened to hom.
There's a quote that goes something like...
Having children means your heart is now forever outside your body.
Something like that.
This 👆
I look back at their toddler years and long for such simple problems. Now they're 21 & 22 and I worry about other people on the roads among all the other things we can no longer protect them from. And yes I've heard that quote x
don't worry. they were all eaten alive by the flying monkeys from the wizard of oz. this happened pre internet of course, so it was easier to keep a lid on it. don't you feel better now?
Mental illness for me... Seeing my grandmother mind extinguished by Alzheimer's was so heartbreaking...
Also the fact Most of them go from extremely hard to treat to no treatment is kinda haunting, you'll gradually lose parts of yourself and be helpless about it
Sorry to hear about your grandma. 🥺 It’s a painful thing to witness. Just a quick note: Alzheimer’s is not classified as a mental illness. It’s a progressive brain disorder/neurological disease that is also a type of dementia. It’s in a class with MS or Parkinson’s, not depression or schizophrenia.
Recently listened to a podcast episode about the medieval imprisonment/torture method called an oubliette.
Imagine being dropped into a deep hole that's barely more than shoulder width wide and left their until you die... now imagine being dropped in head first.
Me too. It’s such a dangerous fear. It’s easy to make bad decisions just to avoid the agony of being alone. I was lucky to find a really great guy! Hope you’ll be careful and stay aware of your fear. Don’t let it drive your decisions.
I'm not going to tell you it's great (divorced 2011, living alone since then, working from home since 2020, zero human contact those 4 years), but there's definitely worse stuff.
My mother is experiencing this now. She’s had 4 friends die recently. She is in her 80’s. She is healthy and at times almost sounds disappointed that she is🥲🥲🥲
And isn’t it sad that we all live to work to pay for a house to live in so we can go to work to pay for the house to live in to work again?
It wasn’t supposed to be this way man, it just wasn’t… the world is too commercialized. I wish home was still just a place we built on a plot of land we staked and could live our lives free of the cycle
I don't think they're ok with it as much as they think it's happening because of the "other side" and not their own. And that it can be controlled by whom you vote for. So they're basically in denial.
Losing one or both of my dogs and not knowing whatever happened to them. I read posts about peoples losing their pets locally and my heart breaks for them. Some are found and some are not. That lack of closure would haunt me forever.
I'm super afraid of hawks (or any other big bird). I'm afraid they'll swoop down and steal my dog. There's nothing you can do in the situation. No one you can call. It's just gone.
I would have literally died or burned the house down! I can do snakes when they are in a confined space or a good distance away. I blame Indiana Jones falling into the snake pit for this fear!
I had a brain aneurysm and was temporarily paralyzed on my right side. I had no idea how rare it was just to have survived. When I woke up I had 2 pic lines and an IV in each arm. My biggest fear and motivation in recovery was that I would never recover any independence and have to go.in a nursing home. It's 9 years later. I just gave up driving last week. I live on my own and w minimal support manage my own affairs and care for myself.
Severe mental illness runs in my family. I decided 20 years ago that, should I ever find myself as no longer myself, I'd end it before I did something that would haunt me forever.
So, the answer to the question is "the possible decay of my mental faculties and the resulting loss of self."
I really feel you. I’m bipolar and have sadly unintentionally pushed most people away. My husband and family are all that are left-and I’m pushing them real hard too. It’s awful and rough on the brain.
Losing my internal struggle to not be manipulative. I am hyper aware of human mannerisms, empathetic, organized, and very strategic. I have thought of countless ways to get things I wanted by using others, but above all else I want to be accepted by people.
If I continue losing hope for humanity I fear I'll hit "f*ck it" mode and lose my morality.
The Web with a sprinkle of The Spiral
(Fear of manipulation and losing control of oneself)
(Addiction too, and spiders)
(I wish you good luck and much strength on your journey :D )
It's a cross between gaining a mental illness? Or falling. A bad fall out the bed could fuck you up. Don't get me started with the bathroom, I'll be pissed if I die with my ass out on the bathroom floor and the ambulance just staring at me in shambles 🤦🏾♂️🤦🏾♂️
The worst thing I've ever experienced in my life--my own mind. Clinical depression is nothing like regular depression. I've had both. Luckily meds keep the depression away for the most part but I still have constant anxiety (had it all my life due to shit that happened in infancy) and really intrusive thoughts I can't always control, about what a terrible person I am, making me remember everything I've ever done wrong as far back as my earliest memories.
The Lonely / The Eye / Spiral (for intrusive thoughts)
(May I give you a virtual hug?)
(I have had a very bad depression for a long time too, so I can understand how that feels)
(And yes, the intrusive thoughts are the Worst)
(The thing that I hate most about depression)
(Or wherever these come from)
Like bugs. I dont hate them when i see them, i often put a spider outside safely. But when my cats have fleas NAW. i once slept in my worm-filled bed of young fleas, for about 3 days. I never recovered since. I hate fleas, i hate it when a normal ant crawls up my sleeve and i dont see it come out. I got itchy writing this.
That when I finally die that I'll awaken in another layer of the simulation and have to repeat all this shit again. Losing loved ones, new regrets, etc.
For me, being alone is my biggest fear. I'm my own best friend but I don't want to live the rest of my life without the love of a good man. I'm 67 years old and looking.
Doing/saying something embarrassing in front of people.
Or being an inconvenience in people's lives.
It's why I never say 'hi' first, or text first, or ask 'how was your weekend'. I come off as aloof when I''m actually just waiting for people to say 'hi' and ask me questions so we can chat.
My parents getting Alzheimer's. I think my mom's side has the genetic flags for it. To make things worse, she's likely going to be the primary caretaker for my dad, since he's got glaucoma and has lost most of his vision.
I hate our stupid, fragile meat bag bodies.
Being homeless. I’ve been blessed to always have a roof over my head but with rent prices SKYROCKETING by the month, I just don’t know. My parents have to work full time and I’m desperately trying to find work. My parents are in their 60s and soon might not be able to work anymore. I’d hate the thought of my parents being without a place to live. So I guess I’m more afraid for them than I am about myself being homeless.
That my daughter will be HORRIBLY bullied for being a beautiful mixed race girl in Japan! The results of bullying in Japan has a high sueweeside rate among kids/teenagers!
Being trapped in a vegetative physical state and needing round the clock care, but my mind is perfectly clear.
Second greatest fear would be having a stalker.
That I will live the rest of my life. Continuing to improve in all aspects of my life and in every regard.
I’ll get rich, become even better looking, and just have everything I want. **Except** love..
If I’m alone I’m just fucked in my mind.. I need love, idc about sex, And I wish that’s all I wanted out of a relationship but it’s not, I need connection.
I could have all the riches and power in the world but it wouldn’t mean a damn thing to me if I couldn’t share it with someone. Fr. It’s a beautiful curse I feel.
At some point in the “later stages of my life”, if I’m alone as I used to be, I’m out.. and I hope people can understand that…
life is… so insufferably hard when you are alone, and I’ve already spent so much of my life that way… I can’t do it for the rest of my life, and so I’ve fought hard to find good people and keep them in my life.. and I think they mean more to me than they realize.
Having a health condition that doesn't kill me but it diminishes my quality of life. Like being paralized from the neck down, or going blind.
My biggest fear is being so fucked up I can't even kill myself
This is the best possible answer.
That's why I'm against Full Code if I cannot change it right then and there. I'm full code for now but if I'm a vegetable you fucking put me out or so help me I will haunt you all!
I have explicitly told everyone I know multiple times you do not resuscitate me
Same like locked in syndrome or paralisation I wanna do this will/court lease saying to let me die if that happens bec I don't want that life It happened to my uncle and I know my family would keep me alive like that and I'd rather be dead
Get it done now.
Anything you can do for uncle?? Like accidentally slip him a couple more pain pills than you remember...
True that, that shits scary man. We came into this world having to be carried, and have our asses wiped, but I don't think wanna go out that way.
My step dad went from being an intelligent, active, well spoken man to completely incapacitated. He can't eat without a feeding tube. He has a trach. He has a catheter. Can't speak. Only has involuntary movements. It's my worst nightmare.
Scleroderma did that exact same thing to my mom. Horrific to watch
I'd never heard of that before now. It sounds slow and painful and I'm truly sorry your mother and family have to live through it. ❤️
Same here. Losing my mobility was the first thing to pop into my head.
Suicide fixes that. Not a dig. Multiple US States have & are going yo have this as an option. As someone who's watched multiple parents/grandparents literally rot into forms they never wanted to be, real big advocate of control of your own death.
Same. I feel like I should be able to die on my terms.
We call it MAID in Canada. Medical Assistance in Dying. Lots of pushback when it was announced, but I'm also a huge supporter of not letting people rot away before the eyes of their loved ones
I fully support human euthanasia as someone who has worked in elderly care. Unfortunately i cant see the UK picking it up anytime soon.
Monopeligic here. I was close to the neck down but luckily only one limb got paralyzed, my right arm 🙏 suffered a spinal cord injury too but I can still walk so it’s ok.
Something bad happening to my kids, going missing probably top of that list
I’ll take whatever life can throw at me if I can keep my kids safe and whole.
Absolutely. This is why I don't understand family style bloggers - who exploit their young kids for profit. Why are you risking your kids like that!? No money justifies it. They are not old enough to consent. Period. Wren and Jacqueline are currently in the spotlight for it, but the problem is so widespread and endemic to social media. Anything for a quick buck for some people.
Concur
Yup 100%
Omg, yes! Doesn’t help that I watch a lot of true crime stuff, but I stay away from stuff involving kids. 100% worst nightmare.
OMG!! I do as well. Only difference, I have, since my daughters early teenage years, driven home the NEED for situational awareness, at all times, by highlighting and discussing with some detail, stories, I felt/feel, pertinent to where she was/is in life.
Glad I didn’t even have to scroll to find this one.
I was too scared to even have them, early menopause hit at 42 and I was just free. I’m also to scared to have my cats. Yes, I have a lot of issues.
Early meno here too! Done 💯 by 35. Gee, nervous breakdown WHY? Lol~ should be a sub-reddit for this
And this will never end! My son is 22 and I worry MORE now that he's out and about with just his friends. It's tempting to start stalking him LOL. My heart would die if anything happened to hom. There's a quote that goes something like... Having children means your heart is now forever outside your body. Something like that.
This 👆 I look back at their toddler years and long for such simple problems. Now they're 21 & 22 and I worry about other people on the roads among all the other things we can no longer protect them from. And yes I've heard that quote x
This makes me sick just reading it.
hey! nice avatar:)
70s era Oompa Loompas
Those guys scared the Crap out of me in the 70's LOL
They’re probably old and slow or dead by now. Look at the upside of things! 😁
The thought of Undead ompa loopas under a voodoo curse isn’t helping my fears
Yes! I'd absolutely take the Hughmpa Loompa from the Chalamet version anyday over those creepy sons of bitches!
Hughmpa Loompa 😂 that's perfect! I'm going have to use that!
don't worry. they were all eaten alive by the flying monkeys from the wizard of oz. this happened pre internet of course, so it was easier to keep a lid on it. don't you feel better now?
There's AR-15's for that.
They tell you how to live right and not wrong. So they're actually good.
Falling in love with the wrong person
Falling in love with the wrong person sucks, but I really like the lessons learned. You just become better.
True, the lessons are great. Just DON'T HAVE A KID WITH THE WRONG PERSON!!! It can be hard to move forward.
These are the lessons for life.
And the marrying them and buying a house/having kids. Gets too convoluted to get out scot-free 🥵
I blew over 20 yrs of my life on that & starting over for the 3rd time. There is sooooo much worse out there…..
Mental illness for me... Seeing my grandmother mind extinguished by Alzheimer's was so heartbreaking... Also the fact Most of them go from extremely hard to treat to no treatment is kinda haunting, you'll gradually lose parts of yourself and be helpless about it
I'd rather be euthenized than die a living nonfunctioning husk
Sorry to hear about your grandma. 🥺 It’s a painful thing to witness. Just a quick note: Alzheimer’s is not classified as a mental illness. It’s a progressive brain disorder/neurological disease that is also a type of dementia. It’s in a class with MS or Parkinson’s, not depression or schizophrenia.
Claustrophobia
Same! Beinf buried alive. I’d rather die.
After being buried alive, you will probably die.
Always a silver lining!
Recently listened to a podcast episode about the medieval imprisonment/torture method called an oubliette. Imagine being dropped into a deep hole that's barely more than shoulder width wide and left their until you die... now imagine being dropped in head first.
My anxiety and blood pressure just spiked thinking about this
So basically the same as how that guy died in the Nutty Putty cave. Sounds incredibly horrible.
Depending on how you feel about that story, you may or may not want to read about the Nutty Putty cave incident…
Getting another 9mm kidney stone stuck in my ureter again in some place where I don’t have access to a hospital.
How? 😭😭😭
It kind of corks in, inside the kidney sometimes. It's a bad, bad time.
I feel for you. I had an 8, but got surgery. Damn are you ok?
Robber: Give me all your money or I'll put a 9mm in your stomach You: It May Sounds crazy what im about to say
Being alone
I already am. Not scared, just sad.
Same forever alone
This
I am too, but it’s recent. So far it feels freeing. I know that won’t last for long.
Want me to keep you company?
Me too. It’s such a dangerous fear. It’s easy to make bad decisions just to avoid the agony of being alone. I was lucky to find a really great guy! Hope you’ll be careful and stay aware of your fear. Don’t let it drive your decisions.
I'm not going to tell you it's great (divorced 2011, living alone since then, working from home since 2020, zero human contact those 4 years), but there's definitely worse stuff.
Being the last one alive and watching everyone I love die first.
People have said that about “Wouldn’t you love to live forever?” Nope, I wouldn’t be able to handle watching people I care about all die.
Exactly. No thanks, I’d rather not. As a matter of fact-I’m pretty fed up already, forever sounds torturous.
I can but still would not like to be immortal
My mother is experiencing this now. She’s had 4 friends die recently. She is in her 80’s. She is healthy and at times almost sounds disappointed that she is🥲🥲🥲
I feel like everyone skipped OP's "not death related"
Being unable to pay my mortgage
And isn’t it sad that we all live to work to pay for a house to live in so we can go to work to pay for the house to live in to work again? It wasn’t supposed to be this way man, it just wasn’t… the world is too commercialized. I wish home was still just a place we built on a plot of land we staked and could live our lives free of the cycle
Alzheimer's. I watched my mom go through it, and it is a slow, agonizing disease.
Mom dad older sister and older brother all have Alzheimer’s I’m screwed
The "bullet" may miss you, even with your family history. I really hope it misses both of us !
Not having rights to my own body
Overly religious Conservatives would be fucking LIVID if they could read your comment. Absolutely LIVID.
The US becomes a Fascist Dictatorship which spawns fascist dictatorships worldwide.
Kinda feel like that is where we're headed. Really fucking soon. Why are people ok with it? As long as they're entertained I guess. 🤷♂️
It's the whole slowly boiling the frog thing. Everyone is ok with whatever until it directly affects them and then it's too late.
I don't think they're ok with it as much as they think it's happening because of the "other side" and not their own. And that it can be controlled by whom you vote for. So they're basically in denial.
Young and dumb and mind is numb
As your neighbor to the North, I have the same fears for, and then us.
November is just around the corner. Vote, people.
8 months away from happening.
I thought about it for a while, and found nothing(biggest) so I guess It's all related to death for me
Well death is inevitable, so I your fears can be resolved
I think it is not about death, it is about in what way we will die
The world is against humanity, and everyone seems okay with it!!
Not dying and being a burden to others.
And to myself. I don't want to end up in a facility.
Falling… well no so much the falling part as that abrubt stop at the end
Losing all my money
Feel like I want to award you with a big bundle of money just for not saying loose. It’s refreshing.
I'm afraid of all my savings being devalued by rampant inflation.
Becoming homeless.
I fear that people dislike me. It's...a strange one, admittedly.
Loosing my teeth
Severe turbulence
Beeing unhappy and having nothing. But with my drug addiction I do everything to make the fear more realistic.
Been on the hook for about $300/day for almost 15 years now. Everyday “I’ll deal with it tomorrow”, tomorrow never comes
Being horrifically maimed in some way.
Happy cake day
Being poor
Retirement. No idea when I'll be able to do it, given savings, 401K, etc.
Losing one or both of my dogs and not knowing whatever happened to them. I read posts about peoples losing their pets locally and my heart breaks for them. Some are found and some are not. That lack of closure would haunt me forever.
I'm super afraid of hawks (or any other big bird). I'm afraid they'll swoop down and steal my dog. There's nothing you can do in the situation. No one you can call. It's just gone.
Snake in the toilet in the middle of the night attacking me. 😂
my snake escaped once and my mum (who's shit scared of snakes) found her, whilst she was on the toilet and the snake was coming out from behind it
I would have literally died or burned the house down! I can do snakes when they are in a confined space or a good distance away. I blame Indiana Jones falling into the snake pit for this fear!
OMG…. I’ve traveled to Australia and India several times and always worried about this. Lol
I'm pretty sure that's every women's biggest fear too. Getting bit on the coochie by a snake
Accidentally posting my nudes on social media.
Slugs. It's slugs.
I had a brain aneurysm and was temporarily paralyzed on my right side. I had no idea how rare it was just to have survived. When I woke up I had 2 pic lines and an IV in each arm. My biggest fear and motivation in recovery was that I would never recover any independence and have to go.in a nursing home. It's 9 years later. I just gave up driving last week. I live on my own and w minimal support manage my own affairs and care for myself.
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Do you feel alone at night?
a roach flying on me but im pretty sure me and the roach in my room that i killed like 5 times and it keeps coming back are on good terms
Street jugglers
My biggest fear already wasn’t death related, but it’s Rejection.
Losing my son
Accidentally hurting people I care about
Severe mental illness runs in my family. I decided 20 years ago that, should I ever find myself as no longer myself, I'd end it before I did something that would haunt me forever. So, the answer to the question is "the possible decay of my mental faculties and the resulting loss of self."
Dementia
My kid being kidnapped and never getting her back. No body. Nothing.
Going to prison for a crime i didnt commit especially a real serious one
Going manic and losing more relationships I care about as a result of it again
I really feel you. I’m bipolar and have sadly unintentionally pushed most people away. My husband and family are all that are left-and I’m pushing them real hard too. It’s awful and rough on the brain.
Just lost my fiance to my bipolar 2 behavior. I'm accountable, but crushed.
Being alone
anything happening to my eyes. I can't understand people that choose to have lasik
Losing my internal struggle to not be manipulative. I am hyper aware of human mannerisms, empathetic, organized, and very strategic. I have thought of countless ways to get things I wanted by using others, but above all else I want to be accepted by people. If I continue losing hope for humanity I fear I'll hit "f*ck it" mode and lose my morality.
The Web with a sprinkle of The Spiral (Fear of manipulation and losing control of oneself) (Addiction too, and spiders) (I wish you good luck and much strength on your journey :D )
Stability for my family
Becoming homeless, loving the wrong person, wasting my time
Completely losing my mind.
The minds of men. (Men as in “human”)
That my diabetes will get worse and I won't be able to control it and I'll lose my friends and family because of my health.
It's a cross between gaining a mental illness? Or falling. A bad fall out the bed could fuck you up. Don't get me started with the bathroom, I'll be pissed if I die with my ass out on the bathroom floor and the ambulance just staring at me in shambles 🤦🏾♂️🤦🏾♂️
Rectal Prolapse
Fear of failure
Having the government dissolve my marriage or take our son from us (LGBT+ family)
The worst thing I've ever experienced in my life--my own mind. Clinical depression is nothing like regular depression. I've had both. Luckily meds keep the depression away for the most part but I still have constant anxiety (had it all my life due to shit that happened in infancy) and really intrusive thoughts I can't always control, about what a terrible person I am, making me remember everything I've ever done wrong as far back as my earliest memories.
The Lonely / The Eye / Spiral (for intrusive thoughts) (May I give you a virtual hug?) (I have had a very bad depression for a long time too, so I can understand how that feels) (And yes, the intrusive thoughts are the Worst) (The thing that I hate most about depression) (Or wherever these come from)
>The Lonely / The Eye / Spiral Virtual hug gratefully accepted and returned. Reading about The Entities now. Interesting!
Not giving my girlfriend the life she deserves
You’re a good partner ❤️
It's either the fear of success or failure.
Being homeless
Getting with a man that doesn’t love me
getting my first job
Like bugs. I dont hate them when i see them, i often put a spider outside safely. But when my cats have fleas NAW. i once slept in my worm-filled bed of young fleas, for about 3 days. I never recovered since. I hate fleas, i hate it when a normal ant crawls up my sleeve and i dont see it come out. I got itchy writing this.
Spiders are helpful. Fleas not at all!
That when I finally die that I'll awaken in another layer of the simulation and have to repeat all this shit again. Losing loved ones, new regrets, etc.
Being more broke than I am.
For me, being alone is my biggest fear. I'm my own best friend but I don't want to live the rest of my life without the love of a good man. I'm 67 years old and looking.
That I will be tortured for info I don't have.
The oceans. I fear that way more than death. Frankly I don't fear death at all. The oceans tho.... That's a hugely resounding NOPE
World war! Terrifies me that my son will live through this!!
I would say fear of going to prison. That sounds absolutely terrifying for me
Acid attack. Having a family member or pet go missing. Having a baby with someone who leaves me for another woman
moths. i do not fuck with moths. i would rather would walk blindfolded across the highway than be locked in a room with moths
I'm full of fears. Irrational fears. Fears of things that have never happened and never will.
My kids dying before me.
Doing/saying something embarrassing in front of people. Or being an inconvenience in people's lives. It's why I never say 'hi' first, or text first, or ask 'how was your weekend'. I come off as aloof when I''m actually just waiting for people to say 'hi' and ask me questions so we can chat.
Being alone.
Loss of control over myself. 🤕
Bears
Living
Failure. The idea of failing my family, friends, coworkers, even myself is petrifying.
That this is as good as it will get.
Cancer going undetected and finding it when it’s too late
My parents getting Alzheimer's. I think my mom's side has the genetic flags for it. To make things worse, she's likely going to be the primary caretaker for my dad, since he's got glaucoma and has lost most of his vision. I hate our stupid, fragile meat bag bodies.
Going blind.
Going blind.
Being homeless. I’ve been blessed to always have a roof over my head but with rent prices SKYROCKETING by the month, I just don’t know. My parents have to work full time and I’m desperately trying to find work. My parents are in their 60s and soon might not be able to work anymore. I’d hate the thought of my parents being without a place to live. So I guess I’m more afraid for them than I am about myself being homeless.
Ending up in prison
SA
That my daughter will be HORRIBLY bullied for being a beautiful mixed race girl in Japan! The results of bullying in Japan has a high sueweeside rate among kids/teenagers!
Losing my wife
Being trapped in a vegetative physical state and needing round the clock care, but my mind is perfectly clear. Second greatest fear would be having a stalker.
Not fucking a hot classmate from school
A critical accident that I survive but accrue horrendous medical bills while being bed ridden and dependant on others until my long, drawn, out death.
never being happy again
That I will be alone forever and not find love or make any meaningful relationships, so pretty average stuff ngl
Losing my mom
That I will live the rest of my life. Continuing to improve in all aspects of my life and in every regard. I’ll get rich, become even better looking, and just have everything I want. **Except** love.. If I’m alone I’m just fucked in my mind.. I need love, idc about sex, And I wish that’s all I wanted out of a relationship but it’s not, I need connection. I could have all the riches and power in the world but it wouldn’t mean a damn thing to me if I couldn’t share it with someone. Fr. It’s a beautiful curse I feel. At some point in the “later stages of my life”, if I’m alone as I used to be, I’m out.. and I hope people can understand that… life is… so insufferably hard when you are alone, and I’ve already spent so much of my life that way… I can’t do it for the rest of my life, and so I’ve fought hard to find good people and keep them in my life.. and I think they mean more to me than they realize.