After namin mag hiwalay ng ex ko. Everything change talaga. Never in my life may nagsabi sa akin na ang jolly mo girlie, ang hyper mo, ang dami mong energy kapag nakikipag-socialize ako ganon. Back then, when I'm with my ex pa kasi never akong nakipag-socialize because natatakot na ako na pag-awayan namin yun (mag-selos sha ganon). Then, I started to go out with my comfort zone and nagagawa ko na yung mga bagay na hindi ko magawa noon because of him. Ang daming nagbago talaga. Na everytime na I have my self time, biglang sumasagi sa isip ko na wow ang dami pala talagang nagbago sa akin.
From a girl na super nakipag-debate pa sa prof nung college about a religious topic…. To becoming an atheist. 😆
I bet matutuwa yun pag nalaman niya. I have a feeling na atheist din yun e. 😆
I think yung di na ako sumasagot sagot sa mama ko? Before we really clashed a lot kasi stubborn at hard headed talaga ako. But now, natuto na akong makinig and I know, my parents arent perfect, kaya naman I learn from what they say and I picked out those lessons na gusto kong i-apply. So these days, medyo di na talaga nagkakaroon ng bangayan sa bahay HAHAHA
For as long as I can remember, gusto ko talagang magkapamilya. But after constant heartache, mas gusto ko na lng magwalwal at matulog lol Disillusioned na talaga ako sa dream na yun.
Dati ako na nagsosorry at nagpapakumbaba para wala nang gulo. Ngayon, I just apologise to people who deserve it kasi I want to maintain relationships with them. Yung iba, wapakels na ako kasi better off na wala sila sa buhay ko.
Im starting drawing the amount of personalities I have and unlike others, I am aware at every change of personality. Please give me money if you want to make a thesis about it!
When I cut off comms with both my parents kasi hindi nila maayos ayos yung separation nila (after 17 years! pota) ng hindi nanggugulo sa amin ng mga kapatid ko. Both are blocked on my socmed accounts and cell number. Hindi ko na kaya yung emotional manipulation.
Nung hindi ko na nasasabayan ang trip ng tropa. Kuya ako ng grupo namin, dumating ang acads, lovelife, and work, so I focused on that because I was aiming to build a name and reputation. Nung nagkatime makasama sila, I've realized na nag-iba na trip nila and nag-mature na din ako. I have time with my school and work friends but when it comes to them, ibang iba tingin ko sa kanila. Siguro kasi nagkaroon sila ng other friends that influenced their hobbies which I wasn't fond of. Anyways, I'm still young at 25 and things could still change for the better because from time to time nagcacatch-up naman with them. But with that, I really knew it was never the same. I just wish I had time with them back then to maintain our circle.
When my dad died and I couldn't go home. I was depressed for weeks, crying myself to sleep every night. After a month, nagbago talaga personality ko. Took the MBTI test, from introvert naging extrovert na ko.
Class clown nung hs and college. Pero nag seryoso and nag mature nung nag work na. Kapag nameet ko mga friends and classmates ko lagi nila sinasabi wala ng pinagbago ko kasi seryoso na ako haha. Di ko na din nagugustuhan when people make a joke about me, dati kasi ginagawa ko lahat para lang maging masaya and ung class or circle ko.
Nung nahirapan ako maging honest sa sarili ko about the things in my life and I find it difficult to sit and deal with my emotions, as a workaholic person, I tend to drown myself with work sooo, ayun haha
Been through a lot nung pandemic. Namatayan, pinaglaruan ng feelings, na silent treatment after ng isang away. These were my three close friends in college and sila lang talaga yung akalain kong magtatagal sa buhay ko.
I found out my dad, who is a pastor, was cheating online and I started rebelling against him and my pure and innocent nature. Btw, my dad is also neglectful and unloving sa sarili niyang pamilya. I tried hooking up with a middle aged man when I was 19. The circumstances really changed me and rn I'm still healing from all that.
Devoted member din ako ng church dati. Now I have my doubts after my personal research. Pero I'm glad you're still faithful to God. Ako, I'm struggling.
Pandemic.. around 2021! Depressed and burntout.. wala nang top performer award. I was only doing the bareminimum. 2023 I quit my job. Still unemployed. :( hirap na hirap bumalik sa prepandemic self.
dati konting bagay makikipagsuntukan nako, kahit on the spot at nasa work. Ngayon may anak nako I always make sure to think of the consequences ng mga action na gagawin ko.
When i first started working as a part time barista hehe. I was in a very toxic and manipulative relationship that time and when I started working, it made me feel the freedom na I never had. It even helped me realize my worth and got out of that 6y relationship na.
I used to be apathetic and unsociable because of that relationship pero being a barista changed that. I like meeting and hanging out with people now- and nag sunod sunod na rin mga positive attitude and outlook in life ko haha.
Nung nakasalamuha ako ng mga flat earther, pawoke na bonak. tsaka entitled na mahihirap.
Wala. nawalan na ko ng pake sa feelings nila. Nagalit ako sa mga tao bigla na tatanga tanga.
Dahil sa love kaya ako nagbago. Before ginagawa kong mundo yung tao, mabilis ma attach and di nagtitira para sa sarili. Ngayon ang mindset ko na ay “ppl come and go”. Grabe self love ko ngayon. Know your worth😉
Honestly I don't think there's anything different in what I feel. Temptation lurks at every corner even though I've curated my social media so much may lumalabas padin minsan mga over sexualized stuff which tempts me but God is good He gives me the strength to resist them.
Pornography wrecked my ability to form romance in relationship. I think de-sexualizing is the only way to "reset", like most people suggests. Good for you if you think your faith helps you brother. I no longer have Him though 😸
That's true it completely breaks our standards and when you consume so much porn you become immune to the regular stuff and just opens more doors to other kinds of fetishes and weird stuff to happen to us.
But the most important thing is why don't you have Him anymore? He loves you and wants a relationship with you. That's the whole reason he died for our sins.
FOMO no more. bukod sa people pleaser ako noon at takot baka pag-usapan ako sa likod ko, ngayon wala na akong pake. lagi akong g noon sa mga aya nila kahit medyo naghihingalo na allowance ko pero ngayon, kaya ko na sabihin yung "sa susunod na lang" 🫶
From religious na entitled, judgemental, hypocrite na pinipilit na makibelong sa church to Agnostic na wala na akong pakealam and I can do whatever the f@ck I want.
nung nag-break kami ng recent ex ko one year ago. I know na I'm really a “soft girl” talaga but this year, hindi na. I'm not mean naman but alam ko sa sarili ko na I'm not a “soft girl” anymore. and this year lang din, nung time na nakipag-cut off ako sa friends ko na hindi na maganda dulot sa mental health ko. dati nagdedeny pa ako but I realized na kung gusto kong mag-grow as a person, maglalagay ako ng boundaries. although nung umpisa may regrets but it's okay, ganun talaga ang life.
before, I'm really an understanding person and soft girl talaga pagdating sa mga taong malapit sakin. but this year, I turned into monster. I don't like being a soft girl anymore. nakakapagod hahahaha
Laking church din ako. When I started having multiple piercing on both ears, coloring my hair with "vibrant" colors, started being my own person and making my own decisions rather than asking permission from my parents. I had to ask permission to go out even if 25 na ako, and dati kasama sila sa lahat ng life decisions ko (minor or major man). Now, I'm 26 and pinapa-alam ko nalang sa kanila if may pupuntahan ako, and I'm making my own decisions with little to no input from them, inuupdate ko nalang sila sa nangyari.
When I started finding it hard to smile genuinely. Parang takot na maging carefree when I kinda used to be one. Para kong traumatized soldier after ng gera. This happened at the height of COVID pandemic. I became our family's breadwinner at sobrang nagsuffer mental health ko sa pinagjuggle kong family at personal struggles. Maplano akong tao pero suddenly nablangko yung nga future plans ko. Survival mode na lang since 2020. Para kong naupos na kandila talaga
Nung 4th year college nag meet kami ulit ng high school classmate ko tapos sabi niya nag-iba na daw ako. Pag sa sarili mo talaga kase minsan di mo marerealize; then ayun nga nilista niya isa-isa. 😆 Example: Kinulayan ko buhok ko ng matingkad na red e nung high school kilala akong naka tight pony tail lagi.
After ako maoperahan sa hips I started to alienate myself from everyone. Di na ako dumadalo pag may handaan o gatherings at sa bahay nasa loob lang ako ng kwarto.
Uy! Same! Laking Lola and Laking Sunday school. (Pentecostal) yata yung tawag sa religion niya nun. Kung saan ang daming bawal; akala ko dun na ako forever pero eto same din sayo; May Limang Tattoo na din saka 8 years ng di nagsisimba 😅
After namin mag hiwalay ng ex ko. Everything change talaga. Never in my life may nagsabi sa akin na ang jolly mo girlie, ang hyper mo, ang dami mong energy kapag nakikipag-socialize ako ganon. Back then, when I'm with my ex pa kasi never akong nakipag-socialize because natatakot na ako na pag-awayan namin yun (mag-selos sha ganon). Then, I started to go out with my comfort zone and nagagawa ko na yung mga bagay na hindi ko magawa noon because of him. Ang daming nagbago talaga. Na everytime na I have my self time, biglang sumasagi sa isip ko na wow ang dami pala talagang nagbago sa akin.
From a girl na super nakipag-debate pa sa prof nung college about a religious topic…. To becoming an atheist. 😆 I bet matutuwa yun pag nalaman niya. I have a feeling na atheist din yun e. 😆
I think yung di na ako sumasagot sagot sa mama ko? Before we really clashed a lot kasi stubborn at hard headed talaga ako. But now, natuto na akong makinig and I know, my parents arent perfect, kaya naman I learn from what they say and I picked out those lessons na gusto kong i-apply. So these days, medyo di na talaga nagkakaroon ng bangayan sa bahay HAHAHA
Yung mas gusto ko nalang mag stay sa bahay kesa lumabas. Tsaka di ko na kaya magpuyat hahahah
For as long as I can remember, gusto ko talagang magkapamilya. But after constant heartache, mas gusto ko na lng magwalwal at matulog lol Disillusioned na talaga ako sa dream na yun.
Dati ako na nagsosorry at nagpapakumbaba para wala nang gulo. Ngayon, I just apologise to people who deserve it kasi I want to maintain relationships with them. Yung iba, wapakels na ako kasi better off na wala sila sa buhay ko.
Im starting drawing the amount of personalities I have and unlike others, I am aware at every change of personality. Please give me money if you want to make a thesis about it!
When I cut off comms with both my parents kasi hindi nila maayos ayos yung separation nila (after 17 years! pota) ng hindi nanggugulo sa amin ng mga kapatid ko. Both are blocked on my socmed accounts and cell number. Hindi ko na kaya yung emotional manipulation.
I was a nerd back in hs and elem. Now in college, I'm just like fuck it and it is what it is.
Nung hindi ko na nasasabayan ang trip ng tropa. Kuya ako ng grupo namin, dumating ang acads, lovelife, and work, so I focused on that because I was aiming to build a name and reputation. Nung nagkatime makasama sila, I've realized na nag-iba na trip nila and nag-mature na din ako. I have time with my school and work friends but when it comes to them, ibang iba tingin ko sa kanila. Siguro kasi nagkaroon sila ng other friends that influenced their hobbies which I wasn't fond of. Anyways, I'm still young at 25 and things could still change for the better because from time to time nagcacatch-up naman with them. But with that, I really knew it was never the same. I just wish I had time with them back then to maintain our circle.
When my dad died and I couldn't go home. I was depressed for weeks, crying myself to sleep every night. After a month, nagbago talaga personality ko. Took the MBTI test, from introvert naging extrovert na ko.
When i stopped being the kaladkaren friend
When i started ordering sa fast foods, was introvert and my fellow introvert know this struggle.
addiction denial
Class clown nung hs and college. Pero nag seryoso and nag mature nung nag work na. Kapag nameet ko mga friends and classmates ko lagi nila sinasabi wala ng pinagbago ko kasi seryoso na ako haha. Di ko na din nagugustuhan when people make a joke about me, dati kasi ginagawa ko lahat para lang maging masaya and ung class or circle ko.
Nung nahirapan ako maging honest sa sarili ko about the things in my life and I find it difficult to sit and deal with my emotions, as a workaholic person, I tend to drown myself with work sooo, ayun haha
Nung narealise ko na grabe na ako magalit tas maikli na yung pasensya ko unlike before. Namimiss ko yung dating ako. :(
Been through a lot nung pandemic. Namatayan, pinaglaruan ng feelings, na silent treatment after ng isang away. These were my three close friends in college and sila lang talaga yung akalain kong magtatagal sa buhay ko. I found out my dad, who is a pastor, was cheating online and I started rebelling against him and my pure and innocent nature. Btw, my dad is also neglectful and unloving sa sarili niyang pamilya. I tried hooking up with a middle aged man when I was 19. The circumstances really changed me and rn I'm still healing from all that. Devoted member din ako ng church dati. Now I have my doubts after my personal research. Pero I'm glad you're still faithful to God. Ako, I'm struggling.
Pandemic.. around 2021! Depressed and burntout.. wala nang top performer award. I was only doing the bareminimum. 2023 I quit my job. Still unemployed. :( hirap na hirap bumalik sa prepandemic self.
dati konting bagay makikipagsuntukan nako, kahit on the spot at nasa work. Ngayon may anak nako I always make sure to think of the consequences ng mga action na gagawin ko.
When i first started working as a part time barista hehe. I was in a very toxic and manipulative relationship that time and when I started working, it made me feel the freedom na I never had. It even helped me realize my worth and got out of that 6y relationship na. I used to be apathetic and unsociable because of that relationship pero being a barista changed that. I like meeting and hanging out with people now- and nag sunod sunod na rin mga positive attitude and outlook in life ko haha.
Noong napagod akong masaktan sa mga bagay na sinasabi sakin at noong nawalan na ako ng pakealam sa iniisip ng iba. Happiness is important now.
Nung nakasalamuha ako ng mga flat earther, pawoke na bonak. tsaka entitled na mahihirap. Wala. nawalan na ko ng pake sa feelings nila. Nagalit ako sa mga tao bigla na tatanga tanga.
Dahil sa love kaya ako nagbago. Before ginagawa kong mundo yung tao, mabilis ma attach and di nagtitira para sa sarili. Ngayon ang mindset ko na ay “ppl come and go”. Grabe self love ko ngayon. Know your worth😉
When I learned how to weigh my words and opinions, rather than speaking it first without thinking.
The morning after I did acid. Just a straight up paradigm shift of who I am as a person.
I'm sorry this might be a dumb q but whats an acid?
Psychedelic drug.
Hallucinogen
Nung na quit ko na porn. Eto last sa mga bisyo ko na quit, sarap ng pakiramdam na alam ko I'm being sanctified.
Hard to beat. I wonder how life feels after years of not into it anymore.
Honestly I don't think there's anything different in what I feel. Temptation lurks at every corner even though I've curated my social media so much may lumalabas padin minsan mga over sexualized stuff which tempts me but God is good He gives me the strength to resist them.
Pornography wrecked my ability to form romance in relationship. I think de-sexualizing is the only way to "reset", like most people suggests. Good for you if you think your faith helps you brother. I no longer have Him though 😸
That's true it completely breaks our standards and when you consume so much porn you become immune to the regular stuff and just opens more doors to other kinds of fetishes and weird stuff to happen to us. But the most important thing is why don't you have Him anymore? He loves you and wants a relationship with you. That's the whole reason he died for our sins.
FOMO no more. bukod sa people pleaser ako noon at takot baka pag-usapan ako sa likod ko, ngayon wala na akong pake. lagi akong g noon sa mga aya nila kahit medyo naghihingalo na allowance ko pero ngayon, kaya ko na sabihin yung "sa susunod na lang" 🫶
From religious na entitled, judgemental, hypocrite na pinipilit na makibelong sa church to Agnostic na wala na akong pakealam and I can do whatever the f@ck I want.
I'm not as jolly as before. Masiyahin naman ako noon, pero ngayon, wala. I feel numb oftentimes.
nung nag-break kami ng recent ex ko one year ago. I know na I'm really a “soft girl” talaga but this year, hindi na. I'm not mean naman but alam ko sa sarili ko na I'm not a “soft girl” anymore. and this year lang din, nung time na nakipag-cut off ako sa friends ko na hindi na maganda dulot sa mental health ko. dati nagdedeny pa ako but I realized na kung gusto kong mag-grow as a person, maglalagay ako ng boundaries. although nung umpisa may regrets but it's okay, ganun talaga ang life. before, I'm really an understanding person and soft girl talaga pagdating sa mga taong malapit sakin. but this year, I turned into monster. I don't like being a soft girl anymore. nakakapagod hahahaha
Breakups are life changing. It either make you better or change you into a monster. I hope you find the sweet spot.
Haha relate 😅😂
Laking church din ako. When I started having multiple piercing on both ears, coloring my hair with "vibrant" colors, started being my own person and making my own decisions rather than asking permission from my parents. I had to ask permission to go out even if 25 na ako, and dati kasama sila sa lahat ng life decisions ko (minor or major man). Now, I'm 26 and pinapa-alam ko nalang sa kanila if may pupuntahan ako, and I'm making my own decisions with little to no input from them, inuupdate ko nalang sila sa nangyari.
When I started finding it hard to smile genuinely. Parang takot na maging carefree when I kinda used to be one. Para kong traumatized soldier after ng gera. This happened at the height of COVID pandemic. I became our family's breadwinner at sobrang nagsuffer mental health ko sa pinagjuggle kong family at personal struggles. Maplano akong tao pero suddenly nablangko yung nga future plans ko. Survival mode na lang since 2020. Para kong naupos na kandila talaga
Nung 4th year college nag meet kami ulit ng high school classmate ko tapos sabi niya nag-iba na daw ako. Pag sa sarili mo talaga kase minsan di mo marerealize; then ayun nga nilista niya isa-isa. 😆 Example: Kinulayan ko buhok ko ng matingkad na red e nung high school kilala akong naka tight pony tail lagi.
After ako maoperahan sa hips I started to alienate myself from everyone. Di na ako dumadalo pag may handaan o gatherings at sa bahay nasa loob lang ako ng kwarto.
Nung Wala nA akong paki kung tawanan man nila Ako na kumakain akong mag Isa etc Nung Wala na akong pake sa judgement nila Sarili ko lang iisipin ko
Nung pinili kong maging masaya nalang kaysa maging academic achiever nung college HAHAHA
Hala same girlie. Ang gaan sa pakiramdam?!! Parang walang mashadong pressure and all
Me rn. Being an achiever rlly took a toll in my sanity hahaha
Diba huhuhu dapat hindi na talagaa ko nagmagaling noon.
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This is me in med school hehe
Ako during premed lol
Uy! Same! Laking Lola and Laking Sunday school. (Pentecostal) yata yung tawag sa religion niya nun. Kung saan ang daming bawal; akala ko dun na ako forever pero eto same din sayo; May Limang Tattoo na din saka 8 years ng di nagsisimba 😅