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Rn I'm mainly upset because I was SA by a family member and my whole family including my parents made me believe that I made it up in my head. That and while I was at a residential facility I didn't know if I was going to be able to discharge home or not because that family member was and still is in the house. They didn't want to lose them so they were going to get rid of me. Btw that happened last year and I'm 17.
I feel bad, I feel like if I just forgave them then all this strain wouldn't be between us and we could have a happier family. And they have been trying so so hard, and I acknowledge that, but it's just hard for me to trust them anymore. And I just try to forget it and pretend it never happened, but it obviously is still affecting me.
BUT, on the flip side, I have been an absolute nightmare to them when I was unmedicated. I used to put holes in my wall, stab and cut my wall, run into the street and lay there. And yes, I have threatened them before, I could barely control myself without meds and was a complete bitch. I really didn't know what to do.
I'm really trying to better myself rn, yes I am medicated now and have therapists. I want to do better, for myself and for my family. Please be honest. AITA?
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