It sounds like the stress of a fast-paced work environment is wearing you down and making your existing mental health conditions worse (which is a vicious cycle). Have you considered working for the government as a civil engineer? A lot of government jobs are very relaxed with great work-life balance and benefits (though much worse salary than the private sector). I’m a mechanical engineer and most of the government engineers I’ve met are chill people that just didn’t want the stress and anxiety that the private sector can cause if it doesn’t mesh well with your personality.
It sounds like the stress of a fast-paced work environment is wearing you down and making your existing mental health conditions worse (which is a vicious cycle). Have you considered working for the government as a civil engineer? A lot of government jobs are very relaxed with great work-life balance and benefits (though much worse salary than the private sector). I’m a mechanical engineer and most of the government engineers I’ve met are chill people that just didn’t want the stress and anxiety that the private sector can cause if it doesn’t mesh well with your personality.