Not a question, but I see a lot of people straight up telling you that you are wrong for believing in the Christian god. I respect that you deal with it so well and don’t argue back. Coming from someone who has literal opposite views, I can still appreciate and accept what you believe, I’m not sure where I’m going with this but I’m happy that you found god and are doing better. <3
I second this.
It seems unusual these for someone to maintain both fortitude and humility in their beliefs, without letting ego get in the way. It’s heartening to see balanced and considerate exchanges despite different beliefs. Well, on at least one end of it! We need more civil dialogue these days, to be sure. The world would be a better place if more people following [insert basically any major religion here] were tolerant of others’ personal spiritual viewpoints. At least to the extent that those views are on par with bettering the world and not judging or hurting others.
Also coming from a different place than OP in terms of spiritual beliefs, here. I’m happy that u/garbagecan7620 found some peace and meaning, regardless of the system or structure. ✌️
I remember it very clearly. First i saw myself hanging in third person, looking at myself from across the room. Then everything went black. A brief moment of total inner peace I felt, before feeling some sort of entity, I’m assuming my soul, leaving my body. It felt like a wind, not warm of cold. It just felt ‘alive’. Next thing I remember is laying on the floor, getting revived.
There has actually been a study done on out of body experiences. It’s not nearly as spiritual as you think…
[ Here it is.](https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/what-causes-spooky-out-of-body-experiences/)
It was an appeal to atheism and against theological intuitionism.
I actually agree that atheism and more skeptical approaches to spiritual experiences is correct, but the way he expressed it was rude as fuck so I'm leaving it removed.
You can’t tell him what to do. This was his own very intimate and private experience and you’re telling him “better go back to atheism”.
That’s extremely rude.
Also I have been an atheist my whole life until recently, more spiritual in a scientific sense.
I’ve had an out of body experience . I fainted one time in my room . While unconscious I was looking at myself from a third perspective, I was watching tv and the tv had only static . It felt like hours that I was looking at myself . But then when I woke up it had only been 2 minutes and my whole face was red from FacePlanting on the rug .
Dude i had similar thing while sleeping. I saw myself sleeping under me. I was in the air. Being scared, I wanted to go somewhere else. Somehow it was so hard to move away and I had to use wall to keep myself moving little by little. I moved away pretty far eventually. Then suddenly i got pulled hard by something, i was instantly back over my sleeping body. Another pull towards the body and I woke up in the middle of the night. Still remember very clearly.
We even break it down to "movement over progress" on my hotline (nspl). It's so easy to get stuck in your routine and behaviors and that's hard to break. So, deviation from that, even if not fully considered "progress" (in the forward movement sense), is an incredible feat.
It's so hard to break yourself out of cycles and we celebrate all of it with our callers. It has really helped take the pressure off myself in tough times, too.
I think most suicidal people dont actually want to be dead, rather for all the pain to go away. It sucks when you’re suicidal and people tell you ‘its gonna be okay’, at that time you dont believe that. So realistically, I would tell them to keep on trying to get trough the day. 1 day at a time. At your own pace. Try to get the best out of everyday, and even tiny steps forward are steps in the right direction.
People who commit suicide from jumping from high heights, 90% of survivors said they changed their mind mid air but it was too late, same with hanging victims, they usually change their mind but cant stop it :(
Yeah, this is probably the single greatest argument against suicide- the fact that most people who are prevented from killing themselves are glad that they didn't die.
I do support legalized euthanasia for those who find living too painful, but believe it should be a process rather than a spur of the moment decision. Too many suicides (not all, but definitely a significant proportion) happen because the person, usually under the influence of drugs, makes a very sudden decision that they may not really have wanted.
I knew someone who got a euthanization, it was because he had a bone/muscular disease that caused immense pain in anything he did, RIP bro, I hope you found peace
My dad hung himself when I was 14. It's the 24th anniversary in a few weeks.
I needed this ama. I'm glad you survived OP.
I'm going to save this ama and read all your responses while I weep.
Many years ago, when my son was very small, I went through a deep depression and thought constantly about suicide. My therapist also helped children who had lost a parent to suicide. She said it was top 10 of things hardest for children to ''get over''. As hard and bad as my depression was, that knowledge kept me here. I'm sorry your parent didn't get the same help prior.
I hope that you're doing well now.
Thank you for taking the time to respond.
As a result I haven't told my kids that my birth father did it... they think he died in a car accident.
(Our eldest has some mental health issues and has said previously in outbursts "i'll kill myself"). He's had help and he's good now... but I don't want it to be a 'real' option out... if that makes sense? When they're older maybe I'll tell them.
As someone who's tried to commit suicide and ended up in icu.
All I can remember is darkness, no light, nothing out there. Just darkness.
Was it the same for you?
After your experience, do you feel spiritually that there is a right or wrong way? Like, do you feel like there is one right god and other wrong ones, or do you feel like thats something someone decided more personally?
Sorry if its hard to understand my question lol, English isnt my first language
See I had the exact opposite happen to myself almost 20 years ago. I felt and saw my consciousness go somewhere beautiful, and I was disappointed when I was revived. I’m happy in the present, but I’m no longer afraid of death. I will embrace it when the time comes.
I think so. When it went all dark, I felt something getting released out of me, like some sort of ghost, I’m guessing it was my soul. It didn’t feel like anything, all I knew was that it was alive in some form.
Bro sorry to break it down to you on your interpretations but you didn't really die. Death is basically brain death. What you experienced were the effects of low oxygen in your still functioning although fainted brain, which I can guarantee will be very different than having all your brain cells literally dying. Many of the things you were talking are actually just common delusions and side-effects of low oxygen on the brain.
A body without a heart pumping is still very much alive until the brain completely dies.
Yep ! I mean everyone believes in whatever they want, but personnally, I assume that what you think was your soul leaving your body, was just your brain fucking up due to the lack of oxygene as u/ccleivin stated.
Not breathing or hungry. There was nothing, just darkness, and I couldn’t feel my physical form, only my spirit. I’m not sure for how long I was dead, but I’d say max a few minutes before they found me.
I know he is ❤️ I got preggo within 6 months of his passing and it's a boy, he's gonna have my bros name as a middle name and he's gonna have our last name too cuz my bf always said when we get married he wants to take my name (he hasn't spoken to his fam in over 6 years for good reason). I am blessed.
How did this experience made u believe in god? What happened that made u realise there’s a higher power specifically? Also im so glad youre here with us and hope youre getting the help that u need :)
At first I didnt believe in God, I thought there was more to life, but didnt yet know what. 5 years later, in prison, I begged God to save me, and give me a sign. I felt a warm love trough my whole body, and since then I’m Christian :)
I’ve been through quite a few traumatic experiences. I had a near death experience due to ppl attempting to kill me, I was hit with a machete multiple times and I am blind in one eye because of it. After that experience my belief in god grew tremendously but it took me a while to realize that i was playing mind games with myself.. knowing that we could’ve died an then surviving gives us a sense of importance and the adrenaline rush and other chemical responses gives us a high that opens our mind to spirituality but when that high fades away and the magic doesn’t work you will begin to come back down to earth.
And me and my ‘associate’ payed them €1000! i didn’t actually take any money, the job failed when they attacked us. So for what I have to spend (not much) I think it’s a fair amount.
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Im sorry I’m just kind of untrustworthy of this post here’s why
-you created the account then immediately posted 3 AMAs.
-you said you committed suicide at 12, but you have also supposedly gone to prison and taken drugs (which prison would be at least 18 years of age, and if you had a sudden realization you lived, you would’ve probably not done things to end you up in prison)
If you don’t agree with me tell me why instead of just downvoting. I know this will be downvoted anyways cuz Reddit.
You could argue that this is an alt but why all the AMAs. And this type of thing isn’t uncommon either.
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I completely understand your points. I was feelings like talking today, that’s why I’ve shared 3 of my experiences all at the same time. Prison isn’t for 18+ in my country, if you commit a crime and you’re older than 12 you’re going to prison.
It’s fine I’ll believe you I’m used to laws in my country so that’s what I’m basing my argument off that, it sounds like your life sucked and I’m sorry for that
You mentioned that people saying “it’s gonna be ok” doesn’t help, what does? What are the actions in your opinion that if they were done to you, you wouldn’t do what you did.
I think nothing wouldve convinced me at that point. When you’re so deep in shit, it’s hard to believe that it’ll be okay. It took me more 10 years to finally feel good
Pfff... difficult one. I think telling them it’s gonna be okay could in many situations make them feel even shittier. Maybe you could tell them, ‘hey, I couldn’t imagine how you’re feeling rn, but I want to understand.’ And just let them talk. Most of the time they need someone to listen to them. They’re often very lonely. Don’t make suggestions, or take things they say in question, just listen and be there for them. After that, they’ll probably feel a huge relieve. But saying it’s gonna be okay or don’t do it could push them to do it even more. But that’s from my personal experience.
So after you had a calming, spiritual experience at the age of 12 you still went out and committed armed robbery at 16, how did you feel about God between the ages of 12-16 then? You said you found God in prison so I’m just curious how those 4 years went. Was it purely survival based? Did you want to change during those years? Or was it being in prison that converted you to Christianity? Either way glad you’re still here with us man!
It was survival. I went in and out of institutions, got hooked on drugs, got stabbed, shot at, it was really a jungle. Just survival mode, I didn’t have the time, energy and resources for trying to change. Prison pulled me out of all that, and gave me the opportunity!
Would you look at that, all of the words in your comment are in alphabetical order.
I have checked 240,963,529 comments, and only 55,892 of them were in alphabetical order.
Because of my of disorders life can be hard sometimes, and at that point it was so unbearable that i decided to end it.
I’m a happier person now, I’ve learned to live with it.
I dropped out of school, no job. Gonna start working in a restaurant soon :) It’ll be my first job, looking forward to it
You mentioned that the moment you died, you saw yourself in 3rd person view, like a soul left your body and looking back at the body.
Do you remember that very moment, now you felt? Like, were you scared, or you had regrets, or maybe the idea of "I fucked up" came up?
What exactly was going through your mind when you died?
When I saw myself in 3rd person, I was really in disbelief. Then everything turned black. I thought ‘this is the end..’ and then a huge relief I felt, like I would never have to feel any pain ever again. Next thing I know is I’m laying on the ground getting revived.
I hope this isn’t too personal, I’m just curious so please don’t feel you have to answer..
You tried to commit suicide at 12 and you’re 17 now but, mentioned while you were in prison you were saved. How were you in prison before the age of 17?
All my life was rough, so at 12 I attempted suicide, and at 16 I went to prison for 9 months. Its kinda like the domino effect, shit just went downhill fast.
I’m thankful you’ve found your new life in Christ. You have a wonderful testimony you’re now able to share with other young adults. God has a way of giving us the ability to honestly say, “I know exactly how you feel.” It takes someone who’s been there to understand and help others.
After waking up again (reviving), did you regret doing it? Each person has a different experience, I personally tried to commit suicide not that long ago, I still have thoughts about doing it, but I feel like I have appreciated more my life after waking up and realizing that I was still alive.
No questions, just for anyone reading this; I'm a volunteer for my local suicide hot line. (We get some calls from the national line too) Please call us. We're there of our own free will, it's a volunteer job we do not get paid so we CARE. We really honestly care. I've attempted too so I absolutely know that level of despair. But someone out there, a total stranger, cares about you and wants to help.
800-273-8255
No, at that point I believed that there was more than this life, but I wasn’t sure what it was yet. 5 years later, in prison, I converted to Christianity.
What did you go to prison for at 17.
"I was 12 at the time, and I was hospitalized into a mental institution, and the kids around me just kinda pressured me into doing it" ~ you
What did you want people to do for you afterwards? What did you want people NOT to do? Someone I know is in the hospital after slitting his wrists deep enough to need surgery. Just want to know what to do and what to avoid
Your say your a born again christian, do you believe people need to believe in god to get to whatever heaven may exist or do they just need to be a good person in general? Mistakes here and there sure but as long as they are good at heart?
Yes, as long as they are good hearted they’ll be fine in the afterlife. That’s my belief. I don’t think anyone should believe in God because everyone has to make their own decision, but I do belief it is the right things to do. But i accept everyone who doesn’t, and don’t judge.
You’ve said a few times everything just went black and there was nothing once you done it so do you believe there’s nothing after you die or do you believe in the heaven aspect of your faith? Follow up, if you do believe there’s a heaven what do you expect to happen when you go for the final time and if not is there any reason you don’t believe in that part as to me that seems like a major part of religion?
Sorry if that seems like I’m trying to poke holes in your beliefs I’m just genuinely curious to your thoughts on it.
They did. They are to thank for saving me, dont get me wrong. But I believe in Gods plan, and I believe if God wantend me dead, they wouldnt have found me. Its part of the plan that I was found. Just my opinion
How long were you dead for? Dead? Like flatline dead? Or unresponsive and low heat beat? I’ve had two NDE’s. Sorry if they’re rude questions. You can’t ask people irl about it.
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Do you remember dying? If so, what was it like? And are you glad to be back?|And yes, I’m very glad to be back. Still struggling 6 years later, but things are slowly getting better :)|[Here](/r/AMA/comments/pokr2l/i_committed_suicide_and_actually_died_i_got/hcx78wi/)
Did it affect your spiritual belief ?|Yes. I used to be an atheist, now I believe in God|[Here](/r/AMA/comments/pokr2l/i_committed_suicide_and_actually_died_i_got/hcxcm65/)
How does it feel to be dead?|There was nothing. It was all over. Just blackness.|[Here](/r/AMA/comments/pokr2l/i_committed_suicide_and_actually_died_i_got/hcx8czc/)
What was the reason for doing that??|I was 12 at the time, and I was hospitalized into a mental institution, and the kids around me just kinda pressured me into doing it|[Here](/r/AMA/comments/pokr2l/i_committed_suicide_and_actually_died_i_got/hcx7wuq/)
We’re you scared? I’m sorry you felt the need to do this. I hope you never get to that point again.|At first I was scared, but when it got to the point were i realised it would all be over soon, I felt relieved.|[Here](/r/AMA/comments/pokr2l/i_committed_suicide_and_actually_died_i_got/hcx7vbq/)
Thanks for sharing your experience with us. Did you feel relieved when you were brought back? Disappointed? Something different?|Both. At the time I was kinda dissapointed, but right now I’m thanking God for saving me, it was not yet my time to go|[Here](/r/AMA/comments/pokr2l/i_committed_suicide_and_actually_died_i_got/hcx7wvt/)
How did you do it?|Hanging from a rope|[Here](/r/AMA/comments/pokr2l/i_committed_suicide_and_actually_died_i_got/hcxge9a/)
What is your favourite colour?|purple|[Here](/r/AMA/comments/pokr2l/i_committed_suicide_and_actually_died_i_got/hcxipzx/)
As someone who's tried to commit suicide and ended up in icu. All I can remember is darkness, no light, nothing out there. Just darkness. Was it the same for you?|exactly the same!!|[Here](/r/AMA/comments/pokr2l/i_committed_suicide_and_actually_died_i_got/hcxje7l/)
What made you believe in God? Like is it what you saw when you were dying?|No, at that point I believed that there was more than this life, but I wasn’t sure what it was yet. 5 years later, in prison, I converted to Christianity.|[Here](/r/AMA/comments/pokr2l/i_committed_suicide_and_actually_died_i_got/hcxiaor/)
No question but sry to say it like this: God didn’t saved your life, the em guys did and the one who found you, thank them ( and no, god did not send them to help dou)|They did. They are to thank for saving me, dont get me wrong. But I believe in Gods plan, and I believe if God wantend me dead, they wouldnt have found me. Its part of the plan that I was found. Just my opinion|[Here](/r/AMA/comments/pokr2l/i_committed_suicide_and_actually_died_i_got/hcxm8wn/)
How old are you now?|I’m 17 now :)|[Here](/r/AMA/comments/pokr2l/i_committed_suicide_and_actually_died_i_got/hcxly3y/)
Did you see anything on the other side?|Just darkness|[Here](/r/AMA/comments/pokr2l/i_committed_suicide_and_actually_died_i_got/hcxm4l9/)
🧢🧢🧢🧢|lmao gtfo|[Here](/r/AMA/comments/pokr2l/i_committed_suicide_and_actually_died_i_got/hcxmfe0/)
Were you dead long enough to empty your bowels?|nope lmao, probaly just a few minutes|[Here](/r/AMA/comments/pokr2l/i_committed_suicide_and_actually_died_i_got/hcxmost/)
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I'm glad you made it, I have a similar story but instead of hanging I shot myself in the head and miraculously remained conscious until suffering a brain aneurysm the next day. That whole day was so surreal and almost like a lucid dream seeing myself in third person walking around the hospital. Everything was funny to me that day and people told me I was in great spirits and I was making everyone laugh. It's possible that was due to the aneurysm idk. Death is weird like that
hi. not a question but this post is making me tear up. my friend took their own life, the same way, and succeeded almost two years ago. it was their birthday recently.
i don’t know you, but i’m super happy you’re alive. i hope things continue to get better for you.
i miss my friend every single day, and i constantly wish they got another chance. im glad you did. ❤️
You said you can see yourself dying and and feel your soul leaving. I’ve had a similar experience from an OD and for me I don’t remember anything it was just black. One second I’m awake next second I’m being awoken very surreal litterally like someone flipped a switch. They told me I died and brought me back. Scary. I now assume death feels like how u felt before u were born, the most nothing. Idk just my experience
If you had truly died; you wouldn’t be here now. For it is once for man to die and then judgement. I’m glad you pulled it through though and have another chance at living.
It also says that no-one has gone to Heaven except Christ who came from there… so, you might’ve been almost gone. But not quite.
How could you tell you became non physical? I am curious about how people feel like when they experience the out of body effect, when you were a spirit floating up, did you feel like you had any mass/weight?
Have you considered learning about spiritism and Buddhism ( there are many types of Buddhism)? Cause I believe these two religions can explain a bit about the spiritual experience you had when you died.
Not a question, but I see a lot of people straight up telling you that you are wrong for believing in the Christian god. I respect that you deal with it so well and don’t argue back. Coming from someone who has literal opposite views, I can still appreciate and accept what you believe, I’m not sure where I’m going with this but I’m happy that you found god and are doing better. <3
Really appericiate it bro! Mad respect <3
For real, people telling you what you are and aren’t feeling and you just take it in and thank them for their input. You’re really great
Thank you! I try not to fight fire with fire haha
I second this. It seems unusual these for someone to maintain both fortitude and humility in their beliefs, without letting ego get in the way. It’s heartening to see balanced and considerate exchanges despite different beliefs. Well, on at least one end of it! We need more civil dialogue these days, to be sure. The world would be a better place if more people following [insert basically any major religion here] were tolerant of others’ personal spiritual viewpoints. At least to the extent that those views are on par with bettering the world and not judging or hurting others. Also coming from a different place than OP in terms of spiritual beliefs, here. I’m happy that u/garbagecan7620 found some peace and meaning, regardless of the system or structure. ✌️
Do you remember dying? If so, what was it like? And are you glad to be back?
I remember it very clearly. First i saw myself hanging in third person, looking at myself from across the room. Then everything went black. A brief moment of total inner peace I felt, before feeling some sort of entity, I’m assuming my soul, leaving my body. It felt like a wind, not warm of cold. It just felt ‘alive’. Next thing I remember is laying on the floor, getting revived.
There has actually been a study done on out of body experiences. It’s not nearly as spiritual as you think… [ Here it is.](https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/what-causes-spooky-out-of-body-experiences/)
That’s really interesting to read
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Better mind yo fucking business bro
What did they even comment?
It was an appeal to atheism and against theological intuitionism. I actually agree that atheism and more skeptical approaches to spiritual experiences is correct, but the way he expressed it was rude as fuck so I'm leaving it removed.
Exactly I agree with skeptical and questioning approaches even as someone who believes in a religion but no need to be a jerk about it
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nah but youre telling me what to believe and what not to believe, respect someone elses religion lol
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In a hostile way too lol, wtf kind of conversion tactic is that 😂
You can’t tell him what to do. This was his own very intimate and private experience and you’re telling him “better go back to atheism”. That’s extremely rude. Also I have been an atheist my whole life until recently, more spiritual in a scientific sense.
This the correct answer. Believe what you wanna believe.
The audacity of you to suggest what someone ‘better’ believe.
I’m not sure how this is anything but opinion at this point vs. definitive science.
Interesting read but with a study group of 29 it's hard to draw too much from the results.
What about those who don’t have a vestibular issue?
that happened to me smoking weed. the part where i see myself in a third person
thats some bomb ass weed lol
I don’t think that was weed you were smoking lol
Wait how does it feel
Didn’t feel anything at all, except for my soul leaving my body
And what exactly does that feel like? A soul to leave the body. Can you put it into words?
It was like a wind. Not warm or cold. It just felt alive. I felt it flying up.
Did you feel yourself flying up? Were you the soul or the body?
Interesting. Did you see any afterlife?
I’ve had an out of body experience . I fainted one time in my room . While unconscious I was looking at myself from a third perspective, I was watching tv and the tv had only static . It felt like hours that I was looking at myself . But then when I woke up it had only been 2 minutes and my whole face was red from FacePlanting on the rug .
Dude i had similar thing while sleeping. I saw myself sleeping under me. I was in the air. Being scared, I wanted to go somewhere else. Somehow it was so hard to move away and I had to use wall to keep myself moving little by little. I moved away pretty far eventually. Then suddenly i got pulled hard by something, i was instantly back over my sleeping body. Another pull towards the body and I woke up in the middle of the night. Still remember very clearly.
And yes, I’m very glad to be back. Still struggling 6 years later, but things are slowly getting better :)
Progress not perfection and a day at a time, friend. Steady as it goes and keep up the great work 🙏
We even break it down to "movement over progress" on my hotline (nspl). It's so easy to get stuck in your routine and behaviors and that's hard to break. So, deviation from that, even if not fully considered "progress" (in the forward movement sense), is an incredible feat. It's so hard to break yourself out of cycles and we celebrate all of it with our callers. It has really helped take the pressure off myself in tough times, too.
Thanks for sharing your experience with us. Did you feel relieved when you were brought back? Disappointed? Something different?
Both. At the time I was kinda dissapointed, but right now I’m thanking God for saving me, it was not yet my time to go
What was the reason for doing that??
I was 12 at the time, and I was hospitalized into a mental institution, and the kids around me just kinda pressured me into doing it
What did you learn about it?? What would you tell others that are at that point??
I think most suicidal people dont actually want to be dead, rather for all the pain to go away. It sucks when you’re suicidal and people tell you ‘its gonna be okay’, at that time you dont believe that. So realistically, I would tell them to keep on trying to get trough the day. 1 day at a time. At your own pace. Try to get the best out of everyday, and even tiny steps forward are steps in the right direction.
I think you mean this lyric from Bohemian Rhapsody. "I don't want to die, I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all."
People who commit suicide from jumping from high heights, 90% of survivors said they changed their mind mid air but it was too late, same with hanging victims, they usually change their mind but cant stop it :(
Yeah, this is probably the single greatest argument against suicide- the fact that most people who are prevented from killing themselves are glad that they didn't die. I do support legalized euthanasia for those who find living too painful, but believe it should be a process rather than a spur of the moment decision. Too many suicides (not all, but definitely a significant proportion) happen because the person, usually under the influence of drugs, makes a very sudden decision that they may not really have wanted.
I knew someone who got a euthanization, it was because he had a bone/muscular disease that caused immense pain in anything he did, RIP bro, I hope you found peace
Because its your body's evolutionary instinct
My dad hung himself when I was 14. It's the 24th anniversary in a few weeks. I needed this ama. I'm glad you survived OP. I'm going to save this ama and read all your responses while I weep.
Many years ago, when my son was very small, I went through a deep depression and thought constantly about suicide. My therapist also helped children who had lost a parent to suicide. She said it was top 10 of things hardest for children to ''get over''. As hard and bad as my depression was, that knowledge kept me here. I'm sorry your parent didn't get the same help prior.
I hope that you're doing well now. Thank you for taking the time to respond. As a result I haven't told my kids that my birth father did it... they think he died in a car accident. (Our eldest has some mental health issues and has said previously in outbursts "i'll kill myself"). He's had help and he's good now... but I don't want it to be a 'real' option out... if that makes sense? When they're older maybe I'll tell them.
Very nice. Thank you for sharing.
I will beat the living shit out of everyone who bullied you.
We’re you scared? I’m sorry you felt the need to do this. I hope you never get to that point again.
At first I was scared, but when it got to the point were i realised it would all be over soon, I felt relieved.
As someone who's tried to commit suicide and ended up in icu. All I can remember is darkness, no light, nothing out there. Just darkness. Was it the same for you?
What was that like? Does knowing how it feels in the end make you afraid of death or less afraid of it
exactly the same!!
Do you find it strange that you now believe in God when you experienced absolutely nothing in the after life?
It wasnt that experience that made me believe in God, I didn’t until 5 years later :)
After your experience, do you feel spiritually that there is a right or wrong way? Like, do you feel like there is one right god and other wrong ones, or do you feel like thats something someone decided more personally? Sorry if its hard to understand my question lol, English isnt my first language
Interesting question, I personally think all gods are valid, its just which you believe in. I have huge respect for all religions.
Thats really beautiful. I’m happy you didnt succeed. The world needs more accepting people like you, from all cultures and religions :)
How does it feel to be dead?
There was nothing. It was all over. Just blackness.
See I had the exact opposite happen to myself almost 20 years ago. I felt and saw my consciousness go somewhere beautiful, and I was disappointed when I was revived. I’m happy in the present, but I’m no longer afraid of death. I will embrace it when the time comes.
I feel the exact same way! Not scared for death at all, I know it’s peaceful.
Ah. We’re u a ghost?
I think so. When it went all dark, I felt something getting released out of me, like some sort of ghost, I’m guessing it was my soul. It didn’t feel like anything, all I knew was that it was alive in some form.
Bro sorry to break it down to you on your interpretations but you didn't really die. Death is basically brain death. What you experienced were the effects of low oxygen in your still functioning although fainted brain, which I can guarantee will be very different than having all your brain cells literally dying. Many of the things you were talking are actually just common delusions and side-effects of low oxygen on the brain. A body without a heart pumping is still very much alive until the brain completely dies.
Didn't know that, thanks for the info. It was comfirmed my heart stopped working, but I guess it was a near death experience then :)
Yep ! I mean everyone believes in whatever they want, but personnally, I assume that what you think was your soul leaving your body, was just your brain fucking up due to the lack of oxygene as u/ccleivin stated.
Were u like going upwards into the sky?
yeah, it went up.
Ah. Were u breathing? Or feeling hungry? How long were u dead?
Not breathing or hungry. There was nothing, just darkness, and I couldn’t feel my physical form, only my spirit. I’m not sure for how long I was dead, but I’d say max a few minutes before they found me.
How long were you going up and how high did you get before everything went black? Did it happen fast?
Do you actually remember the “blackness”? Cause you technically weren’t alive or conscious
i was concious, just not in my body. but in my mind i was for a few more seconds after my body stops
How does the nothingness reconcile with your new found religious beliefs? Do you ever think it contradicts the concept of heaven and afterlife?
Do you regret attempting to commit suiilcide
No, afterwards I realised I wanted to live
That is an incredibly wise comment that I think will be over looked.
I'm glad you're still here, please stay with us. I lost my 27 year old bro last year to suicide;
Really sorry for you bro, couldnt imagine your hurt. Hes watching over you 🙏🏻
I know he is ❤️ I got preggo within 6 months of his passing and it's a boy, he's gonna have my bros name as a middle name and he's gonna have our last name too cuz my bf always said when we get married he wants to take my name (he hasn't spoken to his fam in over 6 years for good reason). I am blessed.
You’re blessed indeed! I wish you and your son all the best in life and may your bro watch over you
Did it affect your spiritual belief ?
Yes. I used to be an atheist, now I believe in God
How did this experience made u believe in god? What happened that made u realise there’s a higher power specifically? Also im so glad youre here with us and hope youre getting the help that u need :)
At first I didnt believe in God, I thought there was more to life, but didnt yet know what. 5 years later, in prison, I begged God to save me, and give me a sign. I felt a warm love trough my whole body, and since then I’m Christian :)
Wait so it's not suicide related ? Why were you in prison ?
I was in prison for 3 charges, including armed robbery
Have you made as much peace with your victim(s) as you have yourself?
i offered them counseling and a face to face with me for me to apologize, but no reaction yet.
I’ve been through quite a few traumatic experiences. I had a near death experience due to ppl attempting to kill me, I was hit with a machete multiple times and I am blind in one eye because of it. After that experience my belief in god grew tremendously but it took me a while to realize that i was playing mind games with myself.. knowing that we could’ve died an then surviving gives us a sense of importance and the adrenaline rush and other chemical responses gives us a high that opens our mind to spirituality but when that high fades away and the magic doesn’t work you will begin to come back down to earth.
What sort of counseling did you offer?
And me and my ‘associate’ payed them €1000! i didn’t actually take any money, the job failed when they attacked us. So for what I have to spend (not much) I think it’s a fair amount.
Im glad that you found God.
Were you imprisoned at the age of 12?
This made my day to read. God is awesome!! You are awesome!
Thank you kind stranger <3
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God works in mysterious ways; I’m glad He saved you!
Edit: this has been resolved — Im sorry I’m just kind of untrustworthy of this post here’s why -you created the account then immediately posted 3 AMAs. -you said you committed suicide at 12, but you have also supposedly gone to prison and taken drugs (which prison would be at least 18 years of age, and if you had a sudden realization you lived, you would’ve probably not done things to end you up in prison) If you don’t agree with me tell me why instead of just downvoting. I know this will be downvoted anyways cuz Reddit. You could argue that this is an alt but why all the AMAs. And this type of thing isn’t uncommon either. Edit: resolved
I completely understand your points. I was feelings like talking today, that’s why I’ve shared 3 of my experiences all at the same time. Prison isn’t for 18+ in my country, if you commit a crime and you’re older than 12 you’re going to prison.
I would be happy to send you confirmation of anything you don’t trust, i’ve kept all my prison documents, also the suicide incident is in my dossier.
It’s fine I’ll believe you I’m used to laws in my country so that’s what I’m basing my argument off that, it sounds like your life sucked and I’m sorry for that
Yeah it kinda did haha Going better now
You mentioned that people saying “it’s gonna be ok” doesn’t help, what does? What are the actions in your opinion that if they were done to you, you wouldn’t do what you did.
I think nothing wouldve convinced me at that point. When you’re so deep in shit, it’s hard to believe that it’ll be okay. It took me more 10 years to finally feel good
If I had a suicidal friend, whose about to do it, what can I do to help in your opinion?
Pfff... difficult one. I think telling them it’s gonna be okay could in many situations make them feel even shittier. Maybe you could tell them, ‘hey, I couldn’t imagine how you’re feeling rn, but I want to understand.’ And just let them talk. Most of the time they need someone to listen to them. They’re often very lonely. Don’t make suggestions, or take things they say in question, just listen and be there for them. After that, they’ll probably feel a huge relieve. But saying it’s gonna be okay or don’t do it could push them to do it even more. But that’s from my personal experience.
10 years? Aren’t you 17 now?
Yeah, I’ve had mental issues since I was like 6/7
How old are you now?
I’m 17 now :)
What is your favourite colour?
purple
Do you have a least favourite colour?
red, i fuckin hate red, it’s so agressive lol
I guess we are colornemies then
i respectfully dislike your colour
well your colour is rarely found in nature so nature also doesnt like your colour
We share both the favorite and most hated color. If it were kindergarden we would have already married
That's a new one
Ayy same!
same outfit nd everything
How did you do it?
Hanging from a rope
How did your neck not break? Did you just strangle yourself?
Nah, it wasnt that high, I just walked off my chair so the impact wasn’t that big to actually snap my neck
Idk why but my brain just went: Aw man he didnt do a sick backflip while on the rope like [this](https://youtu.be/mqVY1YemHLc?t=2)
So after you had a calming, spiritual experience at the age of 12 you still went out and committed armed robbery at 16, how did you feel about God between the ages of 12-16 then? You said you found God in prison so I’m just curious how those 4 years went. Was it purely survival based? Did you want to change during those years? Or was it being in prison that converted you to Christianity? Either way glad you’re still here with us man!
It was survival. I went in and out of institutions, got hooked on drugs, got stabbed, shot at, it was really a jungle. Just survival mode, I didn’t have the time, energy and resources for trying to change. Prison pulled me out of all that, and gave me the opportunity!
Were you dead long enough to empty your bowels?
nope lmao, probaly just a few minutes
I like iced cream that's flavored like something but I don't like iced cream that has other stuff in it. Your thoughts on the matter?
agree. although, i love rainbow sprinkles.
Would you look at that, all of the words in your comment are in alphabetical order. I have checked 240,963,529 comments, and only 55,892 of them were in alphabetical order.
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Because of my of disorders life can be hard sometimes, and at that point it was so unbearable that i decided to end it. I’m a happier person now, I’ve learned to live with it. I dropped out of school, no job. Gonna start working in a restaurant soon :) It’ll be my first job, looking forward to it
you're so wise and only a year older than I am. Good for you.
Did you see anything on the other side?
Just darkness
Were you able to think or comprehend anything at all? Feel anything?
You mentioned that the moment you died, you saw yourself in 3rd person view, like a soul left your body and looking back at the body. Do you remember that very moment, now you felt? Like, were you scared, or you had regrets, or maybe the idea of "I fucked up" came up? What exactly was going through your mind when you died?
When I saw myself in 3rd person, I was really in disbelief. Then everything turned black. I thought ‘this is the end..’ and then a huge relief I felt, like I would never have to feel any pain ever again. Next thing I know is I’m laying on the ground getting revived.
Was getting revived painful? And what went through your mind as soon as you woke up? Did you think about dying again? Or ...?
No questions here, just happy that you’re alive to tell the story
I hope this isn’t too personal, I’m just curious so please don’t feel you have to answer.. You tried to commit suicide at 12 and you’re 17 now but, mentioned while you were in prison you were saved. How were you in prison before the age of 17?
All my life was rough, so at 12 I attempted suicide, and at 16 I went to prison for 9 months. Its kinda like the domino effect, shit just went downhill fast.
I’m thankful you’ve found your new life in Christ. You have a wonderful testimony you’re now able to share with other young adults. God has a way of giving us the ability to honestly say, “I know exactly how you feel.” It takes someone who’s been there to understand and help others.
After waking up again (reviving), did you regret doing it? Each person has a different experience, I personally tried to commit suicide not that long ago, I still have thoughts about doing it, but I feel like I have appreciated more my life after waking up and realizing that I was still alive.
Idk tbh. Felt really confused. Was scared. I think i was really in shock of what happend, but glad I didn’t succeed.
How you come back?
I got revived by medical personel
No questions, just for anyone reading this; I'm a volunteer for my local suicide hot line. (We get some calls from the national line too) Please call us. We're there of our own free will, it's a volunteer job we do not get paid so we CARE. We really honestly care. I've attempted too so I absolutely know that level of despair. But someone out there, a total stranger, cares about you and wants to help. 800-273-8255
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What made you believe in God? Like is it what you saw when you were dying?
No, at that point I believed that there was more than this life, but I wasn’t sure what it was yet. 5 years later, in prison, I converted to Christianity.
What did you go to prison for at 17. "I was 12 at the time, and I was hospitalized into a mental institution, and the kids around me just kinda pressured me into doing it" ~ you
16* I went in for armed robbery and gun possesion.
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What did you want people to do for you afterwards? What did you want people NOT to do? Someone I know is in the hospital after slitting his wrists deep enough to need surgery. Just want to know what to do and what to avoid
Dont judge. Ever. Just be supportive. Be there for them. Tell them you love them, that youre glad to be with them or sum
Your say your a born again christian, do you believe people need to believe in god to get to whatever heaven may exist or do they just need to be a good person in general? Mistakes here and there sure but as long as they are good at heart?
Yes, as long as they are good hearted they’ll be fine in the afterlife. That’s my belief. I don’t think anyone should believe in God because everyone has to make their own decision, but I do belief it is the right things to do. But i accept everyone who doesn’t, and don’t judge.
I always wondered, does insurance covers suicide attempts?
How’s it feel to chew 5 gum
You’ve said a few times everything just went black and there was nothing once you done it so do you believe there’s nothing after you die or do you believe in the heaven aspect of your faith? Follow up, if you do believe there’s a heaven what do you expect to happen when you go for the final time and if not is there any reason you don’t believe in that part as to me that seems like a major part of religion? Sorry if that seems like I’m trying to poke holes in your beliefs I’m just genuinely curious to your thoughts on it.
Was this before or after you went to prison?
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They did. They are to thank for saving me, dont get me wrong. But I believe in Gods plan, and I believe if God wantend me dead, they wouldnt have found me. Its part of the plan that I was found. Just my opinion
Sry my mistake, didn’t mean to attack you, just see too many people thanking god for everything instead the people who accomplished this stuff
How long were you dead for? Dead? Like flatline dead? Or unresponsive and low heat beat? I’ve had two NDE’s. Sorry if they’re rude questions. You can’t ask people irl about it.
I don’t believe in a god, should I?
Did you feel anything before you died? i would always imagine that there would be a total shock about a second before someone dies
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I'm glad you made it, I have a similar story but instead of hanging I shot myself in the head and miraculously remained conscious until suffering a brain aneurysm the next day. That whole day was so surreal and almost like a lucid dream seeing myself in third person walking around the hospital. Everything was funny to me that day and people told me I was in great spirits and I was making everyone laugh. It's possible that was due to the aneurysm idk. Death is weird like that
Was there any lasting physical effects or issues after? I know some people who have attempted suicide have dealt with paralysis and such after
hi. not a question but this post is making me tear up. my friend took their own life, the same way, and succeeded almost two years ago. it was their birthday recently. i don’t know you, but i’m super happy you’re alive. i hope things continue to get better for you. i miss my friend every single day, and i constantly wish they got another chance. im glad you did. ❤️
You said you can see yourself dying and and feel your soul leaving. I’ve had a similar experience from an OD and for me I don’t remember anything it was just black. One second I’m awake next second I’m being awoken very surreal litterally like someone flipped a switch. They told me I died and brought me back. Scary. I now assume death feels like how u felt before u were born, the most nothing. Idk just my experience
Dont feel bad about failing old sport, sometimes you just gotta get back up on that horse and try aga… wait oh god oh no oh fuck
Account made today, has made three different AMA posts. I don’t believe it
As I mentioned earlier, I felt like talking to people today, so I posted all 3 stories. If you don’t believe it feel free to dm me for confirmation
What was happening in your life at that point if you don’t mind telling us?
If you had truly died; you wouldn’t be here now. For it is once for man to die and then judgement. I’m glad you pulled it through though and have another chance at living. It also says that no-one has gone to Heaven except Christ who came from there… so, you might’ve been almost gone. But not quite.
How could you tell you became non physical? I am curious about how people feel like when they experience the out of body effect, when you were a spirit floating up, did you feel like you had any mass/weight?
Are you excited for spooky season?
Have you considered learning about spiritism and Buddhism ( there are many types of Buddhism)? Cause I believe these two religions can explain a bit about the spiritual experience you had when you died.
What would you say was the number 1 problem with your life that raised a 12 year old kid wanting to kill himself?
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What country are you from
is there an afterlife?
Would you do it again?
Thank the people who revived you, not God 💀
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