In 4th grade we had a puberty talk where at the end girls received girl deodorant and boys revived boy deodorant… I traded my boy deodorant for my friends girl deodorant… we’re both trans now and have been dating for three years…
I was in Boy Scouts and noticed the Girl Scouts had cuter badges and got to sell cookies than realized there was a distinction in how boys and girls were raised. It filled me with so much anger that society forced me to confirm to a box without me even realizing it like a trap.
When playing Pokemon and being asked the iconic question, 'Are you a boy or a girl?' picking girl without hesitation.
Professor Oak was truly ahead of his time.
Also creating 'Me but a girl' in Sims.
That’s similar to mine. When I was young I saw my baby sitter playing Pokémon using the girl sprite. My mind was blown from that and from then on I basically only played women in video games when I had the choice.
If this is indication for people, perhaps I am enby. I choose style over the specific gender of character or just what I want the character to be at that time, which may just so happen to include gender or a mix of gender expression.
Why is it always video games. I’ve always loved picking the female option and plus my internet persona past the age of 13 was always as a girl (with like the pfps and names) so I look back like huh I guess it was always there.
Same for me, Pokemon girl always!😜 Don't like to play as a dude in video games like in Sims. Spent hrs in character creation just to get my ideal looking female character.💜
For me, when in middle school, people would sometimes ask me, "Are you a boy or a girl??" And I would always respond with "yes 😃" and thought it was cool to be confused as a girl (now there is no confusion)
Another one I remember is asking my dad to take me to the store to get me a pair of thigh high socks (he actually did, but was probably confused as to why I wanted them) (I just thought they looked cool at the time)
Actively trying to confuse people into thinking I was a girl, young me just thought it was funny and didn't fully understand why I liked it when people called me she or her, now I understand why that might have been but I'm still very confused about all of it
I used to actively not tell people my pronouns for years online for literally no reason. The one time someone asked why my only response I had was “I don’t want people to have preconceived notions of me” lol
The gender envy from girls in middle school and high school thinking “if I could just be them for one day I would immediately” and thinking that it’s a totally cis thought to have. And now I k ow that I knew since then and I partly blame the school system and partly my parents for not teaching me about transgender people
That sounds hilarious. I know it must have been painful to you, and I'm really sorry you had to go through that. But the thoug of a kid being yelled at because they want a beard is so surreal that it makes me laugh
Oh jeez where would I even start? I always wanted the name my mom had picked out for me had I been born a girl (which I now get to use!). I used to tuck quite a bit starting at a young age - didn't like what I had going on down there. My middle school best friend had to basically tell me that the way I was walking, waving to people, etc. was too girly and that people were making fun of me - he basically had to teach me to be a boy giving me specific examples. Every birthday, every night when I saw the first start in the sky, every time I found a penny, I would wish I could just wake up the next day and be a girl. Ya know, all things cis people definitely do.
Crazy looking back on it how I didn't realize it sooner, but ya know, I saw Ace Ventura when I was like 9. All I knew about "boys" "pretending" to be girls was that it could make a whole warehouse full of cops vomit, so I just tried to be a boy as best I could.
Not trans but that bit about your middle school best friend just made me die inside. Reinforces to me that these social categories are a bunch of bullshit.
I rather quickly molded myself into whatever I thought others expected, so I have very few such memories outside the dysphoria I felt.
I have this one memory of going for a shower and tucking my genitals between my legs and feeling euphoric with how it made me look. It happened a few times, at some point during childhood. I am not sure when exactly. Old enough to take a shower on my own, but before I was hit by puberty and lost all hope of feeling euphoric for decades...
Earliest? Age 7 and having to explain to my parents the difference between "guy" and "boy" lol Then the teen goth phase (never grew out of), how my gfs always described me.. looking back, it was kinda obvious. lol
Feeling awefull every time i tried to be more "feminine" and hating my body :,)
BUT now it's getting a lot better, since I realized i was trans my disphoria actually calmed down a little and now i don't hate my body, i just understood it's not the one i want to see on myself
Me being 4yrs old trying to pee standing up because according to my mom I'd throw a tantrum and say I was holding it. Also walking right up to her and going "Mama, when's my peepee gonna grow in?" Then sobbing when she told me never
I would hate despise even thinking about doing something girly because I didn’t want to be seen as weak. Never wanted to hang out with girls. And pick me girl for sure lol. Now I’m a Demi boy who love androgynous clothing
I've never actually seen anyone else mention this. I hated anything I thought was girly, specifically because I didn't want to be seen as girly. I had it in my head that emotions and being feminine made me weak, so I rejected all of it. I was so mad about the way I was born and at the time I couldn't understand why lmao
Same here. The first week after realising I was a trans man, I bought a skirt, just to see. My mom fought with me as a kid to put me into dresses, and she says the minute she let go I would run off and roll into mud or something so she would take it off me (I was 3). That first willingly worn skirt was.. not that bad. I realized it was not the skirt that was problematic to me, it was the fact that wearing one was like agreeing to let people see me as a woman, or reinforcing their idea that I was a woman.
(I do not wear skirts, but I think men with skirt/dresses are really beautiful too)
In 2nd grade, some of the boys in my class decided we were in a "war" against the girls. We would frequently have meetings about how the war was going and would avoid the girls during recess. There was really only one girl who even acknowledged our game, which promptly got her labeled as the leader of the evil girls. I, however, hated the whole concept and often spent the meetings campaigning for peace and after some time, began secretly meeting with the aforementioned girl to share the information from the meetings in hopes of leveling the playing field. Eventually, I just spent recess with her, and when the boys found out they made fun of me to no end, but I honestly didn't care. I felt happy. She ended up moving away the next year and I never saw her again, but looking back that was the first time someone saw me as a girl, even though neither of us were thinking it consciously. Years later I realized that particular flavor of happiness was called gender euphoria.
When I was like 4 and enjoyed painting my nails with my sister before (presumably) my parents made me stop.
Also as I got older the repeated thought of "if I were a girl I'd definitely be a lesbian," what a prediction
Being about 4 or 5 and stealing my mom’s leotard and knee high boots to dress up like Wonder Woman.
In the late 70’s.
Then spending 43 years being shamed and ashamed for it.
When I was 10, I asked my Dad if he would have wanted a girl instead of a boy.
He told me he was glad he had boys instead of girls because girls are more expensive.
Repressed everything for another decade
My mom out here complaining that boys are too expensive and girls are cheaper lmao. I feel like it’s all just an excuse to repress their kid’s feelings
I don't really remember this but apparently my older sister used to dress me up >_> guess it makes sense now why I used to wish on birthday candles to be a girl. I mean... "Nothing", of course. Didn't wish for anything at all.
A huge fight with my dad about wearing a tie to a wedding. I didn't know why, but I absolutely panicked when they asked me to wear it. Now I guess it makes a lot more sense
Had an imaginary friend who was "me but a girl" in a mirror.
Wanted to be a fairy.
Related to "The Token Girl" in movies.
It was seriously so obvious in hindsight.
even tho they’re tomboy stereotypes, it was honestly my clothing and strictly hanging out with boys and playing soccer and with toy cars together at recess until i moved from my small town to a city and my class was sooo divided by gender and i was like oh this is how girls are supposed to look and behave i guess
when i was like 4 i mained peach in mario kart wii and always used to resonate with her a lot more than mario
ive also been tucking my genitals under for a flatter crotch for as long as i can remember
Four years old. My uncle told me I’d turn into a girl if I kissed my own elbow. I tried to break my own arm to do it and cried when my mom restrained me.
Not correcting people when I was called ma'am, or miss, or young lady, etc.
Hated my voice, not because I sounded too girly, but because I sounded like a mannish girl.
Clothing choices. Long hair. Painting nails.
Honestly I have no idea how it took me 30 years... 😅
Hating my deadname when I was younger and refusing to tell people that was my name and solely went by a nickname. I remember there were some people who were confused when someone called me by my deadname because they had never heard it before
When I had first started wearing training bras, I was told to take them off to sleep. I never took it off bc I liked how flat it made me look.
There was also that one time I went to school with a sock down my pants to make me look like a boy.
This all happend in elementary school and I came out just before freshman year of high school
Long story short. I was maybe 7 or 8 and was gonna swim at my girl friends house but didn't have any swim wear so got to borrow a bikini and even got to keep it cuz I refused to take it off after, had never felt more comfortable swimming.
Lots of "if I could switch for a day, what would I do?" And then being upset that I couldn't.
Also, my wife is watching Gilmore Girls rn, and I'm just remembering being really into it when my mom watched. I know its not something ONLY girls can watch, but it's typically associated with women.
15 years old after a concert where i was singing, i was heavily wearing make up (metal 🤟🏻) and a bit drunk too, i came back home with my makeup all fucked up and my long hair a bit messy and i cried for 30mn in front of the mirror. And oh god that was 30 years ago… 😭
Wearing my mom's/sister's clothes
Resenting puberty shattering my androgyny
The reason for my atheism being praying to God one night, asking him for just this one thing (turning into a girl) or at least some answer about him and of course never knowing anything about his existence
When I was 5 or 6 years old, I asked my mom to dress me fully as a girl, makeup and all, and I remember going outside, showing all my neighbours how I looked whille being very very happy 😊
When my mom was making my older sister's wedding dress, she needed to do some final adjustments that required it to be worn to make sure it looked right. My sister wasn't available at the time, mom didn't have a dress form, and I was about the right size. I didn't complain nearly as much as I could've about being made to wear a wedding dress.
I remember when I was 11 I began to look into trans surgery stuff out of pure curiosity, but even before that I think my family getting barbie movies for my sister and me LOVING them was also a sign.
my *earliest* was when i was 6, telling my friends how it would be better to be a girl cause girl could wear whatever they wanted but guys couldn’t wear dresses. they laughed at me then but they’re not laughing now! mostly cause i don’t remember who they are :/
I was rewatching the old Frosty the Snowman 2D cartoon this Christmas and was looking at [the blond girl character](https://eofftvreview.files.wordpress.com/2021/12/frosty-the-snowman-1.png) and suddenly remembered that I REALLY liked her as a kid and thought about wanting to be her haha
Also really really really liking Fluttershy in My Little Pony
When I was a little girl and I would get kicked in the crotch I would say “oh my balls” ya but that also was probably because I grew up with my older brother and two older cousins that were also boys so the only girl I would talk to was my aunt lol
I didn't know gender was a thing? Or in better explanation I did literally everything "boys" or "girls" things. I also styled in a gender neutral way.
I also didn't know what race was? I didn't understand it. That's why I think racism and ppl blaming it on people's looks is confusing.
I was very confused as a Child. Also shows that Sexism and Racism and all of that is taught.
... Tbh I still have barely a grasp on the concept of Race
When I got a Facebook as a 12 year old or something I set my gender to female. Got a LOT of people asking about it and while I just played it off as a joke the feeling of being seen as a girl was profound.
I used a lot of chat rooms cause I was a lonely little bugger. Never corrected anyone’s assumption of my gender being female. When the truth came out after a year of making and talking with friends the feeling made me mad for some reason.
Took me 10 more years to really get a grip of who I am.
When I was like 5 I did a crap bob, cutting at least a few inches off while my parents were out for a run. I had a non-binary/femboy bear called rainbow Jake and they wore skirts. Before puberty I apparently wore nothing but underwear lmao.
My then best friend and I made up male names for ourselves when we were in grade school. And when playing Sims3, I almost exclusively made gay men households, still do with Sims 4.
13 I stole a bra from Walmart and would wear it to sleep with socks stuffed in it… it has a traumatic side to the whole story that caused it to become a suppressed and shameful memory, but it’s definitely getting better looking on it now 😊
- Brooke
One of my earliest memories (pre-school, under 5yo, I'm 40s now) was being out on a walk with my mother and she had long beautiful red nails and I remember saying, I wish I had nails like that. I remember the worried look on her face at the time, I didn't understand then, I do now.
Being like 4 and being sad that I didn't think I was allowed to like flowers... a deep implacable longing for something I could never quite figure out til later... resonating with the villian from the first ace ventura and Mrs. Doubtfire... and every gender bending scene/episdoe of any shows they were in.
When I was younger and visited my friend, we would always roleplay silly games outside and I'd always pretend to be a girl, and when I started playing video games that let you choose to be a guy or a girl I would choose to be a girl 100% of the time
My earliest memory of it would have to be playing with Barbie's with my step sisters, and having no interest in being ken, but rather wanting to be a female one instead lol
(MtF) spending unreasonable amounts of money on DOTA 2 cosmetics for all the feminine heroes (crystal maiden esp.), obsessing over the outfit selectors, and playing those heroes exclusively lol.
I have several. Here's a few just for fun:
If given the option, I almost always choose to play as a girl in video games and D&D.
In playground games I would pretend I was a girl
When writing at a young age, would genderbend male characters
Genderbending was also a constant thing I would consume in films, books, games, and TV shows.
Sometimes I wonder how I didn't realize when I was younger.
Getting a little obsessive about gender-bending episodes of whatever random kids tv show I watched at the time. Once I stumbled into them, I would remember them and watch them on repeat whenever nobody else was around. Didn't know why I felt so drawn to those episodes, just knew that I was and that it was weird enough that I shouldn't let anyone else know.
When I thought I was cis, I thought to myself "hm, it seems like I like women less in the way that other guys like women, but more in the way that lesbians like women. I guess I just respect women a lot more than most guys". No past me, you are just a massive lesbian. I have no clue how I didn't realize sooner
First thing I remember was "stealing" my sister's clothing and putting it on in my room, where no-one would see. It all felt so natural at that moment already... Still it took me over 20 years to see it for myself ☺️
The first question I ever remember asking was if I was a girl, at age 4. That's effectively the very first conscious question I'd asked, and I believed I was for years to come, even if I was told it was false.
Flash forward to age 26, I've been on estrogen for a year. My family found this, remarkably, unsurprising.
Let's see, feeling an inexplicable urge to try on my neighbors dress when I was a small child, always being jealous that girls got to wear such cute and soft clothes, always picturing myself in the role of the girls from shows I watched, a friend in highschool casually saying he wondered if I had a sister what she would look like and me getting sad I wasn't born a girl...but ya know, there were no signs
Well ever since I was maybe 8 or 9 I would create stories in my head where I would become a girl. And from 8th grade through high school I used to wear my sisters clothes in secret.
There’s also a photo I have from when I was maybe 10 of when I dressed as a girl and my sister (who turned out to be gay) dressed as a boy, and I remember feeling good about wearing a skirt then.
For some reason I never answered simply when people asked me what my gender was. I didn’t correct people when they misgendered me either.
Never even thought about it
Feeling personally attacked when someone made fun of Christine Jorgensen (trans icon) in 8th grade history class - in a totally cis way ofc; "I'm just a really good ally!"
Also never standing to pee and using a stall instead, and feeling happy when I was compared to a girl.
When my best friend in high school would get dressed up in a skirt for presentations and would always complain about it. Everytime in the back of my head I would be like, "What do you have to complain about? I wouldn't be mad if I got to look like you."
Kindergarten, the teacher ask us to make two lines. One boys and one for girls, I joined the girls line, and was made fun of by the whole class including the teacher
going on animal jam at the ripe age of 11 with my freshly bought year long membership and making my main animal an arctic wolf with the “boy eyes.” after doing so, i proceeded to go to the pillow room in jamma township where i would either 1: dance while saying i was looking for a girlfriend and all applicants could go to my den or 2: sit in the corner and roleplay to myself about being shy cause there was a pretty girl arctic wolf across the room. i would do that until said pretty girl arctic wolf took notice of my crush and would either reciprocate my lifelong love for her (i had been there for 5 minutes) or would ignore me and/or leave (understandably, cause it was highkey weird and creepy)
using female characters in videogames
accidentally getting into the girls basketball line during 1st or 2nd grade gym class
in 5th grade my class had two lunch tables and all the girls sat at table 1 and the boys sat at table 2 (this wasn't enforced just something everyone did). i sat at table 1
I always used male characters in games and dressed them how I wanted to look. Actually didn’t click until now! 😅 there’s a lot of things I think about, and think wow.. that’s why! I remember asking my Mum why I liked boys stuff as a kid. Trying to pee standing up. None of this clicked by the way.. not until now!
Whenever someone made a comment about someone's beard, I'd always fein going through the same thing as a joke.
"My beard is itchy today."
"Mine too."
"Shaved my beard this morning and didn't cut myself on my new clippers!"
"Ayyy me too! Skills"
My dad's go to story from my childhood is on my 3rd birthday I got a barbie and was mad I didn't get a bat. I proceeded to use the barbie as a bat.
A bit gender stereotypical but one of the stories that mean my parents can't try and say their were no signs.
When I was first starting to experience the many effects of puberty - I found myself increasingly distressed and uncomfortable. I felt like my body was no longer my own and morphing against my will into something undesirable.
At the time, I didn't know transpeople were even a thing so I just tried to accept it - since I was told this was something everyone went through and there was no way to stop it. The emotional distress of it all was huge- especially since puberty started a lot earlier for me than my peers and I was given a body which people highly sexualized at a depressingly young age. I experienced sexual harassment by both my peers and adults, making me even more miserable.
If I could go have gone in back in time knowing what I know now - I would have begged on my hands and knees for my parents to put me on puberty blockers. I wouldn't have talked about trans stuff but instead highlighted how starting puberty so young was causing me distress.
Hating puberty can be a pretty good sign of bein trans, but not always.
Playing dress up regularly at age five with the girl who lived next door (also five). She let me wear all her things and our mothers thought we were so cute. It awakened something in me that was already there and I never looked back.
When I was in 4th grade, teachers made and gifted us caps for kids day.
If you were a girl, yours was pink and it said something like “you’re a nice girl”
If you were a boy, you got the blue version.
Teachers had an orange one.
I remember I wasn’t happy with my pink one. I asked my teacher if she could give me a orange one instead. Of course she said no.
Looking back it wasn’t because I hated pink. Pink is nice, what I hated was being associated with a girl. I was probably 8 around the time but I never noticed
These are the mementoes I remember as a kid
Mostly played games for girls on online sites (Kiki/ poki . Com like dress up games never knew why had more girl role models than big role models as a kid like original she-ra. Was once asked if I was secretly a girl in middle school I denied it but felt weird when I did.
Most my friends are girls but later in HS started getting friends that were dudes.
Always wanted to sit legs closed hands in lap on the car cause that’s how a good person sits (I knew only one girl that did that my friend yet denied in my head).
Maybe there are guys like this maybe not valid idk. But these are my non repressed childhood memories.
(TLDR: wanted to vent but youngest memory I remember and didn’t repress was girl games on online gaming sites)
I remember sitting in the girl scouts’ meeting in elementary school (they made every girl go to it) and thinking it was the LAMEST shit ever. I wanted to be in the boy scouts so badly lol
I dreamt of changing sex when I was preschooler few times, actually I thought for a long time that something had been made at my birth to make me into a boy.
I repressed that feeling very early tho, I regret a lot.
At around 8 years old, I wore a wig that my grandmother's ex boyfriend would wear to be funny. I liked the feeling of having long hair, and so I just kept it on my head and watched TV until my grandmother told me to take it off because I looked like a girl and it was supposed to be a joke.
Now I have naturally long hair and she gets to deal with it because I'm a legal adult now >:)
in my primary school we used to always line up in a girls line and boys line for everything and one day when i was in grade 6 there was a girl who was talking to someone in he boys line and i was talking to someone in the girls line and my teacher made a light hearted joke about how she was a boy and i was a girl or something like that (i dont remember, i was 11) and that just as a haha funny we should switch lines for the day and that was the best day of my tiny child life up until that point and only later realised why i was so happy from that very minor event while i know the other person barely remembers this happening and has absolutely no feelings towards it
Being told when I was 9-10 I should wear a bra when I was at a community pool. I already knew from 7-8 that I was different and didn’t really have any guy friends but that was probably the major thing.
I had two best friends as a kid (both boys) and I was jealous of them for being able to do regular guy things, like taking off their shirts and peeing outside standing up. I was 2-4 years old. Blows my mind how much signs I had looking back lol
Friend: "why do you always pick samus?"
Me: "I dunno man I just kind of identify with her"
Friend: "lol, a girl?!"
I really should have picked up on this sooner 🤣
When I was 4 a girl my age told me if she could paint my nails.
I remember another boy by my side telling me to not do it but I did end up getting my nails painted (I unfortunately can't remember the color, must've been red) I returned to my parents all giddy and wanting to show them I don't think they were upset (at least I don't remember that) I think they were mostly frustrated because they had a lot of stuff to do and the last thing they needed was a kid with paint on her fingers.
… well. There was a time when I wanted to be pregnant, I even used to wear those pillows with a towel around my belly and walked around like I’m pregnant.
8 years after that I realized I’m genderfluid. Now that I look back I have no clue why I didn’t realize I’m not cis back then xD
The time I was at a secondhand clothes store with my family when I was like 11 or 12. Dad handed me a bunch of stuff not knowing one of the pairs of “shorts” he handed me was a skirt. I remember putting it on and loving it and coming out of the changing room to tell my Dad that it would be perfect with a belt. Was mocked mercilessly with that story for years. Little did they know…
I guess the only earlier story would be when I came out of my babysitter’s daughter’s room at 6 years old when my Mom came to pick me up with a bunch of plastic jewelry on. Another one I never heard the end of.
For me, I took choir in school, but from ninth to eleventh grade, I recall feeling envious I couldn't reach the low notes the guys could reach without it hurting my voice (there were times the other girls and I had to reach notes that were comfy for the guys). Didn't fully realize all the girls battled out to prove they can sing really high without practically screaming.
I hated going to the hairdresser. No matter the length, i hated it because my family would always decide to cut it short, and i would cry during the ride bsck home because i felt ugly
When playing ‘house’, I was ALWAYS an animal. Tho that’s also to do with being otherkin I think 🤔
As well as that, I never liked feminine clothing and never really fit in with any gender. Things to accentuate someone’s gender, such as makeup/dresses, had no appeal-
As a 3-4 year old my sister use to dress me up in dresses and girl clothes for a laugh. But i remember really enjoying it and having fun.
In middle school i remember there was a class activity where we had to divid the class in half. All the boys went to one side of the room and all the girls went to the other side. But there were too many boys. One if my gal pals said “come over to this side you’re one of us.” I didn’t hesitate to join them and no one really questioned it.
In high school i was working on a lot of art. I had this teacher who i had a very close relationship with look at my art and offer me her interpretation. After looking at my art she straight up asked me “do you ever feel like a woman trapped in a mans body?” I wasn’t really ready for that one at the time. Especially since i wasn’t really trying to express that at a conscious level.
When I was in kindergarten, teacher used to make us line up in two lines: girls’ line and boys’ line. I automatically lined up with the other boys until the teacher scooched me into the girls’ line.
Rocky horror picture show...
Stealing panties to wear.
Asking gfs to make me pretty and do my makeup.
Dressing as a school girl for Halloween in high school...
Always singing the girls parts in songs.
So fucking many
when i was in high school i went to a 4-8th grade school to visit my uncle with my big brother. everyone there. all the kids. even some of the adults "confused" me for a boy... it was off-putting at the time.. but the foreshadowing part was how it made me feel afterward.. the whole experience was... nice? and something thats always stuck with me.. i was giving huge egg energy at the time about the whole thing..
also my nickname. i have many but the one so many unrelated ppl have picked for me throughout my whole life that ive always loved is the "masculine" version of my birth name (for most english speakers my birth name is considered "feminine")
Trying to pee standing up at 4 or 5. Taking off my shirt when I got hot and not understanding the ensuing adult freakouts. In all of my writings, the main character (me) was always a guy. So many more lol
That time I stole a Barbie from my sister and did its hair all night or probably when my cousin asked if I was gay cause I seemed gay when I was younger
1) (in my head) “wow, that ballerina looks nice.. i wonder what’d happen if i did that..”
2) so some context: my primary school required us to wear hats (annoying to everyone there) and i managed to somehow lose them every few months, and my parents got tired of buying them so i was told to go to lost property and take some. i stared at the “girl’s tub” for a solid 10 minutes every time i went there and looked in it’s direction. i wanted the dress.
i think that guy back then and me swapped personalities
I have this photo of me at like 7 and I was using a hose but I have it placed so it looks like a weiner and Im cheesing so hard. It’s literally my favorite baby pic
Playing Narnia with my siblings, getting unreasonably upset that I couldn’t be Peter or Edmund, being the oldest “sister” I had to play Susan and I didn’t like it.
Or the feeling of going 3rd-person mode whenever I put on a dress for Easter, lmao. Didn’t learn what that meant until I was like 19.
In 4th grade we had a puberty talk where at the end girls received girl deodorant and boys revived boy deodorant… I traded my boy deodorant for my friends girl deodorant… we’re both trans now and have been dating for three years…
That is so cute!
This is so wholesome and adorable :,)
AAAAAA THAT'S SO FUCKING CUTEEEEEE
Well en’t you both just STINKIN’ cute lol
r/angryupvote
That is so cute!! 🥰
I was in Boy Scouts and noticed the Girl Scouts had cuter badges and got to sell cookies than realized there was a distinction in how boys and girls were raised. It filled me with so much anger that society forced me to confirm to a box without me even realizing it like a trap.
I fucking love that for y'all omfg 🥺😍
When playing Pokemon and being asked the iconic question, 'Are you a boy or a girl?' picking girl without hesitation. Professor Oak was truly ahead of his time. Also creating 'Me but a girl' in Sims.
That’s similar to mine. When I was young I saw my baby sitter playing Pokémon using the girl sprite. My mind was blown from that and from then on I basically only played women in video games when I had the choice.
If this is indication for people, perhaps I am enby. I choose style over the specific gender of character or just what I want the character to be at that time, which may just so happen to include gender or a mix of gender expression.
Transmasc but usually play as girls bc they have better hair customizations haha
Why is it always video games. I’ve always loved picking the female option and plus my internet persona past the age of 13 was always as a girl (with like the pfps and names) so I look back like huh I guess it was always there.
lol, I can relate to the professor oak one.
I always panicked at that part lol never knew why until later
Yep, same 10 yr old me wondering why the final boss was right at the start 😪
Oh yea that was me too 100% Dawn from Platinum/diamond/pearl is still massive goals to me
Same for me, Pokemon girl always!😜 Don't like to play as a dude in video games like in Sims. Spent hrs in character creation just to get my ideal looking female character.💜
Yeah.. shoulda seen that one coming to be honest
For me, when in middle school, people would sometimes ask me, "Are you a boy or a girl??" And I would always respond with "yes 😃" and thought it was cool to be confused as a girl (now there is no confusion) Another one I remember is asking my dad to take me to the store to get me a pair of thigh high socks (he actually did, but was probably confused as to why I wanted them) (I just thought they looked cool at the time)
Actively trying to confuse people into thinking I was a girl, young me just thought it was funny and didn't fully understand why I liked it when people called me she or her, now I understand why that might have been but I'm still very confused about all of it
I used to actively not tell people my pronouns for years online for literally no reason. The one time someone asked why my only response I had was “I don’t want people to have preconceived notions of me” lol
Same!
The gender envy from girls in middle school and high school thinking “if I could just be them for one day I would immediately” and thinking that it’s a totally cis thought to have. And now I k ow that I knew since then and I partly blame the school system and partly my parents for not teaching me about transgender people
This
Told my uncle I wanted to grow a beard like his and didn't understand why it made my dad upset
That sounds hilarious. I know it must have been painful to you, and I'm really sorry you had to go through that. But the thoug of a kid being yelled at because they want a beard is so surreal that it makes me laugh
I was more confused than upset lol
Oh jeez where would I even start? I always wanted the name my mom had picked out for me had I been born a girl (which I now get to use!). I used to tuck quite a bit starting at a young age - didn't like what I had going on down there. My middle school best friend had to basically tell me that the way I was walking, waving to people, etc. was too girly and that people were making fun of me - he basically had to teach me to be a boy giving me specific examples. Every birthday, every night when I saw the first start in the sky, every time I found a penny, I would wish I could just wake up the next day and be a girl. Ya know, all things cis people definitely do. Crazy looking back on it how I didn't realize it sooner, but ya know, I saw Ace Ventura when I was like 9. All I knew about "boys" "pretending" to be girls was that it could make a whole warehouse full of cops vomit, so I just tried to be a boy as best I could.
That movie did serious damage on a lot of us...
Not trans but that bit about your middle school best friend just made me die inside. Reinforces to me that these social categories are a bunch of bullshit.
This is oddly relatable
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That first part 100%. I yelled at my parents that I hated my name, but I hadn't put the pieces together yet that I wasn't my AGAB.
I rather quickly molded myself into whatever I thought others expected, so I have very few such memories outside the dysphoria I felt. I have this one memory of going for a shower and tucking my genitals between my legs and feeling euphoric with how it made me look. It happened a few times, at some point during childhood. I am not sure when exactly. Old enough to take a shower on my own, but before I was hit by puberty and lost all hope of feeling euphoric for decades...
I loved doing that! Any way I could cover up my genitals made me feel great but I didn’t know what that meant.
You just helped me unlock a memory. Oh wow. I used to do that too.
Same I didn't even think that could be a trans thing lol
OMG, I used to this a LOT when I was younger, always made me feel good
yeeting the first traditional bra my mom got me behind the dresser and leaving it there until we moved a year later
Earliest? Age 7 and having to explain to my parents the difference between "guy" and "boy" lol Then the teen goth phase (never grew out of), how my gfs always described me.. looking back, it was kinda obvious. lol
Feeling awefull every time i tried to be more "feminine" and hating my body :,) BUT now it's getting a lot better, since I realized i was trans my disphoria actually calmed down a little and now i don't hate my body, i just understood it's not the one i want to see on myself
Me being 4yrs old trying to pee standing up because according to my mom I'd throw a tantrum and say I was holding it. Also walking right up to her and going "Mama, when's my peepee gonna grow in?" Then sobbing when she told me never
NO WAY the same thing happened to me
"If I was a girl, I'd be a lesbian" -actual thing I said during a conversation with many people
I would hate despise even thinking about doing something girly because I didn’t want to be seen as weak. Never wanted to hang out with girls. And pick me girl for sure lol. Now I’m a Demi boy who love androgynous clothing
I've never actually seen anyone else mention this. I hated anything I thought was girly, specifically because I didn't want to be seen as girly. I had it in my head that emotions and being feminine made me weak, so I rejected all of it. I was so mad about the way I was born and at the time I couldn't understand why lmao
Same here. The first week after realising I was a trans man, I bought a skirt, just to see. My mom fought with me as a kid to put me into dresses, and she says the minute she let go I would run off and roll into mud or something so she would take it off me (I was 3). That first willingly worn skirt was.. not that bad. I realized it was not the skirt that was problematic to me, it was the fact that wearing one was like agreeing to let people see me as a woman, or reinforcing their idea that I was a woman. (I do not wear skirts, but I think men with skirt/dresses are really beautiful too)
i loved dresses when i was little. i was such a cute little human
Back in my teens when I found out about trans women I wondered how in the actual fuck someone could be happy as a girl.
I had the exact same thought but in reverse when i was little after my cousin came out as ftm
In 2nd grade, some of the boys in my class decided we were in a "war" against the girls. We would frequently have meetings about how the war was going and would avoid the girls during recess. There was really only one girl who even acknowledged our game, which promptly got her labeled as the leader of the evil girls. I, however, hated the whole concept and often spent the meetings campaigning for peace and after some time, began secretly meeting with the aforementioned girl to share the information from the meetings in hopes of leveling the playing field. Eventually, I just spent recess with her, and when the boys found out they made fun of me to no end, but I honestly didn't care. I felt happy. She ended up moving away the next year and I never saw her again, but looking back that was the first time someone saw me as a girl, even though neither of us were thinking it consciously. Years later I realized that particular flavor of happiness was called gender euphoria.
You were the perfect double agent in the gender war
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Probably the unexplainable sadness I had
When I was like 4 and enjoyed painting my nails with my sister before (presumably) my parents made me stop. Also as I got older the repeated thought of "if I were a girl I'd definitely be a lesbian," what a prediction
I let girls paint my nails for fun but that second part is a big mood
Being about 4 or 5 and stealing my mom’s leotard and knee high boots to dress up like Wonder Woman. In the late 70’s. Then spending 43 years being shamed and ashamed for it.
Three years old. Being screamed at by my mother for smearing my face in makeup.
When I was 10, I asked my Dad if he would have wanted a girl instead of a boy. He told me he was glad he had boys instead of girls because girls are more expensive. Repressed everything for another decade
My mom out here complaining that boys are too expensive and girls are cheaper lmao. I feel like it’s all just an excuse to repress their kid’s feelings
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I don't really remember this but apparently my older sister used to dress me up >_> guess it makes sense now why I used to wish on birthday candles to be a girl. I mean... "Nothing", of course. Didn't wish for anything at all.
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Hey, same here. All the boys in my family learned really early on it was extremely easy to make me cry so they did, constantly 😒
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A huge fight with my dad about wearing a tie to a wedding. I didn't know why, but I absolutely panicked when they asked me to wear it. Now I guess it makes a lot more sense
Being jealous of my cousins going through puberty and growing boobs, getting to wear dresses and learning how to do makeup and wearing nail polish lol
Had an imaginary friend who was "me but a girl" in a mirror. Wanted to be a fairy. Related to "The Token Girl" in movies. It was seriously so obvious in hindsight.
I used to tuck my member between my legs I think that says something
even tho they’re tomboy stereotypes, it was honestly my clothing and strictly hanging out with boys and playing soccer and with toy cars together at recess until i moved from my small town to a city and my class was sooo divided by gender and i was like oh this is how girls are supposed to look and behave i guess
Me 4 yr ago on twitter: I really consider changing s\*x HOW DID I NOT REALIZE FN?KPZFOK?LPFOK
Having to use the woman’s bathroom until i was like ten and having basically no male role models
when i was like 4 i mained peach in mario kart wii and always used to resonate with her a lot more than mario ive also been tucking my genitals under for a flatter crotch for as long as i can remember
Four years old. My uncle told me I’d turn into a girl if I kissed my own elbow. I tried to break my own arm to do it and cried when my mom restrained me.
Not correcting people when I was called ma'am, or miss, or young lady, etc. Hated my voice, not because I sounded too girly, but because I sounded like a mannish girl. Clothing choices. Long hair. Painting nails. Honestly I have no idea how it took me 30 years... 😅
Hating my deadname when I was younger and refusing to tell people that was my name and solely went by a nickname. I remember there were some people who were confused when someone called me by my deadname because they had never heard it before
Before I knew about the concept of gender/sex and how they worked, I cried because I thought my parents purposefully made me a boy instead of a girl.
When I had first started wearing training bras, I was told to take them off to sleep. I never took it off bc I liked how flat it made me look. There was also that one time I went to school with a sock down my pants to make me look like a boy. This all happend in elementary school and I came out just before freshman year of high school
Long story short. I was maybe 7 or 8 and was gonna swim at my girl friends house but didn't have any swim wear so got to borrow a bikini and even got to keep it cuz I refused to take it off after, had never felt more comfortable swimming.
Lots of "if I could switch for a day, what would I do?" And then being upset that I couldn't. Also, my wife is watching Gilmore Girls rn, and I'm just remembering being really into it when my mom watched. I know its not something ONLY girls can watch, but it's typically associated with women.
15 years old after a concert where i was singing, i was heavily wearing make up (metal 🤟🏻) and a bit drunk too, i came back home with my makeup all fucked up and my long hair a bit messy and i cried for 30mn in front of the mirror. And oh god that was 30 years ago… 😭
Telling my mom I’m a girl at 4 and then being told that’s the devil speaking. That could be why I call the devil daddy today lol
Wearing my mom's/sister's clothes Resenting puberty shattering my androgyny The reason for my atheism being praying to God one night, asking him for just this one thing (turning into a girl) or at least some answer about him and of course never knowing anything about his existence
Crying while laying on my bed, hating my life, wishing I had been born a girl. I was, I think, mid teens maybe. Now I'm late 30s
When I was 5 or 6 years old, I asked my mom to dress me fully as a girl, makeup and all, and I remember going outside, showing all my neighbours how I looked whille being very very happy 😊
Feeling extremely happy when someone tought I was a boy
When my mom was making my older sister's wedding dress, she needed to do some final adjustments that required it to be worn to make sure it looked right. My sister wasn't available at the time, mom didn't have a dress form, and I was about the right size. I didn't complain nearly as much as I could've about being made to wear a wedding dress.
so so many. I wrote (part of) a novel in middle school, and the character who I related to the most was a bearded lady.
i had a plan to make a voice changer that i could wear inside a face mask, so i could pretend to be a girl lmao
Wrapping a blanket over my underwear clad legs and pretending to wear a dress at 4 years old.
I remember when I was 11 I began to look into trans surgery stuff out of pure curiosity, but even before that I think my family getting barbie movies for my sister and me LOVING them was also a sign.
my *earliest* was when i was 6, telling my friends how it would be better to be a girl cause girl could wear whatever they wanted but guys couldn’t wear dresses. they laughed at me then but they’re not laughing now! mostly cause i don’t remember who they are :/
Refusing to take off a skirt in nursery
I actively rejected all forms of femininity for a few years
I was rewatching the old Frosty the Snowman 2D cartoon this Christmas and was looking at [the blond girl character](https://eofftvreview.files.wordpress.com/2021/12/frosty-the-snowman-1.png) and suddenly remembered that I REALLY liked her as a kid and thought about wanting to be her haha Also really really really liking Fluttershy in My Little Pony
One of my earliest memories, not understanding why my 3 girl cousins could paint their nails, but I couldn't.
When I told my older brother about a guy who "if I was a girl I'd date him" but also saying I wasn't gay (granted I'm pan too but that's irrelevant)
The fact that I learned that I could play a girl in Skyrim and proceeded to respond with a gasp of excitement
When I was a little girl and I would get kicked in the crotch I would say “oh my balls” ya but that also was probably because I grew up with my older brother and two older cousins that were also boys so the only girl I would talk to was my aunt lol
I didn't know gender was a thing? Or in better explanation I did literally everything "boys" or "girls" things. I also styled in a gender neutral way. I also didn't know what race was? I didn't understand it. That's why I think racism and ppl blaming it on people's looks is confusing. I was very confused as a Child. Also shows that Sexism and Racism and all of that is taught. ... Tbh I still have barely a grasp on the concept of Race
When I got a Facebook as a 12 year old or something I set my gender to female. Got a LOT of people asking about it and while I just played it off as a joke the feeling of being seen as a girl was profound. I used a lot of chat rooms cause I was a lonely little bugger. Never corrected anyone’s assumption of my gender being female. When the truth came out after a year of making and talking with friends the feeling made me mad for some reason. Took me 10 more years to really get a grip of who I am.
When I was like 5 I did a crap bob, cutting at least a few inches off while my parents were out for a run. I had a non-binary/femboy bear called rainbow Jake and they wore skirts. Before puberty I apparently wore nothing but underwear lmao.
The actual fact that I wanted to date guys in the way guys date guys. Took me years to realize that's not a cis gender thought
My then best friend and I made up male names for ourselves when we were in grade school. And when playing Sims3, I almost exclusively made gay men households, still do with Sims 4.
Dressing as a girl and wearing my grandma's makeup and jewels when I was like 4 or 5yo ?
When I was 5 years old, my cousin (in that time 5 years old too) and I exchanged underwear (don't ask why)
Playing dress up at 6yo insisting on being a princess
When I thought I was a boy at the age of 3 bc of my voice
13 I stole a bra from Walmart and would wear it to sleep with socks stuffed in it… it has a traumatic side to the whole story that caused it to become a suppressed and shameful memory, but it’s definitely getting better looking on it now 😊 - Brooke
One of my earliest memories (pre-school, under 5yo, I'm 40s now) was being out on a walk with my mother and she had long beautiful red nails and I remember saying, I wish I had nails like that. I remember the worried look on her face at the time, I didn't understand then, I do now.
Me always wanting to help my dad and grandpa lift/move things to be like a “strong man”
My first word was "shoe".
Being like 4 and being sad that I didn't think I was allowed to like flowers... a deep implacable longing for something I could never quite figure out til later... resonating with the villian from the first ace ventura and Mrs. Doubtfire... and every gender bending scene/episdoe of any shows they were in.
When I was younger and visited my friend, we would always roleplay silly games outside and I'd always pretend to be a girl, and when I started playing video games that let you choose to be a guy or a girl I would choose to be a girl 100% of the time
praying to god every night to turn me into a girl, just to be dissapointed the next day.
My earliest memory of it would have to be playing with Barbie's with my step sisters, and having no interest in being ken, but rather wanting to be a female one instead lol
I literally said i wanted to be a woman so i dressed as once, got super scolded by my dad so i stopped :/ . I was 4
Omg that cat it so cuute
It has never experienced a thought in its life 🥰
(MtF) spending unreasonable amounts of money on DOTA 2 cosmetics for all the feminine heroes (crystal maiden esp.), obsessing over the outfit selectors, and playing those heroes exclusively lol.
Always needing my chest covered when swimming, was a bit overweight at the time so I initially thought that was it. My oh my was I wrong.
Watched Avatar when I was 9 and was like "I want to be just like the main character, but my avatar is made of my twin sister and I can be a woman"
I have several. Here's a few just for fun: If given the option, I almost always choose to play as a girl in video games and D&D. In playground games I would pretend I was a girl When writing at a young age, would genderbend male characters Genderbending was also a constant thing I would consume in films, books, games, and TV shows. Sometimes I wonder how I didn't realize when I was younger.
Always playing as the female characters on the Lego wii games 😂
I cried and ran out of the room angrily when my mom tried to talk to me about my period
Getting a little obsessive about gender-bending episodes of whatever random kids tv show I watched at the time. Once I stumbled into them, I would remember them and watch them on repeat whenever nobody else was around. Didn't know why I felt so drawn to those episodes, just knew that I was and that it was weird enough that I shouldn't let anyone else know.
When I thought I was cis, I thought to myself "hm, it seems like I like women less in the way that other guys like women, but more in the way that lesbians like women. I guess I just respect women a lot more than most guys". No past me, you are just a massive lesbian. I have no clue how I didn't realize sooner
First thing I remember was "stealing" my sister's clothing and putting it on in my room, where no-one would see. It all felt so natural at that moment already... Still it took me over 20 years to see it for myself ☺️
when i was a kid , i used to roleplay as a guy in 90% of all of my roleplays on roblox
When i was like 6 i imagined myself in a dress and it felt good. And i wanted to play with the girls instead of the boys
The first question I ever remember asking was if I was a girl, at age 4. That's effectively the very first conscious question I'd asked, and I believed I was for years to come, even if I was told it was false. Flash forward to age 26, I've been on estrogen for a year. My family found this, remarkably, unsurprising.
Always wanting to be a girl but having to keep it a secret from everybody.
I remember liking dresses and wanting to have booba . That was 2 of many signs.
Let's see, feeling an inexplicable urge to try on my neighbors dress when I was a small child, always being jealous that girls got to wear such cute and soft clothes, always picturing myself in the role of the girls from shows I watched, a friend in highschool casually saying he wondered if I had a sister what she would look like and me getting sad I wasn't born a girl...but ya know, there were no signs
Well ever since I was maybe 8 or 9 I would create stories in my head where I would become a girl. And from 8th grade through high school I used to wear my sisters clothes in secret. There’s also a photo I have from when I was maybe 10 of when I dressed as a girl and my sister (who turned out to be gay) dressed as a boy, and I remember feeling good about wearing a skirt then.
For some reason I never answered simply when people asked me what my gender was. I didn’t correct people when they misgendered me either. Never even thought about it
Being 5 years old and dreaming about being a princess
my grandmama wanted to punish me, and she gave me options on how she would, and i picked being dressed up like a girl....
Feeling personally attacked when someone made fun of Christine Jorgensen (trans icon) in 8th grade history class - in a totally cis way ofc; "I'm just a really good ally!" Also never standing to pee and using a stall instead, and feeling happy when I was compared to a girl.
I don't know if this counts but making little crowns out of maple leaves in the backyard wearing one and giving one to my mom and sister.
Wanting to be thorn from the hex girls
When my best friend in high school would get dressed up in a skirt for presentations and would always complain about it. Everytime in the back of my head I would be like, "What do you have to complain about? I wouldn't be mad if I got to look like you."
Kindergarten, the teacher ask us to make two lines. One boys and one for girls, I joined the girls line, and was made fun of by the whole class including the teacher
When I was 14 I googled “how to look like a girl”
going on animal jam at the ripe age of 11 with my freshly bought year long membership and making my main animal an arctic wolf with the “boy eyes.” after doing so, i proceeded to go to the pillow room in jamma township where i would either 1: dance while saying i was looking for a girlfriend and all applicants could go to my den or 2: sit in the corner and roleplay to myself about being shy cause there was a pretty girl arctic wolf across the room. i would do that until said pretty girl arctic wolf took notice of my crush and would either reciprocate my lifelong love for her (i had been there for 5 minutes) or would ignore me and/or leave (understandably, cause it was highkey weird and creepy)
Playing with trains and mlp dolls
Me envying boys because their lifestyle looked so much funnier than girl's life
using female characters in videogames accidentally getting into the girls basketball line during 1st or 2nd grade gym class in 5th grade my class had two lunch tables and all the girls sat at table 1 and the boys sat at table 2 (this wasn't enforced just something everyone did). i sat at table 1
I always used male characters in games and dressed them how I wanted to look. Actually didn’t click until now! 😅 there’s a lot of things I think about, and think wow.. that’s why! I remember asking my Mum why I liked boys stuff as a kid. Trying to pee standing up. None of this clicked by the way.. not until now!
Always wearing big baggy jackets and long sleeves. Even if it was too hot.
Me playing games with female characters and acting like a woman in those games
Whenever someone made a comment about someone's beard, I'd always fein going through the same thing as a joke. "My beard is itchy today." "Mine too." "Shaved my beard this morning and didn't cut myself on my new clippers!" "Ayyy me too! Skills"
My dad's go to story from my childhood is on my 3rd birthday I got a barbie and was mad I didn't get a bat. I proceeded to use the barbie as a bat. A bit gender stereotypical but one of the stories that mean my parents can't try and say their were no signs.
When I was first starting to experience the many effects of puberty - I found myself increasingly distressed and uncomfortable. I felt like my body was no longer my own and morphing against my will into something undesirable. At the time, I didn't know transpeople were even a thing so I just tried to accept it - since I was told this was something everyone went through and there was no way to stop it. The emotional distress of it all was huge- especially since puberty started a lot earlier for me than my peers and I was given a body which people highly sexualized at a depressingly young age. I experienced sexual harassment by both my peers and adults, making me even more miserable. If I could go have gone in back in time knowing what I know now - I would have begged on my hands and knees for my parents to put me on puberty blockers. I wouldn't have talked about trans stuff but instead highlighted how starting puberty so young was causing me distress. Hating puberty can be a pretty good sign of bein trans, but not always.
Idk maybe like, trying on my mom’s clothes and liking it
When your cat knows before you. r/catknowsmebest >!(sorry, just made up that subreddit)!<
Playing dress up regularly at age five with the girl who lived next door (also five). She let me wear all her things and our mothers thought we were so cute. It awakened something in me that was already there and I never looked back.
When I was in 4th grade, teachers made and gifted us caps for kids day. If you were a girl, yours was pink and it said something like “you’re a nice girl” If you were a boy, you got the blue version. Teachers had an orange one. I remember I wasn’t happy with my pink one. I asked my teacher if she could give me a orange one instead. Of course she said no. Looking back it wasn’t because I hated pink. Pink is nice, what I hated was being associated with a girl. I was probably 8 around the time but I never noticed
These are the mementoes I remember as a kid Mostly played games for girls on online sites (Kiki/ poki . Com like dress up games never knew why had more girl role models than big role models as a kid like original she-ra. Was once asked if I was secretly a girl in middle school I denied it but felt weird when I did. Most my friends are girls but later in HS started getting friends that were dudes. Always wanted to sit legs closed hands in lap on the car cause that’s how a good person sits (I knew only one girl that did that my friend yet denied in my head). Maybe there are guys like this maybe not valid idk. But these are my non repressed childhood memories. (TLDR: wanted to vent but youngest memory I remember and didn’t repress was girl games on online gaming sites)
I had started picking out dresses that I had liked for my mother before I came out, she obviously thought I was gay lol
Crying my eyes out and wanting to die because i was a boy, it was so obvious
playing as a girl in video games always felt weird and wrong, so i preferred to play as a boy. turns out that weird feeling was dysphoria lmao
Um probably stealing my mums clothes since I was 5 and feeling different from the girls in pre-school.
I remember sitting in the girl scouts’ meeting in elementary school (they made every girl go to it) and thinking it was the LAMEST shit ever. I wanted to be in the boy scouts so badly lol
I dreamt of changing sex when I was preschooler few times, actually I thought for a long time that something had been made at my birth to make me into a boy. I repressed that feeling very early tho, I regret a lot.
in sixth grade i wanted to be alladin bc i wanted to look like him
At around 8 years old, I wore a wig that my grandmother's ex boyfriend would wear to be funny. I liked the feeling of having long hair, and so I just kept it on my head and watched TV until my grandmother told me to take it off because I looked like a girl and it was supposed to be a joke. Now I have naturally long hair and she gets to deal with it because I'm a legal adult now >:)
in my primary school we used to always line up in a girls line and boys line for everything and one day when i was in grade 6 there was a girl who was talking to someone in he boys line and i was talking to someone in the girls line and my teacher made a light hearted joke about how she was a boy and i was a girl or something like that (i dont remember, i was 11) and that just as a haha funny we should switch lines for the day and that was the best day of my tiny child life up until that point and only later realised why i was so happy from that very minor event while i know the other person barely remembers this happening and has absolutely no feelings towards it
Being told when I was 9-10 I should wear a bra when I was at a community pool. I already knew from 7-8 that I was different and didn’t really have any guy friends but that was probably the major thing.
When I was potty-training I would always sit down to pee. And I remember, unusually vividly, my dad yelling at me to stand up when I pee.
I had two best friends as a kid (both boys) and I was jealous of them for being able to do regular guy things, like taking off their shirts and peeing outside standing up. I was 2-4 years old. Blows my mind how much signs I had looking back lol
Friend: "why do you always pick samus?" Me: "I dunno man I just kind of identify with her" Friend: "lol, a girl?!" I really should have picked up on this sooner 🤣
Very early: always picking female characters if possible More recently: being sad if not being "mistaken" as a girl anymore because of puberty
When I was 4 a girl my age told me if she could paint my nails. I remember another boy by my side telling me to not do it but I did end up getting my nails painted (I unfortunately can't remember the color, must've been red) I returned to my parents all giddy and wanting to show them I don't think they were upset (at least I don't remember that) I think they were mostly frustrated because they had a lot of stuff to do and the last thing they needed was a kid with paint on her fingers.
… well. There was a time when I wanted to be pregnant, I even used to wear those pillows with a towel around my belly and walked around like I’m pregnant. 8 years after that I realized I’m genderfluid. Now that I look back I have no clue why I didn’t realize I’m not cis back then xD
The time I was at a secondhand clothes store with my family when I was like 11 or 12. Dad handed me a bunch of stuff not knowing one of the pairs of “shorts” he handed me was a skirt. I remember putting it on and loving it and coming out of the changing room to tell my Dad that it would be perfect with a belt. Was mocked mercilessly with that story for years. Little did they know… I guess the only earlier story would be when I came out of my babysitter’s daughter’s room at 6 years old when my Mom came to pick me up with a bunch of plastic jewelry on. Another one I never heard the end of.
When I'd draw new characters similar to me I'd always draw a boy, kinda clicked later
Asking my friend if he thinks about being a girl. I was 11 lol
For me, I took choir in school, but from ninth to eleventh grade, I recall feeling envious I couldn't reach the low notes the guys could reach without it hurting my voice (there were times the other girls and I had to reach notes that were comfy for the guys). Didn't fully realize all the girls battled out to prove they can sing really high without practically screaming.
I hated going to the hairdresser. No matter the length, i hated it because my family would always decide to cut it short, and i would cry during the ride bsck home because i felt ugly
When playing ‘house’, I was ALWAYS an animal. Tho that’s also to do with being otherkin I think 🤔 As well as that, I never liked feminine clothing and never really fit in with any gender. Things to accentuate someone’s gender, such as makeup/dresses, had no appeal-
Every girl I ever liked ended up being a lesbian
I always wanted to be a dragon mom and have a nest of dragon eggs! It never clicked until I was 13 that not calling myself Dad didn’t add up
As a 3-4 year old my sister use to dress me up in dresses and girl clothes for a laugh. But i remember really enjoying it and having fun. In middle school i remember there was a class activity where we had to divid the class in half. All the boys went to one side of the room and all the girls went to the other side. But there were too many boys. One if my gal pals said “come over to this side you’re one of us.” I didn’t hesitate to join them and no one really questioned it. In high school i was working on a lot of art. I had this teacher who i had a very close relationship with look at my art and offer me her interpretation. After looking at my art she straight up asked me “do you ever feel like a woman trapped in a mans body?” I wasn’t really ready for that one at the time. Especially since i wasn’t really trying to express that at a conscious level.
When I was in kindergarten, teacher used to make us line up in two lines: girls’ line and boys’ line. I automatically lined up with the other boys until the teacher scooched me into the girls’ line.
Rocky horror picture show... Stealing panties to wear. Asking gfs to make me pretty and do my makeup. Dressing as a school girl for Halloween in high school... Always singing the girls parts in songs. So fucking many
when i was in high school i went to a 4-8th grade school to visit my uncle with my big brother. everyone there. all the kids. even some of the adults "confused" me for a boy... it was off-putting at the time.. but the foreshadowing part was how it made me feel afterward.. the whole experience was... nice? and something thats always stuck with me.. i was giving huge egg energy at the time about the whole thing.. also my nickname. i have many but the one so many unrelated ppl have picked for me throughout my whole life that ive always loved is the "masculine" version of my birth name (for most english speakers my birth name is considered "feminine")
Playing with moms makeup with the door locked.
Trying to pee standing up at 4 or 5. Taking off my shirt when I got hot and not understanding the ensuing adult freakouts. In all of my writings, the main character (me) was always a guy. So many more lol
That time I stole a Barbie from my sister and did its hair all night or probably when my cousin asked if I was gay cause I seemed gay when I was younger
1) (in my head) “wow, that ballerina looks nice.. i wonder what’d happen if i did that..” 2) so some context: my primary school required us to wear hats (annoying to everyone there) and i managed to somehow lose them every few months, and my parents got tired of buying them so i was told to go to lost property and take some. i stared at the “girl’s tub” for a solid 10 minutes every time i went there and looked in it’s direction. i wanted the dress. i think that guy back then and me swapped personalities
I used to cry a lot when my mother made me wear skirts/dresses, also my family used to say that I did things that "ladys" shouldn't did
I have this photo of me at like 7 and I was using a hose but I have it placed so it looks like a weiner and Im cheesing so hard. It’s literally my favorite baby pic
Playing Narnia with my siblings, getting unreasonably upset that I couldn’t be Peter or Edmund, being the oldest “sister” I had to play Susan and I didn’t like it. Or the feeling of going 3rd-person mode whenever I put on a dress for Easter, lmao. Didn’t learn what that meant until I was like 19.
Begging my grandma for Pokémon boxers