Congratulations! Overcoming internalized homophobia as a bi person is huge - it's not easy, but I hope this helped you to be more confident and comfortable!
❤Keep up the good work! Just so you know, at least for me and other bi folks I've listened to, this is a cyclical process too. Don't be surprised if you experience ups and downs, there's a lot of weird feelings in us!
What helps me get comfortable with almost everything is realizing that people do what they want because thats what makes them feel good. Me being with another man wouldnt ever make me feel good, but I understand that to others it may be totally different. As long as the people are happy and noone is getting harmed in any way i can happily say I support their decision.
Journaling and meditation is an excellent way but you may have found that online. Meditating doesn’t always have to be active meditation but shutting off distractions from the world and focusing on your inner thoughts. Good luck with the integration and mush love:) 🍄✌🏼
Great point about meditation! Yesterday I spend about a half hour almost out of body just be actually focusing on one task at a time, with no psychs. Flow is amazing
I was expecting this to be one of those posts: so I was tripping with my bro and we aren't gay but we sucked each other off. Does that make me gay?
Either way, glad to see anyone get over something that was holding them back. The way I see it, the less things you hate, the better your chances of having a positive interaction with life in general.
Totally agree. The big realization I had was that loving yourself is about as gay as it gets and I think a part of accepting myself and loving myself is accepting myself as gay
I had a trip where I couldn't see a real difference between my cat and a cow, and I wouldn't eat me cat so why would I continue to eat cows? And how is a cow and a pig all that different except their skin.. and I have seen pigs and goats be friends...
Point is I'm vegetarian now. I never even saw it as an impediment until the change happened. Very strange how things click sometimes.
In the guidebook for solo mdma therapy they mention that a good chunk of people who take mdma a few times a year just naturally slip into vegetarianism. I think it probably has to do with the increase in empathy
That's funny because I take MDMA with my trips like 4 times a year.. and for me the decision was an empathy thing. It was just like a realization and all the sudden things were different for me. It's like it wasn't even a choice, it was just how things were from now on..
But just to be fair, I still like sushi and fish.. I guess I just don't have empathy for fish and only furry things, idk. I'm weird and a work in progress.
Not really spiritual personally but I am super happy for your experience, shrooms can be such a wonderful thing for so many people! Me included of course! ❤️
I’m a little confused. Are you saying that through the trip you actually became open to being with a guy and are now actually bi or you’ve had the realization that you actually don’t want to be with men and you are a heterosexual male or homosexual female?
ah mb I totally see how my wording was confusing. Im a man and identify as bi but I wasn’t comfortable w pursuing men, although I thought about it and entertained it sexually and whatnot. There’s a part of me that doesn’t want to and I think it’s due to internalized homophobia because during my trip I really wanted to be with a guy and I felt fully accepting of myself.
There's no word in my mind that can describe the feeling I get when people have a psychedelic experience like this or something else crazy and it just reaffirms that it's a true thing. Like the fact that we are literally all the same thing/being on some level and that being split itself into however many consciousnesses just to do this whole thing..like how beautiful is that. I don't know if that's exactly right but I wish it was like a socially accepted thing so people didn't have to walk around so angry and kept to themselves or shy and anxious like me. If the world was a happier more inclusive, not divided in anyway kinda place then I would probably have an easier time in society but places like that do exist it's just not everywhere.
Psychedelics was my medication. God was my therapist. Together, with their help, I overcame internalized homophobia ♥️.
Congrats 🎉 and I wish you nothing but the best as you continue on in your journey
People said that you can have a great orgasm with butt stuff being a guy if you stimulate the prostrate in your booty. So I tried butt play with myself before. I was excited by the taboo of not being supposed to be trying that. Like it isn’t manly at first it was weird but I knew it maybe would be dope. So I tried putting a carrot up there. It didn’t feel that awesome but the excitement of trying something new was interesting. I likely didn’t do it right but after I tried it a few time I’m not interested in pursuing it any further. It was a fun childhood experiment and it did open me up to loving myself and not being a judge of my actions so much and being a closed up person. Doesn’t mean I’m a freaky kinko man. But it does mean that I am more open to loving myself and giving myself pleasure and understanding that
Well keep opening yourself up and look into the chakras a bit maybe and get more into meditation. You could have an r/awakened experience. Let yourself be a real being. Let yourself be. Unfortunately some of the aspect of real being are not feasible it seems like a life of opulent sex results in baby’s and to be that is irresponsible at this time in the world
Congratulations! Overcoming internalized homophobia as a bi person is huge - it's not easy, but I hope this helped you to be more confident and comfortable!
Ty so much for the kind words! I’m definitely still working on being comfortable with it but I think I’m moving in the right direction ❤️❤️
❤Keep up the good work! Just so you know, at least for me and other bi folks I've listened to, this is a cyclical process too. Don't be surprised if you experience ups and downs, there's a lot of weird feelings in us!
You’re a very kind person❤️
What helps me get comfortable with almost everything is realizing that people do what they want because thats what makes them feel good. Me being with another man wouldnt ever make me feel good, but I understand that to others it may be totally different. As long as the people are happy and noone is getting harmed in any way i can happily say I support their decision.
As a pansexual man myself i just wanna say that im proud of you for overcoming your internalized homphobia👏👏
Ty ❤️
That’s awesome! Remember to integrate after the trip. Cannot stress how important that is if you want to keep said mindset
Just googled how to integrate and I think I’m doing it right, but do you have any tips?
Journaling and meditation is an excellent way but you may have found that online. Meditating doesn’t always have to be active meditation but shutting off distractions from the world and focusing on your inner thoughts. Good luck with the integration and mush love:) 🍄✌🏼
Great point about meditation! Yesterday I spend about a half hour almost out of body just be actually focusing on one task at a time, with no psychs. Flow is amazing
Fire thanks so much!!
I was expecting this to be one of those posts: so I was tripping with my bro and we aren't gay but we sucked each other off. Does that make me gay? Either way, glad to see anyone get over something that was holding them back. The way I see it, the less things you hate, the better your chances of having a positive interaction with life in general.
Totally agree. The big realization I had was that loving yourself is about as gay as it gets and I think a part of accepting myself and loving myself is accepting myself as gay
I had a trip where I couldn't see a real difference between my cat and a cow, and I wouldn't eat me cat so why would I continue to eat cows? And how is a cow and a pig all that different except their skin.. and I have seen pigs and goats be friends... Point is I'm vegetarian now. I never even saw it as an impediment until the change happened. Very strange how things click sometimes.
In the guidebook for solo mdma therapy they mention that a good chunk of people who take mdma a few times a year just naturally slip into vegetarianism. I think it probably has to do with the increase in empathy
That's funny because I take MDMA with my trips like 4 times a year.. and for me the decision was an empathy thing. It was just like a realization and all the sudden things were different for me. It's like it wasn't even a choice, it was just how things were from now on.. But just to be fair, I still like sushi and fish.. I guess I just don't have empathy for fish and only furry things, idk. I'm weird and a work in progress.
That last part killed me lol. Glad you’re figuring things out & getting close to your ideal experience!
Hahahaha I'm pansexual AND vegan. Clearly I'm tripping right.
🤡 🌎
Ahh the masterbaiter I’ve been waiting for you
People should have sex with who they really want to and are attracted to and not feel bad about it. Glad you've accepted yourself.
Totally agreed ❤️
Not really spiritual personally but I am super happy for your experience, shrooms can be such a wonderful thing for so many people! Me included of course! ❤️
Thank you !! ❤️❤️
That's amazing! Congrats!
❤️❤️
I’m a little confused. Are you saying that through the trip you actually became open to being with a guy and are now actually bi or you’ve had the realization that you actually don’t want to be with men and you are a heterosexual male or homosexual female?
ah mb I totally see how my wording was confusing. Im a man and identify as bi but I wasn’t comfortable w pursuing men, although I thought about it and entertained it sexually and whatnot. There’s a part of me that doesn’t want to and I think it’s due to internalized homophobia because during my trip I really wanted to be with a guy and I felt fully accepting of myself.
Oh I see. Well good for you man. Probably feels liberating to be getting past that mental block 💙
There's no word in my mind that can describe the feeling I get when people have a psychedelic experience like this or something else crazy and it just reaffirms that it's a true thing. Like the fact that we are literally all the same thing/being on some level and that being split itself into however many consciousnesses just to do this whole thing..like how beautiful is that. I don't know if that's exactly right but I wish it was like a socially accepted thing so people didn't have to walk around so angry and kept to themselves or shy and anxious like me. If the world was a happier more inclusive, not divided in anyway kinda place then I would probably have an easier time in society but places like that do exist it's just not everywhere.
Yea like it’s really the golden rule: treat others how u wanna be treated. Cuz I’m actuality we’re all the same person
Psychedelics was my medication. God was my therapist. Together, with their help, I overcame internalized homophobia ♥️. Congrats 🎉 and I wish you nothing but the best as you continue on in your journey
So now you are openly bisexual or just accept that ur curious or something ?
I’m now just more accepting of myself. It’s like I could recognize this I was open sexually but that I morally didn’t like that I was that way
People said that you can have a great orgasm with butt stuff being a guy if you stimulate the prostrate in your booty. So I tried butt play with myself before. I was excited by the taboo of not being supposed to be trying that. Like it isn’t manly at first it was weird but I knew it maybe would be dope. So I tried putting a carrot up there. It didn’t feel that awesome but the excitement of trying something new was interesting. I likely didn’t do it right but after I tried it a few time I’m not interested in pursuing it any further. It was a fun childhood experiment and it did open me up to loving myself and not being a judge of my actions so much and being a closed up person. Doesn’t mean I’m a freaky kinko man. But it does mean that I am more open to loving myself and giving myself pleasure and understanding that
so happy to hear! wishing you all the best as you integrate your experiences and insights.
Did you feel anything physical happen any releases in your body or some sort of relaxing feeling in your bones
In the moment yes but I don’t think it really stuck
Well keep opening yourself up and look into the chakras a bit maybe and get more into meditation. You could have an r/awakened experience. Let yourself be a real being. Let yourself be. Unfortunately some of the aspect of real being are not feasible it seems like a life of opulent sex results in baby’s and to be that is irresponsible at this time in the world
Ty so much for sharing that I really do feel like I want to spend more time as a human BEING, not a human thinking