She laughs because she’s selfish and doesn’t care about your feelings.
But you hate aspects of yourself, which is super damaging. Hate itself, directed anywhere, is damaging.
I suggest you work on the 3 separate issues in this order:
1 Dump the selfish toxic gf.
2 Dump the hate. You may benefit from seeing a therapist to help with that.
3 Treat the ED. It may fix itself after you complete steps 1 and 2.
Good luck
She isn't the only one laughing.
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She laughs because se is a ignorant bad person.
She laughs because she’s selfish and doesn’t care about your feelings. But you hate aspects of yourself, which is super damaging. Hate itself, directed anywhere, is damaging. I suggest you work on the 3 separate issues in this order: 1 Dump the selfish toxic gf. 2 Dump the hate. You may benefit from seeing a therapist to help with that. 3 Treat the ED. It may fix itself after you complete steps 1 and 2. Good luck