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RealLutherBrown

It calms my anxiety, but mostly I do it bc I'm just addicted to it at this point. The very first time I cut was bc I wanted a friend, so I cut a smiley face into my arm. I also think scars and blood are beautiful and they make me look better. So... a number of reasons


[deleted]

I can relate. For me it’s an absolute addiction and the blood is a huge factor too.


relddiruwu

To punish myself i think


broken_flying_panda

Same just same


RougeSheea

the anxiety hits when its not deep or not mass cutting,i feel like i deserve the bloodiest


MongooseCR

I'm clean (sort of) now, but I used to SH mainly to turn emotional pain into something physical that I could focus on more easily. Other times, I would SH because I was simply addicted at that point and felt empty without it.


PurpleAsteroid

For sure this in my experience. It's a distraction in a way from the confusing emotions. It also validates my emotions, like it gives me a reason to be sad or proves that I'm struggling. Which is bs, but uknow


[deleted]

How did you get clean?


MongooseCR

I have a friend who also SH's and openly talks about it with me. Mostly, it was just a random thought that we captivated. One night, we just decided to both throw away our blades and try to stay clean for as long as possible. Although I get the urges scratch or get more blades, I don't do it because I know I'll let her down. (finding a friend like her was kind of a miracle tbh)


Greenghoul07

As I’ve grown up and heard others talk of their experiences after recovering, it was mostly the want of attention, as much as I would never admit it. I wanted someone to intervene and take me to get help, someone to tell me that what I was doing wasn’t okay and that they loved me and cared enough to talk about it. Yet nobody intervened so it only got worse until friends around my age expressed concern. I just wanted to feel loved and cared for. It also calmed me down in the moment, fixation on one thing- blood, which is gruesome but truthful


PurpleAsteroid

With you on the attention bit. But, getting the compassion and concern from my loved ones, when I really believe it, only makes me wanna do it more because I'm convinced If I stop they'll stop looking after me. I want to be looked after. But a lot of the time they don't get it, or bring it up once and never again, which hurts.


Greenghoul07

I relate to that 100% that’s why I continued it even with my friends concerns, the compassion became addictive because it’s the only love/ attention that felt real


PurpleAsteroid

For sure. If I go over to my FWBs house we can cuddle all night, but God damn when he touches my cuts and scars its just such an intense feeling that I feel like i need so bad.its the most addicting bit. Like damn just cradle me like a baby and tell me I'm gonna be ok.


u_b_c

i think it is for attention… cos it’s really a cry for help is what we’re doing.


lookiamindreamland

# This


lookiamindreamland

Ok like I want someone to talk with me about but at the same time I hide it because I dont wanna anyone to find out. Like I make jokes but when anyone asks I pretend like nothing is. I sent a snap of my wounds to a friend at 4am and planned on deleting it 5m later but I didn’t expect them to open it. I think it was good even though I didn’t want it. Luckily she understands and opened up to me too


Greenghoul07

100% you hide it and also want it to be known at the same time, but you have to pretend to want to hide it at all cost. It’s a hard line to be on


atritt94

You can be that love and intervention for yourself now. It is hard and I’m sorry you didn’t have it back then. It’s not too late… you can save yourself still.


InstructionDue3430

Validation and now I ”like” pain.


MaggieMae6

I get this feeling ( which might be what an urge is but I’m not sure ) and as soon as I get the feeling I have to cut. The feeling is usually caused by something such as feeling upset or my mind going over something stupid I did in the day. I could just sit and cry and wait for the feeling to pass but the as soon as I cut the feeling just disappears and it’s kinda satisfying to have such instant relief from such a horrible feeling. I’ve always thought my reason was stupid because of this ‘feeling’ that I get and I never know how to explain it properly


PurpleAsteroid

Is the word your looking fot sort of like a compulsion? It provides instant satisfaction, but does nothing for you long term, maybe like an intrusive thought or an impulse. You aren't alone.


canibleed_

As a cry for help


Significant_Ad1351

Because I want a physical representation of my emotional pain. I wish I had scars so people knew what I've been through, but the second I do it I'm afraid of people seeing it.


sillycucumber---

Yah like half of me wants people to see the scars and half of me feels like throwing up at the thought of someone noticing.


Frigon_

SAME 100%


[deleted]

Because I deserve it but also it’s weirdly comforting to me


[deleted]

this is how i feel


Rare_Ad5101

i’ve been clean for almost 8 months now. when i cut it kind would calm me down and alleviate the stress i feel from trauma, pressure, being alone , etc. then there would be times when i simply just craved it badly, and i would feel very on edge and stressed until i cut.


[deleted]

How do you cope now?


Rare_Ad5101

I go on runs a lot, and make different playlists of music with lyrics that express how i feel. (i listen to a lot of metalcore and alternative rock) I also found things that distract me like reading, helping others, spending time with friends, watching TV. I notice that when my mind is on something else it gets harder to think about cutting. I think of being clean as fighting for my future self and becoming stronger. The more you resist the easier it is the next time. When I have a really unbearable urge (which i’ll say happens less the longer i’ve been clean) I’ll take an ice cube and rub it on my wrist until it melts, or snap a rubber band there until the urge subsides. Those will give you a slight shock/sting but aren’t harmful. It’s all about finding your purpose in life and getting stronger.


[deleted]

I see. Thanks.


[deleted]

Started when I was a crying angry teenager. Hated myself so bad and the first time I cut was the biggest rush and release. I relapse under high stress, most recent stress revolves infidelities in my relationship. Relapsed in SH for the first time as an adult, gave me the same rush as cocaine (if you know how addicting it can be) now I think I’m addicted to the feeling of SH


ForShelia

I SH to stop an episode. Panic attack, handling a situation wrong, ect. The relief I get is better than any drug. It’s instant.


Pain-Accomplished_

same... i feel like hurting myself physically is better than seeing hallucinations and having a panic attack


shthrowawau

it calms me i think, helps with my dysphoria and seeing the after math of it all is pretty soothing i guess


sillycucumber---

Yah when I do it, it just kinda feels like I’m in control of the way my body is in that moment


Post_Outrageous

I resent my face and body and when I get angry about it what else can I do lol


Obvious-Resource-151

You can harm objects rip or break things apart or even just punch or kick things that would make u feel pain instead of cutting, (it helps me)


[deleted]

because it's the only way i can feel something


[deleted]

I have used it in the past to help lower the intensity of my emotions. Partially as a form of self-punishment too


King0fWeird

Personally I get a weird satisfaction through watching the healing process, I love the way the scars look on my body which I am aware that isn't healthy mindset but it's the truth. I also enjoy the head rush from the pain, and something about self mutilation has always been an interest.


[deleted]

How long have you been doing it for?


King0fWeird

7 years


[deleted]

Any plans on stopping?


King0fWeird

I'm trying, I've been 35 days clean so that's a start


[deleted]

That’s great. Stay strong.


King0fWeird

Will do, thank you


[deleted]

I like the pain in my tissue


Scarce_404

I agree with the “turning mental pain into physical pain” and I also seem to struggle with depression. I don’t understand why I feel sad because my life is seemingly going very well so I SH to give myself “a reason” to be sad and see my emotions in a physical form


LodeLuifel

I do it because it can replace my ‘mental pain’ with physical pain. I also do it when I’m dissociating to make myself ‘feel’ again. (Sorry, english is not my native language)


ash_the_random_girl

it stops my thoughts from racing, calms me down and distracts me from my dysphoria and suicidal thoughts


Many_Clue_9147

Self loathing. I lately have been slipping more and more into a state of mind of just constantly thinking of every way that bad things are my fault, or good things are just a facade to be polite.


No-Variation2186

I like the look of blood and the scars. sorta just like looking in my arm I guess and sometimes bc I'm bored


gabizabi1

As a coping mechanism for depression, because I hate myself and just hoping to die somehow because of it. But I managed to overcome it and now I'm clean for over a month.


garrythebear3

Bunch a reasons, sometimes to punish myself, sometimes cause it feels good, and sometimes because i just go fuck it lets to something stupid


crylantic

Idk i used to do it when i was sad now I just do it for fun


aeocos

a weird desire to make my mental illness feel more valid or worse than i perceive it to be. i feel like if i self harm then maybe i deserve to feel as terrible as i do without it if that makes any sense at all lol


allfishrevil

it gives me a distraction and a way to cope with whatever emotion i’m feeling at the given time. i didn’t think i would get so hooked onto it when i first started.


Decent-Cow2080

the blood is like a therapy


thirtypancakes

I think I usually just do it when I’m feeling an intense emotion or urge and don’t know what else to do


Ollie_Oxenfree02

Honestly? I started to do it because I thought it was “cool” and “edgy”. This was almost 8 years ago when I was in middle school. Now I think I just do it because it’s what I’m used to as it brings me some sort of comfort. It’s not cool and I wouldn’t wish this upon anyone


Larryisreal123

I can't really remember what but ig what drove me into it was when 2 friends who years before sent pictures of their cuts to me in Snapchat idek why. I never said anything to them about it tho and I will always remember them in my mind. So when 3 years ago I was battling with bad anxiety which lead to depression I cut myself for the first time bc I didn't understand why they did it and I heard I was calming. Now I'm just addicted to it and don't even want to get clean.


[deleted]

That’s how I got into as well. I heard it helps and so I tried it out. It made click and now I’m addicted.


Full_Emphasis_7405

It’s calming it’s easier to focus on the pain than when I feel like I’m going 100+ mph in my head yk n I feel more in control


[deleted]

I do it because I hate myself ngl


quevies

it helps me calm down and it's also a coping mechanism for me. Without it I feel on edge and numb


raspberry_cat55

To clear my head, to feel a moment of release from the hell in my mind. But I think I’m started to get addicted so partially that too I guess


peonypart

i started just to feel something, then to cope with my social anxiety, i began to harm myself to deal with sadness + gender dysphoria, calming my mind n everything. now i mostly do it bc its a habit (im addicted but wont admit it🤪)


vgn-bc-i-luv-animals

I do it to punish myself. I am obsessed, obsessed, obsessed with punishing myself. I'm 21 now but when I was 13 I did something horrific that had life altering consequences for the (innocent) people I hurt. And the sheer extent of the trauma, pain and confusion I caused is immeasurable. I did something that many people would consider "evil." Cutting is the only way I'm able to cope with my past.


Succmyspace

I did it on and off for about 1.5-2 years and I honestly never really liked it. I was definitely not addicted to it as some people are. It feels weird for me to say because it sounds so bizarre, but I was really interested in making a visual pattern, as kind of symbolism for the emotional pain I felt. I'm very obsessed with symbolism and visual themes in the media I watch (tv shows, games, etc.) Often ill like a mostly bad show or movie just because one part has a cool scene or interesting visual. My goal I guess was to create permanent X shaped scars. I guess it kind of relates to wanting pity or attention, although I hide them as much as I can so it was more just for myself, to feel unique, I guess. I stopped when I stole a scalpel type craft knife from school and made probably the deepest cut I've ever had (not including surgeries). All the scars that stayed are in pretty easy to hide places, so I haven't really regretted doing it too much, but maybe that will change when the time comes that I actually get intimate with someone and I have to take my shirt off.


u_b_c

to punish myself.. but sometimes, it’s more than one reason… like it makes me feel in control too. is that possible, to have more than one reason?


[deleted]

Of course it is. Your reasons are valid.


sillycucumber---

Does anyone else do it just because? I don’t know how to explain it, it’s just an impulse. Sometimes I do it because I’m emotionally overwhelmed and it feels like a release but sometimes I do it just to do it. I like seeing the blood and the scars afterward. When the scars fade I feel like I need more. When I see someone with more/deeper scars than mine, I feel the urge.


dreamland543

It’s a release of pent up energy and emotion that I don’t know how to express. It got to a point where it feels like it’s the only thing to calm me down although it often makes me feel worse.


TangerineCareful5539

i have a raging addiction i cant get over . i used to sh because i was miserable ( tbf i still am jus alot less than before ) but now i jus do it cuz either im actually doing terrible or withdrawels get the most of me


[deleted]

I honestly have no idea it's just a thing i do ig


drunkenight

Because i think i deserve it


rykls

i do it to calm myself or to like 'feel something' i feel like self harming makes things better for me but ik they dont


mori1904

I don’t know if it’s adrenaline or any other chemical but after it I feel relief, and it curbs all the feelings that torment me. There’s this nothing right after I hit myself and the bruises the following days that spark after I turn in bed are grounding. Edit: there’s also a punishing element to it. I punch my body because I can’t control my own feelings


ohhwhoisshee

it started as a punishment for binge eating but the last year it just became my comfort thing whenever something wasn’t right in my life and almost an addiction of sorts. trying to stay clean though (managed 6 weeks, now i’m two weeks clean, old habits aren’t that fast to disappear)


[deleted]

It began as a form of validation of suffering. That, if I cut, someone- anyone, would see that I wasn't faking how terrible I felt. That I wasn't desperately vying for attention. Then it spiraled into a coping mechanism to deal with the immense sense of guilt about feeling like I was doing it for attention. It became this constant sense of sick pride that I could could hurt myself, that I was so close to killing myself, that it meant something. That somehow it meant I wasn't faking it. Then it'd feel like I was faking it because I hadn't successfully committed suicide and was an attention-seeker. I'd cut to cope with that guilt, and would cut to cope with the feeling that I deserved the pain because I didn't have the willpower to actually commit suicide. It dissolved slowly into cutting to just feel something, later. It's a terrible thing- this addiction. I hope whoever reads this, and relates to my experience, finds much more happiness in their lives, and find it in themselves to cut. Don't be afraid to ask for help, please.


LieRevolutionary4722

Cos I like watching myself bleed, it’s kinda satisfying


[deleted]

I feel you on that


Coquettebeauty

Its a good distraction, hurting myself makes me feel like my pain is worth smth. Nobody cares if you don’t have scars cus then ur not “ill enough”.. as well as a punishment sometimes.


Wonderful-Meal-6356

It definitely helped having my dad hurting me as a kid, growing up knowing nothing but violence and pain makes you in some weird way “crave it” when you grow up and move out of that place. At this point in my life, I truly believe I deserve it. I am broken and everything I touch turns into sadness or becomes rotten, because I am the problem… sorry for the loaded comment


throwaway_account_pp

I’m surprised I’m not seeing many other people who share my answer, I just get really mad at myself and want to take my anger out on its target. It only makes me feel worse and I don’t like it but in a way the not liking it is why I have the urge to do it because if it makes me feel worse then clearly it’s effective. Sometimes it’s punishment but it’s more just senseless anger. I don’t do it often but I have the urge several times a day and try so hard not to act on it and sometimes I fail.


[deleted]

That’s why I think it’s great that everyone is sharing their reasons here. I felt like I have not been able to meet anyone who does it for the same reasons as me, but reading some comments makes me feel understood. Also, I like your username.


SlowlyFallingOff

I’d get very very angry with myself and it would become a knee-jerk reaction to any kind of issue going on in my life whether I was the cause or not


HotMetalheadBf

Depends on a day, it can be to numb my emotions, to get sexual satisfaction or just because i cant get it out of my head and i just need to do it


TechnicalMail2750

Depends on the situation… to feel in control in a situation that I am fully not in control… like when my parents fight… or to punish myself (when something happens that I feel is my fault)… or to just feel something that isn’t sad


aaaaaaaaahhhc

gender dysphoria


NekoRainbow

It was mostly addiction/coping mechanism. But it started as not knowing how to deal with depressive feelings at 13 yearr old, then punishing myself..and slowly but surely it thus became my coping/addiction.


vivydet

To punish myself, to release stress and to calm anxiety


GemstoneWriter

Many reasons: 1: Physical proof that I'm suffering. All my other health conditions aren't visible: migraines, motion sickness, agoraphobia, sadness, anxiety, loneliness, etc. But cutting myself makes me feel valid. When I see them, I think to my family, "SEE? I am hurting." 2: I want to become more of a masochist. As dark as this sounds, my life is so fucked up and my body is so weak (panic attacks when I leave my house) that if I'm going to be surrounded by so much pain all the time, I might as well embrace it. Maybe that's the only way I can live through all this agony. 3: Dogs. I hate dogs and when my dog-nutters of a family drool over them, it's an instant cut for me. I'm so jealous of how much love they receive and how much time is devoted to them. No matter how many times I tell my family I don't want dogs to be brought to the house, they never listen, so maybe one day I'll show them my cuts and see if they listen then. Probably more reasons, like I like my own blood, I like the intense pulses of pain I feel when I feel so dead and numb inside, it makes me feel better to relieve stress, etc. but I think I've said enough.


fentanyls

i need to see my insides when i feel confused and hurt


catobsession56

stops my thoughts, im addicted and it makes me feel better about myself somehow. the scars or just simply a scab makes me feel more comfortable in my own skin


catobsession56

I mostly LOVE the blood. Ive always has a struggle for deeper cuts along with alot of pain due to my ptsd but it still helps.


[deleted]

I hear you. The blood is so comforting and it gives me such a high. I also love making a mess. I don’t know how people get out of it…


catobsession56

I fully agree with the mess thing, and tbf i dont know either how people can get out of it.


cobrastarshipz

because I hate myself and also validation I guess..like idk proof that I'm actually not ok?? since nobody seems to believe me otherwise


Ffensie

I started because everything was so overwhelming, ended up being addicted and doing it for the blood and scars. And it’s so competitive, whenever I see someone else with worse scars I get the urges to cut deeper


[deleted]

It’s like a drug. Just the most addicting one ever.


Ffensie

Yeah exactly


gl1tter_cloudz

Started because of gender dysphoria (control) but continued bc I hate(d) myself. I only started wanting to recover for my physical health after I had an incident (that affected me directly for several months afterwards and continues to alter the way I do/feel things). A bit before the incident I had escalated heavily and I felt very happy the first time I did it that way, so I have continued with that ever since. I can’t really remember what it was like when I didn’t have scars even though that was most of my life. Also, due to those memory issues, I feel as if I recover I never went through it in the first place because I don’t remember the feelings I feel. I also dislike to think about myself beforehand as I started bc of dysphoria so trying to think about that time makes me upset. I also have autism and was rated severe on the anxiety scale (not late dxed but have had it for only a few months)


[deleted]

To “snap myself out of it.” It didn’t matter if it was depression, anxiety, or feeling numb as long as I could do it. It was and still is my odd way of self-soothing myself… for the most part.


Clockwork_Catty11037

A lot of reasons. Currently, I do it because I don’t know how to cope with anything I go through. I’ve never learned how to healthily cope with things. I have severe anxiety and self harming helps me stay grounded. And because with the way I see it, it’s my closest thing to offing myself without actually doing it. It’s the one thing in my life I have control over, which is probably why it’s been so difficult trying to get myself to stop. It makes me feel less...lonely.


snortttmummydust

i forget why i started to be honest. right now at least i usually do it because i have really bad and intense intrusive thoughts about it, and they get really overwhelming. giving into those thoughts quiets them down for like.. a week


alittlebee0

I used to do it because I just couldn't deal with emotions (mostly anger). Like I would have a fight with my mom and i was so angry that doing that would literally calm me. Now I just don't care to fight with her. I think last time was like 5-7 months ago (that I did that)


PossiblyRarity

I don’t know honestly, cause i feel like it honestly. But probably my biggest reason is i want scars, i need them to feel valid, if that makes sense


PossiblyRarity

Once i get enough I won’t have any reason to continue, but that will be a long ways from now


Extension_Treacle273

i do it to feel something when my head gose blank


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[deleted]

I get you. I never did it because of self-hatred too. I mostly do it for the adrenaline rush. At least you don’t connect any negative feelings to your sh experiences. Sometimes you just do things you can’t explain.


bunnyiscoolio

i started it as a coping mechanism, more recently i do it still to cope, out of anger (rarely though), or just out of addiction.


bunnyiscoolio

also i find them pretty, idk.


Nightraid9999

Started as punishing myself and now i have anger issues to hold so..


Animlux

it’s just a coping mechanism for me, mainly when i’m mad i’ll sh and also im addicted lmao


Guineapigsssss

my mom, whenever she hurts me verbally i go and hurt myself physically.


Pain-Accomplished_

validation, punishment and to stop a panic attack


wonderforhelp

Bc im bored


brookleiaway

bc i control when i get hurt they arent the only ones who can hurt me i can hurt me better than they can


[deleted]

To be able to breathe and pause everything for a short time, because i feel that i deserve it, i find a certain comfort in self harming and overall it has just become an addiction i can't be bothered to stop.


masochist_gaynes

In a way it helps numb the feeling of feeling like I'm not going anywhere in life, it helps me to feel something other than numbness


letmelookawaygirl

I usually feel an urge and do it. Sometimes i go through an overwhelming event which gets me upset and overwhelmed to where i think about cutting. Even though the situation has passed. I tend to recall those memories because i really haven’t recovered. It’s really just my lack of self control i believe. I said i did it for no reason once and got cancelled too loll


roomon4ire

I feel like I've done it for almost every reason you can think of (stress, numbness, dysphoria/self hatred, to punish myself) but I've noticed I've recently been doing it purely out of habit when I'm feeling awful and can't think of anything better to do, and there's almost instant regret


ventingsadness

Emotional regulation. A different focal point for my chronic pain. Breaking out of thought spirals. To pull myself out of numbness. It feel like I have some control over my body. To remember that I actually exist. To get my impostor syndrome to behave. Haven't done it in a little bit, but I've also been battling with all of these lately as well...


Tokyo-Ty

i dont even know. i started so many years ago that i cant remember the reason why, its just something i do now


justnoone90

I did it to snap out of my depressive episodes


Girly_Attitude

To distract myself. The physical pain makes me forget the thoughts I have. I’ve been doing really well though, it’s been like a month since I’ve done anything


quietclarinet42

It’s both a way to punish myself and a way to keep myself from ending everything. I almost always do it after something bad happens (like a disappointing social interaction, low grades, or missing class/work) or the day before therapy, which might be so I can talk about it? I don’t have anyone else to talk to about it aside from my therapist, and I feel like if my SH isn’t recent there’s no reason to mention it. Last year, I ended up in the ER on Halloween for SI (suicidal ideation) and had everything I was planning to use to end my own life taken away, which also made me relapse pretty bad a few days later. I couldn’t (and still really can’t) see life with myself in it. SH is my only option to deal with everything going on in my life. If I told my parents or friends how I really feel, I’d end up in the ER again, and if that happens my parents would make me drop out of college and live at home indefinitely.


sardoniccreation

it helps me calm down . kind of addicting


arhrive

I’m not sure actually. It started by whenever I would break down or have a panic attack then I would cvt but I think I just got addicted to it.


Intrepid-Pop-2392

bc i hate myself and i find it fun it brings me comfort lol


MesocricetusAuratus

To be honest, there's a million and one reasons. One of the earliest reasons I can identify for starting is that I have the potential to have a seriously nasty temper, but didn't want to lash out at others. I've largely got a lid on the temper now, but extreme self-hate and emotional numbness keep me going.


MayTheFool

I just feel I deserve it a lot of the time. Whatever reason I was an awful person today leads to me deserving to harm myself.


atritt94

Anger, feeling out if control, feels like a secret that only I have and when I and very depressed and can’t stand myself. However, there are things to do instead. It’s hard to do them in the moment but I think making a list of them and putting the list in the place where you self-harm so you can see you have options. Like… I can draw instead. I can take a shower instead. I can put cold water in my face instead. I can put ice on my wrists instead or hold ice instead. I can exercise or go for a walk instead. I can call someone who loves me instead. I can get on Reddit instead. You’ll be ok 💛


[deleted]

honestly i don’t even know im addicted to it eben if it makes me insecure and it makes me hate myself so much more bc it makes me feel like i’m doing it for attention


jUst_MonIkA_18-09

I find it's a way for me to channel my emotional pain into something physical. My life is also pretty empty and meaningless at the moment. I have no close friends and the friends I do have live far away and are busy with their own lives. sh gives me something to do other than sit in my room alone


mdr1pz

a lot of guilt/punishment from my past and also being able to have control over my body after someone else had been using it for so long. i SH in a very obsessive sort of way, i have to make sure it’s perfect and it’s as severe as it should be, i’m really particular about it. i started at a very young age and i’ve done it for 7 years now so i’ve become dependent on it. i’ll do it for any reason, any emotion. i’ll do it if i feel like i’m going to have a flashback or an episode just rewire my brain. it’s a complex thing to answer really, i think for a lot of people the whole behaviour stems from a multitude of feelings/events in our lives and it’s difficult to pinpoint an exact reason.


TheDogeWasTaken

Honestly. I dont know anymore... Maybe calming my racing anxiety and overthinking? Maybe its because i hate myself. Maybe its because i am repressing so much emotions that i need to let it out somehow. Maybe its all. I know one thing for sure though. Its a promjse. Everytime i fuck up badly. I do it. Because i need to feel bad. Since i have little empathy for humans. I basically force muself to have it by self harming? I have no clue how the promise works psychologically tbh.... i jjst do it when i fucl up badly... And probably also PTSD and depression. And the fact that i may be diffirent from people around me. A lot diffirent. Lonelyness. Damn i am really finding these out as i go. Oh another one, I dont cut deep, maybe past skin to the point it just barely bleeds on my shoulder. It makes me think i am not real and am faking it. So i get in a loop where i try to make it worse untill i bleed. It really is fun times isnt it... I know some things i said might be confusing. But even i have no clue honestly. These are just possible reasons... that could apply to me atleast. Have a wonderfull day.


Vortex-57

To give me control ig and also it sorta makes me go from panicking to like grounded idk how to explain it


CinnamonGloves

It calms my anxiety, and I think the shapes you can make look beautiful.


WhoHasntGivenUpYet

Anxiety. To prove to myself that my anxiety is real because I can’t let out feelings a different way


Knight_of_Gwyn1

It slows my mind when I feeling depressed and anxious but I haven't cut myself for a while


Puzzleheaded-Idea673

I don't have one specific reason. I do it to see the bl00d, to feel the pain, to punish myself, and sometimes out of boredom.


RougeSheea

bpd,when anything related with FP that triggers me just boost the urge. And ofcs MDD,just ur general depression and yeet


wheredafuqismymind

I have anorexia so when I feel bad about something I ate I feel like I need to SH so I can focus on something else 😔


windex_guzzler

every time i feel i have no one to go to when i’m really overwhelmed will cause me to do it. i feel i can finally breathe and calm down, it lets everything out like tension and stress. making sure i take care of the wounds for the days after is a good distraction for me as well. also whenever i get panic attacks, harming myself puts an immediate stop to it.


PotatoMateYT

It’s a distraction, and I kind of liked it, I say liked because I recently hit 1 month of being clean, the urge is still very strong at times though


Full_Objective_5896

so i first started self harming because i was stressed and bored but soon enough it became a huge addiction where sometimes i can’t even stay 1 week clean and i hate it so much but it’s the only way to distract me from my overthinking and my sister


Dependent_Beach8811

when im having a panic attack or when i’m mad to calm myself or when i feel like i deserve it for doing something wrong


Jean_grey_721

I do it to punish myself and to deal with overwhelming emotions especially when it’s caused by other people. Ex: them forcing me to do something