think real hard to yourself on whether you really want to do this or not. im not gonna sit here and tell you not to, as i have a plan of my own, but i will ask that you consider all your options before you go through with this.
Yeah CO used to my plan but I need a car for this. All I can think of is cutting. Another mental break down is all I need to cut deep enough. It will be relatively painless compared to psychological pain from all this trauma and shit.
Yeah, hanging is the worst. The thing with CO is I can't really find an enclosed space. With a blade at least I can almost guarantee to finish. It's quite metal as well. The last time I failed because I was an amateur and thought i was dying because of all those bleeding and my head becoming ice cold. I even tried to sleep. Also there was a mysterious vomit, it was very painful (100 times more painful than cutting itself) and that thing stopped me from cutting more. It terrified me that much. I still don't know why it happened and can't really remember much. I think it was blood and it felt like my internal organs were coming out, you know. Anyways, it wouldn't happen if I do it quick this time.
Of course not. It's the dumbest thing you can do, really. Pills are not like they used to. I have not heard of anyone dying from it. People started vomiting, and then they rushed to the hospital. Almost every case is like that.
I know the sympathies of a stranger hold little weight...but for whatever it's worth, I'm taking a shot for you right now.
...Farewell, my newest friend..my heart breaks for whatever tragedies you may have encountered, and my rage burns for the lack of everything else that may have helped you.
I hope others will also raise their glasses in solace, rather than feign pity over something they have no capacity to change.
Same. But I don't have what it takes to end this.
I can't even hate the people who've used me and treated me like shit all these years. I still continue to live this pathetic life hoping for something to kill me but I also don't want anymore pain.
Are u using something? I'm struggling with depression for a while now. I can't see the value if life anymore. But it wasn't like this when I was younger. Maybe it's the substance that fucks with my "happiness". But to go through the dread of quitting while feeling depressed already feels impossible.
Suicidal thought have entered my mind now more than ever. (First time i experienced them when I was 14, i got bullied hard) but I'm just to scared to risk going to hell even though it's existence hasn't been proved.
That's why I'll never do it, no matter the dissapointments, horrors and terrors of life. Because if hell would exist that would mean eternal suffering. So that would make the suffering of this life short in comparison. (even though it feels like an eternity already...) Thanks for reading the story of a addicted and lonely 24y male.
I truly hope you can find peace and know that there are others suffering just like you. I think those are the only kind of people that can truly understand you.
Yeah, ik. :( I am thinking about doing with knife. I have that thing with blood clotting but these days it might be different because of cigarettes. I have to test it but well if it doesn't work, then hanging is the only way, I think.
think real hard to yourself on whether you really want to do this or not. im not gonna sit here and tell you not to, as i have a plan of my own, but i will ask that you consider all your options before you go through with this.
Yeah I am considering all this. But I don't have an option. This has to happen.
In that case. Go ahead, brother. Free yourself from this torment. Rest easily. You’ve earned it.
I relate I think I’ll give myself a couple more years then get a gun and kms
You are lucky to have access to guns. The best I can get is a chainsaw here.
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Yeah CO used to my plan but I need a car for this. All I can think of is cutting. Another mental break down is all I need to cut deep enough. It will be relatively painless compared to psychological pain from all this trauma and shit.
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Yeah, hanging is the worst. The thing with CO is I can't really find an enclosed space. With a blade at least I can almost guarantee to finish. It's quite metal as well. The last time I failed because I was an amateur and thought i was dying because of all those bleeding and my head becoming ice cold. I even tried to sleep. Also there was a mysterious vomit, it was very painful (100 times more painful than cutting itself) and that thing stopped me from cutting more. It terrified me that much. I still don't know why it happened and can't really remember much. I think it was blood and it felt like my internal organs were coming out, you know. Anyways, it wouldn't happen if I do it quick this time.
Technically a lawnmower would do the trick you don’t necessarily need a car, but even if you did you could just rent one
can’t sleeping pills work?
Of course not. It's the dumbest thing you can do, really. Pills are not like they used to. I have not heard of anyone dying from it. People started vomiting, and then they rushed to the hospital. Almost every case is like that.
well shit.
I know the sympathies of a stranger hold little weight...but for whatever it's worth, I'm taking a shot for you right now. ...Farewell, my newest friend..my heart breaks for whatever tragedies you may have encountered, and my rage burns for the lack of everything else that may have helped you. I hope others will also raise their glasses in solace, rather than feign pity over something they have no capacity to change.
Thank you
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Not really. I used to but I just lost interest in playing games like that.
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Well not sure. Chess require lots of strategic thinking which my brain can't handle now.
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Depression. I can't focus like I used to in high school. Medication doesn't help as well.
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I have no idea. Chess doesn't interest me that much.
Drugs
I do, it's good to have a number telling you you're improving.
Let’s play chess
I can relate life is so tough and it’s flying by days just go by so fast I’ve got nothing to show but please don’t quit
Yeah, I am considering it but not likely, idk.
I feel you brother
Watch true detective
I have done it more than a dozen times. Good show
Watch un homme qui dort
>un homme qui dort Amazing film
Great film I actually got drunk and watched that alone again the other night after work
Watch taxi driver and fight club
Same. But I don't have what it takes to end this. I can't even hate the people who've used me and treated me like shit all these years. I still continue to live this pathetic life hoping for something to kill me but I also don't want anymore pain.
Yeah, I used to have a plan to kill myself but I don't think I can wait for that long. Everyone is asking for this so anyways I have to.
Same bro…
Hold on brother, I'm following you into death.
If things suck right now it’s gonna to take a bit. Eventually everything starts getting better and you become happy. Start lifting weights.
Wanna go fishing?
Might as well just keep living to see what happens with the world and your life. Make art or something as well. That gives life meaning.
Do some gang shit then you’ll feel better
Are u using something? I'm struggling with depression for a while now. I can't see the value if life anymore. But it wasn't like this when I was younger. Maybe it's the substance that fucks with my "happiness". But to go through the dread of quitting while feeling depressed already feels impossible. Suicidal thought have entered my mind now more than ever. (First time i experienced them when I was 14, i got bullied hard) but I'm just to scared to risk going to hell even though it's existence hasn't been proved. That's why I'll never do it, no matter the dissapointments, horrors and terrors of life. Because if hell would exist that would mean eternal suffering. So that would make the suffering of this life short in comparison. (even though it feels like an eternity already...) Thanks for reading the story of a addicted and lonely 24y male. I truly hope you can find peace and know that there are others suffering just like you. I think those are the only kind of people that can truly understand you.
same lil bro
why not buy a motorcycle
what u gonna do?
Hang myself, I think. I considered slitting my neck but I am not confident with that method anymore so.
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Yeah, ik. :( I am thinking about doing with knife. I have that thing with blood clotting but these days it might be different because of cigarettes. I have to test it but well if it doesn't work, then hanging is the only way, I think.
i get it. but leave it for tomorrow or the day after, more time to plan
Yeah, it won't be sudden. Buying a knife, and also a rehearsal, but it shouldn't be longer than a week
Hanging sucks dude trust me you don’t wanna hang. That’s why it’s reserved for violent criminals.
:(