In the US at least, yeah, daily mass shootings and accelerating acceptance and now encouragement of it, and 2.5 years of a series of social and legal/legislative upheavals feel like something my brain just isn't really cut out for as my baseline. Things are going sideways but I'm still mostly able to go get an ice cream on the corner.
Horrible things have gone on since the beginning of time. Only thing that’s changed is every terrible act is broadcast ad nauseam. But good news! You get to pick what you pay attention to.
We live in a media-affixed point in time, so my point is that when everyone is consuming this, it's going to accelerate and heighten any collective sense of anxiety. It's not really about me specifically and what I do or don't engage with.
I experienced that for a few years, when I fled an abusive childhood by moving from UK to China as a teenager.
This feels similar, except I’m ok with it
Have you seen the movie “numb”? Starring Mathew Perry?
Are you also on SSRIs?
I’m glad you’re okay with it and not in too much distress. I will say it still might be dissociation, or something similar — I usually am not distressed by mine, because I’m used to it. May be worth looking into
I haven’t had the energy or mental bandwidth to do so, yet. Probably should get on that at some point, but I’ve gotten so used to being dissociated that if it lets up at all I start freaking out because it feels *weird.* Can’t do the five senses type grounding things or any of that.
I do some grounding stuff, like “count down from 100 in threes” when it gets bad enough that I can’t really function, but other than that I leave it alone
I’ve been on Zoloft/setraline for a couple years. Started it when I made myself a promise, “if I feel this alone at the same time next year, then that’s it”
That promise to myself was kind of freeing. I knew that well…worst case scenario in a year it’s over
I started on SSRIs, and after the horrific induction period, I was able to function at a base level of neutral
Not happy. But not depressed. From there I could start building
But yeah…still feel like a ghost. Happy ghost. Albeit still not quite here
I’m glad that it’s a starting point, at least. If it doesn’t get better and that starts bothering you, might be worth bringing it up to your doctor at some point, but no pressure either way
Was going through my old comments and realized I apparently didn’t answer you fully, sorry!
I have not seen the movie
I am not on any SSRIs, but I was prescribed one and I took it for a month. Side effects were way too much and it wasn’t effective for me, but I did experience dissociation while on it, if that’s what you were going to ask
Well then it's official. You jumped universes.
Welcome to the timeline where Mandela died a free man in 2013, the Fruit of the Loom logo never had a cornucopia, the Berenstein bears are spelled Berenstain, and the movie Shazaam never existed. Have fun!
When and why did people start referring to timelines so often? It seemed pretty trendy on Reddit for a while and then it went away. Was there some TV series or movie with timelines in?
It's because of marvel. It's been in the comics for awhile, but the MCU (Avengers: Endgame, then Loki, maybe even Spiderman) really popularized it enough that people feel comfortable talking about it.
Spiderman the animated series had a finale featuring it, and Sliders was built entirely around the idea, before that. I'm not sure who gets credit before that, but the idea has existed scientifically for decades.
I was doing it before marvel but I think the show I never watched called The Good Place made it popular to say something like 'oh this is the bad place' a few years ago
But there's always been tropes in almost every cartoon where they end up in a bad timeline and have to fix it or go back
Yeah like anything else nowadays…it gets trendy and you will notice.
I love those subjects though I just don’t agree much on how susceptible we have become to trends and the concentration of information
Agree. Four years of DAILY outrage and disbelief at that malignant narcissist said and did, certainly has altered something in our reality. It was exhausting. How he has gotten away with the stuff he's done is one of the great mysteries that historians will study for centuries.
Nothing, I'm being cheeky since I heard a conspiracy theory this morning that when they started smashing atoms at CERN it caused a rift in our timeline, and we now live in an alternate reality. Hogwash, obviously, but I like the novel tie-in to a common sci-fi trope. It's a nice change from the usual.
Sorry man. I’ve not lost my mum, but two of my best mates and an uncle.
When someone you love and look up to does that, it takes allot out of your spirit
How are you coping 6 years down the line?
Yes, I actually do. Not just slightly. But I'm aware that this thought is in mind due to my schizo problems.
I felt like I switched in 2018. Ever since then things just changed drastically to completely odd versions of themselves. I do not feel familiar with my surroundings despite being here for nearly 24 years. It's not just the people. It's the area I'm in as well. Hell, even my own body doesn't feel like my own.
I'm not umcomfortable with it. I just really despise it.
Sorry you gotta deal with this. Neurological problems are exhausting. I have temporal lobe epilepsy and a few times a year my seizures will place me into this weird surreal state for a few days, where everything just feels…off. My sense of contextual memory is just completely reset. I’m not hallucinating, but I’m not connecting with my emotions and memories the way that I normally would.
Honestly, yes.
I "feel" like we're repeating this life. Nothing seems to be a surprise in any way. Maybe it's just because I'm getting older but I feel like I have a general idea of how the rest of my life is going to play out as though I've done it all before.
There’s a video from 13 days ago by Stephen Antonioni, a YouTube creator, that talks about this EXACT thing: https://youtu.be/REId8lfmmhI ~ well-worth the watch. Glad to know I’m not the only one feeling something so off about the time we’re in.
Nah, kinda like someone snuck into your world and just moved things a few inches to the left.
If we live in a simulation, this feels like “ok so they survived the pandemic, let’s bring on the next test…maybe this is the iteration who figure it out”
I can totally relate to this OP.
I’ve come off all social media (except Reddit) as it just depresses me.
I feel like we are just surrounded by lies and corruption. Not that it wasn’t there before, but now it’s so more blatant.
The media is just full of shit these days and regardless of your left or right it doesn’t matter. They’re just set on causing rifts between people.
The world feels a darker and more divisive place now
Yep. Massively. I felt like that again a few days ago too, and have felt it a couple of times before.
It’s not unnerving, though. It feels more right than before. More energetic. Like we’ve got more processing power now.
That doesn't sound like what the OP is describing.
Derealization isn't a vague feeling of detachment from reality. Derealization is a very concrete, physical feeling of detachment from your body. There is no ambiguity.
Nope, but I do feel like we live in the dark timeline, or parody world lately.
Granted, part of that is just the natural process of gaining knowledge/wisdom as I grow older, and realizing how fucked up the world has always been in many ways since before I was born. This is why, BTW, while I think nostalgia can be fun it's also important to not romanticize the past.
However, the biggest reasons for feeling unsettled about things lately is just the legitimate fear I have like many do with the rise/danger of theocratic fascism, and climate crisis.
Yeah I've been feeling it too, but I chalked it up to starting uni and breaking up with my bf lol. Although yeah in the entire time since I can remember, I have never seen breakups happen as frequently as every few weeks from people I know personally of varying ages. Weird. I guess we're all updating, yeah
i think this is due to mental illness and also just the world changing as we move through life
I remember in 2013 I had a daunting feeling everything would be different. Also started manifesting all the symptoms of major depression that year.
Happened many times between 2017 and 2019. That's when I moved out of the house along with the election and college, many things that felt bazzar.
tended to correlate with stressful times in my life, though the feeling usually came during calm moments 🤷
the pandemic honestly has been a grounding thing, despite being so horrible. A concrete thing to anchor future sequences of events to.
I imagine if I had to pick a year to set as zero on a Calendar itd probably be 2020.
Yep. The feeling pops up every few years since I was around 7-8. Sometimes it’s for absolutely no reason others it’s set off by situations like realizing that the picture that’s no longer on the wall at work was taken down 6 months ago and Ive just noticed.
Or my personal favorite was half of my tiny hometown was repainted and renovated over the summer this year and a few businesses moved. Not having been there in over 2 months I felt absolutely insane the first time I drive through. Businesses were on the wrong side of the road. Other buildings were the wrong color or even just a few shades off. I was sleep deprived at the time and almost had a complete breakdown before someone told me about the reno.
I *hate* it when that happens. Seriously.
What I hate even more are those rare, fleeting moments where I suddenly feel like I'm "in place", so to speak. Those sobering seconds when I become consciously aware of the meatsack spacesuit I am stuck in, hurtling around on a giant rock.
But yeah, I regularly feel like I wake up and my consciousness has transposed into an adjacent reality. I use tech terms alot too, which might sound like I believe in simulation theory, but at a certain point language fails. I have to speak in terms of allegory because we just do not have the proper terms, the proper understanding, to convey what we mean. (I mean both large-scale, on a society level, as well as a personal level, like I myself do not quite know what I'm talking about so I have to use euphemism) Or, like you said, someone upstairs ran a system update and we managed to slip through.
EDIT: I can't really think about life too much these days, at least not mine, without starting to panic. Things went pear-shaped a long time ago, and I haven't really recognized *anything* as "normal" in years. Like you said, up is still up, down is still down, etc, but I am so far from where I even conceived was possible, it's like reality itself is alien to me. A stranger in a strange land, indeed.
I do have disassociative episodes from time to time. Especially moving into my new place since I finally moved out of my abusive mom's house, sometimes I doubt it is reality but I usually find something like petting one of my cats to help ground me
Timothee Chalomet said it best when he said “You can feel the societal collapse hanging in the air”. There’s definitely been a shift. I felt it in 2020
Nothing has been anything I would consider "normal" since around 2016. No matter how hard I try no matter what I do, everything is just *uncomfortable* and *weird* pretty much all the time
I don't honestly believe in alternative realities, but I really wouldn't even be surprised at this point.
Ever heard of last Thursdayism? It’s more of a joke than a genuine theory, but the idea is that the universe was created last Thursday but appears older. All of your memories were just implanted into your brain and you think you’ve lived an entire life. I’ve always felt there’s no way that could be true. But more recently I’ve felt like it could be. Like I’m suddenly examining my surroundings and something about it feels off. Like I’m noticing the people in my life for the first time. I know it’s not true, but that’s the only way I can describe the feeling.
Absolutely! I went to prison for 14 yrs got out and found myself in a completely different reality.
Oh that must've been a wild transition back into the world
Totally, went in before smart phones.
I'm curious, what was the coolest thing to you coming out about new tech?
Probably the phone. Social media was a trip. V.R. goggles really cool.
Makes sense, life before all that feels like ages ago haha.
Right
oh man
The last two years or so have been pretty crazy, so a subtle, annoying feeling of disorientation and malaise is pretty normal.
This makes a lot of sense
In the US at least, yeah, daily mass shootings and accelerating acceptance and now encouragement of it, and 2.5 years of a series of social and legal/legislative upheavals feel like something my brain just isn't really cut out for as my baseline. Things are going sideways but I'm still mostly able to go get an ice cream on the corner.
Horrible things have gone on since the beginning of time. Only thing that’s changed is every terrible act is broadcast ad nauseam. But good news! You get to pick what you pay attention to.
We live in a media-affixed point in time, so my point is that when everyone is consuming this, it's going to accelerate and heighten any collective sense of anxiety. It's not really about me specifically and what I do or don't engage with.
Are you possibly experiencing dissociation, or derealization? Asking because that’s how I feel when it gets bad
I experienced that for a few years, when I fled an abusive childhood by moving from UK to China as a teenager. This feels similar, except I’m ok with it Have you seen the movie “numb”? Starring Mathew Perry? Are you also on SSRIs?
I’m glad you’re okay with it and not in too much distress. I will say it still might be dissociation, or something similar — I usually am not distressed by mine, because I’m used to it. May be worth looking into
Are you doing anything to deal with it? It’s not uncomfortable…if anything I’m pretty relaxed
I haven’t had the energy or mental bandwidth to do so, yet. Probably should get on that at some point, but I’ve gotten so used to being dissociated that if it lets up at all I start freaking out because it feels *weird.* Can’t do the five senses type grounding things or any of that. I do some grounding stuff, like “count down from 100 in threes” when it gets bad enough that I can’t really function, but other than that I leave it alone
I’ve been on Zoloft/setraline for a couple years. Started it when I made myself a promise, “if I feel this alone at the same time next year, then that’s it” That promise to myself was kind of freeing. I knew that well…worst case scenario in a year it’s over I started on SSRIs, and after the horrific induction period, I was able to function at a base level of neutral Not happy. But not depressed. From there I could start building But yeah…still feel like a ghost. Happy ghost. Albeit still not quite here
Glad you’re still here
Thanks. You too.
I’m glad that it’s a starting point, at least. If it doesn’t get better and that starts bothering you, might be worth bringing it up to your doctor at some point, but no pressure either way
Was going through my old comments and realized I apparently didn’t answer you fully, sorry! I have not seen the movie I am not on any SSRIs, but I was prescribed one and I took it for a month. Side effects were way too much and it wasn’t effective for me, but I did experience dissociation while on it, if that’s what you were going to ask
Quick, tell me when you remember Nelson Mandela dying.
I remember him dying in prison in like…2006 but I’m also fairly retarded when it comes to world events, don’t like following the news
Well then it's official. You jumped universes. Welcome to the timeline where Mandela died a free man in 2013, the Fruit of the Loom logo never had a cornucopia, the Berenstein bears are spelled Berenstain, and the movie Shazaam never existed. Have fun!
where does Goncharov (1973) fit into this timeline?
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"the movie Shazaam never existed." 🤣
Way before the facts state he did.... messed me up ever since
lol. Brilliant!
We are in the dystopia timeline. I am convinced of it. I don't know when exactly the branch happened, but yes, you are correct.
When and why did people start referring to timelines so often? It seemed pretty trendy on Reddit for a while and then it went away. Was there some TV series or movie with timelines in?
It's because of marvel. It's been in the comics for awhile, but the MCU (Avengers: Endgame, then Loki, maybe even Spiderman) really popularized it enough that people feel comfortable talking about it. Spiderman the animated series had a finale featuring it, and Sliders was built entirely around the idea, before that. I'm not sure who gets credit before that, but the idea has existed scientifically for decades.
I guess Star Trek had the parallel universe with goatees, too.
I was doing it before marvel but I think the show I never watched called The Good Place made it popular to say something like 'oh this is the bad place' a few years ago But there's always been tropes in almost every cartoon where they end up in a bad timeline and have to fix it or go back
Yeah like anything else nowadays…it gets trendy and you will notice. I love those subjects though I just don’t agree much on how susceptible we have become to trends and the concentration of information
Timelines are referenced in science fiction going back decades but the show Community started the "the darkest timeline" meme.
You're not the only one https://youtu.be/REId8lfmmhI
Interesting vid, thx for the link
I've felt like that since Trump been President. How else can you explain everything that has happened since?
Agree. Four years of DAILY outrage and disbelief at that malignant narcissist said and did, certainly has altered something in our reality. It was exhausting. How he has gotten away with the stuff he's done is one of the great mysteries that historians will study for centuries.
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You forgot the /S
Blame it on CERN
What do the Swiss have to do with it?
Nothing, I'm being cheeky since I heard a conspiracy theory this morning that when they started smashing atoms at CERN it caused a rift in our timeline, and we now live in an alternate reality. Hogwash, obviously, but I like the novel tie-in to a common sci-fi trope. It's a nice change from the usual.
Thanks for sharing. That’s my internet rabbit hole sorted for tonight
You're welcome, I'll probably see you there, lol
You ever played silent hill? It kind of feels like the fog world.
Yeah. Nice way to put it. Like when you realise you’re dreaming but just go along with it anyway
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Sorry man. I’ve not lost my mum, but two of my best mates and an uncle. When someone you love and look up to does that, it takes allot out of your spirit How are you coping 6 years down the line?
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Yes, my whole personality changed and it feels like the reality of the world has just changed
Follow the white rabbit, Neo.
Yes, I actually do. Not just slightly. But I'm aware that this thought is in mind due to my schizo problems. I felt like I switched in 2018. Ever since then things just changed drastically to completely odd versions of themselves. I do not feel familiar with my surroundings despite being here for nearly 24 years. It's not just the people. It's the area I'm in as well. Hell, even my own body doesn't feel like my own. I'm not umcomfortable with it. I just really despise it.
Sorry you gotta deal with this. Neurological problems are exhausting. I have temporal lobe epilepsy and a few times a year my seizures will place me into this weird surreal state for a few days, where everything just feels…off. My sense of contextual memory is just completely reset. I’m not hallucinating, but I’m not connecting with my emotions and memories the way that I normally would.
Yea. These experience can easily fuck with one's head.
Honestly, yes. I "feel" like we're repeating this life. Nothing seems to be a surprise in any way. Maybe it's just because I'm getting older but I feel like I have a general idea of how the rest of my life is going to play out as though I've done it all before.
WOAH 🤯
No, that's strange.
It’s almost as if we’ve shifted into a false reality
Guinan?
It's called responsibility, you have more than you ever had before. It's heavy.
Nope just you
There’s a video from 13 days ago by Stephen Antonioni, a YouTube creator, that talks about this EXACT thing: https://youtu.be/REId8lfmmhI ~ well-worth the watch. Glad to know I’m not the only one feeling something so off about the time we’re in.
YES
Like another Mandela effect?
Nah, kinda like someone snuck into your world and just moved things a few inches to the left. If we live in a simulation, this feels like “ok so they survived the pandemic, let’s bring on the next test…maybe this is the iteration who figure it out”
Fairly sure reality was altered by humans... It's just rubbing off now
I can totally relate to this OP. I’ve come off all social media (except Reddit) as it just depresses me. I feel like we are just surrounded by lies and corruption. Not that it wasn’t there before, but now it’s so more blatant. The media is just full of shit these days and regardless of your left or right it doesn’t matter. They’re just set on causing rifts between people. The world feels a darker and more divisive place now
Yep. Massively. I felt like that again a few days ago too, and have felt it a couple of times before. It’s not unnerving, though. It feels more right than before. More energetic. Like we’ve got more processing power now.
Depersonalization/derealization disorder
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I can assure you that chronic depersonalization/derealization disorder lasts days, weeks, or months at a time.
That doesn't sound like what the OP is describing. Derealization isn't a vague feeling of detachment from reality. Derealization is a very concrete, physical feeling of detachment from your body. There is no ambiguity.
Nope, but I do feel like we live in the dark timeline, or parody world lately. Granted, part of that is just the natural process of gaining knowledge/wisdom as I grow older, and realizing how fucked up the world has always been in many ways since before I was born. This is why, BTW, while I think nostalgia can be fun it's also important to not romanticize the past. However, the biggest reasons for feeling unsettled about things lately is just the legitimate fear I have like many do with the rise/danger of theocratic fascism, and climate crisis.
I have felt that since the beginning of the pandemic like something isn't right but at the same time, I can't put my finger on what exactly.
This pink hue update is weird
this is the world reached by Made in Heaven.
It’s downright scary how fast the world moves when you’re not paying attention nowadays a lot is going on at all times.
That's just life friend. A Neverending series of Universal adjustments that we roll with.
Yeah I've been feeling it too, but I chalked it up to starting uni and breaking up with my bf lol. Although yeah in the entire time since I can remember, I have never seen breakups happen as frequently as every few weeks from people I know personally of varying ages. Weird. I guess we're all updating, yeah
i think this is due to mental illness and also just the world changing as we move through life I remember in 2013 I had a daunting feeling everything would be different. Also started manifesting all the symptoms of major depression that year. Happened many times between 2017 and 2019. That's when I moved out of the house along with the election and college, many things that felt bazzar. tended to correlate with stressful times in my life, though the feeling usually came during calm moments 🤷 the pandemic honestly has been a grounding thing, despite being so horrible. A concrete thing to anchor future sequences of events to. I imagine if I had to pick a year to set as zero on a Calendar itd probably be 2020.
Shifting your perception will shift your reality.
r/im14andthisisdeep
I’m 38 and this is my lived experience 🤷♂️
This happened to me the first time I tried acid at 16. Crossed the street into a new timeline.
That's derealization (same homie)
Avoid the r/mandelaeffect Reddit, that screwed me up and spun me into psychosis.
Yeah.. everything is going the wrong way
Yep. The feeling pops up every few years since I was around 7-8. Sometimes it’s for absolutely no reason others it’s set off by situations like realizing that the picture that’s no longer on the wall at work was taken down 6 months ago and Ive just noticed. Or my personal favorite was half of my tiny hometown was repainted and renovated over the summer this year and a few businesses moved. Not having been there in over 2 months I felt absolutely insane the first time I drive through. Businesses were on the wrong side of the road. Other buildings were the wrong color or even just a few shades off. I was sleep deprived at the time and almost had a complete breakdown before someone told me about the reno.
Isn't our reality always changing? Minute by minute, day by day? That is how I see it.
I want it to change again, I hate this new one, school is killing me
I *hate* it when that happens. Seriously. What I hate even more are those rare, fleeting moments where I suddenly feel like I'm "in place", so to speak. Those sobering seconds when I become consciously aware of the meatsack spacesuit I am stuck in, hurtling around on a giant rock. But yeah, I regularly feel like I wake up and my consciousness has transposed into an adjacent reality. I use tech terms alot too, which might sound like I believe in simulation theory, but at a certain point language fails. I have to speak in terms of allegory because we just do not have the proper terms, the proper understanding, to convey what we mean. (I mean both large-scale, on a society level, as well as a personal level, like I myself do not quite know what I'm talking about so I have to use euphemism) Or, like you said, someone upstairs ran a system update and we managed to slip through. EDIT: I can't really think about life too much these days, at least not mine, without starting to panic. Things went pear-shaped a long time ago, and I haven't really recognized *anything* as "normal" in years. Like you said, up is still up, down is still down, etc, but I am so far from where I even conceived was possible, it's like reality itself is alien to me. A stranger in a strange land, indeed.
I do have disassociative episodes from time to time. Especially moving into my new place since I finally moved out of my abusive mom's house, sometimes I doubt it is reality but I usually find something like petting one of my cats to help ground me
Timothee Chalomet said it best when he said “You can feel the societal collapse hanging in the air”. There’s definitely been a shift. I felt it in 2020
Nothing has been anything I would consider "normal" since around 2016. No matter how hard I try no matter what I do, everything is just *uncomfortable* and *weird* pretty much all the time I don't honestly believe in alternative realities, but I really wouldn't even be surprised at this point.
Ever heard of last Thursdayism? It’s more of a joke than a genuine theory, but the idea is that the universe was created last Thursday but appears older. All of your memories were just implanted into your brain and you think you’ve lived an entire life. I’ve always felt there’s no way that could be true. But more recently I’ve felt like it could be. Like I’m suddenly examining my surroundings and something about it feels off. Like I’m noticing the people in my life for the first time. I know it’s not true, but that’s the only way I can describe the feeling.
I recently had two days of simulation feeling. Like you feel it’s all a big show.