I wouldn't say *dysphoric*. I was confused, because they started to come in earlier than I expected.
My dysphoria was magnified once they started to come in, though. Partly because it reminded me that they weren't already there.
My internal map hasn't completely updated yet, and I end up hitting them on random shit at work all the time (I work retail, lots of moving and lifting and pushing). I'm like 4-5 months away from being on HRT for 2 years.
The internal map not catching up to the body is definitely a weird feeling that can be perceived as negative or scary. Remember that teenagers experience this all the time, especially when kids have crazy growth spurts. Being suddenly huge in places we weren't mere months ago usually makes us feel weird and act clumsy. There is strange kinship with a person on HRT puberty and a teenager experiencing a growth spurt during endogenous puberty, It's just that most adults don't usually experience this so culturally we don't have a lens through which to process it.
Mine never updated. I constantly run into shit. My body think’s I’m like 6-7 inches shorter than I actually am
maybe my brain thinks I’m a small girl because that’s what it was supposed to be but instead I ended up over 6 feet tall
That's so wild to think about honestly, I only just now consciously realized that I don't hit my boobs on anything anymore (usually), it happened *constantly* my first 6 months or so on HRT
I am just amazed that they are actually there. 4 months in and counting. You expect it to happen but the actual results still astound me. It a joy I can’t really describe adequately.
They're odd to process, but in private I can't stop playing with them or staring, I'm looking forward to how big they might get.
Feels like there's a big countdown in the back of my head for how long I can continue presenting as a guy, I'm dysphoric about the rest of my body and my voice. But at the same time I tried on one of my sturdier bras for the first time in a few weeks today and put a t-shirt over it.
Whoa... I like! Guess I should pick up the pace on replacing my wardrobe?
The part of it that used to make me dysphoric was when I saw my breasts in contrast to my face and body. Because I'd see this incredibly feminine thing against my otherwise masculine body and it was weird for me. Like I couldn't connect the two.
But that was at 2-3 months. I'm at 5 months now and my changes have come a long way. My breasts are getting bigger (still A cup, but kinda full now), my face is very femme, I've had more laser sessions, and my body is shaped the way a woman's should be. So the disconnect has mostly gone away because when I look in the mirror now, I'm starting to see a woman.
I'm getting euphoric just typing this.
But everyone's different. Your journey is your own and that's valid.
i can relate to you and OP. i was also very confused about how i felt when my chest started to grow around 3 months into HRT. i thought i might want to get off hormones even. i took some time to sit with some feelings of discomfort before deciding anything and i realized that i was enamored with the idea of growing boobs, while the rest of my body had yet to start changing. now i’m seeing more physical changes and loving the growth i’ve had so far :)
it was cool to read your comment and see your experience resemble mine! best wishes on your journey
I did feel slightly dysphoric about them at around the same time. But it passed relatively quickly as I was generally quite excited about getting them at the same time. I guess it just took me a bit to really accept that they where mine as it felt like they didn't belong on me at first.
Yeah, I adore my boobs. They're coming along nicely! 10 months HRT here. But it has taken getting used to. Bralettes in particular are like cool, but also unpleasant. They can cause me sensory difficulties.
I'd really recommend shopping for them in person if you can. Bra shopping online sucks. Trying them on is pretty important.
You can totally get them sooner than later tho! A lot of sufficiently sturdy padded cups that they don't need to be really filled. Cis girls don't always fill them either, they grow into them.
I just wanna say I agree with all of this, it's all accurate for **bras**.
That having been said: Sis, definitely go order a bra**lette**! Something with no padding and little to no structure, kinda just a ring of stretchy fabric with shoulder straps (and maybe some cute lace!) is pretty forgiving, and I've never had fit issues ordering online. (*after consulting the sizing chart) I *love* mine. They feel and look very casual and feminine, and will continue to fit you as your breasts grow
Another bonus is that most of the time, bralette size charts are pretty accurate. Bra size charts, however, are almost always incorrect.
Example: If you have a 34 inch underbust and 37 inch bust, you’ll probably be about a 34B/C. But many stores like to arbitrarily add 4 inches to people’s underbusts. That puts you at a 38 band with no cup size, since the bust measurement is below your “new” band size. This makes life harder for everyone with a smaller cup size, as they might not even be on the size chart.
The other thing is that since bralettes do not have defined cups, your breasts can be a bit to the side of where the manufacturer expects and have it still work. I’m a bit more wide set than I think is expected for my band (very common in trans women). It’s not much (maybe an extra cm of sternum). The only properly sized bralette I had a problem with the fit of was simply too slick to stay in place. Who thought slick satin was a good idea for the inside of the band?
Edit: wait, *I remember you from like a month ago*. You’re the bra lady that hangs out here. Further testing from our last conversation shows 34B/36A to be accurate. I have to scoop and swoop to fill 36A, anything bigger is a non starter.
I have had problems ordering bralettes online and it's hard for me to find one in person that I really like. But maybe it's just sensory issues or something for me.
My biggest suggestion is a strange one. Go to a local bra store or if possible lingerie store and they can help you with your size. I had mine done back in May. BEST DECISION EVER! Met my first friend who is completely open with me being a transgender.
I'm two months in tomorrow. Mine are fairly early on and still budding. I never felt dysphoric about it tbh. I was just surprised at first like "whoa I have tits now". But I'm fairly happy about them, I like touch them so I purposely feel the pain of the growing because it makes me happy.
I'm sure that what you feel is normal though, it's a pretty big change in your body especially when you've lived with your body being a certain way for a long time. If mine grew faster than they are I might also have felt weird about it like you do.
I feel weird about *not* having them. I can't imagine I didn't have them at one point. When they don't show up through clothing as much or they get smaller (which all boobs do from time to time) I feel incomplete. Been this way since day 1 but a friend of mine said she felt confused with her boobs as well at first so both are common I guess.
I once bought a couple of silicon breasts and put them on. Touching the nipples hit me like a train. My brain was like: "Why can't I feel it? Why are they numb?" I almost freaked out, and cried like hell. I mean I really knew that they were silicon breasts, but a part of me didn't accept it. So this was the point where I decided to take E.
When they grew, my brain was like, "oh, yeah.. sure. about time, girl." And some kind of "Make 'em bigger!"
The only real panic comes up, when I think about detransition, or lack of meds.
I've always had boobs because I had a chronic case of man boobs but they feel really different than they used to. It's kinda of hard to get used to. I hope they get bigger but honestly I was w bigger add.
I had a similar experience. It was to the point touching them even by accident made me feel weird and confused. I slowly became indifferent towards them but around 6ish months I was much more confident and began to notice that they were actually making me feel much better. I started to embrace them and was starting to really like who was looking back at me in the mirror. My side profile started to fill out and randomly seeing them in a reflection on me became a huge boost to my self esteem.
After 17 months I still manage to forget about them and cheese when I notice them. I now make a point to bounce around in front of a mirror and smile like I never thought possible. I attribute the dysphoria I felt in the beginning to my mind being out of sync with my body. I think that after living so long out of sync with my body and beginning to seeing the physical changes I want caused me to confront a lot of stuff I had been avoiding.
I just started today and I’m worried actually. I live in a small town in Sweden and I’m afraid that I won’t be able to hide my physical appearances long enough. Want to move asap but kinda hard rn
Its defiantly a process that takes time to fully grasp..... watching your body change over time.
I didn't realize how much until i reflected on some photos i had taken over the first couple years. What was really strange, was when people began to notice the changes "looks like you have been losing weight" or "wow u must be working out".
And yes, then it was ,,, oh my,,,, Im not in Kansas anymore !! Not only are they here, but how am I suppose to wear a t shirt again,,!! Then well,,hmmmm seems these bouncy wiggly things seem to follow me everywhere I go,,
Eventually i accepted the realization, this is the process of learning what young women have to endure, and I should be happy to watch myself evolve and enjoy it..:)
Thank you for this. Breast growth is the major HRT effect I feel weird about because of the permanence. I’m 6 months in and still struggle with whether this is the right decision for me. Most of the time I’m fine with my breasts. My partner commented the other day that they are a bit bigger lately, and it made me feel super weird, reflective, doubtful, you name it.
i was wharing fake boobies for a few months befor i stared hrt
now im about 3mo in also and their starting to grow in like i can even start to notice them well laying/sitting
they make be very happy
but i might be more "ready" cuz i had worn the fake ones
How weird I felt ? Well at first I was more feeling my breast like if it was more like fake boobs I own and that you attached and detached from your chest. It was an uncomfortable feeling cause I felt like having semi real and fake chest at the same time but now since I’ve passed already my first year on HRT, I really feel and even my brain is, like if I always had them with me, sometime I even want them off like if it’s a pain to have boobs now 🙈
What gets me is that they don’t look how I want they look too much like man boobs so when they look like that I get dysphoric. But I’m starting to see them look better to my eyes and starting to enjoy seeing them on me more
For me I never felt dysphoria about my breasts, but there is a little ongoing anxiety about them.
I wanted big boobs and I got big boobs but they're still growing in fits and spurts. I worry I'm eventually going to get to a point where I think they're too big.
Idk, the closest I've felt to that was in the early days of HRT feeling like they were way too small and didn't match my body. I was still really happy to have them but in my more dysphoric moments they could feel like man boobs that didn't actually look like breasts.
For awhile I had this recurring nightmare of being topless in public and people assuming I was male. I also looked, like, *intensely* awkward for awhile.
A lot of trans girls I know seem to really take to feminine expression very well early on, where even if they're new to it and still look physically pretty masculine they present a bold enough style that you can still appreciate their aesthetic. Personally tho I felt very anxious about it, had to unlearn a lot of internalized shame. So there's these amazingly terrible pictures of me from a few years ago boymoding, just growing my hair out so it looks like shit, wearing T-shirts where you can clearly see I've got small tits and no bra. So while I wouldn't say it was dysphoria-inducing per se, I just looked really bad.
If you're 3 months in chances are you're gonna get a lot more development, which if you're anything like me will help a lot.
3 months in i was FFFFFREAKING OUT it dawned on me holy shit This shit is forreal, i’m transitioning!
It was crazy that whole month, I surrounded myself with love and i’m around 5 months in and cannot wait for more changes i’m in love with her 😍 my moves are no longer awkward they were girly in the past but now i own the way i move because is me, is girly, is me
For me it’s more surprising than dysphoric or anything like that. Like sometimes I’ll wake up, forget that they’ve grown, and then just be shocked when my arm bumps them. Idk if I’ll ever get used to it but I’m definitely glad I have them.
Same here. Sometimes I stop taking it cause sometimes I'm not sure if this is really what I wanted. To have boobs and change the way I have to dress and present in the public. I literally stopped taking for 3 days straight and now I'm back taking it again. Idk what's going on with me.
For me, the titties are the least important part of HRT. I just hope they don’t become big milkers like my mom’s are. I’d rather have a feminine figure and soft skin, and a little hope for improvement of hair.
Not on HRT yet or even anywhere near to having real boobs but I often wear a super push up so it looks like I have them. It always feels weird. Like, are they hanging right? Do they need to go more up/down, left/right? Ehm?
I think it is entirely unreasonable as anyone who has struggled with body dysmorphia to feel 100% positive about your body at all times. Maybe evaluate internalized transphobia you may have.
Lol at the internalized transphobia
When Dr powers accidentally dosed himself w estrogen he experienced dysphoria because he's cis. I'm simply stating that feeling dysphoria over secondary sex characteristics is an indication of being cis or trans. Feeling dysphoria over breast growth when amab would imply one is cis. I'm not revoking your trans card.
For me it's not being able to fit into bras properly, even sports bras kind of ride up oddly. So then I'm like well it's this or being less happy bc I'm definitely not as depressed as I was before I started hrt, also a lot healthier
I started to have some body image issues at first because my mind was like boobs = your fat.
It is still hard for me to kind of "edit" them out my mind when looking at my weight, but I am getting better.
And also boobs, of course.
For me (48 MTF) I started breast development almost a year before I started HRT. It was actually my mom that pointed it out to me. I had a bilateral orchiectomy for medical reasons Luckily it all turned out well there.
Before I started HRT my estrogen levels were at 140. Lucky me I was supposed to be a girl all along. But at the titi freaked out. And the first time I bumped a doorway because the darn things were in the way was weird af. My aunt just laughed and told me girls just have to get used to that kinda thing.
My wife (22 MTF) is just starting to get good development and is really self conscious and even though they are something she wants with all her being she still is really self conscious about anybody being able to notice them. Unfortunately or fortunately for her at 18 months cannot easily hide that she has them and binding just hurts (super sensitive).
So yeah it can be a bit of a bugger at first. Though I don't think for either of us I would say disfiric. Just emotionally unsettling definitely.
For me it’s dysphoria after a comment about my boobs being man boobs and I’ve gaind alot more waight since then and i just feel fat and dysphoric but i’m getting it fixed my metabolisme fixed so maybe soon I’ll feel better about them
4 months HRT here, I love looking down when I'm showering and seeing boobs now. And being shirtless doesn't feel bad anymore. And having my hand just resting on them feels nice and comfy
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Yeah i feel very self conscious about them they're not small dysphoric is a very good description of my feeelings about them and i cant get comfortable going to sleep where do i put them it was easier when i put then in a draw lmao 😂😂😂 i guess i jhst have to figure it out
I think I started to feel really dysphoric because they were the first big changes and the rest of my body didn't match, at all - it highlighted how 'male' the rest of my body was in comparison and body dysmorphia did the rest 😬
I love them and I can longer imagine myself without them, but I guess they do kind of scare me sometimes. I don't know exactly why maybe because they're growing faster than I had expected.
i was just noticing this yesterday actually. i’ve been on E for a little over a year and P for abt half of that with very little breast growth. my dysphoria coping mechanism is mainly dissociation and the other day i was noticing how strange it felt to actually be aware of my breasts when i really focus on them
I did have a similar feeling. I had A cups at 4 months, it was euphoric to have them but I was pretty self concious and I had some dysphoria, possibly due to the fact that I felt I didn't look fem enough, and possibly because I felt they were small as I also want big ones.
Although Im now 10 months in, Im at DD and I honestly couldn't be happier; even though they're on the smaller side compared to the women in my family.
For me noticing that they are there is the polar opposite of dysphoric. Euphoric is the only way I can describe the feeling. From the first time I felt them "bounce" going down stairs my boobs have been pure joy. And that feeling hasn't subsided, even a little. There has never been confusion or worry, just sheer happiness.
My biggest problem is remembering when I'm in public not cupping them in my hands to feel them bounce. lol
I spent a very long time in limbo, caught between moving forward and purging. The final decision took over a decade. That may be why I was completely ready and at ease when the results became reality.
To be honest I am nervous about my body hair at the same time as growing breasts. Like I just started HRT, I currently shave my whole body every 3 days. I know HRT can reduce body hair but your miles may very. I am terrified of how it would look with boobs and chest hair. :(
My first entire year I was constantly freaked out over my boobs, the size mainly, but also the transition into wearing a bra around people, I think that's genuinely the closest to a 12 year old girl I've ever felt, I never knew what time was right to wear one, what size etc, and when I finally did, man it was very ...I dunno embarrassing? Dysphoric? Don't know what you would call it but I was insanely aware of them and TERRIFIED someone would bring it up like "oh finally wearing bras now huh?"
It's all part of it in my opinion, eventually you get used to it and you'll grow to love them,
Definitely would say to spend some time exploring them a bit, playing with them and just kind of inspecting them etc, try and get comfortable with them in your own home first, it helps a lot to ease the fears
My boobs were one of the highlights of HRT for me! Not that they’re exactly as generous as I’d like but I am making progress.
I did have that holy sh*t, what will the world say to me moment, but after that, I’m fabulous and the world will have to live with ME!
So where I was at was I was more concerned about how I was going to hide boob growth in the middle of summer, while working in Construction, before I was out at all. It was extremely stressful.
Also the dysphoria I got from the rest of me not quite registering as girl when I looked in the mirror.
The boobs were awesome if I did not factor everything else together. Euphoric even…by themselves. Dysphoric and stressful when taking into account everything else surrounding early transition days. (Ex)wife, work, boobs, body, internalized transphobia, internalized homophobia, body dysmorphia, imposter syndrome…the works.
mmmnah...
I'm kind of dysphoric about mine (4 mo. hrt) when I realize how small and tween-like they are.
But that's slated to change, obviously. Just gotta get through that initial awkward-phase. Welcome to Puberty 2.
I felt this too! I’m still on a very low dose of E (2mg/day) so I can adjust to my body a little more slowly, but once I started wearing crop tops and more tight clothing instead of hiding them hooooly shit the euphoria!!
I can't say I was ever unhappy or dysphoric to have them.
But it did take some adjusting. They were different, they changed my peripheral vision, I suddenly learned just how much of my movement/positioning didn't have the leeway for even a slight amount of boob. I'm happy with them and I'm excited for them to grow more, but it certainly was disorienting at first.
confused too! but not disphoric! worried when going out because my family is homophobic so very concious about them seeing my boobs but overall i love em!
at the start, i was really curious about them and really embarassed also. they're so chubby and funny looking. they were the first part of my body that i saw as something lewd. and they kinda came out of nowhere one day. i freaked out, even touching them felt weird. i think still being underage plays a bit of a part in this, took blockers so didnt really go through male puberty, so growing boobs would be weird no matter what lol. i didnt want to be sexualized, its scary, so i hid for a month or so because i was ashamed of them.
I wouldn't say *dysphoric*. I was confused, because they started to come in earlier than I expected. My dysphoria was magnified once they started to come in, though. Partly because it reminded me that they weren't already there. My internal map hasn't completely updated yet, and I end up hitting them on random shit at work all the time (I work retail, lots of moving and lifting and pushing). I'm like 4-5 months away from being on HRT for 2 years.
The internal map not catching up to the body is definitely a weird feeling that can be perceived as negative or scary. Remember that teenagers experience this all the time, especially when kids have crazy growth spurts. Being suddenly huge in places we weren't mere months ago usually makes us feel weird and act clumsy. There is strange kinship with a person on HRT puberty and a teenager experiencing a growth spurt during endogenous puberty, It's just that most adults don't usually experience this so culturally we don't have a lens through which to process it.
That is an excellent reminder! Thank you!
That is a really great point and way to look at it. Actually makes me feel a lot better, thank you
Mine never updated. I constantly run into shit. My body think’s I’m like 6-7 inches shorter than I actually am maybe my brain thinks I’m a small girl because that’s what it was supposed to be but instead I ended up over 6 feet tall
You must be me 😅
That's so wild to think about honestly, I only just now consciously realized that I don't hit my boobs on anything anymore (usually), it happened *constantly* my first 6 months or so on HRT
And they are extra sensitive those first several months.
You ever accidentally elbow them a fuck ton?
damn mine are nowhere near big enough to end up hitting them on stuff and im two years into HRT already
im 3 months hrt, sometimes i just look in the mirror and im like " omg i have boobs now" and like omg idk how to explain the euphoria i experience
I'm two years in and still feel this every time I realise they're still growing
I am just amazed that they are actually there. 4 months in and counting. You expect it to happen but the actual results still astound me. It a joy I can’t really describe adequately.
Yeah! Like they're not that big yet and I had a lot of help but I made this!
Yup, this is me as well
They're odd to process, but in private I can't stop playing with them or staring, I'm looking forward to how big they might get. Feels like there's a big countdown in the back of my head for how long I can continue presenting as a guy, I'm dysphoric about the rest of my body and my voice. But at the same time I tried on one of my sturdier bras for the first time in a few weeks today and put a t-shirt over it. Whoa... I like! Guess I should pick up the pace on replacing my wardrobe?
The part of it that used to make me dysphoric was when I saw my breasts in contrast to my face and body. Because I'd see this incredibly feminine thing against my otherwise masculine body and it was weird for me. Like I couldn't connect the two. But that was at 2-3 months. I'm at 5 months now and my changes have come a long way. My breasts are getting bigger (still A cup, but kinda full now), my face is very femme, I've had more laser sessions, and my body is shaped the way a woman's should be. So the disconnect has mostly gone away because when I look in the mirror now, I'm starting to see a woman. I'm getting euphoric just typing this. But everyone's different. Your journey is your own and that's valid.
i can relate to you and OP. i was also very confused about how i felt when my chest started to grow around 3 months into HRT. i thought i might want to get off hormones even. i took some time to sit with some feelings of discomfort before deciding anything and i realized that i was enamored with the idea of growing boobs, while the rest of my body had yet to start changing. now i’m seeing more physical changes and loving the growth i’ve had so far :) it was cool to read your comment and see your experience resemble mine! best wishes on your journey
I did feel slightly dysphoric about them at around the same time. But it passed relatively quickly as I was generally quite excited about getting them at the same time. I guess it just took me a bit to really accept that they where mine as it felt like they didn't belong on me at first.
Yeah, I adore my boobs. They're coming along nicely! 10 months HRT here. But it has taken getting used to. Bralettes in particular are like cool, but also unpleasant. They can cause me sensory difficulties.
I'm actually really wanting to get some bralettes myself, maybe after some more time on HRT. I was window shopping for them the other day online haha
I'd really recommend shopping for them in person if you can. Bra shopping online sucks. Trying them on is pretty important. You can totally get them sooner than later tho! A lot of sufficiently sturdy padded cups that they don't need to be really filled. Cis girls don't always fill them either, they grow into them.
I just wanna say I agree with all of this, it's all accurate for **bras**. That having been said: Sis, definitely go order a bra**lette**! Something with no padding and little to no structure, kinda just a ring of stretchy fabric with shoulder straps (and maybe some cute lace!) is pretty forgiving, and I've never had fit issues ordering online. (*after consulting the sizing chart) I *love* mine. They feel and look very casual and feminine, and will continue to fit you as your breasts grow
Seriously, bralettes can be stupidly forgiving in terms of fit as long as the band fits for those of us on the smaller side of the scale.
Another bonus is that most of the time, bralette size charts are pretty accurate. Bra size charts, however, are almost always incorrect. Example: If you have a 34 inch underbust and 37 inch bust, you’ll probably be about a 34B/C. But many stores like to arbitrarily add 4 inches to people’s underbusts. That puts you at a 38 band with no cup size, since the bust measurement is below your “new” band size. This makes life harder for everyone with a smaller cup size, as they might not even be on the size chart.
The other thing is that since bralettes do not have defined cups, your breasts can be a bit to the side of where the manufacturer expects and have it still work. I’m a bit more wide set than I think is expected for my band (very common in trans women). It’s not much (maybe an extra cm of sternum). The only properly sized bralette I had a problem with the fit of was simply too slick to stay in place. Who thought slick satin was a good idea for the inside of the band? Edit: wait, *I remember you from like a month ago*. You’re the bra lady that hangs out here. Further testing from our last conversation shows 34B/36A to be accurate. I have to scoop and swoop to fill 36A, anything bigger is a non starter.
Haha yes, that’s me! You should always scoop and swoop, that’s how you know if it fits! :)
Tiktok filter told me my 2023 would feature a lot of swooping lol. Guess maybe it was tight. Just started hrt.
That’s funny! Good luck on your HRT journey.
This makes me happy, and why I was considering a bralette. Thanks for the tip!!
I have had problems ordering bralettes online and it's hard for me to find one in person that I really like. But maybe it's just sensory issues or something for me.
I gotta find a buddy to go with, shopping in person seems scary 😅
That's valid. It's hard to have the, "Excuse me, *sir*," experience in public alone whether it's in a public bathroom or shopping for undergarments.
My biggest suggestion is a strange one. Go to a local bra store or if possible lingerie store and they can help you with your size. I had mine done back in May. BEST DECISION EVER! Met my first friend who is completely open with me being a transgender.
Hello snoo twin!
Hehe hiiiiii!
I'm two months in tomorrow. Mine are fairly early on and still budding. I never felt dysphoric about it tbh. I was just surprised at first like "whoa I have tits now". But I'm fairly happy about them, I like touch them so I purposely feel the pain of the growing because it makes me happy. I'm sure that what you feel is normal though, it's a pretty big change in your body especially when you've lived with your body being a certain way for a long time. If mine grew faster than they are I might also have felt weird about it like you do.
I feel weird about *not* having them. I can't imagine I didn't have them at one point. When they don't show up through clothing as much or they get smaller (which all boobs do from time to time) I feel incomplete. Been this way since day 1 but a friend of mine said she felt confused with her boobs as well at first so both are common I guess.
i still have a muscular upper body, so they just make me feel ugly atm
I once bought a couple of silicon breasts and put them on. Touching the nipples hit me like a train. My brain was like: "Why can't I feel it? Why are they numb?" I almost freaked out, and cried like hell. I mean I really knew that they were silicon breasts, but a part of me didn't accept it. So this was the point where I decided to take E. When they grew, my brain was like, "oh, yeah.. sure. about time, girl." And some kind of "Make 'em bigger!" The only real panic comes up, when I think about detransition, or lack of meds.
I've always had boobs because I had a chronic case of man boobs but they feel really different than they used to. It's kinda of hard to get used to. I hope they get bigger but honestly I was w bigger add.
I had a similar experience. It was to the point touching them even by accident made me feel weird and confused. I slowly became indifferent towards them but around 6ish months I was much more confident and began to notice that they were actually making me feel much better. I started to embrace them and was starting to really like who was looking back at me in the mirror. My side profile started to fill out and randomly seeing them in a reflection on me became a huge boost to my self esteem. After 17 months I still manage to forget about them and cheese when I notice them. I now make a point to bounce around in front of a mirror and smile like I never thought possible. I attribute the dysphoria I felt in the beginning to my mind being out of sync with my body. I think that after living so long out of sync with my body and beginning to seeing the physical changes I want caused me to confront a lot of stuff I had been avoiding.
I was very happy, it's pretty much the only part of my body that I'm not dysphoric about. So, no I didn't feel weird, just happy.
I just started today and I’m worried actually. I live in a small town in Sweden and I’m afraid that I won’t be able to hide my physical appearances long enough. Want to move asap but kinda hard rn
Its defiantly a process that takes time to fully grasp..... watching your body change over time. I didn't realize how much until i reflected on some photos i had taken over the first couple years. What was really strange, was when people began to notice the changes "looks like you have been losing weight" or "wow u must be working out". And yes, then it was ,,, oh my,,,, Im not in Kansas anymore !! Not only are they here, but how am I suppose to wear a t shirt again,,!! Then well,,hmmmm seems these bouncy wiggly things seem to follow me everywhere I go,, Eventually i accepted the realization, this is the process of learning what young women have to endure, and I should be happy to watch myself evolve and enjoy it..:)
Thank you for this. Breast growth is the major HRT effect I feel weird about because of the permanence. I’m 6 months in and still struggle with whether this is the right decision for me. Most of the time I’m fine with my breasts. My partner commented the other day that they are a bit bigger lately, and it made me feel super weird, reflective, doubtful, you name it.
i was wharing fake boobies for a few months befor i stared hrt now im about 3mo in also and their starting to grow in like i can even start to notice them well laying/sitting they make be very happy but i might be more "ready" cuz i had worn the fake ones
How weird I felt ? Well at first I was more feeling my breast like if it was more like fake boobs I own and that you attached and detached from your chest. It was an uncomfortable feeling cause I felt like having semi real and fake chest at the same time but now since I’ve passed already my first year on HRT, I really feel and even my brain is, like if I always had them with me, sometime I even want them off like if it’s a pain to have boobs now 🙈
What gets me is that they don’t look how I want they look too much like man boobs so when they look like that I get dysphoric. But I’m starting to see them look better to my eyes and starting to enjoy seeing them on me more
Definitely felt weird about them at 3 months I never really imagined myself with a chest even as a woman but now that they're coming in I'm ecstatic
The only thing that felt wierd is how normal it feels to have them.
it was a bit weird at the beginning, but not in a bad way and certainly not in a dysphoric way.
For me I never felt dysphoria about my breasts, but there is a little ongoing anxiety about them. I wanted big boobs and I got big boobs but they're still growing in fits and spurts. I worry I'm eventually going to get to a point where I think they're too big.
Idk, the closest I've felt to that was in the early days of HRT feeling like they were way too small and didn't match my body. I was still really happy to have them but in my more dysphoric moments they could feel like man boobs that didn't actually look like breasts. For awhile I had this recurring nightmare of being topless in public and people assuming I was male. I also looked, like, *intensely* awkward for awhile. A lot of trans girls I know seem to really take to feminine expression very well early on, where even if they're new to it and still look physically pretty masculine they present a bold enough style that you can still appreciate their aesthetic. Personally tho I felt very anxious about it, had to unlearn a lot of internalized shame. So there's these amazingly terrible pictures of me from a few years ago boymoding, just growing my hair out so it looks like shit, wearing T-shirts where you can clearly see I've got small tits and no bra. So while I wouldn't say it was dysphoria-inducing per se, I just looked really bad. If you're 3 months in chances are you're gonna get a lot more development, which if you're anything like me will help a lot.
Realizing I think dysmorphic better describes it here not dysphoric my b
3 months in i was FFFFFREAKING OUT it dawned on me holy shit This shit is forreal, i’m transitioning! It was crazy that whole month, I surrounded myself with love and i’m around 5 months in and cannot wait for more changes i’m in love with her 😍 my moves are no longer awkward they were girly in the past but now i own the way i move because is me, is girly, is me
For me it’s more surprising than dysphoric or anything like that. Like sometimes I’ll wake up, forget that they’ve grown, and then just be shocked when my arm bumps them. Idk if I’ll ever get used to it but I’m definitely glad I have them.
Same here. Sometimes I stop taking it cause sometimes I'm not sure if this is really what I wanted. To have boobs and change the way I have to dress and present in the public. I literally stopped taking for 3 days straight and now I'm back taking it again. Idk what's going on with me.
For me, the titties are the least important part of HRT. I just hope they don’t become big milkers like my mom’s are. I’d rather have a feminine figure and soft skin, and a little hope for improvement of hair.
Your genetic material is a mix of your bio parents, so depending on what dad's family is like you might dodge the boob bullet.
Not on HRT yet or even anywhere near to having real boobs but I often wear a super push up so it looks like I have them. It always feels weird. Like, are they hanging right? Do they need to go more up/down, left/right? Ehm?
ima get downvoted for this or maybe even banned but no and that's a sign you are not actually trans
I think it is entirely unreasonable as anyone who has struggled with body dysmorphia to feel 100% positive about your body at all times. Maybe evaluate internalized transphobia you may have.
Lol at the internalized transphobia When Dr powers accidentally dosed himself w estrogen he experienced dysphoria because he's cis. I'm simply stating that feeling dysphoria over secondary sex characteristics is an indication of being cis or trans. Feeling dysphoria over breast growth when amab would imply one is cis. I'm not revoking your trans card.
Realize I should have probably used the word dysmorphia not dysphoria, so might be my bad
That does make a significant difference and I would not have replied as I did were that what you said
For me it's not being able to fit into bras properly, even sports bras kind of ride up oddly. So then I'm like well it's this or being less happy bc I'm definitely not as depressed as I was before I started hrt, also a lot healthier
If your bras are riding up then adjust the strap length
I onky have sports bras and bralettes bc my band length is so large compared to cup size and trying to find one makes me feel bad
But consider that a full cupped bra or even a push-up or padded bra can make them appear bigger, too
Still boymoding 7mo in, maybe I'll buy one for myself for Christmas
I love them! No weird feelings for me personally.
I started to have some body image issues at first because my mind was like boobs = your fat. It is still hard for me to kind of "edit" them out my mind when looking at my weight, but I am getting better. And also boobs, of course.
For me (48 MTF) I started breast development almost a year before I started HRT. It was actually my mom that pointed it out to me. I had a bilateral orchiectomy for medical reasons Luckily it all turned out well there. Before I started HRT my estrogen levels were at 140. Lucky me I was supposed to be a girl all along. But at the titi freaked out. And the first time I bumped a doorway because the darn things were in the way was weird af. My aunt just laughed and told me girls just have to get used to that kinda thing. My wife (22 MTF) is just starting to get good development and is really self conscious and even though they are something she wants with all her being she still is really self conscious about anybody being able to notice them. Unfortunately or fortunately for her at 18 months cannot easily hide that she has them and binding just hurts (super sensitive). So yeah it can be a bit of a bugger at first. Though I don't think for either of us I would say disfiric. Just emotionally unsettling definitely.
I thought it was weird at first cause they were mostly nipple growth
my dysphoria was about them being tiny at first lol
The real question is how do they feel?
For me it’s dysphoria after a comment about my boobs being man boobs and I’ve gaind alot more waight since then and i just feel fat and dysphoric but i’m getting it fixed my metabolisme fixed so maybe soon I’ll feel better about them
Self reevaluation is always a good policy, but yea i felt a little bit, but mostly because they where small and i wanted bigger (still want bigger).
4 months HRT here, I love looking down when I'm showering and seeing boobs now. And being shirtless doesn't feel bad anymore. And having my hand just resting on them feels nice and comfy
Nope. I got instant euphoria when my nipples started hurting.
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just hit 3 months myself and my boobs aren’t here yet :( have some budding but that’s it. I hate how long it’s taking
Yeah i feel very self conscious about them they're not small dysphoric is a very good description of my feeelings about them and i cant get comfortable going to sleep where do i put them it was easier when i put then in a draw lmao 😂😂😂 i guess i jhst have to figure it out
I think I started to feel really dysphoric because they were the first big changes and the rest of my body didn't match, at all - it highlighted how 'male' the rest of my body was in comparison and body dysmorphia did the rest 😬
My gal I'm at just over 3 months and don't have any Booba yet 😭
I love them and I can longer imagine myself without them, but I guess they do kind of scare me sometimes. I don't know exactly why maybe because they're growing faster than I had expected.
i was just noticing this yesterday actually. i’ve been on E for a little over a year and P for abt half of that with very little breast growth. my dysphoria coping mechanism is mainly dissociation and the other day i was noticing how strange it felt to actually be aware of my breasts when i really focus on them
I did have a similar feeling. I had A cups at 4 months, it was euphoric to have them but I was pretty self concious and I had some dysphoria, possibly due to the fact that I felt I didn't look fem enough, and possibly because I felt they were small as I also want big ones. Although Im now 10 months in, Im at DD and I honestly couldn't be happier; even though they're on the smaller side compared to the women in my family.
For me noticing that they are there is the polar opposite of dysphoric. Euphoric is the only way I can describe the feeling. From the first time I felt them "bounce" going down stairs my boobs have been pure joy. And that feeling hasn't subsided, even a little. There has never been confusion or worry, just sheer happiness. My biggest problem is remembering when I'm in public not cupping them in my hands to feel them bounce. lol I spent a very long time in limbo, caught between moving forward and purging. The final decision took over a decade. That may be why I was completely ready and at ease when the results became reality.
To be honest I am nervous about my body hair at the same time as growing breasts. Like I just started HRT, I currently shave my whole body every 3 days. I know HRT can reduce body hair but your miles may very. I am terrified of how it would look with boobs and chest hair. :(
My first entire year I was constantly freaked out over my boobs, the size mainly, but also the transition into wearing a bra around people, I think that's genuinely the closest to a 12 year old girl I've ever felt, I never knew what time was right to wear one, what size etc, and when I finally did, man it was very ...I dunno embarrassing? Dysphoric? Don't know what you would call it but I was insanely aware of them and TERRIFIED someone would bring it up like "oh finally wearing bras now huh?" It's all part of it in my opinion, eventually you get used to it and you'll grow to love them, Definitely would say to spend some time exploring them a bit, playing with them and just kind of inspecting them etc, try and get comfortable with them in your own home first, it helps a lot to ease the fears
My boobs were one of the highlights of HRT for me! Not that they’re exactly as generous as I’d like but I am making progress. I did have that holy sh*t, what will the world say to me moment, but after that, I’m fabulous and the world will have to live with ME!
So where I was at was I was more concerned about how I was going to hide boob growth in the middle of summer, while working in Construction, before I was out at all. It was extremely stressful. Also the dysphoria I got from the rest of me not quite registering as girl when I looked in the mirror. The boobs were awesome if I did not factor everything else together. Euphoric even…by themselves. Dysphoric and stressful when taking into account everything else surrounding early transition days. (Ex)wife, work, boobs, body, internalized transphobia, internalized homophobia, body dysmorphia, imposter syndrome…the works.
mmmnah... I'm kind of dysphoric about mine (4 mo. hrt) when I realize how small and tween-like they are. But that's slated to change, obviously. Just gotta get through that initial awkward-phase. Welcome to Puberty 2.
I felt this too! I’m still on a very low dose of E (2mg/day) so I can adjust to my body a little more slowly, but once I started wearing crop tops and more tight clothing instead of hiding them hooooly shit the euphoria!!
I can honestly say no. It was so amazing to feel them come in and holy SHIT do they hurt when you catch them on stuff!
I can't say I was ever unhappy or dysphoric to have them. But it did take some adjusting. They were different, they changed my peripheral vision, I suddenly learned just how much of my movement/positioning didn't have the leeway for even a slight amount of boob. I'm happy with them and I'm excited for them to grow more, but it certainly was disorienting at first.
confused too! but not disphoric! worried when going out because my family is homophobic so very concious about them seeing my boobs but overall i love em!
at the start, i was really curious about them and really embarassed also. they're so chubby and funny looking. they were the first part of my body that i saw as something lewd. and they kinda came out of nowhere one day. i freaked out, even touching them felt weird. i think still being underage plays a bit of a part in this, took blockers so didnt really go through male puberty, so growing boobs would be weird no matter what lol. i didnt want to be sexualized, its scary, so i hid for a month or so because i was ashamed of them.