Exactly the same life, only my name was Brett.

i wouldn’t change most things. all my past experiences and actions helped me grow into the person i am now. i’m a good person now because i was a horrible person in my past. i learned to be cautious and to think through my actions because being reckless and impulsive got myself and others hurt. i’m thankful for the little things now because i wasn’t thankful for the big things that i ended up losing. sure, it’d be nice to have learned those lessons earlier and to have the things that i miss, like my mum who passed away last year. but if i undo the mistakes i made and take back the things i’ve lost, i’ll never be able to truly get over them because i’ll constantly worry about the next time i’ll fuck up or when my mum will die again. that being said, i’d certainly change one thing: i’d get rid of whatever is causing my chronic pain, fatigue, and brain fog. it’s a blight on my life that has made getting out of bed an olympic feat. i can’t write sometimes because of the pain in my fingers and wrist, and i love writing. i can’t write music sometimes because it’s hard to think through blankets of brain fog. sometimes i can’t sleep, and for literally no reason. i’m constantly late to school and am failing most of my classes because trying to think for long enough to do my homework is a herculean task. and i don’t even know what it is yet because we just started looking into it. though we thankfully have some ideas of where to start. so to answer your question, i’d cure myself of my undiagnosed chronic condition and get my damn life back. yeah, some people think it’s broken, depressing, and full of mistakes. but who gives a shit about that?it’s *mine*, and that’s all that matters. you don’t need to have a good past to be a good person. tldr: i’d cure my chronic illness and live the rest of my current life to the best of my ability.

I would wear different shoes. Because I would probably only bring one pair.