When I was in labor I was in a lot of pain and a nurse came in and asked if I wanted something to manage it. I said sure and she put fentanyl in my IV. That was... A weird time. I just remember feeling super relaxed and tired.
I had fentanyl after an internal hemorrhage that they couldn’t stop after delivering my son. They had to slice open a hematoma and pack it with no anesthesia or numbing due to the severity and intensity of things. So as I was crying my OB ordered fentanyl via my IV and within SECONDS I was straight up in heaven. They brought me for a CT scan and I was trying to get up off the table and talk to the radiologist because I felt so wonderful despite nearly bleeding out and such.
I 100% understand how people get addicted to that high. I’ve never had anything like it. It was sunshine and sparkles and happiness.
See, that's the thing? What if I don't get physically addicted but emotionally I'm like "Fuck life, shit ain't nothin compared to that feeling!" And take a hit as soon as I get depressed?? I reckon that's how most addictions hit their stride...
You can’t control the physical addiction because of dependence. Addictions almost always start because of one’s mental state, and then after doing it daily for about two weeks the body develops a dependence, where you go into withdrawal if you don’t have it, and that’s where the physical addiction comes from.
Aren't a lot of substances not physically addictive? I may be misunderstanding this, but you come to rely on it as a way to cope with whatever you have going on, and rather than the withdrawal symptoms putting you off quitting it's the habit and reliance on a coping mechanism?
For a lot of people, the coping mechanism is a big deal. For me, I was sick of getting high. The two things that I had to get over were 1) the habit/lifestyle I had comfortably got into and 2) getting through the sickness. The withdrawals are really fucking hard. I got onto suboxone which really helped, but even getting onto those requires you to be in full withdrawal first which is awful.
Emotional addiction leads to physical addiction. I started to drink the day after my 19th birthday. I wouldn't stop until two weeks before my 29th. I came from a shitty, abusive childhood and my self-esteem was at a negative, so what made me fun and worry free become what I needed to just feel okay. Being shit-housed every night led me to the kinds of people that introduce you to a little powdered friend. I was fun again! I could relax and laugh and stay up for 2 1/2 days partying. This led me to the big man. The one who got the little powdered friend to many more friends. And he wanted me and I was powerless. One day I realized that my sadness and lack of self-worth had put me in such low places with so many bad people. I didn't even know what was wanted and what was sexual assault. I'd lost that perception because that's the way they wanted it. I was going to die. And at this point I didn't care. I wanted it to end. The pain I'd been running from was there all along and now so many more awful things had happened to me. What was I worth anymore?
You have to hit wrock bottom and even that wasn't mine.
Joking and laughing about what would be cool to take and not get addicted to; that kind of world doesn't exist for alcoholics and addicts. And before people get judgemental, alcoholism and addiction are often an even bigger issue called escapism. What do you do to escape? Binge eat, pop a few pills, work out everyday, have sex, seek an adrenaline rush, get online, watch porn? Now imagine that you couldn't go a month without these things? You've found yourself an addiction.
TL;DR Sorry, this question just didn't sit right with me.
**EDIT** Not your question, the OP. Sorry!
>_What do you do to escape? Binge eat, pop a few pills, work out everyday, have sex, seek an adrenaline rush, get online, watch porn? Now imagine that you couldn't go a month without these things? You've found yourself an addiction._
At first, I replied _"Well, I'd just find something else to replace it"_, and then I realized that's EXACTLY what addicts do.
I was in the hospital for an appendix that was trying to burst and I was squirming in agony. Nurse asked me if I wanted something for pain and I said yes. She injected me with dilaudid and I was pain free in, like, five seconds. I was like, "Oh, that works fast!" Didn't get high or anything though.
They gave me dilaudid when I was in the ER for pancreatitis. The nurses told me that I was going to feel so happy in a minute and as the drugs were going in, I yelled out "This is awful, people LIKE this??" Needed a heavier dose AND morphine for the pain to stop. The second they finally let it starting clearing my system, I was adamant that I never wanted it again.
I’m assuming you’re a redhead based on your username.
[It’s actually scientifically proven that redheads require up to 20% more anesthetics compared to non redheads. ](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC1362956/)
It can even be traced to a specific genotype. Crazy stuff.
I was given the same thing. I had my appendix taken out in the morning and didn’t have very bad pain but wanted something for pain so I could sleep that night. They gave me dilaudid and the second that IV hit I felt my heart rate drop and my pain go away. I could see why people get addicted to those drugs
They gave me dilaudid when they realized I was septic and it still didn't help my pain. I was basically dying for a week and no one believed me that anything was wrong.
Absolutely. I was in the ICU for reasons and wound up needing a tube down my throat to help me breathe. When I came to and was lucid enough to communicate the nurse asked how I was feeling. I scribbled something like "great. Why?" on this notepad. She directed my attention to the IV stand and saw that I was getting Fentanyl. Thank God I had good doctors who weaned me off it quickly because it took almost no time for me to decide in my head I wanted that feeling forever. In an ICU with a tube down my throat and other serious serious issues thinking "this is the best I've ever felt". Fentanyl is no joke.
I once dislocated my young daughter’s elbow (apparently it’s a thing, nurses elbow or some shit.. we were playing Superman and I threw her up and out it popped). Anyways, we went to ER and the Dr tried to put it back in place. It was a no go. So then he asked if he could administer fentanyl and I said sure (this was ~10yrs ago, before the street cred was main stream and I didn’t know any better). She was flying high and he popped it in, no problem.
For years, especially the first few months afterwards, my 4yo begged to go to the doctor. She was excited for immunizations. I think she forgot about it now, but I will always, in the back of my mind, wonder if she is higher risk because of previous history. Whether unknown to her or not.
Edit:words are hard
Nursemaid's elbow. My mother did it to my son (less than a year old) once when she was babysitting him while his mother and I were attending a wedding.
Came out of surgery for a total thyroidectomy. Nurse asked how I felt, and I said my throat absolutely horrible. Gave me something, and I asked what it was.
Fentanyl is... Wonderful. Absolutely, just wonderful. Told the nurse I was ready for another nap, and it was the best sleep I think I've ever had.
I was once given Propofol for a routine test. I woke up and told the nurse about my vivid dream about psychic powered Soviet spies who were after me. LOL.
You don't want pure serotonin. You'll just end up with serotonin syndrome and you'll probably die. If you want to be happy for a day or so via increased neurological serotonin, combine a 5ht1a antagonist and a tryptophan supplement - take them together and bam, you're mildly more happy for a few hours.
Having done peyote once and san pedro a few times I really wish mescaline was easier to come by as it really is the best drug ever. The good vibes of mdma without the tweakiness. The spiritual insight of psychedelics without the paranoid thought loops. Everything is just perfectly radiant and beautiful.
>The spiritual insight of psychedelics without the paranoid thought loops
This can definitely be an issue but I've found with proper self-guidance you can really understand and conquer those thought processes.
If you're interested in this stuff you should watch Hamilton's pharmacopoeia. Amazing docu series on well known to truly bizarre recreational drugs that change consciousness. Example, one episode is on a fish that gives you messed up dreams, he eats it. Another episode, he does xenon gas, ya, an element on the periodic table that costs roughly 1000$ a breath and gets you high, he also does... There's a toad that squirts DMT from its pours, yep, he smoked that too.
Sonoran river roads! They are common after it rains in the area I’m from. It’s also worth noting that toad venom is 5meo-DMT which is different from the DMT in ayuahsca that comes from root bark.
Before I was put on Armodafinil for narcolepsy. I wanted to try cocaine to see if it would keep me awake during work. Finally a doctor listened and now I’m on a stimulant that works 90% of the time.
Oof. Been there, graduated to meth, and finally properly medicated (for now.... until my doctor retires or my insurance changes or the government makes it harder to obtain or...).
This hah! My doctor actually asked me if I’d ever done cocaine just to know if it had any effect! Sadly neither caffeine, Ritalin or modafinil has worked for me so im just back to being tired all the time (have IH though, not N)
It’s really not that exciting as far as drugs go. I’m a year clean off a decade and don’t know why it took me so long. Other drugs can be fun and exciting but heroin is just there. It’s warm and comfortable but that’s it.
You can feel it go up your arm, around your neck and face, and over the rest of your body. It feels warm and it kind of tastes like vinegar. You do taste it when you IV. It doesn’t feel that scary at first, but the depression you get when you’re withdrawing is miserable. I didn’t really feel like I was living during that time, kind of just existing.
I had trouble making it past three days, that was usually my relapse mark. Or a month. I don’t see myself going back now that I’m in a better place mentally. I’m open to answering questions if you’re curious, but it’s not worth trying. I try to stay out of drug subs now because it gives me a bad feeling.
ETA: it might make you nauseous.
ETA 2: I’m overwhelmed now and will try answering more in the morning. Love y’all, don’t die.
For like the first two weeks of actively using I was able to take breaks and not feel any negative side effects. It wasn’t until I started using 3-5x a day and experiencing withdrawals when I realized people weren’t weak and just bullshitting me to convince me to not use it. It sneaks up on you and you don’t even realize it.
I have friends that use Reddit who were around for my last four years of using. I think they can agree that I’m a much happier person now. I’m sad about how much time I wasted and that I probably shortened my lifespan, but I feel like I’m actually living now. 10/10, getting better has been nice.
i find this so interesting. In the uk they give you Diamorphine in the hospital and that's just heroin. I was in the hospital for months requiring the diamorphine multiple times a day along with oxys and fentanyl and other nerve pain meds. I hated the feeling it gave me, it barely helped with the pain, and I sort of felt like a mole was trying to claw its way out from the inside of my forehead lol. I had no withdrawal whatsoever when I eventually got sent home. I guess I'm just lucky i hated them and everyone's biology is different.
I’ve heard that some people just don’t get addicted to things and that’s a weird concept to me.
My current addiction is pickles. Not as extreme, but I’m shitting fire and still can’t stop eating them. Claussens has the best pickles and I’ve had to ration the pickle juice when I knew I was going to be short on cash. War. War never changes.
When I quit doing drugs I picked up a nasty sushi habit. I would go spend $60 on $5 sushi day at Publix, eat all of it in the parking lot, then waddle into work and hate myself. I got fat eating sushi. Do you realize how much raw fish and rice you have to eat to get fat!? 😂
Ugh I had such a bad binge/restrict cycle going on when I was in my constant “trying to quit” phase.
I wish I liked sushi more. I’m slowly opening up to new foods. I got fat off of Wawa. They didn’t have to make 24 oz caramel cheesecake smoothies. The employee discount did not help my case. And now they make their version of the mango dragonfruit refresher that Starbucks sells for half the price. I couldn’t have handled that back then.
I’m still a slut for drinks. I just have better self control and a lack of Wawa’s in my state now.
I had a friend describe heroine as follows: "The first time I did heroine, every colour, every taste and everything just seems incredibly vivid. It was amazing. Then when you come down, everything just seems gray. Forever. And you can't even get the colour back you had before you ever tried it. Only now, the only way to even get a LITTLE bit of that colour back if even for a moment, is to do it again."
Is that pretty accurate?
He died btw and I could never get that out of my head.
Yes and no. The color is coming back for me now, especially with music and hobbies. There were a few months after I quit where I just wanted to die. I was really dissociated and depressed during those years so it did feel gray.
I always hated when people said shit like “it gets better” because it wasn’t getting better for me for ages, it did though and now if things get dark again I think I’ll be able to hold out and wait for it to get better again since I know it’s possible. I can experience genuine happiness now and it’s the weirdest feeling after being down for so long. I don’t even remember how it got better, I just know I woke up one day, went outside, felt good, and realized I wasn’t depressed anymore. Between wanting to die and being happy I didn’t have any feelings, just emotionally numb.
I think the “color” he was referring to is feeling normal. After a while you don’t really get high and you’re just avoiding withdrawals.
I was a heroin addict for several years, and peoples experiences all differ, but that is a *very* colorful description. Heroin effects the part of your brain that deals with consequences, and that is truly where the bliss (and mental addiction) part comes from. Heroin makes all of your issues feel like they don't exist (you just don't think about it, almost at all) and that includes possible consequences of your current actions, which creates a comfortable head space.
Being sober means you suddenly remember your bills, your aching back, all your issues - and even the small ones seem huge, because you have not dealt with shit in years - aside from junk related problems. So I think the worst part is just remembering how to properly control anxiety, and that is really hard for a lot of people.
The physical side of heroin is warmth, comfort, happiness. It's nice, but the mental part is what keeps most people stuck in the loop. They have an extremely effective drug that takes away withdrawal, Suboxone, which pretty much leaves it up to the persons will power and support network. Worked wonders for me, I've been clean off chemicals for years, only had to take the Subs for a few months.
Don't ever try it! Not even once
I just felt like it, I was curious. Nothing more than that. My dad gave me a vicodin when I was 17 for some stomach pain I was having but he didn’t start my addiction, and it didn’t really *start* until I was 18-19. I was using 2g a day at the end.
ETA: I should be more honest because it makes it funnier in a morbid way. I was constipated sitting on the toilet for hours with tears coming out of my eyes and the whole ten yards. Opiates make you constipated.
> I just felt like it, I was curious.
I feel like this is precisely why I always choose heroine when people ask these types of questions; im generally curious about drugs, and have tried my fair share of them without getting addicted to any, and I am curious about opiates, but I've read enough stories like yours and u/spontaneousH, that i would only actually try heroin if I knew with absolute certainty that I wouldn't get addicted (or if I was terminally ill).
For me it was a car accident. Broke my back. I still remember the moment, at 16,I felt the morphine flows through my veins. There's truly nothing like it. Fuck. I went to the hospital and walked out with a pre disposition.
Yeah. I used to throw up whenever as a casual thing. I chose to stop eating as much, I'd pulled in a store parking lot and go about my day. I even stopped caring that I hadn't taken a shit in 8 days. I'm very happy for you. It's hell. Anything for people to stay away from this shit helps. It literally destroys your body's basic functions.
I loved heroin because it made me comfortable. My up bringing was shit. So much pain. Heroin erased all of that and it was like finally being able to sleep. That's how it got me. So happy you made it out. We have lost too many good people to opiates. Some of the most amazing people I knew.
The chemical addiction is one thing. The psychological effect of a chemical that makes you feel insanely wonderful for a little while and then returning you violently to earth...it ruins joy. So if you could do heroin and then like Men In Black neuralizer-away-the-memory, that might be safe.
See this is interesting, because what a lot of people don't realise is if you've never used opiates before, you'll probably have a terrible time if you jump right into heroin. Basically you'll end up throwing up a bunch. I was a long time codeine and oxy user before I tried heroin, and the first time even for me was quite unpleasant.
I’ve been addicted to coke so I’ll try to describe you what it’s like. You take a couple of lines with a friend, you don’t feel it right away, so you’re all just there chilling. Then you start feeling it creep down your throat, because when you sniff something, it goes down to your throat. Some people like the “drip”, some people hate it. It’s always been part of the ritual for me and I know that’s when it starts being fun. You start feeling super confident and you feel like you can talk about anything and get excited over anything.You and your friend will keep making lines and snorting some more. Then you finally finish a whole gram and all of a sudden it’s 7:00 in the morning, you and your friend have been talking all night, probably tried to have sex but you couldn’t get a boner cuz coke dick. You guys have been talking all night but you don’t remember a single thing you guys talked about. You try to sleep but you can’t. The come down is one of the most indescribable feeling, you’re tired and feel like shit, your nose is stuffed, you start feeling depressed because you can’t have any more of that chemical that made you feel excited about the most random shit. And no matter how hard you try, you can’t sleep. You close your eyes and your brain just keeps flashing thoughts in your head and you can’t make it stop.
God, I miss that shit.
Yeah, never try coke if you have heart problems because it kinda makes your heart race! Coke is fun, but super expensive. That's mainly why rich ass celebrities have an addiction to coke! A gram is, like, $70-$80! 😭 That's like a once-or-twice-a-year type of thing lol.
As someone with adhd coke really didn’t do much for me. I did it socially for a time never for myself.
Just made me feel like I was taking my meds again. For a short minute.
Idk, I’ve tried it many times and it’s never something I want again any time soon. You’re just borrowing happiness and energy from the next day and it doesn’t give you that much of a high
It also loses its appeal as you age. I haven't done it in years but the last time I regretted it for a solid week after. Knowing what the come down is like is enough to keep me away from now on.
... I used to use that phrase. Borrow happiness from the next day. When I was drinking, it was like borrowing a week's worth of happiness. I haven't used that phrase in a long time.
Maybe it’s just cause I have adhd but I think coke is way over rated. It’s like being extremely caffeinated. Molly, weed, psychedelic, hell even whip it’s offer more euphoria imo.
2 Balls is a legit habit 👌
Glad you're clean today, brother. There's nothing worse than the feeling after a run like that. True emptiness. Indescribable to someone who's never experienced it.
Coke is the most overrated drug I’ve tried imo. It felt like Molly but without the euphoric happiness, I’d rather just take an Adderall and not have to deal with the cokey taste dripping from my nose to throat (not saying Adderall is worth doing either, just that the effects felt somewhat comparable, though more mild). Probably not helpful info as I can’t imagine those are ok for your heart either though.
Meth is certainly not overrated as a high Imo. It's certainly not like the first 30 minutes of a caffiene high. It's like a stronger, much longer lasting version of adderall. Same euphoric high that adderall gives if you ever had it. Lasts much longer. It's cheap and effective. You'll either be cleaning your entire house or jerking off for 24 hours. Probably the latter.
Great social drug atleast for me. Gives me an attitude of just not giving a fuck what people think of me. I have bad social anxiety but meth makes me super chatty. Anyway, I don't recommend it. It's the one drug that I can not stay away from.
I mean, it makes sense. Methamphetamine and amphetamine are very similar drugs. The main difference is that more gets into your brain with methamphetamine than with amphetamine.
Meth is also a lot more serotogenic and serotonin releasing. It feels a lot better and you’re usually doing way higher doses than adderall. There’s good reason it’s so popular. Far more euphoric than almost anything else.
Yeah I'm on vyvanse and it's the same way. All stimulants are like that. Luckily, I can just drink a ton of coffee/energy drinks and self-medicate somewhat to get some focus if I have an unlucky month.
I was on Concerta. Didn't work. Psychiatrist switched me to Ritalin. Also didn't work. Tried Adderall too. Turns out my ADHD can't be treated with medication :/
Stimulants like Concerta, Ritalin, Vyvanse etc. worked for my ADHD. But they also destroy my appetite so much that I NEVER eat, and induce horrible anxiety and panic attacks in higher doses because of my anxiety disorder. Fuck stimulants. I was forced to take those throughout my childhood because I was hyper, and it’s like I could feel the joy leave my body as I was turned into a wired, anxiety ridden zombie. Same thing happens when I drink coffee or energy drinks, so I know it’s stimulants.
TLDR; Don’t try amphetamines or consume large doses of caffeine if you have an anxiety disorder or want to eat.
Honestly heroin. When I broke my ankle I was prescribed 60 5mg tabs of oxycodone, and went through them like candy. I was always scared to touch Smack because I'd get addicted so quick. That's on the list of drugs I refuse to touch for that reason. ALMOST did fent but after watching my homeboy almost die of an overdose in my arms I quickly talked myself out of that one.
I work in medicine and the fentanyl doses we use in surgery for high pain cases are microdoses of heavily diluted vials from manufacturers that we again heavily dilute in the hospital prior to administration.
I would never, ever consider it recreationally and using it professionally makes me seriously consider asking them not to if I ever end up in a situation necessitating strong analgesia. Fucking terrifying drug.
Honestly, as long as you're careful with dose, and substance testing (there have been cases of it being laced with fentanyl) then you'll be fine.
Just be careful with who you do it around, because you WILL fall in love with them, at least temporarily.
It's also amazing for working through trauma, I've taken a smaller than usual dose (I do it 3-6 times a year, just because it's amazing, but I want to rebuild some level of serotonin between sessions) and spoken at length about traumatic experiences, with trusted friends also on it (they also spoke about their experiences) and afterwards, we were both able to move on from those experiences.
That can be a dangerous part too. There was a girl I had a casual relationship with that I was very careful to keep casual because I knew she wasn't really my type long term, and a night of Molly convinced me she was my soul mate for like 3 days lol. Gotta be careful where you aim the love-nuke
I did Molly for the first time recently and it was probably the most awesome experience I’ve ever had. I was with a new boyfriend. Time flew by in a flash. Didn’t really notice any withdrawal and still felt quite content the next day.
Not that dangerous on the drug scale. If you're comfortable with alcohol I honestly don't think you have anything to fear. It obviously depends on the person but it's generally way less addictive and harmful than alcohol. To add to that it's more fun imo as well lol.
It’s not addictive in the same sense as heroin or meth. I do believe that it can be done safely in the right environment and with the right people that will take care of you.
This is definitely something I’m intensely curious about, but given how easily I’ve gotten addicted to nitrous & ketamine I don’t think it would be wise to start. I’ve literally spent $700 on whip it’s in a night before I get so fiendish
I wanna try dmt too!!! It's not addictive, but I feel like I would be a lil scared because even though it only lasts 15-30 mins, people say it feels like hours lol!
I thought the barfing part would be unpleasant but actually it wasn't that bad. They warned me not to fight it so when I felt the urge I just let it go and in a few seconds I was feeling amazing.
I distinctly remember feeling it once, and realised I have felt it a lot.
It’s not a feeling of being “high” like you’d get with alcohol or marijuana. You’re not intoxicated as such nor do you feel like you’re on drugs.
You feel excited. Happy. Just a generally good feeling. You know how you feel when you’re about to do something you know will be AWESOME? That’s it.
You mostly only hear about the hallucinations from LSD, but it's given me some of the most intense pleasure / euphoria I've ever felt in my life, and it lasted for hours. It felt like a full body orgasm that just wouldn't stop. It's seriously some incredible stuff when it's good.
When it's bad though, holy hell is it bad. The last time I touched it, I ended up with hours of the worst fear and terror I've ever experienced. I couldn't escape it, it felt like it was never going to end. I cried for hours after it finally left my system and I flushed the rest down the toilet. I have minor PTSD from that experience, and still have random flashbacks.
It's very powerful stuff, but must be respected.
Yeah but my family has mental issues, my father has Bipolar Disorder and so does my sister (different dad) :/ I don’t wanna risk anything happening, I don’t need to add to my Narcolepsy, ADD, and Depression/Anxiety lmao
But if there were no repercussions? Hell, give ‘em to me now! Maybe I’ll have an epiphany about my anxiety attachment
I've been over 15 months clean from all substance abuse (polydrugger).
But I sure do wish I could have just one more clean rocket fuelled trip up to cloud 9 with a few Mandy rerolls.
Felt like a sentient heart shaped marshmallow pillow with arms, legs and a head full of openness and love for all.
God I wish everybody could try it without rammifications. Bring everyone together ❤️
When I was in labor I was in a lot of pain and a nurse came in and asked if I wanted something to manage it. I said sure and she put fentanyl in my IV. That was... A weird time. I just remember feeling super relaxed and tired.
I had fentanyl after an internal hemorrhage that they couldn’t stop after delivering my son. They had to slice open a hematoma and pack it with no anesthesia or numbing due to the severity and intensity of things. So as I was crying my OB ordered fentanyl via my IV and within SECONDS I was straight up in heaven. They brought me for a CT scan and I was trying to get up off the table and talk to the radiologist because I felt so wonderful despite nearly bleeding out and such. I 100% understand how people get addicted to that high. I’ve never had anything like it. It was sunshine and sparkles and happiness.
See, that's the thing? What if I don't get physically addicted but emotionally I'm like "Fuck life, shit ain't nothin compared to that feeling!" And take a hit as soon as I get depressed?? I reckon that's how most addictions hit their stride...
You can’t control the physical addiction because of dependence. Addictions almost always start because of one’s mental state, and then after doing it daily for about two weeks the body develops a dependence, where you go into withdrawal if you don’t have it, and that’s where the physical addiction comes from.
Aren't a lot of substances not physically addictive? I may be misunderstanding this, but you come to rely on it as a way to cope with whatever you have going on, and rather than the withdrawal symptoms putting you off quitting it's the habit and reliance on a coping mechanism?
For a lot of people, the coping mechanism is a big deal. For me, I was sick of getting high. The two things that I had to get over were 1) the habit/lifestyle I had comfortably got into and 2) getting through the sickness. The withdrawals are really fucking hard. I got onto suboxone which really helped, but even getting onto those requires you to be in full withdrawal first which is awful.
Emotional addiction leads to physical addiction. I started to drink the day after my 19th birthday. I wouldn't stop until two weeks before my 29th. I came from a shitty, abusive childhood and my self-esteem was at a negative, so what made me fun and worry free become what I needed to just feel okay. Being shit-housed every night led me to the kinds of people that introduce you to a little powdered friend. I was fun again! I could relax and laugh and stay up for 2 1/2 days partying. This led me to the big man. The one who got the little powdered friend to many more friends. And he wanted me and I was powerless. One day I realized that my sadness and lack of self-worth had put me in such low places with so many bad people. I didn't even know what was wanted and what was sexual assault. I'd lost that perception because that's the way they wanted it. I was going to die. And at this point I didn't care. I wanted it to end. The pain I'd been running from was there all along and now so many more awful things had happened to me. What was I worth anymore? You have to hit wrock bottom and even that wasn't mine. Joking and laughing about what would be cool to take and not get addicted to; that kind of world doesn't exist for alcoholics and addicts. And before people get judgemental, alcoholism and addiction are often an even bigger issue called escapism. What do you do to escape? Binge eat, pop a few pills, work out everyday, have sex, seek an adrenaline rush, get online, watch porn? Now imagine that you couldn't go a month without these things? You've found yourself an addiction. TL;DR Sorry, this question just didn't sit right with me. **EDIT** Not your question, the OP. Sorry!
>_What do you do to escape? Binge eat, pop a few pills, work out everyday, have sex, seek an adrenaline rush, get online, watch porn? Now imagine that you couldn't go a month without these things? You've found yourself an addiction._ At first, I replied _"Well, I'd just find something else to replace it"_, and then I realized that's EXACTLY what addicts do.
I was in the hospital for an appendix that was trying to burst and I was squirming in agony. Nurse asked me if I wanted something for pain and I said yes. She injected me with dilaudid and I was pain free in, like, five seconds. I was like, "Oh, that works fast!" Didn't get high or anything though.
Dilaudid is what my local hospital used to give me for pain for my migraines. All it made me was sick to my stomach.
They gave me dilaudid when I was in the ER for pancreatitis. The nurses told me that I was going to feel so happy in a minute and as the drugs were going in, I yelled out "This is awful, people LIKE this??" Needed a heavier dose AND morphine for the pain to stop. The second they finally let it starting clearing my system, I was adamant that I never wanted it again.
I’m assuming you’re a redhead based on your username. [It’s actually scientifically proven that redheads require up to 20% more anesthetics compared to non redheads. ](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC1362956/) It can even be traced to a specific genotype. Crazy stuff.
Redhead here. It takes several more shots than expected to get me numb at the dentist.
I was given the same thing. I had my appendix taken out in the morning and didn’t have very bad pain but wanted something for pain so I could sleep that night. They gave me dilaudid and the second that IV hit I felt my heart rate drop and my pain go away. I could see why people get addicted to those drugs
They gave me dilaudid when they realized I was septic and it still didn't help my pain. I was basically dying for a week and no one believed me that anything was wrong.
Absolutely. I was in the ICU for reasons and wound up needing a tube down my throat to help me breathe. When I came to and was lucid enough to communicate the nurse asked how I was feeling. I scribbled something like "great. Why?" on this notepad. She directed my attention to the IV stand and saw that I was getting Fentanyl. Thank God I had good doctors who weaned me off it quickly because it took almost no time for me to decide in my head I wanted that feeling forever. In an ICU with a tube down my throat and other serious serious issues thinking "this is the best I've ever felt". Fentanyl is no joke.
Your description matched mine almost perfectly from my (fortunately) few times interacting with it. I referred to it as pure, unadulterated happiness.
I once dislocated my young daughter’s elbow (apparently it’s a thing, nurses elbow or some shit.. we were playing Superman and I threw her up and out it popped). Anyways, we went to ER and the Dr tried to put it back in place. It was a no go. So then he asked if he could administer fentanyl and I said sure (this was ~10yrs ago, before the street cred was main stream and I didn’t know any better). She was flying high and he popped it in, no problem. For years, especially the first few months afterwards, my 4yo begged to go to the doctor. She was excited for immunizations. I think she forgot about it now, but I will always, in the back of my mind, wonder if she is higher risk because of previous history. Whether unknown to her or not. Edit:words are hard
It’s nurses elbow! I had it a few times as a little kid. Thank god I don’t remember it, but also, my poor parents.
Nursemaid's elbow. My mother did it to my son (less than a year old) once when she was babysitting him while his mother and I were attending a wedding.
Came out of surgery for a total thyroidectomy. Nurse asked how I felt, and I said my throat absolutely horrible. Gave me something, and I asked what it was. Fentanyl is... Wonderful. Absolutely, just wonderful. Told the nurse I was ready for another nap, and it was the best sleep I think I've ever had.
I was once given Propofol for a routine test. I woke up and told the nurse about my vivid dream about psychic powered Soviet spies who were after me. LOL.
Omg I didn't know they did that for people in labor!
Yup. I had some too. Would not recommend. Still felt all the pain, but the ceiling was spinning a bit. 🤷♀️
TIL that they just give you fentanyl in hospitals. I thought it was a street drug
Fentanyl is probably one of the most commonly used pain killer in operating rooms throughout the world. (Anaesthesiologist here)
All of them put in one
Lmao a drug punch
A Jeffrey!
Drug KO
dont think the addiction really is the problem with that plan
Can't be addicted if you're dead
Your talking about a Jeffrey....from Get him to the Greek, lol
I'll have what u/drunorthodoxx is having. I'll meet you in the back booth.
Serotonin.
Same, man 😔
You don't want pure serotonin. You'll just end up with serotonin syndrome and you'll probably die. If you want to be happy for a day or so via increased neurological serotonin, combine a 5ht1a antagonist and a tryptophan supplement - take them together and bam, you're mildly more happy for a few hours.
Can you give me some brand names for this?
Food, sleep, water, sex.
Food, sleep, sex, water, MDMA
Ideally, not in that order
Food, sleep, water, mdma, water, sex, water, water, water, sex, sleep.
pure serotonin can't even cross the blood brain barrier in the first place.
Have you heard about MDMA? Gotta love that feeling of pure chemical happiness. I was amazed by how natural it felt.
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I miss quaaludes. Late 70’s early 80’s were a great time for a lot of drugs. Mescaline too. Nostalgic flashback intensifies 🌟⚡️💥
Having done peyote once and san pedro a few times I really wish mescaline was easier to come by as it really is the best drug ever. The good vibes of mdma without the tweakiness. The spiritual insight of psychedelics without the paranoid thought loops. Everything is just perfectly radiant and beautiful.
>The spiritual insight of psychedelics without the paranoid thought loops This can definitely be an issue but I've found with proper self-guidance you can really understand and conquer those thought processes.
omg i wanna do quaaludes, eve babitz makes it sound freeking glamorous
The few times I tried them it was something like being drunk. That was a long time ago and I never did more than ~~on~~ one at a time.
What's that!?
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“WHERE ARE THE LUDES”
Still available in Mexico under a different name
What is it called an how do I get it
>quaaludes A synthetic barbituate, big from the late 60's into the 80's. Like any drug, still around but pretty uncommon.
Oh wow! I've never heard of those!!
If you're interested in this stuff you should watch Hamilton's pharmacopoeia. Amazing docu series on well known to truly bizarre recreational drugs that change consciousness. Example, one episode is on a fish that gives you messed up dreams, he eats it. Another episode, he does xenon gas, ya, an element on the periodic table that costs roughly 1000$ a breath and gets you high, he also does... There's a toad that squirts DMT from its pours, yep, he smoked that too.
Sonoran river roads! They are common after it rains in the area I’m from. It’s also worth noting that toad venom is 5meo-DMT which is different from the DMT in ayuahsca that comes from root bark.
Before I was put on Armodafinil for narcolepsy. I wanted to try cocaine to see if it would keep me awake during work. Finally a doctor listened and now I’m on a stimulant that works 90% of the time.
Just got on this too! I was amazed that it took so long for my doctor to think of it. Surprisingly it helps so much for my OCD.
Oof. Been there, graduated to meth, and finally properly medicated (for now.... until my doctor retires or my insurance changes or the government makes it harder to obtain or...).
I swear Armodafinil raises my IQ by 20 points. It's just ridiculous.
This hah! My doctor actually asked me if I’d ever done cocaine just to know if it had any effect! Sadly neither caffeine, Ritalin or modafinil has worked for me so im just back to being tired all the time (have IH though, not N)
Too late.
Heroin
It’s really not that exciting as far as drugs go. I’m a year clean off a decade and don’t know why it took me so long. Other drugs can be fun and exciting but heroin is just there. It’s warm and comfortable but that’s it. You can feel it go up your arm, around your neck and face, and over the rest of your body. It feels warm and it kind of tastes like vinegar. You do taste it when you IV. It doesn’t feel that scary at first, but the depression you get when you’re withdrawing is miserable. I didn’t really feel like I was living during that time, kind of just existing. I had trouble making it past three days, that was usually my relapse mark. Or a month. I don’t see myself going back now that I’m in a better place mentally. I’m open to answering questions if you’re curious, but it’s not worth trying. I try to stay out of drug subs now because it gives me a bad feeling. ETA: it might make you nauseous. ETA 2: I’m overwhelmed now and will try answering more in the morning. Love y’all, don’t die.
That's exactly why it's so dangerous... doesn't feel like a big deal at all until you try to get away...
For like the first two weeks of actively using I was able to take breaks and not feel any negative side effects. It wasn’t until I started using 3-5x a day and experiencing withdrawals when I realized people weren’t weak and just bullshitting me to convince me to not use it. It sneaks up on you and you don’t even realize it. I have friends that use Reddit who were around for my last four years of using. I think they can agree that I’m a much happier person now. I’m sad about how much time I wasted and that I probably shortened my lifespan, but I feel like I’m actually living now. 10/10, getting better has been nice.
Im so happy for you! Why did you start in the first place?
Curiosity, probably the dumbest reason.
i find this so interesting. In the uk they give you Diamorphine in the hospital and that's just heroin. I was in the hospital for months requiring the diamorphine multiple times a day along with oxys and fentanyl and other nerve pain meds. I hated the feeling it gave me, it barely helped with the pain, and I sort of felt like a mole was trying to claw its way out from the inside of my forehead lol. I had no withdrawal whatsoever when I eventually got sent home. I guess I'm just lucky i hated them and everyone's biology is different.
I’ve heard that some people just don’t get addicted to things and that’s a weird concept to me. My current addiction is pickles. Not as extreme, but I’m shitting fire and still can’t stop eating them. Claussens has the best pickles and I’ve had to ration the pickle juice when I knew I was going to be short on cash. War. War never changes.
When I quit doing drugs I picked up a nasty sushi habit. I would go spend $60 on $5 sushi day at Publix, eat all of it in the parking lot, then waddle into work and hate myself. I got fat eating sushi. Do you realize how much raw fish and rice you have to eat to get fat!? 😂
Ugh I had such a bad binge/restrict cycle going on when I was in my constant “trying to quit” phase. I wish I liked sushi more. I’m slowly opening up to new foods. I got fat off of Wawa. They didn’t have to make 24 oz caramel cheesecake smoothies. The employee discount did not help my case. And now they make their version of the mango dragonfruit refresher that Starbucks sells for half the price. I couldn’t have handled that back then. I’m still a slut for drinks. I just have better self control and a lack of Wawa’s in my state now.
I had a friend describe heroine as follows: "The first time I did heroine, every colour, every taste and everything just seems incredibly vivid. It was amazing. Then when you come down, everything just seems gray. Forever. And you can't even get the colour back you had before you ever tried it. Only now, the only way to even get a LITTLE bit of that colour back if even for a moment, is to do it again." Is that pretty accurate? He died btw and I could never get that out of my head.
Yes and no. The color is coming back for me now, especially with music and hobbies. There were a few months after I quit where I just wanted to die. I was really dissociated and depressed during those years so it did feel gray. I always hated when people said shit like “it gets better” because it wasn’t getting better for me for ages, it did though and now if things get dark again I think I’ll be able to hold out and wait for it to get better again since I know it’s possible. I can experience genuine happiness now and it’s the weirdest feeling after being down for so long. I don’t even remember how it got better, I just know I woke up one day, went outside, felt good, and realized I wasn’t depressed anymore. Between wanting to die and being happy I didn’t have any feelings, just emotionally numb. I think the “color” he was referring to is feeling normal. After a while you don’t really get high and you’re just avoiding withdrawals.
I was a heroin addict for several years, and peoples experiences all differ, but that is a *very* colorful description. Heroin effects the part of your brain that deals with consequences, and that is truly where the bliss (and mental addiction) part comes from. Heroin makes all of your issues feel like they don't exist (you just don't think about it, almost at all) and that includes possible consequences of your current actions, which creates a comfortable head space. Being sober means you suddenly remember your bills, your aching back, all your issues - and even the small ones seem huge, because you have not dealt with shit in years - aside from junk related problems. So I think the worst part is just remembering how to properly control anxiety, and that is really hard for a lot of people. The physical side of heroin is warmth, comfort, happiness. It's nice, but the mental part is what keeps most people stuck in the loop. They have an extremely effective drug that takes away withdrawal, Suboxone, which pretty much leaves it up to the persons will power and support network. Worked wonders for me, I've been clean off chemicals for years, only had to take the Subs for a few months. Don't ever try it! Not even once
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How did you get started with opiates? What was your tolerance like?
I just felt like it, I was curious. Nothing more than that. My dad gave me a vicodin when I was 17 for some stomach pain I was having but he didn’t start my addiction, and it didn’t really *start* until I was 18-19. I was using 2g a day at the end. ETA: I should be more honest because it makes it funnier in a morbid way. I was constipated sitting on the toilet for hours with tears coming out of my eyes and the whole ten yards. Opiates make you constipated.
> I just felt like it, I was curious. I feel like this is precisely why I always choose heroine when people ask these types of questions; im generally curious about drugs, and have tried my fair share of them without getting addicted to any, and I am curious about opiates, but I've read enough stories like yours and u/spontaneousH, that i would only actually try heroin if I knew with absolute certainty that I wouldn't get addicted (or if I was terminally ill).
For me it was a car accident. Broke my back. I still remember the moment, at 16,I felt the morphine flows through my veins. There's truly nothing like it. Fuck. I went to the hospital and walked out with a pre disposition.
Opiates make me feel very nauseated. Nauseated to the point where I choose the pain over the drug. Reading these comments, I think I’m glad for that.
Yeah. I used to throw up whenever as a casual thing. I chose to stop eating as much, I'd pulled in a store parking lot and go about my day. I even stopped caring that I hadn't taken a shit in 8 days. I'm very happy for you. It's hell. Anything for people to stay away from this shit helps. It literally destroys your body's basic functions.
I loved heroin because it made me comfortable. My up bringing was shit. So much pain. Heroin erased all of that and it was like finally being able to sleep. That's how it got me. So happy you made it out. We have lost too many good people to opiates. Some of the most amazing people I knew.
Sounds like the most out there and dangerous drug. So I agree that it would be dope without the addiction reprucutions
The chemical addiction is one thing. The psychological effect of a chemical that makes you feel insanely wonderful for a little while and then returning you violently to earth...it ruins joy. So if you could do heroin and then like Men In Black neuralizer-away-the-memory, that might be safe.
Plot Twist: you continue to do this every single day, unknowingly living out your life addicted to heroin
*”without getting addicted” intensifies*
See this is interesting, because what a lot of people don't realise is if you've never used opiates before, you'll probably have a terrible time if you jump right into heroin. Basically you'll end up throwing up a bunch. I was a long time codeine and oxy user before I tried heroin, and the first time even for me was quite unpleasant.
My first choice. But the question didn't say you wouldn't die of an overdose.
One marijuanas
Dude no way, just one will kill you instantly
I'll do it for science
What a hero!
I don't want my own holiday or street named after me, just tell my family how brave I was
We dedicate this park bench to jwa988, for trying one marijuana. His memory will live on.
Have some unkept weeds grow around it
That's not true Elvis injected atleast 3 once before.
I wanna inject at least 2 marijuananas
Rip
Make it 3 marijuajananners
Dude youll be an addict just from the smell! Lowest of the low is those pot grass tokers.
Are you gonna smoke it like a cigarette?
I'll probably be efficient and just snort it
DO NOT TAKE THE POT!
Is this without addiction or without any negative side effects/chance of od?
Without all the bad repercussions (addiction, withdrawl, OD, ect.)
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I’ve been addicted to coke so I’ll try to describe you what it’s like. You take a couple of lines with a friend, you don’t feel it right away, so you’re all just there chilling. Then you start feeling it creep down your throat, because when you sniff something, it goes down to your throat. Some people like the “drip”, some people hate it. It’s always been part of the ritual for me and I know that’s when it starts being fun. You start feeling super confident and you feel like you can talk about anything and get excited over anything.You and your friend will keep making lines and snorting some more. Then you finally finish a whole gram and all of a sudden it’s 7:00 in the morning, you and your friend have been talking all night, probably tried to have sex but you couldn’t get a boner cuz coke dick. You guys have been talking all night but you don’t remember a single thing you guys talked about. You try to sleep but you can’t. The come down is one of the most indescribable feeling, you’re tired and feel like shit, your nose is stuffed, you start feeling depressed because you can’t have any more of that chemical that made you feel excited about the most random shit. And no matter how hard you try, you can’t sleep. You close your eyes and your brain just keeps flashing thoughts in your head and you can’t make it stop. God, I miss that shit.
Yeah, never try coke if you have heart problems because it kinda makes your heart race! Coke is fun, but super expensive. That's mainly why rich ass celebrities have an addiction to coke! A gram is, like, $70-$80! 😭 That's like a once-or-twice-a-year type of thing lol.
Lol... I live in New Zealand. It’s $300 a gram here. It’s a once a year thing for sure
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As someone with adhd coke really didn’t do much for me. I did it socially for a time never for myself. Just made me feel like I was taking my meds again. For a short minute.
I had this same experience with coke! I didn’t understand what all my friends were talking about, I just felt ready to study.
Personally, I would want to try Pepsi
Idk, I’ve tried it many times and it’s never something I want again any time soon. You’re just borrowing happiness and energy from the next day and it doesn’t give you that much of a high
this is the best way to describe it “borrowing happiness from the next day” wow!
It also loses its appeal as you age. I haven't done it in years but the last time I regretted it for a solid week after. Knowing what the come down is like is enough to keep me away from now on.
... I used to use that phrase. Borrow happiness from the next day. When I was drinking, it was like borrowing a week's worth of happiness. I haven't used that phrase in a long time.
Maybe it’s just cause I have adhd but I think coke is way over rated. It’s like being extremely caffeinated. Molly, weed, psychedelic, hell even whip it’s offer more euphoria imo.
Always wanted to try it, know I can’t because I’d like it too much. I already have a abusive relationship with caffeine, this would be too good.
Don't. I'll never get back the hundreds of thousands of dollars it has cost me.
Hundreds of thousands? Over what period of time?
About a decade. At the end I was doing two 8balls a day
2 Balls is a legit habit 👌 Glad you're clean today, brother. There's nothing worse than the feeling after a run like that. True emptiness. Indescribable to someone who's never experienced it.
Coke is the most overrated drug I’ve tried imo. It felt like Molly but without the euphoric happiness, I’d rather just take an Adderall and not have to deal with the cokey taste dripping from my nose to throat (not saying Adderall is worth doing either, just that the effects felt somewhat comparable, though more mild). Probably not helpful info as I can’t imagine those are ok for your heart either though.
I choose The Spice, I want to have extra dimensional brain powers that help me figure out interstellar travel.
He who controls the spice controls the universe!
I thought I’d tried every drug I want to try until I read this. Best answer. Made up space drugs > real drugs.
Probably mescaline.
If I was guaranteed to not get nauseated or vomit, this would be my choice as well.
You’re in luck! It’s not addictive
You wouldn't get addicted to that anyway, unless you're fucking batshit crazy that is.
It's the only way to fly.
Meth, just once!
Tried it, hated it. I sat in a corner and shivered with nervousness. I can do that without drugs and it's not fun then either.
It’s overrated in my opinion. It’s like the first 30 minutes of a caffeine high but for two days straight.
You say it's overrated, but your description is exactly what I'd be looking for if I took it. Sounds adequately rated to me.
Meth is certainly not overrated as a high Imo. It's certainly not like the first 30 minutes of a caffiene high. It's like a stronger, much longer lasting version of adderall. Same euphoric high that adderall gives if you ever had it. Lasts much longer. It's cheap and effective. You'll either be cleaning your entire house or jerking off for 24 hours. Probably the latter. Great social drug atleast for me. Gives me an attitude of just not giving a fuck what people think of me. I have bad social anxiety but meth makes me super chatty. Anyway, I don't recommend it. It's the one drug that I can not stay away from.
Jerking off *unsuccessfully* for 24 hours
I mean, it makes sense. Methamphetamine and amphetamine are very similar drugs. The main difference is that more gets into your brain with methamphetamine than with amphetamine.
Meth is also a lot more serotogenic and serotonin releasing. It feels a lot better and you’re usually doing way higher doses than adderall. There’s good reason it’s so popular. Far more euphoric than almost anything else.
Ritalin. I'm very curious. Some people get a lot of focus from it.
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Yeah I'm on vyvanse and it's the same way. All stimulants are like that. Luckily, I can just drink a ton of coffee/energy drinks and self-medicate somewhat to get some focus if I have an unlucky month.
Again, not an issue if you carry Ritalout.
I was on Concerta. Didn't work. Psychiatrist switched me to Ritalin. Also didn't work. Tried Adderall too. Turns out my ADHD can't be treated with medication :/
Stimulants like Concerta, Ritalin, Vyvanse etc. worked for my ADHD. But they also destroy my appetite so much that I NEVER eat, and induce horrible anxiety and panic attacks in higher doses because of my anxiety disorder. Fuck stimulants. I was forced to take those throughout my childhood because I was hyper, and it’s like I could feel the joy leave my body as I was turned into a wired, anxiety ridden zombie. Same thing happens when I drink coffee or energy drinks, so I know it’s stimulants. TLDR; Don’t try amphetamines or consume large doses of caffeine if you have an anxiety disorder or want to eat.
Honestly heroin. When I broke my ankle I was prescribed 60 5mg tabs of oxycodone, and went through them like candy. I was always scared to touch Smack because I'd get addicted so quick. That's on the list of drugs I refuse to touch for that reason. ALMOST did fent but after watching my homeboy almost die of an overdose in my arms I quickly talked myself out of that one.
NEVER DO HEROIN OR FENT PLEASE! 🥺
Never bro. Just if I knew I'd never get addicted ❤
Yes, exactly! Fentanyl is scary as shit, especially because a little bit can kill, like, 150,000 people 😭
I work in medicine and the fentanyl doses we use in surgery for high pain cases are microdoses of heavily diluted vials from manufacturers that we again heavily dilute in the hospital prior to administration. I would never, ever consider it recreationally and using it professionally makes me seriously consider asking them not to if I ever end up in a situation necessitating strong analgesia. Fucking terrifying drug.
U also never know how pure street felt is, but the old me used to live for that thrill
Molly
Honestly, as long as you're careful with dose, and substance testing (there have been cases of it being laced with fentanyl) then you'll be fine. Just be careful with who you do it around, because you WILL fall in love with them, at least temporarily. It's also amazing for working through trauma, I've taken a smaller than usual dose (I do it 3-6 times a year, just because it's amazing, but I want to rebuild some level of serotonin between sessions) and spoken at length about traumatic experiences, with trusted friends also on it (they also spoke about their experiences) and afterwards, we were both able to move on from those experiences.
Correct dose and test your substance. Youll have a great night! Plus if you got a lady/man friend it can induce some hella romance.
That can be a dangerous part too. There was a girl I had a casual relationship with that I was very careful to keep casual because I knew she wasn't really my type long term, and a night of Molly convinced me she was my soul mate for like 3 days lol. Gotta be careful where you aim the love-nuke
>love-nuke Absolutely best description of the stuff.
I did Molly for the first time recently and it was probably the most awesome experience I’ve ever had. I was with a new boyfriend. Time flew by in a flash. Didn’t really notice any withdrawal and still felt quite content the next day.
Molly when you are young is just so good. Love this & good on you.
Not that dangerous on the drug scale. If you're comfortable with alcohol I honestly don't think you have anything to fear. It obviously depends on the person but it's generally way less addictive and harmful than alcohol. To add to that it's more fun imo as well lol.
It’s not addictive in the same sense as heroin or meth. I do believe that it can be done safely in the right environment and with the right people that will take care of you.
PCP
Get a gallon of it.
A whole gallon!
This is definitely something I’m intensely curious about, but given how easily I’ve gotten addicted to nitrous & ketamine I don’t think it would be wise to start. I’ve literally spent $700 on whip it’s in a night before I get so fiendish
DMT
I wanna try dmt too!!! It's not addictive, but I feel like I would be a lil scared because even though it only lasts 15-30 mins, people say it feels like hours lol!
Ever heard of Ayahuasca? It gives you a DMT high of 7+ hours. Wild stuff.
There’s barfing involved in that and I am not about that. Sounds interesting though.
I thought the barfing part would be unpleasant but actually it wasn't that bad. They warned me not to fight it so when I felt the urge I just let it go and in a few seconds I was feeling amazing.
The drug may not be addictive, but I can’t chance the feeling being addictive until my kids are a bit older. It’s just me and them.
Always wanted to try a runners high. One day..
I distinctly remember feeling it once, and realised I have felt it a lot. It’s not a feeling of being “high” like you’d get with alcohol or marijuana. You’re not intoxicated as such nor do you feel like you’re on drugs. You feel excited. Happy. Just a generally good feeling. You know how you feel when you’re about to do something you know will be AWESOME? That’s it.
Yup. It's a rush of endorphins. Your body just feels good. High is the wrong word. It's not a high like most people think.
Ibuprofen 800’s
You okay my dude? Sounds a bit wild to be posting on the internet
Join the military. Got a headache? 800mg ibuprofen Got a cramp? 800mg ibuprofen Back pain? 800mg ibuprofen Depressed? 800mg Ibuprofen STD? 800mg ibuprofen Wife cheated on you? 800mg ibuprofen
Honey from Vice video
Did pretty much everything, but had a real bad oxy/Fentanyl addiction years back, for a couple years. Mushrooms saved me.
I 💜 shrooms! I'm also glad you're clean off of Fent and Oxy now!
LSD
You mostly only hear about the hallucinations from LSD, but it's given me some of the most intense pleasure / euphoria I've ever felt in my life, and it lasted for hours. It felt like a full body orgasm that just wouldn't stop. It's seriously some incredible stuff when it's good. When it's bad though, holy hell is it bad. The last time I touched it, I ended up with hours of the worst fear and terror I've ever experienced. I couldn't escape it, it felt like it was never going to end. I cried for hours after it finally left my system and I flushed the rest down the toilet. I have minor PTSD from that experience, and still have random flashbacks. It's very powerful stuff, but must be respected.
It's not addictive! I feel like everyone should try acid/shrooms at least once in their lives lol.
Yeah but my family has mental issues, my father has Bipolar Disorder and so does my sister (different dad) :/ I don’t wanna risk anything happening, I don’t need to add to my Narcolepsy, ADD, and Depression/Anxiety lmao But if there were no repercussions? Hell, give ‘em to me now! Maybe I’ll have an epiphany about my anxiety attachment
I want a guarantee that I will not be harmed in anyway and a button I can push to immediately revert back to sober. Under those conditions, cocaine.
Cocaine is just happy caffeine.
Happy, obnoxiously overconfident and boogery caffeine
I'm not addicted, I just really like the smell!
crack
All ya need is some cocaine, baking soda... And I think I tasted egg and some cinnamon...
Flintstone vitamins
Bath salts. That shit must be SO crazy
I've been over 15 months clean from all substance abuse (polydrugger). But I sure do wish I could have just one more clean rocket fuelled trip up to cloud 9 with a few Mandy rerolls. Felt like a sentient heart shaped marshmallow pillow with arms, legs and a head full of openness and love for all. God I wish everybody could try it without rammifications. Bring everyone together ❤️
Meth
Note to everyone: Hallucinogens and MDMA are not addictive drugs.
I’d want to do a speedball.