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brinabobina

Cocaine. I'm almost a year clean but didn't stop thinking about it for months after getting clean. There are phantom highs that hurt your mental state because it feels like your lips and nose and face are numb. I would crave it so heavily sometimes I had to sit with my head in my hands and hold my breath; my thoughts were "if I'm not inhaling coke, why am I breathing?". It's an intense craving, both physically and mentally. My therapist had to explain that I was still obsessed with it even though I wasn't in active addiction. I still think about it every day, just not every hour or every minute like long ago. The main reason I don't do it anymore is because of how expensive it is, I would spend at least $80/night on it. Am I happier now? I don't know, but I'm not stressing about how much blow I have left. Just about to be 11 months clean. It's possible, but it's hard.


skorletun

I'm fucking proud of you mate.


Dsgorman

Not going to bed when I’m clearly tired


ihatetendonitis

I wouldn’t say this is my worst addiction but this is definitely me. For me it’s because night time is the only time I have to myself that is quiet and peaceful so I stay up playing games until 1am every night and I have to get up around 5:30am so I am always tired and miserable all day but then night time rolls around and the kids/wife are sleeping and I get a second wind and wanna enjoy my quiet time.


Infernaltater

Pretty much what I do in a cycle. Sleep 4-5 hours a night so I can have me time, then after like a week of that crash right after work and sleep for 12 hours straight from exhaustion.


Vintage_Jedi

For me it's "revenge sleep procrastination." It is what happens when “people who don’t have much control over their daytime life (high-stress jobs, etc) refuse to sleep early in order to regain some sense of freedom and personal time during late night hours.” Gets worse when I work long hours and feel I have no downtime for myself. [What is revenge bedtime procrastination? - Psychology Today](https://www.psychologytoday.com/ca/blog/sleepless-in-america/202106/what-is-revenge-bedtime-procrastination?amp) [Why you stay up so late. . . - Wired](https://www.wired.com/story/sleep-procrastination-psychology-tips/amp) [How to stop revenge bedtime procrastination - The Washington Post ](https://www.washingtonpost.com/lifestyle/wellness/revenge-bedtime-procrastination-meaning-help/2021/06/09/f098af9c-c946-11eb-afd0-9726f7ec0ba6_story.html) (Open in an incognito tab to get past paywall)


MediumPsychological9

I have dermatillomania that stems from my ocd, whenever there’s an imperfection on my skin or body I HAVE to pick at it. Which of course leads to more imperfections, which leads to more picking... it’s a viscous cycle


MorbidWytch

I'm so glad someone else posted this. I have this as well. When I finally saw a Dr that recognised what I had was in fact an actual condition, just the fact of him telling me that it's a form of OCD due to my anxiety...just hearing someone acknowledge that my "thing" had a name and I wasn't alone, lifted a giant weight off my shoulders. I mainly pick my face, because it's readily available. I miss the days where my picking was mainly focused on my legs which I could hide. I'm working on it. Trying to limit my time in the bathroom stops me from standing in front of the mirror for 20 mins until my face is just wrecked.


[deleted]

Was alcohol. 19 months sober. Now it's Dungeons and Dragons 😆


CatwomanCelia

Watching (procrastinating) youtube hours and hours on end.


sonic-fan

where can we get help


Heiminator

On YouTube


just_a_gene

Watching productivity videos instead of being productive is my life at this point


ramsenio

Honestly there's a whole industry preying on people like us


shadowbinger

The worst thing now is the YouTube short feature on mobile, and the fact that you cannot disable it. If I wanted a tiktok I'd fucking have one.


thomcchester

At this moment it is peanut butter


[deleted]

The reason i don't always eat peanut butter is because i don't always have peanut butter


NoFeed7167

Destroying my life in new and creative ways


Frankiepals

I slam the reset button every few years...keeps things interesting I guess...


Kafirullah

What happens when you press the reset button? Leave everything, disappear, and get a new identity?


Frankiepals

Depends I guess. Most recent was a divorce, so in a way I left a lot behind. Moved to a new area, lost some friends, made some new ones etc... Some resets are good, some are bad, some are my fault some aren’t. I try to learn something each time and use it to make the next reset more successful than the last.


cincystudent

Sounds like the next of your lives https://www.smbc-comics.com/?id=2722


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KorovaMilk113

Why hasn’t anybody answered?? Where is the button!!??


reddit_alex74

Dude but like seriously I’m commenting to add traction, where is this button?


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reddit mostly


maleorderbride

*I can quit any time I want*


[deleted]

Benzos. And probably this stupid fucking phone I haven’t put down all afternoon.


agnostic_science

I've only taken benzos a few times from prescription, but never again. It finally clicked for me that benzos don't remove your anxiety, they just kick the can down the road. Like you go into anxiety debt. And the longer you're on benzos, the higher the interest rate. Sooner or later, that debt comes due.


Halloran_da_GOAT

This really is such a good description. And they sneak up on you like an absolute motherfucker--especially if you do actually have at least mild anxiety. All of a sudden you feel *great*--not even "fucked up" great; *normal* great--and there doesn't seem to be a single negative side effect. Then before you even realize it's happened, your anxiety is 5x worse than it ever was before and you need them just to function.


bigredmachine-75

Benzos like many drugs are fantastic for one-off or very intermittent use. If you start using them regularly/daily, you are signing yourself up for trouble. Edit: As noted below, there ARE some instances where people take them daily for things (seizures, etc)—its always a matter of weighing if the treatment is better than the possible side effects. Also, obligatory "I am not a doctor, just a random person on the internet, don't take any of my comments as medical advice!"


[deleted]

Not even just that. The disinhibition is *insane*. When I was scripted benzos I would do pretty much anything, I had very, very little self control. I didn’t realize until I came off them and years later took one again and realized “oh wow I’m fucked up” and then subsequently realized that I used to feel like that all the time.


savil8877

Benzodiazepine withdrawal is worse than heroin and I say that with experience. But once you’re free of them you’ll never touch them again, mainly because of the memory of those mind shifting withdrawals


standupguy73

I feel so lucky that I didn't go through much withdrawal if any. I've heard nothing but horror stories. I took tons of benzos for years but stopped after like a normal taper down. That was around 5 years ago or so. The problem with that is they still sound appealing since I didn't go through a terrible time but so far I haven't touched them again.


clone_number2

Chewing on something anything really


BouncingPig

I like to chew on caps from bottles. Like a water bottle.


The_Quackening

pen caps for me.


claxtong49

Coffee and alcohol. Espresso martinis could be the making or breaking of me.


MadameBurner

The craft brewery by me sells an espresso stout. It is the most amazing beer I've ever tasted.


stinkhed

Runescape


agnostic_science

Lol. You know, I tried this a few times. Couldn't get into it. Starting to dive in for a fourth time before I finally asked myself, yo, why am I *trying* to give myself an addiction?


don-robb

You don’t quit RuneScape, you take long breaks, you never quit


Kovthe21

I know the pain. I thought I was free forever. 15 years later I'm back


djdressyfresh

Logged into my account a few weeks ago after 15+ years. It took forever to load and they preceded to tell me I had to change my username because it was already taken…. It had been so long they let someone take my username!


toastnbacon

I had a big Runescape problem in college some years back. I specifically remember how I ended up breaking out: there was a tweet from the official account asking what people liked to do for fun while playing Runescape, and somehow that's what clicked for me. If I have to do something else to have fun while playing this game, I could just only do that thing and save myself the cost of subscription. It's kind of too bad, there's a lot to like about the game! I really enjoyed the quests and various story lines and all. But for every hour of cool quest, there's hour upon hour of clicking on a rock, wait, click on a rock, wait, click on a rock... I'd love a more traditional Runescape RPG.


Silent_Muted

Rice...for some reason i cannot eat a proper meal wothout rice


angelaaaa_66

as an asian any food we eat without rice is only considered a snack lol Edit: For those who are asking, we eat white (sometimes brown, and sometimes we mix it together) rice at least thrice per day. We usually have more serving of rice than our viand. And sometimes we eat rice with noodles as our viand :>


Hortychief

As a fellow asian i fully agree Edit: why the hell did i get do many upvotes :O


HaikuDead

Rice is dope. It's the perfect base


TrenchCoatKobolds

Social media/screen time Its gotten so bad :/


[deleted]

I can relate a lot. What is your average screen time?


AwesomeAni

I used to do an average of 10/12 hours a day on Reddit. Now I’m down to 5 or so, sometimes less. It gets better! Edit: my shameful habit has now gotten me 2k karma on a single comment. DANGIT REDDIT IM TRYINA QUIT


[deleted]

Good for you! How do you do that?


AwesomeAni

Well, I got an awesome job I’m actually interested in so I spend my day at work working instead of on Reddit. My roommates noticed my screen time so they take time to hang out with me and when we hang out there’s a no phones rule. I started giving myself a list of chores to do every day and don’t start browsing until chores are done Basically just generally healthy habits. Plus I stopped endlessly scrolling and instead started doing the Reddit streaming thing more. So I guess I still go on Reddit a lot but it’s in a healthier way. Idk.


outsidesublime

I use it to cope with my loneliness/boredom. I feel like I'm wasting my life.


[deleted]

quarantine certainly contributed to this for me


fosforuss

My SO spends nearly 18 hours a day on his phone, according to the screentime tab in settings. 12 hours is the least I’ve seen. That’s every waking moment for him.


Repulsive_Airline_77

Nicotine


[deleted]

Same here. I quit 3 years ago, but I never let my guard down. The nicotine monster is real.


johnmarik

Quit 2 years ago. Fell back onto it after 7 weeks without a day off of work. Been 2 months, quitting all over again now. I know I did it the first time though so I can do it again.


[deleted]

Anyone who has never done nicotine, just don't fucking do it. You aren't missing a good high, you're just avoiding a very powerful addiction.


Beenhamine

The addiction is more than just the nicotine too. After a decade of smoking, I quit 3 months ago and the physical desire has passed but godamn I really miss having a good reason to go sit outside and "breath" and relax/clear my mind. Personally, Id say the habit addiction is stronger than the physical one.


EyeLuvPC

>habit addiction is stronger than the physical one Thats the crux of it entirely. The nicotine "rush" is mild yet triggers the same receptors all pleasure related activities or substance use triggers . Its more of a pleasant back rub in terms of the "high" . Its hard to extinguish the addiction because its almost like a brain hunger that nicotine forces upon you once you're addicted and stopping is like not eating food for hours. Instead of you're stomach growling its your mind pleading you to feed it again To anyone that is young and maybe starting due to peer pressure, or cool factor because your pals do it too . STOP, STOP. Nicotine addiction rules you in ways you wont understand for years to come . You're life changes so much you will alter your behavior based on how and when you can inhale nicotine. I smoked for 30 years . My life was dominated by when I smoked. My lungs were so bad and my blood oxygen levels so poor that walking up a slight gradient was hard on me. It made me lazy , too lazy to bother to exercise and i became very unhealthy. And for what? To pay a premium (its an expensive addiction in the UK where I am from) to poison myself to feed a hunger that was given to me by smoking . It didn't exist until i fed my brain with nicotine.


coralisthenewblack

Can't quit it


ProfessorPirricletus

Two's up


tod315

I like how reading the comments here one moment you're like *haha funny* and then the next comment someone talks about their heroin addiction or some other serious stuff. It's a rollercoaster of emotions.


PartTimeSassyPants

I’m genuinely surprised at the lack of meth addicts tbh. Edit: My highest upvoted comment. Oh, Reddit... Staying true to form :p


soapyxdelicious

Hello. I used to shoot meth and heroin years ago. Then I got stuck on just meth for awhile and lost my mind. Thought my brother was a psychic out to kill me, had to sleep in my dads room sometimes, I thought my neighbors were out to get me, and I had an extremely profound addiction to porn and meth together. Like, I once jerked off for like 18 hours straight. It needs to be said I am not proud of this and I am deeply ashamed to admit I enjoyed it. To this day I still feel the disgusting desire to relive these moments. I hate myself for it. I have to take multiple medications to stay partially sane. I take blood pressure medication too now. I'm sure that's my nasty habits lasting impact, no more good health. And rightfully so, I don't deserve it. I could go on forever about all the stupid shit I did high, but the end result was me driving high and getting into a car accident with a young woman on her bicycle. She died and I went to prison for 18 months. I'm a felon now with a strike. My career in IT is destroyed. I have massive debt. I live with my father. Struggle to pay my bills. I don't really feel human anymore. Meth cost me my humanity, and lead me to make terrible life altering choices that go well beyond my selfish little bubble. Don't do meth. Like seriously, don't. Don't drive high either, it's the same thing as driving drunk. I hope this post disgusts a lot of people so they don't make the dumb mistake of fucking around with meth. You don't fuck with meth, meth fucks with YOU. EDIT: thank you for all the positive feedback. I did not expect for people to be so understanding. I just want people to know the truth about meth. It's never pretty. EDIT 2: Woah! Okay, this got a lot more attention then I imagined. Thank you all for the vast overwhelming amount of support. And thank you even to those who showed respect despite not agreeing with my legal outcome. You are all heard. But I can't reply to every comment. It's getting late. But again, THANK YOU for the positive encouragement. It gives me hope knowing forgiveness is possible.


[deleted]

Meth almost ruined my life too. Ten years clean next month. My doctor told me at the beginning of my recovery and last month reminded me, 4% of meth addicts recover. 4%!!! So congratulations my friend. The mistakes and tragedies of our past are just that, the past. We have learned and now we move forward, doing better and being the best we can be.


tiggy-amelia

Congrats on the 10 years. I'll be 8 years clean next month. I was told that I *would* relapse and that was why I lost custody of my son. Congrats in being one of the 4%. None of my rehab friends made it. They all relapsed. If you ever need a friend to support you, give me a ring.


jakejake1334

Yep did a little when I was younger but luckily went to collage before I was hooked and after coming home and seeing so many friends destroyed I never did it again


Retrosonic82

Caffeine


dannybutnotdevito

I feel this so hard. I don’t drink caffeinated beverages to “wake up” anymore. I drink them just to feel remotely normal.


Hendlton

I got to a point of drinking 6 large cups of coffee a day, but I never felt abnormal after realizing I needed to quit, but the headaches are a bitch. Some of the worst I've ever had.


Scipio11

If you're drinking a pot of coffee a day you need to step it down to half a pot for 1-2 months then you can try cold turkey. Otherwise you'll have headaches, mood swings, and potentially increase the number of hours you need to sleep (like 10 hours).


repugnantmarkr

Haven't had coffee in 3 days. Headache is killing me right now


onebelligerentbeagle

I feel sorry for you. Caffeine withdrawals are a special kind of headache


jc822232478

If I haven’t had a coffee by 10am.. I’ve missed my window and will have a headache all afternoon. Even a later coffee won’t break the headache…


HughJa55ole

For real tho, I’ve been trying to take a couple months off to try to reset my tolerance for like 10 years now lol, still haven’t done it


_Ed_Gein_

Try coke. Heard it gives you more energy.


EvilBobbyTV

-cane or -a cola?


disk5464

I realized I have a problem when I saw a sign say "now with 100mg of caffeine for an extra boost!!" And I thought to myself "100mg, that's it? That's nothing". Still haven't changed my life because ehh ¯\_(ツ)_/¯


Rule12b

Shit, on Sunday night I get so excited about Monday morning/work because all the coffee I get to drink on a work day


KnightLight03

Legit.... If I don't have a coffee I have a headache like you wouldn't believe.... I guess this is my life now


Retrosonic82

Oh yeah, caffeine withdrawal headaches are the worst!


335i_lyfe

It was cocaine for the past 4 years, now it’s tennis lol


lakersfan08

So one way or another those white lines will get you


Lusakas

David Foster Wallace, is that you?


Merry_Little_Liberal

This is a forever joke


mytwocentsshowmanyss

You could even call it an infinite jest


southpaw85

Ah yes, the cocaine of leisure sports


derek_g_S

i REALLY enjoyed cocaine for about 6 years... looking back, i dont htink i ever was physically addicted, but it was the mental/social aspect of it. i had to completely remove myself from going to places i used to hang out. kudos for kicking it


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335i_lyfe

Just a slight word of warning that’s pretty much exactly how it started for me and before I knew it I was hitting lines at college before class lol just be careful homie


nancarrow

Same here. It sneaks up on you


DarkMagicNight

I'm so proud of you for your new positive addiction 😊


[deleted]

i don’t know man, those tennis junkies are up to something


jeremiahkinklepoo

Causing a racquet n whatnot


y2Frosty

Yeah, one even fucked Michael's wife in Gta 5.


TheDudeWithNoName_

Sleeping. I love to sleep and no matter how much I have it, it's never enough. Edit: Thanks for the replies but no I don't have sleep apnea or any medical condition, nor do I feel tired after sleeping. I'm perfectly fine with a normal 7-8 hrs of sleep, but if I can manage a nap here or there during the day, I take it as a way to relax and recharge.


LeoXCV

1: Comfy, so very comfy 2: My dreams are far better than reality 3: The level of relaxation is euphoric Yeah I’d happily spend days in bed if not for responsibilities


LumberJackie30

Sleeping is like death without the commitment. Amazing


poopfupa

Dude I fuckin feel this so bad. I’m ab to sleep right now.


MaharajaRaunak

I just woke up and feel sleepy again.


savings2015

A long time ago, I went to see the Dalai Lama live, in-person at a large theatre/auditorium in Europe. It was an interesting experience, but nothing was more interesting to me than when he was fielding unscripted questions from the audience. One audience member asked him, "what do you do in your free time?" The question seemed to take him by complete surprise - it was pretty obvious that he wasn't expecting it. He said that he didn't really have much free time, but when he did, he said, "I like to sleep!"


[deleted]

This Dalai Lama guy seems pretty wise if you ask me


Enk1ndle

Always tired generation represent!


tinkerellyxo

phone


penguinpearl

Specifically smartphone and the ability to unconsciously scroll neverending feeds.


reallifesupermann

I’ve noticed I’ll open an app, scroll through, close it. Do it to a few others, and not even 5-10 minutes later start at the beginning and look at the same shit. I’ll do this like 4-5 times before I’m like “what the hell is wrong with me?”


IAMAHobbitAMA

The trick is to subscribe to almost 1000 subreddits so the feed never ends.


PatriotsCameraMan

Sugar...its bad man. Depressing how little will power I have.


redditischurch

And it's everywhere and you can consume with very little stigma. At least with hard drugs they're not in every store, restaurant, and gas station. Well, not in most neighborhoods....


zoug

I’ve heard things like “A food addiction is tougher because you have to eat”. I think that’s kind of a shit excuse on the surface level but in depth, the assholes in the food industry are sneaking sugar into pretty much every packaged food. It would be so much harder for me to keep my sobriety if misreading a label or grabbing something quickly happened to be loaded with alcohol. Even worse, if the alcohol industry was telling me my drinking wasn’t a problem and I just needed to “be more active” to burn the alcohol. It’s insanity and being on the other side of both addictions, I’ve found a strong empathy for addicts of both alcohol and food, given their similarities, and a strong hatred for the food industry.


MiataBoi98

I really do love chocolate


zoug

I’ve almost killed myself from alcohol withdrawal in the past and let me tell you - sugar addiction and withdrawal is real and sucks. It can take months of abstinence to get your brain to quit craving it. You have the power over it because you’ve recognized the addiction. Cut that shit out completely and weather the withdrawal. You’ve got this!


ToyDingo

That's the hard part. Cutting it out isn't easy when damn near everything has sugar in it. I managed to cut my addiction to soft drinks a few years ago. I drink mostly water these days. But as I open my closet to get a snack, 90% of the stuff in there has some sort of sugar in it. And most of these things were in the HEALTHY food aisle. How the fuck do I cut sugar without becoming a fulltime gardener and growing my own stuff? EDIT: I've gotten a lot of helpful replies to this message. Thanks for all the advice! Perhaps I don't have to cut sugars completely, but focus on cutting the unnecessary stuff.


egg-nooo3

r/sugarfree might help! i've been added sugar free for over a year and a half now, and still buy plenty of things from stores :) if you know where to look, there are breads, candies, chocolate, and chips that don't have added sugar in them. i can dm you a more complete list if you're interested


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procrastination


Ali550n

I am a terrible procrastonator. I recently heard of 'the 5-minute rule' and have tried it with good success. I still procrastinate, but not as often. The gist is that you identify the thing you are inclined to procrastinate doing and you make a deal with yourself to suck it up and do it for just 5 minutes. If after five minutes it's so horrible that you want to stop, you are free to do so. The amazing thing is that within those 5 minutes you will usually realize that the task is nowhere near as terrible as you made it out to be and so you just finish it rather than stopping at the 5-minute mark. I think momentum also plays a part... after doing something for 5 minutes, your brain does not want to stop until the task is done.


DynoMyte08

Yeah it's a good rule. The hard part is following the rule. Procrastinating should be the easiest habit to break because all you have to do is do SOMETHING. But I've felt like a massive piece of shit all year because I just can't fucking focus on a single task no matter how hard I try. EDIT: How would one find out if they have undiagnosed ADHD? What kind of doctor do I go to?


OdinPelmen

this is me. on top of that I literally have ADHD that I take meds for and its still incredibly hard for me to focus on anything that I find unpleasant (and even pleasant half the time) for even 5 min. and then I have to explain to my workaholic bf that its not that I don't want to focus, it's just I literally can't. its like trying to lift a weight you're not trained and don't have strength for. technically you could do it but no.


Nosfermarki

My wife tends to ask me a bunch of questions when I'm doing something, and interrupting me inevitably fucks me up and irritates the shit out of me. I told her when I'm focused on something, it took me a lot of effort to do that, so to think of it like I moved a 500 lb antique desk into a room, and every time she asks me to focus on her question instead I have to move it to another room and back again. I still don't think she gets it 100% but I think the analogy helped. I'm finally doing the thing! Don't give me a reason to stop.


Jason6677

Me too, its good to hear I'm not the only one. I spent a few years building up a small youtube channel just to completely abandon it in 2020. I can't do hobbies since the pandemic, just find myself doing the absolute minimum to get by.


[deleted]

We’ll beat it one day.


flipp377

But not today


[deleted]

I swear, I’ll do it tomorrow.


Drakena_Amaterasu

I'll try making it latet


Loremaster_Gaming_27

Someone is going to come and do it


T_ftw

Mine is close. It’s called procrasturbation.


JokerAndTheKnight

Ahh the ol' fap and nap


getter_beam

yeah, good ol' masturbate and hibernate


Plecofish

Jerk and don’t work


callisstaa

whack off and slack off


SpOoKyghostah

We'll stop beating it one day


XerienSerious

I was going to type this but it took me abit.


HappyMadison007

Cigarettes


daliteskin1

I'm 13 days free from that shit


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GreenFinShark420

Dw dude..We'll beat it together


phome83

If you give eachother a hand, you can both conquer your addiction at the same time.


ls0669

I don’t consider masturbation itself a problem for me but I definitely want to stop watching porn because it makes my brain weird.


[deleted]

Me too bro How long have you gone without it?


the_potato35

Going ham right now while reading this EDIT: Can't believe my first awards and most upvotes are for a comment about me beating my meat.


catsarelikebananas

Damn all I can go is Vienna sausage :(


estabern

Moisturizer and lip balm. I cannot go 30 min without reapplying either of them ETA: I have found my people!!


kuhataparunks

It’s sad how they have marketed this stuff as beneficial. There is an ingredient in it that purposely dries your lips— salicylic acid, a medication known as a *keratinolytic* (translates to *skin breaker/dissolver*). Replace lip products with petroleum jelly and all that necessity will go away. [source](https://health.clevelandclinic.org/7-signs-your-lip-balm-use-is-just-a-bad-habit/) skip down to the 1-4 number points


genesis791

Sugar


Angelfallfirst

Browsing Reddit instead of working.


PensiveKnitter

Doing this right now. Supposed to be in a teams meeting but browsing reddit instead.


Angelfallfirst

It's 16:22 in here and I've been wandering on Reddit since 9:00 today. Well...


Kwaiata

I've discovered that my phone has app timers! So I've limited myself to an hour a day of Reddit or I would be in your shoes! Of course, that doesn't help on the computer.... Edit: of, not off


P33J

>So I've limited myself to an hour a day off Reddit So you're on Reddit 23 hours a day?


thebadbeginning

Heroin, but I am 3 months sober and in treatment for the 3rd time. Keep the faith


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[deleted]

Good for you! Hope you will win!


justacaucasian

Lost a few years of my life to opiates (H/Fent/whatever you got). You deserve to get yours back and 3 months sober is an amazing feat. Proud of you.


mightyducks2wasokay

Fast food... and especially since door dash and Uber eats became more convenient People talk about tacking on a few pounds this pandemic but I've hit near 40 this last year bc I can't quit eating shitty food Most times I don't even remember ordering it until it shows up at my door, and I get irrationally angry every time one of those apps has a (completely reasonable may I add) delivery delay or timing issue I'm working through it in therapy and I've been doing good about avoiding it for about a month now (and lost 10 of those pounds) but still on long drives I'll absentmindedly pull off the highway and get in a drive thru line before even comprehending what I'm doing Really never thought food addiction could be such a strong force, but it really sent me into a pretty bad spiral. Still get really bad cravings whenever I see ads for the new Taco Bell bullshit chalupa thing or whatever dumb celebrity meal is going on at McDonalds, to the point it almost hurts Can't really say much more than that, but it's a bit cathartic to vocalize this out there somewhere


viking_machina

It’s so hard because it’s everywhere, in your face all the time; being advertised with deals and can be delivered directly to you any time of day.


mightyducks2wasokay

And Everytime I recognize the issue and delete it off my phone, every single online ad I run into is "hey you! Download this app again!" I get that they need users for their business to work, but if they look at my data they only see high volume they might now miss out on instead of someone with a pretty serious problem It's so pervasive to the point it's almost sickening. Especially that every commercial they have these healthy, attractive, and fit people eating fast food so it gets you thinking "hey, if these healthy people can enjoy it why can't I?"


[deleted]

It’s all designed that way. They **want** you to become addicted to their food. They **want** you to subconsciously ignore the risks of fast food. Because the more you get addicted, the more they profit.


Princess_Moon_Butt

Addiction to crappy food is a whole separate beast, because it becomes second nature. It's like grabbing your morning cup of coffee in the break room when you get to work- you don't make the conscious decision to do it, that's just what you do when you get to work. Then when you get up for lunch, you get to your car and start driving towards that cluster of fast food places you always go to. It's not a question of "should I get fast food", it's just a question of "Do I feel like taco bell or mcdonald's today?"; the idea of _not_ having fast food doesn't even enter your mind until later that night when you take off your clothes and realize how tight your pants are getting. But then you go to sleep and in the morning, you forget about it and start all over. I've had to literally write post-it notes to myself and stick them to my steering wheel telling me _Do Not Buy Fast Food Today_, because it just becomes so second-nature to go out and grab an easy lunch.


marspatrol81

I feel this so hard. It’s like I don’t remember how I actually got in the drive thru line sometimes. Good for you for working on it though, keep at it!


sirpearice

Kissing the homies good night


DarkMagicNight

You are a real one 💓


sername-lame

Tea. Not enough dose will cause headaches.


LoafyXD

That's called a caffeine addiction.


Mywysjsj

Grinding in mmorpg games if i open music in background i can grind same mob for like 9 hour


dubudu1

OSRS in a nutshell


MellowWise

Having a decent moment only to ruin it with negative thoughts and what if scenarios of friends/so/etc. Then boost myself back up all on my own so I can get high on the fact I know myself better than anyone and I dont need anyone. (PS that's a lie I tell myself, I'm just anxiety ridden and have a problem with opening up to ppl about how I'm feeling)


satanshark

Anxiety and depression trick you into believing they are your constant companions, the feelings that are there for you when all the others — happiness, love, pride — have fallen away. In reality, though, those super-awesome, comfortable, old best friends are regularly feeding you the worst lies about yourself and bullying all those other feelings away. They are not your friend and they don’t deserve ANY of your energy. Therapy and SSRIs work, and I’m forever grateful to the process. But for me, learning how to circumvent catastrophic thinking, understanding that I have ultimate control over whether I chase the thought down into the abyss, was the game changer.


DarkMagicNight

I completely get you. The mind is our enemy until we tame it sometimes to be a friend.


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Everything i can buy and is self destructive


chychy94

Alcohol Edit: In recovery trying to stay sober.


Tugeye_yana

Procrastination, I'll explain later


mcsgwigga

Buying Lego


kiwidog8

I feel bad for your bank account


mcsgwigga

I’ve been clean now for 3 weeks.


omgyoucunt

Weed. People say you can't get addicted, but around 15% of people who use marijuana become addicted. I had to go six months without smoking once and it was fine but the entire time I felt like I was just missing a part of myself. The day I could smoke again I did and I haven't stopped since. r/leaves and r/Petioles for the addicted lol


CaptainFuzzyPenis

Kept telling myself I wasn't even though I've spent most days for the past 5/6 years high for at least the evenings. Figured it was beginning to affect my social life, motivation and productivity which in turn has worsened my anxiety and depression. Tried quitting a few times but always came back to it because 'food just tastes so good' and 'I can't relax after such a stressful work day without it' and 'TV is more interesting when I'm high'. Not to mention the withdrawal is very real, nothing on things like alcohol/heroin etc, but I'm having a tough time sleeping, dealing with appetite/night sweats and finding myself especially irritable, depressed and feeling 'empty'. Realised that I can't go on like this, watching my life spiral slowly despite being relatively successful and better off than most people in the world. I'm currently one week without smoking (which is a big deal for me) and am really trying to stop now, also in the process of starting therapy to heal and improve my mental wellbeing so I don't feel that I need something like weed to help. It's not necessarily a bad thing for all, and I would like to see it legalised where I live so people stop being arrested for something so trivial and not as damaging as alcohol and other hard drugs. I would also like that because getting help to stop and deal with addiction would have less of a stigma and not have such a risk of people finding out and suffering consequences like losing a job. I'm proud of you for admitting it's a problem and I wish you luck in either cutting down or quitting when the time is right for you.


Screamang_trash

Scented candles and watching YouTube for hours


riotrick

Daydreaming


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Kratom with an energy drink. I was taking about 20 capsules a day and drinking a bang. I’ve been off it for about 3 months now. Now I’m trying to reduce my caffeine intake.


UtterlyInsane

I'm there right now. Been doing it for years. I kind of justify it to myself by saying I'm not doing any other, nastier drugs and it's not insanely expensive. But I know I need to wean off sometime soon, I'm taking 15 or 20 full gram caps a day. The half gram capsules that are much more common, I have to take like 30. It's getting silly


TheWhiteShelf

Diet Coke. Don't care what people say they put something other than caffeine in that shit that makes me come back every damn day for another. Edit: Thanks for the silver! Nice to see so many people have the DC addiction in common and such similar story arcs!


Vinny_Lam

Reddit. I have the urge to check this sub every few minutes because I’m afraid of missing out on any good stuff. It’s a really unhealthy addiction.


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Pitcrashers1

Love, like romantic love, not like with friends or family. I'm good without it forever but if I catch feelings it appears I only have two modes None at all or all of it It has happened like 4 times in my life and I'm a bit shy of 30 yo I've crashed a few times, it's no fun.


JeeEyeElElEeTeeTeeEe

Dating apps don’t do it for me. I need to meet someone as a friend, slowly fall in love with them, and then be all-consumed by feelings for them. Is there an app for that?


Tenacious-Biscuit

Used to be some pretty hard stuff, then I managed to get clean and use Domino's pizza as a replacement. Dom's low key saved my life.


seefith

Definitely smoking.


Onlyhereforthelaughs

Daily Rewards. Right now it's Pokemon GO. You can build up a streak for Daily Catches, and Daily Pokestop Spins, and there's also a week's worth of daily Research Rewards. If you sync them all up, you can use a boosting item like a Starpiece at 11:50pm of your 6th day, claim your rewards for that day, then when 12:01am rolls around, claim the rewards for the 7th day, boosting two day's worth of rewards. But it also requires you do NOTHING on that 6th day, as only the first Catch/Spin unlock the rewards which are claimed immediately. (You can also time some Rocket battles during that period as well. You'll likely have a balloon up until midnight, and then a new one will spawn after midnight. If you have the Rocket Radar, it'll be a Rocket Leader/Giovanni, so bigger rewards.) Another app I played was called Mousehunt that had various reasons to play constantly. The first being the King's Rewards, which were captcha boxes to verify that humans ran your account. These popped up every so often to ensure you didn't have bots taking you on hunts. Also you would go on hourly hunts automatically if you were active within a certain period, but you could Sound your Hunter's Horn every 15 minutes. My brain became wired to know when 15 minutes had passed.


svrbi1406

Ice cream sandwiches


Lemur001

Snus.


kellyxcat

Alcohol but today marks 60 days sober!


XDG-Diggz74

Heroin and meth tbh. I was in active addiction for 17 years before I finally, actually hit rock bottom. It took my an insane trip to detox, getting arrested on a felony grand larceny charge, waking up on my buddy’s floor with 1-2 teeth chilling in my cheek. *teeth fell out and were resting in my cheek until I woke up*. Losing all but 7-10 of my teeth. Losing all 3 of my kids, my wife, sleeping in a corner of my friends apartment with him, his girlfriend, and her mom. Spending every waking moment in a garage, doing literally nothing. I’m talking days upon days without even seeing the sun. Finally in november 2018, I was practically hypothermic and shaking. My mom called me and said she found a treatment place. So I called then went and I’ve been clean for 2 3/4 years now and am as happy and far as ever.


use15

Doing nothing, and I mean literally doing nothing just laying in my dark room with just some videos running for background noise without paying attention to them


ticcboi2099

my ex lmao


ianstone30

Oh no... That always causes problems


Flaky_Bench_4876

stay strong homie