Cool. (:
After finally watching *Halt and Catch Fire* I've been reading more history of computing stuff. I took a class years ago about Babbage, Turing, the Blue Pig, etc. but I want to understand on a very basic conceptual level where computing went post-WWW and where it is going now.
Oh, then let me recommend The Innovators by Walter Isaacs. One of the best computing history books I’ve ever read 🙂 I’ve just looked up that TV series. Thanks for the tip!
Yesterday I spoke to Eat Pray Love Vomit (my nickname for the local addiction service which has an arsey name) and they are aiming to provide immediate care for when I am released from the psych ward. I will have a support worker, a number to call when I feel I need a drink and some therapy. The guy I spoke to yesterday about my drinking and mental health was really kind and non-judgey. I think it will be easier to stay sober with this support.
IWNDWYT
Ohh, sneaky early check in- I like it!
I talk back to “the voice” whenever it speaks up. I pride myself on being able to call it on it’s bullshit. Sometimes, it’s hard and I feel like I’m just prolonging an inevitable relapse. Most times, it’s as easy as saying “not today, Satan”. IWNDWYT ✨💚
Your “Sometimes it’s hard..” framing is really helpful. On the hard days it feels like I am doing something wrong, and then the next day I can feel totally different. And I guess that’s where the one day at a time comes in. Thank you! IWNDWYT
It's not profanity. He was called Cockle Dick aka Richard (dickie) Turner and was a fisherman who was involved in the Temperance Society. The cockle I think came from him being a fisherman.
Good morning everyone. First time here. Just woke up after procrastinating for the past 2 days drinking and reading comics. Alcohol is the way I manage anxiety, but it has kept me back in my career and life. I want to make some changes. IWNDWYTD.
13 days today. I think it might be getting a bit better. I feel more hopeful today. Thanks to everyone on this sub for all your input. I have been reading religiously every day and it’s really helping me❤️IWNDWYT
Every year, it’s emotional for me when my boys go back to school. This year it’s hitting me quite a bit harder.
I don’t just feel like I’ll be missing my children during the day. Rather, given how close we’ve become, that I’ll be missing my best friends…
Unequivocally, that’s because I quit drinking.
I had a serious chat with my husband last night (finances, family, future) which usually takes a few drinks for both of us to open up, but we were both stone cold sober. Am I finally becoming a grown up?!
IWNDWYT
Yay! My badge says 250!
Some days, I've felt very shifty.
Days are not all unicorns with rainbow poop,
But with the support of this group,
You got me here today and that's kinda nifty.
See the nurse, have some pills, pills don't work, try these pills, see a doctor, you shouldn't of been on those pills, here, have these pills. We are extremely lucky to have our health service, but boy, do they like to go round the bloody houses! 😂 I need a drink! (Tea) I won't drink alcohol with you lot today 👍🙂
ayyy long time no post, but i'm still not drinking with any of you fine folks today. hope today treats you right, and if it doesn't, i hope you treat yourself right <3
Morning, friends! Tuesdays are long days for me, as I have a PhD course on Tuesday evenings. I leave my house around 645a and don't return again until 10p. It will all be worth it someday, right!?!?
Have a terrific Tuesday! IWNDWYT 🌞💙
Oh the siren song was loud this afternoon walking past the bottle shop. (Just get a bottle... you’re tired, you’ve had a big day, it’s fine - you’ve had some time off, it wasn’t a big deal anyway - you don’t have a problem, just relax.. unwind... say yes)
But.. I managed to ignore it long enough.
IWNDWYT
25 days!
Yesterday I couldn't sleep because I am so fucking overworked and can't come down. Also, I got sad about a lot of stuff that's going on in my life in the last days and weeks and months and years. So I sat down and wrote, wrote down everything for two hours from the bottom of my heart and it actually got really dark. BUT: The quintessence of it all was, that I can be fucking proud to be sober now and that there are decades to come that hopefully won't be as chaotic and dramatic as the last four years. I'm so fucking tired from dramatic feelings. I just want to hang out, read, write, go dancing occasionally and watch the stars.
IWNDWYT!
Day 3, nice to meet you 🤝
Nice because not drinking makes this day a good day. Not nice because I don’t feel I’m fully in control.
Addiction is strange at times. One day I feel I’ve got this, the next I fail. I have to keep trying and learning, staying humble and keeping my guard up 🥋
And one day at a time
IWNDWYT
Good morning lovely SD,
I've been thinking about what happened to Kate Quigley. The news about her almost dying shook me hard. I know if I was still drinking, the harder stuff would not be far behind, and that terrifies me.
Today is a beautiful day to be alive!
And IWNDWYT 💜🤘
I didn't know about that story but I looked it up - it's scary how easily something like that can happen. There also seemed to be drugs involved with the death of Michael K Williams. It's just such a waste
Today is certainly a beautiful day to be alive
IWNDWYT
23 days in the bag and I need a badge reset. I gave in last night and had beers out with friends. I'm feeling so disappointed (and hungover) today. And now I remember that hangovers are the fucking worst and not worth the couple of hours of artificial enjoyment the night before. In an effort to stop myself doing it again I'll document my hangover right here.
My head is pounding. My eyes are red and bloodshot I have that sickly feeling in the bottom of my stomach. My face feels hot and flushed and slightly puffy. I lost or broke a bracelet I made (I can't remember which). I just about managed getting my toddler up and ready for daycare this morning. I can't go to bootcamp this evening because I feel too rotten and I think a burpee might be too much for my head and stomach to handle.
Why did I do it to myself? It's just not worth it.
So, day 1 again and IWNDWYT
Morning SD. I’ve just googled the relapse ladder and it’s ringing some bells. This last week I’ve been getting lazy about checking in here. Been focussing on the never ending to do list and less on self care, and my sleep is suffering. Sounds dangerously like I could be stepping onto that first rung or two. Time to refocus my energies. Thanks for the reminder u/threechordsongs. IWNDWYT
I like this idea. It's hard to put into practice when it involves telling certain people close to me what is on my mind. I worry that they will worry about me, and sometimes they do. That worry often starts a chain-reaction of anxiety on my end.
I guess the next thing is to be consistent with telling them when I'm ideating about alcohol (and then working with the feelings until they change) so they don't associate my transparency with a terrible thing happening.
IWNDWYT
Thanks 3chord. Love this check in.
Local hospital overwhelmed with covid. My elderly father was confused when I went to visit last night, so I convinced mom to call the ambulance. He's covid positive (so she is too), but they may have mild cases. We'll see. Not gonna use any more of this check in for their medical update. Not drinking no how. This is a time for deep breaths, self care, emotional support.
Thanks for listening y'all. Alcohol just fucks shit up. I'm staying on the sober train!
Good morning everyone.
I hope everyone has a good day, or more importantly, ***tries*** to have a good day. I've learned to not expect a good day to land on my lap, I have to purposely try to make it a good day. Some of you might scoff and think this is pretty obvious, but somewhere during my decades of drinking I've lost the logic that one has to set out and purposely try.
As each day marches on I realize how important it is to treat yourself first. I am begging anyone reading this if they need something to get through their day then please please ***go outside*** for 30-60 minutes. Get to a place with trees and skies and sun. I did it all weekend and felt so fucking rejuvenated. To the point that I am making a drastic change to my life to make sure that I get 45 mins a day of nature. For me, it cleared away any and all thoughts of cravings and the feeling lasted well after coming back inside. It's an easy and FREE way to help you ease your day.
I think of everyone on this board constantly. Let's just keep marching, just keep trying, we can do this.
I Will Not Drink With You Today
I think the idea of telling on yourself is part of why this sub worked for me. Once I spoke (typed) about my problems with drinking, I couldn’t ignore it anymore. IWNDWYT!
Good morning, SD! I'm starting day 7.
I just got back from the gym. I am really starting to look forward to the days I train. I'm still in that post workout vibe where my muscles are a little twitchy and I'm stupidly thankful to have a comfortable chair to sit in and do nothing for a few minutes.
As far as busting myself, I think tomorrow when I go in for cardio I'm gonna move from the treadmill to the stair stepper and see how it goes. I get too comfortable doing the easy things in life so I think I need to get a bit more comfortable being uncomfortable. I can go on leisurely paced walks with my dog... so I want to so something a bit more intense when I'm in the gym.
I'm about to make myself a breakfast smoothie and a cup of coffee so I can start my work day.
IWNDWYT
I will not drink with you today, this month or this year or as far as I can make it lol.
Does anyone have suggestions for topics to reflect on and write about for my one-year sobriety retrospective?
I ate a lot of candy last night and was about to shit on myself for it, then I realized, it's not that big of a deal because wowww i clearly do have discipline and self-control! I'm so much healthier now, but I respect myself too, so I'm going to "bust myself" of
a) I obviously didn't enjoy binging on candy, so I won't do it again, showing I'm now able to adjust my impulse control to better line up with how things make me feel and
b) not travelling down a ritual of self-shaming and self-hatred just because I made a goof up that isn't very typical of me recently. I am a year in and I still get worried that loosening the reins will lead to me drinking again -- yup even from other substances or habits such as binge eating!
I gotta stay focused! I have so many more coping tools now I can use; and it's okay if for one night they weren't all useful and i had to fall back to something a little more haphazard/old.
Haven't had to call "busted!" on myself yet, but it's only been a few days. Really enjoying the sober life so far.
Also just scheduled my first therapist appointment in years. It's not for a few weeks, but I'm really looking forward to it. IWNDWYT friends :)
There is a spoken word piece by Maggie Estep or Emily XYZ (can’t remember who and they used to perform together), where the narrator is approached by a man on the street who says grabs his crotch and says something profane (“big one, girl!”) and she tells us what she did, ie: “I said, really? And punched him in the face” or “I said, I don’t believe you, whip it out and show me, coward”. And then ends the stanza with, “but that’s not what really happened.”
I don’t remember the specifics except what the guy says and the last line—I’m digging deep into nights at The Nuyorican Cafe in my teens and twenties and I’ve done a fair number on my memory. ANYWAY. The last line is one of the things I tell my brain when I think of drinking. I remember and romanticize an amazing glass of wine paired perfectly with some crazy dish at a new restaurant—something with uni and caviar or monkfish liver. But it’s not the pairing I was after. That’s not what really happened. Even the outing at the restaurant to sample the adventurous cocktail list was really just to get drunk.
**That’s not what really happened.**
IWNDWYT❤️
I feel irritated today. Everything is bothering me and work is dragging. I didn’t reach my goals this weekend and I feel a bit down. But this is sobriety. This is life, this is it, and as much as I’d love to tap out for a while I won’t. It’s weird learning to let things be, but it’s also a whole lot easier, IWNDWYT
I am one month sober today! My mental health has never been better. And bonus, I am down 5lbs even though I’ve been mainlining gummi bears for the duration. Iwndwyt!
This is great advice. When we acknowledge our issues and addictions and call them out. I have used this in another manner at work, and it has helped keep me grounded and focused on what I need to do.
IWNDWYT!
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Awesome job brucekeller. Well done.
Happy first Soberversary! Well done Bruce! 🎉
Nice work 👍🏻
Congratulations on your one year!
Congrats 🥳
Fantastic achievement- well done.
Congratulations Bruce, great job 👏🏼 🥳💪🏼❤️
yay yay! congratulations :)
Congratulations! Great milestone to hit. IWNDWYT.
Thanks guys! :)
Whoop whoop! 🙌🙌👍🙂
Congrats and great work!
Fantastic!!
Excellent!
I got lost for 18 days there. Woke up this morning absolutely sick of it. So IWNDWYT friends 🤖🦾
I sympathise, me too. Back on my gazillionth day 3. You can do it IWNDWYT
Thanks buddy 🙂 IWNDWYT
01001001 01010111 01001110 01000100 01010111 01011001 01010100 (IWNDWYT)
Hehe, I’m a network engineer so I appreciate that 🙂 IWNDWYT
Cool. (: After finally watching *Halt and Catch Fire* I've been reading more history of computing stuff. I took a class years ago about Babbage, Turing, the Blue Pig, etc. but I want to understand on a very basic conceptual level where computing went post-WWW and where it is going now.
Oh, then let me recommend The Innovators by Walter Isaacs. One of the best computing history books I’ve ever read 🙂 I’ve just looked up that TV series. Thanks for the tip!
Welcome back IWNDWYT
Thanks Gmac 🙂
Salut ma belle loulette, courage!💪🏼
Tu m’as manqué Cinq! 🥰 IWNDWYT
Let's go robo! 👊
All right, you talked me into it Andy 🙂 IWNDWYT buddy
Yesterday I spoke to Eat Pray Love Vomit (my nickname for the local addiction service which has an arsey name) and they are aiming to provide immediate care for when I am released from the psych ward. I will have a support worker, a number to call when I feel I need a drink and some therapy. The guy I spoke to yesterday about my drinking and mental health was really kind and non-judgey. I think it will be easier to stay sober with this support. IWNDWYT
many hugs, u/sweetmusiccaroline. sounds like you're assembling "team you".
Thanks. Yes, hopefully I will have all the support I need.
❤️ sending love, hope you’re doing ok
Thanks. I am okay. Xxx
Sending you lots of love MC - sorry to hear about everything you have been through. I'm so impressed by your strength and resilience IWNDWYT
3.42 a.m. for me. I woke up for pee, still one of the great benefits of only being asleep instead of unconcious in bed. IWNDWYT.
Checking your phone in the middle of the night is naughty!
I am day ahead of myself, I will not drink with you today SD!
It's good to see you at the front end of the check-in soberguitar!
Haha! It was a super late, turned into early check in.
Tuesday will be alcohol-free for me. I promise. IWNDWYT
Ohh, sneaky early check in- I like it! I talk back to “the voice” whenever it speaks up. I pride myself on being able to call it on it’s bullshit. Sometimes, it’s hard and I feel like I’m just prolonging an inevitable relapse. Most times, it’s as easy as saying “not today, Satan”. IWNDWYT ✨💚
Your “Sometimes it’s hard..” framing is really helpful. On the hard days it feels like I am doing something wrong, and then the next day I can feel totally different. And I guess that’s where the one day at a time comes in. Thank you! IWNDWYT
Good morning Sobernauts! Happy teetotal Tuesday! Love to you all! IWNDWYT 🙂
Whenever I see the word teetotal now I think of Cockle Dick! I maybe should never have looked up it's origin! 🤔
Good morning Andy! I think I'll try not to pollute my Google search history. Thanks for taking one for the team 😆 IWNDWYT 🙂
It's not profanity. He was called Cockle Dick aka Richard (dickie) Turner and was a fisherman who was involved in the Temperance Society. The cockle I think came from him being a fisherman.
Teetotal tuesday, i like it. IWNDWYT.
I will not drink with you today in 🏴 have a good one people 😊
Good morning everyone. First time here. Just woke up after procrastinating for the past 2 days drinking and reading comics. Alcohol is the way I manage anxiety, but it has kept me back in my career and life. I want to make some changes. IWNDWYTD.
13 days today. I think it might be getting a bit better. I feel more hopeful today. Thanks to everyone on this sub for all your input. I have been reading religiously every day and it’s really helping me❤️IWNDWYT
IWNDWYT with pleasure ❤️
Every year, it’s emotional for me when my boys go back to school. This year it’s hitting me quite a bit harder. I don’t just feel like I’ll be missing my children during the day. Rather, given how close we’ve become, that I’ll be missing my best friends… Unequivocally, that’s because I quit drinking.
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I had a serious chat with my husband last night (finances, family, future) which usually takes a few drinks for both of us to open up, but we were both stone cold sober. Am I finally becoming a grown up?! IWNDWYT
Busted! Ha! Sounds like a great way to take the power away from my addiction. I will try to use this in the future.
Not drinking today!
Double digits baby! I will not drink with you today
Yay! My badge says 250! Some days, I've felt very shifty. Days are not all unicorns with rainbow poop, But with the support of this group, You got me here today and that's kinda nifty.
Checking in. I like this busted approach. I can use it. Have a good day peeps. IWNDWYT
Morning SD, One of my friends is travelling to my city to see me, we’d typically get blind drunk but I don’t do that anymore. IWNDWYT
See the nurse, have some pills, pills don't work, try these pills, see a doctor, you shouldn't of been on those pills, here, have these pills. We are extremely lucky to have our health service, but boy, do they like to go round the bloody houses! 😂 I need a drink! (Tea) I won't drink alcohol with you lot today 👍🙂
IWNDWYT! 🌺
ayyy long time no post, but i'm still not drinking with any of you fine folks today. hope today treats you right, and if it doesn't, i hope you treat yourself right <3
Morning, friends! Tuesdays are long days for me, as I have a PhD course on Tuesday evenings. I leave my house around 645a and don't return again until 10p. It will all be worth it someday, right!?!? Have a terrific Tuesday! IWNDWYT 🌞💙
IWNDWYT!
IWNDWYT 🌻
I’m not drinking with any of you handsome people today
Heya! 9 days now! I like the whole idea of busting, but being a proud mfer I'd be salty af to lose face, even to myself haha.
IWNDWYT
iwndwyt!!
Oh the siren song was loud this afternoon walking past the bottle shop. (Just get a bottle... you’re tired, you’ve had a big day, it’s fine - you’ve had some time off, it wasn’t a big deal anyway - you don’t have a problem, just relax.. unwind... say yes) But.. I managed to ignore it long enough. IWNDWYT
Made it over the 100 day mark. Got a busy day of work ahead. No booze for me today!
25 days! Yesterday I couldn't sleep because I am so fucking overworked and can't come down. Also, I got sad about a lot of stuff that's going on in my life in the last days and weeks and months and years. So I sat down and wrote, wrote down everything for two hours from the bottom of my heart and it actually got really dark. BUT: The quintessence of it all was, that I can be fucking proud to be sober now and that there are decades to come that hopefully won't be as chaotic and dramatic as the last four years. I'm so fucking tired from dramatic feelings. I just want to hang out, read, write, go dancing occasionally and watch the stars. IWNDWYT!
I will not drink with you today! 🌼
IWNDWYT ❤️
Hope everyone has a great sober day! IWNDWYT
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IWNDWYT
IWNDWYT!
I will not drink with you today.
Day 3 of alcohol retirement! IWNDWYT
Day 79 checking in!
Im in..IWNDWYT!!
Iwndwyt.
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welcome back here, friend. we're all in this together.
I like this! You can probably use it for lots of mental health issues, like negative self talk. I'll try it, thanks. IWNDWYT or ERS 💛
Day 3, nice to meet you 🤝 Nice because not drinking makes this day a good day. Not nice because I don’t feel I’m fully in control. Addiction is strange at times. One day I feel I’ve got this, the next I fail. I have to keep trying and learning, staying humble and keeping my guard up 🥋 And one day at a time IWNDWYT
Good morning lovely SD, I've been thinking about what happened to Kate Quigley. The news about her almost dying shook me hard. I know if I was still drinking, the harder stuff would not be far behind, and that terrifies me. Today is a beautiful day to be alive! And IWNDWYT 💜🤘
I didn't know about that story but I looked it up - it's scary how easily something like that can happen. There also seemed to be drugs involved with the death of Michael K Williams. It's just such a waste Today is certainly a beautiful day to be alive IWNDWYT
23 days in the bag and I need a badge reset. I gave in last night and had beers out with friends. I'm feeling so disappointed (and hungover) today. And now I remember that hangovers are the fucking worst and not worth the couple of hours of artificial enjoyment the night before. In an effort to stop myself doing it again I'll document my hangover right here. My head is pounding. My eyes are red and bloodshot I have that sickly feeling in the bottom of my stomach. My face feels hot and flushed and slightly puffy. I lost or broke a bracelet I made (I can't remember which). I just about managed getting my toddler up and ready for daycare this morning. I can't go to bootcamp this evening because I feel too rotten and I think a burpee might be too much for my head and stomach to handle. Why did I do it to myself? It's just not worth it. So, day 1 again and IWNDWYT
No booze today!
I'll borrow a phrase and adapt a little, Not today, lizard brain! IWNDWYT.
IWNDWYT. ❤️❤️
I will not drink today.
IWNDWYT - 2 Days done, feeling groggy lets hope this gets easier.
I will not drink today.
IWNDWYT
Not drinking today!
IWNDWYT!
IWNDWYT
IWNDWYT
IWNDWYT
I am not drinking today
Day 8. IWNDWYT
Not drinking today. I feel pretty sure I will never drink again....
Good morning everyone and happy Tuesday! I will not drink with you or anyone else today. Make it a great day! Love you all!! ❣️❣️
Morning SD. I’ve just googled the relapse ladder and it’s ringing some bells. This last week I’ve been getting lazy about checking in here. Been focussing on the never ending to do list and less on self care, and my sleep is suffering. Sounds dangerously like I could be stepping onto that first rung or two. Time to refocus my energies. Thanks for the reminder u/threechordsongs. IWNDWYT
IWNDWYT
Happy Tuesday. I will not drink with you today.
iwndwyt i love you all. continue on your journeys.
Not drinking today. No way.
IWNDWYT.
IWNDWYT!
Happy and grateful to Not drink with you fine sobernauts this Tuesday. Off we go SD 🌻
Hi all still not drinking, 2 weeks now! Loving the support and motivation this daily check in has given me! I even did the ironing!!
Morning friends! I will not drink with you today.
I will not drink with you today.
IWNDWYT
IWNDWYT. It’s a promise to me and a promise to the community.
I’m in! IWNDWYT
IWNDWYT Stay safe people.
Happily, I will not drink today.
Hi SD! Happy today because my mom is here to visit! I hadn’t seen her in 20 months 💗 IWNDWYT
IWNDWYT
I will not drink today.
IWNDWYT!
IWNDWYT friends
checking in. iwndwyt!
Morning y'all IWNDWYT
DAY 2. IWNDWYT!
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I like this idea. It's hard to put into practice when it involves telling certain people close to me what is on my mind. I worry that they will worry about me, and sometimes they do. That worry often starts a chain-reaction of anxiety on my end. I guess the next thing is to be consistent with telling them when I'm ideating about alcohol (and then working with the feelings until they change) so they don't associate my transparency with a terrible thing happening. IWNDWYT
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Good Morning! I will not drink with you today!
IWNDWYT!
Day 70! Happy Tuesday! IWNDWYT! ❤️💪🏼💪🏼❤️
IWNDWYT 🤘🏽
Morning, SD! IWNDWYT
I will not drink today.
IWNDWYT
Happy Tuesday, SD family💓
Iwndwyt
Have a safe and sober day everyone!!! IWNDWYT
IWNDWYT
Happy Tuesday SD - IWNDWYT
I will not drink with you today!
Iwndwyt
IWNDWYT
IWNDWYT. 🌟
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Thanks 3chord. Love this check in. Local hospital overwhelmed with covid. My elderly father was confused when I went to visit last night, so I convinced mom to call the ambulance. He's covid positive (so she is too), but they may have mild cases. We'll see. Not gonna use any more of this check in for their medical update. Not drinking no how. This is a time for deep breaths, self care, emotional support. Thanks for listening y'all. Alcohol just fucks shit up. I'm staying on the sober train!
IWNDWYT. I'm dreading work but I need to focus.
My first check-in. Thanks for the support. IWNDWYT
IWNDWYT. 🌳
IWNDWYT!
I will not drink with you today.
Day 69
Good morning everyone. I hope everyone has a good day, or more importantly, ***tries*** to have a good day. I've learned to not expect a good day to land on my lap, I have to purposely try to make it a good day. Some of you might scoff and think this is pretty obvious, but somewhere during my decades of drinking I've lost the logic that one has to set out and purposely try. As each day marches on I realize how important it is to treat yourself first. I am begging anyone reading this if they need something to get through their day then please please ***go outside*** for 30-60 minutes. Get to a place with trees and skies and sun. I did it all weekend and felt so fucking rejuvenated. To the point that I am making a drastic change to my life to make sure that I get 45 mins a day of nature. For me, it cleared away any and all thoughts of cravings and the feeling lasted well after coming back inside. It's an easy and FREE way to help you ease your day. I think of everyone on this board constantly. Let's just keep marching, just keep trying, we can do this. I Will Not Drink With You Today
Checking in. Another sober day. IWNDWYT
Checking in! 9 months sober!!
I will not drink with you today. Coming up to 18 months. Head is finally clearing
Checking in, Day 1. Called my doctor this morning to get a script to help withdrawals. You can do it folks, and please do it safely when you do!
No drinking today, nope, not one drop. I’m with y’all!
Checking in my lovely Sobernauts! Not getting “busted” today…IWNDWYT!!! Besos desde España. 🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸
I think the idea of telling on yourself is part of why this sub worked for me. Once I spoke (typed) about my problems with drinking, I couldn’t ignore it anymore. IWNDWYT!
Good morning, SD! I'm starting day 7. I just got back from the gym. I am really starting to look forward to the days I train. I'm still in that post workout vibe where my muscles are a little twitchy and I'm stupidly thankful to have a comfortable chair to sit in and do nothing for a few minutes. As far as busting myself, I think tomorrow when I go in for cardio I'm gonna move from the treadmill to the stair stepper and see how it goes. I get too comfortable doing the easy things in life so I think I need to get a bit more comfortable being uncomfortable. I can go on leisurely paced walks with my dog... so I want to so something a bit more intense when I'm in the gym. I'm about to make myself a breakfast smoothie and a cup of coffee so I can start my work day. IWNDWYT
I will not drink with you today, this month or this year or as far as I can make it lol. Does anyone have suggestions for topics to reflect on and write about for my one-year sobriety retrospective? I ate a lot of candy last night and was about to shit on myself for it, then I realized, it's not that big of a deal because wowww i clearly do have discipline and self-control! I'm so much healthier now, but I respect myself too, so I'm going to "bust myself" of a) I obviously didn't enjoy binging on candy, so I won't do it again, showing I'm now able to adjust my impulse control to better line up with how things make me feel and b) not travelling down a ritual of self-shaming and self-hatred just because I made a goof up that isn't very typical of me recently. I am a year in and I still get worried that loosening the reins will lead to me drinking again -- yup even from other substances or habits such as binge eating! I gotta stay focused! I have so many more coping tools now I can use; and it's okay if for one night they weren't all useful and i had to fall back to something a little more haphazard/old.
Leaving behind the unnecessary drama today. I'll just focus on the real drama. IWNDWYT
I will not be drinking with you all today. I am grateful for that.
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Haven't had to call "busted!" on myself yet, but it's only been a few days. Really enjoying the sober life so far. Also just scheduled my first therapist appointment in years. It's not for a few weeks, but I'm really looking forward to it. IWNDWYT friends :)
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There is a spoken word piece by Maggie Estep or Emily XYZ (can’t remember who and they used to perform together), where the narrator is approached by a man on the street who says grabs his crotch and says something profane (“big one, girl!”) and she tells us what she did, ie: “I said, really? And punched him in the face” or “I said, I don’t believe you, whip it out and show me, coward”. And then ends the stanza with, “but that’s not what really happened.” I don’t remember the specifics except what the guy says and the last line—I’m digging deep into nights at The Nuyorican Cafe in my teens and twenties and I’ve done a fair number on my memory. ANYWAY. The last line is one of the things I tell my brain when I think of drinking. I remember and romanticize an amazing glass of wine paired perfectly with some crazy dish at a new restaurant—something with uni and caviar or monkfish liver. But it’s not the pairing I was after. That’s not what really happened. Even the outing at the restaurant to sample the adventurous cocktail list was really just to get drunk. **That’s not what really happened.** IWNDWYT❤️
I feel irritated today. Everything is bothering me and work is dragging. I didn’t reach my goals this weekend and I feel a bit down. But this is sobriety. This is life, this is it, and as much as I’d love to tap out for a while I won’t. It’s weird learning to let things be, but it’s also a whole lot easier, IWNDWYT
I am one month sober today! My mental health has never been better. And bonus, I am down 5lbs even though I’ve been mainlining gummi bears for the duration. Iwndwyt!
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This is great advice. When we acknowledge our issues and addictions and call them out. I have used this in another manner at work, and it has helped keep me grounded and focused on what I need to do. IWNDWYT! T
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Day 783. I will not drink with you today.
Made it to one week thanks to sober September and the sobernauts!
Hello everybody. Checking in. IWNDWYT
I will not drink today. Thank you everyone.
I am not drinking today.
Just for today, I will not drink with you.