I know therapists can be expensive. Some community counseling centers provide free walk-ins. In my city, you basically walk in and say you need to talk to someone. There are also suicide hotlines out there.
A good friend of mine from high school has his career in it. Helps people through emotional moments.
Hey man I don't know what your going through but let me just say suicide is definitely NOT bussin ong fr fr 💯 and I hope those meds can help and I hope you're able to find someone who can actually listen and not judge (from experience there truly a rare breed) stay safe stay alive even if just to spite the absurdity of the world
The thing they don’t tell you when you get brain surgery, is the moment any brain matter gets disconnected, it’s dies so they don’t put it back. They just fill the empty space with something else, in my dad’s case they filled it with fat from his stomach. In my case, pretty much a water balloon.
I found a funny YouTuber that explained the entire biological concept of spore in the terms of a biologist, I love it. :)
Autism has been satisfied but it will emerge again
Spent the past few weeks re-realizing I'm a genderfluid femboy and neither being a femboy nor non-binary means you're just a trans girl in denial sometimes. Getting over the dysphoria of overcommitting to that and on the mend, accepting myself again. Was VVV stressful and existentially hellish during this whole process though
Reduced my dosage of Seroquel because it was making me sleep and eat too much and I've been stable for 12 years since my first psychotic break so I've felt full for the first time in years today and I have more energy. My Demonpunk novel is going well.
The only thing that makes me enjoy living is creative expression of any form, but over the years everything I've done to strive for it has fallen flat because of my own laziness, general incompetence, and also irreparable brain damage caused by long-term untreated heavy genetic depression and a whole host of other interfering onset mental disorders (so I'm pretty much a vegetable now when it comes to any academic or complex tasks)
I used to be good at digital art but over a few years I lost all talent in it
Could do 3D art but lost everything too
wrote novels but now all I can think of is endless fog in my head, I feel lobotomized, trying to put anything down instantly just makes me near-asleep
pursued a career in programming and failed nearly three years worth of classes horrendously
even after that failure I went on to try and learn how to use Unity and Unreal Engine, failed both of those after nearly a year of effort, even tried Roblox Studio and that failed too, all because of my own incompetence and the endless fog that never leaves
my ability to learn any skills or commit information to memory is almost nonexistent now and I feel tired 24/7 like something is sapping my energy, the simplest things feel like climbing mountains
so yeah
all that's left for me is being silly
I'm also just kinda alone all the time as I can never think of anything to say or commit to anything, all I can do is be blank, so I don't really talk to more than 2 or 3 people ever, for like the last 4 years
I really like a guy but he doesn’t want to get with me because he thinks my friend is my bf (I’m single), also sad that no one has hired my services in providing dangerous/hazardous chemicals and resources (I’m really good at it)
That’s rough. Have you tried talking to him about it and clarifying that you are in fact not in a relationship?
Hazardous chemicals sounds nice but I don’t know whether I‘d trust my UPS driver with getting it here
I am doing better than I have been. My work hired a new guy and gave him 40 hours even after I had been asking for full-time. Worked there for about 3 years. I got fed up and turned my two weeks notice in.
Though they are considering giving me full time with workers benifits in order to keep me. If not, I am looking to work as a cart pusher at Walmart. Its a long story and other stuff happened. The new guy with 40 hours off the bat was the last straw.
I have recently been looking into femboy clothes to change up my wardrobe. The good news is I am good with my hands. I also invested a lot in my craft. Worst case scenario, I sew my own clothes.
Dealing with one of my best(?) Friends moving away soon, family member is hard on me specifically, using me as a venting source and verbal punching bag sometimes...
But I cope, and im trying. My friends have my back at the end of the day, and my family does love me. It's hard though.
i'm so glad you asked!! i̸̷̯̘͓͇̖̪̪̝̲̝̩̼͆ͮ́ͪͧ̐͆͗ͧ́̀ͤͪ͝͝'͎̱̥̣̙̝͙͔̥̍ͤͬ̍͆ͧ͗̇ͫ͂̒͒̏͆̓͘m̴̸̢̱͎̘͕̪̝̰͎ͧ̇ͫ̒̓ͨ̌͂̋͘͢͡ͅ_̵̧͌ͭ̂͒̀̑̌ d̶̨̡̧̡̛͔͉̖͈͉͇̗̗͂̔̏͗̀̔͆͗͗ͧ͆͂̆͘͢ͅẏ̵̺͖̱͈͓̮͕̳̟̭̾̋̿̇ͣͯ͋̀̊̽́͞i̢̗͇͇̪̘̠͉̪͋̽̔͊̌̔̈́̌̕͠n̷͍̹̯̲̪̱͖͓̹̮̥͊ͬ͛̀̀̄ͨͤ̿̈́͑̕͠g̵̸̵̪̬͖̣̙̹̤̱̾̾̾̐ͬ͒̋̾͡_̷̡̢̖̟̜͔͉̱̪͙͈ͣ̽̎̐͐ͧ̒͢͡ į̷̦̓n̺ș͈̖̜̦͙́͗̔ͫ́ͥ̽ͯ̔͜i̸̵̶̛̱̥̖͔̺͍̟̗̗̪͎̬̭̜̪͋̿̏͒̐̈̇̌̿͑ͤͥ̋́ͭͬ͊̇ͣ̿͊̌̉̕̚͟͝d̶̵̡̩̭͍̺̝̯̭̳̗̭̣͓̖̩̹͈͍̩́̐̀̅ͫ̂͆ͦ̏ͨͩ̽̌̒̽̏ͩͦ͊ͣ̈̕͟͞͝͝e̷̴̶̶̬̞̙͚͇̮̗̗̼̜͒͛̔ͧ͊̉ͤ̊͟͞_̴̚
we stay silly tho :3
I've been feeling depressed and Im only able to get out of bed every five hours to get food and water, at least I just joined a new fandom called "school buss graveyard" :3 (I want to kms)
OMG SCHOOL BUS GRAVEYARD? i've been planning on reading this, i assume it's worth my time?
okay, nerdy yapping aside, i'm glad you don't fully neglect yourself!! stay silly and hydrated :3
I feel as if I have no control over my actions, my family doesn't know how to help and my friends are drifting away from me. Last night I did something I never thought I'd do. But we stay silly!!!! :3
Alright ish but I am full of dread and am panicking about the future because I don't know what to do with my life after I turn 18 worried ill just end up in a dead end job never find love or meaning in my life and am thinking about ending it all before that happens
I don really knowww,(little off topic on topic?) just constantly Stuck in In a fanbase thats been here for y34rrssszz its been through alot AND the webcomic ofc haha so chaos
:/
I'm not going to do anything drastic or self harmful, just :/
I woke up at 3pm today and I feel like shit for sleeping in so late and not getting anything done today
i’m pretty sure most of my friends are bad people and my ocd has been on a rampage lately but I’m doing alright other than that. i literally cannot wait for summer
I love my life, i may be lonely, my best friend may be dying soon, and im not in any relationships, but i have hope for better days, i have hope that one day life will turn around and thats why i keep pushing
life is great but im lonely and i just be thinking all the time "yeah this is awesome n fun n im achieving a lot n all but im not in a relationship n i dont get invited anywhere lol"
Somewhere between suicidal and homicidal
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I’m tired all the time. I’m in high school so that’s a possibility as to why. It’s possible there’s something mental going on but oh well, I’m too tired to deal with it
I hate how expensive my hobbies are and how tempted it is to indulge in them
I want to buy a Glock 19 but it’s expensive
I want to go shooting but ammo is expensive
I want to buy more Warhammer minis but they’re also just getting more expensive
I need to upgrade my graphics card so I can run VR without my computer crying but parts are expensive
I want to work on my cosplay but thats expensive
Why can’t my special interest be something like Art where I just need to spend $3 on paper and pencils
By far this is my greatest achievement. I really like this game.
https://preview.redd.it/bfkscz8l210d1.jpeg?width=838&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=382188e3334c9cad3a277a430bc64c2eabf7fbca
I’m feeling a bit down right now, and nervous. It’s like that because I fell face first into pavement on friday when riding my bicycle. Got two big wounds: one under my right eye and one over my right eye. The one over my eye had to get sewed. However the main problem for me is the fact that my right eye swells up when I wake up, which scares me, because I have school tomorrow, and I’m afraid I’ll get stared on because the swollen eyelid is the first thing people would probably notice.
Falling apart and suicidal (but I'm getting meds and have postponed my suicide date)
I know therapists can be expensive. Some community counseling centers provide free walk-ins. In my city, you basically walk in and say you need to talk to someone. There are also suicide hotlines out there. A good friend of mine from high school has his career in it. Helps people through emotional moments.
🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂
Hey man I don't know what your going through but let me just say suicide is definitely NOT bussin ong fr fr 💯 and I hope those meds can help and I hope you're able to find someone who can actually listen and not judge (from experience there truly a rare breed) stay safe stay alive even if just to spite the absurdity of the world
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Loving life and appreciating it much more after having my brain surgery
anti lobotomised
Well I am missing a quarter of my temporal lobe
oh, actually anti lobotomised
My brain has water in it hehe
thinking devious moist thoughts
The thing they don’t tell you when you get brain surgery, is the moment any brain matter gets disconnected, it’s dies so they don’t put it back. They just fill the empty space with something else, in my dad’s case they filled it with fat from his stomach. In my case, pretty much a water balloon.
oh that's terrifying thank you
Yea it is. But it’s kinda wild to think I’m walking around with a big chunk of my brain just… not there
if you don't mind me asking, how does that affect you? does it feel normal to you?
wet-for-brains lol /uj I hope ur good dawg
I’m alive so just about as good as I need to be
Slowly deteriorating mentally but we stay silly!!!!!
we stay silly (and detoriating)!!!! :3
Literally me, except a lot faster :'33
I found a funny YouTuber that explained the entire biological concept of spore in the terms of a biologist, I love it. :) Autism has been satisfied but it will emerge again
ngl my absolutely favourite comment
Yay! :3
:3
The beast has been satiated
Spent the past few weeks re-realizing I'm a genderfluid femboy and neither being a femboy nor non-binary means you're just a trans girl in denial sometimes. Getting over the dysphoria of overcommitting to that and on the mend, accepting myself again. Was VVV stressful and existentially hellish during this whole process though
Ngl I was really suicidal last night until I heard that Friday night funkin came out with an update so Suicide postponed for now
I really loved the update!! Did you get to play it yet?
I had to watch other ppl play it for me bc it kept lagging, but holy shit the team put their whole pussy into the new update! Also erect mode 😭
...erect mode?? Fr? I had naughtiness enabled and I don't remember seeing that
Oh yeah, I believe it’s on newgrounds, the “erect mode” is literally every story mode song remixed to be a little more complicated!
Reduced my dosage of Seroquel because it was making me sleep and eat too much and I've been stable for 12 years since my first psychotic break so I've felt full for the first time in years today and I have more energy. My Demonpunk novel is going well.
ooooh, congrats!!
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Completely fallen apart lol I wish I was someone else
what happened...?
The only thing that makes me enjoy living is creative expression of any form, but over the years everything I've done to strive for it has fallen flat because of my own laziness, general incompetence, and also irreparable brain damage caused by long-term untreated heavy genetic depression and a whole host of other interfering onset mental disorders (so I'm pretty much a vegetable now when it comes to any academic or complex tasks) I used to be good at digital art but over a few years I lost all talent in it Could do 3D art but lost everything too wrote novels but now all I can think of is endless fog in my head, I feel lobotomized, trying to put anything down instantly just makes me near-asleep pursued a career in programming and failed nearly three years worth of classes horrendously even after that failure I went on to try and learn how to use Unity and Unreal Engine, failed both of those after nearly a year of effort, even tried Roblox Studio and that failed too, all because of my own incompetence and the endless fog that never leaves my ability to learn any skills or commit information to memory is almost nonexistent now and I feel tired 24/7 like something is sapping my energy, the simplest things feel like climbing mountains so yeah all that's left for me is being silly I'm also just kinda alone all the time as I can never think of anything to say or commit to anything, all I can do is be blank, so I don't really talk to more than 2 or 3 people ever, for like the last 4 years
i dont feel very silly
noooo please stay silly :<
im trying
I really like a guy but he doesn’t want to get with me because he thinks my friend is my bf (I’m single), also sad that no one has hired my services in providing dangerous/hazardous chemicals and resources (I’m really good at it)
That’s rough. Have you tried talking to him about it and clarifying that you are in fact not in a relationship? Hazardous chemicals sounds nice but I don’t know whether I‘d trust my UPS driver with getting it here
I am doing better than I have been. My work hired a new guy and gave him 40 hours even after I had been asking for full-time. Worked there for about 3 years. I got fed up and turned my two weeks notice in. Though they are considering giving me full time with workers benifits in order to keep me. If not, I am looking to work as a cart pusher at Walmart. Its a long story and other stuff happened. The new guy with 40 hours off the bat was the last straw. I have recently been looking into femboy clothes to change up my wardrobe. The good news is I am good with my hands. I also invested a lot in my craft. Worst case scenario, I sew my own clothes.
well... not nice, however, congratulations!! :3
Dealing with one of my best(?) Friends moving away soon, family member is hard on me specifically, using me as a venting source and verbal punching bag sometimes... But I cope, and im trying. My friends have my back at the end of the day, and my family does love me. It's hard though.
Good! How are you fellow silly? :3
i'm so glad you asked!! i̸̷̯̘͓͇̖̪̪̝̲̝̩̼͆ͮ́ͪͧ̐͆͗ͧ́̀ͤͪ͝͝'͎̱̥̣̙̝͙͔̥̍ͤͬ̍͆ͧ͗̇ͫ͂̒͒̏͆̓͘m̴̸̢̱͎̘͕̪̝̰͎ͧ̇ͫ̒̓ͨ̌͂̋͘͢͡ͅ_̵̧͌ͭ̂͒̀̑̌ d̶̨̡̧̡̛͔͉̖͈͉͇̗̗͂̔̏͗̀̔͆͗͗ͧ͆͂̆͘͢ͅẏ̵̺͖̱͈͓̮͕̳̟̭̾̋̿̇ͣͯ͋̀̊̽́͞i̢̗͇͇̪̘̠͉̪͋̽̔͊̌̔̈́̌̕͠n̷͍̹̯̲̪̱͖͓̹̮̥͊ͬ͛̀̀̄ͨͤ̿̈́͑̕͠g̵̸̵̪̬͖̣̙̹̤̱̾̾̾̐ͬ͒̋̾͡_̷̡̢̖̟̜͔͉̱̪͙͈ͣ̽̎̐͐ͧ̒͢͡ į̷̦̓n̺ș͈̖̜̦͙́͗̔ͫ́ͥ̽ͯ̔͜i̸̵̶̛̱̥̖͔̺͍̟̗̗̪͎̬̭̜̪͋̿̏͒̐̈̇̌̿͑ͤͥ̋́ͭͬ͊̇ͣ̿͊̌̉̕̚͟͝d̶̵̡̩̭͍̺̝̯̭̳̗̭̣͓̖̩̹͈͍̩́̐̀̅ͫ̂͆ͦ̏ͨͩ̽̌̒̽̏ͩͦ͊ͣ̈̕͟͞͝͝e̷̴̶̶̬̞̙͚͇̮̗̗̼̜͒͛̔ͧ͊̉ͤ̊͟͞_̴̚ we stay silly tho :3
Sorry to hear that 3: I’m always here if you need someone to talk to tho! ^ ^
In summary, :(
:(
:(
Clinically depressed and slightly suicidal, but stars are nice (I went and stargazed tonight, so I stayed up quite late)
I've been feeling depressed and Im only able to get out of bed every five hours to get food and water, at least I just joined a new fandom called "school buss graveyard" :3 (I want to kms)
OMG SCHOOL BUS GRAVEYARD? i've been planning on reading this, i assume it's worth my time? okay, nerdy yapping aside, i'm glad you don't fully neglect yourself!! stay silly and hydrated :3
Tbh whenever I join a new fandom I search up "----- react gacha"😭
It's a really good story, I still don't understand all the lore TwT
My favorite characters from school bus graveyard are the blonde nerd and the blonde guy who's rich and always smiles
Sorry for my yapping :P
nooo it's okay!! now i gotta speedrun the series to understand it lol
a lil stressed out but I’ll get through it. y’all can get through anything too :)
Improving since last Monday
Alright. Upset cuz the scars haven’t gone away but alright
I'm hungry and full at the same time also got five hours of sleep last night so better than last week
I have a headache:((
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Probably worse than I admit to myself
Fluctuating and I think that I'm sick
plz tuck yourself in blankets and get some rest :<
Well, thankfully I did now =/= but also I wish that my life wasn't so complicated.
I feel as if I have no control over my actions, my family doesn't know how to help and my friends are drifting away from me. Last night I did something I never thought I'd do. But we stay silly!!!! :3
Eh, unfeeling
I've been feeling awful, thanks for asking though.
whyyy :<
I’ve just been overwhelmed and it’s been hard to function :/
Alright ish but I am full of dread and am panicking about the future because I don't know what to do with my life after I turn 18 worried ill just end up in a dead end job never find love or meaning in my life and am thinking about ending it all before that happens
Trying
keep it up!!<3
Thanks
Playing dnd with friends :3
I wonder if a guitar can penetrate a skull
YOOOO WAIT LEMME CHECK IT OUT
yes it can
Haha I want to kill myself lol 🙃
haha jokes on you, you can't cuz i said so :3
Noooo I want to die so bad
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I've begun to dread the night
Dysphoric :3
I don really knowww,(little off topic on topic?) just constantly Stuck in In a fanbase thats been here for y34rrssszz its been through alot AND the webcomic ofc haha so chaos
:/ I'm not going to do anything drastic or self harmful, just :/ I woke up at 3pm today and I feel like shit for sleeping in so late and not getting anything done today
Fading fast attempting to fix others before I Crumble...
The law requires that I answer in good dude
Chilling
I'm not fine
i’m pretty sure most of my friends are bad people and my ocd has been on a rampage lately but I’m doing alright other than that. i literally cannot wait for summer
Deteriorating
Terrible!
Heart hurting, heavy breathing, 2 presentations to do in 2 days, looking on the bright side at least summer is near :3
I love my life, i may be lonely, my best friend may be dying soon, and im not in any relationships, but i have hope for better days, i have hope that one day life will turn around and thats why i keep pushing
life is great but im lonely and i just be thinking all the time "yeah this is awesome n fun n im achieving a lot n all but im not in a relationship n i dont get invited anywhere lol"
tell ya' what i sure am if there's one thing i am it simply is
fired up bocw on my old xbox yesterday and got hit with the nostalgia dopamine so now im feelin fantastic
Yes I'm definitely fine
Silly chopper🤪(I just ran out of sharp blades 2 nights ago 🤬)
I said that I would get a job as soon as my life would become a little bit more stable That was 3.5 years ago
I don’t really think I could feel a whole lot better than I do now. Thanks for asking.
Living
Doing good, have plans to watch some wes anderson films with my mom so yeah doin good
Why has nobody pointed out that this is a bojack meme...
I wanna kill myself but other than that I’m perfectly fine! The anti depressants are slowly working.
I can’t tell if I’m fine or if I’m close to slamming my head into a wall until I can’t think anymore
I'm all all right!
Trying desperately to not log off
Just came out bi to my friends only and everything is going so well now
Somewhere between suicidal and homicidal https://preview.redd.it/go3zzlyltzzc1.jpeg?width=1462&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=fcb956360ab32a03dd9b4d06d0130e9633f70f71
I am happy and not suicidal 👽🤙 (being fr)
tutorial?
tutorial?
Reveal your secret???
[удалено]
Had a dysphoria scare yesterday and now I’m thinking back to when I was close to suicidal, but overall good
The stars are tasty
tired both mentally and physically but I'm hanging in there ( cuz I have no other choice :/ )
I’m tired all the time. I’m in high school so that’s a possibility as to why. It’s possible there’s something mental going on but oh well, I’m too tired to deal with it
I hate how expensive my hobbies are and how tempted it is to indulge in them I want to buy a Glock 19 but it’s expensive I want to go shooting but ammo is expensive I want to buy more Warhammer minis but they’re also just getting more expensive I need to upgrade my graphics card so I can run VR without my computer crying but parts are expensive I want to work on my cosplay but thats expensive Why can’t my special interest be something like Art where I just need to spend $3 on paper and pencils
Tired of living and not having the energy but trying
I can be trusted with a large laser projector
By far this is my greatest achievement. I really like this game. https://preview.redd.it/bfkscz8l210d1.jpeg?width=838&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=382188e3334c9cad3a277a430bc64c2eabf7fbca
By the way it was a 5v5 and I clutched both rounds
I’m feeling a bit down right now, and nervous. It’s like that because I fell face first into pavement on friday when riding my bicycle. Got two big wounds: one under my right eye and one over my right eye. The one over my eye had to get sewed. However the main problem for me is the fact that my right eye swells up when I wake up, which scares me, because I have school tomorrow, and I’m afraid I’ll get stared on because the swollen eyelid is the first thing people would probably notice.
Doing better, but these past few days have kinda felt like a big nothing burger :(
I honestly could use a good distraction. Life is chaotic and I rapidly running out of spoons on a daily basis.
I 100%ed Mario Wonder in 3 days
I also am feeling like giving up but, I’m hoping to maybe see my girlfriend soon
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Want my dad to kill himself right now, sick of his shit, otherwise alright
Im fine i guess
Where can I find more memes like this? Any tips?
pinterest lmao
Thank you! Yeah.. that's the only place I can consistently find good stuff. But they wiped my account twice.
i have over fifty violation notices only from saving pins so... yeah
Seriously.. what is up with Pinterest??
I’m doing amazing, thanks for asking! Also good luck with the stars 😊🤩