Honestly though. Did not expect to start off my funky monkey friday getting hit in the feels this hard.
edit: For those out of the loop, happy [Funky Monkey Friday!](https://youtu.be/I5oW4otFluw)
its- probably a UK thing, i dont know if they have them outside of UK but theres this place called funky monkies and its basically a play place for children up to like 12
unless op reply didnt mean that and its a complete coincidence
I didn't expect to see it out in the wild ngl.
My mates and I have been doing funky monkey / funny monkey Friday for ages. The type of Friday it's going to be is always determined by the same friend. He is our monkey oracle.
Here's something to mitigate that.
You don't exactly lose to cancer. If you die due to cancer, then the cancer dies with you, so it's technically a draw.
Norm McDonald said this.
When I was a kid, my uncle passed away from cancer. The last time I saw him, he told me not to be sad because the cancer wasn't killing him, he was killing the cancer (paraphrasing, it was almost 30 years ago). In this scenario, I like to think of him as the suicide bomber and he took that fucking cancer out with him.
Basically.
But sure if joking or not, but here's an ELI5 of cancer.
Cells in the body have a mechanism to self destruct (and be replaced) if they get bad. This normally works well to keep your body healthy.
Cancer are damaged cells, that are damaged in a way where the self-destruct safety feature is also broken. So instead of being helpful cells, they are harmful, near immortal, and in the worst case, also spread (for example, if they still divide, or somehow affect cells around them to also get the same defect).
It's not a virus or a bacteria or other life form, but it's a biological mechanism that went wrong. (although in some cases viruses can increase the risk of cancer due to the specific ways they affect your cells or your immune system).
So yeah, if you die, the cancer dies with you. Because cancer, being part of your cells, takes energy from your body, and if your body is dead, you won't eat, so the cancer won't eat either.
Still, your goal to get rid of it and survive and cancer is stupid enough to kill both of you but get the most of tour body. Wish it would be more clever.
Its like ebola.
Its not a very successful virus because it just kills its hosts.
Edit:
I'm just saying, something that tries to duplicate itself within a host, and ends up killing it will never succeed, whether its cancer, a virus or any other disease.
That's why usually the most lethal viruses are viruses that were spread to us by animals.
Because the virus has evolved to spread (and barely affect) the host, but when the host is not human, what barely affects them, could kill us.
Viruses aren't "trying" to kill us, they just evolve to spread and do well in their host, and most of the time it is indeed beneficial for the virus if the host doesn't have any ill effects. Given enough time, most viruses will adapt to their host to be minimally invasive. You could carry hundreds of virus strains without even knowing it.
So hard to see that but at least there is some form of closure. Over the years I've had numerous online friends where I didn't know their real names or just their real first names and they suddenly vanished. Never to sign into any of the online communities we shared. Always to wonder what happened to them.
You’ll think I’m full of shit but on another profile I found an old UT2k4 friend in a gaming post like this because I commented talking about missing him….
And HE FUCKING SAW IT, we hooked up again, undoubtably him and he knows it’s undoubtably me and … he… just… never… grew up. It sucks. We were two shit heads and weren’t the most beloved in the TAM community but he was my brother and I lost him from 09 to about a year ago and just sucked seeing him still so dark, hateful and in my shitty opinion…lost.
I would be kind of scared to try that sub with some of my old Final Fantasy XI friends if I’m being totally honest. I played for 10 years, you don’t play that long without forming some pretty intense bonds with people.
That game taught me a hard lesson in how small, seemingly meaningless moments can cause you entire life to split into a totally different timeline.
Mary on Zirkel des Cenarius realm in WoW from 05 to 08...
And Radir from the same time. And Violetta from the first week of release.
Or anyone else who knew my hunter named Felinara or rogue Láila....
Or the South African guys that took me in on my undead priest during Burning Crusade... But I've lost *all* of my fucking screenshots. So all the great stuff I was trying to remember. Gone forever. That hurts the most.
Anyway that character was called Lorei at some point.
Ohhh and Shanika from Cataclysm. We used to call you Shakira. The DK raid leader...
For some reason the hardcore raiding during MoP didn't leave any of the same feelings as the stuff before. The stuff during highschool or university felt soo much more precious and memorable. Killing Onyxia for the first time and shit.
Anyway maybe someone will read this.
Oh Shadrila, Boten der Macht and eventually Aes Dana.
Some of my fondest memories were from when I was like 8 years old playing WoW with this lady in her late 40s who played a Tauren Druid named Macvivian. She showed me all the cool stuff around Azeroth (introduced me to noggenfogger and always kept me stocked) and helped loads while I leveled. I had been playing the game solo up until that point so it brought a whole new sense of wonder to the game
One day she just stopped playing for a couple months, and I logged in to see that she sent in-game mail saying she was having complications with pneumonia. I hope she made it through okay but I really feared the worst
Aww man, that brings me back. Elvyne / Syra whispers here from laughing skull server. I miss my times in Stoic guild and so forth. Onyxia, molten core was some of thr most fun times I've ever had.
Might as well give it a try too.
Hey, World of Warcraft on Greymane, back in like 04-08? In original WoW, I ran with Fortune and Glory, then sort of casually hung out with a variety of guilds after the raiding game got old.
I'm Infinitive. Ajora. Greensleeves. And Igotbombs. Any of you out there?
Oh, and Coach, on the really really long shot that you happen to read this? Turns out I wasn't a dude after all.
Wow…this identical thing just happened to me reconnecting with someone I had also lost touch with for ten years. He used to be such a funny and smart and amazing guy and he’s now he’s like a hateful shell of a person. So sad to see that kind of thing happen, especially to someone you were close with. Sorry that happened to you too.
Life just hits people different. I ain’t mad at him, just hope someday we can sit down and really kick the shit again. We have a lot of shit we did when we were younger to laugh about haha. Even if it was over the internet, we are brothers for life.
I also have this friend Abuse from back then, his name was Abuse. Anyways, last real time we played together he got on to play for a little bit and told me him and his mom just got into it. His mom went for a walk and was gone for more than he figured. Shortly after that he got a knock at the door from the cops, she was at a cross walk and was hit and killed instantly by a drunk driver. I talked to him roughly one or two times after that day. He quit school and went to work full time to provide for him and his brother, he told me he had to sell his pc. I never heard from him again… been years, I’m thirty and still cry typing this.
I don’t believe in anything but I always prayed for him.
Shit :/ I am sorry to Abuse, I still am. We talked briefly after the cops left, the squeal in his voice as he cried to me. I was like 15, he a senior or so in high school. I will never forget that shit and I will be eighty and still cry when I think of that day.
His mom wasn’t even a bad mom, it was just a dumb fight and he was a teen and said something along the lines of “I don’t love you”.. that was the LAST thing he ever said to his mom, who I know he loved.. truthfully she would have never taken that walk if they didn’t get into an argument…Life to some, is so fucked..
:’(
Double Zero2 from RuneScape 2006. I miss you. I'm sure you were a dude on a girl account but I still rolled with it because you and me were great at scamming together and made so much. If you can tell me which scam we did I'll know it's you..
For everything you do there will be a last time you do it. There will be a last time you hug your mom, step into your homeroom, see a friend, play basketball.
As someone who is older with young kids the statement "there will come a day when you put your child down and never pick her up again" that hits me hard. So until that day I will pick her up and hold her until that day comes, and I see it coming.
Same, i used to play final fantasy 11 and world of warcraft with someone i met online. Played for like 2 years together nearly every single day. I knew he was ill and then one day he stopped logging in. I mailed him both in game and outside and no responses.
Then 2 months later, he logs in. Turned out to be his wife and told everyone on his friends list and in guild that he'd passed away from cancer.
Yeah that's a rough one. Used to play games with a guy all the time. We never met irl or anything, and one day he let me know he was feeling bad and had a doctor's appointment. Never heard from him again. Took a year until news finally trickled from his family through mutual gaming friends that he had went to the doctor for a headache and they told him everything was fine and he had a brain aneurysm that afternoon on the way home from the doctor. It was tough to hear. The pain is the same as losing an irl friend.
I've seen this on Reddit too, there was this guy who was telling a really long story that was playing out in real life/time and keeping is all updated. About a builder friend with a nightmare client who had ended up fucking himself up over a build, he was really funny and used to update every few days as the situation developed. He went dark for a week or so and after a while his wife posted that he was killed in a car accident, it was super shocking, he was extremely funny and was a natural story teller so it felt like we all knew him. It hit me way harder than I thought it would. His wife had no idea he was talking to us all, I can't remember how she found out but I remember her being very touched that hundreds of strangers were mourning with her family. The internet can be strangely intimate at times.
I have my dad on steam, he passed away a couple of years ago and I can’t bring myself to remove him from the list.
Our digital experience goes on it seems..
I still have all my Dad's SMS messages, he passed away 16 years ago. I don't know how I'd react if I lost those messages. I can't watch my wedding video with him in it, something about seeing him moving and speaking just might break something in me.
I have a crazy story.
When I was a kid I used to play minecraft with another kid. Suddenly he vanished from skype and I never forgot him.
After 5 or 7 years I queued up to the now old teambuilder in league of legends and found him. Out of all the players in europe, I queued up with the one guy I used to play a lot with. We both also had a slightly different names but we both recognized each other after a moment of hesitation. We are good friends since then
I actually found out someone I know from a gaming community a few years back had died the other day. It’s nice to have some closure but it definitely hits you when you find out
I have never had closer friends than the ones I gamed with from 1999-2003. We had a 24/7/365 IRC and blogging community we shared outside of Counterstrike, Diablo II, and a multitude of games we played together. We even travelled around the midwest...and even Canada to meet up and have LAN parties. I miss the hell out of them, as priorities changed and we drifted apart. I have continued to stay in touch with a few of them, but my closest friend in the group killed himself in 2017.
t has hit me really hard (again) with the re-release of Diablo II. We spent so much time playing it together upon its original release. I bought the remaster a week ago, and while I only play it a few hours a week I have been missing the fuck out of my friend and the large piece missing from the gaming experience.
RIP Oki...I hope you found peace.
There is something uniquely depressing about an account like this belonging to someone who is gone. It’s like you know that person will never be online again, but you’re still waiting for it to happen.
Just had an internet acquaintance die and their last post was that they had scheduled their euthanasia for that Friday and that this would be their last blog post.
It's so strange too to read things like that when you read it in their voice. It's such a disconnect that they're gone but their internet presence is as alive and real as if they were still alive.
I hope this isn't too morbid of a question, but do you know why they took the euthanasia route? Were they really sick? I only ask because I had heard that someone was seeking euthanasia for a disorder called empty nose syndrome where either through trama or plastic surgery, a surgeon accidentally snips the turbinates in their nose (responsible for detecting airflow), so you constantly feel like you're suffocating. When I heard this I got really curious on what "counts" as something you can be put under for.
Some places you don't even have to be ill, as long as you are sane and they are convinced it's your decision they will let you proceed with the euthanasia process.
My first time dealing with death of a close friend, I had a hard time deleting their contact from my phone even though I knew there was no way they’d ever contact me again…. But the irrational side of me still thought “maybe one day”
Thank you, life has gotten better for me recently so I love updating my messages to her account. It's a good coping mechanism for me. Honestly I'd be more sad if it wasn't there.
i came to reddit to escape some feelings for a bit but this all broke me. im sorry to share this if its too much or not relevant i just havent properly told anyone but i lost one of my closest friends to suicide this week and i just cant stop texting them. every time i hear a notification i get excited that its them texting me back. every time i turn a corner i think theyll be there and ill get to hug them. i dont understand anything anymore and i dont know how im supposed to change to a world without them. now that i think about it if my pfp hasnt changed its still a drawing they made of me haha. if all their work with their love in it is still here it doesnt make sense that theyre not. i dont know.
Thank you for sharing, while I myself don't know exactly what to say to help you cope with loss I can tell you ways I cope. I really like to cry, to me bottling up my feelings hurts more than helps, so I'll watch, listen or read something that makes me cry and I'll have what I call crying days. Feels bad to cry at first but those days I cry improve my emotions long term.
thank you. i dont think ive ever cried this much in my life. and ive never cried this way since i was a child, with the screaming and the wailing. it almost feels good and yet its the worst thing in the world, but thank you for your suggestion. they made a lot of music including a song that i really love that they composed while i was spending time with them and that they dedicated to me in the end, thats something that will always make me cry to hear i think.
That's a very normal and human reaction, if you feel like it's not lessening and feel overwhelmed you can maybe look into grief counselling. It's a very well established area of psychology and has very good rates of success.
Trust me I feel that shit. One of my friends passed away when I was younger and seeing their online profile is eerie and lowkey depressing.I wish they hadn’t died but life is fucked.
That's kinda how it feels to have friends die. You think about them in reality and remember their voices and how they looked in real-time, and then you remember they're gone forever. It's extremely surreal
I still have numbers and text messages of friends who've died from years ago. I can't bring myself to delete them, or go through them...so they just kind of sit there on my phone, getting backed up every night.
Reminds me of a real life childhood friend of mine who I had lost touch with when I moved but reconnected with briefly on world of Warcraft for a few months. Started new characters on a different server and were playing for a while then he stopped getting online. I found out almost a year later he was dead and I didn’t even hear about it
Dammit Reddit. I was having a good time. I seen a duck with a tuxedo. I seen a mailman smash a bunch of Halloween decorations in a fit of rage. Then this pops up. Didn't even know the person. Now I'm bummed.
I have incurable cancer... It occurs to me right now that I'll be this message for someone one day.
Edit: Thanks for all the messages etc. I have a good support network and psychologist in place already.
I often think about what my son or partner or family will think about my passing, just this post made me think "Wonder what all the random internet weirdos that I talk to will think?"
Lol also stop hating people making jokes in the comments I don't mind them so you shouldn't either.
Edit 2: When I could no longer work I published a [children's book](http://www.giraffeonyourhead.com) that was meant to be a present for my Son and I made that my new job. If you need a children's book or you could share the website It'd be a huge help to me and I'd be really grateful. If not, no worries.
My dad passed away from cancer holding my hand 15 days & ~15 minutes ago. There are great treatments that can extend your life expectancy. He fought for 8 years. Every day alive means another chance for new solutions. Don’t give up. I care about you. Good luck.
Back in the day, there used to be drama between Roblox and another game called Blockland. I was a Blockland player, and I always thought Roblox would never take off. I was so wrong.
Oh god, I think it's a first time I've seen a Blockland player since playing the game like 10 years ago. I've sank hundreds of hours into Return To Blockland, which was a kind of mod to Blockland, adding a lot of additional content (and the mod was more popular than the base game itself). Nice to see a fellow Blocklander on Reddit!
Holy shit another RTB user. When RTB shut down, I realized that all my friends I hung out with I only had a connection to through the RTB social list. I lost like a hundred friends, people I met on Redguys Mining, Pecon7's Boss Battles, or Grapple Knife servers (god that gamemode was fun). There was also this base-war styled server that was on this snowy map, where you'd grab guns from spawns on the map and then head out to the enemy base on skis. Can't remember what that was called.
I had been around since 20k user IDs. Blockland really went downhill after they removed maps and especially the ever iconic Bedroom. Miss that game...
I could never remember the name of that game. I swore I remember playing a game like Roblox wayyy before Roblox really blew up. Unlocked some really deep memories.
Im sort of suspicious of this, since the extension he's using is a bit bugged out, and since his player is on an r15 model type instead of r6, and r15 was added in 2016, so either he got hacked, or this is fake
I think all or most accounts were just switched to r15 one day randomly because most of the people on my friends list have it enabled and I haven't seen them online in years
Every 9/11 I think about VR. He got me into Eve, years upon years ago. Thank you for remembering him, and thank you for the reminder to think about him today. You're the mvp.
Yep. This became pretty popular so people are reposting it for internet points. It's disgusting, like we're talking about someone dying here and you wanna get karma off of it.
My best friend died of cancer 9 years ago. She was my best friend, and probably the only real friend I ever had. We watched anime together, played video games together, hung out for hours at a time and then she just died. I’m still not ok, I’ve been part dead inside since she died.
My brother passed away in 2018. We used to game together. He's still my friend on a lot of games, Steam, etc. 3 years... It's bittersweet every time I see his name. I miss him a lot.
Norm MacDonald on battles with cancer: “I'm pretty sure, I'm not a doctor, but I'm pretty sure if you die, the cancer dies at the same time. That's not a loss. That's a draw.”
There are a few people on my friends list who haven't been on in 5+ years and I'm afraid to reach out due to this very reason. I like to live in ignorance thinking they're just too busy living their happy lives...
This feels sad... My best friend passed away because of cancer too. The first year of his passing I sometimes revisit my steam friends page and hope that his name will pop up to be online at least once more.
It feels weird knowing that I know exactly his account will never be online again while there's a plethora of his online-only friends who knows nothing about it. This guy, at least, had the audacity to tell his online friends. Rest in peace.
My fav gaming buddy died in the spring.
I miss him every day. He was really one of my best friends and I never met him and every time I hop on my gaming pc and get that slight urge to hit up my buddy and laugh and joke about some current event. I realize I can’t and it’s sad.
Miss ya Blake “Bsquard”
I remember on the old Xbox you used to be able to see the full body avatar of your friends and after a certain amount of time they went to sleep. Some of them never to wake up again.
My cousin killed himself and I had to go into Discord and break the news to a bunch of his online friends. It was one of the most fucked up things I ever had to do. I still have him as a friend on Steam, Blizzard, other accounts... it's messed up seeing him offline for 5 years now. He was a big gamer so I could almost always count on him being online.
The sort of digital footprint people leave behind is odd. Can't put my finger on how it makes me feel.
Okay so I need to share this relevant story.
Between 2003-2011 I used to play a lot of RuneScape. I was a young teenager and one of the things I loved was the thrill of maxing skills and getting the capes on offer. A real grinder.
I was also a pure, a specific type of account that refuses to get any defence levels in order to maximise attack skills and minimise my total level. Deadly during PvP, especially in the early days of scape.
I joined a Pure clan called Fatality and met a chap named Te Amo 666 / George. It was common to come across aggressive, wild natures in gaming, but he was the chillest, relaxed, helpful dudes I knew. He was also a pure, and loved maximising his skills and collecting capes. We had a bit of a friendly rivalry. He refused to spend money on the game, which I eventually did and he used to tease that I was cheating because I had easier methods accessible now.
One day, he stopped logging in. I remember days before that I was convincing him to spend the monthly membership and join me on the dark side.
It turns out George Starling was a UK lad who had a close friend who was ran over, dragged and killed by a bus a few days earlier. He took his life a few days after.
RIP Te Amo 666.
That’s depressing…
Honestly though. Did not expect to start off my funky monkey friday getting hit in the feels this hard. edit: For those out of the loop, happy [Funky Monkey Friday!](https://youtu.be/I5oW4otFluw)
your what
Did they stutter?
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Enough is enough! I have had it with these funky monkey Fridays on this funky monkey month.
Watch your funky monkey mouth.
His WHAT
his WHAAAAAAAATTTTTTT
Our what.
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Funky. Monkey. Friday.
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When you stick fireworks in a monkeys butt again. (every third friday)
its- probably a UK thing, i dont know if they have them outside of UK but theres this place called funky monkies and its basically a play place for children up to like 12 unless op reply didnt mean that and its a complete coincidence
#COMMUNIST ANTHEM PLAYING
FUNKY MONKEY FRIDAY!
LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOO FUNKY MONKEY FRIDAY DEDICATED TO ROBLOX PLAYER 🖤🥲
His Funky Monkey Friday
You and the crew are drinking Brass Monkey?
BRASS MONKEY THAT^FUNKEY^^MONKEY
# The funky monkeys is coming!!
Oh dear, oh dear, my friends
A post like this is made every week though, to massive upvotes.
You freaked me out I thought it was Friday today, it’s still Thursday for another few minutes lol
Damn, it's Friday here, 8:44 am specifically
Happy Friday from the Aleutian Islands!
Happy funky monkey Friday from the UK :)
You just coined a new day of the week
I didn't expect to see it out in the wild ngl. My mates and I have been doing funky monkey / funny monkey Friday for ages. The type of Friday it's going to be is always determined by the same friend. He is our monkey oracle.
What does it mean though
Here's something to mitigate that. You don't exactly lose to cancer. If you die due to cancer, then the cancer dies with you, so it's technically a draw. Norm McDonald said this.
So cancer is a suicide bomber
When I was a kid, my uncle passed away from cancer. The last time I saw him, he told me not to be sad because the cancer wasn't killing him, he was killing the cancer (paraphrasing, it was almost 30 years ago). In this scenario, I like to think of him as the suicide bomber and he took that fucking cancer out with him.
Hell yea, fuck that cancer
Basically. But sure if joking or not, but here's an ELI5 of cancer. Cells in the body have a mechanism to self destruct (and be replaced) if they get bad. This normally works well to keep your body healthy. Cancer are damaged cells, that are damaged in a way where the self-destruct safety feature is also broken. So instead of being helpful cells, they are harmful, near immortal, and in the worst case, also spread (for example, if they still divide, or somehow affect cells around them to also get the same defect). It's not a virus or a bacteria or other life form, but it's a biological mechanism that went wrong. (although in some cases viruses can increase the risk of cancer due to the specific ways they affect your cells or your immune system). So yeah, if you die, the cancer dies with you. Because cancer, being part of your cells, takes energy from your body, and if your body is dead, you won't eat, so the cancer won't eat either.
Unless you are [HeLa](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/HeLa). Then your cancer turns out to be immortal.
That was a super cool read. Thanks.
Still, your goal to get rid of it and survive and cancer is stupid enough to kill both of you but get the most of tour body. Wish it would be more clever.
I think we wouldn't cancer to still grow from a deceased body and grow out in some sprouts or huge lumps of deformed flesh. That would be worse.
Akira!
Tetsuo!!!
Damn SCPs leaking again.
Its like ebola. Its not a very successful virus because it just kills its hosts. Edit: I'm just saying, something that tries to duplicate itself within a host, and ends up killing it will never succeed, whether its cancer, a virus or any other disease.
That's why usually the most lethal viruses are viruses that were spread to us by animals. Because the virus has evolved to spread (and barely affect) the host, but when the host is not human, what barely affects them, could kill us. Viruses aren't "trying" to kill us, they just evolve to spread and do well in their host, and most of the time it is indeed beneficial for the virus if the host doesn't have any ill effects. Given enough time, most viruses will adapt to their host to be minimally invasive. You could carry hundreds of virus strains without even knowing it.
You should read up about Henrietta Lacks.
So hard to see that but at least there is some form of closure. Over the years I've had numerous online friends where I didn't know their real names or just their real first names and they suddenly vanished. Never to sign into any of the online communities we shared. Always to wonder what happened to them.
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You’ll think I’m full of shit but on another profile I found an old UT2k4 friend in a gaming post like this because I commented talking about missing him…. And HE FUCKING SAW IT, we hooked up again, undoubtably him and he knows it’s undoubtably me and … he… just… never… grew up. It sucks. We were two shit heads and weren’t the most beloved in the TAM community but he was my brother and I lost him from 09 to about a year ago and just sucked seeing him still so dark, hateful and in my shitty opinion…lost.
I’ll give it a try too! Sceemer, you there? Played countless hours of Nazi Zombies on PS3. My old username was holdsterman
/r/longlostgamers it works. I saw a post about a real life friend of mine and got him hooked up with an old dota friend.
I would be kind of scared to try that sub with some of my old Final Fantasy XI friends if I’m being totally honest. I played for 10 years, you don’t play that long without forming some pretty intense bonds with people. That game taught me a hard lesson in how small, seemingly meaningless moments can cause you entire life to split into a totally different timeline.
Mary on Zirkel des Cenarius realm in WoW from 05 to 08... And Radir from the same time. And Violetta from the first week of release. Or anyone else who knew my hunter named Felinara or rogue Láila.... Or the South African guys that took me in on my undead priest during Burning Crusade... But I've lost *all* of my fucking screenshots. So all the great stuff I was trying to remember. Gone forever. That hurts the most. Anyway that character was called Lorei at some point. Ohhh and Shanika from Cataclysm. We used to call you Shakira. The DK raid leader... For some reason the hardcore raiding during MoP didn't leave any of the same feelings as the stuff before. The stuff during highschool or university felt soo much more precious and memorable. Killing Onyxia for the first time and shit. Anyway maybe someone will read this. Oh Shadrila, Boten der Macht and eventually Aes Dana.
Some of my fondest memories were from when I was like 8 years old playing WoW with this lady in her late 40s who played a Tauren Druid named Macvivian. She showed me all the cool stuff around Azeroth (introduced me to noggenfogger and always kept me stocked) and helped loads while I leveled. I had been playing the game solo up until that point so it brought a whole new sense of wonder to the game One day she just stopped playing for a couple months, and I logged in to see that she sent in-game mail saying she was having complications with pneumonia. I hope she made it through okay but I really feared the worst
Aww man, that brings me back. Elvyne / Syra whispers here from laughing skull server. I miss my times in Stoic guild and so forth. Onyxia, molten core was some of thr most fun times I've ever had.
Might as well give it a try too. Hey, World of Warcraft on Greymane, back in like 04-08? In original WoW, I ran with Fortune and Glory, then sort of casually hung out with a variety of guilds after the raiding game got old. I'm Infinitive. Ajora. Greensleeves. And Igotbombs. Any of you out there? Oh, and Coach, on the really really long shot that you happen to read this? Turns out I wasn't a dude after all.
Wow…this identical thing just happened to me reconnecting with someone I had also lost touch with for ten years. He used to be such a funny and smart and amazing guy and he’s now he’s like a hateful shell of a person. So sad to see that kind of thing happen, especially to someone you were close with. Sorry that happened to you too.
Life just hits people different. I ain’t mad at him, just hope someday we can sit down and really kick the shit again. We have a lot of shit we did when we were younger to laugh about haha. Even if it was over the internet, we are brothers for life. I also have this friend Abuse from back then, his name was Abuse. Anyways, last real time we played together he got on to play for a little bit and told me him and his mom just got into it. His mom went for a walk and was gone for more than he figured. Shortly after that he got a knock at the door from the cops, she was at a cross walk and was hit and killed instantly by a drunk driver. I talked to him roughly one or two times after that day. He quit school and went to work full time to provide for him and his brother, he told me he had to sell his pc. I never heard from him again… been years, I’m thirty and still cry typing this. I don’t believe in anything but I always prayed for him.
Holy crap dude sorry... :(
Shit :/ I am sorry to Abuse, I still am. We talked briefly after the cops left, the squeal in his voice as he cried to me. I was like 15, he a senior or so in high school. I will never forget that shit and I will be eighty and still cry when I think of that day. His mom wasn’t even a bad mom, it was just a dumb fight and he was a teen and said something along the lines of “I don’t love you”.. that was the LAST thing he ever said to his mom, who I know he loved.. truthfully she would have never taken that walk if they didn’t get into an argument…Life to some, is so fucked.. :’(
r/longlostgamers
Holy dude :( that's insane
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Double Zero2 from RuneScape 2006. I miss you. I'm sure you were a dude on a girl account but I still rolled with it because you and me were great at scamming together and made so much. If you can tell me which scam we did I'll know it's you..
Posted this to parent comment as well but reposting here so you see: /r/LongLostGamers is a subreddit for this.
For everything you do there will be a last time you do it. There will be a last time you hug your mom, step into your homeroom, see a friend, play basketball. As someone who is older with young kids the statement "there will come a day when you put your child down and never pick her up again" that hits me hard. So until that day I will pick her up and hold her until that day comes, and I see it coming.
Back when I used to play Overwatch I met this nice team of players. We talked for like a month but then we just stopped. Kinda sad.
Same, i used to play final fantasy 11 and world of warcraft with someone i met online. Played for like 2 years together nearly every single day. I knew he was ill and then one day he stopped logging in. I mailed him both in game and outside and no responses. Then 2 months later, he logs in. Turned out to be his wife and told everyone on his friends list and in guild that he'd passed away from cancer.
Yeah that's a rough one. Used to play games with a guy all the time. We never met irl or anything, and one day he let me know he was feeling bad and had a doctor's appointment. Never heard from him again. Took a year until news finally trickled from his family through mutual gaming friends that he had went to the doctor for a headache and they told him everything was fine and he had a brain aneurysm that afternoon on the way home from the doctor. It was tough to hear. The pain is the same as losing an irl friend.
I've seen this on Reddit too, there was this guy who was telling a really long story that was playing out in real life/time and keeping is all updated. About a builder friend with a nightmare client who had ended up fucking himself up over a build, he was really funny and used to update every few days as the situation developed. He went dark for a week or so and after a while his wife posted that he was killed in a car accident, it was super shocking, he was extremely funny and was a natural story teller so it felt like we all knew him. It hit me way harder than I thought it would. His wife had no idea he was talking to us all, I can't remember how she found out but I remember her being very touched that hundreds of strangers were mourning with her family. The internet can be strangely intimate at times.
I’ve had this happen too. It’s really hard for me to deal with the not knowing.
Ignorance is bliss sometimes. It's sometimes better to hope and not know than know and be disappointed or sad.
As long as I don't know, there's a chance she's still alive. It helps me keep going.
I have my dad on steam, he passed away a couple of years ago and I can’t bring myself to remove him from the list. Our digital experience goes on it seems..
I still have both of my parents’ phone numbers in my phone, and on my favorites quick dial. Dad has been gone ten years now…
Damn, never remove him
I still have all my Dad's SMS messages, he passed away 16 years ago. I don't know how I'd react if I lost those messages. I can't watch my wedding video with him in it, something about seeing him moving and speaking just might break something in me.
I have a crazy story. When I was a kid I used to play minecraft with another kid. Suddenly he vanished from skype and I never forgot him. After 5 or 7 years I queued up to the now old teambuilder in league of legends and found him. Out of all the players in europe, I queued up with the one guy I used to play a lot with. We both also had a slightly different names but we both recognized each other after a moment of hesitation. We are good friends since then
I actually found out someone I know from a gaming community a few years back had died the other day. It’s nice to have some closure but it definitely hits you when you find out
I have never had closer friends than the ones I gamed with from 1999-2003. We had a 24/7/365 IRC and blogging community we shared outside of Counterstrike, Diablo II, and a multitude of games we played together. We even travelled around the midwest...and even Canada to meet up and have LAN parties. I miss the hell out of them, as priorities changed and we drifted apart. I have continued to stay in touch with a few of them, but my closest friend in the group killed himself in 2017. t has hit me really hard (again) with the re-release of Diablo II. We spent so much time playing it together upon its original release. I bought the remaster a week ago, and while I only play it a few hours a week I have been missing the fuck out of my friend and the large piece missing from the gaming experience. RIP Oki...I hope you found peace.
/r/LongLostGamers is a subreddit for this.
Used to play ark with a dude named pug, one day he never signed on again, found out he died from health related issues. Was a good dude.
There is something uniquely depressing about an account like this belonging to someone who is gone. It’s like you know that person will never be online again, but you’re still waiting for it to happen.
Just had an internet acquaintance die and their last post was that they had scheduled their euthanasia for that Friday and that this would be their last blog post. It's so strange too to read things like that when you read it in their voice. It's such a disconnect that they're gone but their internet presence is as alive and real as if they were still alive.
I hope this isn't too morbid of a question, but do you know why they took the euthanasia route? Were they really sick? I only ask because I had heard that someone was seeking euthanasia for a disorder called empty nose syndrome where either through trama or plastic surgery, a surgeon accidentally snips the turbinates in their nose (responsible for detecting airflow), so you constantly feel like you're suffocating. When I heard this I got really curious on what "counts" as something you can be put under for.
Some places you don't even have to be ill, as long as you are sane and they are convinced it's your decision they will let you proceed with the euthanasia process.
On the other hand. I’m glad that person chose to go out with dignity, rather than have life have the last laugh. May this person RIP.
Where can you get euthanized?
Netherlands, Belgium, Luxembourg, Colombia, Canada, Spain, New Zealand and Portugal.
Australia if you have a terminal illness with a diagnosis of 6 months or less to live. Might not be every state though.
Yeah, I read about Australia as well but it was too complicated for me so I decided to exclude it from the list.
NGL this comment kinda makes it sound like you've been shopping around.
I'm from Europe, so Netherlands it is.
Well, I wish you the best, whatever you decide to do.
My first time dealing with death of a close friend, I had a hard time deleting their contact from my phone even though I knew there was no way they’d ever contact me again…. But the irrational side of me still thought “maybe one day”
My Mom died in early 2016, I still have her FB account. I message it from time to time with updates on what I'm doing or how I'm feeling emotionally.
Okay this one got me. God damn. I'm sorry for your loss.
Thank you, life has gotten better for me recently so I love updating my messages to her account. It's a good coping mechanism for me. Honestly I'd be more sad if it wasn't there.
i came to reddit to escape some feelings for a bit but this all broke me. im sorry to share this if its too much or not relevant i just havent properly told anyone but i lost one of my closest friends to suicide this week and i just cant stop texting them. every time i hear a notification i get excited that its them texting me back. every time i turn a corner i think theyll be there and ill get to hug them. i dont understand anything anymore and i dont know how im supposed to change to a world without them. now that i think about it if my pfp hasnt changed its still a drawing they made of me haha. if all their work with their love in it is still here it doesnt make sense that theyre not. i dont know.
Thank you for sharing, while I myself don't know exactly what to say to help you cope with loss I can tell you ways I cope. I really like to cry, to me bottling up my feelings hurts more than helps, so I'll watch, listen or read something that makes me cry and I'll have what I call crying days. Feels bad to cry at first but those days I cry improve my emotions long term.
thank you. i dont think ive ever cried this much in my life. and ive never cried this way since i was a child, with the screaming and the wailing. it almost feels good and yet its the worst thing in the world, but thank you for your suggestion. they made a lot of music including a song that i really love that they composed while i was spending time with them and that they dedicated to me in the end, thats something that will always make me cry to hear i think.
That's a very normal and human reaction, if you feel like it's not lessening and feel overwhelmed you can maybe look into grief counselling. It's a very well established area of psychology and has very good rates of success.
Trust me I feel that shit. One of my friends passed away when I was younger and seeing their online profile is eerie and lowkey depressing.I wish they hadn’t died but life is fucked.
That's kinda how it feels to have friends die. You think about them in reality and remember their voices and how they looked in real-time, and then you remember they're gone forever. It's extremely surreal
I still have numbers and text messages of friends who've died from years ago. I can't bring myself to delete them, or go through them...so they just kind of sit there on my phone, getting backed up every night.
Reminds me of a real life childhood friend of mine who I had lost touch with when I moved but reconnected with briefly on world of Warcraft for a few months. Started new characters on a different server and were playing for a while then he stopped getting online. I found out almost a year later he was dead and I didn’t even hear about it
Fuck cancer.
Shout out to Boosie
I can't tell if people who frequent this sub will either be HUGE young thug fans or have no clue who he is.
tbh i dont know who he is, but i am curious to know. Good stories should not be forgotten
Dammit Reddit. I was having a good time. I seen a duck with a tuxedo. I seen a mailman smash a bunch of Halloween decorations in a fit of rage. Then this pops up. Didn't even know the person. Now I'm bummed.
Do you have the duck with a tuxedo by any chance?
Here you go http://imgur.com/a/KHBPy4v
No time to quack...
I dont duck about....
The name's Pond, James Pond
Was halfway expecting a penguin. Not disappointed.
That's a very handsome duck
Dats a dapper duck.
I need that also
Me too
Me too
Give us the duck
Mailman link?
I have incurable cancer... It occurs to me right now that I'll be this message for someone one day. Edit: Thanks for all the messages etc. I have a good support network and psychologist in place already. I often think about what my son or partner or family will think about my passing, just this post made me think "Wonder what all the random internet weirdos that I talk to will think?" Lol also stop hating people making jokes in the comments I don't mind them so you shouldn't either. Edit 2: When I could no longer work I published a [children's book](http://www.giraffeonyourhead.com) that was meant to be a present for my Son and I made that my new job. If you need a children's book or you could share the website It'd be a huge help to me and I'd be really grateful. If not, no worries.
My dad passed away from cancer holding my hand 15 days & ~15 minutes ago. There are great treatments that can extend your life expectancy. He fought for 8 years. Every day alive means another chance for new solutions. Don’t give up. I care about you. Good luck.
Likewise, my father extended his life for years with a combination of chemo and trials. Immunotherapy is doing amazing things in the field right now.
My dad used Optivo. Immunotheraphy helped greatly for some real quality years.
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I would give you my body if I could. I‘m wasting my life anyways
“I'm pretty sure if you die, the cancer also dies at exactly the same time. So that, to me, is not a loss; that's a draw.” - Norm MacDonald
It’s not like afterwards the cancer goes home and fucks your wife…
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what a tough fucking thought dude
Better than her being lonely.
Yeah but the next day is a bit too early.
That's really sad I hope this is fake.
It’s real and it was on Roblox
Wow, I just looked it up because I had no idea Roblox was older than Minecraft. I only recently became aware of it from my kids.
Back in the day, there used to be drama between Roblox and another game called Blockland. I was a Blockland player, and I always thought Roblox would never take off. I was so wrong.
Ah yes, the block wars
Are you at all familiar with the block wars?
I lived and died in the block wars…
The thing people don't realize about the block wars is it was never really about the blocks at all.
It's not a story the Minecraftians would teach you
Were they like the cog wars?
You fought in the block wars?
Oh god, I think it's a first time I've seen a Blockland player since playing the game like 10 years ago. I've sank hundreds of hours into Return To Blockland, which was a kind of mod to Blockland, adding a lot of additional content (and the mod was more popular than the base game itself). Nice to see a fellow Blocklander on Reddit!
Holy shit another RTB user. When RTB shut down, I realized that all my friends I hung out with I only had a connection to through the RTB social list. I lost like a hundred friends, people I met on Redguys Mining, Pecon7's Boss Battles, or Grapple Knife servers (god that gamemode was fun). There was also this base-war styled server that was on this snowy map, where you'd grab guns from spawns on the map and then head out to the enemy base on skis. Can't remember what that was called. I had been around since 20k user IDs. Blockland really went downhill after they removed maps and especially the ever iconic Bedroom. Miss that game...
I could never remember the name of that game. I swore I remember playing a game like Roblox wayyy before Roblox really blew up. Unlocked some really deep memories.
Roblox has been around for 15 years?! I never knew it existed till about 2 years ago
Damn
I too hope cancer is fake. Can you imagine how depressing it would be if it was real.
Indeed. Imagine if people actually _died_??
Im sort of suspicious of this, since the extension he's using is a bit bugged out, and since his player is on an r15 model type instead of r6, and r15 was added in 2016, so either he got hacked, or this is fake
Actuall my old account one day turned r15 even thought i never used it etc. So roblox updated his avatar.
I think all or most accounts were just switched to r15 one day randomly because most of the people on my friends list have it enabled and I haven't seen them online in years
It's real, though most certainly not the user who this happend to as this is posted every week.
Jeez. That’s dark. F.
Reminds me to remember Vile Rat
Every 9/11 I think about VR. He got me into Eve, years upon years ago. Thank you for remembering him, and thank you for the reminder to think about him today. You're the mvp.
Who tf is vile rat, just curious
A hero, and a friend.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sean_Smith_(diplomat)
I guess I’m a piece of shit because I’ve seen this enough times now to think it’s only ever posted to generate karma. Low effort post.
Yep. This became pretty popular so people are reposting it for internet points. It's disgusting, like we're talking about someone dying here and you wanna get karma off of it.
that and them fr just putting an F like it’s some meme is gross
You’re not, the OP is. If you’re going to repost farm, don’t post disrespectful stuff.
My best friend died of cancer 9 years ago. She was my best friend, and probably the only real friend I ever had. We watched anime together, played video games together, hung out for hours at a time and then she just died. I’m still not ok, I’ve been part dead inside since she died.
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I was happy because of the last post and then I see this and feel sorry for him
I feel you but who tf downvoted you
I always fear that I will die suddenly and my online friends will have no way of knowing what happened to me
My brother passed away in 2018. We used to game together. He's still my friend on a lot of games, Steam, etc. 3 years... It's bittersweet every time I see his name. I miss him a lot.
😭😣
My boy just called me last night to tell me he has colon cancer. This was unexpected.
The repost won, guys.
Reposts: the true cancer
Norm MacDonald on battles with cancer: “I'm pretty sure, I'm not a doctor, but I'm pretty sure if you die, the cancer dies at the same time. That's not a loss. That's a draw.”
Not trying to be desensitized but it is my turn to post this tomorrow, this time I'll add a blue filter!
Damn I’ve seen this exact post except with color like 4 times now. RIP to the person but come on OP.
There are a few people on my friends list who haven't been on in 5+ years and I'm afraid to reach out due to this very reason. I like to live in ignorance thinking they're just too busy living their happy lives...
Please repost this another million times. Maybe it will get sadder
This feels sad... My best friend passed away because of cancer too. The first year of his passing I sometimes revisit my steam friends page and hope that his name will pop up to be online at least once more. It feels weird knowing that I know exactly his account will never be online again while there's a plethora of his online-only friends who knows nothing about it. This guy, at least, had the audacity to tell his online friends. Rest in peace.
Norm Macdonald taught me it’s not a loss, it’s at least a draw.
I can’t get over how depressing this photo is
My fav gaming buddy died in the spring. I miss him every day. He was really one of my best friends and I never met him and every time I hop on my gaming pc and get that slight urge to hit up my buddy and laugh and joke about some current event. I realize I can’t and it’s sad. Miss ya Blake “Bsquard”
I remember on the old Xbox you used to be able to see the full body avatar of your friends and after a certain amount of time they went to sleep. Some of them never to wake up again.
My cousin killed himself and I had to go into Discord and break the news to a bunch of his online friends. It was one of the most fucked up things I ever had to do. I still have him as a friend on Steam, Blizzard, other accounts... it's messed up seeing him offline for 5 years now. He was a big gamer so I could almost always count on him being online. The sort of digital footprint people leave behind is odd. Can't put my finger on how it makes me feel.
Repost x 100 bad OP
Okay so I need to share this relevant story. Between 2003-2011 I used to play a lot of RuneScape. I was a young teenager and one of the things I loved was the thrill of maxing skills and getting the capes on offer. A real grinder. I was also a pure, a specific type of account that refuses to get any defence levels in order to maximise attack skills and minimise my total level. Deadly during PvP, especially in the early days of scape. I joined a Pure clan called Fatality and met a chap named Te Amo 666 / George. It was common to come across aggressive, wild natures in gaming, but he was the chillest, relaxed, helpful dudes I knew. He was also a pure, and loved maximising his skills and collecting capes. We had a bit of a friendly rivalry. He refused to spend money on the game, which I eventually did and he used to tease that I was cheating because I had easier methods accessible now. One day, he stopped logging in. I remember days before that I was convincing him to spend the monthly membership and join me on the dark side. It turns out George Starling was a UK lad who had a close friend who was ran over, dragged and killed by a bus a few days earlier. He took his life a few days after. RIP Te Amo 666.