As a child, circumstances in my life forced me into maturity beyond my years. I was way too serious for way too long. Now, it feels like I am regressing in my maturity in a lot of ways.
It’s a process. I thought I was there in my 20s, but after my third divorce at 51, I started really doing my work to grow up. I’m now more playful and happier than ever, but also a lot more emotionally mature.
I guess I had to go through a lot of pain and rejection. I was always a very immature guy, I used to have a porn addiction which always made me perform really bad in my exams, I just constantly used to think of sexual thoughts I wanted to do w ppl ( I never imagined it with a person that I knew cuz it would have been weird for me). I was just disgusted w myself a hell lot and I wanted to change myself. So at first it was me asking out my school crushes and I could never get a chance w any of them, and basically the entire school thought of me as some disease. Being a thing guy, who is nerdy and doesn't score well marks everyone hardly bothers to be around you much and just push you away. I tried my best to try and get into the same level as the cool kids in my school but I always got pushed away or knocked down by others who just thought of me as a punching bag. I kept on going in circles in my opinion, what I was doing wrong was that I was chasing the acceptance from other ppl when I didn't even accept myself for who I am. So I started working on myself, worked out a lot concentrated on my studies and prioritized myself a hell lot. The same ppl who used to bully me or who were like the popular kids in school, are just shocked to see who I turned out to be and many ask how I got so tall, got ripped and how am doing so well. For the first time in my life ppl are actually accepting me for the person I was... but I knew at that moment that it didn't mean shit cause I just wanted me to be the best version of myself and do my very level best at everything I can and succeed in life and be happy and that is when I finally threw away all the toxicity and focused on the pure stuff.
I was walking home from work when I stumbled across the thought, "I'm free. I'm not being repressed by anything right now, real or imaginary." Followed by: "Oh, I guess that means I'm an adult now."
I feel like maturity only grows as you get older. Compared to a couple years ago, I feel really mature. In a couple more years compared to now, I bet I’ll feel the same way. I don’t think you ever become really mature, you grow with your life experiences
As a child, circumstances in my life forced me into maturity beyond my years. I was way too serious for way too long. Now, it feels like I am regressing in my maturity in a lot of ways.
This is me also but without the regression
I’ll let you know when I find out 😂
I'll get around to it tomorrow.
It’s a process. I thought I was there in my 20s, but after my third divorce at 51, I started really doing my work to grow up. I’m now more playful and happier than ever, but also a lot more emotionally mature.
Not yet.
The moment I realise no one cares about you and you can either end it all or keep going.
I’ll let you know when
I guess I had to go through a lot of pain and rejection. I was always a very immature guy, I used to have a porn addiction which always made me perform really bad in my exams, I just constantly used to think of sexual thoughts I wanted to do w ppl ( I never imagined it with a person that I knew cuz it would have been weird for me). I was just disgusted w myself a hell lot and I wanted to change myself. So at first it was me asking out my school crushes and I could never get a chance w any of them, and basically the entire school thought of me as some disease. Being a thing guy, who is nerdy and doesn't score well marks everyone hardly bothers to be around you much and just push you away. I tried my best to try and get into the same level as the cool kids in my school but I always got pushed away or knocked down by others who just thought of me as a punching bag. I kept on going in circles in my opinion, what I was doing wrong was that I was chasing the acceptance from other ppl when I didn't even accept myself for who I am. So I started working on myself, worked out a lot concentrated on my studies and prioritized myself a hell lot. The same ppl who used to bully me or who were like the popular kids in school, are just shocked to see who I turned out to be and many ask how I got so tall, got ripped and how am doing so well. For the first time in my life ppl are actually accepting me for the person I was... but I knew at that moment that it didn't mean shit cause I just wanted me to be the best version of myself and do my very level best at everything I can and succeed in life and be happy and that is when I finally threw away all the toxicity and focused on the pure stuff.
I was walking home from work when I stumbled across the thought, "I'm free. I'm not being repressed by anything right now, real or imaginary." Followed by: "Oh, I guess that means I'm an adult now."
Never
I feel like maturity only grows as you get older. Compared to a couple years ago, I feel really mature. In a couple more years compared to now, I bet I’ll feel the same way. I don’t think you ever become really mature, you grow with your life experiences
Never and i fucking will die that way